maeswrites

[maeswrites]

"you deserve better" then be better. be what i need. i beg you, do not make such decisions on my behalf when you know i would use my final breath to murmur your name.

— mae s.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature

[maeswrites]

to say i miss you doesn't even begin to capture the despair your absence has brought me.

— mae s. (journal entry to the one i still love)

#breakup #sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #literature #books #female writers #heartache #sad poetry #grief journal #journal

[maeswrites]

to my someday husband: are you kind? my mother says kind men are not my type since i keep bringing home men full of aggression and i worry that she's right. i worry every man i come to love will always be made of their fathers anger and nothing else so i want to know if you are kind, if at the end of this i am met with gentle hands and a man not afraid of love or if i will only know love as violence.

— mae s.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #art #new poetry #poetrycommunity #women writers #writers of tumblr #writers on tumblr #creative writing

[maeswrites]

all i want is for you to look at me when i am at my worst and tell me you still love me. and tell me that i am still enough even at this state. all i want, is for you to truly love me.

#writing #poem #art #writers of tumblr #sad poetry #sad thoughts #soulmates #female writers #women writers #creative wrting #quotes #sad quotes #words #author #books #literature

[maeswrites]

your name has tattooed itself onto my vocal cords. i fear that each time i dare to speak, you will slip from my lips and onto the floor.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature

[maeswrites]

i want to sit here a while. in this silence that expects nothing of me. i don't wish to speak another word today or think another thought. i want to just be for a while.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #art

[maeswrites]

i hate you for what you did to me and never apologized for.

- mae s.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #art #poet of tumblr #writers of tumblr

[maeswrites]

"do you think we're sisters in every lifetime?" i whisper to my sister who lays across from me on cold kitchen tiles with a bag of Sour Cream & Onion potato chips between us.

she looks at me, and bursts out laughing then says, "i don't know, but i would search for you everywhere if we aren't"

— mae s.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #sister #sisterhood #art #poet of tumblr #grief poetry #sad poetry #writers of tumblr #women writers #writer #poems on tumblr #original poem

[maeswrites]

you died and i desperately need to tell you how it feels. i need you to hold me upright while i show you this hole that exists now in my heart and the emptiness that swallows my soul. i need you to hold me while i cry out for you, and scream at god and ask him why. you died and you are the only one who can get me through this.

-Mae S. // letter to everyone i've ever lost.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #grief poetry #dealing with grief #poet of tumblr #new poetry #poets on tumblr #writers of tumblr #writers on tumblr #grief journal #grief

[maeswrites]

hey, uh, sorry i know this is totally weird. i don't know why i called, or why i thought you would answer after all this time. i just, um, really wanted to talk to you again, the way we used to before everything happened between us. i got my own apartment, and adopted a cat. he costs me an extra twenty dollars on rent but he's worth every penny. sometimes he sits on my counter and watches me cut up apples and peel orange slices. it reminds me a little bit of you and the way you'd watch me cook, isn't that so silly? i don't know, im sorry for bothering you. i hope life is going well for you. okay... bye.

mae s // voicemails i've sent

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #voicemail #poet of tumblr #writers of tumblr #poems on tumblr #grief poetry #art #phone call #i miss you #women writers

[maeswrites]

you're going to wake up one day and feel excited to be alive. you're going to discover a new show one day, and it's going to become your favorite and you'll rewatch it every couple of months. you're going to meet someone, and they're going to feel like they're apart of your soul and you're going to think "how did i live without this person?" one day, you're going to wake up and the world will still be spinning and you will feel every breath your lungs take and feel euphoric. one day, you'll find way your way back to yourself, and it will be better than you remember it to be.

-mae s. // journal entry

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #writers of tumblr #poet of tumblr #original art #women writers #journal #writers on tumblr #poems on tumblr #new poetry #self care

[maeswrites]

and you asked me, "do you think you'll always be this in love with him?"

"i think, that even when i am on my deathbed, he'll still cross my mind, and i'll reach for each memory that comes to me"

-mae s. // conversations we had before you left.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #poet of tumblr #poems on tumblr #grief poetry #original art #art #writers of tumblr #women writers

[maeswrites]

"i love you" i whispered.

"i've loved you every day of my life"

-mae s.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #art #original art #writers of tumblr

[maeswrites]

M.A;

two years ago we were holding hands walking down main street looking at all the valentine's day decor hanging in the store windows as we sipped hot coco from styrofoam cups. we kissed under street lamps when the sky started to paint itself with stars and i remember thinking i never wanted this kind of thing with anyone else. it was you or it was no one at all, it had to be. i felt the certainty of this weigh down on my chest like a vice threatening to split me in half if i dared to test the truth of this. we broke up that summer and i still haven't tested it. my heart locked itself in a box and refuses to be let out and held by hands that aren't yours. i wonder if this is what love is; raw and short lived. i worry that it was real for me but not for you and i will spend forever waiting for you to come home to me only to find out you never viewed me as home.

-mae s. // letters i won't send.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #letters #love quotes #poet of tumblr #grief poetry #new poetry #poems on tumblr #writers of tumblr #women writers #writers and poets #heartache #heartbreak #dear diary #art

[maeswrites]

it was never about who stayed. it was about who met me and held my hands through every storm they witnessed without fear of getting wet. even if eventually, we parted ways.

-mae s.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature

[maeswrites]

may god be more merciful than the man he created.

mae s // i don't pray often, but when i do, my prayer is this.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #religious trauma #religion #poet of tumblr #writers of tumblr #grief poetry #women writers #art

[maeswrites]

how do i let go of the living and not grieve their absence? you are alive. you are healthy and living and yet still, i am filled with so much grief for you.

#sad quotes #writing #poem #quotes #soulmates #words #author #books #female writers #literature #grief poetry #grief #poet of tumblr #new poetry #art