#I am gonna get so wasted

[aurosoulart]

hey. artists who make process videos but want to expend the least amount of effort possible:

fake that shit. finish your piece and then make your lineart white and color it back in. mask your color layers and then un-mask them with brushstrokes. choose something eye catching to copypaste and do that a couple times. add bits of glow/sparkle/foliage/freckles/whatever else is relevant

if you get like three shots like this and then have the rest be video of your finished work no one will know. no one will CARE I promise. do not give your soul to the Microcontent Wheel it is Not worth it

#auropost #signed: someone who used to get stuck trying to record aesthetic footage #and then had to edit large amounts of video #for the sake of getting ~*authentic*~ shots of me actually working #it’s a waste of time!!!! completely!!!! #if social media is gonna force me into bullshit content formats i’m gonna cut so many goddamn corners #anyways i do this constantly and am much better off for it

[why-the-heck-not]

no those aren’t weird sex noises coming from ur neighbour’s apartment; it’s ur local insomniac slap & folding bread dough in the wee hours of the morning

#also I was doing that for wayy too long bc I think I autolysed a bit too long so the gluten structure just isn’t gonna be the best no matter #how angry I am at the dough but also idk why I’m bothering bc I’m also 80% sure the sourdough starter is not ready for bread yet #so like I’m going to have the densest loaf tmrw morning/this evening #this is a trial run abt if I remember how to make bread and if I'll actually have something edible it's a bonus #also it truly is meditative so I lost track of time bc ugh the texture of dough is just very nice #good thing abt naming it (the starter) Elvis that I now have my ’’bread making music’’ set and it’s honestly vibes #also yeah in a phase where I sleep abt every other night (unless I like rly rly try but even then it’s like max 4h and I dont get it and I #hate the process of desperately trying to get sleep more than like wasting time making inedible bread) #a human disaster but at least I will have bread #a very dense bread probably but bread nonetheless #march 2024 #2024

[verana115]

I really don’t get people who use AI to write things for them and then drop them in their work cause like, call me old school if you must, but I like knowing that every word I put down on a page is my own and represents a clear intention on my part - and if anyone wants to question/challenge that, I can come back with a reasonable articulation of why I did it that way

I get that busy work doesn’t always get this standard (even from me), but I can’t imagine just handing over all that agency and autonomy of self-expression over to some mindless bot that may or may not spew out garbage that could tank the readers trust in you - even if you remember to edit out the “this is an AI language model” that I see in so many papers and articles nowadays

Where’s the pride in your work? Where’s the feeling of accomplishment or improvement? Where’s the rich process of refining what you write down into a final product that you feel confident enough to attach your name to? Where’s the glancing at your final work and saying “I know this isn’t perfect, but I put effort into this and I’m not embarrassed to have anyone else read it”? Where???

And this is all ignoring the fact that ai is trained on masses of work that artists and writers neither consented to nor were compensated for their inclusion in the process, and that by using these models, you’re helping the tech bros who stole these artists’ and writers’ work to get rich

#I’m not the first person to get mad at this #but boy does it annoy me #like take pride in yourself and your name #fuck am I to trans to understand why most people don’t have pride in their name? #like #I had to fight tooth and nail to get my name socially and legally #and I lost a lot of people to do that #and I’m so happy I did #and I’ll be damned if I’m gonna waste that effort #by attaching my name to a bunch of stolen #and recycled garbage #Vera posts #ai writing

[apollos-olives]

I’m sorry your story got cancelled that SUCKS. Is there any way you will be able to share it otherwise?

yeah so basically they're refusing to air it because it was too controversial and dangerous, but my producer told me that to story was so well done and was so perfect that he told me i should submit it into video and journalism competitions that my local community does. like, he said it was PERFECT- he showed it to every single producer up the food chain and they said it was fantastic, but just too "controversial", so they refused to air it. they didn't like that i didn't have the perspective of "the other side", they didn't like that i wore arabic on my shirt, they didn't like that the protesters were using posters that condemned zionism, so they just told me it's not airing. despite that, it was genuinely so perfect that my producer told me i HAVE to put it on my portfolio and submit it to different events and competitions to make it get recognized. so i guess i'll be doing that instead. it's just not airing for my studio.

