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noxtivagus · 1 year

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i'm okay

#🌙.vents #i'm tired of writing i just #it hurts so much. i can't find the will to just hold unto hope anymore #i'm such an idiot i understand now #in the car otw to school n ever since this morning i've just felt like. crying. but i can't. i shouldn't.#i'm so fucking stupid what worth is there in my words if #if. i can't even bring them to reality.#i told my friend yesterday she's not weak for crying i told her she's human n i told her so much n #i really mean it but #i don't fucking know #i understand those around me bcs i understand myself. i can read them well enough to.. yeah #but i can't do enough for them bcs i can't do enough for me too n #just by being myself i guess ppl open up to me n all but it's almost like others r.. idk how to say it but almost scared of me in a way ig #it hurts i really can't interact w others the way most ppl do. i mean i can but it's #i can't write properly sorry lmfao #i want to write everything i wrote yesterday too but. idk i can't rmb everything in order anymore #it's so draining but i want to remember but then it's just so #i'm chained to my own self in so many ways but if i let go then i think i'll fall instead of fly #if i let go then the chains wld drag me to the bottom of the ocean #the more i learn the more i understand the world n life the more i just realize how #how it's so.. yeah #n i. understand. even more now. why they left.#not anyone i know personally but yeah #i don't get it.. it's not like i've really particularly experienced anything rlly traumatic or depressing but #it hurts so much i don't feel like myself. but nah i do feel like myself it's just #not.. how i used to be. but still me. n it hurts bcs this is still very much me #i can't live in this world. i can't live with this mind. so #i guess i'll just go on just to write. i'll write n write what i can for the future #maybe maybe not me but maybe people yet to be born who're like me could #find some.. peace. even if it's not me. so i'll do this for you. the only way is through.

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illicit-eclipse · 1 month

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kiwisandpearls · 1 month

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Angel Dust x Gn! Platonic! Reader

Summary: Your crying and your favorite spider’s there to comfort you.

Warnings: implied depressed reader, potential suicidal idealization (?), reader uses gn pronouns, angel dust maybe being ooc, no dialogue

The moment you entered your room you locked the door, fell onto your bed, and bursted into tears, all while hugging your pillow. You couldn’t do it anymore. You had reached your breaking point. You just wanted it to end. For the pain to be over.

In the middle of your crying, you heard soft knockings at your door. You would’ve ignored it had you not heard a familiarly sweet voice ask if they could be let in.

You wiped your tears away and dragged yourself over to the door, opening it to see your best spider friend Angel Dust on the other side with a concerned look on his face. He said that he could hear your crying from outside and just wanted to check if you were ok, to which you internally cursed yourself for crying so loud.

You tried to whisper out that you were fine and just had a rough day when the second you opened your mouth the dam cracked and all you could do was let out a small whimper as the tear started to flood out of your eyes again.

Angel Dust didn’t say anything though. He just took you into his two pairs of arms and just let you cry, rubbing circles on your back. When you started to settle down he asked if you wanted to just chill out and his room, cuddling Fat Nuggets. He also jokingly mentioned that you could stuff your head into his fluff if you really wanted to.

You took him up on the request, which ended up with you laying on top of Angel Dust with your head resting on top of his fluff, cuddling up with Fat Nuggets.

I don’t mean to sound rude when I say this, but please do not take this as initiative to requests me to write for Hazbin Hotel characters. I only wrote this because I’ve been going through a bit of a rough day and it kinda just came to a head a bit ago, so I thought “hey might as well write something with my new comfort character”. I’ll think about writing for Hazbin Hotel but I can’t guarantee I will.

I also won’t be talking much about hazbin hotel to begin with here so.

Sorry if this was pretty short tho lol.

