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slayfics · 2 months

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Hii babes can I get a Katsuki comforts a self-conscious reader if you can do plus size that’s amazing if not it’s okay thehe

Katsuki explodes your insecurities.

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You let out a heavy sigh as you got ready, brushing your hair in the mirror. Every so often you’d have one of those days where your hair looked hideous no matter what you did with it.

That was just something everyone dealt with from time to time, and usually you could brush it off and keep moving. However, today wasn’t proving to be so kind.

The longer you messed with your hair in the mirror, the more you felt dissatisfied with your appearance. Today all your flaws seemed to be screaming out at you.

You took a deep breath and did your best to swallow your insecurities. You couldn’t just shy away from today’s responsibilities and hide away because you felt unattractive. Yet, a sting hit your eyes as you continued your morning routine.

“The hell is that look for?” Katsuki asked, leaning on the doorframe of the restroom.

You jumped by his sudden appearance, “Nothing- just getting ready,” you lied.

Katsuki clicked his tongue at you, “Why do you even bother lying to me. Tell me what’s on your mind,” he demanded.

You sighed, setting down your brush. How could you even begin to explain that you felt hideous to your extremely attractive chiseled by the gods boyfriend? Surely, that’s not a feeling he could relate to.

“Just not feeling well today,” you said, only a half lie this time.

“Mmm, your nose isn't running- and you look fine so, what do you mean?” He questioned further.

“But I don’t look fine!” You snapped, regretting it the instant you said it.

“Hah?! Course you do! The fuck you talking about??” He raised his voice in response.

“Nothing. Just forget it,” you said and tried to brush through him to exit the bathroom.

“No,” he said stubbornly blocking your way. “You’re going to tell me what’s going through your head.”

You let out an annoyed sigh. Why did Katsuki have to be so damn observant all that time.

“Sigh all you want. I'm not moving till you talk,” he said.

“Fine- I just… don’t feel attractive today. That’s all,” you finally admitted.

“The fuck? That’s the dumbest shit I’ve ever heard,” he barked at you.

“Maybe to you! You’re always hot as hell, you’ve probably never had one self-conscious day of your life!” You spat back.

“That’s not fair,” he said in a voice much lower. “Course I have. But that’s not what I’m talking about. I mean you. You’re hot as hell to ya know?”

“Thank you for saying so but- sometimes I don’t feel like it,” you said honestly.

“Why?!” He grunted. “Have you been looking at those damn influencers again or something?! You know that shit is all fake,” he said.

“I know I know, but it’s not ugh-,” you sighed in frustration feeling your emotions heighten, “it’s not just that- it’s like everywhere and everything reminds me that I could look better and be better. From ads on my phone for beauty products, to friends talking about their diets. It’s exhausting feeling like I’m not keeping up,” you spoke and felt a bubble rise in your throat, “or that I’m not enough,” you said softly. and the tears finally broke through.

“Come here,” he said, gently wrapping his arms around you, pulling you to his chest. The protection that his embrace offered caused the pent-up emotions to rush out, you sobbed freely into his chest.

“Quite down, there’s no need to cry,” he spoke, his best attempt at soothing you. His arms still tightly around you, he kissed the top of your head.

“Ya know- a lot of places make a good amount of money for making people feel this way. Make ya feel like ya gotta buy this or do that to be hot but- it’s all bullshit,” he spoke, as your sobs lessened. “You’re perfect the way you are, and if you aren’t gonna believe me then, I don’t know who you’d believe. Because you know I’m not a damn liar and, I especially don’t sugar coat things to no one. So… believe me.” He spoke.

You pushed off his chest to wipe the remainder of your tears, as he continued.

“Just gotta tell all those thoughts to fuck right off. It takes a lot of courage to ignore all that crap and be confident. But you’re the bravest person I know so- I know you can do it. You’re a goddamn sexy person inside and out. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise, especially yourself. Got it?”

You nodded sheepishly and looked up, your eyes catching the damp spot on his shirt from your tears. “Sorry,” you muttered.

Katsuki clicked his tongue once more, “that’s another thing- stop apologizing so much. You’re allowed to feel and take up space and… that’s what I’m here for so- come to me anytime you need. Don’t make me drag it out of you next time… promise?”

“Promise.”

Thanks for the request Mint! I think we all need blasty to grab us and tell us we’re beautiful just the way we are 🥹🥰! Hope you enjoy ��~

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crmsnmth · 1 month

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September Sky Chapter Seven, Part 7

"Yeah, Film Studies with an English major. Basically seeing how much money I could waste. I dropped out a while ago."

"Did you have Finch then?"

"Yeah. He's one of the few professors I liked. It takes a lot to make make Film History enjoyable."

