#so thats probably not an issue

[be-good-to-bugs]

2022

#tw sh #tw self harm #ive felt unsure of posting art like this but. i really like it and think its nice. around 2 years ago i noticed a big push by people to #attack people who make vent art or even just gore art and ive been a bit scared to post anything like that sbit i dont see it anymore #i think it was a pretty short lived thing but i was personally attacked (different blog) and its kinda scared me from doing it #but i like these drawings. its just like all my other stuff but it has sh in it. im working through a recent relapse rn #im also worried abt making any followers uncomfortable but if they dont wanna see sh art then they should already have the tag blocked #so thats probably not an issue #tw gore #idk if id even call this vent art. im not sad or anything. im just trying to deal with it in a calm way #sorry. ill stop talking now #orbs art #thinking of inking these but idk. its nothing new but i just really like them

[obsob]

there he is......the man of the house

#mine #ough hello not posted in a while!! #im busy doin portfolio stuff so . not much cat drawinign going on THO i will. hopefully do one tomorrow hehe #i was gna get stickers for my next shop update but its hurting me head so. gna order new prints hopefully!! this week and then #do stickers n postcards next time. i am so low on stock sihfdkggwe #need 2 buy envelopes also....my least favourite thing 2 spend money on #what hve i been up to ....i made a blanket!! maybe i will post picture. it was gna b a cardigan i started it like last year #n then i went 2 sew it together n was like. this pattern is insane also this wool is too thick so. blanky :) #its very good. good lap blanket!! #what else what else....been re reading lotr. im reading it on ebook i lov ebook sm. i love printed books but i jus absolutely cannot #read them. dyslexia gang rise up !!!! #im reading it so much quicker tho n also actually remembering it ....would die for gimli #also started rewatching cr2 >:) i dont . actually like th new campaign so KSDFKJDN rewatch it is #even tho i dont like molly. not that thats gna b an issue for long sifubshbhebwj #im so seepy...so cold.....gna rest now probably n play skyrim hehe #cat drawings tomorrow >:) #okay bye

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Howdy's rainbow suspenders.

thank you for coming to my Ted Talk-

#im so mad i didnt notice On Stream hnggggg #characters who have rainbows associated with them: eddie / frank / sally / now howdy as well #please refer to eddie's tie. the butterfly on frank's door. sally's house. howdy's suspenders. thankyew #HE'S FRUITY! I SWEAR TO GOD #listen . Listen. #'oh the filters/light is just affecting the black-' #okay then why is frank wearing black thats entirely unaffected. why is barnaby's nose unaffected. why is howdy's BELT unaffected #why are the colors on his suspenders in Blatant Rainbow Order. #huh. explain it to me. make it make sense other than HE'S QUEER? HOWDY PILLAR LOVES MEN I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL #AND YOU'RE DYING ON IT WITH ME- #ok ok. sorry. normal. im Normal #godddd i just. That Image. from the commercial comp #the way he has a bit of a prominent blush. the way he's leaning towards barn. the rainbow suspenders #absolutely unprompted #howdy pillar #the way that the only times we've gotten something of howdy Without barn making an appearance was #the howdy-sally / howdy-eddie / howdy-poppy / that one makeship ad #laughingstock is so real. oh its so real- #(probably one-sided or barn just has some internalized issues to work through - or they both do - but. But.) #hey! put the gun away! i dont need to be put down! i swear im mentally stable! #im So mentally stable? ive been in the trenches since day one? #wh. what do you mean thats... huh? shhh dont worry about it im fine we're fine and i called it months ago- PUT THE GUN DOWN #anyway no i havent just been staring at that housewarming image. no i havent. Swearsies

[faeofdusk]

OC havers please vote and share, I want to check something

#oc stuff #original characters #poll #writing poll #oc poll #glasses #I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO TAG IT SO PEOPLE CAN SEE IT UUUH #this will probably flop anyways I have like 50 followers and half of them are inactive #the other half is bots probably #anyway I'm making thise because I realized recently that????? none of my ocs?????) use glasses????????????? #i need glasses why none of my ocs do i project literally every trait of mine onto them #thats weird wtf #not even orion (my sona) uses glasses #I'm. Huh. #anyway i want to see if that's a common issue or if im just a freak like that

