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ineffableuser · 2 years
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«Hello, Dean. »
For a second, the bottle feels like it’s about to crash under Dean’s grip. I mean, it probably wouldn’t be of much harm to him, being in Heaven and all, but he wouldn’t have cared.
Cas silently makes his way in front of them from behind the house, hesitantly coming into view. He looks fine. Alive. Happy. The fucking piece of shit. Him and those damn beautiful eyes giving him that awkward look he didn’t think he was ever going to see again. They have him motionless for a few seconds.
Bobby breaks the silence.
«Since Jack dragged him up here, we had the chance to chat. He just wouldn’t shut up about y— » those were enough seconds.
«You son of a bitch, » the bottle does break, shattered on the ground, but he couldn’t care in the slightest; not as he pulls his angel to him by the coat’s lapel and holds him in a hug that, he can feel, takes Cas’ breath away. It’s soon reciprocated, as they both laugh and tear up, pressing their faces in each other’s shoulders, breathing in, relishing in the blessed warmth. Bobby smiles and takes another sip, but they don’t see him.
After who knows how long—not long enough—Dean slightly pulls away to look into those reddening eyes.
«Don’t you ever even think of pulling off something like that again, you hear me? Don’t you dare, » his voice breaks, and he shuts his lips.
«I- I don’t think it will ever be necessary again, Dean, » Cas laughs, pressing a reassuring hand on Dean’s shoulder and—oh, rubbing his thumb against it, is he trying to kill him again?
«I don’t give a shit, ok? » He reaches for Cas’ cheek, wiping his tears away, «You gotta promise me, Cas. You gotta promise me you won’t ever leave me again. » He can see himself reflected in his eyes; no mirror had ever made him feel as good.
The angel nods, unable to keep the corners of his lips from raising to form a grin—but why would he hide that, now?—That have Dean’s eyes fill with a new set of tears, a warm feeling growing and blossoming and bursting in his chest and behind his eyes.
«Of course. Of course, Dean, I promise. »
He inhales. His breath is shaky. «…good. Good. »
They don’t move.
«Then I guess I don’t have any excuses now, do I? » he goes on. «Cas, I… » his lip quivers.
Cas’ brows rise in understanding.
«Oh, Dean, wait. You don’t have to say anything-»
«Shut up, of course I fucking do, or I’ll regret it. I already do. I… »
He looks down. He’s suddenly very aware of Bobby’s look burning on his back, of Mum and Dad’s house down the road; his eyes shoot beyond Cas’ shoulder, his hand clenches on his coat, but he shakes the doubts away. This is his moment. His Heaven. No one, not Dad, not some monster, not even himself would ruin this. Not this time.
Their eyes meet.
«I love you, Cas. Of course I love you, and I’m so sorry, man, I’m so sorry it took me so long, I…»
«It’s fine, Dean. »
«No! No, it’s not, because I should’ve told you years ago, but I didn’t have the balls to accept that I’m… I’m…» he shakes his head, almost dizzy, «oh, I love you so fucking much. »
His voice is strained, his stomach clenches while he says it, but once it relaxes, oh, Dean is in a glass case of emotions, but he is free.
Castiel looks at him, eyes swollen, lips shaking, until he can’t keep himself from letting out a breathy laugh, basically shoving his face against the hunter’s chest, Dean’s hand rising to hold his head against him, running his fingers through his hair and oh, why has he never done that before? It’s so soft, he thinks, as he lowers his head to let his lips brush against it.
«I… I…» he can’t say anything. He can’t say anything else. I love you, I love you, I love you, such simple and sweet words, why had he been so scared of them?
His hands slowly slide to cup Cas’ cheek, making him raise his head, their faces close enough to have them feel each other’s rapid breaths on their skin, though that quickly fades into the background as they finally close the space between them.
