#willing to die and kill for each other fr | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

menelaiad · 1 year

Note

can I prompt you to talk about Menelaus sparing Helen I'm just like :chinhands: about everything u say about the house of atreus

hey, if you're willing to listen, i'm more than happy to talk - thank you!

so. again. we got Big Three versions.

menelaus says 'guys it's chill i'll kill her at home. let's all cool our jets' (this is the version in euripides)

menelaus goes to kill her himself. helen shows her boobs. menelaus suddenly very chill (this is also implied by euripides)

menelaus gets men to kill her. helen shows her boobs. men suddenly very chill (stesichorus)

CAN YOU GUESS WHICH TWO I DESPISE? no. fr. the last two (the boob two) are far too dependent on helen being vain. and helen .... almost not feeling any guilt or shame from what's happened. and we know that's not true from the iliad. these two, to me, are classic. THIS IS JUST HOW HOT HELEN WAS propaganda. cause yknow. ur a greek/roman/ancient dude and you hear that helen of sparta showed you her boobs like 'damn bro i wouldn't kill her either ahahahaha pass the wine, maximus'.

but helen was never vain. she was never arrogant. she was confident and self-assured. but it's pretty much everyone AROUND helen that comments on her beauty and stuff. she never really does herself? which is another fascinating element of her character tbh. so her doing THIS as a means to be spared? doesn't suit me. do i think helen wanted to die/was willing to die? no. but i think she would have gone about pleading for her life a different way, y'know? also i hate the whole 'her tits got her into this mess they'll get her out of it' like shut UP. menelaus is not 12. he's fucking 60 odd at this point. he is tired. he is wounded. he is so beyond mentally well. give him some respect. he wouldn't have been blind sided by this.

but i don't think menelaus EVER planned to kill her. i can accept euripudes' version cause i think there would have been a lot of greek men that would have wanted to see helen dead. it makes sense yknow? they dont see the full narrative. the big picture. as far as they're concerned helen ran away. loads of people died. and now she's gonna get away with it. they're not narrative aware enough to see all the cogs of fate and the gods and all this. so i can respect that some greeks would have wanted her to suffer and menelaus would have risked a fuckin riot if he outright said 'nah lads she's fine lets crack on' so the whole 'wait til we get home' narrative is a good way for him to save time. to buy him and helen some time to come up with a plan, a story. to hear each other out. to work through stuff. they don't get back to sparta for like. 10 more years. they can EASILY have come up with some reason why she's not been killed yet. or why he's not gonna go through with it/why it's all worked out.

in regards to menelaus never wanting to kill her, i believe that because of how menelaus behaves in the iliad. menelaus is constantly lamenting the deaths of the greeks. the needless death and suffering. how these men are working and sacrificing to get helen back. to bring her HOME. what would killing her do? another senseless death. all the sacrifice for naught because menelaus doesnt get his wife back. he goes back to sparta alone. as if he never even went to fucking troy and tried to get her back?????

and also because menelaus loves her. despite everything he loves her and he never stopped. it's why i really like his portrayal in IOA even if he is a giant ass clown. he's a man desperate to get his wife back. and he's under the impression they're just gonna go to troy and get her back. simple as. two months tops. he's frantic and desperate and willing to try anything to get her back (yo bro kill ur daughter for me kthx). and i don't think that desire to get her back changes. menelaus grows more subdued and quiet. and has less fire. but he's still trying. he goes toe to toe with paris, is willing to take on hektor. menelaus is very much: 'i am dying at troy or i am leaving with my wife' and how is that not love? it's literally. he is going to get her back or die trying.

(also idk how much people value to fall of troy texts that are around but like. menelaus kills deiphobus in those. when dei is with helen. the man is insane in those moments he could easily have took helen out too in his madness. but he doesn't. also also. when he's in the horse and he hears helen, he's said to 'groan' when he remembers her and given the context of the other men weeping and stuff. this is like. a groan of pain. hearing helen's voice after so long and remembering her. HURTS him. he's missed her so much.)

menelaus and helen loved each other. you see it in odyssey 4. the healing they must have gone through in those 10 years. is so admirable and powerful. and they did it because they wanted to. because they were gonna see this out. they were gonna make this work. and even zeus acknowledges it. because he lets menelaus into elysium just to be with helen (his own DAUGHTER) for eternity. even though menelaus has LITERALLY no elysium qualities. not even zeus cant bear to separate these two.

they're just so fucking powerful.

#long post for ts ///#menelaus #yes i am starting to tag my menelaus stuff. ive studied him for a decade.#ive given talks on him. ive written papers and been referenced in essays im about him #2023 is the year i embrace the 'menelaus expert' meme #that isn't ............. talking to a class and having them stare at me for like an hour #i have no idea if anyone agrees with ANYTHING i ever say #but i refuse to be silenced tbh #havent been quiet about the HOA for ten years. im not starting now #thank you for the kind words though friend!!! this passion has a very special place in my heart #it's nice to have an outlet for my menelaus thoughts <3

150 notes · View notes

kyouka-supremacy · 3 months

Note

Fukuchi for the ask game please!

Fukuchi, sure!

Favorite thing about them: Causing Akutagawa to die for Atsushi I think he's a very well written villain!! He's sympathetic and likeable and his motivations are sincerely noble and understandable. His plan fell a little short, but that's just bsd for you ahah. I like how he poses real and relevant political questions, I dig any sort of political discussion. Overall, he's just a character I have lots of fun to reflect over and talk about, but that's primarly due to being a politics nerd pffttt.

Least favorite thing about them: I find some of the gags he gets into quite unpleasant, it's not for my taste personally.

Favorite line:

Self-explainatory. But like, something that actually has to do with Fukuchi...

It's just, I get the sentiment? Like, I get the feeling of being willing to do anything if it's to save even one single person.

brOTP: Sorry for being predictable, but highkey Fukuchi and sskk lol. Because Fukuchi seems to care about them /so much/. I find it a truly moving part of chapters 84-88, how Fukuchi doesn't want to fight even more than sskk themselves. He's genuinely sorry for them. He offers them heartfelt advices. He waits for them, he gives them time to regrup. He offers to spare one of them. Fukuchi has been a kinder mentor figure to Akutagawa in twenty minutes than Dazai has been in six years. He compliments Akutagawa and acknoweladges his value and spares him words of respect even after his death. I just,,, in a perfect world he would have loved them dearly, and be the first supporter of their union.

OTP: I REALLY like Fukuchi and Fukuzawa. Tragic yaoi FOR REAL. Very characters who aren't canonically gay but whose behavior just makes so much sense if you read them as gay. Also my other personal shipped them before they got popular. They just care about each other SO MUCH they didn't ever denied it and yet are forced to be on opposite sides... Ultimate star crossed lovers fr.

nOTP: Nothing. I need to delete this section.

Random headcanon: I can't think of anything of a proper headcanon, but I feel like he's looked to Fukuzawa and Ranpo many times and intimately wished they could have created a family together. I feel like the chapter 83.3 cover (the one a little further below) is exactly what Fukuchi would have dreamed his life to be if the world was different.

Unpopular opinion: I'm glad he killed Akutagawa. Duh. I've said this so many times but the “I wish Akutagawa didn't die” is a sentiment I really can't share.

Song i associate with them: I can't believe I could actually think of something, but Knife by rerulili is perfect as the love triangle / katanas / dying in your gay lover's arms story.

Favorite picture of them:

Favourite panel from the manga:

Favourite illustration:

Favourite illustration in the anime art style:

Send me a character?

#Took a break yesterday because i wasn't home the whole day! I'm taking these indefinitely btw #Still haven't been asked the characters Ryuunosuke Akutagawa and Atsushi Nakajima from the manga Bungou Stray Dogs. Btw #ōchi fukuchi #bsd #mine #people asks me stuff #Thank you for asking <333

11 notes · View notes

meraxesmoon · 3 months

Note

Fr they were platonic soulmates, they understood and embraced eachother.

Floky was so bitter about it 😭

I think what bother him the most was that he died like a viking (meaning he died fearless of death).

And that scene where he confronts floki and hes like:

-you did this because you were jealous

EVEN HE KNOWS.

Unrelated but i dont really like adult bjorn.

Hes dialogue got so bad dude, while ivars story and overall character got so much better.

Ivars girlie all the way

Ubbe and margareth situation was...... Uhg

Like ok shes crazy but cheating on her after she found out she could not have children and then leaving her chained next to the pigs was not really girlboss of him 💀

Ik ivar is a bad person but he has qualities that has a viewer become attached to him.

Ubbe... I mean ... He was nice most of the time 💀

Hvitserk... I LOVE THIS MAN

Lagertha killing aslaug was so stupid💀

She had already moved on and girlbossed her way into becoming the best shieldmadden and she threw it all away for what? She could not been that stupid into thinking that ivar (crazy as he is) would just let it slide.

BUT I LOVE LAGERTHA and have more emotional connection to her than aslaug but what is wrong is wrong, she didnt force ragnar to do nothing he was very much excited to sleep with her 💀

Nah. Because Floki was my favorite character up until he killed Athelstan. His character was really starting to go downhill before that, and I think him murdering Athelstan was what solidified his downfall. His redemption, for me, was how he treated Ivar. Floki was a shitty father to his actual children, but he was a good father figure for Ivar after Ragnar died.

See, I loved Bjorn up until late season three. The thing with Thoruun pissed me off so bad. She was pregnant with their daughter at the time, and Bjorn knew that. He should have put his foot down and told her to stay away from the battle, but she guilt-tripped him. I think they were very toxic, and her behavior frustrated me, but he should have known better. Especially since Thoruun was an inexperienced fighter. From what we know, she never actually fought in a battle, she only trained. Bjorn being a huge pushover almost resulted in Thoruun and their unborn daughter being killed.

I was so pissed when Thoruun left, because I think if she stayed, little Siggy wouldn't have ended up dead in a sewer. Bjorn didn't give two shits about his daughter and that made me genuinely dislike him.

I don't think any of us liked Margarethe, like she was community cunt. The fact that she went around telling people that his dick didn't work??? She was a nutcase. However, I think a lot of people act like Ubbe was this perfect man, WHEN HE ABSOLUTELY WAS NOT.

I'm an Ivar girl, obviously. He's a very compelling character, and he accomplished more than most of his brothers, imo. Ivar and Hvitserk really remind me of Ragnar and Rollo when they were in their prime, and they genuinely love each other.