#which genuinely guts me because i gave up WEEKS of my life to get the story done #i lost friendships. i missed out on events. i skipped a billion classes. i lost DAYS of sleep #i busted my ass so hard for this story to be perfect- AND IT WAS- but they refused to air it #so now weeks of my life are gone to waste #and now it'll take weeks to get things back to normal #im so upset #we did a run through for anchoring and they told me that i wasnt energetic enough and i should act happier while on air #and i for real am gonna lose it. tbqh. #i fucking hate it here #my studio partner was there with me when my producer broke the news and i was so upset i didnt know what to say #partner asked me if i was okay and i just said yeah and looked away from him #and he stood there hovering as if he wanted to say something but he just sighed and walked away #im fucking up my entire life right now and idk what to do

[fourthclone]

i got two replies out , woo . now i'm going to sleep .

#⚡ ⸺ ❝ moghome . [ ooc ] #just kind of. want to clarify i'll still pop in here to reply to stuff #i'm not burnt out on muse soasmuch as i am just #discouraged and uncomfortable #and unsure of what to do #i don't rly. want to steep myself further rn in theory talk anymore than i have or focus on trying to figure roche out. #i've spent too much time and energy on that and tbqh? the more i stress about whether or not square makes him an interesting chara or w/e #the less i want to write roche so i'm just. not gonna bother. lmk if you want to try out any potential avenues concerning my theories #and whatnot #i'll be operating on a strictly au basis so like. assume everything on this blog is bullshit for now #and ig if i don't like what they do w roche in part 3 i'll likely drop him as a muse #i'm not going to waste my time and energy wallowing on omg!!! they didn't give this character his due!! #i'm so tired of muses i write being done dirty man. i just expect it by this point and the less attached i get to it all the better #it just happens way too often so i just gotta. stop thinking so much and having another muse to focus on will help w that #i think i've reached the pt where i'm tired of 'fixing' characters. so i'm not gonna do it

[svnflowermoon]

why can i literally not function at school like i swear i'm trying i just can't focus????

#luc posts #like i take notes but then i get bored and the doodle on the side of my page thst was meant to take 5 seconds took 10 minutes :( #and then im lost and bc im lost i get all fidgety and i keep doodling and then jts just a cycle #if i work for 20 minutes i feel like ive ran a marathon and i have to take a 40 minutes drawing/staring into the distance break #and im gonna fail maths but theres literally nothing i can do no matter what i do I can't focus for over 20 minutes at a time #and then its the end of class and i feel guilty bc oh i didnt do any work :( like i feel bad and i want to fix it but idk whats wrong so ho #can i fix it if i dont know whats wrong with meeeee #ugh #it literally makes me want to cry am i just lazy is that what it is am i literally useless why cant i work #like i was so ahead kf the average grades and i never learnt to study and now ugh i dont know how to function so i just dont #and it doesn't help that my friends are all geniuses #like they complain about their one mark away from full marks and im just like OH MY GOD if i could just focus then i coukd do so well #likr ok i guess i wont mention tjst i failed that test bc yall sre complaining about getting one mark off fukl makrs #likr fuckkkk okay i have so mucb potential why di i waste jt :((((( #i hate school so mucb #i genuinely consider dropping out sometimes like I CANT DO THIS hiw do these peiole di ut how hiw how someone tell me how to function #like these peiole getting top marks withiut eben truijgn and i tyr and i cant fishcis so i fail snd then ufh i want to die #bc its so embarassing i eas like top 10% of the class a few years ago and now i just cant function like how do these peiple do itso #someone explain ot me how oieolem focus and dony get distracted and ginish things kike ugh

[evansbby]

I cannot believe the wicked games Drabble was 5000 words long like basically a full ass fic and the low amount of notes it got…