"No fucking way." Alana interrupted, looking directly at me. It actually kind of frightened me and I almost spilled my cup all over myself. Chad was laughing about something that was shared between him and Alana. Even Emma seemed to be taDennis off guard.

"What?" I asked stupidly. I mean, she was staring right at me, so I assumed it was something I did or said. It usually was.

"It's hard to believe." She said, not answering my question, instead still talking to Chad as her eyes bore holes in my flesh. She looked to be in shock but at the same time laughing. The juxtaposition of her face was weird.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" I was getting kind of irritated.

"Your actually seeing someone!" She said with a smile.

"Whoa, what the fuck dude? Private business. And why the fuck are you two talking about me when I'm right here?" I wasn't really all that upset. If I had been paying attention I probably could have butted my head into the conversation they were having.

"It came up." Chad shrugged at me, still laughing slightly.

"Why's that such a big deal?" Emma asked softly.

"Because Chris here swore off love and relationships years ago. And stayed true to his word, turning down every chance he got."

"Why?" Emma asked me.

"Bad experiences." I wasn't going to go into the detail of my horrendous track record.

"Is it true?" Alana asked, with fake extreme attention.

"Yeah, it's true. Can we move on now?" I said. I don't like attention. I hate having eyes on me. Especially about topics I don't really want to talk about. But then again, why didn't I want to talk about it? I mean, I should've been fucking hyped up.

"No. No we cannot. This is big. We should be celebrating. Chris finally moved on!" Alana was laughing. And it was infectious. She was happy for me. And shocked my convictions didn't hold out.

"Moved on?" I wasn't sure what she meant by that.

"Yeah, from the mopey fucker we've all had to deal with." Chad laughed.

I just shrugged. I didn't know what to say. I was uncomfortable, but I also knew that there was no harm here. I was with friends. Close friends, other than Emma. This wasn't ridicule. They were proud of me.

"Tell me! How'd you meet? What's her name? Come on, share you bastard." Alana was still excited. You could hear it in her tone. Her words were light and peaked.

"Seriously?" I whined.

Alana and Chad nodded. Emma looked like she felt sorry for me. The introvert knows the introvert. This stuff sucks. Attention sucks. But Chad and Alana knew what they were doing. The alcohol would help.

"I ran into her. Her name's Addison." I shut up right away. I mean, technically I did answer her questions. I wasn't asked to elaborate. Alana looked at me, a very dissatisfied look on her face. I started laughing. "What? I answered your question."

"Come on. That's all your gonna give?" Alana's green eyes twinkled, filled with an unhealthy amount of mischief. She knew this was torturing me. But in that friendly way we all make our friends uncomfortable. Call it the Loving Annoyance Factor.

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squadrah · 2 years

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what are la squadra wearing for halloween when they're hitting the town?

Thank you for bailing me out, now's my chance to deliver late Halloween fun times! :D I'm actually going to go a number of ways here - I'm going to remind everyone of their costumes as depicted by that one official artist, and then add some of my own ideas!

Okay, so here's the art (had to hunt it down manually and scroll for half an hour but it was totally worth it):

And now I can give some of my own ideas!

Risotto:

Random costume: I feel like he's the perfect candidate for dressing as a Cenobite, since Metallica can help with any of the metal "accessories" like the nails on Pinhead.

Sexy option: I would love for him to dress up as a Pillar Man. Not even one of the few we know, just a generic interpretation of one.

Mundane Halloween option: "Man helping others reach the tall shelves at the supermarket"

Formaggio:

Random costume: I think he should dress up as a leprechaun, go to a party, and gradually shrink as people are getting drunk to mess with them. Bonus if he has a pot of "gold" to lead people to.

Sexy option: I feel like he should do us all a favor and take a crack at Margot Robbie's Harley Quinn.

Mundane Halloween option: "A guy who's dissatisfied with his haircut but cannot bring himself to tell the barber"

Prosciutto:

Random costume: This is too much in the vein of the art above, but I feel like he would make a really good Lestat from Interview With A Vampire; it's just an iconic and elegant look.

Sexy option: I want him to do the world a favor and go as Marilyn Monroe in that one white dress. You know the one.

Mundane Halloween option: "Project manager losing his mind over a tight deadline" / "Old man inspecting construction work"

Pesci:

Random costume: My first thought was that something like Conan the Barbarian would look good on him - just an excuse to really try on a different fur trim and show off his guns.

Sexy option: The random option is already halfway there, but he can't go wrong with a scantily clad wrestling outfit.

Mundane Halloween option: "A guy who had his order mixed up at the fast food place"

Ghiaccio:

Random costume: I envy him because White Album could technically make him an armored costume so he could go as a Pacific Rim Jaeger pilot if he wanted to and that's just magical to me.

Sexy option: Best option is probably dressing as a beach guard because he can flex if there's a pool.

