#ALWAYS REMEMBER UH HUH

[877158]

#MAYBE IT’S THE PAST THAT’S TALKING #SCREAMING FROM THE CRYPT #TELLING ME TO PUNISH YOU FOR THINGS YOU NEVER DID #SO I JUSTIFIED IT #ALL THAT BLOODSHED CRIMSON CLOVER UH HUH #THE BOMBS WERE CLOSER!!!!!!!!!!!! #MY HAND WAS THE ONE YOU REACHED FOR #ALL THROUGHOUT THE GREAT WAR #ALWAYS REMEMBER UH HUH #THE BURNING EMBERS!!!!!! #I VOWED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT TO FIGHT ANYMORE #IF WE SURVIVE THE GREAT WAR #UH HUH #UH HUUUH #IT TURNED INTO SOMETHING BIGGGERRRRRRRR #SOMEWHERE IN THE HAAAZE GOT A SENSE I’D BEEN BETRAYED #YOUR FINGER ON MY HAIIIIRPIN TRIGGERS #SOLDIER DOWN ON THAT ICY GROUND LOOKED UP AT ME WITH HONOR AND TRUTH #BROKEN AND BLUE #SO I CALLED OFF THE TROOPS #THAT WAS THE NIGHT I NEARLY LOST YOU #I REALLY THOUGHT I LOST YOU!!!!!!!!!

[non-un-topo]

Was thinking about Ye Olde Teenage Parties and the picture drew itself

#the old guard #tog #tog fanart #yusuf al kaysani #nicolo di genova #kaysanova #teenage edition #like just imagine... go on this journey with me: #yusuf frequented a lot of parties while he travelled with his merchant father. he's sort of a rich kid?? #always dressed in pretty colours and always very friendly and outgoing. do NOT tell his father he's drinking alcohol #or maybe he's not drinking alcohol and he's just really buzzing off about poetry and art idk #ye olde solo party cups #anyway like 13 year old nico snuck out of the abbey with some other dudes #who have since left him to fend for himself because no one is speaking latin or zeneize and he is Lost #then yusuf plops down next to him and either he's confusing nico for someone he knows or he's just being really friendly #talking about some romantic poet or the stars or the universe or something. and nico is like Uh huh sure okay Wow pretty guy... #and either this is an au where they met as teens or this happened in their timeline and they literally forgot / were too drunk to remember #that's it that's the fic #also NO One is allowed to bully nicolo about his little hat. he made it himself! #siggy draws

[samarecharm]

geniunely not trying to put words in ur mouth im geniunely asking: what do you actually like about persona 5? from all ur rants im just wondering why you didnt drop the game bc it seems (again, im not trying to put words in ur mouth) that it simply not for you? i geniunely have not felt any of the issues you bring up outside of the writing ones and i cannot tell if i'm just easily pleased and not good at discerning what a good game is or we simply have dif things we enjoy in a video game. i hate getting tone across text but im asking out of geniune curiosity im not trying to attack your opinion (;-;)

Nah, i dont feel like ur attacking me, and I hope u dont feel the same when u see my complaints! Lmao. In my defense, I am replaying the game for the first time after completing my first file back in 2020, so alot of the faults i kinda shrugged off in my first playthrough are now glaringly in my face now that I no longer have the confusion and interest in learning the main story to keep me occupied. The game is clunky all the way through, and at some times, even frustratingly so.

But despite that, i do like this game. Alot! Its probably one of my top games ever if im being honest!

This ended up way longer than I intended, so im putting it under a readmore to keep the post short on dashboards

If i had to describe what I liked about the game in the simplest way imaginable…I think I would say, I like how the game makes me feel :) I like the music. I like the vibe. I like the immersion from city to city, and I like the premise! I like the characters and I like the connections you make with these characters! As im replaying this game, i am most excited to see Akira and his comments about the world :) i like hearing everyones voices, I like their little interactions in Mementos, and I like seeing them fight!

P5 is the first game I played in the series; its the game that introduced me to SMT in the first place! And it (smt) is a series that my longtime best friend LOVES and never thought hed be able to share with me! It is a game i keep very near to my heart; it has influenced me in ways i did not think would happen in the short couple of years since i first finished it. It genuinely keeps me awake some nights thinking about the world this game has created, and I think that is a testament to the impact its had, be it good or bad.