Hvitserk is a foodie!!! I love him! I wish we could have seen him become a father because you can really tell that he wants to have kids. While I think Ivar was the most intelligent, Hvitserk was the best warrior out of Ragnar and Aslaug's children.

I'm so tired of people hating on Ivar for wanting to kill Lagertha. They act like he doesn't have a very valid reason for wanting her dead, LMFAO! Ivar loved his mother, and Aslaug was just about the only person who actually, genuinely loved Ivar. I'll defend Aslaug until the day I die, because she took on the responsibility of running Kattegatt by herself, raising four sons by herself, and taking care of a disabled child by herself when everyone else was telling her to kill him.

Not to mention, she was genuinely kind to Lagertha. Aslaug was not this horrible monster of a woman that everyone in the fandom makes her out to be. People should be blaming Ragnar, not Aslaug, for his affair. Aslaug was willing to be the third in a marriage, she just wanted the father of her child to step up. Even after Lagertha leaves Kattegatt, Aslaug offers her to stay, and she tries to be friendly with Aslaug.

People will bring up how she was sleeping with Habbard, DESPITE THE FACT THAT HE LITERALLY BEWITCHED HER???

Aslaug isn't a witch, imo. She has premonitions, but she often doesn't know what they mean or what to do with them. She didn't bewitch Ragnar; he was just unfaithful. Like I said, he was a shitty husband but a good father.

Defending my girl Aslaug till I die !!!

Bjorn and Lagertha shouldn't have been surprised that one of Aslaug's children killed her. She literally dug her own grave when she killed Aslaug. It was a cowardly move, as well, because in their culture killing someone unarmed is basically a sin, I think.

It was just a dumb move lol.

#vikings #aslaug #lagertha #ivar #ubbe #hvitserk

8 notes · View notes

bi-turtle-enthusiast · 4 months

Note

Hello.... Can I ask your top 5 (or top 3) favorite characters from MDZS? And why you loved them? And your top 5 favorite moments from the series? Thanks if you want to answer....

yeah sure!

Characters:

5. Lan Sizhui/Lan Jingyi I love their dynamic SO much. They're best friends who have clearly known each other for such a long time, and they're both really interesting characters in their own right! Lan Sizhui is so interesting, what with his Lan upbringing and his Wen heritage, and the fact that he's connecting to both by the end of the book. Lan Jingyi is Lan Sizhui's ride-or-die, protecting his best friend at every opportunity while having the best lines in the entire book, and he makes every scene he's in 100x better.

4. Wen Qing Medical malplractice queen!! But in all seriousness, there's something so viscerally powerful about the fact that she's willing to go against nature itself for her baby brother. She'd both die and kill for Wen Ning, and later for Wei Wuxian. I feel like her type of character (murderous older sister) is kind of rare and I really, really like her. I feel like The Untamed really fleshed out her character and I really appreciated her after I watched it. She's equally capable of nurturing and destroying—a force of nature herself.

3. Lan Wangji/Wei Wuxian Fun fact: I hated Lan Wangji when I first read MDZS, and to be honest I'm still so-so on novel Lan Wangji. However, he was easily one of my favorite characters in The Untamed, and watching it made me see him in a whole different light. He doesn't communicate through his words, but through his actions. I think Wang Yibo was perfect casting because he NAILED Lan Wangji's micro-expressions and body language and really brought the character to life. Reading Lan Wangji as autistic also made me understand him a lot more. As for Wei Wuxian, I initially read him as a silly guy and... was right. Despite everything, he stays silly. I do find him a little insufferable pre-death, but I think that was intentional. He probably would have been higher on the list, but while I think he's a really compelling character (and ADHD personified, just like me fr), I'm also very frustrated by him and I don't like how he treats people sometimes. Still, I adore the way he looks after Jin Ling, refuses to let anyone blame Jiang Cheng for anything that happened to him, and takes care of Lan Wangji (towards the end, anyway).

2. Jin Ling Ok he probably would have been at the very top of this list but unfortunately jiang cheng brainrot is real. But CAN WE TALK ABOUT HIM. Over the course of the story, he finds out that his disgraced uncle who insulted him for not having a mom was actually Wei Wuxian reincarnated, then had to contend with the fact that Wei Wuxian was both the reason his parents and grandparents died AND the guy who protected him at every opportunity. Not to mention, he learned that Jin Guangyao, his beloved uncle who gifted him his beloved dog, had orchestrated his parents' death and was ready to kill him too. And what does he do at the end of the novel? He cries. He doesn't seek revenge, he doesn't get angry, he just cries, and he lets go. He chooses not to pursue revenge, because he's seen how the quest for revenge has destroyed everyone around him in one way or another. He's a little shit (because he's an edgy 15 year old) but he's a really intelligent and kind person who loves Jiang Cheng more than anything.

1. Jiang Cheng Some of y'all are going to disagree with me but it must be said. Jiang Cheng is the best MDZS character. Jiang Yanli's love and care taught him how to be loving and caring too. He loved Wei Wuxian, he loved Jin Ling, and he loved his sect. Jiang Cheng never stopped loving Wei Wuxian, even after everything that happened. He hated Wei Wuxian too—that's undeniable—but he also loved him. He kept his belongings intact, he never stopped believing he would come back, he literally gave up his golden core to protect Wei Wuxian. And Jin Ling! He loves Jin Ling so much! Despite having AWFUL parents himself, he was determined not to be that way towards Jin Ling. He did his best to break the generational trauma of his family because he wanted Jin Ling to have it better than he did. When Jin Ling becomes sect leader, he makes sure that he knows that if he EVER needs ANYTHING, he'll provide it to the best of his ability. I could go on for hours about this man. Best MDZS character. He's so full of resentment and hatred and vengeance, but in the end, the thing that always wins out over everything else is his unshakeable love.

Honorable mention: I loved MianMian in the Untamed and wish she got more time to shine in the novel

Favorite moments: 5. Literally anytime Lan Jingyi is in a scene. Every time he opens his mouth it's my favorite scene. He keeps Wei Wuxian humble in a way that only a teenager can. 4. The WangXian scene where Wei Wuxian hides porn in Lan Wangji's book. It starts off so genuinely nice—you can tell Lan Wangji isn't really serious anymore when he tells Wei Wuxian to stfu, and you get the feeling that Wei Wuxian is probably the closest thing Lan Wangji has to a friend. Wei Wuxian draws Lan Wangji a little portrait, and it's genuinely a sweet gesture. Lan Wangji thinks so too—he hasn't ever gotten something like this, and the fact that Wei Wuxian took the time to learn his appearance and commit it to paper makes him feel some type of way. And then, it turns out that everything was just a ruse so Wei Wuxian could prank Lan Wangji. Lan Wangji is,, understandably enraged. It feels cruel that Wei Wuxian would be so insincere just to do that. I kind of hated Wei Wuxian in this scene, but it's one of my favorites because it kind of shows the nature of their initial relationship—half-sincere, but never truly sincere. 3. Xuanwu cave scene. It's so funny and so painful and so sweet. We really see everyone's characters coming out—Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji being selfless protective, Jiang Cheng being capable and responsible, Jin Zixuan being brave and righteous, MianMian being the GOAT, Wang Lingjiao and Wen Chao deserving death, etc. 2. The umbrella scene in the Untamed. It was just so powerful. Lan Wangji putting down his umbrella, which represents the rules and morality of his sect, and just letting the rain mess up his perfect appearance. He doesn't know what's right and wrong anymore, because he loves Wei Wuxian, but everyone is telling him that's wrong. Wei Wuxian himself doesn't know what's right and wrong. Lan Wangji has been thinking in terms of black and white all this time, and for the first time, he finds himself in a gray area. It was just so powerful!! 1. The conversation between Jin Ling and Jiang Cheng after the temple scene at the end. It was just so beautiful. Go read/watch it.

#mdzs #asks

7 notes · View notes

purplegn0mes · 1 year

Note

Before seeing Gnomeo and Juliet: "Daww its just a little gnome movie" After seeing Gnomeo and Juliet: "Oh its actually f**ked up ;;"

No fr, everything in this movie is fucking dark once you look past all the corny jokes and puns

Gnomes can only die by being shattered to pieces or even melted by fire

Featherstone not only had his wife taken away from him but his owner proceeded to lock him in an empty shed where he was trapped for TWENTY FUCKING YEARS (and would’ve stayed forever if it weren’t for Gnomeo and Juliet)

The characters openly talk about death/suicide, repeatedly

Some lawn ornaments can’t even fucking move from their spots or are forever attached to their props making it hard to walk or do other actives

Honestly the environment they live in is fucking toxic. Constantly hearing the humans argue and insult each other, to which that behavior rubs off on them and they do the same to each other

Juliet’s relationship with her dad. He doesn’t even treat her like his daughter or even a person. He treats her like a literal object, keeping her trapped on her pedestal like a bird in a cage. He goes so far he literally GLUES her feet so she can’t ever leave

Juliet’s response to Gnomeo’s false death is just heartbreaking. After spending much time crying she just shuts down, accepting the fact she has no freedom now and that the love of her life is dead and there’s nothing else for her to live for

Gnomeo refusing to leave Juliet to die…they love each other so much they’d rather die together than live on without each other (pretty dark thing to establish in a kids movie)

Benny being a homicidal maniac, willing to kill an entire clan of people for revenge while destroying everything they love in the process

Oh and in my Gnomeo & Juliet series, it gets even darker

#this movie’s insane ngl #but that’s the appeal #gnomeo and juliet

14 notes · View notes

creepling · 8 months

Text

the new lore got me like

here is my thoughts

HELLO STAR SIGNS???? didn't see that coming but i'm living for it

ana being strong-willed and a tough nut to crack BUT she's a sentimental girlie, using her abuelita's home-made blouse and her prayers as tokens of luck. without those things she'd be lost, it keeps her going, CRYING

leland,,,, fucking leland. having a crush on julie??? not surprising (she's hot) but still a 180. my cold-heart ass mistaking them all calling each other 'babe', 'honey' and 'sweetie' out of southern hospitality and friendship and not it insinuating a relationship is my fault fr.

but ok, hear me out. headcanon: ana x leland, julie x danny = but leland likes julie, keeps it hidden and ana is hesitant to initiant bc he doesn't seen interested. julie still treating everyone like a bro bc she's a cloeseted lesbian. i mean HELLO??? THE DRAMA????

CONNIE IS A LEO HELLOOOOO. just like me :^) but damn she's just trying to get by and is always at her wits end and now she's more relatable than ever. would love more about her but the vibes i'm getting is that she's the 'quiet' one, but i just wanna know who she vibes with the most.