Mundane Halloween option: "Jogger waiting in line at the store to buy mineral water"

Melone:

Random costume: This is such a random thought indeed but what if he went as a member of Daft Punk with a cool custom helmet that could emote for him (powered by Baby Face, perhaps.)

Sexy option: I feel like he deserves a slutty teacher costume and a hand pointer to brandish at people.

Mundane Halloween option: "A guy trying to dye streaks into his own hair at home"

Illuso:

Random costume: For him I would love something iconic like the Goblin King from Labyrinth (his Stand actually reminds me of the armored goblins from the movie.)

Sexy option: He would absolutely rock a Playboy Bunny outfit complete with high heels and his hair down.

Mundane Halloween option: "A guy who can't remember which pocket he put his keys in"

Sorbet and Gelato:

Lumping them together because they would want to match.

Random costume: I will die on this hill - they should go as Morticia and Gomez Addams, respectively, because I think they possess the energy required and it gives them leave to make out in public.

Sexy option: Imagine them dressing up as an extremely hetero couple from a romance novel cover and posing for pictures.

Mundane Halloween option: "Two guys who collided and spilled their drinks on each other"

#jjba #la squadra #risotto nero #formaggio #prosciutto #pesci #ghiaccio #melone #illuso #sorbet #gelato #squadrah headcanons #squadrah original #mannn this was fun i can't believe i had so few halloween things before

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darthkvznblogs · 2 years

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Thanks for Them just came out, yes! Tell us what you think when you see it!

I loved it! Definitely the major caveat that I do think this needed to be at least 3 to 5 episodes (and curse once more the execs who decided to trim down the season) instead of a double length special, but given the time they had to work with, I'm extremely impressed by the storytelling in Thanks to Them.

I was surprised by how...cozy it all was? I definitely expected more mayhem and shenanigans from the Witch kids, but I have to assume, given the montage, that's where the bulk of the trimming was done. But I do appreciate the tranquility, even if it's paper-thin, hiding a lot of grief, worry, and in the case of Luz and Hunter, guilt.

The reveals (or I guess, confirmations rather) were great, Camila being vindicated as a great mom was very satisfying, the Lumity feels were off the charts and...like, I'm pretty sure Hunter and Willow are headed there, too? Luz's state of mind was great to explore and Hunter becoming part of the family was such an incredible moment. Belos was suitably horrifying (and I'm glad he's still around, he's too compelling to lose yet), the fight scene was insane, and...

Honestly, I'm not sure how to feel about Flapjack. I think thematically, that's probably the best fate for him - saving the life he couldn't, originally, and Hunter being healed by the magic Philip so despises (and btw, can we appreciate that he pontificates about saving their souls while looking more messed up than most depictions of the devil himself? Wild). On the other hand, and even beyond my general distaste for character death, it felt to me like he had more of a role to play going forward, so while sad, it also felt a bit dissatisfying. It could just be the time constraints (and probably is), but I also wouldn't be surprised if there's just a bit more to Flapjack's story before all's said and done.

I'm excited for more! And maybe even more so excited about what fanartists and fic writers will fill those gaps with.

What TtT means for the Kryptonverse:

At this point, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna have to do a bit of a retcon (not the in-universe kind) even though I tried to leave it vague enough to seem plausible. Belos obviously never actually intended to merge the worlds so Luz would have no reason to give that explanation to Dipper, though I think I can probably leave the rest as is or change very little. I'm gonna wait until the other two specials come out before choosing exactly how to handle any changes though, I really don't like having to go back and correct stuff when writing new content already takes me so long.

#ask box #the owl house #the owl house spoilers #toh spoilers #thanks to them #toh season 3

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annacantdie · 2 years

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written 5/22/22

The year I was fifteen was easily the worst year of my life. To be fair, I am young, so I don't have a lot of competition between the other 9 or 10 years I can actually remember, but it was traumatic nonetheless. I like to describe my life in ways that diminish the things that have happened to me. A mindset portrayed by hollow phrases such as “life just dealt me a shitty hand of cards”, and “i make the best of what i’ve been given” Those describing my generally dissatisfying life in a nonchalant way, but the way i’ve coped with my hardships has been anything but nonchalant.