The joke about wishing theyd make a persona game that was Good is that despite all of its numerous flaws, the games manage to snatch your attention and pull you in anyway. Imagine if they made a game that had all of those things that i mentioned I loved, but done Right and executed Properly?? Where I got to have a story that made sense and didnt need to be spoonfed to me (in like an HOUR of dialogue and scenes; an HOUR!), and characters that talked and bonded beyond the tiny snippets of interaction theyre allowed to have in mementos? Combat that let me use PERSONAS i liked instead of BUILDS that stop me from getting instakilled throughout the entirety of the endgame, and a Persona building mechanic that didnt feel like I was shooting in the dark looking for possible fusions that end up not even being useful in the endgame.

Ive mentioned it before, but I complain so much bc I have seen what a good p5 game looks like, and its Strikers almost to a T. Combat is still your typical warriors-esque style combat, but it is at least different from the turn based strategy of the main game. Characters talk to each other freely, they hang out and comfort each other in a way that feels more connected that the base game. Strikers implements the ability to see ALL possible fusions with ALL registered personas, not just the ones in your Stock, so you can fuse easily without having yo consult a guide. The story feels like it makes SENSE with antagonists that feel morally grey and sympathetic. Genuinely, alot of the complaints for p5 I had were almost immediately rectified in this game.

But please also know that the praises I sing for this game is only bc of the groundwork laid by p5 and the world it created. Thats what I like about this game, that it had such a captivating premise and cast of characters, that a DIFFERENT company was able to hit the ground running with them. P5 had alot happening in that game, but i think what it had most was potential. The effort put into this game is astronomical, and the possible connections you can outright MISS if u arent paying attention was worth the money and time to implement; even if it meant that it could be considered a waste of resources to higher ups.

Books and games and part time jobs???!! Silly little cutscenes that add nothing to the game PLOTwise, but define and flesh out the personality of your protagonist. There was alot of love put into this game, and its evident by the fact that we have NOT seen a new persona game released; they bank on existing titles bc they are unwilling to make a game like this from scratch again. They dont want to ‘waste’ resources on good voice acting and a complex, overarching story; they dont want to waste money on scenes a player may never see, on routes a player may never get to experience. Making a game that gives u even the slightest bit of freedom means more money in programming and detailing that freedom. This has been an issue for a WHILE, and its a miracle that the gaming landscape had space for a colossal title like p5!

I complain bc I want better, and I do not think that is inherently at odds with my love of this game. In b4 im told to get good; ive played on hard and tested out merciless (its NOT fun, im making godbuilds again and its boring 😞). Its not the most accessible turnbased rpg; theres no colorblind modes, and the affinity system is convoluted and overwhelming. Combo moves are hard to keep track of and it can be incredibly frustrating to see your turns being skipped or seeing characters take extreme technical damage without understanding WHY it happened. The fact that they KNEW the game was desperate for qol improvements by the time royal came out, and instead of updating the base game to have those improvements too, they just pushed the royal edition out for people to play instead. It sucks! Customers and fans deserve better than being forced to shell out money for a game they already played !

As the gaming climate gets more and more hostile and unbearable, I think it is good to look at your games critically, and understand why products come out subpar. Persona 5 is a fun game that has a nice cast and an interesting premise, but it is ultimately tied down by its refusal to build on existing building blocks regarding its combat, and it insists on having insulting and downright out of character dialogue and scenes to appease the audience its designed to be targeted to. It is easy to forget sometimes that queer ppl are infact NOT the prime target of these games, its cishet gamer bros from aged 16 to 40 who will laugh at homophobic comments, who drool over a 16 yr old girl with a 16 yr old mindset and a grown womans body, who need to be placated with constant sexual comments to deal with a convoluted story that will inevitably make zero sense until its laid out for you before the literal end of the game.

Its bad. Its good. Its so shallow and its unbelievable that they thought having the plot twist make ZERO sense until they showed CUTSCENES of YOUR character discussing Goro and his connections to the metaverse for endgame SHOCK VALUE was more important than just having your team be smart and piece it together over time. Its shit. Its literally amazing. It let you FUCK your teacher ??????????????what the FUCK. They also let me shoot a god in the face w the best looking ult persona in the world so i can ignore that shit. And ultimately that is how i got through the game. Lol.

