#I'm funny and depressed

[mercifullymad]

i feel passionately about the need to enfold people experiencing (or diagnosed) with "just" depression or anxiety into the mad pride project. the more people who view themselves as mad, the better. much as the rhetorical move from "neurotypical" to "neuroconforming" emphasizes the artifice & social construction of "neurotypicality," so too will expanding identification as "mad" expose the sane/mad dichotomy as a false one.

it's true that (some) people with "just" depression and/or anxiety have an easier time navigating the psych system than people who have more stigmatized diagnoses. but this is not to say that they necessarily have an easy time — the carceral psych system is hostile to everyone subsumed by it, even the most "privileged" patients. we should of course critique & examine how our experiences are shaped by various intersections of privilege, but we cannot forget or ignore how someone with "just" a depression/anxiety diagnosis can still experience the full force of the carceral psych system brought down upon them (including but not limited to involuntary institutionalization, police intervention, & forced medication or other forced treatment).

we must encourage, if not insist, that those with the least-stigmatized diagnoses view their difficult experiences navigating the psych system as bound up with the liberation of people who have more stigmatized diagnoses &, often, a more violent experience of the psych system. we need more people to drop the "i have anxiety/depression but i'm not crazy" line and say loudly, "i have anxiety/depression & i am crazy. my access to just treatment is linked to the conditions of all other crazy people, who are my allies, peers, & friends. we are united in our cause & we all deserve a more liberating system of care."

#mad pride #mad liberation #disability justice #the way that one IG influencer who called depression & anxiety “vanilla” diagnoses has lived rent-free in my mind for the past five years.. #i was soooo upset by that for like three years & now i'm like. okay. it is a little funny. #but also i do think that somewhere in the 'destigmatization'/commodification of anxiety/depression (treatment) #we have lost the plot & forgotten that 'just' these experiences on their own can still be deeply distressing & chronic & endangering #& can make people (be viewed as) just as 'crazy' as someone with a more stigmatized diagnosis #& for me personally my experiences of anxiety & depression have been far more disabling than anything else #sorry i keep editing this post to correct typos...story of my life

[prwlnglthr]

over on my fe twitter, I'd share wips and one-night doodles-sketches-what-will-yous with my circle. circles died :( so here's the highlight reel!!

#sylvain jose gautier #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #fe3h #fire emblem #dimitri fire emblem #dimileth #byleth eisner #sure good enough! #spx femblem #spx fanart #spx digishit #if you ask nicely (or say you're cold at all) you can wear the funny hat #depressive slump not real only mimi real only mimi real only mimi real I'm grabbing the mirror and shaking it #ahhh the horror the horror Anyway! I love booboo kittyfuck my king booboo kittyfuck!

[arty-tardigrade]

I've been thinking about him again lately.

#camp camp #cc max #camp camp fanart #every couple of months he pops back into my brain and I just have to draw him #the smol angery floof #it's funny my mental health has been so bad lately and I'm struggling to draw anything #but he just happened #max supersedes my depression and I love him for that

[my-castles-crumbling]

reblog to give the person you reblogged this from a little dose of dopamine because god knows we all fucking need it right now.

#depression #depressed #reblog if you agree #funny things #reblog if #reblog #lol #i think i'm funny #funny #funny stuff #funny post

[xmrnothingx]

An Eldar and an Ork from Warhammer 40k

been getting into Warhammer 40k a bit recently playing Dawn of War, was in the mood to recreate this meme but with an Ork and an Eldar.

based on this meme:

#warhammer #warhammer 40k #Eldar #Ork #I'm still pretty surface level #I tend to stay away from edgy stuff because of my own depression #so I probably won't go deeper than the games I play #Orks are funny though

[hollowaluminumvessel]

if I go to bed without sharing I will just forget, but I just realized that Charlie keeps waiting on other people to tell him his birthday. like today, he told Wilbur "well, it started on my birthday, which is..?" I think- and correct me if I'm wrong, but actually dont- that this is Charlie's mind grasping at anything that would make him still human. basically, he's not slimecicle anymore, and his subconscious doesn't like that, so it fights back. it's trying to find any semblance of his humanity to hold on to, to prove he was- at least once- a real person.