I frequently wonder what I'd say to my fifteen year old self if I was given the opportunity to have a conversation with her. She was a troubled shadow of the person I am now, and while I'm in no way completely stable or healed of that girl I was, I think that my younger counterpart would be surprised at how far I’ve come. When i was fifteen i attempted suicide. That statement has been so ingrained into my speech, between having to explain to doctors, therapists, mentors, and friends, it does not feel like any sort of a big deal. Everybody goes through rough patches, my brain repeats, why would mine be any different? These statements heavily downplay the intensity of every emotion I felt at that period of my life. Every single feeling was heightened to an intense degree. A happy moment with a friend didn’t give me a comforting sense of joy, it gave me a manic state of excitement. A snappy moment from a parent didn't give me a quick sting to be shaken off, it sent me into a panic attack. I was far from but the mellow persona i’ve adapted now, I was an ticking time bomb simply waiting to go off at any moment. So many things had built up inside of me, I was absolutely unstable, and I truly couldn’t see a future where I wasn’t dead. I had no desire to be alive, and that statement isn’t said lightly. I genuinely lost my will to live, and the intrusive self harming thoughts that had haunted me ever since I could remember were becoming far more actual considerations for me than far off ideas driven by random emotional situations. I’d grown up always thinking I'd be better off dead, even happier dead, but those thoughts stayed locked away in a nightmarish area of my consciousness, never at the forefront where ideas were actually given a sense of consideration. Then, as was probably expected, I made the decision to end my own life. I attempted, failed, and woke up in the morning disappointed. But, unsurprisingly as the extremely depressed person I was at that time, I was not willing to put in the effort to come up with a new idea to try again. I could barely force myself to get out of bed to pee, I wasn’t about to come up with an intricate plan to take my own life after my first one didn’t work.

So, with the contextual nonsense out of the way, I think I've figured out an idea of what’d I’d say to that deeply troubled girl, and while I can’t present this to her, I might as well put it out there. Hopefully it’ll heal that part of me that's still that broken fourteen year old girl, or maybe it’ll help someone else. I don’t really care which.

Hey man, how are ya? Not well, I know, I was there. Literally. I don’t fucking know if this will help, like at all, but I wanna tell you all the things that get better. SO much of the shit that feels like it's suffocating you right now works out, and while things haven’t made it to perfection yet, as of now at least, there’s a much higher level of breathing room two years from where you're at now, I promise.

Let’s start out with the lighthearted stuff, you've got a killer haircut right now. You learned how to make your natural hair look insanely good, and you have the coolest shaggy, curly, healthy head of hair ever. And you got bangs, they look amazing. To top it off you finally learned to dress the way you want, and people finally associate you with having good style, just like you’ve always wanted. You still listen to the same music, but you've found so much other cool new shit that gets you through the day better than anything else can, and you still love to draw more than anything else in this world. You've got three amazing best friends, a plethora of other cronies, and a boyfriend you're absolutely head over heels for. Mom finally loosens up and you've got a phone with every social media your heart could want, completely unmonitored. And finally you’re comfortable with your sexuality and are generally out as a queer person. While there's so many more little things that I think you’d enjoy to hear, I feel like with those more significant ones out of the way we should address the elephant in the room.

We’re alive. Crazy, right?

I know that if you had to put everything you owned on it, you’d bet you’d be dead by seventeen. But look at where you are now! I know you well, you are me after all, and so I'm aware it is not comforting to you for me to sing your praises, to say how proud I am of you, I know it only makes you feel like shit. That pathetic feeling where people praise you for accomplishments, the ones that while are monumental for you would not be monumental for the average person, doesn't go away, but hopefully it’ll mean a little something coming from your future self. I’m proud of you. Of us. Of me. The road ahead of you is difficult, and does not come without challenge, new and old, but you kill it. Never does it become easy, you will struggle, you will scream, you will cry, and you will consider a take two on the whole death by your own hand thing, but you keep your head up. With every piece of shit that fucks you over, every freak of nature type accident that absolutley screws up your wellbeing, and every good person that unintentionally hurts you, you keep on walking. Sometimes you pull yourself up by your bootstraps and get through it, and sometimes a kind soul offers a hand. Life doesn’t get easier per say, but by god you get good at getting through it. Keep up the good work, stay stubborn, and stay driven. It’ll help you more than you know.

That's all for now I guess, I hope that provides you some sort of comfort, and I can't wait for you to fully experience the person you're growing to be.

L8R SK8R

Best wishes,

Anna-Claire Chupp

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mimzy-writing-online · 3 years

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You probably know this by now, I don't know if you keep up with Whumptober, but one of the prompts this year includes "blindness". I'm not blind but based on your posts about writing blind characters, and based on how I would feel if one of my disabilities were used as a whump prompt, I'm not super comfortable with it. I was wondering what your thoughts are on blindness being a Whumptober prompt.

(unironically and with feeling) thanks, I hate it.

Yes, I’m familiar with Whumptober, but I’ve never participated myself and I haven’t seen this year’s prompts.

Edit: I later did see the prompts and check out the blog. I think it's a good set of prompts and I look forward to all the promising content, especially since some of my favorite tropes are there. To be clear before you read this, I have no problem with Whumptober2021 or whump in general. This is not the first time blindness has been included for a list of whump prompts, and it won't be the last.