[rapidhighway]

i NEEDED to redraw these panels from archie idk this little part was just soo good, mwah! Also I used this as an inking exercise :3

#i dont remember which issue it was lmfaoo #80 something probably.. #archie sonic #redraw #sonic fanart #knuckles the echidna #idk man that text as just so raw i was like DAMNN thats so good! #also i really love studying archie pages because of the colors like i should learn from them tbh dfregfsgfdf #im uhhh WORKING on my inking like idk theres something i dont like about it #i still have poor control #i guess i just need to practice oh well 😞😔

[guildling]

i appreciate him very much

#fiona and cake spoilers #fiona and cake #i love shermy a lot hes such a silly guy And i would love to know more about shermy and beths story also this is like one of the only parts #i really really liked… the finale makes sense and i did like the ending scenes with all those flowers Very pretty but it was very anti #climatic :( i still like the series for what it did and what they managed to put out there though:) ty f&c crew #edit i take that back It was a very good ending but it must be hell for petri//grof shippers lmao #i think im just going to keep documenting my thoughts about ths ending here anyways i think my main issue with the series as a whole is def #the pacing. f&c was definitely a different experience that at with how they paced there episodes and i think thats one of my favorite thing #s about the main series #how they manged to fit so much into so little time and how it didnt feel rushed at all #i feel if f&c just got two more episodes i would be completely satisfied with it . and also if we got to see prime finn & marcy more than #once. they leave a lot of open ends for things incase they get to make a series about it and i do think we’re probably getting more content #in the future due to that apple end credits thing #many many thoughts

[mamawasatesttube]

sometimes i think about how many comics i still have yet to read but really do wanna get to and i just .

...and yet part of me still goes hey. what if we reread superboy (1994)

#rimi talks #this isnt even everything i wanna read...... outsiders. that john henry list that arthur gave me. many others #theres also part of me thats like. what if i go open action comics at issue 1 and just fucking go #one of these days i will probably snap and do that. who am i kidding #but god GOD theres so many comics i want to read....... ive barely gotten a drop in the bucket

[camels-pen]

the difference between zosopp and sanuso (romantic OR platonic) is that Usopp is Zoro's specialest little guy and Zoro is someone Usopp hangs out with and looks up to and hides behind when things get scary, but Sanji and Usopp are best friends. They horse around, they beat each other up, they confide their worst fears trying to one up each other. Usopp hides behind Sanji sometimes, sure, but idk, Sanji's weaknesses are more obvious (bugs, fighting women, etc) so there are times when Usopp has to stand in front of Sanji too, yknow?

Like, how do I say this, all the crewmates are equal- Usopp and Zoro are equals- but with Sanji it feels like more... comradery? Zoro's a rock in a terrible storm- even rocks tend to get weathered and chipped and worn down, but they overall stay strong and steady. He has trouble being vulnerable and there are times when the burden he's placed on himself to keep the crew safe is crushing his chest. Usopp would help with that and be very understanding, but the point I'm trying to get with that is that those moments are few and far between. So I feel like Usopp, especially after Water 7, would take Zoro's lead on something like that, and keep most of his worries to himself or only talk about them sparingly unless they're really bad and/or he can't hide them.

Sanji is like a tree in a storm; he can be strong, yes, but it feels like he bends and sways with the storm, and has more obvious breaking points. He can relate more to Usopp's struggles rather than resorting to blunt honesty that might border on callous like Zoro. And while, with Zosopp, I tend to think of scenarios with Zoro being blunt like that as a good thing- because sometimes when you're spiraling, it's nice to have someone say exactly what's great about you and shoot down all your worries with straight facts that you can't argue with- I can also see this as being a bad thing. Anxiety can really twist up your brain sometimes, you know? And despite the words, the tone could still mess someone up if they're already feeling like a burden on others in some way.

With Sanuso it's a lot more understanding and thoughtful words. It's distractions and comfort food and patience- the kind reserved for Usopp- until Usopp talks about whatever's troubling him. Compared to Zosopp, it doesn't take as long for Usopp to open up, since he's done the same thing to Sanji at times and it's more familiar to him to talk and commiserate with Sanji about his worries and doubts and such. However, there are times stuff like this has absolutely no effect and Sanji will end up at a loss, no idea what to do or how to help over the course of several days with Usopp being quiet and keeping his distance, and he'll end up working himself up about it which will only serve to make Usopp feel worse and. yeah. bit of a vicious cycle with them.

