#dorian talks

[ghostampede]

watching dimension 20 fantasy high season 2 and there is something that hurts so much about watching fantasy high season 2 and it’s genuinely criminal how brennan lee mulligan reveals that gorgug didn’t say goodbye to his fucking girlfriend by zelda texting gorgug “you left without saying goodbye?” and then gorgug being like “oh shit” and it just ending and leaving me knowing that bad shit is coming their way but then i am called to preform my Human Duties so im just left in the shitty feeling of Gorgug Fucked Up A Little Oh No. what the fuck. anyways this season is great i am living so far.

#dorian talks #not to mention this is all after the most insane battle #and gilear just died #and fucking fig was brainwashed #and came back?? #and riz had the most terrifying dnd encounter ever #it was so much great but insane stuff #dimension 20 #dimension 20 spoilers #d20 #d20 spoilers #dimension 20 fantasy high #d20 fantasy high #d20 fantasy high sophmore year #fantasy high #fantasy high sophomore year #zac oyama #gorgug thistlespring #zelda donovan #brennan lee mulligan #fantasy high sophmore year spoilers #fantasy high season 2 #fantasy high spoilers #im in tears #rambles #reactions #d20 reactions

[the-crisscrossed-system]

We’re still on the job hunt and we’re getting closer and closer to our deadline before basically everything goes to shit. This is so stressful and it’s fucking with us so badly. The stress of it all is triggering really weird parts, some of which have been dormant for a while, which is making it really hard to focus and pull ourselves together to keep on track. How are we supposed to pump out resumes daily when out of left field an alter that doesn’t even realize we’re in a different country takes over? Or a younger part? Or just someone a little too unwell to be productive that day.

All we want is to make this work, all we want is to be able to go back to our home state and have a stable job and not feel like a burden to our partner. Yes I know that feeling like a burden is self imposed and they actively tell us they don’t think of us like that but their mental health has gotten so much worse at this job they hate and they’ve been providing everything while we couldn’t work and we just want to return the favor. We want to do the thing and let them relax like they did for us. It just sucks. I hope things change soon.

#Dorian talks #vent post #all that said since I’m here I guess I’m pumping out resumes and maybe one will get us somewhere

[sebstagram]

i think we as a society need to appreciate pax am days more tbh

#dorian talks #fall out boy #pax am days

[mushedguts]

hello.

my names dorian. sometimes i post here. viscera and darkness enjoyer. im interested in anatomy. i enjoy literature from time to time. my favourite book is frankenstine and my favourite movie is the thing.

#dorian talks

[ficnation]

We just hit 1,5k followers 😭 I'm so happy so many of you enjoy my stories ❤️

#a/n #dorian talks

[dorianselfships]

I think the toughest part of making a self insert is to make it *true* to yourself specially when you've been through so much trauma that you kinda "missed" certain parts of your personality.

But it's also rewarding. Knowing you would be loved by your F/Os by who you are, even though some parts you're still digging to find again.

#dorian talks #self shipper #f/o community

[celestesloveletters]

the book worm urge to buy all the pretty classic covers of all the books you want.

#dark academia #dark academism #light academia #light acadamia aesthetic #the secret history #classic books #chaotic academia #the picture of dorian gray #bookblr #bookworm #I have a kindle so wtf am I talking about. #anyways #romantic academia #frankenstein #oscar wilde #poetry #writers and poets #writer things

[caeslxys]

I’ve mentioned this elsewhere but it feels relevant again in light of the most recent episode. Something that’s really fascinating to me about Orym’s grief in comparison to the rest of the hells’ grief is that his is the youngest/most fresh and because of that tends to be the most volatile when it is triggered (aside from FCG, who was two and obviously The Most volatile when triggered.)