#chattin #answered #i have mentioned it before but i did NOT romance anyone #u know why? bc i literally didnt know it existed #i maxed out ann and the game was like ‘hey. this next decision is important’ #and i was like. huh. u know what. i have not looked up a guide until now. thats scary. i dont want to lose a confidant… #and learned that. #so uh. i really DID go through the game bot realizing i could date anyone. even the adults. #anyway. this was alot. and i tried to keep out alot of my other complaints #bc i have so many. but they are like. either nitpicky things or things that are issues in lots of games too #like the models suck in this game but i can look past that. graphics are always bottom on the list of complaints #and i do like the little animations!! i like akiras little tics #and i like seeing personas do their casting animations; shiki ouji and nekomata are my faves #i distinctly remember that being a thing i wished to see more of. #bc i liked thinking of what joker would look like fighting for Real #and then i remembered him being in smash so i was like COOL. ill look at those #and then i got STRIKERS and it was exactly what I wanted #i think #the game is like. #its bad. but in ways that i wouldnt call another game bad #like back 4 blood is BAD bad. its awful. the gameplay is bad. the story was shit. and the servers shut down within a year or two of launch #risk of rain 2 is bad in the way that it continuously obscures and withholds information to the player. its tedious and frustrating #but unlike b4b i LIKE ror2 and will continue to enjoy it. #bc the gameplay loop FEELS satisfying #and ultimately thats how i feel about p5 #for all of its faults; its fun. it has a gameplay loop that is consistent and fun when u get the hang of it #im playing on hard again since merciless is just me making the right instakill builds while i pick up my team over and over again #and theres still a challenge in having the endgame weapons and armor #its satisfying! and i think its satisfying bc I was given the luck of having this be my introduction into the series #maybe i would have a better opinion on the game if i came from p4. or maybe not! who knows !

[fatal-blow]

OKAY BUT CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW THE CANARIES AND THE THREAT OF PUNISHMENT CONTINUED TO MAKE THE SITUATION WORSE KINDA REMINDS YOU OF SOMETHING DOESNT IT

#its almost as if punishing people for shit forces them to double down because now they believe there are NO good options #i remember once when i was young i asked what if someone broke the law but they didnt realize it. do the still get in trouble. #the answer is yes but it always baffled me. how can you avoid doing something if you don't even know about it #and that extends to how do i know what im doing is wrong if you wont even explain why #anyways #im normal about this manga uh huh uh huh #dungeon meshi

[sqlmn]

Ananza is the wind deity, though she's not the first with that honor. Originally the elder gods selected a man as their wind deity but after he witnessed Oh and Fulj being punished he requested to relinquish his role. Basically asking them for a mortal death rather than immortality. They obliged since the deities exist to help humans and a miserable deity won't do the job properly so no need to keep a deity bound to a task they don't want to do.

So Ananza was selected as a replacement. Fulj has no recollection of the first wind deity and Ananza has already been told by the fire deities that it wasn't Fulj's fault but she was the final straw for the former wind deity. So, Ananza doesn't hold any dislike towards Fulj and actually really likes listening to her talk. Ananza loves to dance and wander around her city so when Fulj stops by to visit, she listens to Fulj's adventures while they roam the city.

Because there are two fire deities and one can stay in their city while the other wanders and because Fulj no longer has a city to be focused on, the three like to visit the other cities to check in. Ohime and Ohiwe really like to visit Ananza while Fulj prefers to visit Ymber. While Ananza likes Ohiwe, Ohime, and Fulj, she really isn't fond of the ice deity or Ymber. She doesn't like to scramble for topics and ice/Ymber don't start conversations enough so it's a bother to Ananza to try forcing friendliness. She loves light hearted stories though and Fulj and the fire deities excel at that type of story.

