𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝𝐬 𝐀𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 - 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟖
▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟐 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟑 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟒 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟓
▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟔 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟕
Is there a better trope than patching up each other’s wounds while silently pining for each other? I hope you enjoy this chapter! - Love, Kiki 🖤
𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 | Eddie Munson x female reader
𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐬𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 | THEN. You’re the only survivor among the Mind Flayer’s victims, thanks to your friends - but after the Battle of Starcourt, you find yourself adrift in a sea of nightmares. Until an encounter in the woods with Eddie The Freak Munson offers an unexpected life line and turns your world upside down.
NOW. Four months have passed since the winter night you walked out of Eddie’s trailer and his life for good. But when the mysterious headaches and nightmares return full-force and something wicked stirs in sleepy Hawkins, starting a witch hunt against Eddie, you realize that there are two things in this world that might be more persistent than you’d thought: Evil…and love.
The story is told in two timelines: the past (after the Battle of Starcourt) and the present (during the events of season 4).
𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐭 | angst with a happy ending, fluff, smut, it turned into a fix it fic for ST4
𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 | SMUT (you need to be 18+ to read this story!), angst with a happy ending, attempted assault, bullying, canon-typical violence
𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 | ~16 k (it’s easy to split the reading into chunks if you like)
𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 | allusions to SMUT (only read if you’re 18+ years old! virgin!Eddie x virgin!reader), mentions of attempted assault, canon-typical gore & violence, blood
𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐄𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭, 𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭.
𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬, 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 & 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐝, 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 ♡
▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟐 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟑 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟒 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟓
▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟔 ▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟕
[Sunday, March 24th, 1986. NOW.]
With Eddie’s name ripping from your throat in a desperate scream, you barrelled through the door and into the boat house.
The first thing you saw in the half-dark inside, pale moonlight spilling through the boathouse’s open back to illuminate the scene in front of you, was Eddie.
His back was pressed against the furthest wall, cornered like a fox on a hunt by Jason and Andy. His ringed hands were wrapped around the wooden hilt of one of the old boat’s oars, raised like a spear to keep the two away from him, and his dark eyes, already wide with panic, screamed with raw terror as they met yours, as you lunged forwards – and a resounding “NO!”, ripped from his own throat to mingle with your scream when a pair of hands grabbed you from behind, pulling you back as Eddie made to dart towards you, but Jason and Andy blocked his path.
“Ed-“, you cried, but your words were cut off by a hand being clamped over your mouth, muting you, your desperate thrashing futile against this sudden chokehold you were locked in as a voice you recognized as Chance’s crooned into your ear, “Not so fast, slut.”
Even in the half-dark of the boathouse, with only the moonlight filtering in through the building’s open back to illuminate the gleeful sneer on Andy’s face, the menace glinting in Jason’s cold eyes as steely as that of the crowbar in his fist as he looked at you, you could see that Eddie was trembling, unshed tears of panic glittering in his huge dark eyes to mirror your own as your eyes locked across the small space.
“How did you get out of your cage, little birdie,” Andy drawled as Jason’s eyes bore into yours, icy shards of hatred and…something else as you struggled against Chance’s hold, his arms locked around you like creepers, holding you against him with such force that you felt the air being squeezed from your lungs, forceful enough that you feared your bones might snap any moment as his hand pressed harder against your mouth, rendering you mute and helpless. As helpless as Eddie in his own corner.
“Aw, look at this, Freak,” Jason said, ice-cold gaze never leaving yours as he twirled the crowbar in his hand, “Looks like your little slut got it bad for you, huh?”
“Maybe he fucks better than he looks,” Andy drawled with a lewd grin, eliciting a chuckle from Chance, his breath hot and wet against the back of your neck to make you flinch, more tears pricking your eyes as you watched Eddie avert his gaze from you at the memories roused by Andy’s gloating words.
Of kisses shared beneath the silver light of a star-splattered November night sky, of wandering touches and gentle whispers that ended in nothing but heartbreak and pain.
“You were a distraction, Eddie. An adventure. Did you truly think this could be real?”
“You don’t mean that. You said it meant something.”
“I never said that, Eddie. That was you. I just told you I wanted it.”
Andy Warren’s vile words were twisting the knife you’d plunged deep into Eddie’s heart that night.
The way Eddie had averted his eyes from yours at the jab hadn’t escaped Jason, told him everything he needed to know – and for a heartbeat, his lips curved into a malicious, gleeful little smirk as he drawled, “Look at that. Did the little slut have enough of you, after all? What did you think? That a cheerleader would want anything more from you than screwing around a bit?”
At the sight of defeat – pure, all-consuming pain and defeat in Eddie’s gaze as he held Jason’s, his trembling fists tightening around the oar he was holding raised between them – rage blazed through you.
You wanted to hurt Jason. You wanted to scratch out these ice-cold eyes, rip away the gleeful smirk, make him pay for all his small and big cruelties against Eddie.
But you were useless. Locked in Chance’s grip, muted by his hand clamped over your mouth, and so fucking useless.
When Eddie didn’t reply to Jason’s taunts and humiliations – didn’t reply because of course he believed them after everything you’d said yourself that night – Jason uttered a dismissive scoff.
It was still there, that chip in his pride because you’d rejected and fought him, had bitten and punched him in the face before Eddie had ripped him away from you – and no matter what he suspected had actually happened between the two of you, it was evident that you might have let Eddie The Freak Munson do what you’d denied Jason. That someone had chosen The Freak over the King of Hawkins High.
It had been nothing but a game to Jason – and Eddie had won it without ever trying to play.
You’d always suspected that Jason had been wary of Eddie; his outspokenness, his refusal to bend beneath Jason’s bullying.
That’s why Jason had been hating Eddie long before he’d thought Eddie had taken his prize possession as well – because that’s all Chrissy had been for Jason. A beautiful trophy to show off. And it dawned on you that Jason was actually scared. Because if he didn’t believe Chrissy had been in Eddie’s trailer for a simple drug deal that night…
“Come on, tell us, freak,” Jason said quietly, his eyes holding this dark edge you still couldn’t quite pinpoint as he turned away from Eddie and took a step towards you, “Tell us what the little slut let you do.”
“Yeah, don’t be shy, freak,” Chance cooed, his breath stirring your hair as you struggled, fought to angle your head as far away from his face as his restraining grip allowed, “Tell us the dirty details.”
Jason took another step towards you, his lips pulled into a sneer as a new wave of fear clawed at your chest because once again, you were trapped, the memories of that night in the woods clawing their way to the surface, of Jason’s stale breath, the tase of blood and beer and sweat as he’d forced his lips on yours, his knee forcing your legs apart as he pressed you against the picnic table – but the tip of the oar shot out to block his path as Eddie reacted, stopping Jason mid-movement.
“Don’t touch her.” Eddie’s voice was trembling with terror, choked by the tears of panic he barely managed to suppress, his fists around the wooden hilt quivering with such force that the entire oar shook as his gaze locked on Jason’s.
There was something else glittering beneath the panic in Eddie’s umber eyes. It hadn’t been there before, not even beneath Jason’s jeers.
Dark and feral.
You struggled against Chance’s chokehold once more, his arms locked around you like creepers and his hand clamped over your mouth to mute your shouts as Jason’s own hand slowly closed around the tip of Eddie’s oar.
The rotting old wood splintered away in Jason’s fist like crumpling paper before he continued to stalk towards you.
Before you realized what was happening, though, Eddie jumped forward in another desperate attempt to stop Jason, the broken end of the oar raised – and Eddie’s suppressed roar of anger turned into a cry of agony as Andy’s crowbar smashed into his left knee, sending Eddie tumbling to the ground as your own vision momentarily blurred with the force of your tears at the sight, at Eddie’s scream ringing through the air.
With a scream of your own, silenced by Chance’s hand pressing hard enough over your lips now that you tasted blood, you struggled to break free, to get to Eddie who was cowering on the floor, but it was futile. Chance’s arms around you were as unrelenting as an iron chain.
And then, Jason was in front of you, blocking Eddie from your view. “What did you let that freak do, huh?”
His voice was calm, frozen as the surface of a lake in winter, but the slight tremble beneath the surface told you it cost him a lot of restraint to keep it in check. “Did you let him do what he forced Chrissy to do? Huh?”
With Chance’s hand still clamped over your mouth to mute you, there was nothing you could do but reciprocate Jason’s glare, to lace your own tear-stained glower with all the disgust and revulsion you harbored towards him while fury flared through your veins, momentarily melting away the panic with the raw, all-consuming hatred you were feeling for this monster in front of you.
And you did what you’d done when Jason had forced his lips on yours in the woods all those months ago.
You bit him. As hard as you could.
With a pained hiss, Chance pulled his hand away from your mouth – just as Jason’s own hand shot out to grab your jaw, fingertips digging into your skin with such force that you thought the bone beneath might snap like the old oar in his vise-like grip as he inched closer, until he was close enough for you to count the smattering of freckles on his pallid skin even in the dim light of the moon.
For his breath to fan across your face. Just like back in the woods, when he’d pinned you against the picnic table.
The whites of his eyes were bloodshot. And there still was this gleam you couldn’t decipher as he breathed, “Tell me what the freak made you do. Tell me what he forced Chrissy to do.”
“You mean what you wanted to do to me?”, you hissed through gritted teeth.
“I said,” Jason repeated slowly, his grip around your jaw tightening to elicit a pained wince from you, “Tell us what the freak had you do with him.”
There was a movement in the corner behind Jason as Eddie pushed himself up from the ground with a pained hiss, gaze blazing with panic and despair and rage, something so foreign in his dark eyes, one hand still clutching the broken oar, its splintered end raised towards Jason like a stake ready to be driven through a vampire’s heart – but Andy was faster, the crowbar in his hand whirring through the air for a second time.
This time, he aimed for Eddie’s side.
“EDDIE WATCH OUT!”, you screamed, but the warning came too late.
The blow to the ribs threw Eddie against the boathouse’s wall with a groan of pain that made bile rise in your throat as the air was knocked out of him, the broken remains of the oar still clamped tightly in his fist the only thing between him and Andy now, who was twirling the crowbar in his hands with a taunting grin at Eddie. His eyes were closed, face contorted in agony as he fought against the pain, his other hand pressed over the spot on his side where Andy’s crowbar had hit home. Even from a distance, in the sparse pale light of the moon, you could see he was close to passing out, the cold sweat on his face as Andy stepped closer, the crowbar raised for another blow –
“Not yet,” Jason directed, one hand raised in the gesture of a king holding court as your tears started to fall.
“Let her go,” Eddie choked out. Pleaded. The pain and raw, primal panic straining his voice were ripping out your heart.
With a derisive snort, his hand still clamped around your jaw, Jason turned around to face Eddie.
The only thing holding him upright was the wall at his back – and the only thing separating him from Jason and his friends was the splintered end of the oar he was clinging to like a lifeline. His hair was a wild mess of dark curls framing his face, skin paler even than usual in the moonlight that made his tears of pain glitter which had started falling down his cheeks as his eyes found yours, wide and filled with horror.