RELIGIOUS SONNY oh you know i'm eating this up. i never noticed until now he wore a saint pendant and like,,, i'm sobbing. personally would have had his jewelery be gold but i'm nit-picking at this point. my loyal and strong-minded aquarius he's here to get shit done and not die!!!!

NUBBIN'S CAMERA BEING MARIA'S AND HE STOLE IT I'M FUCKING- great way to link it to the movie. idk how i never noticed that. this is by far my favourite out of all the lore.

linking johnny's scars to attacks is *chef's kiss*. i seen this one coming bc this guy is just act before thinking. and he's a mf virgo. it makes sense, of course it does. i will never escape virgo men i have to live with it. he's business-savvy, his business is just a lil quirky lmaoo.

sissy and her lil shenanigans solidified in the lore; she has the most interesting backstory by far. and i love her face model and the devs taking the time to find the right face soooo good. her character design is my favourite. would love to see a cosmetic of what she wore during the I-40 killings, i can imagine her stealing victims clothes and jewelery and wearing all of it; going gone girl mode with the shades and head scarf after stealing a victim's car after a kill.

#tcm game #texas chainsaw massacre #scout.rambles

12 notes · View notes

simpjaes · 3 months

Note

My bias is sunghoon but reading ootdg made me 😭 for jungwon (I don’t even read jw smut and won’t ever!!) Really enhanced the sort of initial endearing way I felt towards him and made me crave this kind of relationship existing irl (even tho toxic) because while I do have “friends”, we don’t care for each other much like OC and jungwon and it gets really lonely :’)

CONTAINS SPOILERS FOR OOTDG

Also!! I saw in one of the asks that you almost wrote about OC turning jungwon! What would’ve been sunghoon’s reaction to that? + Would sunghoon have stopped OC the first time she fed on jw and she couldn’t control herself and kept on feeding till he dies?

Thank you for writing, always!😭🤍

OOTDG SPOILERS:

im such a sucker for the best friend roles i write :( like i always need that kind of person there beside reader when a fic can be fairly angsty and/or hard to get through. i would get excited EVERY SINGLE TIME i had a jungwon scene to write fr fr

as for reader turning jungwon:

it wouldn't be for a long while, though i believe jungwon would hassle her to do it. humans can be pretty ignorant and i mean, i'd jump for the opportunity to be a vampire too ngl LMFAO anyway

sunghoon would allow her to turn jungwon by the point it would actually happen. mostly because jungwon is quite consistent in her life even as a vampire and I believe he'd prove to hoonie that there's nothing sexual between them regarding love. after all, wonie was the one who had to share her with sunghoon first, and what did sunghoon do? he fuckin' killed her and took her forever. it's only fair that sunghoon wouldn't keep her from her best friend if said friend is a willing participant in the vamprie life. additionally, wonie would probably stake sunghoon in the heart if he ever tried to keep the two of you separated.

not super realistic, but wonie and reader are truly platonic soulmates, he wouldn't ever dream of letting her go and reader wouldn't dream of letting him die of old age or in any other way that could be more gruesome.

and yes. though sunghoon very much would have been fine with reader killing jungwon at her first feeding, he really does love her to the extent that he knew it would hurt her if he allowed it to keep going.

he was very well aware that she was acting on instinct and unaware of what she was doing for the most part. he was absolutely prepared to stop reader before she ended up killing jungwon, and that's why he was somewhat impressed when she did it on her own!

#ask #anon #fic talk #OOTDG

3 notes · View notes

ziskandra-writes · 1 year

Text

Fic: Coward

Eight-year-old Dahlia wants to kill her family. ACE ATTORNEY | DAHLIA HAWTORNE; IRIS; SISTER BIKINI | WORDS: 2607 | RATED T. (AO3 LINK)

The gun was locked up in the basement.

It was one of Dahlia’s greatest fantasies to find the key, take the gun, and shoot her father in the head. Then she would deal with her useless stepsister and stepmother as well. Then, she wouldn’t make one of the most basic mistakes that most people tended to do in this situation. She would not turn the weapon on herself. She was no coward. She was the only one willing to do something; her stepmother just shook in the corner, the bruises covering her body while Valerie stared out the window, saying nothing, tears running down her face.

Her stepmother and stepsister, they were the cowards. They deserved to die too.

After the deed was done, would she wait at the house calmly for the police to take her away? Would she wipe the gun free of her fingerprints, lock it back up and hide? Or did she take the gun with her; take it all the way to the temple where her twin sister lived now? Did she kill her sister too, for not being there to do something about their father? Was Iris a coward too, even if it had been Dahlia’s idea to leave Iris at the temple? Was she a coward for not arguing back when their father dumped her outside the front gates, never to return?

Was Iris a coward for leaving Dahlia all alone?

If there was anything Dahlia hated in the world, it was cowards. Sometimes when her father was angry and locked her in the basement, she would stand outside the cabinet where the gun was and shake the lock angrily, hoping that one day, it would break. Until that time, her fantasies would remain only that—fantasies.

In the five years she lived with her step family, she was never able to get her hands on the gun; her father kept too close an eye on it. She found no solace in the fantasies now—there was no comfort in imagining the weight of the metal in her hands, the look on her father’s face when she pressed the barrel against his forehead, and the smell of gunpowder in the air if it would never become reality.

Instead, she just envisioned a life of her own away from her family. Disgusting, snivelling, cowards: they all deserved each other. She was not one of them. She would save herself, and one day, maybe when she was old enough to buy a gun of her own, she would return to take care of unfinished business. If she didn’t come back, it was running away, and then she would have no-one left to turn the gun on but herself; the real coward in this hypothetical situation.

She knew just the place she would run to, when things became bad enough. She would run to her sister; sweet, innocent, naïve Iris, who had probably never seen a gun in her entire life. Sweet, innocent, naïve Iris, who would do anything for her strong, courageous sister.

The night she left was the first night that her father hit Valerie, who went tumbling to the floor with an angry red handprint on her face. Her stepmother did nothing, nothing but cry, like the useless bitch she was. These people disgusted her. Her father was tall and very, very drunk, but Dahlia was no coward as she raised her knee to his groin while swinging her arm into his stomach. “I want you to die, you fucking bastard!” It was the first time in five years she had spoken to him.

Her assault had little effect—after all, she was still just a thirteen-year-old girl, and a large arm pounded into her own stomach and the wind was knocked out of her, and she could feel another hand wrapping itself around her neck and she couldn’t breathe.

She woke up in the basement, her throat feeling so awfully, awfully tight. But what her father didn't know was that she had started to teach herself to break locks—the one on the cabinet that hid the gun away was too complicated, but the one on the basement door was easy enough. She crept through the hallways of the house; listened carefully for the sobs and the sound of breaking china that came from the kitchen. Her first step outside the house that night was her first taste of freedom—the feeling so strong in the air that she thought it was almost tangible enough to be captured between her fingertips. She looked at the front door of the dilapidated shack. No-one could tell that the man who lived there earned millions of dollars—millions of dollars that he gambled away, what little remaining of it wasted on drink.

However, she knew she had to come back some day. If she didn’t…she knew what she would have to do.

It took her three days of walking to reach the temple, her legs were cramping but anything was better than being at home, wanting to kill them all, but being too weak to be able to. She hadn’t had much water and her head spun as the temple’s main gate came into view, and she collapsed face first onto the ground.

The first thing she saw when she when she woke up was herself—or rather, someone who looked a lot like she did—her twin sister, Iris. “Dahlia?” her sister asked shyly. “I haven’t seen you in years.”

She was still exhausted from her journey. Her sister was so innocent it makes Dahlia wish Iris had been there too, to see the punches fall, to see the blood, to hear the cries in the middle of the night. Then again, then Iris would have been a coward for sure, just like Valerie, and Dahlia would then definitely have to kill Iris. When the day came, she would not let any cowards live, even if she became one herself. Everything hurt, in that moment, and she could feel the tears falling down her cheeks, and could hear Iris’s voice soothing. “It’s all right, Dahlia, you’re safe now. You never have to go back there. Sister Bikini says you can stay with us.”

Dahlia struggled to sit up straight, but as soon as she managed to do so, she found Iris latching onto her, arms wrapped around her torso and Dahlia struggled and pushed Iris away. Iris, not expecting resistance, fell to the ground in shock, her eyes betrayed.

“Don’t touch me,” Dahlia hissed, “or I will kill you.”

Tears welled up in Iris’s eyes. “It was just a hug…”

Dahlia didn’t know what a hug was, and she didn’t care. She just knew that touching other people was a bad thing to do, and that if Iris was one of those types of people, she would have to kill her too.

The Sister came around the corner next, and Dahlia raised her fists in anticipation of another attack, but the Sister didn’t come too close, and instead laughed an odd laugh. Dahlia didn’t understand it but it seemed to come from the nun’s heart. The Sister didn’t try to sooth her, or placate her with meaningless lies, but instead, she laughed, and announced that dinner would be ready soon.

Dinner that night didn’t come in a cardboard box or a greasy paper bag. It came in the form of stew, in a big ceramic bowl. She’d never seen such an odd thing in an entire life, but the Sister and Iris seem to think that it was normal. She had never tasted a better meal in her life either, and for the first time since she could remember she went to bed full, warm, and satisfied instead of angry.

She was standing in the garden, two weeks after she had first arrived, staring off into the horizon when Sister Bikini came and stood next to her, close, but not touching. “How are you liking Hazakura?”

To tell the truth, Dahlia never wanted to leave. The bruises on her own skin had almost faded. However, she knew she would have to go back to her family someday, even if it was just to kill them. Maybe the Sister saw the flash of anger in Dahlia’s eyes, because she stepped back in surprise. Dahlia tried her best to smile, like she knew how to a long time ago, maybe if she tried to be as sweet as Iris, she would one day become as innocent as Iris. She knew, deep down, that it was futile. She wasn’t like Iris, wasn’t like any of the other cowards, either.

Sometimes she still dreamt about the gun. “It’s quite nice here, Sister,” Dahlia answered.

“No-one will be able to hurt you here in Hazakura, Dahlia.” The Sister’s voice sounded so angry for such a gentle woman. “I will make sure of it.”

Dahlia wondered if the Sister is like her; if the Sister hated it when people didn't protect each other. She didn't look like the type, Dahlia admitted to herself. The Sister looked just like another coward; she didn’t look as though she had the same thoughts running through her head that Dahlia had.

