#this is more than 10 years of my life

[liminal-zone]

lololol my tumblr was terminated (by a glitch I assume) for a very long 20 minutes this evening and my good heavens, the sixtybillion emotions i have just endured and the volume of tears i have just cried. but we’re back! love you, tumblr fam. never want to leave you <3

#text post #about me #the biggest agony is that #this is more than 10 years of my life #and i tag pretty good so when i want to see what 2011 me said about thing x or y #i can find it #all of that content being lost #even temporarily #wow #i need a hug and a very large glass of wine

[chrollohearttags]

meg baby, I promise we’ll all look the other way if you decide to strangle that chimera ant built bitch. I promise we won’t say nothing.

#nicki got to be one of the nastiest bitches I’ve ever seen in my life #you ain’t had a fucking hit in 10 yrs good enough to act the way you do #it’s crazy it took her being so vile to meg for ppl to get it #it’s always ‘protect blk women’ w/her until it’s somebody she don’t like lmao #and her only beef with her is that she collabed with cardi #the only one who stuck by her side mind you so ofc she #she’s been terrible and I remember back in 2017 when ppl jumped me for ‘defending a Latina woman’ over her #the same bitch that co opted a hashtag meant for missing and murdered blk women for her own bullshit #while cardi was using her platform to speak up for breonna Taylor and police brutality? oh okay #she’s a nasty witch and her karma will come #rap beef aside #‘how you got 3 Grammys and can’t stay on beat?’ #how are you the supposed queen and been rapping since Jesus was in Jerusalem but have zero? #bringing up her dead mother..you deserve to rot #cherry chats 🍒 #I’m so happy cardi no longer feeds into her bullshit and lets her stupid ass talk to the wall #all the new girls are outshining her and I’m so glad they don’t have to grovel to her #the fact that these girls just came out and are her competition says more abt nicki than it does Meg cardi latto or anybody else #her peers should be missy kim queen latifah etc #and yet she’s linking up with 23 year olds and beefing with girls 20 years her junior #guess that predator spirit run in the family huh

[theroseyhues]

And thats a wrap folks!! Happy day 30 and 31 of hermit-a-day-may to all who celebrate!

This has been a great month full of so much cool art. A huge thank you to Luna for organizing this event for the second year in a row. You do so much to make sure this happens and it is SO appreciated.

So, same time next year?

#fanart #my art #hermitblr #hermitaday #hermitcraft #also a big thanks to my lovely moots ghost and tissy for keeping me company while I worked on this XD you two are absolutely lovely #mcyt #oh and happy gay month everyone!! Cant wait to see all the multi-million dollar corporations throw up rainbows for a month :DD #no really tho happy pride <3 #hermitcraft art #hermitcraft fanart #hermitcraft season 10 #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans #smallishbeans art #hermitcraft joel #hermitcraft rendog #rendog #hermitcraft ren #super happy with the fact I managed to do all of the main prompts this month (plus tfc) #A lot more consistent than last year even if I sometimes posted every other day :) #right! take care everyone and thank you for an incredible month <3 #no matter how crazy life irl and online has been for me recently having the daily prompt has kept me keeping track of the days so thank you

[deoidesign]

something that makes me sad is when people tell me the healthy communication in my writing is "unrealistic."

like guys this is how me and my partner talk with eachother... I'm writing from personal experience...

#like it's sad both on the front of 'dehumanizing my real life' #but also on the front of 'you deserve to have healthy communication in your life' #like if you think this is unrealistic it means more than likely you havent experienced someone being patient and understanding with you #and that makes me very very sad #I'm sorry #also it's just rude to tell me my writing is unrealistic LOL like hey #real people talk all kinds of ways. shut up #I've been told it's also in part cause they always understand their own feelings when theyre talking #but I'm like... #theyre like mid 30-early 40 and theyre immortal and theyre going through a lot of shit #I feel like theyve thought about it a lot #also the comic takes place over the course of a year so far #we're seeing the big moments and the fun mysteries #so #its about grown men who love eachother #sorry that they think about what they want to say before they say it #also as if adam isnt constantly wrong and steve isnt constantly pushing shit down #he's only JUST RECENTLY starting to share his emotions as they come up #instead of pretending theyre not there and letting things boil over #I think people just THINK theyre communicating way too clearly because their partner #who loves them #is listening and responding with kindness #like.. #idk I have a lot of thoughts about this #would LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE for this to spark a discussion #and especially for it to cause people to reread a little more critically #and perhaps even introspect on their own ideas of communication standards #I've been with my partner for 10 years. this is how we talk to eachother

