#this was fun even though i havent done one in forever

[maamlet]

top 5 meals to make for yourself

my answers here are kind of crazy BUT!

5. chili. i cant really make it during warm seasons bc its just too damn hot BUT! ive made it often enough that i dont even look at a recipe and it still comes out good

4. ratatouille. really simple and easy to make and always tastes good. i like to defy the french by grating some parmesan over it and eating it with garlic bread

3. poutine. i really love dishes that have so few ingredients that you kind of need to nail each individual ingredient to make it good. poutine is one of those and is also just a really good comfort food

2. pizza. i havent done it in forever but i used to make cast iron pizza like every other week. im probably gonna do it again soon. one of my favorites i ever made used oaxaca instead of mozzarella and then topped with some pickled jalapenos. it was so good

1. eggplant parmesan. it takes me SO LONG to do but my god i love it. its so good and its so fun to make also. even though it takes hours

[powderseas]

side order is here!!! its real!!! yippee

what do you think of it so far?

ok so im just gonna spit out all my side order thoughts so far

SPOILERS FOR SIDE ORDER AHEAD!!!!!!

EDIT: I ACTUALLY FINISHED THE GAME WOOO (just one run tho lol) im gonna write my thoughts under the previous stuff

OK SO. i think im a little..? dissapointed..? abt sider order?? like im kinda conflicted abt the lore, also i suck BALLS at the game

the thing is i have done 5 runs so far AND COULDNT GET A SINGLE WIN. the most i can do is up to floor 20.... im literally so bad at this game I ONCE DIED 2 TIMES IN AN EASY LEVEL. im newgen guys.

maybe im not fit for rougelike games but like... idk. i feel like me and the fandom as a whole expected so much more from side order. i feel like if the game is gonna make you replay the same stuff over and over again it should atleast have a SOUL CRUSHING LITERARY MASTERPIECE TYPE OF LORE like OE and Alterna

AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW DIRTY THEY DID FOUR???? literally called them an irrelavent loser and then sweeped them aside... THEY DONT EVEN HAVE A PALETTE ICON???? theyre not even a secret boss smh.... agent 4 had so much potential I WILL NEVER FORGIVE NINTENDO FOR THIS. and like sure the parallel canon level kind of includes four but that thing is literally an npc??? like imagine what they couldve done with the story if they had included four in it:

when four is left out from the squidbeak splatoon they try to prove themselves by siding with marina with her project. it makes perfect sense. marina and four are both scared of being seperated by their loved ones. but four gets consumed by their anger and jealousy and goes full order mode LIKE DO YOU GUYS SEE MY VISION!!!! i will be forever mad that we didnt get this.

also why is murch out of all the chracters have a pallete??? why didnt they put in captain 3 or something????? sheldon i kinda understand since hes also kinda a part of the squidbeak splatoon BUT MURCH??? get the fuck out!!!

negative stuff aside tho. i love pearl and marina so much. THIS IS THE PEARLINA GAME GUYS!!!!! pearl literally mentions that marina and her sleep in the SAME BED???? marina is so autistic. my little autism creature. SHE MAKES DINO ARMS IN THE ENDING SCENE AUGHHHHHGHHH MY HEARTTT i love marina so much AND PEARL. SUCH A SILLY GOOBER. acht is so precious too... BUT I CNAT BELIEVE THAT THEY MADE THEM WHITE*??? ACHT IS NOT WHITE NINTENDO. anyways i love eight and her little found family full of lesbians. they are all lesbians your honor. we are raising lesbians in this house.

so yeah. i hope i can finish the run atleast ONCE. but like. idk i havent finished the game but side order jsut makes me feel. sad... and lonely...?? unlike octo expension where you could see more and more people using the metros and the chatrooms between marina and pearl are just AUUGGHHH OE IS A GAME. ABOUT CONNECTIONS OK. it makes me feel warm and happy and even though eight became traumatized i like to think that she healed and in the process met so many important people in her life.

in side order i dont see anything in eight*??? is she traumatized??? is she vibing??? is she happy to help??? I LITERALLY CANT TELL. side order makes me feel so cold and empty like do you guys understand what i mean. and its probably becasue it doesnt even take place in the real world. and the thing is. i understand that side order is supposed to be everything that OE couldnt be. i understand that. both games have their own quirks BUT. i just cant seem to make myself love it unlike any other story mode in splatoon...... im really trying to be not biased here but yeah. these are my opinions for side order

AFTER GAME THOUGHTS

HELLO. so yes i somehow managed to win the game. and honestly. the final boss was pretty fun and everyone was so cute at the end omg... but i still think that side order is a bit underdevloped.... i dont even know if ill try to %100 is cuz playing it makes me SO STRESSFUL im glad i get to finish a run BUT i will definetly not be touching side order atleast for a while.... but despite i had plenty of stuff i didnt like in side order the ending managed to make me forget all that haha

#ask #splatoon #splatoon 3 #splatoon side order #side order #splatoon 3 side order #side order dlc #side order spoilers

[takami-takami]

yes yes to everything u said.

i genuinely think ur literally such a good writer like not even just for hawks but for any thing the way u write or see things is just yes chef's kiss. its so true so many people have so many misconceptions about hawks, they love to dumb down him as sad and flirty its as if they only saw two scenes of him and ran with it.. they make him either a extreme pervert (wtf lol?) or "not touchy" also I bet hawks has had a cooking hyperfixation at one point but hawks is actually a really good written character ((most of the time hes just a dude but with a lot of hero training + wings) at first i never liked mha but i have sm appreciation for the characters stories, i hope tumblr doesnt eat this because i sent smth yesterday but i dont know if you got it (it was a fluffy imagine) sorry if u get spammed my phone is shit, i have literally so many random essays abt characters i promise u nobody would be complaining if u analyzed and made essays abt hawks but ur feeding into my addiction of birdman tho😔 point is : you actually see what he actually is lol he isnt stupid he knows what hes getting into.. about getting corrupted from work if that means he can save one more person, he's one of the few characters ive seen written well about lesser of two evils yk? i think thats why hes really likable but also upsetting, when having to do something when they "ask him" when it isnt really a " question"/"ask" its also annoying when people hate him for reasons *(esp with twice stuff)* when he didnt really have a choice under so much pressure and sm consequence.. his personality isnt only just work even though he doesnt get to explore his own likes often i really hope at the end of the manga or whatever he ends up okay cause it would be so tragic if he was a done deal and died or forever trapped in the hero stuff, i havent caught up with the manga i saw some spoilers and now i want too..but even if he does end up um.. :( .. it's okay cause he was still a good written character but he deserves to be in the story still lol

ALSO I DONT KNOW IF THE DOG THING WAS JUST ONE TIME THING BUT IT WOULD BE SO CUTE IF U NAMED HIM/HER and like we all accept the dog as your follower's inside joke and bring it up every once in a while or in other drabbles :) it was so cute ahhhshsh remember to take breaks if you ever need one - have a medal 🥇👺

AAAAAH I APPRECIATE THIS SO MUCH!! I love seeing other people pick apart the bird boy too. I agree mha is like, really fun because of the character stories in particular and there's so much care put into how they write hawks. I AGREE that Hawks hasn't had the oppurtunity to really explore who He is outside of his work, like so much of his identity is tied to that and I think he notices that too? It's part of why he thinks about a society where heroes are bored and have too much time on their hands so much (though I think his primary goal is that he wants to keep the world safe; if heroes have too much free time, that means there's no one that needs saving/help).

I may bring the doggie back!! I'm glad people like him <333

If they kill Hawks I legit will not be okay but I HOPE THEY WON'T TOO!!! HE DESERVES TO THRIVE AND BE HAPPY!!!!!

#thank you for the medal 🥇 #i appreciated this ask it made me so happy #mha spoilers #bnha spoilers #for the twice thing #💞

[cmiray]

*crickets*

would it even be me if I wasn't very late to the party

when did you join ? what made you join ? what do you remember from the plotlines that were current at the time ? where were you in life when you joined and where are you now ?

I believe it was the end of 2016, but I havent been able to find Lis original blog in a bit to double check. At the time I joined I hadn't roleplayed in forever, and was just getting over my first break up and needed a distraction. I had found chambord around before but never joined it. I believe I first saw chambord when I went back to an old rp blog and someone from that group had been using their blog for chambord. Even in Hshq i was not known for my consistency in activity but honestly this rp was the longest period I ever wrote anything. From highschool through university to now being almost done with my masters in a whole fucking continent is trully insane. This rp saw me through most of my 20's and the last of my teens. That's crazy.

which characters have you written over the years ?