“One night,” the Sister started to tell her, “a strange man came up the mountain, thinking he could rob the temple—not that there was anything to steal anyway. During his desperate search for anything of value, I picked up one of the wooden poles we use in our training and then—THWACK!’ the Sister shouted, smacking her lips together to make the loud sound, “I hit him over the head and called the police. No-one’s tried to rob us ever again.”

Dahlia wondered what her stepfamily would have done if someone had tried to rob their dishevelled shack—they’d have cried in the corner together, she supposed. The Sister laughed heartily, and Dahlia wondered if one day, she would learn to laugh too. The Sister was strong, the Sister wouldn’t stand by and do nothing like those disgusting excuses for human beings. And yet, the Sister was still so happy; able to laugh with such ease. Dahlia wished she could too, but the only time she could laugh was when she imagined her father’s dead body, cradled in her arms, as she held the still-smoking gun.

She decided then that she would become strong like the Sister, strong enough so that one day, when she went back to her family, she wouldn’t be thrown into the basement like a helpless little kitten. She would end it all, and then and only then would she feel free enough to smile, free enough to laugh, free enough to live.

Five years later, Dahlia had started to suspect that she was the coward.

Every few months for the past few years, she had tried to convince herself that she was strong enough to deal with her family, to deliver to them what they ultimately deserved. But then all she had needed to think about was Iris’s and Sister Bikini’s sad faces, their voices pleading, asking her to stay for just one more month and she had found that she couldn’t leave: she had clearly not become strong enough yet.

When she had turned eighteen it hadn’t been too hard for her to procure a gun. The feel of the metal in her hands made the fantasies seem so real somehow, but she was slowly starting to come to terms with the idea that she never wanted to see her family again, even though she had promised herself that she would. She could stay at Hazakura with Iris and Sister Bikini, and she could be happy.

But then, she reminded herself, if she didn’t go back, if she didn’t kill them all, there was only one thing left to do, what she promised herself when she was thirteen that she would do if it ever came down to this. She had run away—just like a coward. The situation she had pondered in her darkest moments was no longer hypothetical, but a reality.

Every morning she sat in front of the bathroom mirror, the gun pressed to the side of her head. Her face was pale, her heart was thumping, but every morning, she chickened out and hid the gun again, and promised herself that she would do it tomorrow.

Coward, coward, coward.

Today, she decided, there would be no tomorrows. Her hand was so shaky that at this rate, she would end up shooting herself in the nose. She would do it, though. She had to do it. For her sake. For her family’s sake. She just hoped…she just hoped that Iris and Sister Bikini wouldn’t be too sad.

Despite herself, she had grown fond of them. She could hear them now, arguing outside the door. Iris had a boyfriend, apparently, a boy at the college campus near the small town. Dahlia could hear Sister Bikini’s voice. “Don’t fret, Iris! I think this Feenie of yours will think you look beautiful no matter how long you spend in the bathroom. Dahlia always spends so much time in there these days, but you still both look exactly the same.”

“You think so?” Iris asked quietly. “I hope…”

Dahlia started laughing then: what sort of man wouldn’t love Iris? She was the sweet one, the pretty one, the innocent one, who didn’t have the disgusting thoughts running through her mind all day. Iris was one of the most honest and heartfelt people Dahlia had ever met.

She stared at the gun in her hand.

Could she really do this to either of them?

She could be strong in the way that the Sister had taught her how. Only a coward would have pulled the trigger a long time ago. When she was younger, when she had first thought of shooting her father, she had decided that killing herself too would be the coward’s way out. Why had she forgotten that? Somewhere along the way, she had become a coward, too scared of her recurring thoughts and dreams.

But now, she was definitely no coward. It took strength to live, despite the odds, it took strength to realise that after all these years she could not stop seeing the death of her father and stepfamily as justice in her mind, that it wouldn’t make her feel any better, wouldn’t make her any freer. She was free from them now, wasn’t she? She would help people when they needed it the most; she had learnt that the disgust she had felt as a child was the helplessness; the fantasies she had conjured in her mind had dealt with the problem in the only way she knew how. But she knew better now.

Pushing the door open, she saw Iris’s exasperated face waiting in the hallway. “Finally,” she muttered.

“Sorry.” Dahlia smiled, her fingers playing with the material of her sleeve. “I was just taking care of something.”

Iris smiled too. “Why, are you also going on a date, Dahlia? Without telling me?”

Dahlia laughed. It was the first time she had ever laughed without a gun in her hand. “No, silly. It’s nothing.” Five years ago, she had received her first taste of freedom. Now, she was completely free. Her past wouldn’t haunt her anymore. She was no longer a coward.

That night was the first night since she was a young child that she didn’t dream of her father’s death. Instead, she dreamed of the smiles on the faces of her sister and her sister's boyfriend when they had returned home that evening.

#ace attorney #dahlia hawthorne #iris hawthorne #sister bikini #abuse cw #gun violence cw #fic #ziskandark

18 notes · View notes

antiibow-a · 1 year

Text

So while I agree with a few things this person wrote about re5, really sitting there and saying Sheva was portrayed as inarticulate and is reduced to Chris' romantic prospect AND, is eager to kill off her black brothers and sisters is such a disgusting lie. As someone who actually ships Chris and Sheva together, I am well aware the game's canon has literally 0 implication they have any romantic attraction to each other which, in my opinion, is the real slight.

In a franchise that romantizes opposite sex partners, any chance they get the black woman, like in most media, isn't seen as desirable by the main protag is a serious issue.

The killing of the Majinis is an unfortunate situation with no alternative. Sheva outwardly expresses how much she cares about the people of Kijuju time and time again, that they are HER people, and has shown she was and is willing to die for them along with the entire planet mind you. The infection of the civilians is irreversible -- the narrative was Crapcom's doing, destroying the infected is the only logical and narratively correct thing to do if there is no antidote or cure. What should she have done instead? Stood around and waited for the Majini to tear both she and Chris apart? These are people that it's implied she knows -- she knows the area like the back of her hand. They didn't afford the chance of her displaying deeper relationships with specific towns people ,but even when you enter the Marshlands, her horrified "How could someone do this to them?" tells you right off the fucking back it hurts her to see what they've become.

Furthermore, there isn't a part of Sheva who is in fact: well-spoken, intelligent, observant, and thoughtful, that is "inarticulate." RE5 and even Sheva as a character isn't anywhere near fucking perfect, but don't say shit that ain't true. I don't care if people want to poke holes into RE5, the company deserves it, but it would make more sense that those looking at it don't make shit up.

Yall lame ass fr.

#̿̿ ̿̿ ̿̿ ̿'̿'\̵͇̿̿\ ▸ 𝙋𝘼𝙐𝙎𝙀𝘿 𝙂𝘼𝙈𝙀 ◂ ooc.#really and truly i unno why i do it #in my hunt to get some more info a shred #a crumb #come across some real shit that got me gagged ( negative )#TW: VENTING #no bc fr this actually made me mad. over some damn polygons

5 notes · View notes

sunflowershouto · 4 years

Text

when their frenemy (and crush) is kidnapped - katsuki bakugou, hitoshi shinsou

𝑵𝒐𝒕𝒆: Hiii! Sorry I’ve been a little slow with requests lately! I’ve closed things up and I’m gonna start getting through my inbox! Thank you for the patience <3

𝑺𝒖𝒎𝒎𝒂𝒓𝒚: Headcanon of Bakugou and Shinshou leaping into action when someone they constantly bicker with is kidnapped.

𝐛 𝐚 𝐤 𝐮 𝐠 𝐨 𝐮

✧ For people that claim to hate each other, you and Bakugou pay a whole lot of attention to each other. It’s almost like you bicker for sport.

✧ Your classmates are the first to point out that if you really dislike each other so much, then why not just stop speaking to each other? After all, Bakugou already avoids interacting with his other classmates as much as possible, why not stop putting so much energy into hating one person?

✧ When this is pointed out to him, Bakugou gets angry. Shocker. He gets very defensive, and tells whoever was speaking to him to “SHUT UP AND MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS BEFORE I BLAST YOU INTO HELL!”

✧ He has such a way with words.

✧ You, on the other hand, are a little more willing to admit that you don’t hate his constant teasing as much as you let on, though you still resist the idea that you and Katsuki are ‘friends’ in any capacity.

✧ When you get kidnapped, no one knows what to do or where to start. There’s almost no leads, about where you could have been taken, and even worse, the villain that took you was practically unknown. Very little is known about his operation.

✧ The authorities are adamant about taking it slow, searching for evidence before jumping into anything that could result in direct confrontation.

✧ The class of 1-A doesn’t like it, but for the most part, they listen to the authorities.

✧ That is, except for one student in particular.

✧ “Take it slow?! TO HELL WITH THAT! L/N COULD DIE BECAUSE YOU BASTARDS DON’T KNOW HOW TO DO YOUR JOBS!”

✧ He is completely restless, unable to focus in class because he’s too busy thinking about all the shit that you might be subjected to. He can barely even sleep, he’s so occupied by it.

✧ Every time some idiot detective talks about waiting for more evidence, Katsuki wants to kill someone.

✧ It’s barely three days before he decides to take matters into his own hands. He’d been kidnapped by the League before, and if anyone could figure out where they’d taken someone, it was him.

✧ No one in 1-A fails to notice just how much Bakugou seems to want to get you back, but when anyone says anything, he brushes it off immediately.

✧ “You think I give a shit about L/N? I just don’t want this shitty school to get shut down because it can’t keep its students from getting abducted every ten fucking seconds.”

✧ Sure, buddy.

✧ He comes up with a plan. Well, half a plan. It’s not a very good plan.

✧ The plan is to essentially search areas where villain activity has been especially high, and tear each city block apart brick by brick to try and find you. Bakugou trusts his instincts enough not to plan out his every move.

✧ There isn’t much strategy to it, but it’s something, and Bakugou is sick and tired of waiting for something to happen.

✧ It’s his fourth night searching the city when he finally finds where you’re being held. You’re in surprisingly good condition, and aside from a few minor scrapes, you’re uninjured.

✧ Just a few low-level lackeys have been left to guard you, and Bakugou makes quick work of them before untying your wrists and ankles and pulling you to your feet.

✧ “You’re welcome.” He says it before he asks if you’re alright, or before you can even say thank you, not that you’re going to anymore. His hand is still wrapped gently around your wrist, his other on your waist.

✧ “Seriously, I’m not some damsel in distress. You can let go of me now, I’m not going to- Mmmf!”

✧ You’re cut off by Katsuki’s lips on yours, and you’re stunned into silence. You freeze for a second, and then melt into the kiss, shutting your eyes.

