#thinking to myself

[sinking-in-stars]

this summertime of pondering is slowly killing me (i feel like a different person and it’s weird)

#help #life #summer #summertime #summer break #lgbtqia #lgbtq help #pondering #thinking too much #thinking too hard #thinking to myself #time #healing #mental health #queer #school

[snurtle]

I’m not going to lie, I mostly draw Tosen by himself because when I see him in the tags, the other two of the tres traitor boys triumvirate take center stage too often for me. (This isn’t a problem per SE, I am a simp for jackass villains of all calibers).. It’s just. ... I wanna see cricketboy stand on his own every once in a while... no accessorizing....no backgrounding... I might make lil valentines day sketches or somethn smthn with Gin or Aizen but I gotta rep my faves...i godda....

#thinking to myself #mostly about valentines pinups im gonna b real w u #but who to inflict the meowmeowification beam on #i'm thinking yamamoto #or ukitake #...yeaaahhhh ukitake and kyoraku sound good #text it

[atlasfalling]

its ten post meridian, i should not get out of bed to start working again, but i am feelign RESTLESS

#i just #i try to work for a set number of hours every day #and i have at this point hit my limit #but i am jsut sitting here #staring at the ceiling #thinking to myself #just log on #do more thigns #get out of bed #you're uncomfortable lyindg down anyways

[by-glass-and-waves]

my bb @cataspins thanks for mentioning the pen thing lmao I KEEP GOING THROUGH ALL MY PENS LIKE WHICH DO I LIKE I'm going through all of them again also like different pen sizes/canvas zoomy things that prob makes a difference

I think I was using a ballpoint pen-esque one and was trying to find more pencil-y ones? Going through them again lmao this is me fucking around with them

I don't know how to digital art all I've done is sketchbook and pen and pencil mess-a-sketch for years

#what pen again #thinking to myself #doodling is hard

[cvbin-fever]

i love loving things

#thinking to myself #aspec moment of thinking about feelings in a different way #cbn.txt

[spoonylu]

Thinking deeply about how like 4 years ago, thoughts of my OCs just dominated my mind, but nowadays, that’s not really a thing? 

I’m just thinking to myself, y’know? Why isn’t that a thing anymore? And I think the answer is just. I stopped thinking of my characters as OCs and more as just characters in a self-contained universe. While the Mixed Feelings characters are technically my OCs, their purpose in my brain is to play their part in THAT STORY, so they don’t really go. Outside of that story for me. At least that often.

Now if FANS of Mixed Feelings think of funny little situations and AUs and stuff, that’s awesome. I just don’t look at my own content through the lens of like. Fandom-brain anymore. And I think, for me personally, that’s helped my content?

#thinking to myself

[y4souka]

ooohh yeah one of my best friend's birthday is this month and we've already planned to do something together, it was kinda hard cause unfortunately i work on that day so i won't be able to spend all day with her, but what matters is that at least we'll have a little special time together and it's all set now. and also, of course i'll make a surprise for her as always, i've ordered a cake <33

#thinking to myself

[etherealspacejelly]

me when the disability disables me: oh what the fuck? this sucks. what the hell man!

#autism #actually autistic #adhd #audhd #disability #currently lying in bed thinking about all the Tasks i gotta do today and i cant motivate myself to do Any of them #:(

[dendrochronologies]

maya angelou saying the funniest thing anyone has ever said about editing, which i can never let myself forget EVER AGAIN [x]

#OK. YOU'RE RIGHT. SO WHAT? DON'T EVER MENTION THIS TO ME AGAIN. IF YOU DO I WILL NEVER SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN. #i used to think about this interview all the tiiiiime i can't believe i let myself lose track of it!!!!!!! #maya angelou #FAVE #editing #*r #god i've read this a thousand times and i still laugh every time it's so GOOD #'OK. YOU'RE RIGHT. SO WHAT. DON'T EVER MENTION THIS TO ME AGAIN' #notifications are off for this besties 💗 #i will eventually turn reblogs back on but 20k notes overnight was a little too much pls slow down ✋️ #also pls do not follow me unless you are desperately in love with me. i can't make silly little personal posts with so many of you here!!!!