#for you ⌞ 🌙🌱⌝#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel x reader #angel dust x reader #platonic reader #gn reader #gn! reader #gn!reader #vent ish #kinda #sorry I haven’t been getting to requests #it’s both a combination of writers block and personal stuff #feel like I’m making excuses #but I’m being genuine

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therhythmafterthesummer · 4 months

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i've been writing very very VERY slowly these day. some days i can't even write because i'm so exhausted after doing my adult things, which makes me feel incredibly frustrated.

the ideas are there in my head, i want to write them, but i have zero brain power to do it and i just... yeah. i want to sleep for like two weeks straight. maybe that would heal me.

anyway, thank you for always being here, for dropping your thoughts in my ask box, for leaving feedback and overall interacting with me.

i appreciate you more than you can ever imagine.

#it's also why it's taking me longer to answer asks these days #my brain is a bit dehydrated #but i love reading them and answering them when i do get the chance #this is both a vent post and a way to say thank you to you all #love you #🌙

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angel-of-the-moons · 4 days

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Tiny vent, but--

Imagine making your own mother fucking cry after she begged for money from people to put on your fucking books because you got busted with drugs LIKE WE'VE BEEN TELLING YOU FOR YEARS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN!

My sister is genuinely the biggest waste of human life on this planet. The only good thing she ever did was have her kids, and she doesn't even have custody of them.

Then goes around lying and saying we set her up for it.

Because we "can't stand to see her happy".

Like bitch. If I had my way you would be off, married to your "true love" who is also in jail for the same shit and filing a restraining order.

#🌙 arch's thoughts #venting #tw: drugs

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protector-culture-is · 3 months

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Protector culture is being endlessly frustrated when the sysmate you’re protecting keeps throwing themselves into the arms of a particularly dangerous sysmate that you can’t do ANYTHING against. They won’t let you harm him, and he won’t let you get anywhere near them. So what the fuck am I supposed to do lmaoaoaoao (frustration laughs) all I can do is be there for them after he’s done doing whatever the fuck he decided he wants to do with them that day/week and comfort them, heal their wounds, you know. But what good of a protector am I if I can’t even protect them against him in the first place?

-🌙🐉 anon

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#🚫#that sounds rough anon. and also vaguely like a toxic relationship. not that i know anything abt ur situation #if you can find a therapist or something to confide and get help from that would be the best but if not/in the meanwhile helping afterwards #is also very important and appreciated #i hope you luck 🫂#🌙🐉 anon #ask to tag #protector culture is #actually plural #endo safe #vent

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woodrocko · 4 months

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(NOT A VENT POST :3)

#artists on tumblr #digital art #art #digital artist #moonlight #moon #the moon #rises the moon #🌙#music #music artists #music artwork #experimental #lighting #oc #sona #not a vent #slight vent #?

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cherry-shipping · 8 months

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hnnnnnnnnn. i shouldnt put any real weight on these thoughts because its late and i havent eaten so naturally im oversensitive and melodramatic. but my rsd has been SOOOOO bad lately on top of that im overanalyzing every single little fucking thing. so well anyways i just wish i could get reassurance from my f/os or something

#cuz. asking for reassurance from real people makes me seem like a desperate creep #not to mention i dont believe it anyways. so im making up a fantasy world where my f/os indulge me and dont think im an annoying baby abt it #lol. lmao even. sorry weird fucking day on account of No Food In Me #ill get over it and also i wont vent post anymore i promise LOL #luckily theres fanfics and sans audios to help me out in the meantime 👍 so i am all set #also. super fucking sleepy. so lets see if i can trick my brain into not being a sad piece of junk and make me feel cuddly and sweet instead #casts spell of sleepy f/o kisses on myself and also anyone who reads this. wooosh 🪄💗✨🛌💋🌙

