#discouraged and uncomfortable

[fourthclone]

i got two replies out , woo . now i'm going to sleep .

#⚡ ⸺ ❝ moghome . [ ooc ] #just kind of. want to clarify i'll still pop in here to reply to stuff #i'm not burnt out on muse soasmuch as i am just #discouraged and uncomfortable #and unsure of what to do #i don't rly. want to steep myself further rn in theory talk anymore than i have or focus on trying to figure roche out. #i've spent too much time and energy on that and tbqh? the more i stress about whether or not square makes him an interesting chara or w/e #the less i want to write roche so i'm just. not gonna bother. lmk if you want to try out any potential avenues concerning my theories #and whatnot #i'll be operating on a strictly au basis so like. assume everything on this blog is bullshit for now #and ig if i don't like what they do w roche in part 3 i'll likely drop him as a muse #i'm not going to waste my time and energy wallowing on omg!!! they didn't give this character his due!! #i'm so tired of muses i write being done dirty man. i just expect it by this point and the less attached i get to it all the better #it just happens way too often so i just gotta. stop thinking so much and having another muse to focus on will help w that #i think i've reached the pt where i'm tired of 'fixing' characters. so i'm not gonna do it

[vimbry]

when I tag things as not sfw or similar terms, I hope people realise it's following the Actual definition of "not safe for work," i.e. material best not to view around certain places/people because it may get you in trouble and therefore filter, such as at work.

I saw someone go on a little rant on some art somewhere over how a person before them had tagged it as partial nudity, in their words, to be on the safe side, bc there was a very obvious peek of animal woman nipple in one of the drawings. and this second person got so passive aggressive about it, like, "ohhh nooo, a Nipple!" because they thought people should focus on destigmatizing nudity as inherently sexual, which I agree with, but I really don't think the initial tags came from a place of prudishness, and more, you know, if you get caught scrolling past big furry nipples in the wrong place, people might have something to say about it.

#like yea the phrase jerkin off is not a big deal it's like pg-13 but 1. #better safe than sorry because people may be filtering even the most mild stuff for whatever reason #2. I personally like to discourage any younger people from reblogging any sexual-based jokes from me if I can #because it makes me uncomfortable as a near 30 year old lol I wouldn't discuss anything mature in a physical space with a teenager at my ag #especially one I don't even know #and I don't think an online space is any different

[butters-flower-mom]

Idk how many people have told you this, but you are THE butters fan to me lol. I get reminded of you every time i see his little face

Thank you so much! It's weird but nice to know someone thinks about me. I often feel like I exist in my own separate little bubble on this site.

#i know i slowed down on reblogging posts of him #i kinda got discouraged from digging for butters content #too much coming across people talking about how much they hate him or how awful he is #or uncomfortable drawings of him #but he's still my baby and he's constantly on my mind #he lives there now #answered asks

[sexyorc]

man the crew I work on is still pretty decent but I feel like it has taken a turn for the worse since our old crew lead left. It’s not as fun and it doesn’t feel like hanging out with friends anymore which I guess is to be expected because it’s a job, but things used to feel so much more companionable. I like the new crew lead as a person but I don’t like him as lead, I’m kinda disappointed so far

#he’s so new and he’s a good guy so he might improve over time but idk #I don’t like how he delivers feedback to us and I feel like he discourages us from discussing personal stuff which is like…… #so fucking boring because we spend ten hours a day together. I don’t want to talk about movies and shit because you’re uncomfortable #with your feelings dude #I’m being sensitive but whatever #chiapost

[chocolatewoosh]

you ever considered opening doodle reqs on like kofi?

I actually have!! But after thinking on it I'd much rather prefer to see and approve what's being commissioned of me first.

As far as I'm aware, with kofi, people would usually send in their idea AND money at the same time, which means I'd HAVE to fulfill the commission regardless of my thoughts/feelings on the matter! Or refund them! And that makes me uncomfortable!

So while I super appreciate the thought, if I were to do something like that it'd be organized like my usual commissions and I'd take slots, payment through paypal, etc, or I'd just take on free requests like last time!

#Kailey Does A Talk #Anon #Anonymous #Ask #I've seen artists get commissioned this way through kofi by someone they didn't like or that the request made them uncomfortable #And they couldn't really do anything about it aside from trying to refund them or just fulfilling the request #and the commissioner aka the client would get all in a huff about it #so that wHOLE situation and ones much like it just discouraged me as a whole from taking commissions from kofi #PLUS I'd hate to get a request at a bad time where work is killin me and I can't even doodle and the client would have to wait a while...