So it's like. Usopp can be weak with both of them, but since I see Sanji as the type of guy who'd be more open with his worries (at least compared to Zoro), there's less of a need to 'perform' and be his best self around him. He's comfortable around Zoro, yes, but he is constantly wanting to show that he won't be a problem to him. On the other hand, while he's more open with Sanji, and Sanji with him, they tend to relate a bit too much with each other and they both have issues with causing trouble for others and being 'deserving of love' so failed attempts at consoling one hurts the other and creates an unpleasant cycle of misery and avoidance before some other crewmate (Zoro) tells them to quit being stupid and just fucking talk to each other.

#one piece #sanuso #zosopp #long post #nemotime #does this make sense or is this the ramblings of a person who's only got 3 hrs sleep #bc thats me. 3 hrs sleep. ugh #listen okay its like. zosopp has their own growing pains to get through yknow? zoro will eventually get the whole #'oh usopp isnt as open with me bc he wants to seem tough and is also kind of doing the same thing i do. thats bad for him' #and it'll be a whole thing about making a promise between the two of them to try and be more honest with their fears and seeking help #when they need it #the sanuso thing is like. i hope i didnt mean to make it seem like sanuso is 'better' or w/e bc its just a different thing #sanuso got their own problems to sort out. 1. Sanji's everything 2. boundaries on special treatment- #i'm not gonna go seriously into this but both relationships start out not the best and get better over time yknow #also i know usopp's afraid and freaking out a lot but for this post i meant his deeper fears and insecurities #not 'i've got can't-go-on-this-island disease' lmao #the tl;dr of this post is: Usopp is more closed off with Zosopp. Usopp and Sanji have similar issues that cause problems with Sanuso. #also the way i see these ships will probably change at some point. who knows #there was a post i saw recently that was like 'hey sanuso bc romance trio were already chill with each other so sanuso became chill with #each other in an 'alone together' type of way and also they have the same issues' and i thought 'wow so true bestie' and here we are #also. man. usopp taking on / copying the behaviours of his loved ones regardless of his age is just. my jam. in a positive or negative way #maybe i'll make a post about that explaining it more. maybe

[naturecalls111]

on liking girls

#comic #vent art #other fandoms #the fandom is my personal life LMAO #I had posted this on twitter and deleted it because it was vent art from back in like. Ohhh I forget. Must have been january #Like I had just had my birthday and I don't know what it was but something made me realise like #oh. I haven't come out to my parents #like it's Been a minute I probably should right #and my parents are like. the best in the world I say that with my whole chest #my sexuality is not something they would ever care about let alone judge me for #like they have so many gay friends OBJECTIVELY I KNOW THIS IS A NON ISSUE LOL #but I don't know. something about it DOES feel dangerous and I can barely come to terms with it #I hate the idea of making it a "thing'. does that make sense #i don't want it to be a “thing” #I don't want them to tell me they'll love me no matter what and that this doesn't change anything #I don't want to have to subject them to feel like I'm “opening up” and then Have to respond like that #I wish it felt like as natural of an integration as someone is being straight you know #i wish it was: i come home with the prettiest girl in the world (she is the prettiest because she is my girlfriend) and they're just like #“hi! so nice to meet you! lets sit for tea!” #and thats it no questions asked. my mom or dad wouldn't ask “why didnt you tell us?” does that make sense #This is why none of my highschool friends know either #i'll tell them if they ask but I don't want to make a performance of Telling Them #I don't. Owe them that #I don't owe anyone a heads up. I don't want to. I don't want to make it A Thing #It's a Me thing. I don't get why it has to be turned into a You thing. #also hi if you havent seen my face i look like That LOL

[strangesickness]

i think my favorite part of IT chapter two is when eddie crashes his car. like it kind of has everything. eddie insane road rage <3. eddie being a bit of a dick "it's my job to assess risks", it has "i love you mommy" which makes me want to jump off a bridge. eddie gesturing wildly instead of holding onto the wheel. his stupid fucking "edward kaspbrak speaking" <3 the face he makes when he's talking to mike lol. like he's expecting the car display to change. "EDDIE! are you okay?" "yeah! i'm pretty good."

