midnight lovers
pairing: sugawara koushi x fem!reader
content warnings: written with chubby reader in mind, reader’s hair is long enough to be tied up (colour, texture, etc. is not mentioned), roommates to lovers, fluff, kissing, some suggestive parts - (light choking), mentions of food, one (1) very mean and aggressive guy, koushi is ready to fight.
word count: approx. 3.5k
these were the nights you loved the most.
a fortuitous meet-up in the kitchen at 11:00pm between two roommates, unsuspecting of what’s to come later in the night.
it was one of those kinds of nights.
neither of you could sleep, though, it didn’t bother you. you just had to find a way to occupy yourselves. feeling quite hungry, you propose going to the super market for a late night snack spree. suga happily agrees. you don’t bother changing out of your pajamas, and neither does he. you, in your oversized shirt and sleeping shorts, and koushi, in a white wife-beater and plaid navy blue pants.
within 5 minutes, you’re in suga’s car, pulling into the dark and empty parking lot. on any other day, this parking lot would be scary, and much too anxiety-inducing to even walk past. but tonight, with suga, it felt so right.
the minute your enter the store, you’re already going separate ways.
“drinks?” suga asks.
“yep. snacks. meet me in the frozen desserts section in five.”
“alright, see ya.”
four minutes roll buy, and you’ve collected all that you need, so you head over to the frozen aisle a minute early to scout the possible treats to choose from before koushi comes to meet you. eyeing the many different varieties of popsicles, ice cream flavours and cakes, you try and decide what it is that you’re the most in the mood for. usually, you would’ve chosen ice cream in a heartbeat. but tonight didn’t feel like an ice cream kind of night. you sigh and ultimately conclude that you’d have to consult suga when he got to you.
you stand there for a good 45 seconds before he spots you. your back is turned to him, and he sees you sigh. it’s a cute sight, he thinks. your hair is up, and your shirt’s collar is so stretched out, it falls, resting just below your shoulder. you’re wearing your slippers and fluffy socks, and carrying quite a few boxes. you’re practically cradling the snacks in your arms as though they were your babies. he chuckles lightly and advances towards you, holding out a shopping basket in order for you to place your items inside, along with the drinks he picked out. you sound relieved as you dump everything inside. koushi then takes a look at all that you grabbed and gives you an approving nod.
you turn back towards the freezers,
“it doesn’t feel like an ice cream kind of night...” you voice your thoughts from earlier.
“true... kinda vibing with the popsicles” he responds.
“you read my mind.”
“should we just get the assorted ones?” he asks
you nod and open the door to grab the box, then proceed to make your way to the cash, suga following shortly behind.
the cashier offers you a smile and greets you when you get there. you don’t notice the look he gives suga.
but koushi definitely sees the way the cashier was looking at you.
“late night spree, i’m guessing?” he inquires.
“oh, yes.” you say with a smile as you load the items onto the conveyor belt.
suga stands still, holding the basket out to you as you converse with the man. he stares at him, piercing glare never wavering. the man’s smile may be pretty but, lord if it wasn’t recognizable. sugawara was never one to judge someone by their looks, but he knew the type.
and you. how sweet you are, completely oblivious to the way the cashier is blatantly checking you out. licking his lips, dragging his half-lidded gaze from your face, to your collar-bones and shoulder, to your legs. he’s nodding along to what your saying, but koushi spots the way the man’s eyebrows jump up a bit at the sight of your legs. hell, he hasn’t removed his eyes from them since the minute he first saw them. in fact, he’s so entranced, he doesn’t realize that you’ve finished loading all your items, and that you’re ready to pay. it’s now that you notice his stare. feeling incredibly uncomfortable, you take a cautious step back, and clasp your hands together at your stomach in an attempt to ease your distress.
suga’s always wanted laser vision growing up, but he’s never dreamed of it so badly as he did right now. he fantasizes of many situations, all of which involve very violent acts towards the cashier in question. gods, he wants to knock his teeth out.
but he doesn’t. instead, he lets out,
“excuse you, but i’d like to pay now.” suga says in the coldest tone you’ve ever heard from him.
the guy gets defensive instantly, and looks at koushi in disdain. he has no shame in his response.