✧ When you pull back, your face is hot, and you’re unsure of what to say.

✧ “If you ever get kidnapped again, I’m breaking up with you. Okay, dipshit?”

𝐬 𝐡 𝐢 𝐧 𝐬 𝐨 𝐮

☽ You and Shinsou have never gotten along. You find him creepy and condescending, and he finds you obnoxious and judgemental.

☽ The two of you are bickering constantly, or at least the two of you would call it bickering. The rest of the first years call it ‘shameless flirting,’ something that you both deny vehemently.

☽ It was difficult not to notice the easy flow of banter between the two of you, even if it was mostly hostile. Still, both of you stuck to your convictions and remained strictly (fr)enemies.

☽ To the surprise of absolutely no one, you were at a school event when the villains showed up, continuing in their goal of deteriorating the reputation of U.A. with a direct attack on school property. You and Hitoshi had been partnered together for an exercise, and ended up having to fight together.

☽ There were two many for just the two of you to handle, and one of them had some sort of quirk that allowed him to be resistant to Shinshou’s mental control. With his quirk only useful against one of your two opponents, you found yourselves at a disadvantage.

☽ Shinsou felt useless as he watched you being taken away, unable to do anything to stop it. He couldn’t explain the overwhelming tightness in his chest, a feeling that made him want to collapse to his knees in the rubble and shut down.

☽ He ignored that feeling, and when the dust had settled and the villains were gone, Hitoshi was the one who had to tell the teachers and the authorities what had happened to you.

☽ None of his classmates had ever seen him so visibly distressed, but any attempts to comfort him fell on deaf ears.

☽ Shinshou’s current priority was to bring you home as quickly as possible, and nothing was going to distract him from it. If he couldn’t even do that, then what kind of hero could he ever hope to be?

☽ He threw himself right into the line of danger, and went out looking for villains. The first few knew nothing, but after a few tries, Shinsou was successful. He managed to brainwash the villain into revealing where you had been taken, and from there, he went to the authorities.

☽ He wasn’t stupid enough to go running into a nest of evil on his own, but he made sure that he accompanied the pro-heroes and the authorities to the rescue.

☽ While they did the fighting, Hitoshi found where you were being held, and set you free.

☽ You had been asleep, and were more than surprised to see Shinsou there when you woke up. “I can’t say I’m not glad, but I never thought I’d be so happy to wake up to your stupid face,” you poked, your sense of humor still clearly in tact.

☽ “Not going to say thank you?”

☽ “You know, most real heroes don’t make the person they save say thank-”

☽ Shinsou kisses you, and it’s short but sweet. His lips brush softly against yours for just a couple of seconds before he pulls away.

☽ “...you.” That definitely shut you up, and you can see that Hitoshi is smirking ever so slightly. You can’t pretend that your heart isn’t racing, or that you didn’t enjoy what he had just done. “You think you’re really smooth, don’t you?”

☽ “As a matter of fact I do.”

☽ Shinsou makes a mental note of the fact that he now has a proven way to shut you up when you’re being obnoxious.

#bnha x reader #bnha imagines #katsuki bakugo imagine #katsuki bakugo x reader #hitoshi shinsou imagine #hitoshi shinsou x reader #shinsou x reader #bakugou x reader #my hero imagines #my hero x reader #mha imagines #mha x reader #my hero academia x reader #my hero academia imagines

230 notes · View notes

sanikori · 4 years

Text

Snk 129

Hey guys and gals, i apologize for not giving the recap quickly like i always do but i’ve been so drained out of energy with all the shit going on. So i just took some time for myself and to support my black friends in the #blacklivesmatter movement and going protesting with them, obviously protecting them by using my white privilige. With this said, let’s get into it.

We didn’t even start yet and i’m already sad. Also i remember someone saying Armin was the only one to show emphaty. EITHER YOU BLIND OR YOU PRETEND TO BE, DO YOU NOT SEE CONNIE’S TRAUMATIZED FACE OR YOU PRETEND NOT TO SEE IT

My titan babes squashing scouts like i squash mosquitos. I love to see it

In a few words, we’re fucked in the ass. That chapter 123 flashback killed me

Switching up their Ackermans

I took 129 chapters and 4 seasons to see these two cooporate and not be at each other’s throat for Eren’s dick but worth the wait

Bitch kill who? not on my queens watch. I ugly laughed when he aimed at Hanji and Mikasa and of course missed. How is this dude a soldier when he clearly never did target pratice? he just doesn’t know how to aim which is patchetic.

Wish i could have them both protecting me like that from my life problems

I love him so much. He lost Marcel, Bertolt and Porco. Annie is the only one left and he just can’t bear to loose her too. Other than him begin suicidal, he was really willing to die just to save Annie lemme go cry

Their worried looks.

Not Flop trying to act like daddy Erwin i- he really though he did something... i hope he realized that no one found this cute and makes people want to kill him even more

10)

All i see is tiny Levi

11)

Grampa Magath

12)

They saved him, so he saves them back even though they both betrayed him. Slay king, slay

13)

They fr couldn’t take out 4 people even when they had them out numbered... the embarassment is real

14)

They are so sexy AND FOR WHAT?!

15)

Anyone has Isayama’s pusher’s number? no because i wanna know what type of drug he bought to come up with a chicken titan.

16)

See he’s a cockroach, he flies like one.

17)

Gabi is talented, brilliant, incredible, spectacular, amazing, showstopping, outstanding, never the same, totally unique, completely never done before- now this is how you use a gun. Floch, but make it one armed, now you can be like Erwin. And Mikasa, slice me up like that

18)

Mikasa who told you to look that fine

19)

My god they doing it

20)

This poor child...

21)

I wanna have a poster of Mikasa holding Annie. Funny how Jean was knocking the shit out of Reiner the previous night and now he’s helping him and with Pieck roaring at Hanji when they first met and now Hanji is helping her

22)

I hope y’all hearing me cry in the corner of my room

23)

Are we sure they aren’t half bros like Eren and Zeke? they do be looking similiar tho. All jokes aside, this proves Eldia and Marley could’ve talked it out but no, they had to be difficult and start a war

24)

And here i am, crying at 3 Am over Shadis and Magath dying together. Thank you guys for training our beloved soldiers and warriors, i’ll miss you both. Rest in power kings.

In conclusion: Flop’s plot armour is officially stronger than Reiner’s.

195 notes · View notes

incorrect-ikevamp-quotes · 4 years

Note

Hello yes, could you elaborate on the Comte wedding event pleease. Crying and fangirling and dying are all acceptable. I missed it and I adore your rambles about Comte? Thank you either way.

!!! I’d be delighted to!! And awww, I’m so glad :D I love to write about him in any capacity, it makes me so happy to know people enjoy it when I do! Tysm for the full license to cry/fangirl/die because lbr it ain’t a Comte event if all three of those things don’t happen .Please don’t worry, I don’t mind talking abt it anyway! 💕💕💕

Okay my fellow Comte stans, you know the drill! I’ll be placing the details of the Wedding Story Event (jpn version) below the cut! Please don’t read if you want to wait for the official translation, and I hope you enjoy if you do take a peak! c:

AIGHT Y’ALL in fair Verona where we lay our scene-- This event begins on a lovely summer day with Comte and MC at a boutique picking out a wedding dress for their upcoming ceremony. As usual, she provides a bit of background as to how we got here. Comte doesn’t have a proposal event (as far as I know) like the other suitors because he actually proposes marriage in his MS. I won’t go too far into details just in case, but they essentially swear their love to each other in a church at night--just the two of them. (I’m not 100% sure, but I think this event takes place on the anniversary of the vow that they shared, what Comte called becoming “a vampire’s bride.” Yes it’s as hot as it sounds AND I LOVED IT). Now, despite their private promise to each other, Comte does specify that he fully intends to have a public wedding whenever she feels comfortable doing that. As such, this event is picking up from there.

With all the nitty gritty settled, it’s time to get to the fun bits. So Comte is weaving in and out of the dresses, trying to find the perfect one for his beloved. MC is equal parts exasperated but amused, and she notes that it reminds her so much of when she first debuted in high society (reference to the beginning of Comte’s MS). Back then, when she agreed to debut, he told her that he would immediately send word to his tailor to make the necessary preparations. It’s a kind of nostalgic moment; she remembers how thorough and excited he was (”I’ll be sure to show off your every charm”), and he’s effusing that energy in the boutique too. Eventually he settles on two of them and requests that they both be prepared, and MC sputters. She’s like Comte???? W H Y we only need one dress???? And he insists that, since it’s a special occasion, there’s no harm in it is there? He also goes on to say that it is in line with her culture’s tradition of “dyeing the bride in the husband’s colors.” MC shoots back that the tradition doesn’t entail several wedding dresses for the bride, but he pays the correction no mind. Y’all. I loved this part because it just emphasizes how much of a LIL SHIT he can be. Like he’s 100% harmless but I was like BOI IF U DON’T--I WILL KISS UR CUTE FACE. YOU STOP THAT.

I find it interesting especially because it remains in line with a trend about Comte that is so arresting for me, something that I find so endearing about him. I’ll note other places in the event I find it, but in this moment he is revealing something critical: for all of his capacity to play with the language and expectations that other people have/use, he only ever uses it for good. Here he’s purely being playful (with a stark note of respect and awareness); he has no intention of overwhelming her or undermining her cultural expectations of what a wedding means. Especially because MC, even in her monologue, isn’t truly upset--she honestly seems to find it adorable and funny more than anything. It’s also clear that Comte is working within her comfort zones. While he would buy the entire damn boutique if she let him, he settles on two because he knows it would stress her out otherwise (MC tends to be p pragmatic, not really about extravagance she is a mood).

And so they make their selection and exit the boutique, and they’re walking arm in arm back to the carriage. Comte laments narrowing it down to only two, but he’s happy they found something nice. MC thanks him for bringing her along, but he says it’s only natural--he wanted to pick out the dress the world would see together, he would never be happy with it otherwise. MC melts (WHO WOULDN’T) and says she’s really looking forward to wearing them, and he’s shook AF.