#it makes my heart literally SINK like… #now how am I supposed to post wg4 which is 25k words???? #it will not get any interaction and I’m just done #like I just cannot post it #it’ll legit kill me 🥲🥲🥲🥲 to see it flop #after I poured my heart and soul into writing something so fucking long and making sure it was good #just bc I knew I had to give you guys something long and exciting to read #but what’s the point #like I cannot believe it… I literally just cannot believe it and I don’t want to post anything anymore #omfg #I know many people will read this and roll their eyes and find this annoying #like I’m complaining or whatever #honestly think what you want to think #I’m just so shocked and legit unhappy #like so fucking unhappy #like bummed the fuck out #that it’s come to this #I don’t wanna post shit anymore lol #idk if it’s the algorithm or genuinely people don’t fuck with my fics anymore #I just don’t understand #but you guys have to understand how it would kill me on the inside if I posted a 25k fic and it got next to no interaction #like I just…. #I’m scared it would make me quit writing completely #bc I’m THIS close #I feel so fucking sad bro idek #like it makes me wanna fucking cry #how… a few months ago everything was fine #now it feels like everyone’s gone #and I wasted my fucking time writing a chapter so fucking long that no one’s gonna read #WHY DID I WASTE MY TIME

[viciousewe]

I’m not avoiding my 3 spinning and 4 knitting projects!!! I’m not!!!

#I’m just sampling! #honestly! #gotta know how I wanna do my next project. #anyways as much as I enjoy the action of combing fibers #I didn’t like that the Icelandic in particular would separate out tog from them #and I am not spending 100$ on single row combs I would only really want for double fleeces like this #and I do eventually want to experiment with seperated fleeces (just not right now) #I decided I was finally gonna do it #I was finally gonna get reacquainted with my cards #and so far I’m having a decent time! #I think I finally found a technique that works for me #(it’s basically just from Louis Swales’ video ‘how to card like a ghost’) #I’m putting out rolags that umm #ok they don’t look great but they are a decent spinning experience! #and I like how little waste there is #currently in this pic I am spinning some rolags that were rolled off the short end of cards so the fiber is mostly parallel #(been calling them cigar rolags) #and tbh I think I prefer the rolag rolled off the long side #I feel the dual cost fibers mix better #I’m gonna try to spindle spin enough yarn to make a short pair of socks as one of the things I wanted to do was get #a pair of 100% Icelandic wool socks to see how it wears compared to the commercial standard of merino nylon blend #and then I want to spin some Lopi style for a sweater #and if I have any long locks leftover I’ll use that in my current rug project #yarn #handmade #spinning #handspinning #handspun #wool #spindle

[izvmimi]

i’m so tired of these people ordering studies and i, the person who will actually read this study, explain to them that the thousands of dollars they’re about to spend on this test will not benefit further management of this patient and it goes ‘well we want it’

#there’s like so much resource waste that goes into hospital admissions #and like i get that half the time it’s just ‘we wanna be sure’ #but I AM THE ONE WHO UNDERSTANDS THE IMAGING LIMITATION #you’re gonna do this test and be back at square one #and mind you i don’t lose sleep over this #it takes minutes for me to read a negative study #and our department gets richer #but like why do you think healthcare is so expensive #i am trying to help YOU #mimi medicine

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

this is the video i watch every time im thinking abt pre-time thoschei btw

#sorry that im taking doctor who being back as a cue to do anything but doctor who hgfjgkhkjgh #i was like am i gonna rewatch sharp objects or the nevers and now we're stuck with the nevers #but also not really its always doctor who #but anyway. the doctor camille the one who got out #the master amma the murderous little sister #trying to get mamas attention any way possible #'you know what my favourite part abt getting wasted is? mama takes care of me after' #'you hate this place like me. but you looooooveeeee dead girls' #'i feel sorry for persephone bc when shes back with the living theyre afraid of her. bc of where shes been' #i like that ive twisted the torvic story so far that at this point im convinced the doctor drowned the master #thats not what happened babe #but also it is #dead girl walking #cant die #bc not alive #crawling out wet and wrecked what was that line in the script? #they should give me the deleted scenes i'd make such good use of them

[soullessjack]

you don’t understand he was done being special he wanted to get a chance to live his life before it was over he just wanted to get a tan and see a hockey game and get a parking ticket and get bored and then die HE WAS DONE BEING SPECIAL AND THEN THEY DECIDED TO MAKE HIM GOD

#you ever get so mad at something that you need to peel your skin off or am I normal #cal.txt #spn #spn rewatch #supernatural #jack kline #spn 14x07 #ripping my hair out isn’t enough I need to be scalped /j #anyways ….. sigh #at least we get another point for ‘jack is actually very assertive and bitchy if he wants to be’ #when he tells Dean he knows he disagrees and isn’t gonna waste time arguing #when are y’all gonna pick up on that . I scream into the void once more #I need to lie down (I am currently in bed)

[soldier-poet-king]

U know when ur brain is Like That and whatever it is you have to eat is suddenly Illegal???

