#BUT I'M ANXIOUS ABOUT IT :)

[fefeman]

Ya know?

I think I understand Minimalist Arknights.

I too have anxiety about being underqualified for my aspirations and feel like if I make an effort framing my projects in an appealing manner I am lying. That if they don't win people over by their sheer concept, I'm a failure...

#Anyway I have to make a devlog video in the week that come #but I'm anxious about it

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[abd-illustrates]

☃️ Eira ☃️

Finished art from this week's video! It was really nice to draw my ice boi again, but even nicer to see him (and the video itself) getting such a warm reception from y’all in the comments - thank y’all so much for the lovely energy 💖

[DO NOT EDIT OR REPOST TO OTHER SITES / ACCOUNTS] ♻️reblogs are lovely tho!♻️

#artists on tumblr #abd illustrates #Heartless #Eira Hale #fr it's been so reassuring to see so many lovely comments from y'all after how anxious my burnout had me feeling #about posting again after such a lil while #it's much appreciated and i'm really looking forward to continueing to chip away at heartless behind the scenes #cause i wanna make a proper comic outta it so much #💙☃️

[fox-guardian]

[ID: Digital drawings of Needles from The Magnus Protocol on a gray background. He is a thin, shadowy figure in a brown raincoat with the hood up and dark gray pants and gray shoes and black fingerless gloves. His only visible facial features are his large eyes and mouth, and needles make up his eyebrows and poke out of his chin like a goatee. He also has needles coming out of his fingertips. The first drawing is a bust showing him smiling at the viewer, and the second is a full body drawing of him posed as though walking with his hands near his sides making clawing gestures. He is smiling at the viewer with extra needles poking out from between his teeth. end ID]

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a hesitant needles design!! keeping my design pretty vague and ambiguous for now, waiting until we get more description cuz i feel like we're def going to soon enough. I imagine the needles are usually under the skin and then poke out as needed (i just drew them as brows and beard to get the Needles Thing across) (no i did NOT mean to give him a goatee it just happened)

#fg's art #the magnus protocol #tmagp #needles tmagp #needles #needles tw #i really like this guy #i Do have a more solid mental image of him but im just hesitant im like Too Excited ough #also it's like. really different from the needles designs i've already seen and i'm Anxious About It <3 but maybe i just haven't seen enoug #edit: not me forgetting to trigger tag the needles guy. FOR NEEDLES.

[lightningidle]

Did a little painting about the nighttime 🦇✨ Very much inspired by this piece from @nepeteaa!

UPDATE: now available on Inprnt!

DO NOT EDIT OR REPOST

#my art #painting #I own the harvest quilt design on a hoodie AND a blanket it's so good!! #I'm trying to be less anxious at night so this is about some nice things that nighttime has #it's very basic but it was nice to make

[demigods-posts]

canonically, percy isn't aware of the crushes people have on him until it's too obvious to deny — like when annabeth kissed him, or when nico straight up told him. and since percy isn't aware of rachel's crush on him until the beginning of tlo, that means there was a point in time when rachel was actively trying to get with him and he had no idea. and it's not even his fault lol. he just only saw her as his good friend and just thought her advances were her being friendly. i just have to see this in action.

#percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #pjo text post #pjo headcanon #percy jackson #rachel elizabeth dare #just imagine rachel taking percy to an expensive event and holding his hand #and percy's all: #'oh my friend is probably anxious of big crowds. let me hold her hand because friends help each other in their time of need🥰' #or rachel taking any chance she gets to grab his bicep or touch his shoulder #and he's all: #'rachel is a very affectionate person. it's cool tho. so am i when i'm around people i care about. rachel is such a cool friend🥰' #i desperately need someone to write a fic or sum lol

[maybe-murphy]

Doodling in between studying for the final state exam tomorrow. Wish me luck!

