#I’d beg for it

[mindmythorns]

i need obsession so big it drowns out my self-loathing

#consume me #I’d beg for it

[kentolove]

— 1 missed call from [Name] —

Realistically, he knows he shouldn’t call you back. Ignore the missed call, head back to bed, and forgot you forever. Forget the romance you once shared and move on. Forgot all the words of love that ever left his lips. You are not his and he is not yours.

But he can’t. He can’t possibly ignore you when you’re calling him at 2AM, yearning for him in whatever way you do.

So he calls. Like the fool that he is, he calls his ex-girlfriend of one year back.

“Hello?”

“Tsukishima…” you trail, and your voice is distant. So far, so small, so fearful. He hears your hesitance from one word only.

He wishes you could call him your Kei again.

“Why did you call me?” Tsukishima responds with hostility, for that is all he knows. When he lost you, his ways changed and his heart turned to stone. It seems that anger is all he knows these days, a hard tongue made of venom and stone.

“I-I wanted to talk to you.”

You stutter. You stutter and Tsukishima knows that you’re drunk. You have a few habits whenever you’re intoxicated, and a stutter is always accompanied with the alcohol.

“You’re drunk,” is all he says.

“I know.”

“Talk to me when you’re sober,” he goes to cut the call, but a quick wait! is enough to halt his movements.

“God, I don’t even know why I even called you,” you whisper, as if speaking to yourself.

He sighs, “where are you?”

“Um, I’m not sure.”

“You went out not knowing where you’re going?” He asks, and it’s that condescending tone you hate. The one that pushed your relationship to its limit.

“It’s not like I wanted to be here,” you whisper yet again, a measly attempt at defending yourself.

Another sigh, another sign of disappointment, and Tsukishima finally speaks up.

“Go to the Maps app.” You mumble a small okay, and do as he tells you. “Now zoom in on your location and send it to me.”

“Why?”

“Just do it.”

You listen to him and soon after Tsukishima gets a notification. He doesn’t bid you goodbye, simply cuts the call and gets up from his bed. He heads for his closet, grabbing two jackets, and heads out the door.

He’ll see you for the first time in a year.

-

And see you he does.

You’re sat on the curb of the road, your knees pushed against your chest and your head resting on your knees. It seems as if you’re asleep, your eyes closed and body still.

He kneels beside you, whispering your name loud enough to wake you up.

“Huh?” You groan, turning your head to look at the man you can’t seem to let go. “Kei?”

There it is. It’s always sounded so sweet on your tongue, so sultry and intimate. It’s his given name, the one he grows to love each time you say it.

It’s bittersweet hearing it from you.

“Why are you just sleeping in the middle of the road? What if some pervert stopped by?”

“But nobody did,” you say, logic leaving you in your drunken state. You move closer to him, seeking his warmth.

You’ve always loved his touch. When you once called him yours, his body was always somehow attached to yours. Your skin on his, his heart in your palm.

He sighs, “get in the car, [Name].”

He pulls you up from your position, easily holding you as gently as he can.

“You never used to call me by my name,” you stop and lean into his shoulder. “I was always your baby.”

Tsukishima knows it’s the alcohol talking. That you’d never say this sober, and that there’s a possibility that you don’t mean any of those words. But his heart still hurts. It hurts so much that he feels as if he has lost himself. Lost all the progress he made to just get over you.

(But perhaps he never really stopped loving you, if he was so willing to pick up your call.)

He lays you on the passenger seat, buckling your seatbelt for you. He drapes the extra jacket over your shoulders, and you remember it to be one of your favourites. You stare at him the whole time—eyes on his—but he refuses to look back. Not when he knows how easily his resolve could crumble with you around.

The car starts soon after, and you’re already asleep. Your head lays peacefully on the mirror, and Tsukishima wishes he could stay like this forever. In a world where he is yours and you are his.

-

There are not many things that Tsukishima regrets.

He prefers to live in the present and let the past be the past. What has happened is unchanging, so why worry? Why worry about what he should’ve done, when all he has is the now?

There are not many things that Tsukishima regrets. But he will always regret leaving you.

He knows that now, as he is in your bedroom, trying to find a way to change you out of your clothes and into your sleepwear.

You’ve always been a heavy sleeper, unmoving in the midst of all noise. That trait carries on to now, as he struggles to get your top off your body.