This post directed at the concept of "blindness" as a whump prompt and why I think it's a bad idea. The intended audience is individual writers thinking about future projects.

The timing of this is almost too perfect because I read a fanfic earlier this week that would meet that prompt exactly. Tags included whump, blindness, and angst with a happy ending. Now whump, hurt/comfort, and angst with a happy ending are tags I enjoy reading, but blindness as whump has a specific message to it.

To explain that message, I want to discuss what whump is. Many readers are already familiar with the genre, but I think taking the specific definitions and picking apart what it means and what expectations we carry when reading whump fanfiction

Urban Dictionary defines it as: taking a character and putting them through physical and/or mental torment and is typically followed by the same character being treated for their traumas. To indicate the characters place in the situation they’d typically be called a whumpee (the character being hurt/comforted), the whumper (the character that causes harm and trauma), and the caretaker (the character designated the helping/healing/comforting the whumpee).

Fanlore has a page for whump that explains it in depth, including where it started in fanfiction, examples of whump, and even a list of “popular targets” in different fandoms. (Warning: you might find yourself called out on the popular targets list)

“The term whump (or whumping) generally refers to a form of Hurt/Comfort that is heavy on the hurt and is often found in gen stories. The exact definition varies and has evolved over time. Essentially, whump involves taking a canon character, and placing them in physically painful or psychologically-damaging scenarios. Often this character is a fan favorite…”

To add to that, I think an important detail is the distinction Fanlore makes between hurt/comfort and whump:

“While some communities and fandoms may use whump as a synonym for hurt/comfort, there is still a recognition that whump refers to darker and more extreme scenarios. And there are still whump fics been written that have very little, or no comfort at the end of the story.”

The big appeal of hurt/comfort is getting to both explore the darker sides of pain and then experience the catharsis of being taken care of, of being supported by your loved ones as you recover from the trauma. The character is the proxy for experiencing those highs and lows while you yourself are safe at home.

I personally don’t read much/any whump without some h/c involved, but I’m happy there are stories out there for people who do enjoy it. I’m not here to judge what you like reading or what you do to your characters.

What I want is to express how blindness, my disability, used as a whump prompt personally makes me feel and what message it sends to me, to others, and how that message affects my daily life.

Whump undeniably involves watching a character suffer through something painful and traumatic.

My use of the word “suffer” is what I want you to focus on.

Vision loss can be painful and traumatic. I personally developed an anxiety disorder in response to vision loss. Others experience depression. For some it might result in relapsing into old, maladaptive coping mechanisms like drug use, self harm, or eating disorders.

A big part of my anxiety was how people reacted to my vision loss. It was a cause of their stress. They were worried because they genuinely believed I would never live a happy life without normal vision, and that my life would only be struggle and pain.

I recently saw an old friend who hadn’t heard about my vision loss. The conversation was awkward, but the worst part was how they reacted as though I had experienced an insurmountable tragedy. And even when I assured them I’m happy with my life, they clearly didn’t believe me. They acted like I was just lying or in denial.

I love that people want to empathize with my situation and ask themselves what they would do in my situation, but I hate when the conclusion they come to is something along the lines of “I could never do that, I’d be too miserable thinking about everything I lost, I’d never be able to do anything I enjoyed ever again.” But I did go blind. And I’m not miserable, I’m actually happy with the direction my life is going, and I still enjoy my hobbies, even if I engage with them differently.

I’m not suffering. My life didn’t end with vision loss. It’s not ruined, broken, or worthless.

I read a fanfic that was tagged with whump, blindness, and angst with a happy ending. A general synopsis of the plot: the whumpee had gone blind due to a curse. It was true love’s kiss that broke the curse. Even from the summary I knew it was going to end with whumpee being cured somehow and that I’d leave that fanfic vaguely dissatisfied no matter how good the rest of the fanfic was.

I can say this for the fanfic: the whumpee had already accepted that they would likely be blind for the rest of their life, but everyone around them was treating it as a tragedy that needed to be fixed, working tirelessly for a cure despite the whumpee’s protests that they didn’t have to.

It actually hit home to my personal experience.

I still left it dissatisfied with the ending. I might love curse fics in that fandom, and I love the “true love’s kiss” trope, but it wasn’t enough to distract me from the fact that: an actual person out in the world thought the best happy ending, maybe the only happy ending, would be if the character got their sight back.

(note: I clicked kudos and exited out of the story's page because no fanfic writer deserves unsolicited critique or hate, especially for content I consumed for free and at my own volition.)

Why read a story I knew would disappoint me?

Because blindness representation is so damn rare that I feel like I’m wandering in a desert, dying from thirst and desperate for that oasis. But sometimes that oasis is a mirage and the author is unintentionally telling you that your life is actually awful and you’ll never be fully happy like this. And that is a shit mentality to walk through life with.