#the duality of fran #ughhhhh i am upset with myself #i have issues with leftovers. just generally #so mostly i only ever cool things i can tolerate as leftover #i have the last batch of that pumpkin soup #that i do NOT want to eat and its all gross and it's not like. rotten #but trying to force myself to eat it sounds like hell rn #but also guilt complex abt food yknow???? #im not doing anyonr any favours by just skipping lunch bc my brain hates the thought of it rn #i think. I'm just gonna have to toss it. eaf a granola bar (i always carry some for this reason) #and then. try to forgive myself. eat a proper dinner #i think i hate depression food obessions more than i hate the actual depression sometimes #ughhh and i have to meal plan #i go insane if i eat the same thing always but i also get so nervous trying new foods #bc my mother lives in my brain and yells at me anytime anything turns out bad or where i cant force myself to eat it #i only ever try things that im 90% sure I'll like #And still. #unfortunately. i am realizing my mother left me with major food anxieties #just not in the usual ED way. i got the guilt complex food waste if i don't clear my plate im sinning way #if leftovers go bad? or produce molds before i can use it? im satan incarnate #BUT ONLY ME. EVERYONE ELSE IS FINE. THIS STANDARD ONLY APPLIES TO ME

[sisterdragonwithfeathers]

HOW am i meant to find photo reference for my stupid underfed old sweatshirt too-short jeans currently living his sad backstory 17-year old looser boy? What are the search terms for this?

#how #this is impossible #this is about an oc if that wasn't already clear #am I just supposed to go to public places and look for people????? #HOW do you look up 'ill-fitting jeans' references #i suspect you don't I am made to suffer #all this because I need something/one else to thumbnail for an assignment because the character I WAS gonna do it with is already past the #thumbnail stage apparently #given I can't thumbnail her #I'm in the refinement stage with her #Willber could still do with some fundamental conceptualization #but how am I supposed to do that EFFECTIVELY without REFERENCES #rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I'm just going to have to settle for completely wrong references and fix them myself aren't I? #i might give up on either of them for this assignment and do something completely unrelated #just so the darn art mentor I'm not on the same page with doesn't get to say irrelevant and useless things about my personal art projects #only one more month and then I'm out #not a waste of money but I'm disappointed that this [online art course] doesn't seem to be a useful path to take #I just want a dang PATH #why do I have to keep TRYING #just give me a clear goal and insurmountable enemies I'll stick to it #feather rants

[eurydicees]

i get the appeal of being a hater for sure but personally i was built to be a lover and to love things and to see the beauty and worth in everything i choose to see beauty and worth in sometimes for no other reason than that i want to see beauty and worth in them. like i don’t want to hate things for fun! why are we all so mean to each other! you do you but personally im gonna choose to unapologetically love the things i love

#this does NOT mean the things i love are exempt from criticism #it means i am embracing childlike whimsy and adult adoration for things that i want to #no EVEN THOUGH and no IN DESPITE OF them being cringe or silly or boring or weird #hating things can def be good in moderation sure i guess #but isn’t it so much more fun to just love the things you love #instead of wasting your time hate watching stuff. #or telling yourself your interests are stupid because other people are hate watching them #like life is short and boring. #i’m not gonna waste time telling people who stupid i think their favorite media is. #*how #i’m gonna watch my favorite anime and i’m gonna read fics that were written with love and im gonna write poetry only i get to read #like. you can be a hater if u get joy from that. im gonna love enough for both of us