“Wanna make a deal, Freak?”, Jason spat. “You let go of the oar. And I let go of your little slut.”
“No,” you breathed, your eyes beseeching Eddie to keep the oar, his only fighting chance – and with defeat swirling in his dark gaze, Eddie’s fist around the wood loosened.
And the oar clattered to the floorboards. The sound rang through the tense air like the crack of a gunshot.
“No”, you breathed when Jason let go of your jaw. And strolled back towards Eddie, who was still hunched against the wall, dark curs falling into his face as he tried to straighten himself despite the pain Andy’s crowbar had dealt, his right hand splayed against the rusty metal of the wall to gain some sort of balance, while you hissed and trashed against Chance’s still unrelenting grip, kicking and squirming…to no avail. He was so, so much stronger than you.
“You said you’d let her go,” Eddie winced, and Jason sneered.
“I said I’d let her go. Not that Chance would.”
Andy let out a gleeful little laugh.
“So, we finally get to talk,” Jason drawled, coming face to face with Eddie, who was pressing himself against the wall, chest heaving with panicked breaths as his eyes landed on yours, a fleeting second of mutual understanding, as you desperately tried to come up with a plan, a way out of this fucked up mess – and your scream barreled through the air of the boathouse as Jason’s fist collided with Eddie’s jaw, slamming the back of his head against the wall before Andy grabbed him, ripping him away from the wall and into a chokehold as Jason commanded, “Hold him. I’m not done yet. I haven’t even started.”
With a flash of grim satisfaction in his eyes, Jason’s fist hit home a second time, Eddie’s muffled groan of pain ringing through the air as he doubled over with the punch to the gut, sinking to his knees. The only thing still keeping him from falling face-first to the weathered floorboards was Andy’s grip around his arms, fingertips digging into the worn leather of Eddie’s jacket as he slumped in the stronger guy’s grip, curls spilling forward to hide his face.
“STOP IT!”, you cried, throwing yourself backwards against Chance with as much strength as his chokehold around you allowed for – but it wasn’t enough to throw him off balance, and his grip tightened so painfully around you that you were sure the bones of your upper arms would snap like twigs. Snap like poor Chrissy’s limbs under the strain of Vecna’s curse.
Jason’s eyes had turned into shards of ice as he glared down at Eddie’s slumped form.
“What did you do to Chrissy?”
His voice was calm. Dangerously calm, fissures already crawling over its frozen surface with the pressure of unadulterated hatred beneath.
And into the silence, his voice barely enough to be heard over the happy lapping sound of the waters of Lover’s Lake splashing against the posts of the boathouse, Eddie uttered on a broken whisper, “She just wanted drugs.”
The scream lodged at the back of your throat was muted with your terror when Jason’s fist hailed down for a third time, hitting the side of Eddie’s face with such force that his head snapped to the side, curls flying, before Jason’s hand shot out to grab Eddie’s jaw, bending down, closer, like he’d done with you only moments ago as he seethed, “She was not a druggie. She didn’t do that shit. So what. DID. YOU. DO. TO. CHRISSY. FREAK?”
“HE DIDN’T DO IT! HE’S INNOCENT!”, you screamed – but the words died in your throat as Jason bent down to pick up the crowbar he’d discarded on the floor, and horror, overpowering horror, clawed at your chest.
“Jason, don’t you think we should just call the cops?”
Jason’s head swiveled around to glance at Patrick, who’d kept quiet until now, kept to the shadows until you’d eventually forgotten he was even there.
He didn’t look well. There was cold sweat pooling on his face, his breathing strangely shallow as his gaze flitted from Jason to Eddie and back.
“We got him, Patrick,” Jason replied, almost gently, his tone so reasonable while he was lost in his own little world of violence and bloodlust and vengeance like a king descended into madness, “Do you think the cops will do her justice? They think Chrissy was a druggie. They said she was seeing him for drugs when he lured her to his home with his twisted games. No. The cops can have my leftovers.”
Dread settled in your guts.
A kind of dread you’d never felt before; a dread no creature of the Upside Down had ever been able to instill in you.
“I know what you did, Freak,” Jason spat, attention zoning back in on Eddie. Stray strands of his dark hair were plastered to his tear-stained face, to the blood that was running from the fresh cut on his brow where Jason’s fist had hit him. “You snapped her bones. One by one.” Jason’s voice was rising, each word spat with venom. “Enjoyed her screams, probably. Caught in your sick little game.”
The metal caught a beam of moonlight falling into the boathouse as Jason placed the crowbar under Eddie’s chin, forcing him to lift his head, and you barely managed to suppress the sob clawing its way up your chest at the sight of Eddie, bloodied and beaten and so utterly broken, the gaze in his beautiful umber eyes dimmed with the haze of the blows to his head, by the terror shining in their depths. More silent tears were rushing down his face, dripping to the denim of his vest alongside the blood as Jason crooned, “Let’s give the Freak a taste of his own medicine.” The smile tucking at his lips was nothing short of cruel. “I want to see how many bones we can break before we need a new crowbar.”
There were no screams left in you.
Only panic, and dread, hacking black talons into your insides, clawing at your throat alongside the tears that kept silently spilling down your cheeks at the sight of Eddie - sweet, gentle Eddie who’d never hurt anyone in his life; who’d chosen kindness when it would have been so easy to let the scorn and bullying he faced for simply being different turn his heart as cold and empty as Jason’s; who’d made it his task to take care of all the other outcasts and freaks, to give them a safe space to be themselves, be proud of who they were instead of succumbing to the bullies – slumped in Andy Warren’s unrelenting grip. Bleeding and bruised and dazed with pain and panic, his head slumped again as Jason pulled the crowbar away. His wild mess of curls fell over his shoulders to veil his features from your sight; only the glitter of tears on his pale cheeks and the dark rivulets of his blood were visible beneath the dark mess of his hair as they dripped onto his shirt, his denim vest, the weathered floorboards of the boathouse.
And when Jason straightened himself and raised his head to the faint beam of moonlight seeping in through a gap in the building’s roof to illuminating Jason’s face – the panic in your chest turned into horror.
Raw, unadulterated horror at what you saw in his eyes.
They weren’t simply frozen anymore.
They were wild. Livid. And you finally realized what it was you’d caught a glimpse of earlier tonight at the townhall; this thing which had been lurking beneath the surface all this time, like the scales of a sea monster glittering beneath a lake’s waves. It had broken that surface now, revealing itself in plain sight.
Madness.
Jason Carver wasn’t the calm, collected kind of monster any longer.
He wouldn’t stop, you realized.
He would kill Eddie.
And his friends…they’d let it happen.
And they’d all get away with it because Eddie…Eddie was fair game. Nobody would care – on the contrary. The mood at the townhall meeting had been clear as day. They wanted Eddie gone.
They would celebrate Jason Carver as a hero once again.
And Jason…Jason was too far gone, descended into this world of self-righteous vengeance, lost in his own madness.
Jason would kill the boy you loved more than anything in his world.
After everything you’d done to keep Eddie safe from the Upside Down and its horrors, from the Mind Flayer and the horrid swarm of these things with their wings and talons and teeth…the monster which would take Eddie was human.
“Where should I start, huh, Freak?”, Jason droned now, prodding the crowbar against the red demon face on Eddie’s Hellfire Club shirt to push him backwards, against Andy, drawing out the power he was wielding. The knowledge that he had all the time in the world to do to Eddie whatever he pleased.
“I didn’t hurt her.” Eddie’s broken sob mingled with the happy gurgling noise of Lover’s Lake lapping at the posts of the boathouse, so out of place, and you could see these dark sparks of madness flashing in Jason’s eyes at the words as he stared down at Eddie, slumped on his knees, held only by Andy’s grip like a puppet on a string.
“Fine,” he spat, “Andy, we’ll start with his hand.”
“No,” you breathed, your whisper mingling with Chance’s gleeful snicker.
“Jason –“ Patrick begun, but you didn’t think Jason could even hear him. And Patrick shrunk back, ignoring the plea in your gaze to do something, to stop Jason when Andy heeded the unspoken command, this sickening grin on his face as he reached out to force Eddie’s hand to the ground, fingers splayed on the weathered wood of the floorboards, his rings glinting in the half-light of the moon.
“Your guitar days are over, freak,” Andy taunted, and beneath the mess of dark curls spilling into his face, sticking to the blood running down his temple in dark rivulets, you could see Eddie squeeze his eyes shut, preparing for the agony of his bones shattering beneath the blows of Jason’s crowbar – as the dark force of your own rage and despair finally crashed over you like a tidal wave.
At the thought of Eddie, who loved music so much, his skilled fingers plucking the strings of his beloved guitar. The memory of how he’d played hours and hours for you that Saturday, turning his heavy metal songs into slow, soothing lullabies which chased away the nightmares as you’d fallen into a deep slumber, the first peaceful one ever since last summer; all the memories and horrors chased away by Eddie’s gentle voice, the melody he coaxed from his beloved guitar. Eddie, so shy about his skill and so proud about his band, bashful as he was talking about their gigs at The Hideout. How you’d have loved to cheer for him in the front row, to watch him play. Watch him do the thing he loved the most, more even than he loved playing D&D: playing his guitar.
Eddie, whose heart you’d broken to keep him safe from the monsters of the Upside Down, only for the monster that was Jason Carver to get him now.
Time seemed to freeze as Jason drew back the crowbar for the first blow to shatter the bones in Eddie’s hand to forever steal music from him before he’d take his life as well.
With that scream of fury finally ripping free from you, your mind went blank as wrath and despair blazed through you, searing through your veins like a wildfire to consume everything in its path, burn it to down until there was nothing left of Jason and his friends but cinders for ever daring to lay a hand on Eddie.
The crowbar never hit its target.
A second scream filled the half-dark of the boathouse before Jason could smash the tool into Eddie’s fingers. Chance’s scream, as he let go of you, stumbling backwards, away from you as Jason froze mid-movement, mad eyes locking on Chance, then on you, as you barreled forwards to tackle him away from Eddie – and Jason shrunk back, shock widening his cold eyes.
It took the fragment of a moment for you to realize that it wasn’t you he was shrinking away from…but the sight of Chance, the sleeve of his letterman jacket having gone up in flames as he screamed, shrugging it off, the flames hissing as the piece of clothing hit the floor.
The dry, wooden floor.
And all Hell broke loose.
[Monday, November 4th, 1985. THEN.]
It was there again.
The wooden door, suspended in the night sky, stars scattered around it like splatters of paint against a black canvas, their eerie silver light falling through the colorful glass, the crimson petals of the stained-glass roses.
Dread freezing you, you watched the slow movement of the brass doorknob as it was turned from the inside, watched the door swing open.
One inch, two inches, three.