I don’t appreciate blindness being a whump plot. I hate it. Hundreds (thousands?) of fanfictions featuring blind characters are about to enter the internet and the overall message is going to be “You poor thing! You must be in so much pain, you must be miserable! Who’s going to save you? Who’s going to comfort you? Wouldn’t it be terrible if there was no one in your life to take care of you? You poor helpless thing!”

And I feel objectified. I feel trivialized. The mirage in the desert is going to become a starch, empty room filled with dozens of water bottles, almost all of them poisoned. My representation is going to hurt me personally, and it’s going to reinforce that idea strangers have about how awful my life must be.

(I returned to school this past month, and every day I’m hesitant to tell someone I’m visually impaired because I don’t want to be treated differently. If I’ve managed to pass as sighted this whole time and then suddenly reveal “oh yeah, I’m visually impaired” I feel this instant silence, this pause of awkwardness as people suddenly question how they’re supposed to treat me. They treated me like a person, and now I’m something strange and unfamiliar.)

I’ve worked so hard to improve representation for blind people, to give internet strangers the exposure to a blind person they need to normalize blindness because I hope that if they’re ever so lucky as to meet a blind person, they’ll treat that person with respect. That hope that another person in the blind community will find a friend they feel comfortable and accepted with. I hope that I’ll meet people who accept my blindness as just another aspect of me (like being bisexual or gender fluid or a writer or a cat lover).

Please don’t turn me and my community into a caricature. Don’t erase everything I’ve worked for with this blog.

To be clear, this is not just me saying "I hate the cure trope" again. This is me saying "the purpose of whump is to painfully hurt your favorite character, and I hate that your idea of pain and suffering is my daily (wonderful) life."

#blindness #whumptober #fanfiction #whump #whumptober 2021 #blind character #disability #ableism #anon

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vexx-the-egg · 2 years

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Fujimotos use of Body language and how it tells us EVERYTHING we need to know.

[Minor spilers ahead]

We need to talk about the art in chainsawman, because I feel like it's hardly ever addressed and it's one of those things that could easily get lost in adaption with the anime coming out this summer. The way Fujimoto priorities SHOWING emotion over telling it, is in my opinion, under appreciated and under utilized in modern manga. And I'm going to prove it. At this point its almost a running joke. That every Shonen manga in existence will have the main character loudly declared his beliefs and goals to every person he meets. Stuff like "I do this for my freinds/You have angerd me!! I will make you pay" but fujimoto dosnt do that at all. In fact he actively avoids it by having his characters and often Denji deflect from there emotions or hide and mis interpret them all together.

We all joke at this panel because it comes OFF as a joke. Denji who has just finished a kill on a devil man is distracted by porn mags. Haha but is that really what's going on in this panel? No. Sure denji goes on to make seeing/ touching boobs his goal but is that really thr only thing that he wanted? Well no. In fact when denji GETS the thing he claimed to want hes..dissatisfied, left to ponder if it was even worth it .until he meets makima again he doesn't even want anything to do kissing, relationships, or even boobs, they dont even cross his mind at this point. So what else DID he want I'm this panel. Fujimoto doesn't shove it in our mouths via big rallying speach - but he dose still give us the answer. In context this frame happens right after Denji makes the choice to kill a devil man for the first time. A devil man. The same thing denji is. Not only is denji also a devil man but by the empty dirty apartment full of porn mags its extremely clear that this devil man was probably completely alone, poor, and without direction. A very simulare lifesryle that denji has lived in all his life. He was faced with a reflection of his own self and told to slit its throat. He does. With hesitstion of course but one that he quickly covers up by grabbing a couple of porn mags and complaing that "he didn't want blood on the magz". The whole place is full of magazines. Personally I don't think Denji would have been that picky. But denji never openly admits his complicated feelings on this event. Instead he tells himself "I want to touch some boobs". Now in Denjis case it's clear that his gut reaction to deflect from his feelings may not even be something he's aware of. Denji knows he wants SOMETHING (a better life) but he dosnt know WHAT so he process then best as he can. His body language shows us that hes struggling. Hes hunched over almost hugging himslef in comfort, eyes cast down, despite the joke he shows no sign of lauging. Denji is a character who struggles with even understanding his own internal struggles. Not only is this a great way to show how fujimotos art direction lends to the narrative but it also shows great character decision. Denji hides his feelings because he canot process them. Unlike other characters such as Makima, Aki , and Reze who actively hide there emotions while knowing exactly what they want. Which is also shown through Fujimotos art, through misdirection, subtle body language, and even specifically placed eye contact.

Despite the proud talk from the man Makima in this panel isn't the losing party. We know this even befor the fight begins. Not because of diologe but because of her composure. Calm. Collected. Amused even. Surrounded by enemies who would have no qualms of killing her. Her gaze just as unflinching as his yet far more relaxed.