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moonfableflor · 9 months

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Honestly I'm just filled with rage that so many people are so fucking stupid they can't even begin to conceive the idea that people are literally just meant to eat and drink and watch the stars and be content with life and whatever helps you do that as long as it doesn't hurt anyone else is fine but then here comes along Moneys Richson Jr and he wants ALL the money and to make ALL the people suffer and to get in ALL of everyone's business and judge them for just feeling happy in themselves and OOOH NOOO A PERSON DOESNT FIT INTO MY TINY BOXES AND EXTREME STANDARDS IM GOING TO USE ALL MY MONEY (because I'm Moneys Richson Jr) TO MAKE IT EVERYONE'S PROBLEM AND SAP THE HAPPINESS OUT OF HUMANITY WHICH IN THE METAPHORICAL SENSE ALREADY DIED I just want to like punch some people or something,,, like WHO CARES IF HE FEELS BETTER AS A GUY WHO CARES IF SHE FEELS BETTER AS A GIRL WHO CARES IF THEY FEEL BETTER AS NEITHER WHO CARES IF HE USES HE/HIM AS A GIRL WHO CARES IF SHE USES SHE/HER AS A GUY WHO CARES IF THEY'RE BOTH A GUY AND A GIRL WHO CARES HOW THEY RELATE TO THEMSELF WHO CARES WHO THEY DO OR DON'T FUCK OR LOVE ROMANTICALLY OR LOVE PLATONICALLY OR LOVE QUEERPLATONICALLY WHO CARES IF THEIR BRAIN DOESN'T WORK LIKE YOURS WHO CARES IF THEY NEED MORE THINGS THAN YOU TO NAVIGATE THE WORLD BETTER WHO CARES IF THEY NEED HELP WHO CARES HOW OLD THEY ARE WHO CARES HOW THEY LOOK WHO CARES WHAT THEY THINK IS ABOVE HUMANITY AND PART OF THE UNIVERSE WHO CARES ABOUT THEIR HAIR OR FACE OR EYES OR ANYTHING WHO CARES!!!!! WE'RE ALL HUMAN AND THAT'S THE ONLY THING WE NEED TO KNOW AND WE SHOULD CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER!!!!! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS GODSDAMN MONEY-CULT

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noxtivagus · 1 year

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dfhaskdfjsdkf good day 😭

#🌙.vents #i don't remember sleeping this long i think i woke up 12 then 2 then #5. i wld've slept for longer if i didn't force myself to get up n i think the milk tea helped wake me a bit #i'm so..#the burden of my regrets r so suffocating. there are times i can't see anything else when i'm drowning in them.#if such trivial failures affect me this much then how tf will i survive in this cruel world?#i know i'll always find my way but i wonder the lengths of what i sacrifice. of what i deny and destroy within myself #& of how it'll affect me in the unforeseeable future. of what more loss and pain it'll bring in this world #compared to before i don't often put up a mask anymore. even if it's painful i choose to be authentic. i've improved in that sense #but it's not enough. perhaps i'm simply too harsh on myself; forgetting i am human and that i falter too. i'm not perfect n i shouldn't be.#even with my shortcomings there r ppl that stay. that say thank you. and. yeah. yeah.. that should be proof enough of real reciprocation #but.#i don't know am i really just so afraid of being forgotten? left behind? thinking of it n i used to write of that fear often back then #opening up to 'friends'. being told i was loved. that i would always have my place here #this is pathetic i grew up relying too much on success for my worth. i know i'm so much more but #i placed this on myself. this is the ocean i chose to drown myself in. so when i falter in the only thing i grew up being good that #bcs it hurts yk i used to draw. i painted a lot as a kid but what happened to that passion?#i used to write. a lot. but these past few years.. i don't know what's wrong with me. why it's so hard to do that again #piano. if i continued i would have.. i really had the potential to be. good. i mean i #i've never been a genius i've honestly always hated being called that. i know i've always been naturally smart but.#my hard-work carried me further. and i'm not.. smart enough or good enough to be a genius. never have been.#hollow compliments. before hs it was like everyone really just knew me for my brain. nothing of the way i wrote or my passions. just smarts #so now i'm just a shadow; a ghost of who i used to be. in that aspect at least. but. now w my other strengths they've been faltering too #i'm sorry i should've been better i should do more i know i can. but maybe i. i've always overestimated myself #i think when i was around 6-8 before grade school i can't really remember anymore but there was this competition i think #i would've gotten second if i didn't hesitate. if i didn't fucking hesitate. n i think that always stuck with me #bcs i was really quite the timid shy kid. even though i was older i wld be the one following apollo.. i'm sorry. they deserve more than me #bulbel is making me cry bye wtf