[rainymoodlet]

what better way to reboot a legacy than by fulfilling one of our generational goals? ⛓️ ivory is now a sous chef at the fountainview restaurant, thanks ubrite! 🐲

#ts4 #ts4 gameplay #ts4 screenshots #ts4 legacy #the joy of life legacy challenge #;tjol+ #sim: ivory #|| #ivory’s goals are actually: reach level 10 of the chef career #achieve a 3 star celeb status AND achieve at-least a 3 star restaurant status #i feel a lot more free playing with her than with dallas dhdhd dallas was Too Hot™️ #ivory is gorgeous though 🥹 already taking wayyy too many screens of her #this is a queue’d post!! i have a couple more of her #i’m changing my gshade a lot so the inconsistencies are there dhdhd #it’s new year’s so she threw one of her 5 dinner parties already!! 🥂 #hope y’all are doing well 🥰🍪

[batri-jopa]

Thank you @chrisoels for tagging me in a Picrew challenge!

Here are the rules: make yourself as a kid, teen, young adult and now, using this Picrew, use your favorite color at the time as a background, and tag some people.

Tagging, if you'd like to try: @zorilleerrant , @figuringthengsout , @ourtintedworld

#tag meme #picrew #judging by this - I seem gender-fluid AF😆 The fact is I didn't give a damn about my gender as a kid. just wearing what I was told #(preferring my hairs short. enjoying blocks and plushies more than girl toys. and I smiled like cat - that is only among the closest people #as a teen I didn't give a damn either #(I couldn't avoid comments yet I was ashamed of my body and hated skirts. my general attitude was ''I'm not to be looked at'') #right after turning 22 I became sexy feminine to extreme: long hairs dresses mini skirts shirts showing belly button (BMI 18) #now this phase lasted more than 10 years but finally... I came back to not give a damn about gender again😆 #I love to wear things that are colourful cheerful and comfortable as a proud and life-enjoying aroace😋 #(ps - my very own type of ''feminine to extreme'' never included nailpolish high heels earrings nor lipstick. I occassionally tried mascara #gender indifferent #aroace

[ratsalad]

me explaining to my brother all the different ways house md compares house and wilson's relationship to other romantic relationships in the show because he had some free time this morning

#i eventually started crying too LMAO what a morning #we were reminscing over all the house episodes we watched as kids. we apparently watched SO much more than i remember #to us thirteen taub foreman and kutner were The Team because we didn't see as many reruns of the earlier seasons #and we both have vivid memories of the games from s4 #and i told him how I'd never forget cuddy telling house she owns his ass at the end of the tritter arc because she used the word 'perjure' #and i didn't know what that meant and i looked it up and used it in a story i was writing #idk it's fascinating how this was just another tv show we'd watch casually 10 years ago and now it's taken over my life and has left such #an impact on it #house md #houseposting #vaaya moodu

[obessivedork]

Was.... that supposed to be the end of FO4? 😐 Like once you've blown up the Institute you get this random nostalgic slideshow that has nothing to do with ANYTHING and that's it? You beat the game! Good for you! But we'll place you back into the world to keep playing I fucking guess? What's going to happen to your friends and The Commonwealth with all the decisions you made?😐 Don't ask us! Not like we're going to make an RPG with the infamous RPG IP, that would be silly!