i never want this arc to end

#slimecicle #qsmp #q!slimecicle #qsmp slimecicle #q!Wilbur #this is really depressing honestly #I'm pretty sure his bday is Nov. 12 btw #Wil said July 2nd #literally me #you wanna hear my other theory? #the code is an allegory for autism #not my theory but honestly it's too funny to leave #I can show a picture if you like #written while listening to Toshifumi Hinata #I love classical #no joke

[copingwithmemes]

#GOD I'M SO MAD #I TRUSTED THEM #THEY PROMISED TO BE THERE FOR ME #WHAT THE FUCK #memes #meme #funny #dark memes #relatable memes #humor #ptsd memes #ptsd #trauma memes #trauma #lol #funny memes #dark humor #anxiety memes #depression memes #fake friends #AWDJAOFJAFJFKWJFALKFJ FUCK THEM

[gideonisms]

Broke down and am rereading gtn again for emotional support. anyway after reading ntn it's a whole different experience like OH every time she's funny at the beginning of this it's a tarp she's using to cover her insane amount of childhood trauma. "She got the depression" wasn't just a side note like our girl is suffering....People are making decisions about her in front of her and all she's got is a huge sword and a bad attitude to hold off that existential despair

#this hits different. kiriona was so in character tbh #i'm. in pain #i knew this but her narration is so funny & charming that you forget that leading up to the end of gtn she was. massively depressed #her suicide didn't come out of nowhere like she has had no ability to make her own decisions ever.....

[katrantsasoiaf]

hotd as troubled birds (11/?) (ft. the grandchildren of jaehaerys i)

#this is more depressing than funny #sorry #i'm not actually sorry #aemma arryn #rhaenys targaryen #rhaenys the queen who never was #viserys i targaryen #daemon targaryen #house of the dragon #hotd #asoiaf #game of thrones #valyrianscrolls #house targaryen #hotd as troubled birds

[feydfuckernation]

sweeney todd 2023 + tumblr text posts

#i shit you not i have been trying to make this post for three weeks #josh groban #annaleigh ashford #sweeney todd #sweeney todd revival #tag yourself i'm depressed goblin nightmare man and jigsaw voice hello bestie #also yes i threw in one from the interview itself idc #it was 1am and i thought it was funny so i kept it lfkjsdaf

[bruhstation]

Curious question, what exactly is Spencer's (more lore-y/important) role within CSTM besides from (most likely) being the "storywise a well-written villain, irl just a cocky idiot"

Like I mean he did try to scrap/cause harm to Hiro, but any other crimes he's done to affect other characters' arcs or/and big plots?

( -🧀non)

spencer's most notable influence was in the HOTR arc. story-wise, he is supposed to challenge hiro's values and give the older man a metaphorical slap to the face (funnily enough, spencer chasing hiro around the island reminded hiro that he still wanted to live and gave him a reason to carry on despite losing his family and being a patron of the gold dust). spencer's biggest crime is trying to hunt down hiro. he doesn't get any more worse than that, luckily. I've mentioned his other disrespectful as hell actions multiple times in this blog too but atp it's more annoying than insensitive or offensive to gordon and scott

writing sense I wanted to make spencer gordon's antithesis. the basis is that "spencer is what gordon could've turned out had it not been for his loved ones" and I just wrote what I wanted to write! they represent both sides of the gresley family -- gordon grew up with a loving family, spencer grew up in an environment where his relatives would rip each other apart for land and inheritance. gordon lost his family members bit by bit while spencer's still standing (with a few loses). gordon and spencer both heavily struggled with maintaining long-term friendships in their youths, but while gordon eventually hardened his heart and let his short lived connections come and go, spencer messed with people just to feel some sort of relief in his heart. both gordon and spencer are old pompous showoffs, but while gordon strived to become a better person because he realizes that he doesn't want to lose the people important to him anymore, spencer gave up on correcting himself because he thinks he's way too far gone (and being mean is way easier). then hiro came to view

spencer's a fun character. he makes me a bit sad. then I remember that he visits his cousin's funerals for the food and it makes me stifle my laughter like that one ish*wspeed gif