(Ohime and Ohiwe sometimes call her Nana and on that note it's lore in the tags time)

#the daily life of a deity sucks #also fwiw ! deacon doesnt really tell anyone but he really wants to meet the wind deity #because he might have lost his mom at a young age but she was originally from the city of wind and had wind magic #so he would watch his mom dance either solo or with his dad and it was always fun to him to watch how happy his mom was #so when he was told it was a dance she learned when she was a child he doesnt think much of it #but he sees ohime trying to show ymber a dance he was finally getting down and then ohime pauses #cause hes trying to remember and deacon is like oh you clap three times not two #and both ohime and ymber are staring at him like what did you just say #and deacon is like yeah uh you do the claps but kinda like this in order to keep the flow free and light #and ohime is just smugly looking at ymber saying oh ? really? youve been teaching him dance moves? #and ymber is just hey dont look at me so ohime is baffled and then fulj has? #and deacon says he learned of it a while ago from someone else haha sorry if hes wrong it could be wrong #thats why ymber asks him later about it and finds out deacons mom was originally an ananza follower #and is like huh wild while ohime is now plotting how to get ymber and deacon on a vacation to see ananza #and honestly i really just want to have deacon meeting ananza now and being in absolute awe of the deity #because THATS HER YMBER THATS THE ONE MY MOM WORSHIPPED #and ymber is able to be around deacon and ananza while they converse and that #helps ananza realize ymber isnt as cold and distant as she thought he was - fascinating #and also she likes deacon who holds her in such reverence despite being ymbers follower

[clownsnake]

I don’t think hyeonseong needed to remember dokja’s order to think about him if something goes wrong. I think he’s just always thinking abt dokja

and I love him for that

#Loyal puppy man #going post #Orv #‘Hey can you hit me again? and do it really hard’ kinky #‘no wait. just kill me right now’ UM. I RESCIND THAT LAST STATEMENT. #I don’t remember what his new attribute is how is dokja gonna cheat death this time #HYEONSEONG CHARACTER PROGRESSION FUCKING FINALLY #I’ve missed him…. deprogram your military propaganda boy itll be good for you #‘There is no third option this time’ ok my first instinct was to take him at face value but dokja is always planning and scheming so #maybe he’s just saying that so hyeonseong will make his own third option out of determination. #to teach him to like… not rely on dokja so much #maybe not the best phrasing but I think u get my point #next episode and I’m immediately confirmed right. AWESOME but also #Would have been nice to have delayed that gratification for a bit #let me step into a side character’s pov for a moment instead of having dokja tell me everything #‘I thought you considered me the standard you should strive for. If so then do as I say!’ ‘That’s not the kind of book I want to go by!’ #YEAHHHHH HYEONSEONG!!!! MAKE YOUR OWN BOOK! GET THAT CHARACTER GROWTH #‘I see. Well done.’ Dokja you want to be a constellation so bad #It’s already been confirmed tht that’s his goal but it’s been so obvious for a while #Like he keeps putting himself in mentor roles all the time. n constellations aren’t necessarily as close mentors as dokja has been #But they’re still essentially That #WAH HIS HANDS?? HUH??? #yeah yeah uh huh I was right dokja was helping hyeonseong learn his lesson on his own also HIS HANDS????? #*HIS ARMS???* GUYS. #‘until the scenario reaches an apocalypse’ bestie ur already in an apocalypse #Ofmy god he has to melt and then cool down a thousand times? what the hell #HUIWON CHARACTER PROGRESSION TOO?? YIPPEE!!!!! #aww a hug……. Even though he must be fucking scorching hot…. How sweet ^_^ #and hyeonseong was so polite too he’s such a sweetie #oh I was confused for a second but he literally snuffed the flame! smart

[medilies]

My pettiest pet peeve in film/TV shows is speedy phone calls

Okay, ik they have to cut down on run time but there's no way that character got all that info in the millisecond they left for the other person to talk

Like, bitch?? You not even gonna say goodbye before you hang up?

#what's your no 1 pet peeve? #its always like #“John! long time no see #how's your wife? good good #i gotta favour to ask... has anyone tried to break in recently at the facility? uh huh uh huh #gotcha.“ #all in the span of one breath and then there's a little beep as they hang up #byler #not st related but whatever #does st do this? #i cant remember #i feel like usually you get both sides of the convo with their phone calls so they cant rush it #idk lmk if you remember #stranger things

[silverselfshippingchaos]

it's the 23rd... you know what that means...

Happy Ash Day!