Watched the spidery fingers crawl through the gap, the movement slow, careful almost, as something started to run down the warm wood, over the brass doorknob, dripping from the door’s bottom and into the endless sky like rain.
Only it wasn’t rain.
It was blood.
Seeping from the crimson petals of the stained-glass roses as the door creaked open to reveal whatever it was this horribly disfigured hand belonged to.
And finally, you snapped out of your trance. A muted scream on your lips, you turned to run – away from the door, the hand, the stained-glass roses, away –
You didn’t get far.
A gasp tore from you as you tumbled to the ground, tripping over the tangle of creeping vines on the ground, your hands shooting out to catch your fall, push yourself back up to your feet to keep running…
And your gaze fell on the vines.
On what was beneath the vines.
The pattern of black ink on pale skin.
Bats.
A swarm of them; tiny bats forever frozen in black ink.
It hadn’t been the vines you’d tripped over. It had been something underneath them.
An arm.
Dread clawing at you, you slowly turned your head.
And your eyes met a pair of umber ones, wide and hollow and empty. So horribly empty, the life snuffed out from them.
There was blood.
So, so much blood.
Covering the ground, the vines wrapped around his torn and broken body, smeared across his lips, coating your own hands.
Eddie’s blood.
And when the muted scream ripped from you, the stars started to slowly drift down from the skies.
They had never been stars.
They were particles.
Your eyes flew open.
You barely made it to the bathroom before you retched, eyes squeezed closed as the flurry of images from your nightmare hailed down upon you. They’d engraved themselves into your memories.
Sobs started racking your body as you curled up on the ground, the cool tiles of the bathroom floor pressed against your feverish cheeks as hot tears streamed down your face.
And from the headphones you were still wearing, with the Walkman clipped to the waistband of your pajama shorts because the mixtape was still the only way to find a semblance of peace, floated the tunes of I Remember You.
[Sunday, March 24th, 1986. NOW.]
Reefer Rick’s boathouse was on fire.
The moment Chance had let go of you with a scream, you’d darted forward, ready to tackle Jason away from Eddie, slumped in Andy’s grip, bleeding and broken and half-conscious – but tackling Jason wasn’t necessary.
Face slack, he was shrinking away a step.
Not from you, you realized as you whirled around to the still screaming Chance, but from the flames climbing up the sleeves of Chance’s letterman jacket as he was frantically shrugging it off.
It all happened in the fragment of a second.
The crowbar clattering to the ground, Jason darted past you towards Chance, to help him get rid of the blazing piece of clothing with Andy following suit, letting go of Eddie who slumped forward like a puppet with its strings cut.
You caught him before he could fall over, your hands on his shoulders to stabilize him as his forehead slumped against yours while Chance was still screaming in the background as he tried to stamp out the flames devouring the fabric of his letterman jacket which had fallen to the ground, sending more and more sparks flying for the weathered old wood of the floorboards to catch fire, the whole structure a fuse ready to be set ablaze.
One of your hands came up to his cheek as you pressed, “We need to get out of here.”
At the sound of your voice, his eyes fluttered open. His gaze was dazed, unfocused as he blinked, before he groaned, “Yeah.”
“Can you walk?”
“Gotta,” Eddie pressed through gritted teeth, the word morphing into a low agonized groan spilling from him as you moved to loop his arm around your shoulder and help him get back up.
Your heart sank as your eyes darted to the boathouse’s door.
The good news was, Jason and his friends were gone.
The bad news…
In the seconds it had taken you to help Eddie get back on his feet, the fire had spread, flames climbing the wooden frame of the boathouse’s door to block the exit as smoke started to fill the space, filling your lungs to make you cough and stinging your eyes as your gaze flitted to the little old boat just as Eddie breathed, “The boat.”
“We gotta hurry,” you added.
With another pained gasp, his hand flying to his side where Andy had hit him with the crowbar, Eddie untangled himself from you to limp towards the boat, swaying precariously in his tracks – if from the pain or Jason’s blows to his head, you couldn’t yet tell – and you thanked your past self for the presence of mind to free the old thing from its lines and set it afloat already. It hadn’t even been two days ago.
The boat swayed when you jumped inside, the heat of the fire already burning on your skin, making sweat drip down your forehead and drying the tears on your cheeks as you reached out to help Eddie climb in behind you.
The smoke filling the boat house had turned into an impenetrable wall by now, greedy flames devouring the dry, weathered floorboards as they climbed up the posts supporting the roof, towards the wooden beams above, like creeping vines on a trellis.
It wouldn’t take long until they’d consumed the posts – and then the roof, the whole structure, would collapse right over the two of you.
“Try to start the motor,” Eddie choked, suppressing a cough as he limped towards the vessel’s front and dug out an oar out from underneath the assortment of ropes coiling on the boat’s floor, this one gladly more durable than the one he’d grabbed to keep Jason away. With his features contorted in pain beneath the sweat and tears and the blood streaming down his face from the gash on his brow, Eddie begun to row as your fingers were digging into the rope tying the boat to its pole on the boathouse’s ground, the material scraping and biting your skin as your trembling fingers frantically worked to loosen the knot, the smoke choking you, singeing your lungs.
The knot loosened.
And not a second too soon, if the low, resounding groan of the wooden beams of the roof above was any indication as you gripped the floorboards and pushed with all the strength you could muster, giving the boat an extra nudge to get out of this chaos of smoke and cinders and flames.
A trembling exhale of relief escaped you when the cool air of the spring night hit your sweaty skin as Eddie steered the boat out of the burning boathouse and onto the lake, the clear night air filling your burning lungs as you whirled around to look at Eddie.
He’d stopped rowing, his fists clamped around the oars hilt while he looked as if he were fighting hard to remain conscious.
For a heartbeat, the two of you stared at each other in shaken silence, your labored breaths filling the cool night air, the water lapping at the boat with happy gurgling sounds as your eyes scanned Eddie’s blood-smeared face, illuminated by the orange glow of the small inferno devouring the boathouse behind you, his eyes wide with shock, the reflection of the flames dancing within them as he breathed, voice coarse from the smoke of the fire, “Jesus H Christ, how…how the fuck…?”
He was interrupted as, with a resounding groan that echoed across the lake and made you whirl around to face the shore, the boathouse collapsed. Sparks rose into the night alongside the smoke, the heat of the fire prickling on your skin as smoke rose into the air.
“Let me do that,” you said softly, reaching out to grab the second oar from the bottom of the boat, the assortment of empty cans, sandwich wrappers, ropes and boxes Reefer Rick had collected there clattering around on the ground as you pulled the oar towards you.
Just as a shout pierced the night, ringing across Lover’s Lake and the small space Eddie’s rowing had brought between your boat and the shore, and your heart plummeting to the bottom of the lake as you recognized the owner of the voice.
“HEY FREAK!”
Your head whipped around towards the four figures standing on the grass of the shore, illuminated against the glow of the flames devouring the remains of the boathouse.
Jason and his friends.
“WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU’RE GOING?!”
“Shit,” Eddie breathed. It was an accurate assessment.
Your heart plummeted to the ground of Lover’s Lake when, against the backdrop of the dying flames, Jason shrugged off his own letterman jacket and dove into the water, a second one of his friends following suit while the other two remained on the shore.
You didn’t waste another second.
Your hand shot out to pull the engine’s string and get the rusty old boat motor started, but nothing happened. There wasn’t even a cough from the engine.
Whirling around to face Eddie again, your hands wrapped around the hilt of your oar and your gazes met, wide and wild and panicked in the moonlight as understanding passed between the two of you, and Eddie jumped to his feet, the boat swaying and pain contorting his features as he climbed towards the back to switch places as you plunged your oar into the water and started paddling.
“It – doesn’t – work,” Eddie hissed through gritted teeth, anger and pain and despair lacing his coarse voice as with each word, he ripped at the string, each pull more forceful than the next until you feared he’d just rip it out.
“Maybe try a bit gentler?”, you panted, muscles burning from the exertion of rowing the boat, the lake splashing with every draw of your oar as sweat ran down your back underneath your sweatshirt.
Eddie threw you an indignant glance over his shoulder which would have been hilarious, hadn’t it been for the blood smeared across half his face and the jocks in the water set on hunting him down to kill him.
“What do you want me to, sweet talk it? Fine,” he turned back to the rusty old boat motor, a trembling hand patting the metal with barely contained frustration and panic as he implored, “Please. Please, okay? You gotta help us out here, sweetheart, ‘kay?”, before pulling the string again, gentler this time, as the ghost of a relieved smile played on your lips at the realization that he still had that gallows humor, even now, broken and bleeding and hunted.
The engine, though, stayed dead.
And the noise of splashing water told you Jason and his friends were drawing closer quickly. Far quicker than you were able to row the boat out of their reach.
“Almost got him!”, Jason’s shout mingled with the splashing sound of the lake, the frantic sloshing noise of your oar cutting through the water.
With a hissed, “Fuck,” Eddie snapped again, panic taking the wheel again as a fresh wave of adrenaline surged through your own system to propel your movements to paddle faster.
“Come on,” Eddie cursed, begged, one hand patting the rusty old motor as he pulled the string, over and over again, “Come on. Come. ON! HELP US OUT HERE, SON OF A BITCH!”
The engine answered with a weak splutter as Eddie slammed his hand against the metal with a frustrated, “No?! FINE!”, before he grabbed the second oar and started helping you row, panic and adrenaline taking the sharp edge of the pain he was undoubtedly feeling as he plunged the oar into Lover’s Lake – but it was too late.
Jason had reached the boat. Eddie jumped to his feet, the oar raised and ready to pounce down, his eyes trained on Jason as he roared, “Hey, stay back, there! STAY BACK!”
There was something new in his voice, feral despite the tremor of fear laced within as he wielded the oar, placing himself between you and the spot where Jason was trying to clamp his hand around the boat’s edge and pull himself out of the water as Andy Warren drew closer on your own side of the boat, and with a fresh wave of fury, you rose to your feet, your back pressed against Eddie’s and the dripping oar raised in your hands in a silent warning to stay back as Eddie thundered, “I SAID STAY BACK!”
“What you gonna do with that oar, slut?”, Andy drawled, his hand clamping around the boat’s edge to pull himself up as you let the oar hail down, the wood smashing into Andy’s hand with enough force to hear the crack of bones underneath. Andy’s scream made Eddie whirl around as the jock let go of the boat’s rim, and grim satisfaction barreled through you at the echo of his pained outcry in the spring air, the picture of Eddie, slumped in Andy’s grip as he splayed his hand on the floor, ready for Jason’s crowbar to smash into Eddie’s hand still fresh.
“Fuck around,” you dared, “And find out.” And that dark, twisted part inside of you wished Andy would do exactly that, simply for the satisfaction of doing to Andy what he’d have done to Eddie.
But Jason’s shout rang through the air – directed at Patrick, this time.