As in: prior to the attack on Zephrah, Orym was leading a normal, happy, casual life! with family who loved him and still do! Grief was something that was inflicted upon him via Ludinus’ machinations, whereas with characters like Imogen or Ashton, grief has been the background tapestry of their entire lives. And I think that shows in how the rest of them are largely able to, if not see past completely (Imogen/Laudna/Chetney) then at least temper/direct their vitriol or grief (Ashton/Fearne/Chetney again) to where it is most effective. (There is a glaring reason, for example, that Imogen scolded Orym for the way he reacted to Liliana and not Ashton. Because Ashton’s anger was directed in a way that was ultimately protective of Imogen—most effective—and Orym’s was founded solely in his personal grief.)

He wants Imogen to have her mom and he wants Lilliana to be salvageable for Imogen because he loves Imogen. But his love for the people in his present actively and consistently tend to conflict with the love he has for the people in his past. They are in a constant battle and Orym—he cannot fathom losing either of them.

(Or, to that point, recognize that allowing empathy to take root in him for the enemy isn't losing one of them.)

It is deeply poignant, then, that Orym’s grief is symbolized by both a sword and shield. It is something he wields as a blade when he feels his philosophy being threatened by certain conversational threads (as he believes it is one of the only things he has left of Will and Derrig, and is therefore desperately clinging onto with both bloody hands even if it makes him, occasionally, a hypocrite), but also something he can use in defense of the people he presently loves—if that provocative, blade-grief side of him does not push them—or himself—away first.

(it won’t—he is as loved by the hells as he loves them. he just needs to—as laudna so beautifully said—say and hear it more often.)

#critical role #cr spoilers #bells hells #orym of the air ashari #cr meta #imogen temult #ashton greymoore #liliana temult #this is genuinely completely written in good faith as someone who loves orym #but is also about orym and so will inevitably end up being completely misconstrued and made into discourse. alas #I could talk about how Orym’s unwillingness to allow the hells to actually finish/come to a solid conclusion on Philosophy Talk #is directly connected to one of the largest criticisms of c3 (that they are constantly having these conversations) #all day. alas. engaging with orym’s flaws tends to make people upset #it is ESP prevelant when he walks off after exclaiming ‘they (vangaurd) are NOT right’ #which was not only never said but wasn’t even what they were talking about #he even admits as much to imogen like ten minutes later! that he is incapable of viewing it objectively #which is 100% justifiable and understandable but simultaneously does not make his grief alone the most important perspective in the world #also bc i fear ppl will play semantics on my tags yes the line ‘i hope she’s right’ was said but it was from ASHTON #who does not believe they are at all and wasn’t saying they actively WERE right. orym just heard something to latch onto and ran with it #ultimately there is a reason orym only admitted that he was struggling when he had stepped away to talk to dorian #who has not been around and thusly has not changed once n orym's eyes #and it isn't that the hells never check in or care. they do. they have several times over #it is dishonest to say they haven't #the actual reason is that all of this is something He Is Aware Of. he doesn't mention it bc he KNOWS it's hypocritical and selfish #he says as much! #EXHALES. @ MY OWN BRAIN CAN WE THINK ABT MOG AGAIN. FYRA RAI EVEN. FOR ME. #posting this literally at 8 in the morning so I can get my thoughts out of my brain but also attempt to immediately make this post invisibl

[ghostampede]

its been two days since i finished misfits and magic and it’s absolutely insane how i have so many insane thoughts about those four and relating to evan kelmp qnd wishing i had a friend like jammer and the accuracy and beautiful growth of k and how absolutely tastefully and sweetly sam is protrayed and how they’re so lovely but whenever i try to go more depth i just say “oh god. of fuck. they’re just little guys making a difference” and start sobbing.

anyways i love misfits and magic 10/10 dimension 20 sidequest

#dorian talks #dimension 20 #d20 #misfits and magic #d20 mismag #d20 misfits and magic #evan kelmp #sam black #k tanaka #whitney jammer #oh my god #i love them so dearly #aabriya iyengar #brennan lee mulligan #danielle radford #lou wilson #rambles

[the-crisscrossed-system]