Oh god, so fucking many. I know I will forget some. Lis will forever have a specially place in my heart. She went through so many changes but she was always a fucking mess and I love her for it. I'm not sure how long it would have taken all 3 of her iterations to be happy but she would be fighting tooth and nail the whole time against it I'm sure. You can not say she was not determined (to be fucking miserable).

I loved all of Lis's versions, and I tried to keep her core the same but I'm not sure if that sucessed. She came from very different backgrounds and was in so many different situations. I will never forget that original Arnauld murdered their parents in cold blood just for that crown.

Lisvent was so so fun and I was so happy when Hailee came up with him. As many have said in the past my like for Levente showed up to much in Lis by the end. I don't know if they would have found civility at any point, but maybe Lis would have grown cold and mean and meet him halfway. This Lis was much harder to write as sad and misserable because the spanish were such a - not functional maybe but loving family. It's hard to be the saddest gay when your sister loves you i guess?

The last Lis was probably the most deranged. I do not regret her though, but I think she had straid to much away from what Lis was at her core. She was older, and much more manipulative and I think i never quite got her right. but her and Stela were very fun while they lasted <3

Miray <3 my sweet. I do regreat I never finished her bad bitch transformation. But at least her and Hafiz made up and were happy by the end of their days together. Who would have through. I like to believe by now her and Layla would have made up too because anything else would be to painful. Daisuke is still on thin ice however. She will forever be Aslan's first born, and I think this fight at the end just shows that. She was finally rebeling against her real father.

A surprising third on this list perhaphs will be Arthur Sr. I know I never did much with him ( and I loved seeing C's take on him, she brought him to life in a way I never could.) but the english siblings plot, even if it has been over for a while specially for me, was one of my favorite things.

That brings us to Reha, who is 1000% living with Bruce's in his country house, she has sheep and has a long term lumberjane girlfriend. I will not take questions. I don't think she's talked with any of the siblings for a while, but maybe one day she will grow a spine and appolagise for all she did to all of them. Face her errors and all that.

Petro was a wild mess but I enjoyed my time with him. I will never forget the one word to one gif sibbling thread. I've said this in the fam chat already but Petro is a girlfather now, he co-parents with the mother but they're not together. I don't think he will ever grow up enough to be a good husband but I like to think he will be a good father at least. He may still be after claude or whatever name Inna has for him this week.

I would also like to talk about nic tho i don't know if anyone remembers him. He was very fun to play and I'm sad I never did more with him. The protest t-shirts are a fun memory.

There are a few others I never had much time to do much with, valentina, seonhye, Genoa, Ariel, a bodyguard from galicia, Rhea sister of Gaia not to be confused with Reha, probably more

I can't forget andrés in all this mess. Him and Lis are probably my most recognizable characters of hshq, Bandrés was so fun and I can't believe we started this with Dani being 5 years old and he's almost a teenager now. That's insane. There are a lot of inside jokes coming from Bandrés and ASS and I don't think I'll ever forget this ragtag team of MeanGirls wannabees (MeanCatalans). Thanks Evy for making Andrés so fun to play with both Barbie and Sergi, and thanks Dee for entertaining our crazy with Simó after so long of these two being unsupervised <3.

what is your favourite plotline that you've been part of ?

Probably Catalonia. It became such a big part of hshq and I enjoyed it very much. But I'll be honest - I was always a fan of making up the wildest craziest shit up possible but I rarely could make it to the end. So Catalonia was only my favorite cause Evy took it on and made something real of it. I was a very bad political player.

I really enjoyed the "Everyone hates Andrés" gag too. This man has had 2 friends his whole life and no one else can stand him.

All of the other plots mentioned above were so fun too however. I'm truly so grateful to everyone on this rp for putting up with my bullshit.

what about other people's plotlines ?

I loved all of Arnauld's shit tremendolessly and I'm forever in awe of Martha and her caraterization of him.

who is your favourite character from the ones you've played ? why ? what made you love them ? what made them so fun to write ?

I love all of them very differently. I think it would likely be a tie between Lis, Miray and Andrés. This will likely not surprise anyone as they are the i've played the longest. They were very fun to write because I could dip my foot in politics without having to be too involved. I think that was always my downfall in this rp - I was not good at the political plays.

if you could relive a plotline, which would it be ?

Early Bandrés fighting was so fun to write. They became so very friendly by the end (good for them of course but still). We tried to shake them up a little but never will quite be like those early Bandrés threads where they couldn't keep their hands off eachother, nor stop arguing.

is there a plotline that you'd edit now if you could ?

I don't think so. I would like to finish some things I never did but fully change something? I would have maybe made Lis 3.0 her own character so I could have explored her more mean spirited, manipulative vibes more.

what's a plotline you wish you would have been able to finish before closing or just write more of ?

I would have loved to give Miray a more finished storyline. Have her figure out her place in the family and the world in general. She was to immature by the end and too lost, I wish some of that had been fixed before I lost all my time with my masters.

what is your favourite ooc memory ?

I have so many. I enjoyed the group discord very much over the years. I also love the verb naomi'ed until the end of my days.

My favorite might be the day everyone posted voice posts of the characters names in the correct language- it was so fun to hear these characters names correctly!

There is so much of my growing up that is tied to this group. My mom knows about some of you guys. "I'm talking to my brasilian friend" "Oh I know someone who lives in Northern Europe"

where can others find you if they want to get in touch ?

Discord is probably the easiest. I have a tumblr I use for little but if you'd like it @glitradora and if anyone would like it please feel free to ask for my whatsapp number either here by message or on discord <3

what else would you like to say ?

I will miss this rp so much - and surely I will lose track of some of you guys because of it closing. If so I hope to find you at some point in the future. I've know some of you for 8 years - that's longer than some of my irl friends. It's going to be wild to not have an hshq to come back too. but I will be bothering you all in the discord as long as it stays open. <3

ps. speciall for serre: 🍅🍅🍅

#hshqtask059 #goodbye <3 #I'm gonna read everyone's now

[eyebaus]

HI OP OF THAT RW POST HERE yeah it does!!! i will say it is a difficult game as a warning. like, have you ever heard of that one rage-inducing game, "getting over it"? rain world was recommended to players in the credits, and though i wouldnt say its as... frustrating as getting over it, it certainly will take getting used to! i typically tell people if they can play hollow knight, they can get used to rain world.

im gonna try and not spoil much, but the fun divine computers (called iterators) will also take time getting to and learning the lore of, but once youve done that they will haunt you Forever and i say this as a fan of the game since i was.... 13? overall id say expect more of that last post in there in your gameplay but those computers man. they really are special... the new dlc (originally developed by fans btw!) Added a lot to their lore too!

i was super surprised to see you in my notifs cus youre an artist ive followed since i joined this site(?), i think youd really like the iterators based on what ive seen from you recently!

AH HI HI! and ouuh GHAHHGH I HAVENT EVEN FINISHED ALL MY PANTHEONS BUT INTERESTING.. the game looks really atmospheric n compelling from what ive seen n heard so far o_lo! i Have heard of getting over it i think my head would explode over it but maybe the lore would make it bearable..

im surprised to have received an ask like this but, happy to know :-]!!

#asks #writing in my [to look into] list but also putting a billion additional stickers there #cork board

[seefasters]

Hey its been a while. Spektor-anon. Life got kinda crazy which is why i havent reached out to talk about how much i love mash (i love it very muchly) i watched thru the rest of it! Loved it!! Youre right tho, the show punishes hawkeye too much. Like i agree he was a self important self righteous dude who sometimes needed to be taken down a peg, but also hes self righteous and CORRECT. war bad. War bad!!! It rlly took me out when they had an episode where hawk has to like???? Apologize to a general or something for being too disrespectful like NO!!! Mash is supposed to be totally skeptical of the respect ppl thoughtlessly pay the military. Even when margaret started getting character development id always felt that while the show respected her careerism, for the most part the show took her military zeal to be sort of to her detriment. Like her competence and comittment to excellence in a male centered world is commendable but her jingoism and thoughtless obedience to order is a flaw- a flaw they personalize to her bad relationship with her dad. The show comes to the conclusion she needs to learn how to be less starry eyed and to get her self worth somewhere other than her father and i feel like it comes to that conclusion visavis her relationship to the military as well. Love that. So why punish hawkeye is my thing? Feels like a fumble in the antiwar show to shit on the antiwar guy for being too antiwar >:>[.