(OKAY BUT I NEED TO SCREAM ABOUT THIS. DOES HE UNDERSTAND HOW TOUCHED I AM. DOES HE KNOW. His route hammers home this idea that for Comte, being with someone absolutely means being on the same page. It means being there for each other yes--but it also means making sure the other person feels wanted and included. He could have so easily just picked his favorite and been like “yeah this is what we’re going with.” But not only does he not do that, he refuses the very idea of a ceremony without it. He wants this to mean something for both of them, and he’s more than willing to put in the time and effort to ascertain that. I’M FUCKING TENDER OKAY. HE CARES SO MUCH AND I SOB)

He asks her if there’s anything else that she really, really wants for their wedding, and she thinks it through. It’ll be a reasonably sized wedding, with the men of the mansion in attendance and most of their closer high society friends. They’ve picked out a dress, the venue is set, the people closest to her will be there...she really can’t think of anything else? So she asks him if he has anything he really wants to do for the wedding, and he replies in the negative too, saying that “My only ideal wedding can be one in which I can see you at your most happy." ARE YOU KIDDING ME--Before MC can recover from that, he goes on: "Even now, I'm enjoying the preparations, and I want to do whatever I can for you." MC feels like she can never win against his sweet affection, so she nearly kills him with her answering line: "It’s more than enough. More than anything, being able to swear our love together again--to renew our vow--is the best part of it all." Comte is visibly shocked and is quiet for moment (MAN DOWN!!!!!!!!! VAMPIRE DOWN GET THE DEFIBRILATORS!!!!! LEONARDO PUT THAT LIGHTNING ROD AWAY I SWEAR TO GOD--) before he just replies with a “Is that so :>>>” And translating this nearly killed me [At the sight of his gentle smile, I smile back.] IM GOING TO SCREAM THEY ARE JUST SO TENDER IM SOFTE????????????

As they’re walking, Comte asks MC to tell him about weddings in her time. What were they like? He wants a reference point. She goes on to describe how ceremonies really range from formal to more informal affairs, and gets to a little custom that’s apparently held in Japan. When a groom intends to marry a bride, he will go to the bride’s family to ask for their approval. Comte visibly seems concerned about it, and I’m pretty sure he feels bad denying her that experience; not only did he propose to her without knowing any of that, her family isn’t within range to be able to honor it properly now. Even so, he keeps listening and comments now and again with a great deal of interest, paying close attention. He asks, what happens if the groom is rejected by the family? MC goes on to say that it’s a kind of test of perseverance: the groom is expected to ask/prove himself until he gets an answer in the affirmative. Internally, she notes that such a thing rarely ever happens irl--it’s mostly dramatized in movies and TV shows. She used to dream of how thrilling it might be to have someone do that for her, but it was mostly just a silly little fancy, nothing she was obsessed over. Comte, being a literal fucking legend, senses this emotional shift in milliseconds, and starts musing about something. When she tries to ask what’s up, he’s like not to worry leave everything to me.

PLEASE CUE THE CIRCUS MUSIC. BECAUSE THIS IS ABSOLUTELY GOING TO TURN INTO A CLOWN FEST.

So it cuts to them back home and Comte is asking Sebastian to give MC’s hand in marriage. Sebastian is utterly bEWILDERED and is like “I mean I understand I’m probably the closest relative she has right now but also WHAT!? YOU’RE MY BOSS/LORD I’M YOUR BUTLER FOR CRYING OUT LOUD”. Comte 100% is undaunted by this very normal reaction and insists that class/status has no place in matters like this, and Sebastian and MC are desperately trying to stop him from bowing his head/kneeling. MC notes she never expected him to take it to heart, tells him "Comte, you really don't have to go that far, it's a custom not a duty--" (IT’S SO FUCKING FUNNY????? YOU CAN FEEL THEIR MOUNTING CONCERN AND I CAN’T BELIEVE COMTE WAS STRAIGHT UP JUST “i am not above begging” AND THEY’RE LIKE YOU SHOULD BE YOU SHOULD BE ABOVE BEGGING)

The circus only escalates when Leo comes in LAUGHING HIS ASS OFF "damn...bahahahhahahaaaaa now THIS oughtta be good/interesting." MC (and I simultaneously) start yelling at him and he replies "What? Comte's already ready and willing, why stop him?" For whatever reason, this gives Comte an idea (NEVER A GOOD SIGN) and he’s like you know what? That’s actually perfect, get everybody in here I’m gonna ask them for permission too :D

Several things I want to say about this. 1. COMTE LITERALLY DOES NOT EVEN REACT TO LEO’S MOCKING HE JUST “omg ur face was useful for smth for once this gives me an idea” 2. META TIME. First and foremost, I seriously can’t deal. This man knows MC has nothing because of her traveling through time, no friends or family--he’s always so, so aware of what she’s sacrificing to be with him. It is never outside of his thinking. Not only does this decision solidify her presence as a member of their family (I’m just so UGLY SOBBING about the fact that he does not consider them all ANYTHING LESS--THEY ARE HIS CHIRREN AND HE LOVES THEM AND I’M SOFT) this is also such a brilliant, strategic move on his part. Not only is he doing this to fulfill her younger wishes of having someone be so confident in their love for her that they would insist on it in front of her family/loved ones--his doing this also solidifies her presence as his wife within the mansion from here on. There can be no mistake; this is an unquestionable statement as to how her identity has shifted in meaning, a powerful allusion to his possessive streak. (and WE LOVE THAT FOR US HELL YEAH)

Furthermore, I continue to be fascinated by the way he keeps subverting traditional or expected forms of supplication. While many could see this as a yielding of his pride (and in some ways he undeniably is) this choice to acknowledge her culture’s customs yields much more valuable dividends for him. 1. MC--notorious for never betraying the things she wants, having trouble asking for anything--is have her dreams fulfilled even if they were just silly little fantasies from when she was young. He’s actively making her happy, and he gets to openly gush about how much he loves her (FOR HIM THIS IS THE DEFINITION OF A WIN-WIN YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND--) 2. This is a way for him to make amends and do proper respect to the marriage customs of her place/time, and that’s infinitely important to him. He’s trying to set a precedent; that even if he ever does make a mistake or neglect something (even if accidental) he will do his utmost to make it right, pride and money be DAMNED.

While it can be argued that he’s just being silly and over-the-top, when you look closely this is 100% a clever, very mindful approach to their future. While it may partially have been executed on an emotional/excited whim, he is also claiming MC as his own in the most clear and respectful way possible. And tbh that’s the hottest thing I’ve ever seen

So, after Leo walks in on them everyone else starts filing in one at a time (OKAY YOU CAN’T CONVINCE ME THAT THEY WEREN’T ALL HUDDLED UP TO THE DOOR SQUIRMING TO HEAR WHAT WAS GOING ON AND AT SOME POINT LEO SAID “omfg i gotta see this dumbass bitch on his knees” AND BLEW THEIR COVER/MADE THEM EVEN MORE CURIOUS):

Jeanne: "It's so noisy in here."

Mozart: "What's going on?"

Comte: "Ah, excellent timing. I want to get permission from everyone."

Vincent: "?????? Did you do something wrong Comte?? What could you possibly need forgiveness for?"

Isaac: "A mistake made/wrongdoing by Comte?...Why am I dreading what it could be..."

Dazai: “Ah yes, yes I see, you are asking for a young lady's hand in marriage” (IM WHEEZING BC EVERYONE ELSE IS SO LOST AND HE'S JUST 100% ON THE BALL KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT'S GOING ON THE NARRATIVE DISSONANCE IM CRYING)

Theo: Young lady??? The hell are you going on about

So things are getting increasingly chaotic and MC is just [jfc this is getting out of hand, Comte they don’t even know what you’re asking them to do]. She tries to explain but falters, and Comte puts an arm around her--signals that he’ll give them the context. So he tells them "You all know that our wedding day is approaching. As such, I'm asking you all for your approval in taking MC as my bride. No matter what happens, I promise to make her happy forever--for every moment, every second of our time together. Please, forgive my taking her" (WHEN I TELL YOU MY HEAD WAS IN MY HANDS IDK HOW MC DIDN’T DIE ON THE SPOT S I R. SIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) MC: [...Comte...My heart melts at his confession, at his earnest plea. It feels like every single iota of our feelings are infused in every word he speaks, teeming with the love shared between us in overwhelming measure.]

For a little while silence falls until Napoleon speaks up, and honestly? It was so sweet ;-; I tear up every single time: “Forgiven. You know how much I dislike formalities anyway. And besides, who could say no to le Comte?” MC notes that everyone murmurs in agreement and a kind of warmth settles in the room. Arthur notes that MC will be a Comtesse very soon and MC just. I’m going to be a WHAT now (”C-c-comtesse??”). And it’s so FUCKING FUNNY YOU CAN FEEL THE RED EYE EDIT MEME ON COMTE WHEN HE GOES “Oh? Is there anything wrong with that? Everybody said yes, after all :>” MC internally accuses them of ganging up on her, but reveals that more than anything she’s a little overwhelmed by the outpouring of love in the best way:

MC: [Overwhelmed with feeling; touched, a little shy, embarrassed, but also full of joy--my eyes burn at the edges with tears] “I'm glad everyone approves c:”

Comte: Agreed :> your country/homeland has a nice custom. A v important step to inviting my loved one into my life as my wife :>>>>

So it then cuts to them in Comte’s room after the circus and MC thanks him for the sweet confession in front of everyone, tells him how happy it made her. He insists that it was only natural he would, and that it isn’t even enough.

Comte: “I am the one...your life, your time as a human being; I'll be taking all of it from you.”

MC: [...Comte? He took my hand with a very serious expression]

Comte: "As I said before, I will make you a vampire someday."

MC: “Don't call it that--a price. I want to live with you too!”

MC notes that while she hasn’t made the leap yet, she knows she’ll be ready for it soon enough.

Comte: “Thank you. But the last thing I want is to take things from you, I want to do everything I can to make you happy, to make you smile. Whether that means weddings, requests--anything in my power.”

COMTE REALLY SAID "she is entrusting me with her future and that means I have the responsibility of not only ascertaining her happiness, but proving my unwavering devotion to it" AND IM HOLLERING????? LADIES GET YOU A FUCKING MANS. MC finally begins to understand this, and she’s like OMFG is that why you went off so hard this afternoon???? And Comte’s like :>>>> guilty as charged, though I think I'm also just still excited about the wedding too, haha! They hug it out (YESSSSSSS LET ME H O L D) and MC asks him again if there’s anything he wants for the wedding too. Aight y’all I would be irresponsible if I didn’t warn you beforehand, get fucking tissues. I’m still upset abt his answer and I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL. He thinks about it for a bit, before kissing her forehead and saying “I suppose, can you pray for my happiness too? That's enough."