[grmpgm]

ok executive dysfunction is kind of ruining my life actually

#i have an incredibly time-consuming project i NEED to finish and i genuinely don’t know if i can #i’ve started which is good but i’m horrifically behind where i need to be and i’m just so overwhelmed #i technically have enough time to finish it i think? but it’s my final project so i literally cannot miss this deadline #my professor is really cool + likes me but it’s already been so long w/out me bringing it up #and wtf am i supposed to say? yeah. i WANTED to work on it. i just chose not to????? like wtf #it’s just so humiliating and i’m so behind i don’t know wtf i’m gonna do #it’s worse bc it’s an animation and it’s gg related and i really really wanted this to be good and i wanted things to be different this time #kind of funny bc i’m actually mid getting an adhd diagnosis rn but it’s just so fucking awful because i do this constantly #it fucking sucks so much i feel so helpless and i don’t know wtf is wrong with me. i’m so tired of letting everyone down constantly #it’s so bad rn i literally cannot do anything. it’s humiliating like WHY can’t i just be a functional normal person #it fucking SUCKS because i KNOW if i had any self control or work ethic whatsoever i could be really fucking successful but i don’t. #so i won’t be i guess. #and i KNOW it’s tied into a bunch of different stuff too but like gd i DO NOT care i just want to be functional #worst case scenario i have an A in the class so if i completely blow it i’ll at least pass? hopefully? #i might be able to talk my prof into an extended deadline but it’s so embarrassing bc i didn’t need one in the first place. #i have literally no excuses #it just makes me so upset because i just keep doing this over and over and i don’t know how to stop it or how to get better #and LOL sorry for posting this here i just feel weird talking to anyone personally about this (+ currently avoiding responding to messages!) #it’s just like. man if i can’t get a fucking grip i will literally waste my entire life. Oh Well! LOL

[roguemonsterfucker]

Sorry to talk about it again but I'm just still flabbergasted by the whole plagiarism thing

Like... When watching hbomb's video the first time and seeing him point out the rewording of stuff to change it *just* enough to (hopefully) not get caught stealing... I flashed back to my college days of when I did exactly that. 😅

There was a limit on how many actual quotes I could use, so I got around that by literally looking at my sources and rewording it enough to get past the plagiarism checker (TurnItIn.com my belothed) without losing the meaning of the text that I honestly didn't fully understand because I was writing on topics I had no real knowledge of myself.

BUT BUT BUT

I still cited my fucking sources.

Yes, I was using other people's words so I could get through the hell that was college, but if you read my stuff, you'd know exactly where I got it from. I never claimed credit for all the ideas.

And... again... I was just doing it to survive. I wasn't making money. I didn't even end up actually graduating, so it didn't even help me academically.

Somerton on the other hand not only rarely *if ever* credited the people whose words he stole, he was doing it for money, while also putting down fellow queer creators. He *wanted* full credit for all the ideas in his videos. To cite his sources would be to pass the credit on to others. And he couldn't do that.

Edited to add: It's probably a bit extreme to say I "stole" anything for my papers. Like I said, I cited my sources. I just paraphrased what I could when needed, probably to a degree that was questionable at worst. I just have anxiety and feel like "OH NO I"M A TERRIBLE PLAGIARIST."

#should i be admitting to kinda sorta plagiarizing a few college essays? #probably not #but again: i didn't graduate #what are they gonna do? take away my nonexistent degree? #i was literally only taking online college classes to avoid being kicked out of my parents' house #at the time my options were get a job or go to college #and i couldn't get a job because of my disabilities #and honestly i only even did this on *a few* papers #because most of the time i actually was very interested in the subject matter and enjoyed writing my own perspective #it was literally only a few subjects i was forced to write on that my brain couldn't comprehend at all #i didn't like doing it #i wanted to write about things i understood or enjoyed learning about #but some of my required classes... uh... sucked #as did the teachers =/ #i was not suited for that type of situation #but i did learn a lot in a few classes that i think helped me become a better writer #overall though college was a waste of time and money and i ended up having a mental breakdown when i was only one class away from graduatin #literally *one* more class and I'd have a degree #but my brain noped out and so here i am ten years later with nothing #a degree wouldn't have helped me though #i still wouldn't be able to get a job because of my disabilities