You squirm as he touches you. “Kei,” you whisper. “Why’d you pick me up?”

“You called me.”

“But you picked up,” you slur, “you could’ve ignored me. You were good at that when we were together.”

He winces. He knows you don’t mean it. You’ve always been far too kind to respond with such malice, especially towards him. Even when your relationship was walking on a tightrope, you never once yelled at him.

“Why were you so mean, Tsukishima?” It’s a rhetorical question, he knows it, but his heart burns the more you speak.

“I loved you so much, but you didn’t love me at all.”

“Don’t,” he immediately interrupts, “don’t say I never loved you.”

“You never showed me,” your voice is small, and he knows you’re about to cry. (Even after all these months, your habits remain in his mind.)

“I love you. So much more than you’ll ever understand,” he speaks with so much passion, that he forgets his confession.

He loves you. His heart will always belong to you.

“I love you too,” you cry, and a single teardrop grazes your cheek.

“You never deserved me.”

“I get to decide that,” you grab his delicate face with your rough hands. He always fit so perfectly in your palms. “I get to decide who is good for me.”

He pauses, resting in your hands and cherishing every moment he has with you. And it’s in your calloused palms where Tsukishima realises what he misses. He misses your presence, your love, you. Every habit that made him love you so deeply, he misses.

He will be yours again, he decides, as you hold him close. Somehow, someway, he will win you back.

#Not proofread! I’ll do that later #okay I usually like making a guy beg but I JUST WANTED TO WRITE SOMETHING LIKE THIS OKAY #Normally I’d make tsukki beg on his knees but #mine #tsukishima #tsukishima fluff #tsukishima angst #tsukishima x reader #tsukishima x you #tsukishima x y/n #tsukishima drabbles #tsukishima scenarios #tsukishima headcanons #tsukishima imagines #haikyuu #haikyuu fluff #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu x y/n #haikyuu x you #haikyuu headcanons

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

The “I could see you as my new addiction, you can see me as a secret mission” to “you kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath” to “why’d you whisper in the dark just to leave me in the night” to “at least I had the decency to keep my nights out of sight” to “I loved you in secret” to “I don’t want to keep secrets just to keep you” to “playing hide and seek and giving me your weekends” to “that's the thing about illicit affairs and clandestine meetings and stolen stares, they show their truth one single time but they lie, and they lie, and they lie a million little times” pipeline 🙃

#the theme is: being treated like a dirty little secret fucks you up when you internalize it! #I’d also argue ‘I’m begging for you to take my hand wreck my plans’ and ‘I’m the best thing at this party’ are part of this pipeline too #lyrics parallels

[catlaila]

my favorite revelation from tsc is that kevin day IS canonically attractive neil just refuses to acknowledge it

#neil only has eyes for a five foot psychotic goalkeeper and that’s it #i’d like to think neil is asked about how people make kevin edits (remind me to elaborate on this) and neil is just like #you people are crazy. if you knew him you’d be plotting on his murder #and everyone laughs like neil haha you don’t mean that (slanted look at the gangster’s son) and neil smiles and doesn’t answer #kevin yells at him and begs wymack to put him in another media training class #anyway #not the point #kevin day is hot #we need to acknowledge this #kevin day #neil josten #the sunshine court #tsc #text

[st-hedge]

It’s the year of the dilf——- I mean the rabbit so according to the public vote it’s wind waker ganondorf who gets to wear the bunny suit 🫶💕 fool proof way of getting all the good luck this year

#wind waker #ganondorf #loz: ww #leaving this a lil undone cuz I think I’m gonna have a stroke if I keep rendering #as I said on Twitter #is a saw a guy built like him dressed like that irl #I’d either have a cardiac arrest or drop to my knees begging for his hand in marriage #happy year of the wabbit!

[sky-neverending]

I want to hug Jack Wolfe so bad LOOK AT HIM

LOOK AT HIM LOOK AT HIM

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH OMFG ANSJSJSJSJSJSJSJJSJSJSJSJSJSHSJSJ

thank you.

