«Hello, Dean. »
For a second, the bottle feels like it’s about to crash under Dean’s grip. I mean, it probably wouldn’t be of much harm to him, being in Heaven and all, but he wouldn’t have cared.
Cas silently makes his way in front of them from behind the house, hesitantly coming into view. He looks fine. Alive. Happy. The fucking piece of shit. Him and those damn beautiful eyes giving him that awkward look he didn’t think he was ever going to see again. They have him motionless for a few seconds.
Bobby breaks the silence.
«Since Jack dragged him up here, we had the chance to chat. He just wouldn’t shut up about y— » those were enough seconds.
«You son of a bitch, » the bottle does break, shattered on the ground, but he couldn’t care in the slightest; not as he pulls his angel to him by the coat’s lapel and holds him in a hug that, he can feel, takes Cas’ breath away. It’s soon reciprocated, as they both laugh and tear up, pressing their faces in each other’s shoulders, breathing in, relishing in the blessed warmth. Bobby smiles and takes another sip, but they don’t see him.
After who knows how long—not long enough—Dean slightly pulls away to look into those reddening eyes.
«Don’t you ever even think of pulling off something like that again, you hear me? Don’t you dare, » his voice breaks, and he shuts his lips.
«I- I don’t think it will ever be necessary again, Dean, » Cas laughs, pressing a reassuring hand on Dean’s shoulder and—oh, rubbing his thumb against it, is he trying to kill him again?
«I don’t give a shit, ok? » He reaches for Cas’ cheek, wiping his tears away, «You gotta promise me, Cas. You gotta promise me you won’t ever leave me again. » He can see himself reflected in his eyes; no mirror had ever made him feel as good.
The angel nods, unable to keep the corners of his lips from raising to form a grin—but why would he hide that, now?—That have Dean’s eyes fill with a new set of tears, a warm feeling growing and blossoming and bursting in his chest and behind his eyes.
«Of course. Of course, Dean, I promise. »
He inhales. His breath is shaky. «…good. Good. »
They don’t move.
«Then I guess I don’t have any excuses now, do I? » he goes on. «Cas, I… » his lip quivers.
Cas’ brows rise in understanding.
«Oh, Dean, wait. You don’t have to say anything-»
«Shut up, of course I fucking do, or I’ll regret it. I already do. I… »
He looks down. He’s suddenly very aware of Bobby’s look burning on his back, of Mum and Dad’s house down the road; his eyes shoot beyond Cas’ shoulder, his hand clenches on his coat, but he shakes the doubts away. This is his moment. His Heaven. No one, not Dad, not some monster, not even himself would ruin this. Not this time.
Their eyes meet.
«I love you, Cas. Of course I love you, and I’m so sorry, man, I’m so sorry it took me so long, I…»
«It’s fine, Dean. »
«No! No, it’s not, because I should’ve told you years ago, but I didn’t have the balls to accept that I’m… I’m…» he shakes his head, almost dizzy, «oh, I love you so fucking much. »
His voice is strained, his stomach clenches while he says it, but once it relaxes, oh, Dean is in a glass case of emotions, but he is free.
Castiel looks at him, eyes swollen, lips shaking, until he can’t keep himself from letting out a breathy laugh, basically shoving his face against the hunter’s chest, Dean’s hand rising to hold his head against him, running his fingers through his hair and oh, why has he never done that before? It’s so soft, he thinks, as he lowers his head to let his lips brush against it.
«I… I…» he can’t say anything. He can’t say anything else. I love you, I love you, I love you, such simple and sweet words, why had he been so scared of them?
His hands slowly slide to cup Cas’ cheek, making him raise his head, their faces close enough to have them feel each other’s rapid breaths on their skin, though that quickly fades into the background as they finally close the space between them.
The kiss is eager and a bit awkward. The eagerness of two men who had been waiting for over a decade to do this, to accept themselves as part of each other, shamelessly; the awkwardness of not quite a very first kiss, but of a new way of experiencing something old, like a piece of clothing that you have kept in your closet for a long time, scared of wearing it, but once you do you think this, this is meant for me.
Suddenly everything is right. Their lips keep moving against each other, starving for the other’s touch, and Dean’s brain is flooded with excitement, with realization as it keeps thinking that yes, this is what he’s been looking for all this time. That is the answer to all that longing: not fights, not revenge, not rage, this, he found it.
He found him.
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That’s it. It’s over. I don’t really know what to say. It was a happy ending more or less for everyone. But I think it could have gone out better. After everything Sam and Dean had been through the fact that that’s what got him, and that they made Sam go on without him. That’s insane. Well I guess I can watch it all over again. But It’s never be the same as watching for the first time. That was the greatest journey ever. I started out like most other fans just one more thing to watch when I was bored and my parents had happened to watch it when I was younger. It’s insane. I never thought it would become this big to me. That it would be more than just some fantasy, sci-fi, horror tv show just something that I’d watch and I’d obsess over and then I’d let go. But I don’t think that’s the case. Supernatural is different, it’s really really different. And it’s special. It means more to me than anything has before. And that feels wired to say. It’s just a tv show but there is something about it. There is something, it really is just different. There’s just this magic about it. It’s such a beautifully crafted story, with perfectly chosen actors and it was a beautiful journey to follow even if I was three years late. It really was beautiful and it meant a lot to me. And it will it will always mean a lot to me. I think with most things like this they come they inspire and then they disappear. But I really don’t think supernatural is gonna be like that for me. At least I hope not. I really really just want it to carry on (pun unintended). It’s so special and important to me. There really just aren’t enough words it’s just beautiful and its just magical, it’s so emotion evoking and it’s crafted story telling, and its imagination and it’s action and it’s horror and it’s love and it’s family. I’m really gonna miss being able to go back and put on the disc and watch it from the start again and have a new adventure each day. It’s gonna be a bit hard knowing there’s gonna be nothing new but at least now I have something that’s so amazing that I can go back to whenever I need. I don’t think it’s ever gonna get old. I’m gonna watch it till the day I die. I love it so much and I’m glad that I found it and coincidently found the SPN Family as well and I have found that community and it’s just something I’ve never experience before and it all because of just this one show. Most people would be like it’s just a tv show, it just franchise series just another CW show but it’s really not. It’s not. And it will never be just some mediocre show in my opinion.