The kiss is eager and a bit awkward. The eagerness of two men who had been waiting for over a decade to do this, to accept themselves as part of each other, shamelessly; the awkwardness of not quite a very first kiss, but of a new way of experiencing something old, like a piece of clothing that you have kept in your closet for a long time, scared of wearing it, but once you do you think this, this is meant for me.
Suddenly everything is right. Their lips keep moving against each other, starving for the other’s touch, and Dean’s brain is flooded with excitement, with realization as it keeps thinking that yes, this is what he’s been looking for all this time. That is the answer to all that longing: not fights, not revenge, not rage, this, he found it.
He found him.
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wellofdean · 5 months
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Happy third anniversary to an episode of television so bewilderingly, gobsmackingly awful that it felt like it was formulated in a lab to exemplify the very concept of narrative malpractice! Literally the worst hour of television ever committed! Number one in being an utter, irredeemable shit sandwich! The superlatively worst ending of anything ever!
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clicked on the article ONLY to see if they included spn
glad they did
i dont really agree with the Lisa and Ben part but everything else is damn right
burns me up
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A digital piece from 2021 done for a DCBB season 15 fix it fic. This is Cas pulling Dean’s ass off that damn rebar 🥲🥲🥲🥲 Lots I would change about this now, but I still love the highlight of Cas’ face.
Wish I had more patience for digital works — my setup sucks 😂
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whenitcomestodeath · 5 days
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My boy deserved to hear this again and again and again! Sksks
The Golden apples of the Sun by intothesilentland
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Just A Trick
It’s a fucking joke. A trick. Loki’s at it again.
He’s going to snap out of this any second now, whole and well, definitely not impaled on six inches of rebar right through his back.
Dean palpates his chest, puzzled that it looks fully intact. He must be imagining the pain inside, that eerie feeling of metal grinding against bone, of cartilage and flesh shredded and bleeding.
This cannot be happening.
“AHHH!” he barks, furious, and Sam in front of him flinches.
His little brother looks frozen in shock. Dean told him not to move him, that the stupid piece of rebar that cannot be real is holding him together right now. Sam seems at a loss what to do, and Dean knows he has to take charge.
“Call 911, Sam,” Dean tells him through gritted teeth. “Now.”
At the command, Sam snaps out of his stupor.
“On it.” His fingers fly over the display of his phone.
“Tell- tell them to bring rescue equipment,” Dean rasps through the burning in his chest. There’s a mounting pressure behind his breastbone, and breathing is becoming more difficult. “They’ll have to- to cut me loose.”
Sam nods, and when the operator picks up, Dean hears Sam rattle down the five w’s in quick and coordinated order, emphasizing the fact that Dean is fucking impaled on a fucking metal rod and that there is no time to waste. Thank God the woman on the other end knows her job: In the next few minutes she does her best to keep Sam calm and Dean alive while ensuring them that help will arrive in a matter of minutes.
Hopefully, that’ll be fast enough. Dean’s lungs feel like they’re filling up with sand (although it’s probably blood), and the pain from his injury radiates through his torso in bright-hot rays.
“…him awake,” Dean catches the 911 woman’s voice through the speaker. (Did he zone out for a moment?) “And keep him still.”
Dean almost has to laugh. Keeping still won’t be a problem, pinned as he is, like a fucking butterfly in a glass case. The staying awake part, though, may become a little too much to ask. He’s tired, so very tired, and, really, who wants to be lucid with a metal rod rammed through their insides?!
He feels Sam pet his cheek and hears the urgency in his voice when he tells him to “open your eyes, Dean, stay with me, stay awake, come on, eyes open!”
Nevertheless, he feels his eyelids droop. But as his gaze wanders down, earthbound, he catches sight of one of the bodies strewn on the floor, and-
“Sam!” His consciousness snaps back to red alert. “Shit, Sammy, the- the bodies!”
His brother, eyes wide and fixed on him, shakes his head. “I don’t care, Dean. I don’t care what they’ll think. We’ll figure it out. Doesn’t matter now.”