“Patrick! Hey, Patrick! What are you doing?”
Your head whipped around to the other side of the boat, to Jason, who’d stopped swimming towards you his attention on Patrick a few feet behind him in the water. Patrick’s was gaze trained on something in the distance, above the surface, eyes wide with…terror.
“Come on, Patrick! We almost got him!”
Patrick didn’t react.
And then…he was pulled under.
“ANDY!”, Jason’s shout for help pierced through the night, a splash from your side of the boat telling you Andy was heeding the call while you stared, at the ripples in the surface of Lover’s Lake where Patrick had vanished, as if he’d been pulled under, Eddie still as a statue beside while Jason’s shouts for Patrick rang through the new, deadly silence which had settled over Lover’s Lake.
There was a moment of shell-shocked stillness – before Patrick…was lifted out of the water and into the skies, like a doll in the invisible grip of one of those claw cranes at the arcade as dread coiled in your guts, your free hand shooting out to grab Eddie’s arm in silent terror as all four pairs of eyes stared at Patrick, suspended in the skies.
As his bones…his bones started to snap.
One by one.
You didn’t know who of you moved first, whether it had been Eddie or you to take the first step backwards to shrink away from the horror of Patrick’s body being twisted like a ragdoll in the sky – but it was enough to tip the boat.
Neither of you screamed as you tumbled backwards into the lake.
[Wednesday, November 6th, 1985. THEN.]
It was the third lunchbreak in a row you’d spent outside in the cold, hidden beneath the bleachers at the edge of the sports field, your gaze trained on the tree line of the patch of woods, the branches naked as they reached into the steely skies.
You hadn’t eaten.
You hadn’t slept.
There was no way anymore for you to fall asleep without Eddie’s mixtape – and no way to stop crying as soon as you listened to the songs he’d picked for you.
You knew you’d have to return to the cafeteria again at some point, face the fact that you’d see Eddie again, across the room. Make up an excuse for Robin and Nance as to why you’d avoided them for the past few days.
But not today. There was no strength left in you for that.
Back in the building, the halls still empty because lunchbreak wasn’t over yet, you rounded the corner to get the books for the next period out of your locker –
And froze in your tracks at the sight of the lonely figure walking down the hallway towards you.
It was the first time you saw him ever since Saturday. Since that November night.
He looked miserable.
His hair was unkempt as if he’d run through a hurricane, messier than you’d ever seen it, and the wrinkled flannel dress shirt he was wearing underneath his leather jacket looked as if he’d grabbed it from the laundry without realizing it was his uncle’s, the yellow-green-blue checked pattern so out of place on him, a weird contrast to the even more wrinkled DIO shirt beneath.
There were shadows under his eyes, deep enough to tell you he might have even gotten less sleep than you had over the past few days, and his eyes, those beautiful umber eyes…they were hollow as he stared back at you, as frozen as a deer in the headlights.
For a few heartbeats, the two of you stayed like this, gazes locked, the memories of everything you’d shared beneath the myriad of stars scattered in the November night skies above coming alive in your minds. And everything that happened after.
There was nothing you wanted more than run into his arms.
To tell him how sorry you were. That you loved him; more than there had been stars in the night sky.
To turn back the clock, to put this moment with him beneath the stars into a tiny little snow globe frozen in time, safe and sound beneath the shield of polished glass, forever.
To tell Eddie Munson that he’d left a beautiful tattoo of fingerprints on your skin, his kiss on your lips and his handprint on your heart.
You whispered the words in your mind as you stared back at him, into those beautiful umber eyes.
For these fleeting heartbeats, you stood frozen in this empty hallway. Eddie on one end, you on the other.
Worlds apart, hearts broken into a million pieces still calling out for each other.
With a trembling inhale you wouldn’t have noticed hadn’t you already known him like you knew the pages of your favorite book, Eddie turned.
And walked away.
[Sunday, March 24th, 1986. NOW.]
You’d thought you’d seen it all.
A parallel dimension. Monsters with faces opening up to reveal rows upon rows of razor-sharp teeth.
Shadows that lived, possessed.
Blood turning black.
Doors suspended in the night skies amidst a sea of scattered stars.
But this…what had just happened with Patrick…it was the most horrid scene you’d ever been forced to witness.
The sound of his bones snapping would stay with you until the end of your days.
And when you imagined Eddie, who’d been so horribly oblivious and left in the dark about the terrors bleeding into Hawkins, witnessing the same with Chrissy…you wanted to retch. And you wanted to weep.
But there wasn’t time either of these things as, lungs and arms burning from the exertion of steering the boat to shore, you let your oar clatter to the bottom of the boat, rallying every last dreg of strength left in your body to drag yourself out of the boat and onto the soft grass of the lakeside alongside Eddie. Your knees gave in and you sunk to the ground, water plastering your soaked clothing to your body, your hair to your face, sending shivers through you in the cool spring night air.
“Shit,” Eddie breathed as he let himself fall to the ground beside you, burying his face in his trembling hands as he hunched over. “Holy fucking shit.”
Like you, he was soaked from the plunge into Lover’s Lake.
The two of you were lucky that it had been a mild month so far, the spring sun having warmed the waters of Lover’s Lake to a point where, despite it still being cold, it wasn’t dangerously cold anymore. You were grasping for silver linings.
“Jesus. Fuck, man,” Eddie breathed again. “Jesus fucking CHRIST.” It was the softest, most contained scream you’d ever heard anyone utter as he raised his head from his hands. The gash on his brow was still bleeding, half of his face smeared with blood, wide eyes flitting to a point behind you, and you turned to follow his line of sight.
To the glimmer in the distance, the remnants of Reefer Rick’s boathouse, the dying flames setting the night aglow with their orange hue between the trees.
And with the adrenaline slowly fading from your system it dawned on you what had just happened.
You’d set this fire.
You’d burned down Reefer Rick’s boathouse.
With your…with your what? Your mind? Like El? That wasn’t possible.
“So, um,” Eddie spoke up, his voice a few pitches higher than usual, his bottom lip trembling as he was trying really hard to compose himself, “Where did. Uh. Where did the inferno come from?” He raked his fingers through his sodden curls, his hand trembling so hard that you feared he might rip out a few strands, the heel of his hand smearing the blood that was still seeping from the cut on his brow where Jason’s fist had hit home.
It dawned on you that he’d been out for long enough to not realize what had happened. Hell, you hadn’t realized it yourself – but Eddie had no clue.
You needed it to stay this way. Until you figured out what was happening. Why it was happening.
For a heartbeat, all you wanted to do was scream and holler at the night skies.
It didn’t stop.
It fucking didn’t stop.
You replied with the first thing that came to your mind. “Lightning?”
Eddie lifted his head to glance up at the cloudless night sky arching above. “Uh-huh.”
You glanced down, at your palm. At the pattern of blisters on your skin, left from when the doorhandle had singed you about an hour ago as you’d broken free of the supply closet Jason and his friends had locked you in.
It hadn’t been a hallucination.
Something had happened.
You quickly closed your fist, pulling the sodden sleeve of your sweatshirt down to cover your hand, praying Eddie hadn’t noticed.
Though before either of you could utter a word to break the shellshocked silence, the distant wail of sirens pierced the tranquility of the night.
Drawing closer, as your gaze found Eddie’s, the panic returning full-force.
Jason had made it to the shore with Patrick’s body. And he’d called the cops.
“We need to get away from the shore,” you breathed, jumping back to your feet as fast as your legs allowed for.
“Fuck,” Eddie breathed, a half-whisper, half-sob, muffled as he buried his face in his hands again.
Silent sobs were racking him, tremors running through him as he vehemently shook his head, teetering at the edge of a full-blown breakdown.
Because Eddie Munson’s official body count, as far as the police were concerned…would now be three.
Triple murder.
There had been many who’d faced Death Penalty for less.
You needed to get him away from here. To a new hiding place until Robin would return with the others, figure out what had happened, and – hopefully – find you. And you needed to do it now.
“Can you run?”, you urged, grabbing Eddie’s arms to help him back to his feet, the pained gasp ripping from him at the movement making your heart bleed, but you needed to move.
“I’ll make do,” he grimaced, a hand shooting out to press over his side where the crowbar had hit him, and you realized that you’d have to take care of his injuries at some point.
“Uh. What are you doing?”, Eddie inquired as you climbed back into the boat and started to rummage through the stuff which had collected at the bottom.
Sandwich wrappers, ropes, a soaked pack of cigarettes – and a triumphant little huff escaped you as you lifted a half-full bottle of whiskey into the air.
“I mean,” Eddie began slowly, swaying before he rested his hands on the boat’s ledge to support his weight as his confused frown deepened, “Some problems might be delayed if you drink them away but I’m pretty sure this isn’t one of them.”
You tucked the whiskey bottle under your arm before you delved back to the assortment of stuff Reefer Rick had collected in the boat as you announced, “We need to take care of your wounds. And this –“ you reached for a little tin box, your determined smirk widening a little as you opened it to find an assortment of fish-hooks and fishing lines and what looked like actually clean cotton handkerchiefs within, a switchblade on the side, probably for gutting fish, “This will do.”
You jumped out of the boat, storing the tin box of Reefer Rick’s fishing tools in the front pocket of your soaked sweatshirt, the bottle of whiskey still tucked under your arm as you grabbed Eddie’s elbow to support his weight.
“Time to go.”
“Anything in mind?”, he questioned, the wail of the sirens rising to a whole chorus as the first flickers of flashing police lights illuminated the shore in the distance.
“The woods? We’re…” You cut yourself off at the sudden burst of memories flooding you as you finally recognized your surroundings.
You’d been here before, on this side of the lake. Last year. On a beautiful sunny September day, one of the last days of summer. Skipping classes with Eddie after a flood of condoms had poured from your locker under the eyes of the entire crowded hallway because it hadn’t been enough anymore for Jason and his friends to simply smear the word SLUT across your locker door.
Another day, another time, on which Eddie had saved you.
Tears stung your eyes and stole your words at the memory of the summer sun filtering through the crowns of the trees, painting streaks of milk-chocolate brown into Eddie’s dark curls as he’d grinned at you, nearly toppling over a tree root sticking up from the path.
And for a split second, you could read it all in Eddie’s dark eyes, reflecting the very same memories, a mirror image of the heartbreak in your own chest, before he averted his gaze.
“Skull Rock,” he said quietly. “Let’s hide there.”
[Saturday, November 9th, 1985. THEN.]
Your breath was forming little clouds of white lace in the air as you wrapped your arms tighter around yourself, the fabric of your winter coat rustling softly. But no coat in the world could ever shield you from the kind of cold you were feeling, had been feeling, for the past seven days.
A cold seeping through you from within, colder than the Mind Flayer had ever felt when it nestled in your mind. Because this kind of cold…it was festering in your heart.
And yet it wasn’t enough to finally numb the pain.
Seven days.