Then we have rezes moments. Moments where she realizes something. But doesn't comment on it.

Her expression is that of controlled surprise. She knows something isn't right. But she's choosing not to comment on it.

Even when she does decide to speak to Denji about it (despite her best interest not to) she still holds an air of controlled silence. Her face completely hidden except for a still smile. The panels flipping between denjis struggle to understand her questions and her still hidden reaction. Instead of explaining any more to denji or talking about her feelings. She changes the subject. She never says "oh this is awkward/ time to change the subject" she just does. The mood is tense ans uneasy And once you learn more about Reze that's when you understand why. She never tells us directly but for those who have finished the bomb arc well we have our answers...

As for aki. Even The cold cool calm collected REAL Shonen protag still has plenty to hide and plenty emotions to work through.

. After Angel tells him that he has loss years of his life just for saving Angel akis eyes immediately flash with regret. At first he's shocked and stares straight ahead. Then fujimoto brings even more attention to Akis eyes as aki begins to understand and come to terms with the Angles words. Finally. Regret tenses through his face and Aki says "I've had enough of watching people die in front of my eyes". These words seem sincere....but yet again aki is posing a contradiction. Aki is a devil hunter he has and will continue to see the people around him slaughterd daily. As long as he has his job he will continue to be followed by death. If it was really about not wanting to watch people die he would have quit after thus. And yet he doesn't. He stays. And spends a considerable amount of time with Angel after this. Despite his suffering and what it took to get here he has found something to belive in. And from Angel's body language we can assume the feeling is mutual. Angel is not naive to Akis decision and once again fijimoto focuses on the characters eyes. His body becomes lax and a sense of peace washed over his face. He is no longer fighting against Aki. In this panel both aki and Angel have found there reason to continue living yet they can't say those words outloud.

These aren't the only Show Dont Tell moments Fujimoto utilizes but they are some I wanted to point out. I really hope this kind of writing style sparks a bit of change in our current Shonen wave as it's one I enjoy a lot.

#both Vagabond and berzerk have utalised this writing/art direction in masterful ways #to be fair there are plenty of Shonen that have this kind of writing pepperd kn here and there #hell even BNA has its moments of this style #but its rare to see it so intertwined with the themes and arcs of the charcters #chainsaw man #csm #anime analysis #manga #long post #another REALLY big scene for this is the movie theater date with makima #but i dont want to spoil that for anyone in this post #could make a separate post about it later #chainsawman #Im REWRITNG THIS TONIGHT I HAVE MORE IDEAS HOLD ON

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archduchessofnowhere · 2 years

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Hello ! I would like to know more about Maximilian's life? his relationship with Charlotte? ...Thanks.

Hello! Casually I'm currently reading The Crown of Mexico by Joan Haslip because I also want to know more about Max and Charlotte, so my short answer it's that you should ask me again in a week when I finished it and I can give a more fleshed out response.

For a longer answer, I can tell you what I know about Max and Charlotte (things that I learned through books about other subjects in which they featured). Archduke Maximilian was very different from his brother Franz Josef, almost his exact opposite. Max was quite charming, loved the arts and nature and had very liberal ideas that he openly championed. He thought that reforms had to be made throught out the empire and was against the extreme regime that was installed in most of the territories after the Revolution of 1848. However he did believe in the divine right of kings and that the Habsburgs were chosen by God to rule. Honestly he reminds me a lot to his nephew Rudolf, whom also was simultaneously progressive and a hardcore monarchist, and was heavily frustrated because the Emperor kept pushing him to the side lines.

More under!

Franz Josef seemed to have been jealous of his younger brother. Max was not only their mother's favorite child - he was everyone's favorite. Empress Elisabeth? Loved him. The people of Vienna? Loved him. Apparently every single person that met him? Loved him. Queen Victoria was absolutely against her cousin marrying him and like, openly insulted him in her correspondance - two days after meeting him she was writing to King Leopold I about how he was the most perfect match Charlotte could have made. He was just that charismatic, and worst for his elder brother, a natural leader. A lot of people thought that he was King material: after 1848 some proposed that Hungary should be separated from Austria and Maximilian made King, before the war of 1859 in which Austria lose the province of Lombardy the same was proposed. After that war Franz Josef was so unpopular in Vienna that people wanted him to abdicate in favor of Max. Even though he does seem to have loved his brother (specially when they were younger), he didn't trust him, or at least didn't trust his popularity, and as time went by he purposefully made sure to give him little to no power and relegated him to secondary roles. This made Max very dissatisfied with his life and was probably one the things that pushed him to accept the Mexican throne.