It’s Dean’s turn to shake his head. Fuck, even that hurts. “Sam!” he urges. “You’ve got to hide- put them into the-“ He tilts his head to indicate the boarded-up stall in the corner of the barn, where the vamps had hidden the children.
Sam looks but doesn’t want to listen.
“No, Dean, it’s no use. And I’m not leaving you.”
Only now does Dean realize that Sam has gripped him under the elbows, supporting him as best as he can. Not that it’s doing much, and it doesn’t have to; the rebar is keeping him upright well enough, and Dean can still feel his legs underneath him, stubbornly holding his weight.
“No, please, you-“ Dean quickly squeezes his eyes shut against a stab of pain. “I’m not surviving this to rot in prison,” he croaks, his fingers digging into Sam’s forearms. “I can’t do it, Sammy. You can’t.”
“But-“
“We’ve gotta try, Sammy!” Dean is desperate, so desperate a stupid joke bubbles up in him. “You look like crap in orange.”
Miraculously, that works. Maybe Sam believes that it’s not as bad as it really is because Dean’s still cracking jokes. In any case, he lets go of Dean’s arms and drags the bodies, cut-off heads and all, into the stall one after the other, and he padlocks it. Then he quickly spreads straw over what little blood there is on the floor - their luck that vampires don’t bleed much, what with not having a heartbeat.
“Okay. Okay.”
A little out of breath and sweating, Sam’s back in front of Dean, back supporting him, and Dean vaguely wonders when his little brother became so strong and fast.
Everything is becoming kind of vague and cottony in his head. Flashes of panic, flashes of pain - it all bounces off a veneer that seems to lay itself between him and the world. He’s running out of time, and it’s a scary thought, and shouldn’t the ambulance be here by now?
“I’m fading- I’m fading pretty quick,” Dean manages to articulate.
Sam’s eyes flare with fear, but dammit if he isn’t trying to be brave about it.
“You’re not,” Sam says stubbornly, his grip on Dean intensifying. “You are not dying on me, you hear me? You are Dean fucking Winchester, you’ve been through worse, and you’re going to make it out of here alive! And when you’re out of the hospital, you’ll hang out in the bunker for a few weeks and watch soap operas while Miracle sheds all over your goddamn sheets, and I’ll be pissed at you for drinking beer in bed. You’re going to pull yourself together now and stay awake, or I’ll have to slap you in the face!”
Dean wants to grin but isn’t sure if it shows on his face. Everything is growing a little numb.
“Easy, tiger,” he says, and it’s barely a whisper, his throat scratchy and tight. “Take it easy on your old-” He has to cough and, Jesus Christ on a stick, it hurts like fucking hell. His ribcage clenches around the rebar, his heart hurtling into a frenzy as the pain starbursts through him. He hasn’t lit up in agony like this since his days in Hell.
Choking helpless coughs, Dean squeezes his eyes shut and tries to ride it out.
“Dean! Breathe! Come on, just breathe!”
Dean latches on to Sam’s voice until his ravaged lungs can pull in enough air again to at least keep him conscious. When the fit is over and reality returns, Dean’s cheeks are wet, and his mouth tastes like copper. Sam’s face is his anchor, his hazel-brown-green-blue eyes searching and holding Dean’s gaze as if he could tie him to this world with the love and the iron will Dean recognizes in them.
“There you go. That’s it,” Sam says firmly. “You’ve got this.”
He’s not got this. “I- hnnngh”
Dean’s legs give out, and pain tears through his chest when the rebar takes his weight like a meat hook. God no, Dean thinks, not this again. Memories of Hell flood him, red-hot and blinding.
“Dean! Hang on!”
Sam is there, ducking under his right arm and pulling it across his shoulders, his other hand on Dean’s belt. It hurts, pulling on everything that’s torn in him, and through his own choked noises of agony he hears Sam’s “I’m sorry, Dean, I’m sorry”, but at least Sam’s manoeuver keeps him from being cut in half.
