` I don't give a fuck 'cuz I'm a millionare! `
INTRODUCTION POST
Nonhuman nightmare(godkin, vampkin, and therian)
HEAVILY disordered; Npd. Bpd. Hpd. Autism. Did. Ptsd
Memory loss. Psychosis. Depression
Anxiety. Suspected bipolar. Aspd traits. Hypersexual. Paraphile(Anti-contact, have multiple.)
'Obsessive love disorder' . StPD . + more
Proudly 'claimed' /ij, but in all seriousness, do not try to engage in a "friendship" unless we do so first. Our guard dog bites.
Taken² + dating someone in my thoughts tbh
Minor. MDNI blogs can int, but we also do not check blogs before we int/follow back.
CW for some of our posts; we will post/rb shit about drugs, possible sexual content, violence, and ocassionally triggering topics(e.g., self harm, sa)
All of our names + pronouns.
No DNI, block us if we fit yours, we'll block you if we want. However, some of our stances are; anti-endo(of all breeds), anti-transid/radqueer/whatever you call yourselves, anti-contact paraphile for harming or non consenting actions.(e.g., acting on pedophilia or zoophilia)
Tags for posts; #vamp diary - all basic posts, #vamp sillies - responding to asks, #utterly insane - vent posts, #millionare - reblogs, #bf posting - wes asks/posts, #fiancé posting - posts abt fiancé, #holy spirit - The Chosen One™️ aks/posts, #coffinshipping brainrot - exactly whar ir sounds like.
If you have any questions, our asks are open.
(Div creds @/mmadeinheavenn)
14+ npd centered srv
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Btw for anyone who needs to hear it: thinking that people are reading your mind/your thoughts are being heard by everyone is not normal. It's a symptom of psychosis and could be linked to a psychiatric disorder. This, too, goes with hallucinations.
This may seem like a no-brainer, but to teens who don't know what symptoms look like, they may jog it off for a number of reasons. I did, too, when I was in highschool! As a freshman I was having delusions/hallucinations and I didn't tell anyone because I thought they were cringe and weird. I chalked up my hallucinations to me being "tired". People who have psychosis often don't realize that what they're experiencing IS psychosis. This goes the same with other classmates/friends/loved ones. If someone comes to you with concerning behavior (even if they are joking about it) you should take note of it.
In highschool I remember a kid talking about how he could go into the matrix and he had a whole other world to protect/do missions in. He would also go still for long periods of time randomly. I thought he was weird and didn't think much of it, but those are symptoms of schizophrenia (delusions/catatonia).
I would appreciate it if this got a reblog so it could potentially help those recognize these symptoms in either themselves or others!
I wish I could have seen a post like this when I was younger. Then I could have avoided a lot of hardships and would have gotten treatment a lot sooner
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suspected bpd and bp culture is meeting diagnostic criteria for bipolar that isn't in bpd, but meeting criteria for bpd that isn't in bipolar. kill me 😭😭
( may i claim 🎰 as a sign off? :3 )
yes u can
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today i finally had the follow-up with behavioral health to end the consult about my bipolar meds and it was so wild for the first time ever to be able to tell a psych "yeah no i feel great i actually feel better than i realistically have in my entire life"
like i told her its actually been really weird because ive been having to re-learn everyday life now that everything isnt always at 1000 percent intensity. like its kinda wild tbh
i described it as like, theres still ups and downs, but they're significantly below the bars on either side for distress and instability, whereas before the ups and downs would regularly fluctuate past those bars and it took a LOT of energy out of me. more than i even knew
anyway all this to say, as i left i said "thanks for fixing me"
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Hey all :)
Idk how many ppl will see this but I’m having a really hard day in the middle of a depressive episode and think it would be really cool if maybe someone could tell me something nice or fun? Or even leave a smiley face in the comments, I’m just having a really hard day :(
Sorry if I dragged you down with this, but just thought I’d reach out and see if I could feel a bit better :|
<3
(Small edit: I’m now listening to folklore and idk if it’s helping??)
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I've been up for hours. I have always had the sensory issues but it wasn't until I got out of my dad's abusive house that they really hit me and now I'm up right now literally coughing up loogies that are pink from blood and fighting the urge to literally claw my skin off. It sounds like some edgy thing some kid would have put here on Tumblr in 2008. I hate everything I want to die it sucks so fucking bad. I clean and clean and clean off my bed before laying on it I make my bed I make sure everything is to a tee. And no matter how many fucking time to do with the bed still has something on it it could be as clean as marble and it's still feels like I'm laying in the fucking desert. Always starts off feeling like I'm laying on Sand then it gets itchy to the point that it's unbearable and I just want to claw my skin off and it hurts it stops being itchy and just straight up hurts. I am so tired and I'm just crying Non-Stop and I can't even stop myself from crying and it sucks. I'm tired I'm always you never feeling comfortable in my own skin in a literal way not metaphorical not oh I look in the mirror and I'm ugly literally feeling uncomfortable in my skin I want to be skin I would pay for someone to find a way to live without skin. This is literal agony and it's always hits me when I'm vulnerable. It never hits me in the middle of the day when I'm just chilling relaxing it's always when I'm trying to go to sleep or do something important it's always in the middle of a test or some other bull like that. It's always there I don't know what I did I'm not a good person I know I haven't taken it. And no matter how much I look stuff up we can't find any way to fix this I don't have money to buy a weighted blanket. And my next therapy appointment in this until Wednesday. Sometimes I think if I didn't make a promise that I made my mom I probably be dead. I just said melatonin and I'm hoping that I've been to just get worn out from crying and fall asleep. But it sucks that I even have to do that I want to be a normal person so waiting to sit on my bed and go to sleep. No crying no tantrum no painful itching sensation no need to literally sit as still as possible just hope that it can fall asleep without literally crying so hard that I can't speak anymore.
I just want to be "normal" person i feel bad I don't want to be neurodivergent. I want to be able to do things normally without my brain trying to punish me. This is like living hell. And it's so much worse cuz I never never the problem when I'm like distracted throughout the day I sit on the same bed all day and watch TV and do other things I work on my bed because it's the only thing I have and there's no problem the second that I actually got to go to sleep it's like oh no now your bed is made out of needles and sand and bugs. If I didn't promise my mom I wouldn't kill myself I probably do that right now. I hate everything I hate this I'm going to sleep so badly I'm literally writing this while crying and so tired that I could fall asleep but my body won't let me I'm so so tired this isn't fair.
Please please please please please please if anyone knows anything that can help please tell me I am literally having panic attacks and I can't do this. I am on the verge of just scratching all my skin off Jesus Christ and I don't even know why my brain would act like this why am I so faulty that my brain actively makes my life worse what is the possible reason that my brain would act like this
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