“the fuck d’you say to me?”
“you heard me, keep your filthy eyes off of my girl, and let me pay.”
you blush at the way he addresses you, but think nothing more of it, knowing he’s only defending you and putting on an act. if anything, you found it endearing, how he would take it as far as to call you his girlfriend in order to protect you.
the cashier says nothing for a couple seconds, and it essentially turns into a staring match, one daring the other to say something else.
suga wins.
the guy behind the counter looks away, feigning indifference when he says,
“whatever, she’s probably a slut anyways.”
koushi takes a breath, ready to yell, scream, jump over the conveyor belt and strangle the guy, but before he can do anything, a woman who you can only assume is the manager, wearing a bright red button-down vest and laminated name tag, cuts in.
“is everything okay over here?”
you see her side-eye her employee as he responds in a brief and clipped tone,
“fine. we’re fine.” he says
though, all she needs is one look at you to know that everything was not, in fact, fine. she turns to you and suga, sympathy written all over her face,
“i’m so sorry for any inconveniences, it won’t happen again. your items are free of charge.”
before either of you can respond, she’s calling him into her office in stern tone you’d never wish to be on the receiving end of.
the walk back to the car is silent, and the quiet ensues as you enter. he sits in the driver’s seat with his hands on the wheel, you in the passenger seat with bated breath. you hands twiddle, unsure of what to say. you didn’t want him to be angry.
“i should go back there and punch him.” he breaks the silence.
“no. no, i really don’t think you should.”
“but-”
“it was fucked. i know, but it’s okay. you were there with me. i’m safe.” you try to reassure him.
“he made you upset”
“and it happens. some guys are shit. it sucks, but it’s the way the world works. we’ll contact the managers tomorrow and make sure he gets fired if it makes you feel better? i’ll even put on my best crying voice, just for you. make it real dramatic, he’ll be out of there in no time.” you say.
at this, he lets out a breath that sounds like a chuckle, but it’s short-lived.
“i really want to go back there. fuck, no one should ever speak to you like that. or even look at you like that. you don’t deserve that shit.” he says, exasperated.
“please, let’s just go. c’mon, we’ll go on a drive or something.” you try to sway him.
“okay, you’re right, i’m sorry.”
there’s a pause. though, it only lasts for about ten seconds until he’s up and out of the car, taking the snacks with him and walking towards the back of the store. extremely confused, you’re quick to follow him.
“w-where are you going?” you ask, tripping on your slippers a little as you jog to catch up to him.
“i’m taking you to my favourite spot.” he responds, as he locks the car without stopping or turning around.
“oh, great. woulda been nice of you to tell me the plan before putting it into action, or whatever, but that’s cool.” you say sarcastically.
“doesn’t matter, i knew you’d follow me anyways.”
you don’t say anything back, knowing he’s absolutely, one-hundred percent right.
he leads you to the back of the store, which was very shady, figuratively and literally. there was a single functioning light bolted to the brick wall of the store. you watched as dozens of little mosquitos and moths fluttered and flickered about it, bumping off the cracked plastic panes which enclosed the bulb. he led you a little farther down the alley, past the light and into the darkness. you could barely see him, so you decided to follow the sounds of his footsteps... until they stopped. naturally, you stopped walking too and looked around, though you were met with nothing but more darkness.
“this.... is your favourite spot?” you question cautiously.
he laughs,
“no, yn. give me your hand.”
you struggle to find him in the dark, so he hold his hand out to meet yours.
ever so gently, he wraps his grip around your wrist, and leads your hand to the wall. it lands on something very cold and rusty and metal. he lets you feel around for a couple seconds.
“a ladder.” you say with a smile. of course, you thought to yourself. of course, it’s a ladder.
he gets up first, and uses his phone’s flashlight (finally) to show you where and where not to step as you follow. it doesn’t take long before you’re up and on the roof. it was glorious. this high up, you could see all the lights. street lights and store lights, lamp-posts and car lights. he walks over to a small hidden box, and opens it up to reveal several fluffy blankets.
“and now, we have all that we need!” he exclaims.