It had been seven days since the night Eddie had kissed you, since his caresses had sent you into blissful delirium as he’d whispered all these sweet nothings to you – only that they hadn’t been sweet nothings. He’d meant them all.
Seven days since you’d broken Eddie’s heart and your own to keep him safe.
It hurt. And it would never stop hurting.
Seven days since the old nightmares had been replaced by a whole new kind of horror.
Of the moment the light in Eddie’s beautiful umber eyes had shattered into a myriad of pieces alongside your own heart underneath the force of your cruel words.
Of the Mind Flayer’s spidery shadow looming in the thunderclouds, watching Eddie.
Of the door, and of Eddie. Caught in a swarm of these beasts, their eerie screeches fading against the agonized scream ripping from Eddie as these things pounced on him, tearing and ripping and devouring.
The only thing keeping these things at bay was the mixtape Eddie had made you.
A cruel reminder of everything you’d lost. Every beautiful what-if that would only ever stay a daydream. And yet, you couldn’t stop listening to it, over and over again, because this mixtape…it was all you’d ever have left of him.
He’d move on. Find someone else, someone who didn’t have a stain on their soul and darkness in their heart. And the memory of you would blur over time, the ache numbed until there would be nothing left but a fading scar.
And above all else, he would live.
He would finally graduate. Walk that stage and snatch the diploma, probably flipping principal Higgins the bird as he walked off stage. He’d read Lord Of The Rings, plan campaigns and play D&D with his friends, play his beloved guitar.
And you would be the girl who’d so cruelly broken his heart on a cold November night, underneath a sea of glittering stars.
The tears had already started falling when you rested your back against the wooden top of the picknick table, eyes trained on the skies peeking through the bare branches of the trees surrounding the little clearing as your thumb, numb with the cold, found the button of your Walkman to press play and the first notes of I Remember You floated through your headphones, the first song on the mixtape.
You wondered if he was on the roof of his trailer right now, gazing up at the same stars.
Thinking of you.
Beyond the blur of tears, the first few shooting stars bled from skies, falling in showers of silver light and scattering dust in their wake.
Yes, you’d never be anything more but the girl who broke Eddie Munson’s heart.
But Eddie Munson would forever stay the boy you loved with all of yours.
[Sunday, March 24th, 1986. NOW.]
“Careful,” you winced at Eddie’s pained flinch as he let himself fall down onto the mattress someone had left in the slim spot between the two boulders forming Skull Rock, before you knelt down on the carpet of dead leaves in front of him.
The short run to Skull Rock – it couldn’t have been more than ten, fifteen minutes, drawn out with the limp in Eddie’s walk slowing the two of you down as you’d stumbled through the thicket – hadn’t done much to dry the two of you.
Just like your own, the water of Lover’s Lake was still soaking Eddie’s clothes, darkening the denim of his vest above the leather jacket and plastering the Hellfire shirt to his chest. Up close, you could see the outline of a chest tattoo beneath, making you wonder what it might be.
His hair falling around his pale face in a wet mess, as black as the night sky above in its sodden state.
“Yup,” Eddie agreed through gritted teeth, rings glittering in the beams of moonlight seeping through the canopy of leaves above as he pressed his hands over the spot on his side where Andy Warren had hit him with the crowbar, before he quipped, “Wait, careful with the wounds or the mattress?”
“Both,” you chuckled, and Eddie’s mirthless little smirk turned a little less mirthless as he glanced at the faded moldy fabric of said mattress before he deadpanned, “I guess if I don’t die of internal bleeding or shit within the next hour, one of the thirteen STDs I just caught by touching that mattress will finish the job.”
He looked horrible. There was still blood running down from the cut on his brow where Jason had hit him, running down the side of his face, strands of his wet hair plastered to the dark crimson rivulets.
Your heart squeezed painfully in your chest at the memory of Eddie trying to keep Jason away from you, so fierce in his attempts to protect you when it had been him they’d hunted, his bones they’d tried to break.
His life they’d wanted to take.
Robin’s words flitted back to you, spoken only hours ago.
I see the way you look at him when you think nobody’s watching. And I see the way he looks at you.
Then, you’d been certain that whatever Robin had seen in Eddie’s eyes when he was looking at you had been nothing but residual hurt.
But the way he’d fought to protect you at the boathouse, the ferocity in his eyes…
“Okay, let me see,” you said softly, breaking your train of thought as you gestured for Eddie to remove his hands from the spot on his side, scooting closer until you were kneeling on the filthy mattress beside him, your knees brushing his thigh as Eddie gave you a nod.
Biting your lip, you grasped the hem of his Hellfire shirt, carefully peeling the sodden fabric away to reveal the damage Andy’s crowbar had done, tears pricking your eyes again at the memory of Eddie’s agonized groan when the metal had knocked the wind from his lungs.
But before you could lift the shirt far enough to assess the skin over his ribs, Eddie’s hands shot out, gently grasping your wrist to stop you mid-movement.
The touch sent showers of sparks zapping along your nerves to make your broken little heart sing with his touch, and Eddie breathed, “Wait. What about you, monster slayer? Are you hurt?”
How was it possible, for your heart to painfully squeeze yet soar all at the same time at the sound of the old nickname, as softly spoken as Eddie always had despite all the pain you’d caused him? The way he still cared so deeply while believing your lies, that he’d been nothing but a distraction?
“I’m not the one who got beaten up with a crowbar,” you replied quietly while an incredulous little smile curved your lips.
“Yeah,” Eddie quipped, “I got a lot more respect for pinatas now.” Before you could utter a reply, his expression softened even further, concern darkening his gaze as he slowly turned your hand in his, scanning the pattern of blisters on your palm, and for a moment, your heart sank at the thought that he might have seen more than he’d let on, had connected some of the dots. Instead, he softly asked, “Does it hurt?”
“No,” you lied, “It’s fine. I’m fine.”
“You’ve never been a good liar, you know,” Eddie said gently, his thumb flicking over your wrist, grazing the skin over your racing pulse in the softest fleeting touch as the lump in your throat grew while your mind flitted back to that November night.
“There’s never been an us.”
“I don’t believe you. Not a single word.”
Before you could muster a reply, Eddie added, “What happened at the townhall meeting?”
You swallowed, focusing on his fingertips still holding your wrist, the way your heart was fluttering like a frantic little bird in the confines of your ribcage. “They found out about Reefer Rick’s. I wanted to warn you, but they noticed me and locked me up.” When you glanced up again, there was this spark of dark ferocity settling in Eddie’s gaze, mingling with the softness as he asked, his voice so gentle, “Did they hurt you?”
“As I said…I’m not the one who got beaten with a crowbar.”
Because he’d dropped the oar, his only means of defense, for the fragile hope that Jason might have let you go. Without a single second of hesitation.
“Let me see,” you repeated softly, and Eddie let go of your wrist, leaving behind an empty feeling on your skin, in your chest, that old ache which had never numbed in the first place flaring anew as your gaze caught on the sliver of his skin already exposed. The v-line on his stomach running down towards his belt buckle; the shadow of his happy trail dipping below the waistband of his ripped jeans.
What the fuck is wrong with you, the little voice in your mind chided – the rational part, probably – to snap you out of your ogling as you quickly focused on an empty can of pringles someone had discarded at the foot of one of the boulders, taking a few moments to collect yourself, which were interrupted as Eddie inquired, panic rising in his voice, “Do you really think it’s that bad?”
No, I’ve just been busy ogling you like a creep, the voice in your mind replied, and you cleared your throat before you quickly replied, “No, just…”
I can’t stand to see you in pain. How hypocritical, considering you’d put a matching set of bruises on his heart four months ago.
Opting to cop out of this one, you stayed quiet as, with a careful movement, you lifted the rest of the soaked Hellfire shirt to expose Eddie’s upper body – and winced at the sight of the bruise already blooming beneath his pale skin like the petals of a black flower, right below his ribcage.
“Shit,” Eddie assessed.
“It’s…it’s not that bad,” you tried, meeting Eddie’s gaze as he cocked an eyebrow and clarified drily, “No. Shit, as in, goddamn it can you stop looking at me as if my guts were falling out.”
“I’m sorry,” you replied, the ghost of a smile playing on your lips to mirror his own, “Just…does it feel like something is ruptured? Like, your spleen or a kidney?”
“You truly know how to take the edge off things, huh,” Eddie retorted, but the end of his sentence was cut short with a hiss of pain as you let your fingertips graze over the black bruise, pulling away with a wince. “Sorry! I’m sorry, I thought I’d feel if your ribs were broken.”
“Fuck,” Eddie breathed, already moving to bury his face in his hands again before he seemed to remember the still bleeding cut on his brow and let his hand sink to his side with a frustrated groan, before he uttered meekly, “Can you check? If my ribs are broken?” He sounded so defeated. So devastatingly tired and defeated and scared.
“It’ll hurt,” you warned.
“It already does,” he retorted. He had a point.
You reached out again, fingertips gently grazing the edges of the bruise, pressing down a little as you followed the curve of his ribcage, biting the inside of your cheek to keep it together at Eddie’s pained sharp intake of breath while your fingertips wandered over his skin, trailing the outline of his ribs to examine the bone beneath as Eddie threw his head back, eyes closed tightly as he seemed to bite back an anguished groan that turned into a relieved exhale when you pulled your fingers away again.
“I don’t think anything’s broken,” you stated, before you gently pulled the shirt back down, “But we need to take care of that cut now,” you added, already pulling the tin box of fishing supplies out of your sweater’s pocket, placing them on forest floor beside you, next to the bottle of whiskey.
It wasn’t exactly a first aid kit, but it was better than nothing.
“Uh. What are you doing with these?”, Eddie inquired cautiously as he watched you rummage through the tin box with Rick’s fishing supplies, inspecting the assortment of fish-hooks while his expression grew more and more alarmed.
“That cut on your brow will need stitches,” you announced, and Eddie’s face grew a little paler.
“Need, like, ‘or else you’ll die���? Because I don’t know if I can stomach you patching up my face with a fish-hook. There’s only so much I can take in a single night.”
“It’s too deep for the bleeding to stop on its own. And we don’t want you to get blood poisoning.”
You raised one of the fish-hooks to your face, inspecting it.
“Jesus Christ,” Eddie breathed, observing you bend the fishing hook into the crescent shape of a surgical needle with a nauseated stare before he slowly added, “I dunno if I should ask. But you look like you’re not doing this for the first time.”
You gave him a little smirk as you proceeded to thread the fishing line through the fish-hook-turned-makeshift-needle.
“I patched up Steve Harrington with a bottle of vodka and dental floss.”
“Holy shit. Was it…was it one of the Demodogs you told me about?”
“Nope. It was Billy Hargrove.”
“Huh. I wonder who won that fight,” Eddie muttered under his breath, a trace of bitterness in his tone.
“It was Max,” you stated, snickering at Eddie’s crestfallen expression before you added, “She sedated Billy.”