#DOES ANYTHING I DID FUCKING MATTER BESIDES THE FACTION I WENT WITH TO MAKE THE INSTITUTE GO BOOM???? #What in the HELL????? #I have literally NEVER been more underwhelmed with an ending in my LIFE. #At least 3 showed slides for A COUPLE things I did!!!!!!!! #Hell! When fucking Dragon Age Inquisition managed to make their vanilla pre-dlc'ed ending feel better than yours that is a PROBLEM #because that is the SECOND worst ending to a game I've ever played #& I know I said Mike took the parts to the Minutemen but I couldn't convince myself doing that made sense #the railroad and brotherhood both make sense. they have people who can figure those parts out! The minutemen... do not #I'm so MAD I put HOURS into this game 😭😭😭 I love the Fallout series SO MUCH why is ANY level of compotent storytelling #ASKING TOO MUCH???? 😭 #almost 10 years late to the party but. MAN. Like the rest of the game is DECENT!!! it has flaws of course every thing ever made does #but I had SOME fun!! But like.... Bethany.... Miss Bethany Esda an ending that feels GOOD is a VERY important part of games PERIOD #YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT #kat plays FO4 #fallout #FO4 #with all this said yes I AM immediately starting again to play a F SS and make her more chaotic and mean. Mikey was my standard #agressively paragon good wholesome cinnamonbun run. Next character? Oh man she will cause problems ON PURPOSE

[iwonderwh0]

If there's one thing to thank anti hankcon discourse it's for the folks around their thirties gathering to tell the teens that they are, in fact, adult enough to decide for themselves who to fuck with and that they do, in fact, find older people attractive.

(And also collectively asking folks in their teens-to-early 20s to stop using the word p*dophilia when talking about literal 30+ years olds.)

Like really, throwing this words in relation to adults downplays its actual weight in its actual fucking meaning, and this is really scary. Age gap might be a controversial topic but not anywhere near it is a matter of comparable scale to what the word ped*philia stands for. Don't turn this word into a buzzword, I'm begging you.

#I think it's like when you're 5 years old #all the 8 years old feel like they're just infinitely older #then in your twenties 3 year old difference is absolutely nothing #The further you're away from being a kid #the less of a difference it makes #10 years difference between 10 and 20 years old is abso-fucking-lutely not the same as between 30 and 40 years old #even though it's the same amount of years #and the same way it's hard for a 5 yo to comprehend that for adults three year old gap is barely a difference #(as it is literally 60% of their life) #here it's perhaps something similar. #I'm in my relatively early twenties and I too feel like I wouldn't date a person who's X years older than me #but in ten more years I don't expect myself to think the same way anymore #as it wouldn't make that much of a difference when it's not 50% of my lifespan anymore #I still don't think I'll find myself in a relationships with someone significantly older #but it would be wild to think that people in their 30-ies aren't old enough to make their own decisions. Let's be real #in this day and age #after you've been an adult for some time #there isn't this much of a power imbalance anymore between you and people who are X years older #or #the same kind of imbalance can be found within the same age category but not due to the age anymore #but things like social class. #Hell #in this sense 30yo can be the one overpowering 50yo.

[octal-alchemist]

that 2am existentialism is hitting hard today

#like im thinking abt my favorite rock i lost when i was in highschool. i think i know #where i dropped it so there's a weird urge to go get it but i literally cant? #i cant go to that place any more. and it's changed a lot in the last 12 years #I'm thinking of so many little details of things and places I've been and may never go again #thought about an old picture of my mom and had the dumb thought of ' i wonder when shell drag us to the gorge again ' #my moms been dead more than 10yrs #I'm reading omniscient reader's viewpoint rn and thinking #about memories and stories and . idk. loss #this current life isnt bad but it is so FAKE compared to how i spent 17 years #how is it 10 years ago that everything changed?

[hollowwish]

I like live streams but I wish they were not the main form of mcyt content. Or at least not starting to become that. Like it....really is not a sustainable way to do every single smp you ever make. A lot of people don't have time to catch streams and barely have time to watch vods as well (and most people only watch 1-5 streamers. Imagine watching MORE.) LIFE SERIES is a challenge for me and lots of others to get through, let alone several 2-7 hour long livestreams.