“how’d you even find this place? s’ not very often that you find easy access to the roof of a building like this.” you ask, still admiring the view.
he notices you shiver. the wind was much more apparent up here, so he begins setting up the blankets to form a sort of nest for you guys to sit and hangout as he tells you how his friend had once dared him to explore the back alley as a joke when they were all hanging out in the parking lot one night. that’s when he found the ladder. he called his friends over to check it out and they dared him 2,500 yen to try and climb it. seeing how rusty it was, they didn’t actually expect him to do it. it looked as though it would crumble under the weight of a feather, but still, he went on with the dare.
the result was a nice hangout spot and a couple extra yen in his pocket.
“do you know if anyone else comes up here?” you ask.
“not that i know of. that ladder may just be enough to shake off anyone attempting to get up here. if it weren’t for the dare, i never would have even attempted to climb something like that! it looked like it would break any second. that’s why, afterwards, i made sure to memorize where to step when climbing it” he explains.
“awe, look at you with your sneaky little spy moves. you could be secret agent, y’know. you’re very agile.”
he chuckles “thanks, but i think i’m good.”
by this point, he’s finished setting up the blankets so you go to join him. he sets out all the snacks, chips, cookies, iced tea, popsicles.
you both sit there, as if you were the only two people in the world. it surely felt like it, snacking, talking, sharing secrets, reminiscing.
“so, any pretty people worth talking about? you crushin’ on anyone?”
you ask with a giggle and a smile, though, deep inside, you’re desperately praying that he says no. you’ve liked him for far too long, and seen him fawn over far too many people to know that his type isn’t you. but even so, you can’t help but ask every once in a while.
“um, actually, yeah.” he admits slowly. shyly.
you’re quiet for a while. he’s never been apprehensive in admitting his feelings about anyone. especially not to you.
could that mean he really likes this person?
could he love them?
“oh.” is how you respond. you try not to look or sound disappointed, but he knows you all too well. it’s not difficult to figure out that something’s bothering you. not when you go quiet, and certainly not when you look out on the horizon, obviously avoiding his gaze.
he’s watching you. you know it.
from the corner of your eye, you see him staring at you, a slight frown on his forehead as he tries to figure you out.
koushi knows you can see him.
he also knows that you’re purposefully avoiding his eyes in an attempt to evade the rest of the conversation. hoping that if enough time passes in silence, he’ll let it go and the topic will have been forgotten. but he doesn’t let it go. you’re acting strange, and he’d like to know why.
do you like someone too?
or do you already know that he likes you?
that thought makes his heart stop. could that be why you’re looking away? the last thing he wants to do is make you uncomfortable or ruin your friendship.
do you not feel the same?
he purses his lip, disallowing his bottom lip and chin to quiver and concentrates on the burning in his tear-ducts, willing it to go away.
you finally turn your face back to him after a long while. he’s thankful that it’s dark enough that you can’t see the glassy shine in his eyes.
you speak very quietly when you ask him,
“do you love them?”
his breath is practically taken away. did you really know? was he so obvious?
the air around both of you suddenly feels heavy.
he doesn’t want to be dishonest with you, so instead of giving you a ‘yes’ or a ‘no’ he asks,
“how long have you known?”
“known what?” you question back.
he hates that you’re making him say it out loud, but if this is how your friendship ends, he’d much rather be open and clear about it.
“that i’m in love with you.”
you’d never seen him so look helpless. he looked like a kicked puppy, and it honestly shattered your heart.
“how long have you known?” he asks.
confused, you question back,
“known what?”
he pauses before answering in the most dejected voice,
“that i’m in love with you.”
surely, you heard that wrong. surely, he couldn’t be talking about you. he must be joking. messing with you, as friends do. you wait for the punchline. you wait for him to say anything, but he doesn’t. it’s then, when you realize that he’s serious. it’s also then when you realize how long you’ve gone without responding to him.
when you finally process it all, you look to him, but he’s no longer sitting cross-legged on the blanket beside you. no, he’s curled in on himself, head ducked into his arms, resting on his knees.
he took your silence for rejection.