Also also gfa? Gfa! My beloved gfa!!! Hawkeye has a mental breakdown and no one is equipped to deal with it least of all bj? Exquisite. Ruining music for charles by indelibly associating it with war!! Amazing! (It really figures that he would only be capable of respecting an asian man if that asian man has command over western culture aka mozart, but i still think it deals a blow to his western elitism all the same which i count as a win) also amazing- margaret and charles's send off!!! Klinger and Soon Lee was heart healing. Finally in the very last episode mash gives us a little depth to korean characters. Thank god. I love klinger in love. I love their romance its so compelling. Also also also the mulcahy stuff was so so heart breaking and brilliant and i love it. I love that bj is the only one who knows! No one else knows!!! I love all these missed moments of connection. Mash rlly knows how to make the moments of connection (the mozart. The poetry book. The goodbye note) hit and it does it in part by also giving you moments of missed opportunity in spades (bj cant rlly support hawk the way he needs and he cant be honest. Mulcahy never heards hawks parting words and in turn hawkeye never knows that. And he never knows why. And everyone is parting ways mostly forever. And you as an audience get to know some of the side characters who never got any play before for a brief shining second and then theyre gone and you know they had a full life and perspective that you never got to see and never will aka that one nurse "i think ive had it" line)

Thank you for giving me my favorite show. And thank you for humoring me in your askbox as i talk about it. Very kind and silly and thoughtful of you. Very caring even to a stranger. Very mash xoxoxox

SPEKTOR ANON I MISSED YOU SO MUCH i hope you're doing alright rn

if i'm being fully honest i don't really remember the episode you're talking about - i recall a couple where hawkeye went head to head with a general and was forced to stand down or something like that but i don't think the show ever punished him for his antiwar position? the most its ever done was show him as someone who's swinging at windmills i think

margarets arc in that regard is so good though. far from perfect but still very very good

you're so right about the missed moments and i'm glad you liked gfa vvgfgfhfgh!! mash is so good at creating a sense of bittersweetness, its genuinely one of its best qualities. they're having fun watching a movie but the casualties are inevitably coming etc etc. and charles is just..... i know the music is the literal thing he loses in gfa but i like to interpret it as him losing his sense of self and his place in the world (charles class consciousness era)

also shoutout to bigelow (the "i've had it" nurse) woman of all time

thank you for coming to my askbox for all these months anon! i'm like..... actually emotional, it means so much to me that something i made out of love for mash helped you find it and love it too. i'm so happy it touched you as well.

i hope you come around again! i'm always here to talk about mash and im always happy to see you in my askbox

#long post #mash #i love you regina spektor anon and i'll miss you #also i made an hd version of the amv if you ever want to watch it

[problemsleuth]

Please it's pride month u legally have to tell us ur midnight crew and problem sleuth gay headcanons

ALKFDSJF MAN WHAT tbh i havent been thinking about them that much this much but i will do it for you buddy

edit: ok now that i'm done im actually all jazzed about ps/intermission again so thank you for this ask anon LOL i had a lot of fun getting to ramble on about stuff and have an excuse to neglect work HAHAHA

guess we'll stay topical and go with like gay awakening headcanons or related. just as a general reminder this is assuming theyre all humans since carapacians probably dont have sexualities defined

Problem Sleuth - I like the whole deal where sleuth assumed he was milquetoast straight for most of his life until he met slick and was like uh oh im bisexual arent i! i think he had other close call moments but sort of mental-gymnastics'ed himself into believing it was just admiration for their hardboiledness or like Friendly Comradery fit with all the intricate rituals to touch another man. fighting and arm over each others shoulders while drinking away at the bar sort of thing. falling in love with slick sort of hit him like a truck, injuries and all. he still sometimes grapples with old habits dying hard though. no i will not elaborate :( sorry.

Hysterical Dame - think she knew for forever she was bi, like i think she had a lot of anime ass moments back when she was in school where a lot of girls would fall for her Roguish Charms and outgoing personality and it was relatively easy for her to explore from there. very much the girl knight in shining armor sort of effect from her willingness to get into fights as well.

Pickle Inspector - wow i think he was well aware he was queer from the get-go. he always knew he was weird or whatever because of his grab bag of issues and quirks, so i think him realizing he was attracted to whoever was not really that big of a deal to him. less of a gay awakening more of a gay "oh i accidentally put an extra box of cereal in my shopping cart. ok". i think if he wasn't literally crawling out of his skin with psychosis and anxiety he would enjoy old drag culture a lot. but as it stands now its way too elbow-to-elbow social and young for him to really get into it. and he's much too busy... (excuse)

Nervous Broad - similar to Sleuth surprisingly i think she had a very late sort of deal where she had the classic "wait, you dont act this way when you see cute girl?" moment with her gal pals from uni. HD being very easy to get along with and very direct made it easy for NB to realize she was developing feelings for another woman. i think NB is very much like bi/pan (she doesnt really get or feel strongly about labels) but she has a really strong preference for femmes.

Ace Dick - apologies to ace dick likers who disagree but AD to me is like the Staple Early 1900s Man from the Adverts. he has a lovely wife who he loves so much and a rambunctious boy he plays catch with on the weekends and they sit around the radio to catch the regular mystery hour. he's aware that there's been a few men about town that he'd probably be willing to get to know more personally in another life, but he's fully satisfied with his little city-suburbia Classic Heterosexual Middle Aged Couple dynamic. so basically no salient gay awakening type moments, just in tune with himself to be aware hes probably not classically as straight as people assume him to be. i also like to joke internally that he considered sleuth one of those aforementioned "men about town" before the guy went and opened his mouth, demolishing the thought before it had even finished forming HAHAHA

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now for the midnight crew...

Spades Slick - very much has lived by the code of living dangerously, down to his partners. usually tends to be drawn to the kind of people who give the impression of someone who would not have many qualms about slitting your throat in the middle of a hookup. scarysexual. think thats why in my head he's had a few on and off moments with droog (even though truthfully, droog is a lazy stringbean of a guy, despite the outward reputation that precedes him). its for sure why he's so drawn to Snowman, even though their dynamic from start to finish has never been anything close to a healthy relationship. but they both feel it works for them, so they keep going. (i think this is why him shacking up with sleuth was such a surprise to everyone that knew him well - sleuth's soft, and worse, he's got a working moral compass. that's not slick's typical mark. but he gives as good as he gets all the same, in both fighting and fucking, so slick doesnt think twice about how he's breaking status quo. and thats how he ends up catching feelings along the way). i got off topic. tldr; slicks never really thought about his sexuality so no real gay awakening moment either. more of a whoops caught feelings moment, since that was rarer and later in life.

Diamonds Droog - WORST case of hetero posturing you'll ever encounter ever in your life. kept a lot of Tasteful Female Nudes on and around him to """""accidentally"""" let slip to ascertain YES he is SO HETEROSEXUAL. there is NO DOUBT that he LOVES WOMEN. in reality he's been painfully aware that he's into men since he was practically a teen and has worked to cover that fact as thoroughly as possible since. i like to think that contributed to how he got so good at lying. and also why he's repressed as all get out fuck and extremely extremely private about his sex life. normal relationships whomst? anyways id like to direct everyone to helen's (@jawbonejoe) catholic guilt portion of the droog headcanon corner because that basically sums up a similar idea LOL

Hearts Boxcars - he's like droog where he had his gay awakening in his teen years but he was normal about it. he's just not as obvious to clock because one of his biggest hobbies is indulging in corny romance novels which are (for the most part) hetero, is passively religious, and happens to be very courteous to women as well which paints him a little as a stereotypical southern gentleman. but no hes very much a big gay man who hopes to settle down someday right proper.

Clubs Deuce - kind of a natural airhead sort of charmer, so has naturally had a lot of people of various gender identities approach him for a date or two early on. he also doesn't see the point of saying no as long as he likes them somewhat, and boy he sure does love people! later he finds out there's nifty names for the kind of people you like to date, and they come with fun colored flags - well ain't that just swell? when he gets later into his crew involvement in his early 30's, he gets less people approaching him right off the bat for intimate socializing, and since he's not really the type to reach out himself, he kind of stagnates for a while dating-wise until he hits his middle years. then he becomes Kind Of A Dilf and gets back into the dating scene. so not so much a gay awakening either.