#shadow and bone netflix #jack wolfe #wylan van eck #wylan van sunshine #he’s my love #i love him #i want him to hug me #i love him so much omfg #jack wolfeeee #annsjsjsjsjhsjs #im completely normal about this #im so normal about him #im also a liar #i’d kill to meet him #please someone i’m begging

[yikimiki]

whenever you ask eren for something, even as simple as a pencil, he says “say pretty please” in this deep gravel voice that makes your insides shudder

#crying throwing up #I’d be down on my knees begging #eren smut #eren headcanons #eren x you #eren x reader

[neeneete]

He’s so silly, just a hungry guy, a silly hungry guy I love him,

#bob velseb fanart #bob velseb #bob velseb x self insert #bob velseb x reader #spooky month fanart #spooky month bob #spooky month #on my knees begging for a chance #I’d ask him to do this anyway #down bad

[taz-metamals]

I need someone who can draw people to get me Indrid in pink and yellow, STAT

#please i beg #i’d do it myself but I haven’t figured out people yet #animals are so much easier #my people never look like people #or at least they don’t look how I imagined them in my head #anyway rosy maple moths are dope and I don’t know why I have never before considered the possibility of Indrid in more colors #the adventure zone #taz #taz amnesty #taz indrid #indrid cold #mothman #rosy maple moth #the zone cast #justin mcelroy #travis mcelroy #griffin mcelroy #clint mcelroy

[noturbutchboy]

I wanna face fuck a fem so bad god I wish I had a real di*k 👉🏻👈🏻

#I’d probably beg for it too #wlw #sapphic yearning #sapphic #wlw mood #lesbian #wlw community #butchposting #wlw blog #wlw concepts #butch lesbian #butch4femme

[icvrusxx]

Dad knew who you really were. Good soldier, nothing else. Daddy's blunt little instrument. Your own father didn't care whether you lived or died. Why should you?

let dead dogs lie, silas denver melvin // i am a dog. i have blood all over my teeth, sciencedfiction // spn 1x16, shadow // chapter viii, chen chen // hannibal 2x12, tome-wan // the hour of the star, clarice lispector // spn 3x10, dream a little dream of me // i don’t smoke, mitski // cut, catherine lacy // i’m your man, mitski // spn 2x22, all hell breaks loose pt 2 // mary, the death riders

#dean winchester #john winchester #dean is a dog a soldier a weapon etc etc #daddy’s blunt little instrument #NOT ship related #supernatural #spn #collage #web weaving #poetry #mitski #spn 2x22 #spn 3x10 #spn 1x16 #spn shadow #spn all hell breaks loose pt 2 #spn dream a little dream of me #abusive john #anti wincest #anti deanjohn #anti johndean #never thought i’d have to put these as tags but 😭 #DO NOT TAG W*NCEST I AM BEGGING

[tequiilasunriise]

The thing that really kills me about that fight against the walkers is the Bees get this incredible fight sequence of being perfectly in sync partners and easily covering each other’s bases but then it suddenly cuts to Weiss stumbling during her fight because Ruby, her partner, isn’t there. Jaune was good at helping her recover, sure, but nevertheless the parallels between functional partners and partners that are split apart were very, very prevalent.

During the Ace Ops fight Weiss was holding her own well against Marrow, yet Ruby still rushed to deflect his weapon when it was coming towards Weiss. Harriet had thrown her into the room, Ruby- still dazed on the floor- looked up, saw a weapon coming towards Weiss (who was poised with her rapier ready, mind you), and didn’t hesitate to come in and smack it back with Crescent Rose. The parallels between Marrow and Harriet arguing vs Whiterose silently nodding at each other making sure the other was alright, like! Ruby didn’t have to check up on Weiss but she did so anyways because they’re partners, because they’re there fer each other rather than individual units strung together on the same team.

After making sure Weiss was alright, Ruby continues to draw Harriet away from the rest of the fray. Then when Ruby is fighting Harriet, Weiss comes back to check up on her and summon an ice wall to defend her partner from Harriet charging at her. There’s something to be said about how Marrow and Harriet were so disjointed in comparison to Whiterose being there fer each other. Love versus a lack thereof, so to speak (and yes, I may be a Whiterose shipper, but this love I’m referring to is that deeper special platonic bond between people who fight fer their lives and trust and care fer each other wholeheartedly).