AIGHT IMMA GO BACK TO THE EVENT IN A SECOND BUT I GOTTA SAY. BITCH. BITCH ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME????? COMTE THAT ISN’T OPTIONAL THAT’S A GOD DAMN PREREQUISITE?????????????????? OFC WE WISH FOR YOUR HAPPINESS WHAT THE FUCK??????????????? THE A U D A C I T Y. I’VE NEVER BEEN MORE INSULTED IN ALL MY LIFE. OKAY RANT OVER.

MC is surprised but naturally agrees to it, having wanted that for him even without prompting. She continues to think on it, insisting that she wants to do something for him too. An idea sparks but it only says that she made preparations without telling him anything for now, preparing a tangible sign of her love for the wedding.

The premium end begin here. She’s getting dressed for the wedding, and she’s--as usual--in awe of his perfect selection of accessories/jewelry to go with the gown. She’s about to put on her shoes when she notices something odd, and there’s a knock at the door. Comte enters to ask if she’s ready, and they both freeze and stare at each other. They both sheepishly admit to being completely taken with the sight of the other, and they laugh about it together. Comte tries to ask if she’s ready again, and she assures him that she is--just that she found something unexpected in her shoes.

He explains that the coin is an English six pence. Sebastian told him that they are no longer made in her time, and Comte explains he acquired it about three hundred years ago in England when he was living there (he says that he kept it back then because he liked the design on it). He explains that there is a tradition, that the English would put a six pence in a bride’s left shoe in the hopes of wishing her good fortune and prosperity in her oncoming union. MC has her understandable and customary (JESUS I FORGET HOW OLD THIS MAN IS SOMETIMES) and he places a hand over hers that’s holding the coin when she starts staring at it.

Comte: "Hey, MC....Time goes by, and various things will continue to change. Among them, it is only vampires who survive without dying or changing."

MC: "Comte..."

Comte: "I used to think that made it--made us--empty. But...I don't think that's the case anymore. I'm proud of being able to keep this undying, unchanging love for you."

[He put the coin back in my left shoe, and offered them to me--gentle as though they were made of glass(Cinderella's)]

MC spends this exchange on the verge of tears, but keeps it together for the wedding. It depicts their loved ones all around them as they walk down the aisle, and skips to the end of the ceremony. The priest tells Comte he may now kiss the bride (WHEN I WAS TRANSLATING IT SAID “KISS YOUR BUSINESS” AND WHEN I TELL YOU I WHEEZED), but just as he’s about to lift her veil--she stops him in his tracks. He’s confused, and says her name, but she reassures him that she just wants to offer him a wedding gift before he lifts it. Hidden in her bouquet are two pins that she had made, and she pins them to his jacket. They were made from preserved flowers, encased in metal to render them undying/everlasting.

MC: [Me too...I want to wish for your happiness...]

MC: “For you, things might feel fleeting--like they just pass you by, are lost before you can grasp them. But even so, my feelings won't change; just like this preserved/undying flower and the life of a vampire--dedicated to [Comte's real name] in everlasting love."

COMTE.EXE HAS CURRENTLY SHUTDOWN. REBOOTING.

MC notes that his eyes get misty and he leans his forehead against hers.

MC: [Comte's real name]?

Comte: .................I want to hug you as tight as I possibly can, but I'd hate to ruin the flowers/your gift to me

BITCH WHEN I TELL YOU I SOBBED. WHEN I TELL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1. I CANT GET OVER THE FACT THAT HER GIFT IS NOT ONLY CANON BUT ITS LITERALLY ON HIS WEDDING SPRITE, HER LOVE IS A VISIBLE MANIFESTATION ON HIS PERSON ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2. THE FACT THAT SHE ONLY ADMITS TO BEING THE HAPPIEST SHE CAN BE WHEN SHE SEES HIM SO HAPPY TOO. THIS IS SO MUCH. SO M U C H

And so Comte lifts her veil and kisses her gently uwu cover ur eyes chirren, the hall erupts in raucous applause and the crowd starts congratulating them!! Comte then encourages everyone to have fun, and the reception takes on the vibe of a kind of social gathering. MC notes that he seems to prefer this level of interaction, just relaxed and everyone chill, and she turns to tell him that it seems like it’ll be fun! Before she can finish her sentence, he kisses her fiercely before leaning back with a sigh, "It's still not enough, but I'll save the rest for later tonight." BITCH!!?!?!??!??!? HOW THE FUCK CAN ANYONE FOCUS ON A STUPID PARTY WHEN YOU SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT, HELLO???????MC notes: [Everyone from the mansion that saw the kiss made fun of me endlessly, and I hid my face in my bouquet] SAVE HER. Once again, it skips to the end of the reception and they’re now in Comte’s room. (I will blink twice if I think you need tissues BLINKS TWICE)

Comte: "Yup, perfect." [He places the flower pins I gave him next to THE hourglass in the room, looking pleased HNGNNGNGNNGGNGN MY EYE HOLES ARE SUFFERING

MC: "I'm glad you liked the gift c:"

Comte: "It is proof of your unchanging love, of course I cherish it :>"

She’s just so happy to see him so delighted with it. He asks how she liked the ceremony, and she gushes about how much she loved it. He hugs her (AWWWWWWWWWWWW) and then he notes that while it was fun to celebrate, all he wants now is time with his wife (AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA). He starts kissing her like the world is ending, and she says she needs to get changed--but he doesn’t care, says she’s fine as she is and that he wants her right now.

Aight usually I don’t get into epilogue territory, but honestly, this shit was JUST too good. Now this man made of magic asks MC if she’s wearing her bridal garter (you know, the one that usually comes with the whole bride ensemble in Western tradition). And she’s like ???? Uh, yeah, of course? Why... He says that he saw something interesting at a friend’s wedding reception once upon a time, and explains that the garter is usually removed and thrown to the bachelors (analogous to the bride’s throwing her bouquet, and whoever catches it will be the next to get married). PLEASE NOTE HE IS KISSING HER FOR LIKE 90% OF THIS IT’S AMAZING

MC: "So it's like the bouquet toss?"

Comte: "Yes. Now then, how did he remove the garter...?”

HE DUCKS DOWN AND SHE’S LIKE COMTE!?!?

Comte: “...Ah yes, the groom removes it with his teeth >:D”

And so this man HAS THE TIME OF HIS LIFE tugging it down slowly under her dress, caressing her legs and loving every part of her. MC’s face is on fire, and she’s torn between being turned on and embarrassed. Eventually he reappears after teasing her MERCILESSLY and admits that he didn’t do it at the reception because he didn’t want anyone else to see her reaction. Blushing, shy, desirous--all of these feelings are his to keep and enjoy. (I!!!!! LOVE!!!!!!!!!! HOW SUBTLY POSSESSIVE HE IS AAAAAAAAAA) MC notes internally that she feels the same way about him, how he only shows this intensely passionate side to her. Comte is uncharacteristically impatient and frenzied that night, and they both go at it.

It skips to midnight where the two are cuddling in the aftermath, just being cute and happy. Comte, the absolute MADLAD is already thinking about how to celebrate next year--and she just giggles at him (he’s a wackadoo but he’s her wackadoo LMFAO MOOD) and he laughs with her. They essentially swear to promise their love over and over in the future, and it just ends on that wholesome note :>>>

Also can I just. The fact that he lived for so long alone, but was always, always paying attention to all of these little things that are done with a person’s loved one ;-; that he would remember his friend doing that at his wedding and be like BROOOOO I WANNA DO THAT IF I EVER GET MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!! I just. It’s so heartbreaking and touching at the same time, I just want to hold him forever ;-; the fact that he doesn’t seem to worry as much about his own happiness, seems absolutely floored that MC would do anything in return. I JUST LOVE HIM WITH EVERYTHING INSIDE OF ME

THIS IS WHAT PEAK PERFORMANCE LOOKS LIKE

#asks #ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp spoilers #ikevamp comte #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp wedding event #NOW I CAN REST IN PIECES O-<--<#today on: reasons why i would die for comte no.347 #will i ever stop? no #do i have a problem? probably #but i have a tumblr account and the ability to write and i am making that everyone else's problem fdkjlhgfdjkh #but i hope you enjoyed my rambles!!!#you're always welcome here friend! :D #tho yall story time #when he asked abt the garter i started SCREECHING bc i knew EXACTLY where it was going #in middle school i saw a guy do it once at a wedding but i didnt know what the sex^TM was so i didnt think anything of it #i was like haha weird wedding tradition go brrrr why is everyone whistling #and when i was reading i just immediately was sent back and i was like OMFG HE'S GONNA DO IT ISN'T HE THE WILD MAN #but honestly i cant get over how romantic comte is #he has no necessity to enact all these little rituals--i dont really know if he even believes in any kind of religion at all #(i dont think he does honestly but he never speaks to it directly)#but the thought of sharing that with her #of doing those things to make her happy and express his feelings #it makes me so very softe #i dont even believe in all of those wonderful things and yet he makes me want to humor that kind of belief #also idk why the cuts arent working properly on the tumbles i apologize in advance im trying to figure out why

176 notes · View notes

linkspooky · 5 years

Note

What do you think about the story of Michikatsu and Yoruichi? Do you think Yoriichi knew that his brother hated him? (even so he seemed to love his older brother)

I actually don’t think Michikatsu hated his brother at all. It’s memories of Yoriichi that stop him from regrowing his head and advancing further as a demon the same way that memories of his family stopped Akaaza from regrowing his own head. It’s clear that the last memory of his brother is the connection to his own humanity that he was not willing to throw away even if it meant ascending to greater heights as a demon and winning this fight, and continuing to live, despite the fact that he had actually been prepared to fight his brother to the death in the past he could never rid himself in the memory of him.

From my reading, Michikatsu and Yoriichi were born together into a household that was never going to allow them to be a family. Still, the two of them both longed to be normal brothers and wanted that connection with one another. They both however, in the end choose to prioritize something over their family connection with their brother that they so desperately want, despite the fact that they are each other’s only family after mother departs.

It’s important to remember since birth both of these brothers were stigmatized. Their father did not have a child to raise with love, they only wanted a useful successor. Therefore he did not care about either child as a person and was even going to kill the younger one for a reason like having a strange birthmark.

The father cared so little about each of them as individuals that the moment he found out that the younger was more talented despite raising the other as his successor for more than ten years, he would have completely changed his mind and thrown out Michikatsu.

Both of these boys were not raised as people, but rather what their functionality to other people were. They were raised to be useful to their father. Michikatsu was raised to believe the only thing valuable in his life was his ability as a sword and his ability to succeed his father. They were also raised so separately that the two of them were poised to hate each other, but they didn’t.