I’m not going to make it, Dean thinks. And: Cas. Please. Help me!
It doesn’t make sense. Cas is gone, absorbed by the Empty. The angel cannot swoop in to save him this time. Dean’s heart stutters at the memory of his loss, of Cas’ sacrifice. Of Cas’ love for Dean. That stupid, stupid, soft son of a bitch.
“Come on, Dean, stay with me! They’re almost here!”
And Dean hears it: The wail of an approaching ambulance - no, more than one? A cacophony of sirens closes in on them.
“Hey, hey! Dean! Stay with me!”
And somehow, Dean does. He’s wheezing, and his vision is a narrowing tunnel. Blood pools in his mouth and dribbles down his chin. His heart is a piece of burning coal, his whole chest on fire. His legs don’t belong to him anymore.
But he can’t do this to Sam. He won’t do this to Cas. The angel gave his life for him. He’s not going to die like this - a stupid, senseless, idiotic death. It’s not going to happen.
The barn’s bathed in light now, and Dean distantly wonders if Cas has come after all, but then there are voices and uniforms and gloved hands on him. Sam’s warmth leaves his side, and Dean finally loses consciousness to a chorus of questions and medical lingo washing over him.
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It’s not the first time he’s woken up choking on a breathing tube, but it never gets any easier. At least he knows the drill - alarms blaring and people rushing in while he gags and bucks and panics. They put him under again, and the next time he comes to, the wretched tube is out, and he’s left with a nasal cannula and the feeling of a cut-up throat. They’ve draped him on his side, propped up by pillows, and he doesn’t even want to know where all the tubes and wires lead that disappear under his hospital gown. It burns here and itches there, and his chest and back feel like hamburger meat held together by duct tape.
“Dean? Hey…”
Sam untangles his long limbs from where he’s folded himself into a chair by the bed, a blanket slipping to the floor.
“Hey, you’re awake!”
“S- … S’my”
It’s a pathetic attempt at pronouncing his little brother’s name; he sounds like a rusty door hinge. But it seems to be good enough for Sam whose eyes - Jesus, when was the last time he slept - light up in his tired, scruffy face.
“Man, it’s so good to hear your voice.”
Sam reaches for Dean’s hand, carefully, as if he were made of something breakable. But his grip is warm and firm, and Dean doesn’t shrug him off.
“How’re you feeling? If you’re in pain I can call the nurse and she can give you more of the…” He waves at one of Dean’s numerous IVs.
“Peach-... peachy,” Dean croaks, forcing one corner of his mouth into a smirk.
“That can’t be true,” a different voice says from the door, a deeper voice, and Dean almost stops breathing at the sight of the hallucination that walks into his line of vision. It must be a hallucination; it can’t be Castiel, Angel of the Lord, in his rumpled trench coat, tie loose, beardy, with a paper cup of coffee in his hand.
“You’re recovering from complex cardio-thoracic surgery. They had to crack your chest and resuscitate you - twice. You’ve been on a ventilator for eight days. I don’t believe “peachy” is an accurate term to describe your physical condition .”
Dean stares at the angel, uncomprehending. His heart throws a drumroll, for everyone to hear as it beep-beep-beeps in agitated spikes.
“Cas?” His voice cracks.
Castiel hands the coffee to Sam and steps closer until he’s right by the bed, standing there in typical Cas-fashion - a little slouched, arms at his sides, head slightly canted, blue gaze intense and ethereal.
“Hello Dean.”
There’s no saliva in Dean’s mouth. Something twists in his chest, both painfully and warm. His head is swimming with half-bred thoughts, clouded by too many fucking drugs. He doesn’t know what to feel, how to deal with this sudden, bright blue shock of elation.
“How…?” is all he manages.
Sam has risen to his feet, smiling through the exhaustion etched into his features.
“He showed up while you were in surgery. When your heart stopped. We don’t know exactly how, or why. If Jack was involved. We think that maybe it was you who brought him back.”
