yonderly-toska

[yonderly-toska]

most people think that time makes feelings go away or diminish but baby everyday my feelings grow. What first started out as a sapling now takes its root in the ground. As my heart grows warmer, my eyes shine brighter, my soul sails lighter. I never thought i'd have happiness and then you walked into my life all soft smiles and gentle laughter. Trials and tribulations mean nothing as long as we walk through them together.

-drg

#my evangelion #mi vida #love poem #love poetry #poetry #original poem #poems and poetry #my poem #poems on tumblr #poetic #i love her

[yonderly-toska]

you try to be good enough but it's impossible

its meant to roll off sweetly,

still it falls out sour.

i'm meant to light a fire

except i've only let the wind in.

it seems as if i've rolled a rock up a mountain

however in reality i was holding a pebble.

-drg

#my love #drg #original poem #my poem #poetry #poems #love #love poems

[yonderly-toska]

is it possible to be loved so dearly yet feel internally your sinking into an abyss 

[yonderly-toska]

Never believed someone would love me for me

i didn't believe i'd find someone who completes me

A all encompassing type of love

I wish i had the words to describe the way she makes me feel

Just so very attentive to all my needs.

#i'd kill to be able to write like #edgar allan poe #notes app #my love #thoughts #euphoria

[yonderly-toska]

i can't stop my heart from beating for you

as if i ever would want it too

and if there comes a day where yours stops beating for mine

i'd still relish in all

the evocation of the remembrance it would bring me till the day i die

[yonderly-toska]

oh' my love how you gaze upon me

as if i'd hung the moon every night just for you

how you know if i could i gladly would

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[yonderly-toska]

the love i have for you would burn through the sun while i'd gladly laugh at it for thinking it was even in comparison.

#my love #poems #love poetry

[yonderly-toska]

chaos has no resolution but peace

-drg

#deep feelings #my thoughts

[yonderly-toska]

long past we shall fade

she shall remain

til the end of time;

less we suckle every ounce of mortality she haseth left

-drg

#poems #poetry #love #mother nature #earth #poetrycommunity #future poetry #deep poetry #night poetry #true poetry #inspired #emily dickinson #dickinson series #dickinson <33 #going to by her poetrg bookin the am

[yonderly-toska]

layeth in the valley of her breast

gazing upon thee curvature of thy body

envisages of our future long since fade

which on-then warrants our time inconsequent 

as you shall remain immortal

till we feast upon thy flesh till noneth be left

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[yonderly-toska]

as i explore the garden of eden and scoarch upon the goodness it sheaths;

i wonder if this is all it takes to be free

-drg

#poetry #poems #notes app #thoughts #deep poetry

[yonderly-toska]

the hardest goodbye inspires the sweetest sorrow

#poems #poetry #familial love #family #sister poem

[yonderly-toska]

i need someone to gently caress my face while staring tenderly into my eyes while they tell me they love me

-drg

[yonderly-toska]

just so you know MY emotions are valid they are NOT an overreaction of the shit you did to me

#go fuck yourself

[yonderly-toska]

Therapy

My therapist said something to me today she told me that when I was angry with how people treated me and when I voiced that anger they never changed which in turn caused me to turn my anger against myself which caused my depression.

She said depression and anger aren’t as different as they seem.

See I would get angry that nobody listened to how I felt. So when i internalized it it became “no one listened to you because your not worth listening to” “your always angry, always playing the victim when in reality your just a piece of shit”

Now I can’t fully grasp this but I do have an idea of how it works.

If I felt a certain way but I felt like my feelings were not right or I felt I didn’t act in the way I should have I either turned those emotions inwards or against others.

[yonderly-toska]

I’m sorry the world was so unkind

“I’m sorry, to all the names we forgot. To all the people who were killed unjustly, in false justifications. That their deaths were never avenged. I’m angry and heartbroken that I won’t be able to help everyone. But if I can make a difference to one then my life is complete. If I can remember the names of a few then maybe, they can rest well knowing that their name hasn’t been forgotten even if the world continues to ignore it.”

[yonderly-toska]

sometimes it feels like my family only loves me out of obligation and not because of who i am, and if so doesn't that say more about me then it does them.