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[whimsy-wallfish]

i dont know how to write emotions its always just the chest being pummeled with various objects. choking. idk.

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[whimsy-wallfish]

i really dont understand what people have against writing in second person.

if i write something short, i usually default to secojd person. it make sense to me if theres two main characters to use second person to explore their relatipnship to eachpther too.

also,, the emotional impact of "you" in writing is unparalleled. i heard somewhere a long time ago that most of the most popular songs have the word "you" because you can imagine yourself in the situation the song references. idk

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[whimsy-wallfish]

sorry for lack of poetry these past few days!

i've been busy clickity clacking away on an idea for a story..

I originally planned it on being a short story, but the more I add the more it seems to want to be a book. like, every time I write something down, I need to write down five things about that thing. and then five things for each one of those five things. and there's just so much information, I think I should put it in a book, maybe. we'll see!

if I do end up making it long enough to be a book, I'm definitely gonna do this story for nanowrimo !

just know- it has lots n lots of blood, you've been warned (alternately, you've been promised ;] )

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[whimsy-wallfish]

my journal btw! the contents are .. very different aesthetic from the outside lolz

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[whimsy-wallfish]

as a child, around third to fifth grade (like.. 10?), i really wanted to live in my own community in the middle of the forest. i wanted to lead it side by side with my friend - the class thought we were lesbians cause we slept in ths same bed on a fieldtrip. i invented my own language and letter system (it was a simple english substitution cipher) and my own religion and deities and UGH i just hated society so so much and didnt have words for it. in fifth grade circa 2015?16? i threw down the american flag im music class and said in a wavering voice that i would not sing the american anthem as long as trump was running for president - i was so ugh i had so so much anger and i just didnt know where to direct it, what would really be productive in making change. i dunno. been thinking of child me

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[whimsy-wallfish]

the gf broke up with me im becoming a gay whore again

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[whimsy-wallfish]

{ thoughts from my walk home , no 1 }

[ tw! - ed, homophobic slur ]

early fall, relief drizzles

drips down my face, serene.

I think about stealing a rose from the neighbors garden for my mother. I don't.  I don't feel like stealing today.

look at that f-ggot! look at that f-ggot!

there's no way in hell i could know

what the cars going by are saying

about me, I affirm to myself. no way in hell.

am I crossing the road at the right time? i should be polite, but I have the right of way. I rack my brain.

I need to make myself food. I'm hungry, and I don't want to. I need to starve. I could be a starving artist: exquisite, pretty. you know, worth it! worth it! dedicated to a cause, dedicated to self-control.

- shut the fuck up, you like eating. eat the world!

I lost all the good thoughts, the ones worth writing down. the good ones are forgotten now.

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[whimsy-wallfish]

I've been having two emotions predominantly lately.

> dysphoria with existence is one. reality is wrong! everything is a dreamlike haze and I feel as though I'm forgetting the dream in real time. I'm falling unconscious.

> I really really need something. like I need it bad. what? hell if i know! I just have an urge, it's the same feeling as any other urge. I can't tell what it's for. I can't tell what I want. I tick off the boxes: smoke, eat, etcetera. nothing satisfies this urge

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[whimsy-wallfish]

I'm very excited to write next month's writing prompt list! it's gonna be especially coolio tehehe..

I recently read crush, by richard siken, and wrote down some inspired by that poetry book! just some themes, and words, and stuffs.

I've also been very into vampires.. lately, so maybe expect some vampire-y prompts. I'm making a vampire spotify playlist. I'm just saying.................

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[whimsy-wallfish]

I'm glad I got into writing seriously. for the past month, I'd say, I've been writing pretty much every day. it turns out it's a super good creative outlet! i draw as well, but I have alot of trouble conveying emotion in my visual art, so it turns out to be predominantly escapism. my writing, on the other hand, is pretty much only vent writing.

I like it because I can write my feelings down and refine and refine, and in the process of making a poem, i better understand my thoughts and feelings.

I always did shitty notes app poetry, but nothing good, really. that phone broke, so I can't look back or rewrite shit unfortunately.

i still don't like my writing. it's too clunky it's not conversational at all, I need to make it flow better. the words are too.... I don't even know. I don't know! though, don't criticize me. I'll cry, thanks ^^

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[whimsy-wallfish]

I saw this writing prompt, it was from one of those big prompt accounts, not sure which one.

the basic concept was a god in an abandoned temple making a blood sacrifice to themself, since nobody else is leaving sacrifices. it went more into detail with some other things as well, but that was the gist of it.

anyways, I have to do something with that concept. I have a poem from like last month about it, but it's so bad, holy shit. I feel like it should maybe be a short story. or at least a better poem.

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[whimsy-wallfish]

people who should immidiatly blow their brains out -

people who judge other's intrusive thoughts, no matter what they are.

yes, including violent intrusive thoughts, pedophilic intrusive thoughts.

cause guess what. they are intrusive thoughts

if you judge others for their mental illness, off urself :3

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[whimsy-wallfish]

the oldest thing I know about myself is that password I chose in 5th grade and still use to this day. Only constant in my identitity,, I AM *******************

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[whimsy-wallfish]

[ update ]

havent been writing much - brain fog goes crazzyyyy. ive been drawing though, and finished issue 3 of my zine, abomasum. i printed some copies for the first time and started selling it at a local comic shop. i plan on releasing one every month or so !

ill post pics of the zine once its not 3am and more people are awakw

ditching wip; roux for now. j cant concentrate on words - on just sitting down and writing. but im proud of the work and characters ive made, and id really like to use the story for something. whether i come back to writting the novel or do somwthing else with it - im not sure yet.

i need to redo my blog theme for the new years hmm...

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[whimsy-wallfish]

update

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i have!! been writing kinda, i wrote a poem i like. cant post it tho saving it for my zine.

taking a small break from writjng my novel, roux. or maybe ill change the name to the ballad of roux - to tie into the theme of music.

if i start writing again tomarow, at a rate of 600 words per day i will have the first draft done by april - which is a very, very reasonable rate and i will still not manage to bw honest

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[whimsy-wallfish]

my phone wont charge, and i dont have a charger that works for my tablet, so my shittty old computer it is! literally only works while on the charger, which is really annoyingg

i feel so retro tehehe im glad i kept this old thing, though it hardly works. using the desktop sitess of all my social medias.. typing on a keyboard..... girlblogger life. im literally just girlblogging on my little girlbliog

i love love love the clickity clack of the keyboard.. so used to mobile devices. cant even remmber the last time i used a keyboasrd. i write in a notebook and then add shit to a document on my phone usually

hopefully i get my phone fixed sometime todsy.. but!! i may keep using this computer for writing

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