Tw talk of death, periods, and breakdowns

Oh boy it’s been a rough past couple of days. Two members of my partner’s family died in the last five days which has been really hard for them to process, especially since we’re in a different country and there’s a low likelihood of us being able to go to any funerals or other memorials. On top of that, we’re supposed to be getting our period, which is a major consistent trigger for one alter, which isn’t convenient when we want to be there for our partner. We’re already on borrowed time with this, our period should’ve started yesterday and hasn’t, so we’re super stressed over it. And then on top of all of this, for the past 3 nights, aside from insomnia keeping me up, an alter has been having a breakdown every night keeping us from falling asleep. I know why she’s upset and I feel horrible but now is not a good time. I so badly want to be like “we have to triage” but who’s going to listen to me about that? I’m just constantly trying to keep us calm and grounded and held together until I get thrown out of the front. I don’t want to jinx it, but at least right now our loud upstairs neighbors are the least of our problems. I’m just super stressed about it all, honestly

#Dorian talks #this disorder really knows how to make things harder #tw death #tw periods #dissociative identity disorder #actually traumagenic #osddid

[sebstagram]

trying desperately not to feel pain while i try and write through this writer's block :-)

#its so fucking hard #dorian talks

[mushedguts]

opinion on gamers

i live with one. i wish he would sleep more.

#dorian talks #hes very loud when hes gaming. #i like dark souls. #so i guess im a bit of a gamer.

[ficnation]

could you do a carl grimes x male reader smut? literally any type of smut idm

I don't write smut and def not with Carl 😭

#ask box #dorian talks #anonymous

[lonely-space-egg]

#peri talks #polls #gothic literature #jekyll & hyde #phantom of the opera #the picture of dorian gray #the body snatcher #frankenstein #goth lit

[bread-wizards]

The Crown Keeper and Fearne&Orym reunion is going to be very interesting because you have Fearne, who hesitated to take the shard because of the impact seeing dark!Fearne had on her, possibly seeing Opal again.. like this. She gets a front row seat to one of her very good friends heading down that path of corruption that she herself was scared of.

Then you have the Crown Keepers just seeing the toll these last few months have had on Orym and Fearne. I wonder if there would be any guilt from Dorian, knowing he left and came back to such a drastic change.

That Orym did get the answers he was looking for and he is crumbling under the weight of them. That Fearne has had to experience so much more loss and anger in these last few months than she had in over 100 years and she still doesn't know what to do with some of these feelings.

#cr spoilers #critical role #cr3 #text post #orym #fearne #opal #dorian #crown keepers #its always weird when you see someone again for the first time in a long time and you can barely recognise them anymore #25 words is just not enough to get across everything that happened #on the plus side #morrighan knows nana morri so she can talk to fearne about that #i hope they become friends i think the vibes would be great with them

[jorvikzelda]

When I first played Minecraft, I pretty quickly learned how to craft two things: wood from logs and sticks from wood. I didn’t learn how to craft anything else. My inventory was full of sticks. Knowing next to nothing about the game, I assumed the world was round, and so in my first ever world I set out on a mission to walk around the globe and get back to my spawn point. I played on peaceful mode because I was terrified of the monsters. In hindsight, this might have been in part because with my inventory full of sticks, I was rather defenceless against them, but I also just preferred to keep my long, long walk calm and quiet - nothing but my footsteps, the beautiful view, and the music. I walked through day after day, biome after biome: countless sunrises and sunsets, endless rain and snowfall, tall mountaintops and long, winding rivers. Then one day, I fell into a deep, deep hole in the ground. By some miracle, despite having no armor, I survived.

My inventory was full of sticks.

#minecraft #i told this story on dorians stream but i. i think it deserves the time of day on my actual blog #and no I never made it out from the hole #I started a new save after that #I didn’t know how to craft ladders either #not that I think they would’ve helped much…. the hole’s edges weren’t very even. hard to climb up #I tried to dig a staircase up but do you know how long it takes to break stone with STICKS? a long ass time #z talks