The cast and the characters inspire me all the time and push me to keep going and to try harder and to do my best when a lot of time is just wanna sit down and do nothing, when I just don’t wanna try but they really brought something out in me. I found and discovered parts of myself with this show and it’s showed me so much and it’s helped me learn and helped me think. It was a journey not just for the boys, Sam and Dean and everyone with them along the way but me following them it felt much more than just a simple story a simple narrative it was immersive and expansive and there were so many things to learn that you had to look between the lines to see but I sought them out and it was so worth it. I’ll be sad to see it go in a way. Like it’s not going anywhere but like I said I’ll never be able to watch it again from the start like it’s new and have all the exiting moments and experiencing it like a first time all over again. I can’t get that again but i will always be here. Even if it feels like it’s going. It won’t. And I’ll see the actors online ever where because why wouldn’t I? I wanna keep up with them and how their going because even though they were just performing for a show they did so much for me, so why would I follow their careers and see how they’re going. I really really really love every single persons that was involved becuase they helped make this elegant and exquisite story. But it’s so much more than that and it’s hard to explain but I’m so grateful for it and I’m going to love it always and I’m so grateful that it came into my life and that it’s still around there’s still the community I can talk to and there’s I can talk to who will listen and understand me and it’s all thanks to this one show. It’s just crazy, but I thank everyone who was a part of it and I love the community. I love Supernatural and i love everyhting that came with and everythig. That will come to pass because of it.
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did you say something about a Destiel+Chestervelle ending??? i’m so curious!
I DID!!! Okay, so it's basically a fork in the road type ending that could go either way.
DISCLAIMER: I'm not happy with the ending. This is just me trying to make the best out of a bad situation. Here are my feelings about the ending:
Now that we got that out of the way.
So, there's Castiel's love confession in 15x18. However you interpret Dean's side of it, either way, Cas believed his feelings were unrequited.
Fast forward 2 episodes, and we learn in 15x20 from Bobby that Cas helped Jack design the new heaven. When Dean first woke up in heaven, what was there?
Bobby, who was a father to him
Baby, his beloved car, his home
Harvelle's Roadhouse
Just those 3 things. It seems very significant to me that the Roadhouse is there, given it was destroyed at the end of season 2, 13 years ago. Why out of everywhere would this be a significant enough place for it to be waiting for Dean? Glad you asked! See, Cas was in 5x10, (in the same room, even) when Dean propositioned Jo on their last night on Earth. More importantly, Cas knows Dean's mind. He rebuilt him from the ground up as well as actually having been inside his mind.
So, as a Chestervelle shipper like myself, I believe that Cas would know how he feels about her. He'd know she was special, and being a hunter, she was the most feasible option for Dean to live happily ever after with.
So my theory is Castiel, thinking his love is unrequited, put Harvelle's Roadhouse there (with Ellen, Jo, and Ash inside) to give Dean the chance to be happy with someone, even if it's not him.
Now! Even if you don't agree with them ending up together, or them liking each other that way at all, you can see how Cas would think so either way. It's not unfathomable.
So, this is where we reach the fork in the road. It's up to you. Maybe Dean and Jo don't end up together, and Dean and Cas find each other and they end up together.
But no matter who you ship, I believe Harvelle's Roadhouse was there by Castiel's design.
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Don't come for me but. I don't fully trust Heaven Bobby.
He is both like and unlike the Bobby we once knew. Kind of like Jack is both like and unlike the Jack we once knew. The window dressing is there, sort of. But the words he says don't sound like the person we knew. In fact, they sound just the opposite.
Bobby in life? Railed against the idea of a rocking chair retirement. Ready to shoot John Winchester on sight. Always pushing Dean to fight for his life. Resented Heaven and its control.
Heaven Bobby? Relaxing in his rocking chair. Tells Dean fondly how John is just down the road. Encouraging Dean to accept his death. We're not supposed to meddle.
I just...I don't trust him!
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Ok I finished the goddamn show. I totally thought I'd be an spn finale defender but I ended up way more conflicted on it than I thought I'd be
Really didn't like how they characterized sam for the last ep, really liked how they characterized dean but his death was super rushed, also didn't like how the brothers died years apart when they always should've died together but I do still stand by liking the method of how dean died (very full circle would be great if it wasn't so fucking rushed), also loved that the last episode was a slice of life monster of the week filler ep because those are my favorite part of the show but I feel like it could've been done way better, really liked the change to heaven, didn't like the method of sam's death but did like how his son's last words to him mirrored his own last words to dean but didn't like that his son had a tattoo kind of implying he was raised to be a hunter cuz that'd be such a fucked up thing to add to the lore. Like fitting and character accurate I guess but I hate it, also wish we actually saw sam's wife because her blurry off screen existence was a super weird choice??
Overall the finale in general felt super rushed because the first half of the last season was paced really badly and a lot of episodes and time were horribly under utilized, with the pacing they'd need at least one more season to not have a horribly rushed ending, but even if they'd paced it right the writers created a self sustaining hell by making a show with an inherent nature so cyclical there isn't a way to give it an ending that actually feels final, since everything they could possibly do has already been done and resolved and the show kept going so nothing ever feels like an ending
??????/10 didn't hate it time to watch the anime and the winchesters
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