#Am i self sabotaging

[lordacne]

returning to my pit of depression & despair

#my back feels ok now #but my head doesn’t #riding this downward spiral in the fast lane #am i self sabotaging #or will this be for the better? #i don’t want to be alone

[pransy123]

Singles Girls FAQ Series (Q 2)- Why am I alone ?

There could be many reasons that you are alone , even when you are trying to do your best to find a life partner. Some things you need to evaluate and think about are 1> Do you love yourself the way you are : If you don’t love yourself , chances are that you will convey the same to the guy by acting needy & showing a lack of confidence. 2> Is your heart ready to love : Your own past…

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#Am i self sabotaging #married #questions #Single Girl&039;s Guide #single women #when #Why am i alone #will

[stuckinapril]

I genuinely think that any change in behavior starts w telling yourself that your worst days, worst performances, just worst moments in general aren’t who you “truly are.” It’s all about unlearning any thought process that essentially chalks up traits you aren’t proud of to “this is who I really am” “in reality I’m lazy” “in reality I’m just a bad person” bc not only is that never true, but it impedes your efforts to try to do better as well. Anything we struggle with has roots in things like childhood trauma, thoughts you’ve been fed before, your upbringing…. but never that you’re inherently a bad person. What I’m learning this year is that a lot of us doing better & being better & improving really comes down to self-talk—to disavowing the very notion that deep down we’re simply bad.

#Bc how do you work on “this is who I am” #It’s like a self fulfilling prophecy #If you keep telling yourself this is just who you are then every time you improve you’ll feel cognitive dissonance and self-sabotage #It’s important to operate not from “this is who I am” but from “this is what I’ve been nurtured to be but I can change that”

[unorthodoxpartofyourworld]

to find myself at a beginning is to think of our ending

our middle

our beginning

when your eyes lit up and our tongues danced with passion, with words, with each other

and my heart would fill at every touch,

fire rising up in me to meet your gasoline

the smoke curled around us both and kept us unseen

a hidden love is more powerful than you know

you see i would keep you right under my skin, living between my bones, so that my lungs filled with you instead of air and i breathed you until your scent was more familiar than my own

and yet -

i'm learning to breathe in a new scent and i can't stop myself from clinging to the dark petrichor scent of you -

incense

cigarettes and sex

sweet caramel coffee

black currant and the unholy taste of your skin

#ah I dont even know #do i miss him #am i self sabotaging #what am i doing #i dont know what i want #but i guess i still want you #for some goddamn reason

[corallapis]

#the master #missy #gomez!master #simm!master #doctor who #dwedit #dw #* #Thinking About It Today. #like. the utter self-sabotage. #wanting NEEDING to remain unforgiveable. #to go 'see. he'll never really want me on my own terms. as i really am.' #and the first line is crazy. when thinking abt ten's 'i forgive you' followed w/ 'you're just going to keep me?' #yeah. the doctor putting the master in a cage again and again and again is. something.

[denszuu]

a burning hill // mitski

#mitski #a burning hill #vent art #i am in pain #crying screaming shitting throwing up #self sabotage #i can't affort therapy so i just make comics about how i feel #screms #aaaaaa #mini comic #my mental state is shit #i posted this on instagram and twitter

[bestomato]

back again

#my art #anthy himemiya #revolutionary girl utena #rgu #NO SPOILERS IN NOTES!!!!! PLEASE i only just finished the 1st arc 😭 #yesterday i did a late night photo shoot of me pretending to scream while pulling on my hair. this is how this anime got me #i love anthy i think it’s interesting to see how self sabotage is common behavior in abuse victims and how they connect that to the world #the visual department of this is SO GOOD. I LOVE ME A GOOD SYMBOLISM ALWAYS AND FOREVER!!!!!! #now i am going to sleep. good night!

[notyourdaisybuchanan]

Rewatching The Bear 2x03 is actually crazy and feels so clarifying because like...