“I knew the little redhead was a tough cookie but Jesus, I had noooo idea.” He sounded as if he couldn’t exactly decide whether to be bewildered, scared, fascinated or all three. “Maybe we should just sic her on Vecna. Let her take Sinclair’s infamous little sister and let ‘em hand that son of a bitch’s ass to him.”
“Wait.” You gave him a quizzical stare. “You know Erica Sinclair?”
“Shit, I don’t know the girl. I got burned by her. Destroyed.” Eddie chuckled. “She actually ended the Vecna in my campaign, come to think of it. Rolled a natural twenty last second.”
“What is Erica Sinclair doing in Hellfire?”, you teased.
“Have you ever tried to tell her no?”, Eddie deadpanned, cocking an eyebrow.
You snorted. “Hell, no. I’m not mad.”
“She was the sub for Lucas. He copped out for a game of balls-and-laundry-baskets that night. That was a few days ago, actually.”
“Oh. Yeah. He actually dealt the winning blow,” you said with a smile – but the giddy feeling in your chest about joking around with Eddie like you’d used to do died and wilted like a bouquet of flowers at the thought of that November night. Of the basketball game he’d visited just so you wouldn’t have to feel alone as you cheered for Jason.
Your eyes burned as you fiddled with the fish-hook in your hand, and the awkward silence which descended over the two of you made it evident Eddie had been plunged into the very same memory.
Of kisses beneath the glittering stars that ended in pain and heartbreak, your words the match to set all the bridges between the two of you ablaze, burn them down to nothing but cinders.
Just when you thought the quiet was too much to bear, though, Eddie stated, “So, Steeeeve Harrington got bested by Billy Hargrove.” There was a gloating little smirk tugging at his lips as he seemed to mull this over.
You couldn’t hold it against him. Before Nancy, Steve had been a total jackass. You’d loathed him with a passion as well. But Steve wasn’t that person anymore.
“He’s a nice guy, you know,” you smiled, “He changed. Nancy changed him.”
Something else flashed in Eddie’s eyes as he let out a little scoff.
“Yeah. Sure. If you say so.”
You knew the roots of Eddie’s disdain for Steve, his wariness for all the people who were like Steve. Steve himself might not have bullied Eddie – but it didn’t change the fact that Steve, once upon a time, hadn’t exactly met people like Eddie with kindness.
“I didn’t know you were friends with Harrington,” Eddie said quietly, his gaze trained on the links of his bracelet he was fiddling with.
“He’s one of my best friends,” you said. “Has been for the past two years.”
There was a flash of hurt in Eddie’s dark eyes as he nodded, dark curls spilling into his face. They were slowly beginning to dry.
You were my best friend, you wanted to tell Eddie, but the words were stuck in your throat.
How long could the two of you continue it, this weird dance around the topic of what had happened that night? Of what you’d done; why you’d done it?
“Nancy changed him,” you tried again. “He was a jerk, but he’s one of the good guys now.”
Eddie let out a breath that sounded like another barely suppressed scoff before he replied, “Yeah. Good for him.” And when he finally glanced up at you, you could tell he was irritated. Annoyed, even.
You gave him a little frown. “For someone who hates being put in a neat little box of prejudice,” you countered, “You’re certainly doing it a lot, yourself.”
“Yeah,” Eddie said quietly, his gaze unwavering as it rested on you, “The last time I got involved with the popular crowd, it didn’t exactly end well for me.”
It was like a punch to the gut. But you deserved it. You deserved all of his resentment. You’d deserve all of his hate either, if Eddie Munson had been capable of it.
He continued, “I mean, I was probably stupid to invite Chrissy Cunningham of all people to my trailer for a fucking drug deal, but she was pretty persistent about the Special K and I didn’t exactly add a boogeyman from a parallel dimension framing me for murder as a possible risk factor.”
“Chrissy,” you replied hollowly, your mind finally catching up as you pulled out one of the cloths from the tin box.
His prior words had never been intended to be a jab at you.
The relief flooding you made a lump grow in your throat before you reached down to grab the bottle of whiskey, pouring a generous amount of the clear liquid over the cloth in your hand before you glanced up at Eddie.
He was watching you, his expression searching as you raised the whiskey-soaked piece of fabric, as if he was waiting for you to say something.
“I’ll clean you up before doing the stitches,” you said softly, “Can you – lie down? Preferably in this little beam of moonlight.”
The open bottle of whiskey in one hand, the cloth in the other, you gestured at the small patch pale light the weak beams of moonlight seeping through the crown of the trees above cast onto the filthy mattress as you added, “Because else, I won’t see shit.”
Even in the half-dark of the nightly woods, you could see the queasiness in Eddie’s expression as he gave the fish-hook you’d bent and placed on the lid of the box on the ground an alarmed side-eye.
“Eddie?”, you repeated softly when he didn’t react, “Are you ready?”
“What’s the alcohol level in that whiskey?”
You tilted your head, squinting at the label to discern the small print in the weak lighting. “Um, sixty per cent. That’s good enough to clean a wound –“
You cut yourself off as Eddie grabbed the bottle from your hand, throwing his head back as he took two long swigs of the amber liquid, his hand holding the bottle shaking like leaves before he set it down and pressed it back into your hand with a small, curt nod that looked as if he were currently fighting hard to keep it together as he wiped his mouth with the back of his hand.
You wanted to take his hand, to take him into your arms and tell him everything would be fine, to kiss away all the cuts and bruises and tell him how brave he’d been back at the boathouse.
But of course, you couldn’t do that.
Heart heavy, you watched Eddie lie down on the mattress with another pained wince at the movement as he shuffled to position himself so the small patch of moonlight was hitting his face, his dark eyes intently following your movements as you inched closer, cloth and whiskey bottle at the ready.
He squeezed his eyes shut and breathed, “’kay, ready when you are.”
Placing the piece of cloth so the whiskey wouldn’t run into his eye, you raised the bottle, pouring a generous amount of the amber liquid over the gash in Eddie’s brow, biting the inside of your cheek to keep focused on the task at hand as his hiss of pain filled the silence of the nightly woods while the whiskey ran down the blood-coated side of his face.
“Fuck, that burns,” he choked through gritted teeth, his hands curled into fists at his sides as he fought his reflex not to shrink away.
“It’s okay,” you soothed, pouring some of the whiskey over your own hands before you started to clean the side of his face, fingertips grazing his skin to gently brush away the stray curls which were sticking to the already drying blood which kept seeping from the gash, “It’s going to be okay.”
“Is it?”, Eddie breathed, and his eyes fluttered open to meet yours.
Even knowing him as well as you did, it was still such a stark contrast to see Eddie, who seemed so menacing and rough with his tattoos, his wild mane, his ripped denim and worn leather, look so small and scared and vulnerable.
And it dawned on you that even now, even with everything that had happened between the two of you, Eddie – who carried his weirdness, his loudness, his outspoken endearing theatrics like armor – still felt comfortable enough around you to strip himself of all these things. To allow himself to be vulnerable in front of you.
An overwhelming surge of love, of affection and fierce protectiveness flooded you. Gently, you brushed another stray strand of wet hair from his forehead, and Eddie’s gaze turned strangely intense as he glanced up at you.
“We’ll fix this mess,” you promised. “Stitch by tiny stitch.”
It was clear neither of you was talking about his injuries any longer.
There was a heartbeat of silence filling the space between the two of you, broken by the distant hoot of an owl, a fluttering of wings mirroring the flutter of your own heart as you lost yourself in Eddie’s dark gaze – before reality came crashing back in, and you raised the fish-hook.
“I’ll make it quick.”
“Scars are pretty fucking metal, come to think of it. And it can’t be worse than the Kitchen Scrapper.” Eddie contemplated with the ghost of a smile tugging at his lips.
You blinked. “The – the who?”
“That’s the guy from the trailer park who did all my sweet ol’ tatties.”
“You – you got tattooed by a guy named the Kitchen Scrapper,” you repeated.
“He was the only one who’d to do them for a few bucks. He made his tattoo gun himself.”
“Why is he called the Kitchen Scrapper?”
Eddie pursed his lips as he thought about that. “I have noooo idea. The guy works at the slaughterhouse down in Pine Mills so come to think of it, something like, I don’t know, The Butcher would have been more fitting.”
“And you still thing you’re not brave,” you quipped with a quiet laugh, before you shuffled a little closer to him on the filthy mattress, angling yourself, but you needed to be closer to patch that gash, to even see what you were doing in the sparse light of the moon.
“Eddie?”
“Hmm?”
“Um. I need to…I think I’ll need to sit on your lap to do this.”
There was a beat of awkward, crestfallen silence as he stared up at you, before he quickly said, “Yeah. Yeah, sure. Scoot over.” He did an awkward little gesture with his hands.
Heat burning in your cheeks, you moved to his lap. Straddling him.
Trying very, very hard not to think too much about the position.
And the images of that November night kept flitting back to you – of everything that had happened before you’d shattered both your hearts to pieces.
The way Eddie had kissed you, so gentle and fierce at the same time, of the way his touches had left burning trails of sparks on your skin as you’d buried your fingers in his hair, the sweet noises he’d made as you’d rolled your hips against his –
You cleared your throat, heat flaring once again in your face at the tingle in your chest…and the one not in your chest but…deeper, while shame crept over you because he was bleeding and bruised and hurt and hunted by a town for horrible crimes he hadn’t committed and waiting for you to patch up the wound Jason had given him because Eddie had let go of the goddamn oar so they’d let you go –
You gave a curt nod – to steady yourself, this time – and placed your free hand on the side of his face to gently angle his head a little further into the pale beam of moonlight, and something sparked in Eddie’s eyes at the touch, mirroring the sparks in your own chest.
And for a fleeting heartbeat, you stayed like that. Straddling him, your hand cradling his cheek, watching each other, a flurry of unspoken things swirling in the space between you.
Then, you broke the moment.
And set to work.
Eddie’s sharp intake of breath as you pierced his skin for the first stich made your insides twist, and you bit your tongue to draw your focus on the task of mending his wound as well as the fish-hook-turned-surgical-needle and the pale twilight the moon was casting through the canopy of leaves above allowed for.
The rivulets of blood still running from the gash in his brow mingled with the silent tears of pain streaming from Eddie’s eyes, running down his temples and seeping into the dark strands of his drying curls as you worked, and his chest was rising and falling with shallow breaths as he tried to reign in the pained noises clawing at his throat as his features contorted with pain.
“It’s okay,” you cooed softly, over and over again so he could focus on your voice rather than the agony of the fish-hook being pierced through the wound that was deeper than you’d initially thought, “I’m nearly done. You’re doing good, Eddie, you’re doing so good.”
“Better than Harrington?”, Eddie choked out through gritted teeth, “When you patched him up with vodka and dental floss?”
“So much better,” you confirmed gently, fingertips working on the second stitch, “Steve fainted.” Eddie didn’t need to know that Steve had been unconscious already when you’d patched him up.