#this of course isn't even mentioning how the phone calls might be my favorite part of the film in general... #richie being a loser <3 #patty <3 #bev throwing shit at tom <3 #ben in his fucking zoom meetings... <3 #bill being kind of the worst guy in the world and also bad at his job <3 #its hard to choose a fav scene tho... i'm still not over “probably like he was as a kid... the best” and the jade o h my god the jade #and when richie kills henry and when eddie stabs henry #also incredibly normal about the leper scene tbh... #also enjoyed when mike drugged bill and also their stupid “i love you”'s at the end #this movie has a lot of duds for me (i fucking hate adrian's death scene but thats more of an issue with king than the film #i also hate the barrens scene and the two dead children scenes are very meh to me. also not a fan of the pennywise fight because my EYES #why are there so many flashing lights... i have to close my eyes for half that scene because it gives me a headache) #but is overall sooooo silly <3

[klonoadoortophantomile]

mother 3 birthday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#colors looksuper fucked up compared to how they were on my ipad hopefully thats just an issue on my end <//3 #i feel like this is super generic but whatever i wanted to draw smthn for today nd this is what i came up w #plus my sister was bound to see the drawing at some point nd i dont want her to get spoiled (shes playing thru it rn loll) so probably #better that this is sorta vague #RAHGGHRGHGJHGFJ i dont know what to sayyyyyy #my thoughts on this game change like everyday its crazy #scribbles #mother series #mother 3 #probably not tagging anything else okay byeee

[sinfuego]

Tbh, nothing has made me sympathize more with Kipperlilly Copperkettle than her anger issues.

Cause anger is an emotion we feel when we're missing something. When we need something and can't get it. It's a balm to make us feel better when things don't go our way.

When things aren't fair.

#d20 #dimension 20 #d20 fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #d20 spoilers #fhjy #fantasy high spoilers #of course just cause you feel like things are unfair doesnt mean they actually are #and the reason why its an anger issue is cause the anger has befome detrimental #its warped from being somethjng to comfort you when you feel powerless to a tool you use against others when you fedl slighted #part of why anger issues are so hard to overcome is cause of how good it feels in the moment #even if you feel terrible guilt afterwards #the catharsis of releasing anger can be such a relief #that you dont even realise youve started looking for reasons to be angry #youre listing things that are terrible with the world just so you can feel better by getting angry at them #things like capitalism and people who bullied you and how your boss is a terrible racist #things that everyone can get angry over #until they get more personal and warps your judgment #“my boss called a group of immigrant a bunch of racial slurs” “his secretary was there too she can back me up” #“when i brought it up with her she says she wasnt payjng attention or something” “shes peobably racist too and thats why he hired her” #it becomes easier to make jumps like that instead of giving people the benefit of the doubt #easier to justify your anger with the smallest slights #until youre yelling at a pedestrian whe. you almost ran them over #“sure it was a red light but they shouldve paid attention and seen me coming too” #anyways this is all to say kipperlilly probably has some issues to deal with #idk if shes actually behind this plot or if shes being manipulated #doesmt stop her from being a total dick tho #but it does make me a little more sympathetic to her

[itsjaywalkers]

guys i got home really late and . kinda drunk . so my friend convinced me to call in sick tomorrow (i've never done it not even when i was actually sick) so i texted my manager, the one who's on shift tomorrow and i'm hoping for the best........... wish me luck?

#i'm gonna set my alarm at like 8 . just in case . #bc i was supposed to do the open tomorrow #thats the only reason why im calling in sick #any other shift i would've done without much issue #but theres no way im going in at 9am when its almost 3am rn and im still trying to sober up #just so i can go to sleep #this one manager is lovely and we get along well so im hoping she'll be fine with it #she probably knows its bc of the hangover and not bc im actually sick but #im not the first one whos called in sick bc of a hangover and i wont be the last #my other manager went out with us tonight and she also got super drunk and im her favourite so im hoping she'll back me up #WE'LL SEE #i just wanna rest properly tomorrow and SLEEP and maybe write too.. #is that so much to ask for..