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im zooted atm so apologies if anything is confusing or run-on, but that's basically the 411 on my sexuality headcanons for the team and crew respectively. hope u enjoyed anon!! sorry it's long. i didnt get too much into gender stuff because to be honest, my headcanons on their gender journeys are a lot less solidified in my head. i like to go with whatever headcanons the people around me lean into, since i dont feel strongly about them. this is probably because i dont feel a strong attachment to my own gender. like if gender is a spectrum i am a mote of dust that is floating nearby. generally my defaults tend to be that PI and NB are very much genderfluid and nonbinary, slick is trans (if human - i assume that due to the nature of carapacian production, gender doesnt have the same meaning or impact as it does with humans, and therefore gender identity isnt really something that's needed for them. unless specifically they're formed and prototyped into a universe that is heavily impacted by gender, in which case they can understand it conceptually. otherwise theyre out here presenting however they want down to like re-prototyping their bodies to comfort), DMSG is intersex and identifies as a woman (whoops shes not technically team sleuth but i think about here a lot), and sonhearst likes to identify as transmasc (i like to imagine AD and WH sort of being boomers about the lingo but very much being fully supportive and loving parents about it. heart in the right place sort of comedy vibes).

#extremely text heavy Bewarb #problem sleuth #midnight crew #do i have a tag for my headcanons???? i dont usually post them unless its art... #Anonymous

[iheartmyipod]

wat r ur thoughts on frontiers so far??? i havent been 2 invested in recent sonic stuff but im watching a live playthrough and the atmosphere is sooooo cool it def seems like a step in the right direction 4 the series XP

dont want 2 spoil someone accidentally:P VVV

OMG LITERALY ITS SOOOOO GOOOOD sum aspects kf it reminds me of unleashed which is awesome 2 me cus rhats one of my faves… i dont pay much attention to actual gameplay in sonic i mostly like the storys and characters but frontiers is supeeer fun and i love being able to explore and do the challenges and the stages are pretty cool too … im not the best at them thiugh…. Seriously ive been talking myselr so much about how much i adore it its like they made a game just for melina i never play video games but this is so so fun to me. I was kind of confused at first tho ill be honest it is overwhelming with how big the islands are (im on the second one right now i forgot its name:P) but ithink im getting the hang of it its SO FUN EXPLORING SOOOO FUN and i like how sonic even mentions he likes how muchcroom there is to explore … omg the characterization im not too sureabout for amy i dont know if its her voice or what but THAT IS NOT AMY ROSE! I always get sad when she is written as more mature i miss 12 year old amy…She is so sweet though i still love her forever.&knuckles is so silly i love seeing sonic knuckles interactions OMG jusy so happy to see sonic characters talking to eachother and being friends i LOVEEE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also sage js so interesting i have no idea what is going on with her i didnt keep up with anything about the game before it released cus i didnt want spoilers but i like her. Very interedting veeeery interesting i like how they bring back phantom ruby stuff(i assume) along with lore established in sonic adventure i think it really ties the world together in a way i always craved im so hapoy they are building more on chaos and angel island and master emerald lore seriously … ALSO I LOVE THE DESIGNS FOR ALL THE CREATURES SO MACH OMG the koco are adorable i want keychains of them and in the second island the enemies are so sick oh mai god . … the little kocos true old form or whatever look like chaos mademe go nuts i got so excited i wonder wat it allll meaaansss…. Hopefully i will FIND OUT! Also the msyic so badass im so hapy after i finish the game i know i will be listening all the time its just too good>< i love how huge the game is too and there is socmuch you can do in it if you want to. Also im super into the weather and time changes i think it is so cool but makes you think sonic is staying awake for days and in the rain so gross he needs a shower .. I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO SAY THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS ASK I HAVE BARELY TALKED ABIUT IT TO ANYONE Nothing beats sonic adventure though🤷‍♀️lets be real.actually i miss sonics adventure attitude wah but i think in frontiers it is kind of saying they are older and not so much kids anymore which could explain why amy is like that… still not into it personally but i always think its interesting to hear them acknowledge past events.okay im done.okay. ITS JUST SO COOL before it came out i kind of thought i would not apply anything in the game to how i view the sonic world in my head (cus thats how i feel about sonic forces LOL i just ignore it) but its surpriseing me how much i like it i havent liked a sonic games  world building this much since sonic unleashed ... still i dont think frontiers will be like the basis of sonic for me but it gives super intruiging bits and pieces that i will hold on to forever in my brain. OKAY.i played at schol today in my math class its so hard playing in public cus i need to chill💆‍♀️OKAY IM DONE. okay but also like for me i usually dont really care much for new sonic stuff i like the old stuff wayyyy more but i agree this game is like a huge good step for the series GAH OKAY

#sonic frontiers spoilers #sorry if makes no sense this game RULES! #omg just so excited to see where it goes #I LOVE SONIC!

[jasonhidden]

Yea

Im definitely going to release my steam on this fucking account hopefully when things turn around i can look back at this and laugh at how far i have come. I definitely didnt think this was how i was ending off my 2022 but hey here we are the thoughts i kept to myself since forever because i have nobody to share my deeper thoughts to. I understand now why writers write this is very therapeutic i just hope nobody finds this shit because if they do they may look at me differntly. Everyone deserves a place where they can truly let their unedited ideas and thoughts off. I refuse to edit all of this though its coming off as it comes to my head because i feel like crap man thats why lol. The strong reliable and thoughtful friend has truly had it, and is up to the brink in stress and every other negative mental feeling lol.

Done with being strong i need to take care of me and find healthy ways of expressing myself that blog i wrote 2 minutes ago truly made me feel 10 pounds lighter and i truly havent even touched the surface of the true pain and lonliness i feel deep inside. I'm sure some people can see it by now, but im such a good actor i guess i pull it off well.

I feel fake as fuck these days cause i wanna yell at mutherfuckers and tell them how i truly feel especially since i always have to be the bigger person and FORGIVE others for the abandonment and shit i have felt, but yet im on edge apologizing. Like this one person who is gaslighting me even though they were complicit in actual theft HA!but its all fun and games though i forgive em

[diariesofateenagegirl]

today 17-7-22

today was a very average day, but i like days like this. i slept until around 11 and got up out of bed. i had a dream where i had different parents and told my mum i thought i had an eating disorder. it was really therapeutic.

once i was up, i snapped my gf cole, and then made some coco pops and apple juice. then, i headed upstairs to get dressed. im starting to try more good habits at the minute, so i brushed my teeth and did morning skicare (wash my face, moisturise, bio oil and sunscreen). then i got dressed into a shirt and jeans and went downstairs. me and my sisters erin and naomh made lunch (toasties and fruit and crisps). i had pineapple!! i love pineapple so much.

then, my granny picked us up to go to her house. we had tea and biscuits when we got there even though its really warm- 23 degrees. after, we played ludo, continuing out game from yesterday. granny won.

after that, mummy came up to see us. we talked a little and then went to her house. we havent been there in a while because shes recovering from an alcohol addiction. she has changed around our bedrooms so that im in erin and naomhs old bedroom and theyre in mine. i really like the room except one thing- the walls are pink :0.

granda picked us up after a bit and we had dinner, which was chicken and bacon wraps and chips, and of course more tea and biscuits after.

daddy picked us up a bit after 6, and we went home. i went to my room and edited my friends robin and cora for fun. theyre siblings and our families have been friends forever, but we met when i was 8. theyre some of my best frieds but we dont live that near and dont see each other that much :(

when i was done my edit, i drew me in stranger things because i have such brain rot atm <3. my fav characters are joyce, will, robin and dustin, but honestly i love them all. then i went downstairs and watched tiktok.

naomh went to bed, so then me and erin watched the good place. i love the good place so much omg. i am in love with tahani !!! i went to bed then and decided to watch disney plus because our subscription runs out on tuesday. i watched a movie called crush, its so good and cute and gay <33 it warms my heart. now im watching gravity falls, im on episode 11.

anyways thats all,

signing off,

roo :)

#thegoodplace #diariesofateenagegirl #diaries #teenager #teendiary #strangerthings #joycebyers #journalling #adayinmylife

[mystiquespaceandtime]

june 2nd, late night thoughts

I am feeling a little funny this evening. I havent felt this way in almost three years.