There was the tiniest flicker of a very Eddie cheeky little grin before pain won over again and he breathed, “Gonna rub it under his nose so hard.”
His words were cut off by a strained groan of pain that made your heart bleed even more for him, and with a tremor in your own voice, you soothed, tying the fine fishing line into the third knot, “Just one more. You’re doing so good and it’s just one more stitch to go and we’re done, okay?”
A strangled noise left Eddie’s throat in reply as you pierced the fish-hook through his skin for the final time, tying the fine line into the last knot before grabbing the gutting knife to cut the line.
“Done,” you breathed letting the hook and knife fall to the tin box with a soft clatter, and Eddie’s trembling exhale of relief filled the air, his eyes still closed.
“Eddie?”
“Yeah,” he choked, “Gimme a second.”
You stared down at the now blood-soaked piece of fabric in your hand as you contemplated where to put it, and – as if he’d read your mind – Eddie snickered, “You could just leave it in that corner over there,” he nodded at the foot of the nearest boulder, “Something blood-stained would really contribute to the ambience of the empty beer cans and used condoms. Don’t look into that corner, by the way.”
You chuckled, letting the bloodied fabric fall to the ground beside you for now.
Until now, you’d successfully danced around the imminent realization that Skull Rock was Hawkins’ most famous make-out spot, thanks to Steve.
With a shaky breath, Eddie slowly sat up, your hands shooting out to his shoulders to steady him, your knees digging into the moldy mattress as you supported his weight.
For a heartbeat, you just stared at each other.
You were still on his lap, straddling him, and now that he was sitting…he was close, his face mere inches from yours.
Letting your hands fall away from his shoulders, you cleared your throat before you said, “We should clean up the rest of the blood, okay?”
“Sounds like a plan,” he agreed quietly, his expression timid, and you averted your gaze, face burning as you reached for another fresh piece of cloth to soak with whiskey. There wasn’t much of the amber liquid left in the bottle, but it would do.
Raising the fresh cloth in one hand, you placed the other to cradle the side of his face – and for the sliver of a second, Eddie’s dark eyes flitted down to your lips, before they found yours again, the expression within unreadable as he watched you dab the soaked cloth at the freshly mended cut, working your way to the side of his face as he tilted his head a little to the side, leaning into the touch of your palm on his cheek.
You knew the gesture was meant to give you better access to the blood-crusted other side of his face, but…your heart wasn’t as quick to catch up. And your goddamn memory was quick to provide the matching images of that night; the way Eddie had leaned into your touches as he’d kissed you, the way he’d shuddered when you’d ran your fingers down his back, tracing the curve of his spine.
Your skin prickled underneath the intensity of Eddie’s umber eyes as he quietly watched you, your fingertips working to brush away a few especially rebellious, half-dried curls which had fallen into his face again, gently holding them out of the way as you cleaned the dried blood coating his skin.
Did you imagine it, or had the space between the two of you shrunken even further?
“So, uh,” Eddie’s murmur broke the silence, his voice low, “What now?”
“I told Robin to get the others and meet us at the boathouse after the meeting. So, when they arrive and meet the cops which will be flocking around the scene by now, they’ll search the woods for us. They’ll find us. Maybe their visit at Creel house this afternoon even sparked a few new insights regarding Vecna’s whereabouts.”
“You really got a whole monster hunter family,” Eddie assessed. “Still dealing with that revelation, by the way.”
“Of the Upside Down?”
“Of the kids I adopted into Hellfire turning out more badass than I could ever dream of being. Shit. Like, Mike Wheeler? Hunting monsters? With Steve The Hair Harrington? Gonna be totally honest with you here, Steve Harrington not being a total douche was a shocker that hit way harder than the whole monsters-from-another-dimension shit. And then it turns out that the girl with the superpowers was Mike Wheeler’s girlfriend which – if I’m being totally honest with you here – I didn’t even believe existed, so that’s that. And these freshmen are goddamn heroes while I’m…still running.”
The bitterness in Eddie’s tone stung.
“There’s no shame in running,” you echoed the words he’d told you all these months ago.
“Yeah,” he scoffed quietly. “That was before I discovered that running away seems to be my goddamn default.”
“Eddie –“, you began, but he shook his head, his umber eyes finding yours in the half-dark, glittering in the pale beams of moonlight falling down upon the two of you, and you let the rest of your sentence fade into the cool spring night air.
On Eddie’s lap, it wasn’t cool anymore, though.
You were close enough to feel the heat radiating from his body, through his own soaked clothes, the Hellfire shirt already beginning to dry beneath the leather jacket and denim vest, just like his curls.
One hand still resting on your cheek, you assessed your handywork. The four stitches to mend the cut had stopped the bleeding, and you’d managed to clean the blood from his face.
There was still a bit of it sticking to the curls of his bangs, and you reached up to gently clean it away from the strands underneath Eddie’s attentive gaze that made butterflies sear in your belly and made your heart do backflips and your pulse accelerate, before you let the fabric fall to the ground.
With the blood gone from Eddie’s face, you could see the shadows of bruises forming underneath his skin already where Jason’s fists had hit home. One beneath the cut on his right brow, one on his temple, and one – darker than the others already – on his jaw, and your heart seized painfully for him as you let your fingertips graze the bruises, one by one, the touch fleeting and light like the brush of a feather – before you realized what you were doing, and your fingers stilled.
“Sorry,” you breathed, “Does that hurt?”
“No,” Eddie murmured, his gaze briefly wandering back to your lips again before he swallowed, meeting your eyes.
His face was only inches from yours, his lips close enough to smell the whiskey on his warm breath as it fanned over yours.
You knew you should probably increase the distance between the two, and you should definitely get away from his lap, stop straddling him – but you couldn’t.
The gravity which had always pulled you towards him was back full-force. Only it had never stopped. It had always been there, from day one.
And so, you didn’t move away.
“It doesn’t hurt,” Eddie added on a whisper, and you gently traced the curve of his cheekbone, down to his jaw, fingertips grazing the outlines of the bruises as he asked softly, “What are you thinking?”
“That I’ll kill Jason when I ever see him again.” Only as the words floated in the slim space between you, you realized they were the truth.
Eddie’s expression turned stern as he said quietly, “You won’t.”
“Because he’s big and strong and I don’t stand a chance? I fought monsters before.”
“That’s not what I meant,” Eddie said softly. “You’re a monster slayer. But you’re not a killer.”
You swallowed. “You don’t know anything about me, Eddie.” It was a dark whisper, an echo of the words you’d spat at him that night.
“I don’t believe you. Not a single word.”
“Because you don’t know me, Eddie. You don’t know anything about me. You never have.”
The hurt in his eyes as you said the words left no doubt that he was remembering them as well.
But to your surprise, Eddie said quietly, “I think I do. More than you want to believe.” His tone wasn’t hurt. It was soft.
You don’t know what happened last summer, you wanted to tell him. You don’t know that the Mind Flayer got me and what it made me do, and you don’t know that part of me liked it. Enjoyed it, to hurt the person who hurt me. And that’s why I know I wouldn’t hesitate to hurt Jason. Not a single second. Not after what he did, tried to do, to me – and especially not after what he did to you. Jason Carver had hurt Eddie. The next time you’d see Jason, you were ready to make him pay.
And the fact that Eddie didn’t think you were capable of that, proved your point even further.
There were still so many things he could never know – things that would forever snuff out the warmth he still held in these beautiful dark eyes when he looked at you, even after everything you’d done to him.
Apart from that, you’d slammed that door close for a reason, locked it behind you and threw the key away – and the reason hadn’t changed.
Because your dreams were still filled with everything you’d seen that night.
The door with the stained-glass roses, the hand creeping through, the Mind Flayer watching the two of you, watching Eddie, a looming spidery shadow in the crimson skies…and the swarm of monsters pouncing on Eddie, ripping him apart.
You could hardly tell him about these things. That your nightmares were filled with his anguished death cry as the Upside Down devoured him.
When you didn’t reply, Eddie breathed, “Is that why you did what you did? Because of all the monster shit? Is that why you left?”
“I told you why I left.”
“Because I was nothing but a distraction.” There was so much pain laced in his voice, his eyes; his gaze pleading you to tell him no, reveal the truth he was so desperately hoping for.
Yes, Eddie had been dragged into this mess now. He knew the tale, of the Upside Down and its monsters. But he could still get out of this because he wasn’t marked. He wasn’t stained, carrying around that dark, festering imprint you were carrying on your own soul. It was an easy equation – the Mind Flayer would forever be a part of you. And this connection, whatever it was…it would be Eddie’s death, if he came to close. Even if he saw the darkest part of you and still chose to stay…the Mind Flayer’s mark on you would cost Eddie’s life.
Nothing had changed.
And if you needed to suffocate that spark of desperate hope in his umber eyes as he gazed at you now, the moonlight glittering within their depths as he held your gaze and waited for your reply…that’s what you’d do. Everything to keep him safe.
“Yes. You were a distraction. It has never been anything more.”
You should move away, increase the distance between the two of you…but you couldn’t.
The spell he kept holding you under, this strange gravity drawing you towards him like a star to its twin, a moth to a lonely night in the dark, was too strong, overpowering every rhyme and reason, everything in you that screamed to keep this door locked.
And so, you stayed. On his lap, straddling him, your palms cradling his cheeks.
And you could see that Eddie didn’t believe you, saw it in the fierce spark in his eyes even before he said quietly, “Then why did you come back for me?”
His whiskey-breath prickled on your lips, mingling with your own, heart racing wildly as the space between the two of you shrunk, the moonlight dancing in Eddie’s pleading umber eyes as they held yours captive, stealing every last ounce of willpower from you.
You opened your mouth to utter a reply, conjure another lie, but Eddie whispered, “No more lies. Tell me the truth, or nothing at all. But no more lies. Please.” His voice was barely more than a rasp, so soft, as soft as his pleading eyes while the space between you shrunk, magnets drawn to each other, his face so close that the tip of his nose brushed yours, his lips nearly grazing your own as he added on a breath, “If it didn’t count, if nothing of it mattered…why did you go to the trouble to find me, monster slayer?”
Because I love you.
I’ll always, always love you, Eddie Munson. And I always have.
You couldn’t say it, no matter how hard you wished you could.
But his proximity had stolen your voice anyway, had chased all the lies you were ready to tell from the tip of your tongue as you inched closer still –
And your lips brushed his.
It was fleeting, ephemeral as the touch of a moth’s wing, the ghost of a kiss…
Before it turned into a real one.
Your heart skipped its next beat, Eddie’s own sharp inhale filling the air in the sliver of space between the two of you, as his lips met yours again.
It was greedy. Desperate.