#asks #cheese anon #casa tidmouth #ttte spencer #its funny how hiro is like so unbothered by spencer by the time the hotr arc is over #even thinks of him as a friend and wanted to study him while spencer's like GET AWAY FROM MEEEE (I do like the attention though.) #hiro: I'm so depressed. I lost my family. my house. I don't know anyone and nobody knows me. if only I joined my family #spencer: you should’ve joined your family #hiro in n*co r*bin's voice: I WANT TO LIVE! I WANT TO LIIIIIVEEEE!!!!!! #spencer also warmed up to gordon in act 2 and started to cut out the hater behavior. still a hater though but he's doing sliiiightly better #also he has npd and aspd just like me which is why hes my utmost beloathed character

[girlcalledwhatsername]

One of those "is it worth it" debates i find myself having with myself is about mental health related posts that may make good points otherwise but subscribe heavily to and reference and frame mental illness through the biomedical model and the widespread (but false) idea that a chemical imbalance causes these issues. Comprehensive explanation for this + resources here. (Also worth looking into this activist's work where she describes what paychiatric gaslighting looks like)

The thing is I do not want to spread that misinformation anymore. It was presented to me as fact despite there being little proof of it, for a long time in my life from psychology teachers to therapists to psychiatrists of course. Just treated as a natural fact when it was literally pseudoscience on the same level as most rudimentary psychoanalysis.

So I have to make the decision to either simply not reblog it and therefore not engage with the wider mental health discourse and let people be mistaken from what is possibly just an honest mistake as something that has been taught to us all so so largely, they very well might just honestly not know it not be true, and then by leaving it alone I am letting that myth perpetuate from well-meaning people...

Or...

I actually correct the person, get a bunch of people who find their worldview so suddenly challenged being angry about it and calling me anti science as often happens and get retraumatised over my experiences with Psychiatric abuse at large.

And although I mostly choose the former and simply don't engage it leaves me feeling uneasy because I know I was that person once who didn't think to question the validity of chemical imbalance theories and if someone had told me about it honestly it would have saved me a world of pain. But too many people are progressive only on the surface and hate to have to consider abolitionist approaches to oppressive systems, too many people genuinely believe a host of more stigmatised symptoms and disorders to be deserving of incarceration or erasure, and i have no way of knowing who these people would be. And this is why pop psychology and liberal mental health advocates have run the anti-psych movement into the shadows - a movement to which we owe every step of our liberation as mentally ill people.

So how do you make this a bigger conversation again?

Like. Tell me this isn't blatantly a mass misinformation campaign at this point

[linked here]

#mental health stuff #anti psych #anti psychiatry #mental health advocacy #neurodivergent #actually autistic #psychotic #psychosis #bipolar #depression #mad liberation #bpd #npd #adhd #adhd tag #funny thing is i think talking about shit in terms of 'ooh neurotransmitters' and 'brain chemistry' makes it sound believable and sciency #because that was Psychiatry's attempt to align itself with the natural sciences #and we all fall for it! #oh they're talking about chemicals they must be right they must know what they're talking about #I'm sorry but serotonin imbalance doesn't cause depression #what it does do is give you that headache you get when you oversleep trivia of the day

[non-bird-nary]

this will surely go well

#pathologic #pathologic classic hd #мор утопия #digital drawing #fanart #is it fanart if it's just you? #rj arts #rj originals #fun fact the file is named fix your depression with the plague because i'm funny like that #might fuck around and make one for mgr because that's also been Fixing Me #rj rambles in tags #my art

[ihideinbathroomsatparties]

remember when they tried to make Hank a disgusting alcoholic but in order to keep it kid friendly they had him addicted to hot sauce instead of actual alcohol

#art #Finding Nemo #Finding Dory #bc I personally can never forget #iirc the primary reason they cut it was because they couldn't figure out how to make it more funny than it was depressing #which... fair #tho I'm now realizing there's also the fact that Hank would have ended up essentially drunk driving at one point if they had kept it in #and truly what is reckless like placing an angry old drunken animal behind the wheel of an enormous truck on the freeway #but like. in any other context... #the image of Hank drunkenly shuffling around while slamming down bottles of hot sauce is pretty funny #also: ''why are they in a void?'' because I drew this past midnight and thus was being lazy so I could go to bed faster :P #(I mean the whole thing is clearly kinda lazy but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) #I probably have to stop ever drawing things w/ zero reference btw bc I worry they maybe look a little off anyway... lol

[grassbreads]

im curious, whats your favorite longfic??

Oh my god anon you are enabling me so hard right now. Are we sure you're not some deep splintered section of my subconscious that split off just for the sake of sending me this ask?