I just came back from a night out with some girl-friends and It was like it was before 2020. I felt funny though, almost as if you play with your barbies three years after you stopped playing with them. I had fun, but the energy when I got back inside was strange.

I thought about my ex-boyfriend, and one of my friends, she lives on his street, and when I see her she gives me neighborhood gossip every now and then. He was going to move this summer, but apparently now he's staying.

I miss him. I feel like though, it is gone forever. It makes me sad. I keep telling myself, "No he'll text me and we will be together again" but its a ridiculous thought. I love him in a way, I just wish he could be better. He hasnt treated me the greatest in the past. Like one of my friends this evening, she was talking about her boyfriend, and I am so freaking happy for her, because her and her guy are just so head over heels, and they have a healthy relationship. It's long distance, but they make it work. I just wish my ex-boyfriend couldve done that for me. He is at college right now, and returns in a couple weeks or so. I just want to find someone I have that connection with, and it doesnt go to waste.

I also thought about an old friend this evening. Another one of my friends still talks to her, and she mentioned that she also found Eddie from the new stranger things unattractive as I did. It made me think about my falling out with her, and how painful that was. And it was all over a guy. It makes me sad. I wonder how shes doing every now and then, and I think about how good friends we would still be if she didnt throw me under the bus as she did, almost four years ago.

I thought about the future, and how all of a sudden after this evening it felt so far away, so meaningless. It was how I felt in highschool. I always felt like I was so far away from what I wanted. I dont know if its the energy of these friends, or whatever but I just feel so bummed. They are great people, and so nice, but at the same time I feel like most of the time when I am around them, they do not know me. I feel like that around most people.

I thought about that as well. How it is so hard for people to see me. My best friend, well call her Chia, she is one of the only people in my life that sees me.

I also thought about college, and how much I am missing out, or not. We had to pick up a friend from her college, and it was just weird seeing the campus, I loved the vibe. It seemed free. I want to be free.

I dont know, I think I am just tired.

[wakkanaidream]

“21″ questionsss

I got tagged by @deadg1rls to do a 21 questions prompt but whoever made it only put 18 in? anyway <33

Nicknames: lori is already technically a nickname for my full name, but my significant others are the only ones who call me by my full name right now. im looking forward to hearing it in like official contexts if i ever get it changed legally..but gwyn also came up with the nickname lori lemon for me lol <3

Zodiac sign: sag sun / virgo moon / scorpio rising, although i dont actually know anything abt astrology

Height: 5'9 or 10, i dont remember a solid measure from a doctor in years. the real answer is too tall, i dont know enough women who are taller than me dfhsfghsld

Hogwarts house: never read harry porter and dont really have any interest sryyyy

The last thing I googled: directions of the security office for the mall where i had to work today so i could get into the mall at 5 am (◡︿◡✿)

Favourite musicians: my gut instinct is the groups from love live bc im incapable of separating special interest shit from casual listening lol, but i also dont pay much attention to individual musicians bc i mostly listen to dance music & ive always interpreted those genres being more abt tracks and the culture overall rather than individuals who are “personalities” ig? like they certainly exist but anyway. outside of that i rly like brockhampton, joanna newsom, and rico nasty, both as musicians and when considering their music alone 

Song stuck in your head: denzel curry’s ricky bc @deadg1rls named it in her post and sierra & i just listened to zuu for the first time yesterday !

Following: 507 😶😶😶😶 been meaning to clean it out but its rly overwhelming, ive considered recreating and just following mutuals n other people whose blogs i really like. a friend recently did that n it seems appealing 

Followers: 262, most of whom came from a single post i added to lol

Do you get asks? not rly but i also dont use tumblr consistently or at peak times so. it makes sense why 😛

Lucky numbers: 117 & 9

What you’re wearing: a cami with some light lace that i wore under my uniform for the few hours i was at work today & some softtt joggers 

Dream trip: idk, somewhere my loved ones and i wont face discrimination i guess. that sounds flippant but bc of various life circumstances ive never really thought v seriously abt being able to travel

Instruments: i played saxophone in middle and high school and learned to play guitar in my last year of high school bc i had a free period! & i still need to learn DAWs or whatever i wanna use if i one day want to start spinning (talking like half metaphorically)

Languages: english native, trying to start actively learning japanese again since i had to drop out so that i can attend a language school soon & hopefully translate or interpret, maybe do smth useful with myself fhgsdfgs..also snippets of spanish, hebrew, and french. i love learning languages when i have focus & motivation though, the structure of japanese works really well with the way my brain pieces together language which is why i 

Favourite songs: im going to try to limit myself to just a few lmao, they change a lot but some that remain are in california by joanna newsom, most of jpegmafia’s veteran and singles since, also most of hannah diamond’s music (esp soon i wont see u at all), key lime og by rico nasty, ritm by µ-ziq, parallel by hiroyuki oda, & the big big beat by azealia banks

Random fact: i really want to take care of ferrets as pets once my family is in a place where we can handle them!! i loooooove ferrets theyre so good

I’m tagging ummm whoever, if u want to do it then do it n say i tagged u <333

#ty for tagging me ! <333 #this was fun even though i havent done one in forever #the length of it kinda got away from me but its fine lol

[coconut-cluster]

hey uh idk if you’ve answered this already lately i looked and didn’t see anything (also sorry if this not a good time to ask or if this comes off as rude or smth) but do you have any updates on the uni au? i recently remembered it again and i miss it :)

no updates, per se, as in i havent finished the one story from like forever ago because life is busy and ive been in a rut :( but here's a ficlet for you because i love them and this was a very sweet ask :)

(if you remember the fic from a looong time ago where janus is very gay for logan being unkempt, here's the inverse of that because ive wanted to write it since i wrote the first one lol)

Logan is familiar with all-nighters. Not fond, or even impartial, really, but... familiar.

He just likes to get things done, is all. Going to sleep with an assignment looming over his head, hovering all night like some academic sword above his crown (God forbid, he sounds like Roman), it makes him uneasy - there's no reason to rest first when he should be getting work out of the way. There may be some rebuke of self care in that midst, he knows. Patton certainly attests to rest over efficiency, shooing him to bed if he sees a light on too late or hears him rooting around the kitchen for a midnight study snack. Logan does take care of himself, though; he tells Patton as much. He's very adamant about getting adequate rest, just... after work. And if a night of productivity means he has to down an extra cup of coffee the next morning, bitter and sharp to shock his senses back to attention, or he has to take some naps in his car between classes, using his sweater as a pillow and ignoring the crick in his neck to follow, that's fine by him. Not fun, or favorable, but fine.

He is very much not familiar with Janus' all-nighters.

"Can you sit down like a normal person or are you just going to keep gawking at me?"

Logan isn't gawking, for the record. For his own record, when he inevitably looks back on this moment, for no reason - he is not gawking. He's just analyzing. Or scoping out- it doesn't matter what he's doing, actually, besides trying to greet his study partner, and that's not gawking.

Study-partner in question is scowling at him from the table, though, and it's a bit of a distracting circumstance upon first arrival to the library. Janus is, holistically, a bit of a distracting circumstance, given the fact that he looks like he hasn't slept in days, and reasonably, that should make him less... appealing to look at, Logan supposes that's the way to put it. But it doesn't.

Because - and this is hypothetically, now, a bit of algorithmic experimentation, mental math of sorts - reasonably, having dark circles under your eyes should be jarring, or at least concerning. They don't strike Logan as worrisome on Janus, though, not until after he realizes they draw attention to Janus' eyes, cloudy and ablaze as he glares, blue and amber as they are. It adds an edge to Janus' face, so usually smooth and relentlessly charming, untouched.

And reasonably - logically - messy hair on someone as put together, as carefully crafted as Janus should be unimpressive. He has a way of putting his waves just so; so particular is he that he won't take hats off without a mirror or a fuss, and he wholly lacks Logan's own habit of running his hands through his hair, sharp and attentive to strays and errant strands like his life depends on it. So theoretically, the way his hair sits in disarray now should grab Logan's attention as a flaw; theoretically, there should be no noticing of how it falls across his forehead in soft waves, or how some pieces stick out near his ears, like he's tried in vain to tuck them back. The caramel color seems richer under the skylight.