#hehe it's my day! not too many special plans other than some cake but. lots of f/o rot #my wonderful wife a.qua is canonically good at baking. i think she'd make a cake for her beloved. i get so happy thinking about a.qua! #shes the sweetest girl ever and i'm always soooo honored that she loves me too #i have a lot of f/os and i could go on forever about all the little things theyd like to do for their special pal's birthday #but also. i've been getting into x.enoblade... and have feelings for a character... i am 🤏 this close to putting him on the list #but uh. a birthday kiss perhaps? #ash rambles 💚 #but man.. just spending the day with the people that i love is really all i need. hehe so happy to be with them all! #hope everyone has a great day! #and since it's very early for me. i hope i have a great day too! #happy ash day to me~~~ happy ash day to me~~~ #i'd normally be asleep by now but. i'm very brainrotted over my wife tonight and i keep reading over some of my work about her and ash #i love this s/i so much. theyre childhood friends. shes blue and ash is red. a.qua is literally named a.qua and ash is ash #theyre red and blue. fire and water. been together forever. sometimes it really does feel like they were made for each other huh? #i have so much love for her in my heart. it makes my heart feel all skdjsjdhs when i think about her #oh but where was i #right. my birthday! i have a shit ton of fankids too so i bet theyre having fun as well #but.. on the topic of k.h s/i..... R.IKU! MY LITTLE BRO! #they arent related or anything. ash just saw him and was all 'wow who is this sassy lost child... you are little bro now' #she'd get soooo emotional just knowing that the kiddo remembered. he shoots her a text on gummiphone or even visits whatever world she's in #and ash gets all 🥺🥺🥺🥺 and hugs him so tight #but yeah. birthday. f/os. lots of fluff. the good shit fr #fun times!

[the-bi-space-ace]

“but the canon!!!!!” you cry as if the purpose of canon is not to have ammunition to fuel our own thoughts, theories, and analysis.

#‘canon is the correct take always’ #uh huh yeah totally sure sure sure #you keep saying that! #im gonna insert my stupid head canons into it like it’s 100% fact #why? #bc it’s fun #it’s meant to be fun fellas #pls remember that for crying out loud #for instance Fives wears a little hat on top of his helmet. oh he doesn’t? that’s strange bc he does

[coruscanti-arabi]

"It turned into something bigger" *Geonosis battle 1 to clone wars montage*

"somewhere in the haze, got a sense I've been betrayed" *clone wars to order 66 montage*

"your finger on my hairpin trigger" *order 66 montage continues*

"soldier down on that icy ground" *ahsoka & rex on the snowy moon/planet with the graves of the 501st*

"looked up at me with honor and truth" *maybe more ahsoka and rex or tales of the jedi padmé's funeral or the aftermath of other order 66 survivors*

"broken and blue" *all I see here is the 501st in terms of this edit idea, but I'd love to see other interpretations of the blue*

"so I called off the troops"

"That was the night I nearly lost you" *order 66 survivor montage*

"I really thought I lost you" *ending on ahsoka and rex hugging in rebels/ahsoka seeing yoda through the force again/any other order 66 survivors knowing and interacting with each other after the end*

#star wars #star wars rebels #clone wars #star wars tcw #edit ideas #the great war #taylor swift #kanan jarrus #ahsoka tano #captain rex #rex #THIS IS NOT R*XSHOKA #yoda #obi wan kenobi #order 66 #star wars prequels #cal kestis #There's no morning glory it was war it wasn't fair And we will never go back To that bloodshed crimson clover Uh-huh the worst was over #Always remember Uh-huh the burning embers I vowed not to fight anymore If we survived the Great War - peak obi wan line especially mustafar #the song has real good potential for star wars angst edits #ship or platonic ^^ #501st battalion #if you do an interpretation of this tag me!! or send it my way!!

[angelbabysimon]

this show is insane. that’s all i have to say at this time.