The ep starts with Carmy speaking at Al-Anon about fun, and how maybe he needs to have more of it. He acknowledges that fun is complicated for him because as a kid his family tended to ruin things for him, even though this was often unintentionally done. He says that he thinks if he had more amusement or enjoyment in his own life then it would be easier to provide that for other people. (Big note here that part of the purpose OF a restaurant is to provide amusement and enjoyment for people. Then add in Luca's conversation with Marcus in 2x04 about how the best food comes from being open and inspired, and spending time in the world. So Carmy having fun could theoretically make him better at his job.)

Anyway, Carmy gives that spiel at Al-Anon. Then we get a brief interlude of Syd looking at articles about recent restaurant closings and being stressed.

And then we're immediately back with Syd and Carmy cooking together in his kitchen. She fucks up a dish again, and he suggests they stop cooking and do a palate reset.

Like... this all happens within the first five minutes of the ep. This man has been musing about how he needs to have more fun.... and then he suggests spending the day eating in the city with Syd..... ergo that's his definition of fun. This is literally him making an attempt at doing something for amusement or enjoyment!! He planned this!! I fully believe he had this idea even before Sydney fucked up the dish. This man said I need to have more fun and you know what would be fun? Spending the day with my business partner eating delicious food. So he sends her home with plans to meet in an hour.

And then. AND THEN. Claire calls. First of all when she asks if he's busy, he looks at the white board and the very first thing on the To Do list is "call fridge guy" so like. lmao. I love foreshadowing. And he literally is busy!!! Not with unpleasant tasks to do but with something FUN. Something fun that he planned FOR himself.

And what is it that Claire asks him to do? Is it something fun? No. She asks him to HELP HER MOVE her mom. Like, the least fun task in the history of anything, the thing that people historically HATE being asked to help with. And he doesn't look excited about it! He looks torn. He looks...weird idk. Like ohhhh it's actually so crazy that Carmy bails on a truly fun day with Sydney in order to do a manual labor favor for Claire.

This is so ripe for analysis you simply cannot tell me it doesn't mean anything.

Carmy thinks about how he needs more fun, plans a fun day for himself, and then, when someone he tried to avoid asks him to do a not fun favor, he says yeah, I'll do that instead.

#Almost like he feels a sense of obligation. #Almost like he's self sabotaging. #Almost like Claire's connection to his past to his family to Michael is... allowing his family to ruin something fun for him yet again. #idk I'm not completely married to that bit but the material is definitely there!! #anyway this is my first post-s2 sydcarmy analysis but certainly not the last!! #this show is nuts everything is so intentional and carefully crafted I'm having a field day #apologies if this post comes off like I'm yelling I kind of am bc I was so excited while writing it lol #the bear #the bear meta #sydcarmy #sydcarmy meta #the bear s2 #chefs kiss #sydney adamu #carmen berzatto #sydney x carmy

[robinfollies]

what are they Yapping About….

#robin’s art #billie bust up #2024 art #bbu fantoccio #bbu barnaby #barntoccio #this is a shoutout to my 15 year old self. i was a huge qp barntoccio shipper back in the day #still am tbh! love these guys <3 #id explain the vision but i cant. the haters will sabotage me. #just know theyre queerplatonic in the gayest way possible to me xoxo #yapper4yapper

[c0smickidd0]

Y’all really liked seeing comfort, so how about some angst for Xmas <3

#mondo and his self sabotaging tendencies am I right #this audio has been going around on tt and all I think of is them #danganronpa #danganronpathh #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #mondo owada #mondo oowada #kiyotaka ishimaru #ishimondo

[demonboyhalo]

Charlie Slimecicle is a gift from god holy SHIT his monologue??? y'all i am so, so, so hopeful for c!Quackity now that he's gotten it kicked into his head that his empathy is his most persistent, most inevitable, and most crucial quality. Quackity watching Slime evolve on the harshest lessons of life, taught by both Purpled and him...then having that product of their cynical natures kill them both? having Slime say outright to his face that 'the same human ruined our lives' before making him fall from his creations? Quackity watched as the rules he built to protect himself ended up getting him killed, and then learned his lesson! he says he's making his last chance count bc it's the last legacy he'll get to leave behind. he knows he can't bottle his emotions bc he'll get attached regardless, so now he might actually communicate about issues and meaningfully resolve the tensions he has between Dream, Purpled, and - oh yeah - Karl and Sapnap.