[hikari-writes]

Long rant?? Confession?? Idk anymore- ahead 👇👇 :

Okay soo,,, ive studied at a religious boarding school for over 5 years and its been drilled in my mind ever since i first entered abt this thing called "ikhtilat". We were told to always "take care" of our ikhtilat. (In malay is jaga ikhtilat but idk whats the suitable translation so i just directly translated that skdwjerj) ikhtilat basically means "interactions between the opposite genders". And to "take care" of that means to not go overboard with your interactions with the oppgen and always maintain professionalism.

If youre confused abt what it means to "not go overboard", i think the easiest way to put it in terms that everyone understand is basically, dont be a pick-me girl/guy. But it goes a bit deeper than that. Unless theres a business that involves the oppgen, interacting with them for a casual chitchat (especially if youre ALONE with that oppgen) is kinda, well......not well looked upon, lets put it that way.

U cant have a physical contact w an oppgen casually if theyre not your mahram (mahram means someone you cant marry, i.e siblings and uhhh etc etc.) and youre not married (yet). So "taking care" of ikhtilat is precisely to prevent that.

So why did i bring this up? Well its to give u a clearer picture on why i feel this way whenever this happen to me.

I....dont know how to react whenever my friends told me abt their irl crush- like?? Idk the appropriate response to it? Especially to my muslim friends-- like,, should i hype them up? Should i ship them?? I have no clue- 😭😭 on one hand, i would feel bad if i direct them to a sinning path (of breaking ur ikhtilat and leading to couple,, which could lead to another big sin which is zina or s3x b4 marriage) but on the other hand, it feels like im a bad friend if i dont support them? Not that crushing is a bad thing and will all lead to that path, i mean its just a crush, but again, whether in public or in private i dont know what i should say or do whenever they geek out abt thier crushes-

I deeply respect ppl who can hype them up bc im a super bad hypeman when it comes to love since i cant understand the feeling 💀💀 (feat. me and my aromantic ass except when it comes to fictional charas)

But hey! Im genuinely happy for you if u have a crush on someone !! Whether its just a deep crush or just a "i think theyre cool" crush :D it means ur crush can bring even a lil bit of smile to ur day and thats good for u!! Im glad ur crushes can make u happy im happy if ure happy <3333 i just have trouble thinking of an appropriate, non cheesy response (bc i think if i said "im happy ur crush makes u happy" out of the blue thatd be a bit ...💀💀) to ur geeking-- BUT IM GENUINELY HAPPY FOR U OKAY !?

#if someone replied to this post just to shit on my religion and my beliefs #then kindly get tf off this blog 😭😭 i dont tolerate u being islamophobic here #but if u want to correct my *own* mindset then pls go ahead i appreciate it 👍👍 #just dont insult my religion pls </3 #⋆ the light purple roses #also pls dont let this discourage u to talk abt ur irl crush to me 🥲🥲 #me having trouble thinking of a good response doesnt equal to me hating or being uncomfortable of u talking abt them </3 #or if u want to geek out abt ur fictional crushes tjats encouraged too 👍👍❗❗

[britneyshakespeare]

might fuck around and buy my friend a copy of the riverside shakespeare (1973) for his birthday

side note it astonishes me that ppl are selling this book for between $50 to $100 secondhand in some places. you can get it for under 10 bucks at so many online retailers. it's a fifty-year-old tome that was commonly used as a college textbook, there are so many fuckin copies still floating around out there and most of them on the market are in the acceptable-to-good category of condition. how could one you have be worth much more than that? is yours in extra special superb condition? what?