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isitthemoon · 8 months

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I don't know what's going on with me and why I haven't interacted much here and why i haven't done things i used to enjoy even if i want to

#🌙 gio talks #actually i think i literally know why #gonna vent a little here #i have so many amazing mutuals and so many mutuals who are also writers and i really wanna read their works because i like them and their-#writing style but after being away from tumblr for like a month or so and seeing that so much happened and that i wasn't here #like i feel bad for not being here even though i know it's not my fault and that i shouldn't push myself like this #and i feel overwhelmed because it feels like I'm trying to juggle too many things at once that i end up doing nothing at all #i should probably take one step at a tie3 #time*#but there's always a voice on the back of my mind saying 'you should be doing more'#'why haven't you done anything'#I'm still working on how to break free from this cycle and inertia #this also applies to my life outside tumblr #i guess one thing leads to another #anyway #i am... trying

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illicit-eclipse · 13 days

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anti-endo-haven · 23 days

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a little bit of a vent, sorry

Hhhhfffhfhf i am tired :(

I don’t really remember anything anymore it’s all fuzzy especially the bad stuff,,, i have been splitting a LOT recently and i want it to stop

My head feels like its being cut in half (is THAT why they call it splitting???)

I want to remember things i dont even remember today that much i :[

— ellie (☁️⭐️🌙)

I’m not exactly sure what all to say to help, but try and relax and unwind if you’re able. Grounding techniques might help as well.

I hope things get better for you soon.

#☁️⭐️🌙#anti endo #did system #system #osddid #endos dni #traumagenic system #actually did #endos not for you #actually traumagenic #did plural #did plurality #osdd plural #osdd plurality #anti-endo-haven-vent #anti-endo-haven-vents

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bluenightcomedies · 2 months

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Bring before me the spirit or deity that fancies themself a comedian for sabotaging every step of progress we make in life, big or small, and I shall bless their gonads with a stave, as was Prometheus blessed by the eagle of Zeus.🌙

#🌙#vent

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g3nuinesm1l3 · 2 months

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im so much better now that im on new meds... even my adhd stuff is relieved more!!! waaaa

#plural joy #positive vent #reggie♤☆◇♧#and other collective beings #pocketcat posting🌙

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mattypattypinky · 5 months

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So my god mother basically came in and told me that watching my comfort movie over and over isn't healthy, and that really rubbed me the wrong way because I don't understand why she felt the need to say that or why it would be unhealthy unless she herself was annoyed by it or something??? Like it's not like it's hurting me? I mean I guess it can be annoying to her but if it's annoying to her I don't understand why she doesn't vocalize that instead of hiding behind saying it's unhealthy for me as I'm way happier focusing on one thing for long periods of time than I ever am focusing on multiple things randomly??? I used to do this and I still do this and it's been a thing I've done all of my fucking life and I don't understand why she felt the need to comment on it when she's the one who gave me the TV and access to watching it.

I've done it all my life and It's never affected me in a negative way that I don't like??? In fact for the most hyperfixations makes me happy. Like I guess maybe she's talking about the fact I depend on it to be happy but I don't? I just really am attached to it. If she wanted me to watch something else she could just say so it's really bothering me😞😞😞

I'm just gonna watch it on my phone from now on bc im irritated as hellllll😭😭😭 like if ur bothered that much just tell me i have headphones and a phone i can watch my shit on my own. 😞😞😞 ur the one who GAVE me the damn tv to watch it onnnn😭😭😭😭😭 atleast I'm not out doin drugs atleast I'm not suicidal atleast im happy with my goddamn obsession like god.

sorry this vent is long and angry but like despicable me has been a hyperfixation since 2018 😭😭😭 like leave me the alone or atleast tell me straight up if its bothering you cus now u got me searching up if I'm mentally ill (even tho im perfectly happy how I am and I do not want to change😞🤨)

#minor vent #vent #tw vent #vent post #mattypattypinkyposts #🦈🌙

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