And reasonably, there should be no reaction to Janus' outfit besides a smug look, or a judgmental tsk, something to keep Logan poised as self-satisfied and ultimately above him, to keep their schtick going. But the honey-colored crewneck Janus is wearing, pulled over a white turtleneck and pushed up to his elbows, is so very different than his usual outfits - there's no sharp silhouette, no crisp prints, no metallic accents for him to flash - that Logan's eyes just flit around the ensemble for a second. A very long second.

Reasonably, that should all be the end of it. A look, a thought, and he's done, processed Janus' change enough to carry on.

Unreasonably, Logan is struck still by how... endearing it all is.

Janus, in all his unusual endearing-ness, is still scowling at him. Logan snaps to some semblance of attention and clears his throat. "You look tired."

"And you look like a knock-off Professor Plum," Janus shoots back immediately, turning his scowl back to the marked pages of his book, "but no one comments on that."

Logan raises his eyebrows.

"I had a presentation for Philosophy this morning." Janus shoves a coffee cup across the table to him as he finally sits down, and Logan takes it wordlessly, equal parts stunned and placating. There's a messy, doodled heart peeking over the cardboard sleeve. "My group members didn't finish their parts, so I was up doing it for them."

Logan takes a sip of the drink as Janus talks - it's a caramel macchiato, a sugary concoction Janus made him try a few months ago after finding out he'd never had one. He seems to favor caramel. Logan's come to like it quite a bit, too, though he'd never tell Janus that. The drink is still hot.

"Did you tell your professor?" he says between measured sips.

Janus' mouth quirks into a small smile, crooked and complacent. Logan, reasonable as he is, does not get distracted and nearly spill his drink, nor does he burn his tongue in the process. Reasonably so.

"I didn't need to. They had no idea what they were presenting on. Made a fool of themselves in front of the class," he flips a page in his book, voice singsong as he scans it, "and I did swimmingly, even despite the sleep deprivation."

Logan nods, a small smile of his own creeping up. Reasonably, he pushes it down. Unreasonably, it does not work very well. "I wouldn't make that a habit, if I were you."

"Hm?" Janus glances at him again, an eyebrow raised, and gestures to his outfit. "What, you don't like the all-nighter chic?"

No, I do. Logan bites his tongue.

(He does like it, though, the soft hair and pullover and the edge in Janus' tired eyes. He likes knowing that Janus most definitely didn't go to class like this, that he was undoubtedly as put-together as usual this morning, that he didn't change until he knew he would only be seeing Logan at their table, until he'd be bickering and giving Logan coffee with a heart doodled beneath the sleeve. A foolish, unreasonable part of him likes that Janus is familiar with him, enough to be casual.)

"It's certainly a look," he says evenly, deliberately so. He knows Janus is going to throw a pen at him as soon as he says it. He leans to the side, avoids it, and knows Janus will grumble about understanding fashion and trends before they both move on to actually studying in their easy silence. He takes another sip of his coffee and, as unreasonable as it is, he is wholly endeared.

(He likes that Janus is familiar.)

#betcha didn’t think I’d drop uni au on y’all tonight outta nowhere huh #heh #loceit #uni au #logan sanders #janus sanders #lexi writes #my writing

[adorerdraco]

The First Time Draco Sees You ✧ Headcanon

Request: hey ! idk if requests are open (sorry if they aren’t). i wanted to request a sort of seeing your for the first time headcanon i guess. like everything that goes through his mind when he sees you first

A/N: my first headcanon 😼 and you can tellll ;( but thank you sm for the request i hope i did it okayy !!!! <3 & if you’ve seen me using this gif before no you havent 🤧

it was the first day of the new school term after summer and he was standing around with his friends in a new class while he bragged about all the fun things he had done over the break

goyle started talking so he zoned out

he was looking around at all the pictures hung up on the walls when he heard someone laughing

he thought it sounded so angelic

it sounded like nothing but pure joy and delight

(even if you hate your laugh, he loves it)

literally music to his ears

so he looked towards the door and saw you walking in with two friends

he thought you had the brightest smile he’s ever seen on someone, just glittering and shimmering in the sunlight that streamed in from the windows

it took him less than 10 seconds to form a small crush on you

he just thought you were so beautiful and light and airy

he begins to wonder if he’s ever seen you around but comes up blank because he feels as though he would’ve remembered such beauty

you had stood somewhere near him while still talking to your friends and he just couldn’t stop looking at you

he thought you resembled the stars in the sky from how bright he felt you shined and how bright you made him feel in that moment

he was actually speechless

as corny as it sounds, he was

for the first time in his life he felt shy

like there was nothing he could conjure up in his mind that he would be able to say to you but he wanted to talk to you so bad

if you’re in another house other than slytherin, he found himself quickly forgetting about the house superiority

he could hear your voice as you talked and he swore he felt time stop

you sounded so enchanting and he hung onto every word he could make out

he wished so badly you were standing across from him while you talked about your summer

he could listen to you forever 

“Oi what’s Malfoy staring at?” crabbe would say with a snicker and Draco looked away from you so fast

“i see you learned how to form sentences over the summer” he would say back condescendingly as the boys roared in laughter

the sudden increase in volume caused everyone near them to look at the boys, including you

the first thing your gaze landed on was him and he felt his heart do a little flip in his chest when he made eye contact

he looked like a deer in headlights and you gave him a small smile

he felt his face get hot so he quickly looked away so you wouldn’t notice the red in his cheeks

when the professor walked in and called out a “find your seats” draco went to sit at one of the desks which happened to seat two people

he expected to sit with either crabbe or goyle but the idiots sat together without thinking

his other Slytherin friends he was talking to at the beginning of class had sat together too

he felt stupid sitting by himself so he leaned over to whisper something aggressive and threatening to his two minions that sat at the table beside him

“Malfoy, right?”

he shot up straight in his seat and turned rigidly to face the goddess that was starting to pull out the chair next to him

his name falling from your lips nearly shot him into space

“I’m Y/N, I hope you don’t mind me sitting here. My friends sat together and every other seat is taken.”

he was quiet for a second as you waited for his response and he all of a sudden felt stupid again

“yeah, yeah, that’s alright,” he sputtered out. “Those two gits left me to sit by myself as well.”

he felt proud of himself when he heard you lightly laugh

and proud that he managed to actually say something coherent

“you can call me, Draco, by the way” he said with newfound confidence

“alright, Draco, well I hope you’re good at Charms because I’m not.”

he felt his heart flip at you saying his name again

“I'd say I’m pretty skilled at charming”

he meant to say Charms but charming came out instead

either way he wasn’t lying, he really was good at both things

you gave him another one of your bright smiles and this time he returned it even though he felt excitedly queasy at the sight

as the professor started class, he couldn’t process a single thing they said as he started thinking up ways to woo you

he was very determined to get to know you more

and he knew that Charms this year would be the furthest thing from his mind

charm, however, would be on the forefront

#draco malfoy #draco lucius malfoy #draco malfoy imagine #draco malfoy x reader #draco malfoy x y/n #draco malfoy x you #draco malfoy x hufflepuff!reader #draco malfoy x ravenclaw!reader #draco malfoy x gryffindor #draco malfoy x slytherin #draco x reader #draco x y/n #draco x you #draco malfoy headcanon #draco malfoy blurb #draco malfoy fanfiction #draco malfoy fluff #draco malfoy angst #harry potter writing #harry potter imagine #harry potter fanfiction #harry potter fandom #harry potter

[cazimagines]

Hi Cazzy!!! Congratulations on the follower milestone!!!💕💕I always enjoy everything you write. Smut are hottt and angst makes me cry and i absolutely adore the fluff too🥺🥰

I havent read all the requests you wrote so idk if you've written smth like this. but what abt a dialogue prompt "it's ok, you don't have to love me" with zemo. just take it any way you want😌

TW: mention of attmepted Su*cide

Behind the self-obsessed persona Zemo often portrayed to those around him, Zemo knew how much of a horrible person he really was.

He liked to pretend that he was the smooth guy, who was cool for getting into bad businesses like that, who remained everyone's ally when it convenience him, that he was someone who could have fun, have a laugh but couldn't be trusted.

But deep down he hated himself as much as Sam and Bucky hated him.