Plus some people are gonna stop watching because they're only there for the lore and they'd rather save time than skim through several streams just to find it yk? After a certain point condensing them down into 15-30 (maybe 40) minute videos and making lore summaries is a necessity or your gonna lose viewers. (ESPECIALLY if you have a large cast meaning more characters to impact each other and the plot)

Idk I follow a lot of streamers and there's like...less than 10 who I have ever/would sit through a full stream from them, lore happening or not.

#I am so tired of trying to catch multiple pirtaes streams to know any of the lore #Qsmp less so because I watch less streamers (and there's lore recaps out there) #+ I like watching the cubitos hang out more than I like having to skim thru 10+ vods of pirates just. Sailing for 4 hours #Some outsiders povs were a pain in the ASS to get through. I spent HALF of my summer break watching vods for that smp #There's also an issue of streamers not archiving vods so if you show up late you're screwed. Which videos and lore summaries partially solv #That issue. You don't have the full vod but at least you know the important stuff that happened #Idk I stopped hyperfixating and I quickly got very disillusioned with stream only content #After a certain point it just becomes unfair to expect people to watch as many streams as possible I think #ren posting #But what do I know I've just spent the last year+ of my life mainly consuming minecraft streams and no other content/s

[eeblouissant]

Today I’m thinking about the time Dorothy said that she gave herself a perm during her ‘midlife crisis’ in response to Stan impulsively buying a car

#does this mean her hair is or was particularly straight at some point in her life ? #just how curly was it ??!!! #this is also adding to my hc that she chopped her hair herself after the phone call #I’m thinking. it sounds like she went thought a few different ‘eras’ & now I *need* to draw what those eras might have looked like 😭 #it’d be a fun project !! #im feeling especially attached to Dorothy lately #<- more than normal ? #that’s my baby #the golden girls #dorothy zbornak #personal #she couldn’t have done that perm too long before meeting Blanche actually #like 5-10 years max. since she’s 55 at the start of the show #hmmmmm im thinking many thoughts many things to think about #or did the perm go terribly and *that* triggered the hair cut #I have to KNOW I have so many thoughts

[deus-ex-mona]

series i’m gatekeeping from my family vs series i’m ✨ok✨ with my family knowing i’m into:

#‘why do you gatekeep hw from your irls?’ well. the thing is. i just ✨don’t want to✨ #and. like. i’ve already led my family to believe that i bought bl manga when i was buying idol sengen at animate #so i think im already past the point of no return in that regard. so. um. yeah. #thank you village vanguard for the unexpected μ’s content in 2k24 you truly are yappa saikyou #i s w e a r falling back into my ll phase almost 10 whole years after i first got into it is unexpected tbh #compounded with the fact that i can now actually afford whatever im looking for. so. like. my wallet is in crisis lol #i had just reached my savings goal last month but now i’ve overspent bc i saw great deals on resold honoka-chan hoodies and i couldn’t help— #so now i have 2 identical hoodies lol. but i’ll keep one of them safe in its packaging bc im unwell like that ig #my merch whaling is out of control i s w e a r but my oshis are just too cute aaaaaaaaa #i probably should open another savings account instead… maybe that’d keep my spending under control… #b u t for now honoka-chan jersey im looking for you #tfw ur oshi is decently unpopular amongst the fans so hardly anyone resells her merch lmao #so ig the relatively fewer fellow fans she has are more dedicated to her than fans of other more popular characters lol #but at least her stuff (when resold) isn’t as overpriced as the actually popular members (birb and tomato) #so my wallet isn’t crying as hard as it could’ve been? ig? hunting for almost 10 year old merch is a pain fr though #either way. the grip idol series have on my wallet is truly insane #i wonder how many bags of chips i could’ve bought with the amount i’ve spent on hw and ll merch to date… #at least a thousand… i think. maybe even 2 thousand if my past gacha game whaling is taken into consideration… #…this is probably why it’s important to have a decent paying job ig. #oh well. at least i may be making b a n k this month with how much ot i’ve had to do this week so far… #i hope i won’t have to work till 5am again over the next 2 days… that had been a horrible experience. #help what am i even talking about anymore why am i having a life crisis right here and now u m. #anyways. dni if you dislike honoka-chan. thanks for coming to my crisis rant. see you when the last stage mv drops ig ok byeeeee