Dean licks dry lips. “Me?”
“I heard your prayer,” Castiel elaborates. “I wanted to come. But I was stuck. The Empty - it had me pinned down. I couldn’t even move. But when your heart stopped, I felt it, and something - something happened. It shook me loose. I felt a surge of power. And then…” He gestures around the room. “Then I was here. Human. I think you pulled me out.”
It’s all a little too much for Dean. His body is a mess, and his brain is bubble-wrapped. Words want to surface from where Dean tucked them away, rehearsed over and over, certain he’d never get to say them. His throat hurts, his chest tightens, and he is not going to fucking cry.
“I’ll give the two of you a minute,” Sam says, running a hand through his too-long hair. “And I’ll go get your doctor. She’ll be happy to see you awake.”
His brother leaves, and Dean is left with a staring angel and blinking tears away.
He lifts a shaking hand to wipe at his eyes, but the movement is pulling on tubes, and he’s weak as a kitten, so he lets his arm sink again.
“There’s so much-” he starts and stops, sandpaper for vocal chords. He can’t look at Cas anymore; he wants to look at nothing else for the rest of his life. He’s been such a damn fool.
The angel reaches out a hand and gently lays it on Dean’s left shoulder, where it’s always belonged.
“It’s okay, Dean,” he rumbles softly. “We will figure this out when you feel better. You need to rest now. I’ll be here. I’m not going anywhere.”
It’s the permission Dean needed. Exhausted and overwhelmed, he closes his eyes.
Tomorrow, he thinks, Cas’ hand still warm and safe on his shoulder, tomorrow I’m gonna say it back.
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supernatant · 8 months
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Rolling up to AO3 and browsing the Supernatural ending fix-it fics like I’m at the supermarket
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wildcreator · 2 years
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I see your blurry wifey I raise you blurry husband
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pangolin-dreams · 5 months
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Help! Lost Fic
Please, I am desperate. I post drifted across my For You page with a Destiel fic rec on Ao3. Post-canon, fix-it, with a fairly hefty word count. I read the first chapter without realizing I hadn't opened Ao3 in my browser, and then this hellsite of an app crashed and I lost it. Here's what I can remember about the first chapter:
Dean is in Heaven, talking to Sam and realizing that Sam is cold, almost emotionless. When Dean points this out, Not-Sam tells Dean it's his memories and his fault this isn't working right. Overall, a whole sense that something is wrong. Then, I THINK Dean wakes up and realizes creepy Not-Sam Heaven was a dream?
I'm so sorry for being vague, I had just started to read the first chapter when everything crashed. If anyone can point me in the right direction, I would appreciate it! Otherwise, I resign myself to trying to sift through the Ao3 catalog, looking for a needle in a haystack.
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foolondahill17 · 1 year
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No better day than today to share my finale fix it that I wrote almost entirely the night after 15.20 aired while I was high on cough medicine because I had covid. Read for disablednatural content and Dean's emotional constipation.
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annmariethrush · 17 days
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The way that Jared Padalecki must have fucking blacked out during The Trap. Motherfucker, I KNOW you said those lines about Dean dying while on a hunt. About how awful that would be. I KNOW YOU DID. And romance with Eileen? Arranged by god but you still wanted to pull the “I know that’s real” (destiel reference) ((also, the worst delivered line in the history of supernatural. I would have walked away too, Eileen knows Sam wouldn’t be that bad at ANYTHING that’s god’s interference still.)) literally anything from The Trap that Sam goes through should have Jared ready to break down doors over the travesty that is the finale.
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drsilverfish · 1 year
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So it goes...
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15x20 Carry On Supernatural
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1x01 Pilot The Winchesters
“The most important thing I learned on Tralfamadore was that when a person dies he only appears to die. He is still very much alive in the past, so it is very silly for people to cry at his funeral. All moments, past, present and future, always have existed, always will exist. The Tralfamadorians can look at all the different moments just that way we can look at a stretch of the Rocky Mountains, for instance. They can see how permanent all the moments are, and they can look at any moment that interests them. It is just an illusion we have here on Earth that one moment follows another one, like beads on a string, and that once a moment is gone it is gone forever.