Michikatsu was kind to his brother. He snuck behind his father’s back and showed him kindness when it was a risk to him and of no benefit. And at the same time Yoriichi also wanted to repay his brother’s kindness. They both have the same intention, they’re each other’s only real family. They both want to be equals. Even Yoriichi says after this what he wants to do is become a samurai by his brother’s side. However, after that the miscommunications begin to pile up. Michikatsu doesn’t understand his brother because Yoriichi never bothers to explain himself, and Yorichii doesn’t even try to understand what Michikatsu’s feelings are.

Basically, if Yoriichi had been able to vocalize that what he wanted was to stay by his brother’s side then all the miscommunications might not have happened. But Yorichii never takes Michikatsu’s own dream to spend his entire life devoted to the sword very seriously, and never realizes how important it is to his brother. So he ends up giving off the impression to Michikatsu that he’s looking down on him. Michikatsu doesn’t feel understood or accepted by his brother, and therefore he’s left entirely on his own to stew in his own emotions.

He miscontrues a lot of his fear that he does not have his brother’s love, as jealousy, and being unnerved or even loathing how different Yoriichi is from most people. He’s terrified he doesn’t understand his brother, because that means he has no idea how his brother sees him. Which is why a lot of Yoriichi’s attempts at kindness end up hurting Michikatsu all the more.

Yoriichi could have told his brother how important he was to him, and they could have left together. That was the memory that he remembered the most vividly from the past, Yoriichi sharing in his dream for a moment and saying he’d become the second swordsman. Yoriichi clearly loves his older brother enough for the kindness he showed him, and is willing to sacrifice everything fr him but that’s not really what Michikatsu wanted. He wanted to be equals, and to have an equal relationship. He never asked for his brother to sacrifice everything and run off on his own, that was Yoriichi acting for his own self-satisfaction and deciding what to do on his own.

Michikatsu doesn’t hate his brother, he loves him quite deeply but at the same time he’s too afraid that his brother is looking down on him to ever be open about them.

They were the most important people in each other’s lives, but they never chose to be there for each other. Each of them always chose to isolate themselves and go off on their own instead of working together both as swordsman like they both wanted. Yoriichi clearly loved his brother just as much because he kept the flute all that time. His brother was there for him, and treated him like a normal younger brother and showed unconditional kindness before he even learned that he had the ability of breaths or his own talent for swordmanship. His brother was the first person besides his mother to treat him like a human. Which is also why Yoriichi most likely distanced himself from his brother because he can’t be the perfect selfless savior to everybody if he has somebody who makes him feel human, like a normal person.

Michikatsu’s utlimate tragedy isn’t jealousy, that’s just the narrative he has for himself. He is very unaware of what his true feelings are and is constantly avoiding them and trying to run away. It’s pretty clear that he was longing for a connection in his life, for something other than the sword to build his life around, to feel equal with somebody.

Which is why Tokito is the one to answer Michikatsu’s question in the end. Both believe that teir entire lives were worthless because they died unable to become who they wanted to be, Yuiichiro and Muichiro especially died young. Yet, we see Muichiro’s much more content with his life then Michikatsu ever was and we see the reason why.

He had connections in his life. Even if it came to an end, even if he lost them, even if he was miserable later, there was still a time he was happy and connected to others, and the way his life ended does not take those away. Even if you die, you were still alive, you were still you, there’s still value in your life. That’s what Michikatsu failed to see because he could never be confident in himself as an individual and could not ever understand the connection he longed to be with the most.

He didn’t want to become his brother. He wanted to be recognized by his brother, be a person right next to his brother. Because it’s his connection with his brother that makes him a person. It’s his connections that define him as much as it did for Muichiro, and everybody else. For both brothers the most important thing was their longing to connect to each other. They both just never realized until they were already dead.

#yoriichi tsukiguni #michikatsu tsukiguni #kimetsu no yaiba #kny meta #kokushibou #Anonymous

432 notes · View notes

eyeslikefoxglove · 4 years

Text

Episode 11 - The Yunmeng Sibs have shitty parents & *Screams in Doctor*

Hello hello! Long time no talk, who’d thought finishing med school wound not free my schedule up? Not me that’s for sure. Btw I have an iPad case (where I’m watching and writing) that can turn into a stand so the screen is upright. HOWEVER the lower flaps that hold the iPad in the case broke so it just keeps sliding down and giving me heart attacks, you’ll hear me screaming about it further down I’m sure. So enjoy my pain.

This farewell scene is fucking me up tho. Why do you want tears so early in the episode screenwriters? Why? (Also, MY STILL HAS NOT HAD TREATMENT FOR THAT STAB WOUND)

Aw my One Braincell Trio worries about MY is adorable tho (yet another missed opportunity for him to make actual friends who care about him and not end up as JGY)

I’m sorry for the thirst but HOLLY SHIT WANG ZHUOCHENG’S BONE STRUCTURE.

That’s it. I’m going to stop the tv series here when they’re in Lotus Pier and everything is fiiiiine. Btw watching that servant girl run through the place has convinced me that I 100% would trip taking a corner and end up in the lake.

YUNMENG SIIIIIBS

Ok, pause to say: I do think Madame Yu is a BAMF. I also think that’s literally her only redeeming quality. I don’t like Mme Yu and I don’t like JFM and y’all are gonna have to endure my ranting.

This woman is just spoiling for a fight isn’t she?

Ok, the first time I saw this, I was willing to be on her side. My mum does the same thing where she rants when she’s worried and my dad is more phlegmatic (until he snaps then they just scream at each other and I eat popcorn). The instant I decided that she could go hang was when she started being an asshole to her kids. And they just take it, so it is clearly not the first time she’s called her daughter a mildness follower and her son idiot and useless fuuuuck her.

And of course JFM goes and pulls the “man from way back when” misogynistic bullshit and tells her to go rest. Why would he either try to not have this conversation in from of their children or stand up for all of them.

Ok. How did LWJ not get a massive footprint on his PALE BLUE clothes from WZL’s kick?

Also, let me go down the clothes, or rather footwear, rabbit hole for a second. Those fucking boots can’t be comfortable. I know that’s the shape they had and whatever but they don’t move when you walk. My god, I own 12 pairs of Doctor Martens, I did pointe in my ballet class for years, I know a lot about unyielding shoes and I can tell you, that walking without being able to flex you foot is horrendous. How. Why. Am I missing something that’s common knowledge about those boots by virtue of not being Chinese? (And having almost zero knowledge of traditional Chinese clothing)

Alright, back to the show LWJ about to throw hands at WC (not with, WC is too much of a coward).

Yay the butterflies!

My one track mind: *takes note of the fakeness of the fake blood*

Xichen bb noooooo.

Wait wait wait. Assuming the Cloud Recesses siege and the conversation when JFM tells our boys they’re leaving for Nightless City in three days are happening simultaneously that means LWJ fucked off to indoctrination ON A BROKEN LEG. And he got there only a bit before the people from Yunmeng, however Cloud Recesses is further away than Lotus Pier, so he was fucking rushing, ON A BROKEN LEG. Please tell me he was at least wearing plaster under his clothes (no he wasn’t, at least not in the Murder Turtle cave) *Screams in Doctor*

(But FR, don’t pull that kind of bullshit, walking around on a fracture can cause the bone fragments to shift, compress the blood supply to your foot and you can loose it)

Look, this idiot is back. Again, if you see random bouts of screaming is just me not wanting to listen to Su She.

Ok, ok I’ve got a bone to pick here. I’ve seen some people say that Su She cracking and telling the Wens how to get in is less about him being an asshole and more about he not wanting to die. Fair enough, wanting to survive is natural. HOWEVER, my problem with this situation in particular is that, as long as he saved his own skin, he didn’t give a fuck about all the people who were going to get murdered. That’s a dick move.

And before anyone can tell me that’s not how regular people work, my building caught on fire about a year ago, my first instinct after putting my cat in his carrier by a fresh air source was to leave my flame-free flat to go check on my neighbours. I don’t know my neighbours, hell, our relationship consists on them letting their kids scream until past midnight and me blasting death metal at 6am the day after in retaliation. (They were gone for the weekend and both me and the cat were fine, thank fuck for skylights). I know it isn’t the same stakes as being held at swordpoint but, my dude, human decency is human decency.

Su She: people like LWJ look down on us outer disciples.

LWJ: *literally gets his leg broken bc he saved Su She’s life*

My one track mind: where’s the arterial spray?

Every time I seen Yunmeng disciples shooting kites I start hearing Kill Bill sirens.

Speaking of shooting kites. I don’t think JC has ever actually been jealous of WWX like sometimes I’ve seen mentioned. He clearly encourages him to best his shot in front of all the disciples knowing he’ll make it. He’s had his mother’s poison and his father’s indifference poured in his ear since he was a child, if this really was a Thor-Loki/Scar-Mufasa/Cain-Abel brother dynamic those tiny little gestures wouldn’t exist. JC could not give less of a fuck that WWX is “better” than him, it has been, however, used to hurt both of them; and that’s what pisses him off. Not that he’s compared to his brother, but that whoever is doing that comparison explicitly seeks to hurt. Also, knowing that you baby brother (I don’t care WWX is older that JC, he’s the baby in this relationship) is a prodigy, and yet he’s in such deep shit he probably won’t be able to get out, and what can you, not a prodigy, do to help him out? Nothing. That’s terrible, that’s painful and as we all know JC only emotes in anger.

SOMEONE HUG NHS PLEASE HE LOOKS SO SAD.

Oh I’m living for Peacock’s facial expressions.

Ok, listen, listen. That whole scene where WWX turns around, LWJ is looking gorgeous dressed in white, flanked by the two Wen soldiers walking down the aisle to joint the front of the queue reads too much like a Western wedding for my poor heart to not make the connection. Also, LWJ (in white) is walking towards WWX (in black) which is usually the positions and colour schemes of an heterosexual version of those weddings and as much as I say fuck gendering WangXian (ppl calling WWX mother or wife makes me homicidal) you will pry those parallels from my cold dead hands.

I can’t even make fun of the *Bichen grip* because my taciturn bb is so hurt right now.

Thanks for reading!

#the untamed #cql #mdzs #mdzs live action #foxglove watches cql #foxglove watches the untamed #wei wuxian #lan wangji #wangxian #jiang cheng #jiang yanli #yunmeng shuangjie #yunmeng trio #yunmeng siblings #yunmeng bros #commentary #episode 11

27 notes · View notes