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#had an interesting conversation with my sister the other day. odd i guess bc my sister is pretty smart #on paper shes smarter than me. or at least less dyslexic than me #but she didnt seem to kno what cancer is. i mean like how it works. i mean. cancer is a mistake. a confluence of unfortunate accidents #leading to unrestrained cellular growth. when it metastasizes. when it moves to other parts of the body. those same cells continue growing #if u have smooth muscle cancer and it moves to your kidney. you body is trying to grow more smooth muscle on your kidney #at least as i understand it. and she asked why it wants to kill you. it doesnt want anything. it just is. its not a thing of malicious #intent. its neutral. it grows. it takes up resources. it takes up space. and it grows and grows until the organ it grows on stops #functioning properly. like a parasite she said. but no. not like a parasite. it grows like an empty space. a mass of flesh. a constant #obstructive pressure. it grows like only a tumor can. i dunno. it didnt seem to connect with her that this thing didnt want to kill our mom #but it did anyway. and she felt weird about how long she lived after they took her off any support. but thats how cancer kills #it stops an organ from functioning and most of those r important so it only takes one. so her heart kept beating for 12 more hrs bc it was #meant to beat for 40 more years. but not much it could do without working kidneys and without working blood #but that's life. that's death. that's nature. its all nutral even if it feels horrible to the individual. #i dunno. i thought it was interesting. shes 25 and her mother had cancer for 10 years so id think shed kno more #we're at a weird phase now bc its been a week since she died and everything feels normal. we'll see what happens at the wake this week #its been interesting for sure bc she was sick for 10 years but my parents didnt prepare at all for her to die #so my dad is scrambling to put together the pieces shr left behind to make sure that all the bills r paid and whatnot. he had to guess her #computer password. she didnt tell us what she wanted us to have. she didnt tell us the importance of her jewelry and who it belonged to #before her. i dunno. we're seeing the outline of my mothers Pathology in what she left behind. both in the physical objects and in the #feelings she imparted. i dunno. its been weird #unrelated

[vamptastic]

romancing astarion has thus far made me exponentially less attracted to him. can we go back to you serving face in the background and contributing the occasional quip while i go do my hero things? i can't listen to the pickup lines i cant. they're bad they're not good they're bad. and i don't know if hes doing this on purpose as some kind of sick and twisted test of faith or he thinks he is a master casanova. also if astarion can't lift a backpack full of plate armor he sure as hell cannot lift up my entire PC. sorry.

#also. why does he get mad at you for freeing enslaved miners. What is your problem mr i was a slave for 200 years #the only thing i can think of is that this is his elven superiority complex where hes like sure i was a slave but i wasn't a GNOME #and i think it's unfair that I can't at least make fun of him and ideally give him the ole one-two for that #nevertheless i do find it fun to romance him as durge because hes like Your endless thirst for blood and gore is very charming :) #but also seems to think of my durge as genuinely sweet and kind and just happening to be bloodthirsty #i assume this is due to his own bloodthirsty nature. Other than that 0/10 thus far i do NOT want any more insight into his sex life #i genuinely liked him better when he was being a bit of a cunt. astarion being convincingly fake-sweet is much scarier #can't we go back to our friendly rivalry? to tav dragging his white ass around faerun saving the day like it or not? #i do love him as a character this is just so far so profoundly not my thing. very romance novel-y #and i Know. i KNOW. that he is obviously manipulating the PC right now due to his Problems #im just saying that form of manipulation would not make me trust and fall in love with somebody i might punch them #bg3

[imavikingo]

#another year #another drawing of Bill Weasley on his (my) birthday #yes yes yes #as things should be #happy bday bill weasley #harry potter #bill weasley #couldn’t do something more elaborated sadly #life has been busy #literally did this icon in less than 10 hours #im so proud