This was never the life he had ever thought would become of him. He had so many plans, inheriting his father's position, helping the people of Sokovia, raising his son into the best man that he could be, doing his duty for his country. But the cruel twists of fate had destroyed any hope he had of ever achieving those goals.

He didn't want to kill other people. Though he had been trained he has always killed the guilty, and though he still aimed to destroy the guilty, the avengers, it meant he had to kill innocents as well and his self-hatred for himself grew over it.

Years he spent in his cell, his own thoughts plaguing him for what he had done, the families he had torn apart just like the Avengers had once done to him. In order to take them down, he had to become just like them and the thought of it left a bitter taste in his mouth.

When Bucky offered to break Zemo out of jail, he was already forming plans in his head. This was the perfect opportunity to end everything. He knew he wouldn't be allowed to stay outside, and he refused to go back to jail. So he made the decision that he was to die.

He had tried to previously, but was prevented from doing so and so instead had suffered for years in jail with his guilt, so he had to this time, he had to bite the bullet in a literal sense.

But once again there was something he hadn't planned for. Some that came and screwed up his plans all over again.

You.

You had come along and changed everything, all of his neatly timed out plans were ruined because of you, and he wasn't even mad at you for it.

But it put him in a tough decision. He couldn't let you know how he felt. He had to keep these feelings to himself for he knew he was to die and if he grew close to you anymore, he would risk getting to the moment and not wanting to die, and what was worse, potentially hurting you with his death.

Yet no matter how much he tried to keep his distance, tried to remain cold to you. He just couldn't. Not when you were so nice, so friendly, so heartwarming and against his wishes, he fell even more hopelessly in love with you and little did he know, you the same way.

You knew you shouldn't like the man after all that he had done, but deep down you knew there was more to him, you could see the pain in his eyes, the sorrow he tried to hide about his crimes and it made your own heartache for him.

You couldn't hide these feelings forever, and so you just had to tell him before it was too late for either of you.

One evening at Zemo's safe house, Sam and Bucky had gone to bed early and you found Zemo sitting on a sofa, reading a book. Happily, you took a seat beside him making him look up at you and smile.

"I hope today hasn't been too hard on you y/n" he murmurs, closing his book so that you had his undivided attention.

"It's the same as every other day really, it feels like we are no closer to stopping Karli than we were when we started... but there has been something on my mind recently"

Zemo tilts his head curiously, "Pray, tell"

"Zemo... I like you, well, more than like you. And I know I shouldn't! But I can't help my feelings towards you, not when you have been so kind and generous to me this whole time"

When you saw the horror upon his face, instantly you felt scared that you had made a fool of yourself, and had reputedly damaged your friendship with him.

"It's okay, you don't have to love me" you quickly told him, "I just... I needed to say before something happened to either of us"

This was exactly what Zemo had always wished for yet feared at the same time. Now you were going to get hurt because of him, if he died, which was his plan, you would be deeply hurt and Zemo knew he just couldn't do that to you. Blast the plan, blast his self-loathing thoughts towards himself. He would do anything to save you from hurt, and he knew deep down though he didn't think he deserved someone like you, he was deeply pleased by your confession.

His hand slowly reached out and grasped yours, pulling it up to his lips.

"I am deeply honoured by your confession" he whispered against your fingers, "and I must admit I harbour the same feelings towards you and would like to be able to court you, though perhaps Sam and James shouldn't be told"

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[obsessive-ego]

Wait? Demons go into heat?

Unestablished musical Beetlejuice x reader

Nsft

Beej goes into heat for the first time while knowing you

Dubious consent and masturbation warning

"Y/n, we need to talk"

You look up from your phone and quirk a brow at the statement, it was weirdly serious for your friend, at first you assumed he was getting ready to mess with you or something, until you noticed the purple hue that has taken over his form.

"Are you okay?" You utter softly

The demon sits down next to you on the couch and sighs

"Okay, y/n, I am going to go away for a bit" he refused to look at you, his voice was small and very unlike him, but this made sense, you knew beetlejuice didnt like going to the netherworld on his little business trips, so this behavior started to make more sense.

"Oh okay-"

"I just dont want to hurt you"

What? You freeze.

The ghoul sighs again, before finally meeting your eyes and gently grabbing your hands

"Y/n I'm going into heat next week and I need to be away from you-"

You snort out a laugh, pulling your hands from the ghoul's grasp, so this WAS a joke, going into heat?

Your laughter was short lived when beetlejuice grabbed your shoulders to get you to focus on him.

"Y/n I'm not kidding"

focusing back to the ghoul, it was obvious he was serious, spots of red peaking through the purple was a grim reminder he wasnt joking.

"I-"

"I'm a demon y/n, I'm gonna go into heat, and all I'm gonna do is want to fuck, and I dont trust myself to be around you, I'm gonna go away till it's over, and I NEED you NOT to say my name, just promise me that"

You nod

Never in your time of knowing the ghoul was he ever so serious, honestly it was scary, was his heat so bad he'd just jump you without consent? IT'S best not to dwell on it.

...

It's been a few days since beetlejuice disappeared for your own safety, it wasnt so bad, before he left he was very fidgety and practically glowing pink, the hug goodbye was awkward, the ghoul held you longer then normal and let out a soft whine, guess his cycle was starting.

You couldnt help but daydream about how hot it would be to have the demon rail you senseless in his heat, yes you had a crush on him, but you sure as hell weren't ready to express those feelings, especially during his heat cycle.

The week goes by, you enjoy your silence, and are very productive, it's not like you dodnt enjoy Beetlejuice's presence, it's just not easy to get chores done with him being under foot. You always took the opportunity to get stuff done when beetlejuice wasnt around, you loved him yes, but alone time was important, between getting stuff done, and just relaxing his absence was nice, though you did miss him, but as the week went on, you could help but forget as to why the demon had to vanish, work was rough, and as exhaustion took over your body, peices of your discussion fell to the side of your tried brain, something about heading to the netherworld for a bit, a business trip probably, not that you believed the demon HAD a real job anyways.

As the week comes to an end you go into auto pilot mode, friday was the end of a work week and you and Beetlejuice's movie night.

Coming home from work you had only one thing on your mind, lazing about with your friend and watching shitty horror movies. Everything you did was on auto pilot, tossing your bag aside as you head to your bedroom to swap out your work clothes with something much more cozy, fuzzy pajama pants and a baggy shirt.

You wander from your room tapping away on your phone, ordering the pizza you and beej normally share, you always payed ahead and let the demon believe him scaring off the delivery guy ment free food, you enjoyed Beetlejuice's awful jokes, and that wide toothy grin he gave you when he assumed him scored the two of you a free meal, but in all good consciousness you couldnt let that happen, you'll just the demon believe he's doing you a favor WHILE he's showing off.

You plop down on the couch, everything was set for a fun night of hanging with your pal, you havent seen him all week, for the life of you, you couldnt remember as to why beetlejuice wasnt around, something about going to the netherworld? Probably another business trip, whatever he was always so mopey when he had to leave, he'd probably be thrilled to have a easy hang out right? Well it's been a week and if beej wasnt done with whatever nonsense he had to take care of he could leave, simple as that.

You get up from the couch and holler "beetlejuice beetlejuice beetlejuice"

The lights flicker, then go out completely, you huff through your nose, this wasnt new, been was all about making an entrance.

"Y/N"

you flinch at the tone, harsh and angry, not exactly how he tended to great you when summoned, he was messing with you right?

Unfortunately in the pitch dark you couldnt see him to confirm this thought.

Before you could do or say anything, you're pushed back into the couch

"Beetlejuice-" you cry,

"I missed you honey, couldnt stop thinking about that soft warm body of yours" he purred, you face burned with embarrassed, yes beetlejuice tended to flirt with you, but this felt different, more

Intense

"What?" You utter

Before you could elaborate you felt the weight of him crawling up onto your lap, the ghoul grabs your chin, the demon leans into your face, your eyes now accustomed to the dark you were able to make out a bit of the ghoul before you, just not enough to make heads or tails of what's going on, as the ghoul leans closer to you, pressing his weight against your trapped form, he takes a long inhale through his nose.

"Oooh~ I missed you so much baby~" he moans out in a whisper.