So now parallel that fight with the one against the walkers, where Weiss is stumbling in a 1v1 and Ruby gets overpowered by a walker because she’s having an extremely justified panic attack. They’re apart, and now both are struggling because neither has their partner there to support em. The Bees are doing all of these sickass combo moves and combining their different fighting styles perfectly while Whiterose is just having a plain ol Bad Time™️ right now. Love versus a lack thereof, so speak. That being said I do wanna point out that when Ruby was down on the ground, it was Weiss who called out to her and made the first blow against the walker who had her pinned. Shit man even when they’re falling apart Weiss is still the first one to reach fer her partner. The love isn’t fully gone, it’s hurting yes, but o h how the love is still there through it all. There is something to be said on love and the lack thereof and love that’s struggling to breathe but still persists.

What I’m saying is, there’s shit to be said about partners, about people tied together in trust and loyalty, about people who know the other so well they can almost effortlessly cover each other bases. There’s shit to be said about found family, about choosing people, about doing the very brave thing that is loving them. In V8, Yang talked to Ruby about risks and sacrifices and heroes. Later on, Blake had her gentle heart to heart about admiring Ruby as a leader, but what Ruby really needs right now? She doesn’t need a pep talk revolving around duties and respect, what she needs right now is someone to speak to her as an equal. As a best friend. As a partner.

Weiss, please fer the love of god, talk to your partner. She needs someone to lean on right now, and my clown makeup fer Bees Kiss is OFF but goddamnit am I polishing my shoes as I hope fer a Weiss and Ruby heart to heart.

#i adore how bumbleby fight together as an absolute UNIT but I also love the tragic undertones it has fer Whitwrose completely lacking that #like it doesnt have to be in a wr way- tho im so delusional i’d still countnit as a wr moment in the smallest- but CMON WEISS PLEASE #YOURE SO COMPASSIONATE AND BIG HEARTED AND RLLY GOOD WITH COMFORTING PEOPLE #like ur talk with Yang in v5? living rent FUCKEN free in my head please pull through fer Ruby im begging #rwby #ruby rose #weiss schnee #blake belladonna #yang xiao long #bumbleby #whiterose #rwby v9 #rwby spoilers

[princesspearl]

Hmm feeling like a quick midnight stroll through this dark foreboding forest. This will surely be uneventful and—oh, what’s this? Is that a full moon I see? How could I have been so silly! There’s bound to be a whole pack of werewolves on the prowl, probably driven mad with lust by the power of the moon 👉👈 I hope they don’t catch my scent on the breeze and come to investigate…I’m only wearing this itty bitty dress which could easily be torn off, revealing that there’s nothing underneath 🫣 I would be so helpless in their clutches, they could do whatever they wanted and I’d just have to be their little plaything…how frightening 🤤

#not like i’d moan in pleasure while they ravage me #or beg to choke on their knots #nothing like that…😳 #the full moon is imbuing me with…energies #werewolf nsft #femme #my post #femme nsft #lesbian nsft #lesbian #dyke nsft #femme4butch

[potato-lord-but-not]

what if you homoerotically pulled a sword out of your coworker’s torso. what then.

#LOWKEY obsessed with this. #if I had a nickel for every time I drew some suggestive discworld art involving swords I’d have two nickels #WHICH ISNT ENOUGH #I’m begging pleading you all to look at this I love this one too much #digital art #artists on tumblr #discworld #discworld fanart #the truth #william de worde #otto chriek #newspaper ot3 #even tho Sacharissa isn’t here idk how else to tag it lmao #mlm #mlm art

[mikereads]

Ryan and Oliver liking each others photography posts/pictures.

#we love to see it #the crumbs #also I see you Oliver liking a self portrait of Ryan less than thirty minutes of him posting it I see you #I just know you have his notifications on or he told you about it before hand #yes maybe it was a coincidence but I’d like to believe otherwise let me live #buddie #eddie diaz #911 fox #evan buckley #oliver stark #Ryan Guzman #and I’m asking again pls guys to a photo shoot together pls pls I beg

[dazzelmethat]

I wanted to draw another Shinku. Her bonnet is always super fun to draw and color.

#rozen maiden #rozen maiden shinku #shinku #my art #those new shinku and suigintou figures are begging me to buy them #though of the two I’d probably get the suigintou.. i like my angry goth doll #i make the 7th grader me inside myself happy with all these rozen maiden and inuyasha fanarts