“oh, my love. my angel, no, nonono, it’s okay. please, it’s okay.” you rush to his side clumsily, your blanket still wrapped around your shoulders as you caress his curved back before making your way to his front, trying to take his face into your hands.
he keeps his eyes scrunched shut, hard, as he tries to turn his head to keep you from holding it.
his lips turned downwards as he lets out,
“no. don’t wanna ruin what we have. please, don’t wanna hear it. i already know.”
there’s a pause, and he takes a deep breath. with his eyes still closed, he repeats,
“i already know..” he sounds defeated.
“please, koushi. look at me.” you beg gently, stroking his tear-stained cheeks with your thumbs.
he gives in. of course he does. he’d do anything for you.
when his eyes peel open, they’re watery and red. he looks so vulnerable as his lips quiver. fresh tears threaten to fall as he realizes once again that this is probably the end.
“do you mean it?” you ask.
he didn’t think his heart could break further.
he nods without breaking eye contact. he looks from one eye to the other, searching your face for something. anything. he has no idea what you’re thinking, or what to take from this whole mess.
finally, you let out a breath, though it sounds more like a sob. his brows furrow slightly, in hope and confusion. you drop your forehead and rest it against his, palms still cupping his cheeks.
“i’ve loved you for so fucking long, koushi..”
lips quivering and eyebrows furrowed, a breath of relief and disbelief stumbles from his lips. it’s shaky, and he lifts his head to look into your eyes, searching for a lie, for pity. but he sees none of it.
“you have?” he asks, as if he can’t believe it.
you nod, with a small smile, “i really have. and i do. i couldn’t even tell you because...” you trail off, just the idea of it making your chest feel tight.
“because?” he urges you to continue
“i thought you were in love with someone else!” you cry as the tears finally roll down your cheek.
“fuck, baby, im so sorry.” he out breathily.
“no, don’t apologize. you couldn’t have known.”
“i should have been more obvious. or.. fuck, i shoulda just told you. you mean everything to me, baby. i shoulda just told you.”
“it’s okay.” you whisper, kissing his eyelids. you pull back to look into his eyes once more. “you’re my favourite person in the whole world. you make my heart happy and i couldn’t fathom a life without you in it. i’m sorry it took so long for me to tell you. i didn’t want to risk losing you because you’re so so special to me. i never thought that you could want me.”
“i’ve wanted you ever since i’ve known you.” he responds. there’s a silent moment where you’re both just looking into each other's eyes. lips parted, breaths mixing. his eyes dart down to your lips.
“can i kiss you?” he asks in a whisper. you can only nod.
it’s nothing like the movies. his lips don’t rush to yours, and there’s no clashing of teeth.
not yet, at least.
he’s careful in the way his lips approach yours. when they meet, it’s soft, but there’s an unmistakable desperation. he tastes sweet, the remnant juices from the watermelon flavoured popsicle he had earlier still on his lips.
he’s holding back, but still, he’s slow in his movements. his hands snake to your cheeks holding your face firmly. the backs of his fingers then drag down the sides of your neck. his left hand stays at your neck, placing itself there, while the other continues it’s tantalizing path. his other hand moves down your exposed shoulder, down the length of your arm, then back up, just to make it’s way down to your waist. the kiss never falters. not on his part.
he’s wanted this for so long. and you have too, but god, he’s making it hard to stay focused.
you whimper slightly into the kiss, the feeling of his hands on your body so much and not enough all at once.
he can’t help himself. his left hand, the one on your neck, experimentally winds itself around the column of your throat, squeezing ever-so slightly. he’s testing the waters. your breath only stops. not from the little pressure he applies, no, but from how weak you feel. you’ve never seen him like this. and you’ve never felt like this.
he pulls away ever so slightly. he’s stopped kissing you for now, but his lips haven’t travelled too far.
“is this okay?” you’re so close his bottom lip brushes against yours as he asks the question.
“yes. yes, please.” he brings his lips back to yours. he’s not holding back so much this time, using his grip on your neck to pull you closer. to deepen the kiss.
“you’re so perfect.” he whispers into your mouth. you can only tangle your hands into his hair.
you stay like that for a while, whispering to each other, kissing each other. proclaiming your love for each other and making up for all the time lost. for the years you spent pretending to be friends. roomates. best friends, when you were truly so much more than that. you were soulmates.
midnight lovers.
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