"Okay knock it off beej" you groan, clearly embarrassed and done with this embarrassing joke, as you try to shove the demon off, this whole charade of his, everytime you summoned him he would tease you and mess with you for a laugh, but being this weird? More legit? That was new, maybe he was just upping his game to.mess with you?

Your shoves were only greeted with a growl, you huff and finally shove beetlejuice off you completely, with ungrateful thud the ghoul hits the ground.

"Seriously Beej what's gotten into you?" You sigh walking away from him to turn on the lights.

The ghoul grows at you sudden absence, not that you noticed, with a click the room fills with light. You frown, beetlejuice was gone, great he was in a pranking mood, you sigh, it's been a long week and you just wanted to relax and watch an awful movie. With that thought you are knocked to the ground with a rough shove from the back, and with a shriek and a thud you land on your stomach, you freeze as you feel the weight being pressed against your back, the culprit had crawled onto your back, practically laying on top of you.

"Baby wants to play rough tonight huh? Daddy will allow it~"

"Beetlejuice seriously, I don't want to play these games i- oh fuck" it hit you, it finally clicked why you havent seen the demon in over a week, he told you, and you fucking forgot, you got to caught up in your own routine and exhausting life, you forgot.

"Uh, beej? Can you please get off-"

"Soon baby, I'll get off soon" the ghoul purrs in your ear, his body firmly pressed against yours, you freeze as you feel a sudden hardness poking between your butt cheeks, you could hear your heart pounding away in your ears, you like beetlejuice yes, but you weren't ready to tell him, let alone let him fuck you on the floor. You were frozen unsure what to do, been warned you, and you forgot. You could banish him, 3 times in a row is all you need, and when this cycle is over this will be something the two of you can laugh about right?

"you smell so good honey~" your pulled from your thoughts with the ghoul's gravely purr

"Beetlejuice beetlejuice bee-" your voice was small and shaky

You gasp and curse at the sensation of something cold and wet trailing up your neck

"And you taste even better~"

You try again "beetlejuice beetlejuice bee-" again you were cut short with a familiar hand cupping against your mouth

"I dont wanna leave baby" he groans, lightly grinding his ever herding cock against your ass "I missed you, I missed your warmth, I missed your scent, i missed your sweet voice, I'm sick of being alone, i need you y/n" his grinding picks up in pace, the ghoul practicallydry humping you into the carpet, you yelp and squirm, in which beetlejuice responds with a soft moan.

"Beej please" you cry, a weird mix of arousal and fear fill your chest, in all honesty, you could find this whole situation pretty hot, but not now.

With the cry of your voice the ghoul flips you over, having you lay on your back. You finally get a good look at beetlejuice, as he hovered inches above you, pinning you below him.

The ghoul's once Forrest green hair was now a wild electric pink, almost magenta, his pupils once round, now resembled the eyes of a snake. Beetlejuice was practically drooling, and though the demon didnt need to breath, you sure could hear him breathing hard almost panting. You've never seen your ghost like this before,so  this was heat? Again, other circumstances thos could be very hot.

"Bee?" Was all you could muster

The demon started back at you, wordless, it felt like forever until he closed the gap between you, burying his face in your chest, hands finding themselves placed along the hem of your pajama pants.

Beetlejuice was a mess, blabbering on and on "you smell so good, you feel so good, I need ya babes, I need ya bad, please let daddy fuck you" he whined, all the while he kept nuzzling your breasts. As if that was a distraction, the ghoul's hands began to tug on the hem of you pants, slowly he began to tug on them, slowly shimmying them down.

You were alerted to this action with the familiar squeeze of the demon's hand on your bum.

"Beej WAIT" you cry

Unfortunately on deaf ears, the ghoul continues his actions as your pants are finally removed and quickly tossed aside.

Your legs now fully bare were now free realestate to cold undead hands desperate for soft warm skin.

His his hands traveled up and down your legs, always stopping at the rear for a good long squeeze, you squirm and pant at the stimulation.

"You like that doll? You getting all hot under the collar with just a little touching~" he purred looking up for your chest.

You couldnt bare to look him in the eye, it was all too much, truth be told, you werent NOT enjoying his attention.

"Lawrence please-" you whine, not really sure as to what you were pleading, was it for him to stop? Was it for him to go further? So much was happening you felt like this really wasnt real.

But it sure as hell felt real when you felt the ghoul snap the waist band of your panties, you gasp and try to sit up, only to be pushed back down against the carpet.

The ghoul sighs and goes back to his babbling.

"I need this babes, I need you so much, I need you so bad it hurts, nothing else was good enough, I NEED you"

You could feel your ears burning at this, he really wanted you over anything else, it was probably just his heat talking, but in an odd way it was sweet.

You couldn't help but give the ghoul a soft smile at his desperate words, unfortunately the smile was quickly dropped and replaced with gritted teeth as you felt the demon's cold hands quickly yanking down your, now damp with arousal, panties.

"Beetlejuice STOP" you cry

Simple hum was your response

As the garment slowly made it's way down your legs you tried in vain to reason with the lust driven demon, all of your crys were responded the same, ignored.

As the garment made it to your ankles you made one last attempt to reason with beetlejuice

"Beetlejuice please, this isnt like you, just stop and we can just forget this-"

Before you could finish that sentence, as soon as the damp garment was free from your form, the ghoul vanished.

You prop yourself up on your forearms, glancing around the empty room, you slowly sit up on your bare bum, waiting, waiting for another knock down, ments pass and nothing.

You slowly and carefully get up off the floor, glancing around as you walk over to your pajama pants that were tossed aside, you gently slide them on, still staying vigilant.

As the night goes on you're on high alert, waiting to be tackled down or something, but as time dragged into the early early morning, it clicked, beetlejuice wasnt going to do anything else, you finally sigh in relief, and try not to think about how he vanished AFTER  your underwear were removed, and missing completely, you assumed they would have wound up as the same place as where your pants were thrown, unless, he took them with him, you cover your mouth and stare at the floor, you paise for a moment, mind swimming with all the lewd things he could be doing with them, this didnt help how you were all hot and bothered from the ghoul's early actions.

Slipping into bed that night, knowing beetlejuice was gone, you felt okay to tend to those desperate feelings between your legs, you carefully pull out your hidden vibrator and gingerly slip it beneath the covers and eagerly bring it to your desperate sex.

Of course

You werent the only one tending to a desperate need.

Beetlejuice now on the roof of your apartment building, a mix of purple and pink have taken over his form, your panties held tightly in his hand.

Did he feel like shit for losing control and jumping you? Yes

Was he glad your dumbass forgot and called him anyway so he could smell you and feel your soft warm skin? Also yes

Sitting on the edge of roof, not that anyone could see him, he takes the freshly woren garment to his nose and inhales the scent of your excited sex, the purple from the demon's hair is quickly replace with a mix of pink and magenta.

"You smell so good baby" he growls

His free hand fumbles with his pants trying to free his full erection, hell the moment he saw your face he was ready to go.

This wasnt the first time beetlejuice went into heat, not by a long shot, but it WAS his first time going into heat knowing you, and fuck, you were all he wanted.

Having you call him, smelling you, seeing you, feeling you, hearing your sweet voice, hes honestly surprised he didn't blow his load while he was humping that cute rump of yours, he drools remembering how he could feel your warm bum against his cold cock, the demon could only imagine how glorious your pussys warmth was gonna feel.

The night was long and lonely for the demon but the memory of you beneath him and the scent of your desire was enough to keep him content, bit next heat cycle? The demon will have you in his pocket and ready to help him out.

Bonus

Sunday

You wake up late and head to the kitchen to make a cup of coffee and start your day, at the little table you had in your little kitchen sat beetlejuice, across from him was a hot and ready cup of coffee

"Morning" the ghoul said plainly, giving you an awkward smile, hints of purple popping up in his hair

"Morning" you respond softly sitting down across from the demon and accepting his 'peace offering'

The two of you sat in silence for what felt like an eternity before beetlejuice breaks it

"So about the other night-" he starts, averting your gaze and rubbing the back of his neck.

"Its fine, you werent yourself, you warned me, and I forgot"

The ghoul stares back at you, bug eyed and dumbfounded, was it really gonna be this easy?

"I guess you're back to yourself huh?" You try to make a positive note to this awkward situation

"Uh yeah, just kinda horny, not full on horny" he chuckles rubbing the back of his neck.

This was gonna be an awkward bump to get over.

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