#currently thinking about 1) they were so sick for slapping us with that erik flashback #2) wille telling his mom she embarrassed him in front of the whole school and she’s like ‘lol don’t be such a whiny baby’ #3) chicken nuggets #4) IT TURNED INTO SOMETHING BIGGER SOMEWHERE IN THE HAZE GOT A SENSE ID BEEN BETRAYED YOUR FINGER ON MY HAIRPIN TRIGGERS SOLDIER DOWN ON TH #AT ICY GROUND LOOKED UP AT ME WITH HONOUR AND TRUTH BROKEN AND BLUE SO I CALLED OFF THE TROOPS THAT WAS THE NIGHT I NEARLY LOST YOU I REALL #Y THOUGHT ID LOST YOU #IT WAS WAR IT WASNT FAIR AND WE WILL NEVER GO BACK TO THAT BLOODSHED CRIMSON CLOVER UH HUH THE WORST WAS OVER MY HAND WAS THE ONE YOU REACH #ED FOR ALL THROUGHOUT THE GREAT WAR ALWAYS REMEMBER WE’RE BURNED FOR BETTER I VOWED I WOULD ALWAYS BE YOURS CAUSE WE SURVIVED THE GREAT WAR #n e ways long story short they survived #5) the fact that the gun scene in episode 6 is the only time we see all five main characters together and it’s brilliant #young royals

[astrxealis]

hi more rambles ^___^

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა gbf ໒꒱ *·˚ #lowkey reminds me of ffxiv but this really means nothing bcs i always look for traces of ffxiv LMFAOOo #'providence' mhm. many skies. destruction. creation. mhmmmmhmm #DRYAD !!! SUCH A FITTING NAME. LOVE IT #uh o wow. wow. i'm so gay (dryad is so pretty) #LOVE THE MUSIC HERE BTW !!!!! #oh. the king's eye #two more islands... the invisible hand..... #the otherworlders mess with memories and reality yes. providence of death (that sounds so cool). the not-so-distant future oh my god #oooo i see !! the multiple worlds and all. so kinda like that doctor strange movie LMFAO though i'd rather compare it to ffxiv even if its #not as similar ^^ also huh what edan. what. #also anamaria hmm #maybe she's just normal and kinda sus ARGHHH idk man #EUGEN LMFAOOOO !! also i think my theory is right but also idk yet! #i forgot what the great wall is tbh #ohh! i vaguely remember. omg... alliah my love #oh i think i get anamaria now. it's smth else to do w the otherworlds messing with memories and reality i think? #what the HELL !! #oh no. this island has already been yeah by the otherworlders... oooohhh noooo #this is so weird and i like how the storytelling also makes the reader confused ?? it is fulfilling its purpose i think #that effect just flashed over the map. hmmm yeah there's smth going on here again #THE VIOLET KNIGHT GOD THAT STARTLED ME. i am very curious as to how this will go #what. what. they all forgot? except for danchou and rackam what... #oh. did djeeta forget too :(( anyways i feel bad for rackam. and scared for him #okay djeeta remembers too!! djeeta understands now whats going on right. and theres smth w rackam too hm and anamaria #rackam yeah ..... motivated/impatience. hmm. okay anamaria! will stuff get cleared up #what. WHAT. WHERE IS RACKAM. IS HE GONE NOW. btw this reminds me of ffxiv too but in enw ifykim #hi white knight <33

[drivemysoul]

yes i'm thinking about the kirigaya siblings and the great war again

#taylor.txt #my knuckles were bruised like violets... sucker punching walls. cursed you as i sleep talked... spineless in tomb of silence... #tore your banners DOWN took the battle underGROUND. and MAYBE it was egos swinging... maybe it was HER... #flash of the battle come back to me in a blur... all the BLOODSHED. CRIMSON CLOVER UH HUH. SWEET DREAM WAS OVER. #MY HAND WAS THE ONE YOU REACHED FOR ALL THROUGHOUT THE GREAT WAR. ALWAYS REMEMBER UHHUH TEARS ON THE LETTER #I VOWED NOT TO CRY ANYMORE IF WE SURVIVED THE GREAT WAR...

[ihatebnha]

Can't stop biting the inside of my gums and it's a habit I'm desperately trying to get out of

see... while i'd love to offer advice, this seems like one of those things where... surely you've tried mostly everything obvious by now :((

although, unless it's extreme... doesn't sound like the worst habit to have to me!!!

#edit: YOU GOT THIS THO!!! #and if it makes u feel better... i have mild dermatophagia #mmmmmmmm skin...... #lmfao that always makes me laugh sorry #but yea i was gonna say mints or candy or suckers #but im guessing thats the first thing u tried #and can't be done at night #so idk since i dont have experience with it #but uh... #gum? #thats the same tho huh #i always used to suck at my lip but i cant remember how i stopped #ask #anon #caitie chats

[a-b-riddle]

Part Five

Can't stop thinking about the attempt of reconciliation and reader ain't having it. Our girl is going to be wilddddd y'all. Also goodnight. See y'all tomorrow (maybe)

You call Meredith when you get home.