[whatkindofnameisella]

can you believe that we have fanfiction. that we have websites dedicated to fanfiction. that there is a place that you can go and read tens, hundreds, thousands and thousands of pieces of writing that strangers have made. people who are not "writers". people who come home at the end of the day and have feelings and say, i am going to put that into words. i am going to share those words. short, long, sweet, sad, horny, funny, wonderful words. we are all just human and we all love to make and remake and share that with others. can you believe that.

#ao3 #archive of our own #fanfiction #sometimes i can't even believe how much i myself have written. like i think i am not a writer. i am not doing enough. i do not write enough #and i look back and i have 34 (34!!) works on ao3 and reams of unpublished work on my computer and so long left to live. so i think #we will be okay. #writing

[dissociating-at-the-disco]

*intrusive thought* you should jump over the rail, run into the woods, and never come back. That’ll solve all the problems

*me to me* yeah but once I’m in the woods where am I gonna go? What am I gonna do? How will the kids be if I’m gone? Won’t they just come looking for me anyway?

#mine #personal #bipolar disorder #bpd #mental health #mental instability #schizophrenia #intrusive thoughts #mentally unstable #thinking to myself #dissociation #dissociative identity disorder

[greelin]

[AFTER REVEALING VERY TELLING PERSONAL INFO] But don’t read into that. let’s move along

#yes i hate feeding myself and refuse to make sure i eat. #yes i love to cook for other people and will bother you 1000 times to make sure you eat. don’t think about it

[arunneronthird]

#id say im projecting but im not sure im not drawing anime #made myself laugh with the face so i think it works #dick grayson #damian wayne #nightwing #dc comics #batman #my art #ladies. gentleman. you have eaten well. #tumblr fucked up the whole res so click on it thank u

[dinosaurchurch]

I think with the way that 2024 has started I'd call it another turning point. Having the ball rolling a little faster on my long term plans than I expected is not necessarily a bad thing. A year ago I was sat down contemplating the whole ordeal with saying goodbye to my father, feeling that emotional turbulence and riding that wave was it's own kind of hell. I think I cried more than I cared to admit but it was what it was.

January started with me not really having anything panned out for the short term, I think this was the first year I didn't really have any stress from anything hanging over my head. No depressive thoughts, no anxieties about anything, hell not even other people had been on my mind - not a worry in sight. Absolutely strange.

It's weird to say I'll be moving to a completely different area that I've never really spent any time in. It's going to be nice not to have to take public transport to get anywhere since everything is so close to home now. It'll be different having to go to a different gym, a complete departure from the place where I started my lifting journey. So many things I have to upend only to nail them back down again but instead of being filled with worry over it I'm strangely enough excited. Sometimes a change of scenery isn't a bad thing.

So far a lot is happening faster than I originally had panned out but I'm fine with that. I feel like I'm ready to tackle my insecurities of clinging to familiar comforts. Taking the leap into what it's potentially the unknown is something that scared me for a while but somehow I've become more accepting of it as the older I get. I've gotten used to feeling okay with the ground shaking under my feet and weathering the storm that when life finally heads where I planned to go it's almost surprising, I've expected too many times for shit to hit the fan or for things to fall flat that this is a welcoming thought.

Feeling like everything has come full circle and I'm finally back on track without a worry under my belt has been refreshing. Never thought I'd get here but apparently I can and I will. I'm out of the turbulence that was my late twenties to find that thirty has been more than kind. I still don't know what the rest of this decade will bring for me but I'm willing to face what's there come hell or high water.

All of this just seems surreal but I'm glad to be heading towards my goals. Another chapter closes as another one opens...

#personal #inner thoughts #journal #winter 2024 #beginning of the year #starting fresh #moving #life goals #introspection #excitement #thirties #sunrise #a new day #golden hour #winter #thinking to myself #ENTJ #ENTJ personality #2024 #new year 2024 #looking forward #dawn #the other side of the storm #good times ahead #hopeful #mental health #emotional health #overlook #fresh start

[y4souka]

working with people is really not easy.... today one of the employees yelled at my friend and she ended up crying out of stress bro there's no need to be so fucking rude, i know that everyone has bad days but that doesn't give you the right to be so mean to others, they have no fault! my friend is doing her very best everyday but no one else seem to give a fuck, i really wish people had more empathy

#thinking to myself

[violenttbabe]

some people try so hard it’s like ain’t that shit tiring??

#violenttbabe #thinking to myself