Anyway, my favorite fanfiction is a Homestuck fic by oxfordroulette called Vanitas Vanitatum. This mildly pornographic novel-length fantasy au dirkjohn fic is genuinely, independent of actual Homestuck, one of my all time favorite written stories.

Vanitas Vanitatum is the third fic in a long series, but it's technically a standalone. The first fic in the series is a jadekat fantasy road trip adventure, the second one is about jadekat getting dragged into a bunch of mysterious royal intrigue at Jade's arranged marriage to Eridan, and Vanitas Vanitatum is about the aftermath of that intrigue. John Egbert ascends to the throne of their country after the death of his and Jade's evil mother in the previous fic, and he's totally fine guys! He's definitely absolutely having zero mental health troubles!

Dirk, our pov character, enters as a new member of John's secret police. He slowly befriends his new king/boss and, in doing so, begins to discover the extent to which John is totally definitely okay! He's fine Dirk so you can stop asking! And because he's Dirk Strider, when he discovers how John is struggling, he immediately wants to Fix Him. Enter a twisted mess of genuinely falling in love and horrible shadowy puppet master schemes.

Vanitas Vanitatum is the ultimate "I can fix him" romance. It is an "I can fix him" romance to the extent that Dirk's desire to "fix" John becomes one of the fic's main conflicts—in addition to John's genuine mental health crisis and the political crisis that's happening around them. If you know anything about my taste in fiction, you're probably looking at "dark fantasy story about a guy trying to unravel and understand his crush's mental health problems" and going "okay yeah. I see why Andie is obsessed with this."

If you're a Homestuck fan, even if you're not usually a DirkJohn person, I cannot recommend Vanitas Vanitatum highly enough. It's well-written, it's funny, it's heartwarming, and it's absolutely heartbreaking. The plot is twisty and, especially if you've read the rest of the series, absolutely filled with delicious dramatic irony. The way oxfordroulette writes Dirk's pov is an absolute treat. And while the fic is fairly nsfw (there's only three actual sex scenes if I remember right, but lot of discussion and thinking about sex in the interim), the real porn in this fic is the food and costume porn. The author knows what the people want, and it's decadent food descriptions and crazy fantasy royalty outfits. It's also illustrated!

Honestly, if the fic didn't require an understanding of troll romance quadrants to make any goddamn sense, I'd be recommending it to non Homestuck fans as well. It's just a really good story.

Here's the official summary:

You've determined the hobbies of the monarch you serve are as follows: 1. Ill-timed pranks. 2. Cooking. 3. Subconsciously pulling elaborate political schemes off perfectly, ad infinitum, every one of which inches his mind closer to some ineffable dark chasm you're curious to find the depth of. Anyway, he makes damn good lasagna.

Read it here :)

#I'm normally a characterization stickler. and while I can't say VV John's characterization is perfectly in line with canon #it's clearly based on canon in interesting ways while being shaped by the very specific setting this au's John grew up in #and it's SO self-consistent within that newly constructed setting #it's so fascinating it's so good #and yes I'm aware of how funny it is that I'm a diehard fan of not one but two stories with vanitas in the title #that are about someone meeting a guy and trying to unravel his mental health problems before he goes over the edge in his depression #what can I say I like stories about death magic and trauma #anyway now someone just has to ask me to explain my SECOND favorite homestuck fanfic and I can die in peace lmao #invasion of the frogs #vanitas vanitatum #dirkjohn #ask #anon

[pessimistic-gh0st]

You know that feeling when you're so far away from everything? And everything is going so fast so you just feel like another small thing caught up in the fake background blur? And life keeps happening outside of your imaginary bubble, you're always surrounded by it actually - people truly and properly living and enjoying life - but that's just it, isn't it? It's just happening infront of you, you aren't doing anything. And you can't, because you're now part of the blur that provides the stage for those who actually want to perform the routines of life. But it's comfortable. So comfortable and familiar so you stay in that feeling for a long, long time until you forget that you were supposed to live properly too, right? And then you look back on everything and realise how much of your life you left to be unlived after all.

#sorry i'm just rambling #i don't know what this is #i'm fully aware that this is incoherent bullshit #depressing shit #depersonalisation and derealisation #it's funny because it's true #gh0st.txt