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How do I be cool like Jesus Christ

Be kind

#yes yes yes! #there is nothing more important and straightforward than kindness #just be kind #thats it #jesus christ #jesus

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our love is much deeper than our bodies intertwined and our lips meeting

something so beautifully wondrous about loving you without ever laying a single finger on your skin

something so undeniably deep about knowing your heart and mind before ever knowing your touch

but will i really say goodbye without ever kissing you?

#people dont believe me when i say that me and my girlfriend have been dating for a year now (pretty much) #and pining for even longer #and we have never kissed #its funny the way we are #our love was built on something much deeper than the need to intertwined ourselves #we needed to intertwine our souls #anyway #i leave on ky trip in a few weeks #thoughts #on life #my thoughts #poetry #on love #<3 #i love you #sweet bunny #and shes going to see this and im going to be completely embarrassed #but thats ok #i want her to know my soul just as well are i want to know hers

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you are my Roman Empire

#not a day goes by where i dont think about you #my roman empire #roman empire #thoughts #my thoughts #on love #<3 #i love you #sweet bunny

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just so you know I watch you walk out of this room every night wishing you could stay... one day we will have no reason to make us leave the warmth of each other's arms. one day I won't have to watch you walk back to your room. one day we won't have to sleep behind two different doors.

#i promise #one day #thoughts #my thoughts #poetry #on love #<3 #i love you #sweet bunny

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i wish i was just sad, but i’m not— i’m just angry.

i wish my disappointment manifested into quite sadness instead of messy rage.

#on sadness #on anger #on disappointment #rage #thoughts #on life #my thoughts #poetry #words

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i wish i could take all of your sadness and hold it for you.

#im not all here.... #im far away...

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new tattoo added to my list: a little rabbit just above my left shoulder blade.

#tattoos #my thoughts #on love #<3 #i love you #sweet bunny

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the art of nothing is everything

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why must you hold your beliefs-- whether they are true or false doesn't matter-- over your respect you have for me as a human being?

#i got my hopes up #like i always do #i gave them the benefit of the doubt #my mother warned me #she said gaurd your heart #but i didn't.... #i leaned so far in #it almost worked #i thought maybe just maybe they could love me as i am #but they cant #their custom of casting out any person that is not a cookie cutter shape of them is always going to stop them #im sorry my love #i knew this would happen.... #deep down i knew we would just end up hurt #deep down i knew this was going to hurt you #i knew she would hurt you #but once again... my need to see the light in person neglected to see the equally important darkness too #guard your heart #keep it close #people who are supposed to love you often dont #religion #christianity #conservative christians #thoughts #on life #my thoughts #respect #humanity #hurt

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every time i say "i love you" i mean all of you

“let me love you, my love is not finite”

thank you <3

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why does nothing ever go right?

#i feel like the unluckiest person rn #and thats rich coming for a privileged white girl when so many people are so much more unfortunate than me #but fuck #nothing is working the way its supposed to #nothing goes right #nothing works #and i just feel like it has to be thats the problem #luck #unlucky #thoughts #on life #my thoughts #personal

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do not yell curse words from your discomfort at me

do not raise your voice in disrespect in my direction

but mostly, do not disregard my meek composure for shattered self respect

respect me like i am a human being or do not point your words at me at all

i know the respect i deserve.

#on being treated unfairly #on disrespect #respect #do not disrespect me #ik what i deserve #raised voices #work

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little hunger games and self analysis here:

prim is one of my most favourite characters in the hunger games trilogy and i always thought it was because i tend to be drawn to that soft character archetype. but i think there is more to it than that. prim never let the world sharpen her edges, she stayed soft and gentle and kind no matter what. i honestly think it's beautiful how she was able to do that. but sadly that softness is what gets her killed.... that drive to love and care for people no matter what, is what gets her killed. and i'm similar in a way, i refuse to let the world sharpen my edges, but that makes me the same character that is designed to die. that's what prims character archetype is - the gentle one who, no matter how good they are, will die before ever making a difference.

idk i think there is a truly reflective part of me that chooses these characters and this archetype to be my favourite characters in stories.... and unfortunately all my favourite characters die.

#a bit on the hunger games #a bit on self reflection #a bit on character #a bit on me #a bit on my curse of favourite characters #thoughts from all over the place today #thoughts #on life #my thoughts #the hunger games #primrose everdeen #primrose #character #character analysis #character archetypes #self reflection #self analysis

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where do you feel the least fractured my love?

we can live there so you can feel whole.

#thoughts #on life #my thoughts #on love #i love you #poetry #sweet bunny #<3 #brokenness #wholeness

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me (very frustrated): "nothing works the first time, and rarely the second time"

my mother: "that is the nature of these things"

#my mother is a very wise woman #my mother #thoughts #on life #my thoughts #poetry

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this is who i am: a paradox of both wanting to die and having so much joy in living.

#thoughts #my thoughts #on life #poetry #paradox #life and death #on death