do ppl just think everything vintage is valuable... bc oftentimes it just isn't

#idk #tales from diana #i just figure as a book my copy has meant a lot to me #like it is no exaggeration at all for me to say the riverside shakespeare changed my life #changed my reading habits changed my relationship to art #despite being such an unwieldy inconveniently gigantic and uncomfortable physical object to read from #i still have read uhhhh like 17 plays in there and a number of the poems. #not to mention all the supplementary materials like introductions and historical essays #if 5 years ago my grandmother didn't let me take home my aunt's old college textbook i cant imagine my life now i genuinely cant #i already did read shakespeare at that time but i had read so few. i didnt know how to continue. whether to keep buying copies #going to libraries etc #i never wouldve bought myself the complete works at that age i had no money #if i HAD bought myself smth i mightve gone for that b&n coffeetable book w no fucking supplementary material at all #that thing is a waste of paper btw ive probably said that before #that thing was not made to actually read shakespeare from but it's made to look like a good deal for beginners #FUCK THAT THING i mean i suppose it's not crazy expensive but it's not HELPFUL #anyone would be discouraged trying to read from that by themselves #anyway this friend also already does like shakespeare and stuff we talk about it sometimes. he took a class at one point in college #but i dont think he owns the complete works. i texted his gf asking him if he still has his textbook from that class #i dont think he does bc i know him to have rented textbooks most of the time buuuuut #just checking #im excited teehee #itd be a nice personal gift. i love mine not just for the wealth of interest it's brought me but the personal attachment to my copy #id like to have that kind of bond through an object w someone else. #plus it's just a nice thing to have around the house #it sat in my grandmother's house as a pretty untouched object for more than 40 years #it sparks curiosity. it's wonderful. it's a great reference. it holds the complete works of shakespeare! #yeah im excited about this

[zeriphi]

I’m putting together all of the greatest tmnt accounts to find all the letters of the alphabet and you earned a spot congrats tap and Butter where the first to figure out what’s going on that why i recommend you reach out to them for help

find the soup and good luck

-🦤

…… aight. I’m flattered I suppose.

I’m still very confused.

#I’m sorry guys I really don’t want to be a buzzkill I just really don’t understand this stuff #and getting it with no context is kind of confusing and concerning to some degree #I’m glad you like my work? I don’t want to discourage you from having fun? but I’d rather have had this context from the start #I don’t really talk about it on here but I’m autistic these kinds of games with no information don’t make a lot of sense to me and and just #kind of make me uncomfortable because I don’t understand what’s going on #again I’m sorry I feel really bad I don’t want to ruin anyone’s fun this is all just really confusing for me

[unlicensedinvestigator]

some of you in the d20 fandom need to learn proper note etiquette fr

if it’s an ambiguous comment use some tone indicators, don’t tag a ship in art of two characters if it’s not explicitly tagged, etc…

#dimension 20 #d20 #i’ve been getting some kind of passive aggressive tags on my posts lately that really need tone indicators #and some tags i’m not super comfortable with #just putting this out there #i don’t want to be mad or anything it’s just either really discouraging or uncomfortable sometimes

[waterfall-ambience]

ok- gonna try something. i’m taking requests for hermitclone stuff, they’ll all be done in the my “20 minute shitpost” style unless i think it’s funnier to do so otherwise. i’m turning on anon. go nuts.

#hermitcraft #hermitclones #disclaimer if the suggestion makes me uncomfortable im not gonna do it #tagging for some exposure (if it even shows up). technical difficulties have been discouraging me from big pieces #so im gonna try to shift gears to quick bits just to keep momentum up

[aroace-poly-show]

the excitement of finding someone with a common interest in the server was immediately ruined by the reminder of the fact that i doubt i’ll make any friends or actively talk to someone in dms or whatever since my mom will look through my messages and interrogate me about anything

#marlo’s stuff #its very uncomfortable #and i am scared of them saying something wrong #and my mom promptly making me cut them off completely. again. #the paranoia and discomfort kinda completely discourages me from wanting to be friends with anyone here #i miss having privacy with my friends #this is why i never ask for my friends numbers lmao #sigh

[fleurladari]

  --just a sort of soft reminder for those following this blog!!       lysandre is a very exhausting muse for me to write, his activity will not be consistent and he is the one muse of mine that will do whatever he pleases with drafts, asks, etc. if he loses the inspiration for things he likely will just drop them. if you ever want to continue something that i have yet to reply to, feel free to dm me and i’ll make sure it’s in my drafts, but lysandre is a muse that i really can’t force. it’s also good to remember that this blog is still in heavy progress and there are a lot of things i still don’t know about lysandre because he either hasn’t told me or i haven’t had the time to work it out. i am unlikely to reblog memes on this blog unless it’s simple things and headcanon based and starter/inbox calls are few and far between. this is a muse driven blog, so a lot of things will be done either from my muse reaching out to yours or your muse will have to reach out to him.

#ooc ;; imperfect pterodolphin #this isn't to discourage anyone from wanting to interact with him!! #just know that he is not as compliant as he might seem in the moment. #he tires me the fuck out and i can't push him and i'm often coming out of writing him just to recieve headaches #and sometimes migraines. #legit <3 writing this man has given me a migraine. #so please just remember it may take longer for me to reply to things. #also know that i will not hold back lysandre. i just won't lmao. #unless it's something that makes you; as my partner; uncomfortable. #his muse is one i can't hold back beceause if i don't he will be stubborn and he just won't reply.

