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I overdosed

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Can you tell I feel inspiration in Van Gogh bcs he was mentally ill?

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Sorry for no posting anyways my 20 or smth followers are the only ones who care.

I've been doing great this weekend but doing a lot of drugs, kind of been 24/7 in my own world fantasizing about stuff.

I have one friend lol, great update bcs she lights out my days shout-out to Abby

And yeah I've written some stuff about my feelings these past days probably going to upload them soon :))

And that's it good bye ily

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I drew Marion Silver from requiem for a dream for my friend Abby <3

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I look for you in the world that drowns me, that holds me and forgets me.

In the hurry of the people, turning the corner.

And you scape like the fish from the shore,

like the day from the night,

always close and they never look at each other.

And I face in the nights, a very empty bed.

And I fill it with stories, adventures and malices

Then comes your memory and its farewell song,

I find myself, night after night,

at the starting point... at the starting point.

The morning wakes me up, and I have a new day, and I paint it with colors in the case you come back.

And I desguise as poet, as Andalusian minstrel,

I look for you on the streets and people don't even look at me.

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Yes.

what do u mean it isnt normal to keep razors & bottles of pills around just in case things get too hard again

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'The sadness will last forever' said the suicide note of Vincent Van Gogh.

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Another thing I drew today :) I'm a crybaby and proud.

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I know this is not the content I'm usually making but I thought it was funny hehe

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Tell me my dear, can a heart still break after it stopped beating?

#corpse bride #tim burton #johnny depp #helena bonham carter #tw depressing stuff #mental health #recovery #i'm sad #movies #classic movies #cinema #animation #animated stories

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It's 2 AM and my mom just entered to check on me and give me a forehead kiss while I pretended I was asleep.

It's the first time (well not the first bc I would run away from home if that was the case) that she behaved like a mom, a sweet mom.

I know our relationship it's complicated but I do love her, and I like that our communication it's getting better.

#dear diary #tw depressing stuff #daily diary #bpd stuff #mental health #recovery #tw ed in the tags #mommy issues #psychology #mom issues #tw anxiety #thoughts

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Someone told me keep on tight the things that are mine.

But was he mine if he wanted her so bad?

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I've changed some Melanie Martinez's 'Pacify Her' song lyrics, and made it more relatable to my situation <3

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It's a really depressing self-portrait, kinda happy with the outcome.

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Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh, take me back to the start.

I was just guessing at numbers and figures, pulling the puzzles apart.

Questions of science, science and progress,do not speak as loud as my heart.

-Coldplay, The Scientist.

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I already knew this that's why I don't have any friends :)

“If you’re struggling and your people are just sitting there watching you struggle, they’re not your people.”

— Unknown

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