[s0fter-sin]

when midoriya punches the zero pointer at the entrance exam, all might says “show who you are, embody what it means to be a true hero, nothing is nobler than self sacrifice” do you think aizawa heard kill bill sirens

#he said that very loud and very confidently #i hold true to the hc that midoriya is so reckless due to his horrific self worth from being quirkless #but a good chunk of it is definitely bc of all might #who through his own issues encourages his self isolation and the worth of his power and what he can do with it over midoriya himself #and then you have aizawa who has spent his entire teaching career hammering home that living is just as important as saving someone #all might nedzu and probably everyone else in the room saw that as a heroic moment #midoriya saved uraraka with an unbelievable move with no reward for himself #aizawa is the only one that sees a kid break three out of four of his limbs and plummet to the earth with no plan to save himself #if uraraka hadnt managed to hit him he wouldve at the very least shattered his other arm #he very easily couldve died #and aizawas the only one that notices #thats why he grills him during the ball throw #he says midoriya cant be a hero bc being one will lead to him killing himself if he doesnt change #bc he saw a kid that would destroy himself at every given chance to help someone else #and hes the only one that realises how wrong that is #its been a minute since ive watched this scene and damn it hits a bit different now #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #go beyond plus ultra #aizawa shouta #midoriya izuku #deku #all might #bnha #mha #save post

[flamboyant-king]

Hey babes, sorry I've been dead, but I coulda been literally dead if I had not gone.

I didn't hurt myself and we're still figuring things out. I would love to share but I've already forgotten what I've learned. I hope I get more guidance and time for healing and learning on how to lead my life in a better direction than where I was. But that takes time and effort.

I hope to get some rest, get some support, and get it together. But right now, I don't think it's healthy for me to worry about art in the way I do now. I may not express it here, but trying to maintain my art endeavors/projects while there's so much bullshit going on backstage is not helping me. Especially since I'm not even obligated to do so. But trying to force myself to do something I am currently unable to do will just make me feel worse. I'll follow my dreams and passions one day, but I've been putting off the healing process for years.

So I guess it's better to get better now so I can get the ball rolling again. Why drive on a flat tire?

#i was in there for a week and ill continue partial hospitalization for a few weeks #i hope i learn more and i hope i get specific help to my issues. because whay i learned there didnt directly pertain to me #but having structured daily life felt nice. but it wasnt all relaxing because there were still responisibilites on the outside world #tapping on the window or calling me on the phone. chose the best time for a meltdown. i have taxes and credit card bills to take care of #but if i stress about it now ill jsut be going back to the ER and thats no good. the hospital was so cold dude im glad im home with blankets #this is mr octopus again. im glad i broguh hom to work. i went straight to er from work and if i had no plushie with me #i probably would have stayed longer or be even more mentally unstable and distressed. its good to have comfort items #i dont think i want to know ehat if be like without some kind of companion or grounding item with me. i dont want to imagine me without em #its okay to have a little friend with you. i would be so distraught. everyone loved me there #the nurses the patients the residents yhe social workers the students #mr. octopus made them happy because of his big smile and mine too. the people there did not expect the mass amoutns of stress and depression #in this bubbly happy baby witb a happy pink octopus. one of the patients thought it was the meds the happy pills they gave me #no im jsut naturally like this. or artificially like this. i still dont know how to express or understand my feelings #if what im showing is real or not because i know ill be the happiest in the room wherever i go. maybe its a front or a mask #but when im like that kinda hard to know whats really underneath. they always ask me if im okay but i turn to myself #and its nondescript like ive put a blanket over how i really feel. its weird. the bubbly energy is blinding. #words #mr octopus #mental health #doodles

[indulgnc]

totally off topic but. i invested in some nice earplugs and they came in today and oh my goodness. im in autism heaven rn i never realized how at ease i could be. or how loud?? everything was??? like this is wonderful. 🥹

#only issue is my ears are itchy but ill cope #i also took. an anxiety med thats an antihistamine (atarax if you know it) so im probably a little more chilled out #but thatll put me to sleep and the antihistamine part wont hurt #but im so relaxed. i had a really shitty day today #ptsd shit lol #but im so happy now the world is so quiet i didnt even know. if could be like this . 🥹 #the earplug brand is ‘loop’ btw!! they were expensive but i already am so excited to just wear them its so nice sensory wise. #expensive for earplugs at least but yea #text