#whether or not quackitt does much more lore i belive that C!Quackity FINALLY has the starting tools to unpack his trauma #AND THAT MAKES ME HAPPY OK??? PERSONAL DEVELOPMENT OF A FICTIONAL CHARCTER IS STILL PERSONAL DEVOLPMENT #i am parasocially cheering on c!quackity as he rides into the sunset with one (1) clue on how to stop self sabotaging his life #ALSO 'fall from his creations' refers to him dropping from a tower in las nevadas which quackity built #while also falling psychically AWAY from slime WHO QUACKITY RAISED THEYRE BOTH HIS CREATIONS 😭😔✊💕 #mcyt #quackity #charlie slimecicle #purpled #dream smp #dsmp #las nevadas #slimecicle #dreamwastaken #karl jacobs #sapnap #karlnapity #ok phew that's everything i think

[sl8tersstuff]

I love life but I’m never going to find a way to live it without an abiding fear that I’m going to be alone forever.

As they say, there’s no guarantee you’ll be loved.

#deep thoughts #quotes #life quote #poem #poetry #quote #quoteoftheday #literacy #words #writing #struggle #life #slow living #self identity #self esteem #self sabotage #love #relationship #friendship #feeling alone #always alone #i am alone #fear of being alone

[theonevoice]

Summary of my evening so far:

1. Started drawing another sad sad Aziraphale

2. Got distracted for a solid minute on the phone

3. Looked back at the screen unprepared

4. Got self-punched in the feelings and cried

#i am not okay #good omens #good omens fanart #10/10 on self-sabotaging your mood for the rest of the weekend

[beanghostprincess]

"I love you" / "It'll pass" but it's established Sanuso breaking up during Water 7 because Sanji is asking if Usopp really will leave him (I love you) but Usopp thinks Sanji deserves better (It'll pass) but then everything happens and they don't have time to talk things out so they stay broken up during all that arc--

It's not even begging or asking him to stay because he knows that will make things worse. It's just... Silence. And Sanji going "You know I love you, right?" and Usopp like "It'll pass". And they don't say anything else to each other until they reunite in Enies Lobby.

#i was thinking about sanji saying it'll pass but y'know what he would fucking never #i mean he could bc they're both extremely self-sabotaging idiots but #i think it fits usopp better to break up with sanji this way and being more accepting of their break up #instead sanji would be so dramatic about it so um #idk throwing up because established sanuso breaking up during w7 hurts me in so many ways #i am evil for these thoughts #one piece #black leg sanji #usopp #sanuso

[meanslackofart]

if only someone paid much attention to the words i ever spoke, the inner child would have been healed long back

#therapy helped #but like always i distanced myself from that as well #why am i so self sabotaging? #ugh #anyway talking helps #but sadly none stay that long for it to work #and i end up finding new ones #just to start all over again #its tiring #desi tag #desi tumblr #desi blog #desiblr #desi dukh #desi daughter #design #inner child #heal #meanslackofart

[bpdohwhatajoy]

It scares the fuck out of me when someone says they like me but they genuinely don’t know me beyond a surface level and so whenever we talk I just think about how they wouldn’t like me anymore if they actually knew me

#ryan.txt #bpd #borderline personality disorder #like …… #it sucks #it’s someone I like but like #they don’t know me like #it’s so terrifying lmaaaaooooooo #so yeah I don’t think it could actually work out #which sucks bc I do genuinely like them #but idk #maybe I’m just in my head but I feel so fucked up #and like yeahhhh I don’t want them to know how fucked I am #but I also don’t wanna be with someone who doesn’t actually know me and I have to constantly hide shit about myself #been there already I’m never doing that again #feel sick to my stomach lmaaaaooooooo #fuck my ptsd is bad my brain is wigging out and self sabotaging #or is it protecting me #IDK!!!!