You. Are. Fuming. She's not sure she can ever remember a time you using so many swear words at one time.

How fucking dare them? Immature? You're the immature one? You were the one trying your best to salvage four failing relationship meanwhile none of those assholes could be bothered to try and keep one. They had one person to manage: you.

"I wanna go out this weekend." "Wear something tight and borderline risk indecent exposure."

"You know what I always say," Meredith begins. "The best way to get over someone-"

"is to get under someone else." You finish. You weren't exactly keen on the idea of bringing someone to your bed just yet, but a little attention would do you some good. "I don't want to fuck someone just yet." You admitted. "I'm more on the getting drunk and making out."

"I didn't know we resorted back secondary school heavy petting?" She teased.

"University, Dear." You corrected. "I didn't peak until after I graduated."

"No." She argued. "You didn't put your books down long enough to realize that boys actually wanted to fuck you." You were glad she couldn't see you roll your eyes. "Saturday work for you? I have a late night Friday and won't be up for it."

"That works."

"Sorry." She apologized. "I plan on getting you absolutely smashed so I need to be ready to play the nanny. I know how you love to get drunk and run off."

It was true. You had always found it hilarious when you were drunk to just run. Quite literally run away. It got to a point during university where Meredith would handcuff you to her so you didn't stray.

"I won't run." Your sober mind promised.

"Uh huh." Meredith's tone told you that she knew that was a load of shit. "I'll text Tabs. Let her know the plan."

The next day at the shop was pretty uneventful. No more unexpected visitors. You still had them all blocked. Not caring if now they decided to offer up some bullshit apology.

Months. This had been a steady decline for six months. A text or a simply sorry won't fix this. You weren't sure anything could.

But it didn't matter. You were done and they obviously were too.

You had picked up enough take out to feed a family, but you didn't plan on making your lunch before work or cooking when you got home. The rest of the week you planned on just going through the motions until you could go out Saturday and hopefully get everything out.

You weren't paying attention as you walked down the hallway to your flat. Fishing in your purse for keys. You were at almost at your door when you saw him.

Sitting next to your door was a familiar face. A face you felt you haven't seen in forever.

“What are you doing here, Kyle?" Your voice was flat as you continued to blindly try and find your keys with one hand. Fuck. You really need to clean out your purse...

“My key wouldn’t work.” He explained. "So I’m out here.”

"I'm aware why you're not in my apartment since I changed the locks," you said, trying to keep your irritation at bay. "What I am asking is why did you come here?"

"You won't return any of our messages."

"You're all blocked, so technically I didn't really get any messages." "Besides, you don't get to complain to me about not responding to texts, Kyle Garrick." Your fingers finally wraps around them. God bless. "If you're here for your things, it'll have to wait. I have to sort through everyone's shit and I don't know whose is whose."

"We need to talk." He explains as you put the key into the lock, opening the door.

"Nah," you say scrunching your nose in that way he used to adore. "I'm good. But you can swing by tomorrow and pick up your things if you'd like." You say before trying to shut the door on him. You were stupid in thinking you could be faster than him.

Dammit.

"I know things haven't been good and I've definitely could have been better,'' he admits. "But can you at least try and let us apologize? Let us try and work it out."

"No." You answered, trying to close the door. Not caring if you had to resort to kicking his shins to get him out.

"Why not?" He countered.

“Maybe because I've already tried, Kyle?” You gave up on trying to shut him out. You were strong, but he didn't have any issues in besting you. “Because I actually tried with you. With all of you. You didn’t need to come here giving me excuses about your life being hectic because I’ve made the excuses for you.” You didn't miss how he practically flinched. He had always blamed his busy life. Family. Work. You stopped caring about whatever excuse he gave you and realized it was just that. An excuse. “I’ve been telling myself for months that everything you guys didn’t do for me wasn’t because you didn’t care about me. It was because of the stress of your deployments is the reason none of you tell me when you get back from until it’s time to fuck. I tell myself it’s because of the fucked up situation of me being with all of you that makes it awkward to meet your families. Families you all have that I now know I’m not worthy of meeting.” He wanted to correct you. You were. You were worthy. He was an idiot. “It’s not that I need your excuses to make me feel like what you did was justified. No matter what it was, it was apparently to you because you did it.”