And all your resolve crumbled like a house of cards in a hurricane as you melted into the kiss. Until your chest was pressed flush against his, your fingers tangling in the drying strands of his hair to pull him closer as Eddie’s hands shot up to your back, holding you against him as if he were scared you’d fade away like mist in the sunlight if he let go now, and the softest of moans spilled from your lips as you parted them for him, fire blazing through your veins at the sensation, giddiness and love and longing and everything in between to mend what you��d broken, to put all the shards of your heart back together –
“EDDIE!”
Never in your life had you moved so fast, back to your feet, mind spinning and heart racing and chest heaving with labored breaths as you as you jumped away from Eddie, just as Robin rounded the boulders of Skull Rock, Nancy and Dustin and Steve hot on her heels, Max and Lucas trailing behind, as Steve chided, “Don’t be so loud, man. That’s –“
He cut himself off as their gazes met your own, wild and panting, before Dustin’s gaze fell on Eddie, who’d jumped to his feet in time with you, a soft wince escaping him as Dustin tackled him into a hug.
And Eddie’s eyes met yours over the boy’s shoulder as he patted Dustin’s back.
Even from the distance, you could see that his pupils were blown, the soft blush dusting his pale cheeks visible even in the weak moonlight, and you quickly averted your gaze as Robin inquired, “What the fuck happened? The boathouse is in cinders, there’s police all over the place –“
“Are you hurt?”, Nancy questioned, her gaze flitting from you to Eddie, who was in the process of untangling himself from Dustin’s bear hug, looking as rattles as you felt.
“No,” you breathed, just as Eddie retorted, “Yes.”
Robin’s eyes narrowed as they darted between Eddie and you, before she said, “You look a little… disheveled.” There was a small huff escaping her as Nancy not so subtly slapped Robin’s back, and Steve’s gloomy expression turned even gloomier as he turned to Eddie, waving at him while he inquired, “What happened?”
Eddie’s hand shot up to his hair, the strands tousled where your fingers had raked through them, caught in the heat of the moment of the kiss only moments ago before he stammered, “Uh. It’s…windy.”
There was a beat of silence as you watched Max’s eyebrows shoot up and Luca’s brow furrow in confusion as he stared at the absolutely unruffled foliage of the trees above, before Steve muttered, “Not your hair, man, your face.”
You were having a hard time ignoring the way Robin’s gaze was boring into you. She’d truly mastered the art of side-eyes.
“Oh,” Eddie replied. “Yeah. Had a run-in with Jason and his mob of jocks.”
“Before we took an accidental swim in the lake,” you added.
“Vecna got Patrick,” Eddie finished. “McKinney.”
“What?!”, Dustin called out, in time with Lucas.
“When did he die?”, Dustin pressed, “Patrick, I mean.”
“Fuck,” Lucas muttered under his breath.
“I didn’t exactly check the time –“ you began, but Eddie called out, “I did. Well, sort of,” as he glanced at the watch on his wrist. “We fell into the lake right then, so my watch broke…nine twenty pm. That’s when he…when it happened.”
“That’s when the lights burst,” Nancy breathed.
“What did you find out at Creel house?”, you inquired, your gaze briefly locking on Eddie’s. He was still panting, his eyes still wide and the blush on his cheeks mirrored the heat in your own as your whole face felt like it was burning, and you quickly averted your gaze when Dustin spoke up, “We found Vecna.”
“What?”
“He’s there,” Max said, “At Creel house. In the attic, on the other side.”
“That’s not creepy at all,” Eddie muttered, drawing out the words in his usual lilting tone.
“But if he’s there…”
“Then all we need to do is find a gate,” Dustin interrupted, “Go to the Upside Down –“
“And drive a stake through his heart,” Max finished grimly, crossing her arms in front of her chest.
In the weak moonlight, she looked like a ghost, the shadows under her eyes nearly blue, her headphones at the ready around her neck. With a glance at Eddie, she said, “Thank you. For saving my ass. I’ve been told Kate Bush was your idea.”
Eddie scratched the back of his head, his eyes flitting to you before he said, “Yeah. No worries. It was a gut feeling rather than some genius epiphany.”
“Wait – a stake?” Steve furrowed his brows. “Is Vecna – is he a vamp?”
“It was a metaphor.”
Another thought came to your mind. “But we still need a gate.”
Dustin grinned as he pulled something out of his sweater’s pocket, the thing catching the moonlight in a glint of silver as he raised it in the air, “I think we already found one.”
Eddie’s brows shot up. “A gate. Just like that?”
Dustin’s grin widened. “When the Demogorgon attacked, it left a gate. And we already know that gates to the Upside Down mess with the magnetic field of the earth.” And you finally recognized what the thing in his hand was as he raised it again, before he announced, “And ever since we went into these woods, my compass went nuts.”
“With a capital ‘N’,” Robin smirked.
With an expression warring between fascination and dread, Eddie took the compass from Dustin’s hand. “Son of a bitch,” he breathed.
“Exactly,” Dustin grinned.
You didn’t need to look at the compass to know the needle was spinning like a record in its player.
“So, uh, all we need to do,” Eddie summed up, still staring at the whirring needle of Dustin’s compass, dread slowly winning its fight against fascination on his face, “Is follow wherever the needle is spinning faster.”
“Which will be Lover’s Lake,” Dustin added. “Where Patrick died. If my theory’s correct, and they always are.”
“Jesus,” Steve breathed, rolling his eyes, “Henderson, you gotta keep that ego in check.”
“Wait, the lake’s where we’re coming from,” you protested. “There will be police, the firefighters –“
“They’re gone,” Steve interrupted. “Which is why we need to go now. They’ll be searching the lake and the surrounding woods for Eddie as soon as the sun rises, so we need to go now and see if Dustin’s right.”
“I am,” Dustin said. “Jesus.”
“Wait, wait, wait,” you interjected, pinching the bridge of your nose at the flood of new information, “There was a third quote-unquote murder and they’re not searching the surroundings right now? Isn’t that weird?”
“Oh. Yeah. You don’t know,” Robin spluttered. “The whole town’s gone haywire.”
Max uttered a scoff. “The townhall burned down.”
There was a beat of crestfallen silence as Eddie’s head snapped up, eyes locking on you as the world started spinning.
“Just went up in flames,” Steve confirmed. “Must have been right after you left.”
You curled your hand into a fist at your side, fingernails digging painfully into the blisters covering your palm.
The blisters from the doorhandle at the townhall, which had singed you right before it had sprung open. Just like that.
Just like Chance’s letterman jacket had caught flames.
“Oh, and that’s not all,” Max added as an afterthought, stepping towards you as she pulled something out of the pocket of her jacket, holding it out for you.
It was a folded piece of paper.
“You never saw because you were already on your way back to the boathouse this morning,” she explained, “But remember when I said I drew what I saw when Vecna got me? That place he didn’t want me to see?”
Your hands trembled as you unfolded the paper, mind going a mile a minute as your thoughts raced around her previous words.
The townhall burned down.
The townhall burned down.
The townhall burned down.
Just like the boathouse. And the connection between these places, of course –
You unfolded the paper.
Just that it wasn’t a paper, you realized now. They’d glued several pieces of paper together like a puzzle, and someone had outlined the silhouette with a black sharpie, lines crisscrossing the pattern of red to form a house. Probably Creel house, you realized.
And your sharp intake of breath filled the silence of the spring night as your eyes fell on the center of the house.
On the front door.
The bouquet of flowers, drawn with messy swirls of crayon at the center of the door.
Crimson stained-glass roses.
[Friday, March 15th, 1986. ONE WEEK BEFORE CHRISSY’S DEATH.]
The silence of the dream mingled with the music floating through the headphones of your Walkman at the frayed edges of your consciousness, Eddie’s mixtape tethering you to a sliver of reality as you shrunk backwards.
It was there again.
The door, suspended in the night sky, amidst the sea of glittering stars.
Just like always, like every night since that November night four months ago.
You knew what came next, the nightmare a familiar companion by now – albeit one to which’s horrors you’d never grow accustomed.
It would creak open, a deformed, spidery hand creeping through.
You would turn and run.
And you’d watch him die, hear his death cry lace with the music, the chorus of a million eerie shrieks as the creatures pounced down on Eddie in a hailstorm of wings and claws and teeth and ruin, mingling with your own scream when you eventually bolted upright in bed.
Your mind clung to the music of Eddie’s mixtape, your tether, your lifeline, the lighthouse’s beam guiding you to shore.
A nightmare, a nightmare, just a nightmare…
There was the silhouette behind the door, behind the stained-glass roses bleeding crimson.
But this time…something was different.
The brass doorknob didn’t turn.
The door didn’t creak open.
The deformed hand didn’t crawl through the crack to fold around the wood.
There was just the door, and the starry night skies.
And mingling with the music, the lyrics floating through the dream, was a voice.
So beautifully familiar, soft as it painted your name into the air in its musical lilting cadence.
And so horribly, horribly scared.
“Eddie?”, you answered, whirling around, eyes scanning your surroundings for a flash of his umber eyes, of messy dark curls and soft lips, of leather and denim and the glint of his rings – but there was nobody there.
Just a void filled with silent, distant stars.
“Eddie?!”, you called out again – and this time, he answered, his voice growing more desperate as he called out your name.
Screamed your name.
“EDDIE!”, you cried out, spinning faster and faster as his voice morphed into a horrid cry of agony – and your eyes fell on the door.
The silhouette behind, fists hailing down on the wood from inside, making the door rattle in its hinges as you darted towards it.
“EDDIE!”
“HELP ME!”
“EDDIE I’M RIGHT HERE!”
“GET ME OUT!”, he screamed, “HELP ME! LET ME OUT!”
He was behind that door.
With that thing, the silhouette with its deformed spidery hand.
Panic clawed at you as your hands wrapped around the brass door knob.
It was cool against the skin of your palm.
And through the petals of the crimson stained-glass roses, Eddie’s eyes stared back at you, wide with terror as he placed one hand on the glass and whimpered, “Let me out, monster slayer. Please.”
Without a second of hesitation, you turned the knob.
And ripped the door open.
But Eddie…Eddie was gone.
And your eyes flew open as you bolted upright in bed, the sweat-soaked sheets tangled around your legs as your chest heaved with shallow breaths, heartbeat thundering in your ears.
It had been just a dream.
Only a dream.
…right?
[Sunday, March 24th, 1986. NOW.]
It was the door from your dreams.
The door from your dreams was the door to Creel house.
The door to Vecna’s lair.
The door you’d ripped open in your nightmare nine days ago.
Exactly seven days before Chrissy Cunningham’s bones had snapped, one by one, on the ceiling of Eddie Munson’s trailer.
The stained-glass roses of Max’s painting swam before your eyes, blurred into splotches of red as your body went numb, and you sunk to your knees, onto the carpet of dried leaves, your friends’ voices rising around you, muted as if you were underwater as realization crashed over you like a freezing wave.
You’d opened that door.
Vecna had tricked you.
And you…you had let him in.
▹𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐍𝐢𝐧𝐞
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