#I'm so incredibly anxious about tomorrow #at least it will be over soon if I pass the exam #IF I pass #thesis defence is also tomorrow just before the exam #dunno if it's the same in the other countries. I'm studying in Czechia #sorry for venting in the tags haha #commander cody #commander fox #obi wan kenobi #quinlan vos #star wars #the clone wars #murphy draws

[chalkrub]

ralsei deltarune by request <:^)

#my art #deltarune #ralsei deltarune #ralsei fanart #i like this thang. i don't trust him but i do like him especially his shadowy form #i'm not like a hardcore ut/dr fan but i do like thems games. berdly is my favourite. will i ever draw him? maybe #okay. extremely anxious about classwork because i'm behind and i accidentally forgor to do something AND didn't read my emails for days #but i'm still going out for impromptu cocktails because why tf not #embarrassment from missing an email is temporary. laffs with friends is eternal. always remember this

[uncanny-tranny]

Hey, if you have speech impediments, you are so amazing.

If you stutter or have a lisp or misspeak easily or you have a flat affect or a limited verbal vocabulary or if your voice is AAC or if you just have a difference in your vocality, you are so incredibly important and amazing.

Just know that your voice is yours. Nobody will ever be able to truly take it away. Your voice is part of you, and you deserve to make it as true to you as you deem fit. I hope you have the space to grow with your voice and whatever about it makes it unique.

#positivity #disability positivity #partially because so much of voical differences arise from disability #i've developed a really annoying lisp-ish issue #and it's hard to be positive about it because it makes me feel like i'll be treated as lesser because it's a 'childish' affect #but i literally can't help it unless i spend 110% of my focus on it. and i don't have that amount of energy #but it makes me think about others and especially those who have it more intensely than i do #and i just want to uplift everybody because vocal differences are neutral at worst #man my dad always tells a story about this coworker he had who had a stutter like you wouldn't believe... #...and he was fucking BRUTALIZED for it... 'c-c-c-c-CAN YOU GET TO THE POINT?!' is how people would talk to him... #...and obviously that made his stutter twice as fucking worse and i can't imagine the shame and humiliation that followed... #...i hope he learned that those assholes were a fucking waste of time and that he doesn't have to deal with that... #...like i'm sorry but there is no fucking need to be that sadistic toward somebody who is obviously already anxious and worried

[i-lavabean]

Please let them rest in the finale please please please

#my art #lavabean art #candela obscura #the circle of tide and bone #elsie roberts #rajan savarimuthu #rajan/elsie #please let them have a soft ending #because they've got me in a headlock and I'm very anxious about the finale

[saltpepperbeard]

hi everyone how are we doing i'll go first i'm doing Bad :)

#OFMD #OFMD Season 3 #and i guess this also applies to- #Good Omens #JSDLKSJDLKS #these little whispers of similar posts inspired me idk #and also meow and the wifey in my dm's have expressed Similar Pain #it's just HARD OUT HERE #also me clowning lol 'i'm trying to be patient' and then whips back around with this post #BUT I JUST HSJKDKLSDS LIKE I WILL WAIT #BUT I'M ANXIOUS ABOUT IT :) #IT'S JUST A WAY MORE NERVE-WRACKING WAIT #BECAUSE I DON'T TRUST THE STUDIOS AT ALLLLLL #and god it's like #with ofmd AND good omens #it's legitimately just one more season #surely they'd just want to finish the story and see it all completely through and lock the viewership IN #SURELY IT WOULD MAKE THE MOST FINANCIAL SENSE TO WRAP UP A STORY AND THEN HAVE A COMPLETED STORY AND ATTRACT PEOPLE WITH THAT STABILITY #RIGHT??? #LIKE COME ON NOW

[whenthewallfell]

~ honey just put your sweet lips on my lips // we could just kiss like real people do ~

#the hunger games #everlark #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #peeta's wearing an elastic band he snaps when he's anxious #katniss doesn't get it but her coping mechanism is slaughtering the local wildlife so... #i have a whole headcanon about peeta's leg if ppl are curious #this pic ain't done but i am #pls zoom in i'm really proud of the lineart #fanart #mcbaart