He took a step back, processing everything you had said. He had been selfish. You were the reliable constant in his life. Someone he believed he never disappointed. Someone he couldn't disappoint no matter how many times he fucked up.

You took the opportunity to slam the door. Quickly turning the lock before he had a chance to open it back up.

God...

That felt good.

You had spent that evening collecting their thing in case Kyle did show back up tomorrow. You wouldn't make their lives easier by sorting all their shit and organizing it. Everything. One box. Let them figure it out. You almost had a mind to add a shirt that you knew didn't belong to any of them just to have them argue over it. Or least make them think there was someone else...

You were almost tempted if not for the premise that you wanted them to realize this was their fault. Their fuck up. But now that you were officially all broken up, you were free game.

#captain john price #kyle gaz garrick #simon ghost riley #call of duty #john soap mactavish #angst with a happy ending #angst #grovel #jealousy

[justaz]

country bumpkin merlin not knowing anything about city life and accidentally courting arthur without knowing

merlin, watching gwen give lancelot her favor: why do you do that

gwen, heart eyes at lance and not paying that much attention to the conversation: so he knows i’m rooting for him

merlin, with an Idea: ah.

gwaine, lover of chaos, pisser offer of nobles and royals alike, ultimate wingman: merlin…you have such lonely lips. shall i introduce them to mine?

merlin, unaware of the game gwaine is playing: so you can steal my breath away? i think not, scoundrel

arthur, crushing his goblet in his hand:

merlin: arthur’s been in a bad mood recently :( i should cheer him up

merlin, remembering when arthur was put out when merlin brought morgana flowers and not him: i know just the thing

merlin, bringing a bouquet of carnations, roses, and tulips and setting them on arthur’s table while he’s eating breakfast: good morning, sire

arthur, trained on flower language in hopes that one day when he was to take a queen he could woo her easily, trying not to audibly choke on his sausage as he reads merlin’s declaration of love sitting in front of him:

arthur, who recently found out about merlin’s magic and was trying to find a way to bring it up, catching him in the act and watching merlin panic to explain himself:

merlin, Freaking: and i swear to you arthur, i have only ever used it for you. my magic is yours. my life is yours. i am yours. i would never do anything to harm you. i have protected you for years and will continue to do so at your side if you’ll have me

arthur, already believing them to be courting, desperately trying to figure out if that was a proposal for marriage or not but tired of being confused and deciding fuck it: here.

merlin, taking it: i…uh…huh?

arthur, watching merlin with hawk eyes and trying to figure out what he’s thinking and feeling: it’s my mothers sigil

merlin, confused as FUCK but is focusing on the fact that arthur is handing him something of his mother rather than a death sentence: my…my lord?

arthur, realizing how scared merlin’s must be about him finding out about his magic and trying to comfort him while also proposing, killing two birds with one stone: i will always keep you at my side, merlin, so long as we both shall live. if you’ll allow me.

merlin, almost collapsing with relief and tearing up, smiling at arthur as if he had parted the storm clouds to allow sun to shine down on them in that moment: of course…of course, arthur. always and forever.

merlin, watching the castle staff rush this way and that: wow. this banquet must be incredibly important

sir leon the long suffering, day one ride or die, one of the original merthur shippers: banquet? merlin, this is for your wedding

merlin, overworked and exhausted: my WHAT? to WHO??

leon, regretting everything he’s ever done in his life that led him to this moment: to…arthur?

merlin, over joyed but also absolutely befuddled: i’m getting married to ARTHUR?????

leon: you two have been courting for the past year or so, have you not?

merlin: i’ve been COURTING ARTHUR?????? FOR A YEAR?????????

#merthur #i spent like an hour researching medieval courting rituals to make this #and even then #i did not find much #so if there’s someone out there who is like weirdly knowledgeable about 6th century courting rituals #feel free to add on #bbc merlin #arthur pendragon #merlin emrys #sir gwaine #sir leon #sir lancelot #guinevere #i literally started this post bc i was thinking about the misunderstanding between merlin and gwen and merlin’s giving arthur his favor #and then i kept going #but i didn’t have much else in the ole noggin to write #i’m sorry #please forgive me