When a Tralfamadorian sees a corpse, all he thinks is that the dead person is in a bad condition in that particular moment, but that the same person is just fine in plenty of other moments. Now, when I myself hear that somebody is dead, I simply shrug and say what the Tralfamadorians say about dead people, which is "so it goes.”
Kurt Vonnegut, Slaughterhouse Five
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solariene · 1 year
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I don't understand why people are so surprised that Dean showed up in the finale ? We've already seen him in the first episode and the guy narrated every episode of the show lol of course he was coming back in the finale 🤔
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“Dean’s eyes were still squeezed shut, but he was acutely aware of three things: one, his knees really fuckin hurt from that landing, two, the familiar smell of the bunker was filling his nostrils meaning their insane plan had actually worked, and three, Cas was back.”
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i woke up out of a dream and that sentence was in my brain…
i am now writing a fix-it that starts with it…
i have no clue when or even if it will ever be finished because i haven’t written a fic in over 10 years…
ill keep you posted
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deicidedruid · 2 years
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Okay okay this is my awesome headcanon for after Cas died in 15x18 despair. After Dean defeats Chuck he’s trying everything he can, scrounging up every piece of information he can get on the empty. Even though Cas told him he was better than all of this, Dean can’t help but drown in the grief. It can never be a happy ending for him without Cas. One day it’s just too much for him and he just snaps. He goes into some motel and gets the help of some random dude willing to temporarily kill him (like Dean did to save Sam’s soul from the cage). After he’s killed, he threatens to kill the reaper that shows up if they don’t take him to the empty. The reaper obliges but tells Dean that they can’t take him back out. Dean agrees anyways. So he’s transported to the Empty and he has no idea how to get out, he just needs to see Cas again, be with him one last time, even in death. Eventually he finds Cas, submerged in sludge and he has to desperately pull him out, with tears in his eyes. He eventually gets Cas out and cradles his body, begging him to wake up. Cas doesn’t stir. Dean picks up Cas’s body and he wanders through the Empty trying to find a way out. He wanders for days, weeks, he doesn’t know how long. Meanwhile the Empty is trying to drag him under and it’s becoming harder for Dean to keep going. One day the sludge of the Empty tries to pull him under and Dean’s too weak to fight back. He’s holding Cas’s body so tightly to him. As he’s being dragged into the darkness he takes one last desperate look at Cas and all his feelings bubble up in him like a pot that’s been boiling for far too long. Before his vision fades to black he cries out into the void, “I love you!” Suddenly a bright light cracks open from his chest, his soul festering and breaking at the newly realized love being stripped away from it. A burst of white light envelops both of the bodies and Dean and Cas wind up back in that musty hotel where Dean took his life. Dean takes him back to the bunker, lays him down and falls asleep in the chair right next to his bed. When Cas wakes up he doesn’t want to wake Dean so he slinks out of the bed and goes to find Sam. Sam updates Cas on everything and after a while of catching up Sam goes to wake up Dean. Sam puts a hand on Dean’s shoulder and Dean looks around desperately, frantically, trying to see where Cas would be. Finally he sees him standing in the doorway. Dean runs up to Cas and almost falls into him, clutching tightly onto the back of his trench coat and absolutely sobbing. Both Sam and Cas are taken aback because in all their years with the emotionally oppressed man they had rarely seen him cry let alone sob. Dean whispers in a quiet voice, “I thought I lost you” and Cas just hugs him harder. . . And upon later examination they figure out that Cas can eat and sleep because he was touched by Dean’s soul.
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cr0wleyswh0re · 2 years
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shaking. crying. throwing up.
how are y'all coping with the show ending? i'm gonna mourn for the rest of my life. send emotional support
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