[paxcallow]

do you think we could pretty please have some razlili they give me life🙏🙏🙏

DON'T MIND IF I DO!!! i am sorry anon that this is sososo late, i fell crappy ill for several days and also was drawing a whole several page comic in response to this ask for some reason. i'll post that too but here

busteeed

#psychonauts #lili zanotto #razputin aquato #razlili #sasha nein #AND KNUCKLES! (and sasha) #fanart #my art #thank you SO MUCH for the ask by the way. i love these kids. i love my kids #[anything psychic happens] #lili: well raz looks like we have no choice but to touch foreheads #what no wayy i dont just want to feel comforted and encircled by your aura because i'm too anxious to ask for a hug haha #noooo dont accidentally read my thoughts about how cute you are and how i want to kiss you we already did that bit xD dont DO it #\ i think razlili should just be raz and lili embarrassing themselves over each other back and forth

[royalarchivist]

[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]

Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?

[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*

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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.

Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!

Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.

* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.

#Pactw #QSMP #Pac #March 18 2024 #As much as I love keeping people updated about Pac / the other Portuguese-speaking creators #I think I might not make as many transcribed posts for their clips anymore #I just don't think I'm qualified enough to be transcribing things for a language I don't know #like yeah we have the Qlobal Translator and Aypierre's translators to rely on #And I'm always upfront when I'm not 100% sure about a translation #but I've been thinking about it a lot and it kinda makes me feel a bit icky. Idk. #I might be overthinking this but I just I don't want to spread around translations I'm not super confident about #esp. since I know a lot of people cite my clips in analysis posts or link them to other people as resources #and 90% of the time I'm like ''Hell yeah I love seeing people getting a lot of use out of the archive'' #but sometimes I get a bit anxious like ''Did I do a good enough job translating this'' #''Am I ruining someone's entire perception of a conversation or character because I left one word out or mistranslated something?'' #And like I said that's normally not a HUGE concern since if I'm not certain about a translation I just won't post a clip. but you know #idk it might just be the anxiety talking but I really really don't want to spread bad info #Happy to hear other folks' perspective #I'm really grateful for people like Bell and Pix and others who translate clips and I always try to reblog those #but we don't have a ton of people posting clips & translating things on Tumblr since we're so English-centric #which is part of the reason WHY I like sharing clips of the non-English-speaking CCs #but at the same time I want to do an accurate job representing what they're saying #Maybe I'll just start posting things and give a TLDR context of what they're talking about but not a transcript #that way native-speakers can hop in and add translations if that's something they're comfortable doing #and if not then well. at least I'm not sharing something that isn't super accurate #idk I'm just thinking out loud a bit in the tags #But I'm open to hearing other people's thoughts on the matter #Anyways giant rant aside. q!Pac is NOT doing ok rn

[petr1kov]

how can simon ever be expected to get over the woman who time traveled for him, spent years studying magic, sacrificed her sanity in the process, and ended up giving up her sense of self to become a god all so she would have the power to save h- wait hold up i just realized that this kind of sounds like homura and madoka. petrigrof really IS yuri

#please i'm so anxious about how they'll show betty on this new show 😖 #fionna and cake #at #petrigrof

[sharkneto]

Fanfic authors, I have a question!

I've been thinking about how fanfic has become more mainstream in the last few years, and if that's affected how open us authors are about our fanfic hobby.

#poll #fanfic #fanfic author #fanfic writing #i'm solidly a ''i choose who i share with'' #that circle slowly expands but i am selective #i have an internal debate regularly about it as i do still carry some shame about the hobby rooted in the fandom climate of a decade+ ago #but i do love writing and i'm wildly proud of my works! #so i feel weird about it and am working to not be so anxious about sharing with friends #and i'm curious of other authors are in the same boat as me #sharkneto speaks