[rights-for-redshirts]

Take: We as a fandom (Star Wars) would benefit deeply from remembering that what we are fans of (Star Wars) is a hot mess of patchwork in all directions that sometimes directly contradicts itself. We need the strength to sometimes view "x horrific thing" not as a horrible moral failing of the characters and instead just as "they were trying to patch up this particular plot hole, did not think it through and ripped three new ones"

#This is about the child stealer debate btw #Like #Canonically #The jedi do not steal children. This is stated #What we are shown is 1) the hot mess that is everything going on around Anakin being Not As It Should bc tragedy #And 2) that these kids are separated from families and raised in one very secluded religious setting that discourages connections to #The rest of the world and is rarely ever left #And that's. Um. Uncomfortable at best #And since the Jedi are supposed to be the epitome of good in sw ... yeah. Just #Uuh #Whatever #Sw

[aanalytic]

my space-alien-pretending-to-be-a-person disguise wasn't very good today and everyone could tell :(

#my boss made some offhand comment about how i always seem uncomfortable around him #i said im always uncomfortable i just fake it a lot so that i can even hold this job #but it hurt my feelings so bad. holding back tears n everything. bc i thought i was doing such a good job about it #working retail to me is truly hell on earth bc i have to fight so hard to do the Voice and the Face and the Interactions #just wish it came easily to me like it seems to for everyone else #i was kinda angry at him and bruised ego and shit but more than anything i was just discouraged #like. thats the kind of comment that makes you evaluate everything you do under a hypercritical lens #i kept checking to make sure i wasnt being Too Weird or doing the Thing With My Hands too much or whatever #and it was in like the first hour of my shift so i just carried this around all day :( #i rly want this to be behind me and like. “tomorrow will be better” my way out of it but christ i'm still just so hurt #internal analysis

[stonesandswords]

i hate trauma. i hate trauma. i hate trauma.

#i know trauma is not an excuse for not communicating effectively #i know it’s not! #but i also hate it when people know my trauma and say i can talk to them but then it’s still uncomfortable for me to talk and/or complain #to them #i’m absolutely not saying anyone here does that because that is absolutely not my experience with people i’m still mutuals with here #but i’ve just had enough people who have said they’re there for me #and then as soon i’ve talked to them about things in my life or about my trauma (that they formerly said was okay for me to talk about) #they’ve freaked out and cut their friendship with me #i never know where i stand; i never know what line is acceptable for me to cross #it’s difficult and discouraging for me #it’s like i never know where to talk about anything #and i never know when i’m being a burden

[fingertipsmp3]

Some companies are so arrogant… I got this email inviting me to an interview and they included a link that just says “to accept the interview or view further information click here”. Who said I wanted to accept?! I literally marked the job as ‘no longer interested’ on Indeed

#i clicked the link and there’s no option to decline 🙃 they really want me to email them huh #i just don’t know if they know what they’re getting into. i’m going to send an email that’ll make them Wish they’d included a decline button #the reason i don’t want to work for or even interview with this company anymore is twofold #first off the interview is ‘one way’ which means i’m supposed to spend my time making a video basically advertising myself and based on that #they’ll decide if they want to interview me properly. which to me just seems like a massive waste of my time and extremely disrespectful #if you’re going to do regular interviews anyway just start with that. why make people jump through hoops like this? #just read my fucking cv if you want to know about me #it just seems like a way for them to weed people out with minimal effort and idk. i can’t put my finger on it but it doesn’t sit well for me #and i know i’d feel uncomfortable as fuck talking into a camera so i wouldn’t get the job in this way so it really would be a waste of time #the other reason is more serious but basically i read some reviews and testimonials for the company that were REALLY bad #someone said they discourage people from taking time off; the accommodation is really bad; & they know someone who was so stressed working #there that they attempted suicide #so like. it’s a no from me #to me the only question is do i go total scorched earth in my email or do i just politely decline #if they’re the type of people who ignore indeed notifs saying ‘i’m no longer interested’ they might be the type of people who ask #for feedback about why i don’t want to interview with them #i think i’ll just remain polite but a little snide like ‘hi; thanks for the opportunity; but i did already note via indeed that i’m no #longer interested in this position. thanks again for considering my application but i will be declining this interview. kind regards; ellen’ #if they ask for reasons i will give them reasons. but for now i think this will suffice #personal