I haven't read that much to write too in depth about his relationship with Charlotte - the common agreement it's that she was very in love with him and he wasn't. Maximilian was once in love with a cousin of his, Princess Maria Amelia of Brazil, the only daughter of Emperor Pedro I of Brazil and his second wife Amelie of Leuchtenberg. They were briefly engaged but shortly after she died. And in death, Maria Amelia became perfect, forever frozen in Max's memories in those weeks in which they met and fell in love. Charlotte was never like Maria Amelia to him, and although they do seem to have been happy during their first years of marriage Max grew cold as years went by. He also allegedly passed her a venereal disease during this time but I don't know what's the general agreement on this (Haslip for instance doesn't buy it).

Unreciprocated love beside, they were a good couple when it came to ruiling. When Max was appointed Governor of Lombardy-Venice (though as I said Franz Josef made sure that he had very little actual power) Charlotte fullfilled her role as his consort perfectly. Max believed that he was meant to a position of importance and so did she, and was more than eager to be a great consort. I can't say how this dynamic worked out in Mexico though, as I haven't read in detail of their short time there. As it's known ultimately everything ended up very badly for them :(

#it's honestly a pity that max was never part of his nephew's life. I bet they would have understood and support each other :(#AU in which he doesn't go to Mexico and instead becomes his nephew's parental figure and they plot together against FJ #but yeah max and charlotte are so interesting!! I have tons of books about them in my tbr #maximilian i of mexico #empress carlota of mexico #asks

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virginwhoredichotomy · 3 years

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alright here’s the wikihow article i’ve been threatening to write on how to brainwash yourself into not entirely hating 15x20, or: castiel’s absence is a good thing, actually.

disclaimers:

- i do not claim that this is the intended interpretation

- i am watching the show with my destiel/dean coded cas girl goggles stapled on

- i do not enjoy being bitter about things i like and therefore probably jumped through a lot of hoops to arrive at this conclusion

i know there were a LOT of things people hated about the episode and this will not address all of them. my main issues with the finale were 1) the manner of dean’s death, 2) the unresolved dean/cas arc, 3) sam’s extremely emotionally hollow happy ending, and 4) cas’ complete absence. the production quality/editing/pacing was terrible as well but that’s nothing out of the ordinary on supernatural rip

1. the bad guy (spn writers room) won

my correct opinion is that this was, in fact, one of chuck’s endings (though i don’t think they made it bad on purpose). on a meta level it makes a lot of sense for this to have been chuck’s ending since he is the meta stand-in for the writers. as long as they are the ones telling this story, EVERY ending will be a chuck ending.

some supporting evidence:

from 14x20 moriah

chuck loves circular storytelling: sam and dean as cain and abel as michael and lucifer, or dean and jack as sam and john as abraham and isaac. we know that chuck’s ideal ending would have the brothers regress back to their brodependent s1 selves and then have them meet a tragic end (15x04 atomic monsters). and something that really stood out about 15x20 is the way it just... completely erased 15 years of sam and dean’s character development. someone said you could watch the pilot and then the finale and understand everything and that’s completely true and extremely frustrating to any viewer with a brain. it’s also a trademark of chuck’s writing.

if you watch it with that in mind, 15x20 is so reminiscent of season 1 that if you pulled jarpad’s hairline back across his forehead and slapped on a grunge filter it might actually be the walmart version of an alternate s1 ending:

- jenny the vampire returns

- complete absence of any characters that aren’t sam and dean

- motw, specifically working one of john’s unfinished jobs

- sam happily leaving his hunter’s life behind and living a normal picket fence life with his blurry spouse, the way he dreamed in s1 and has repeatedly stated is not what he wants for himself anymore

- dean dying as daddy’s blunt instrument

- i hate to say it but the borderline romantic framing of dean’s death scene also counts as a kripke era callback considering how many romantic tropes sam and dean played into during the earlier seasons. erotically codependet etc etc

- probably more but i watched the finale exactly once and am not planning on doing it ever again in my life

tl;dr the 15x20/s1 parallels aren’t just parallels, it’s sam and dean actually regressing to their past selves because they are once again living chuck’s story (or on a meta level: still living the writers’ story). they don’t notice it and neither does the viewer because the framing of the episode suggests that god is defeated and sam and dean are living life the way they want. and yet their endgames are anything but what they would choose for themselves.

(if you watch the back half of s15 through this lense you can also suddenly excuse dean’s character assassination in 15x17/dean failing to break the cycle and being a bad father to jack just as john was a bad father to dean. running in circles is kind of chuck's Thing. god made them do it is a god tier coping mechanism for everything i’m mad at supernatural about.)

it all comes down to what cas said: freedom is a length of rope and sam and dean hung themselves with it. imo it’s still a dissatisfying ending after fifteen years of character development but it is narratively sound. the reason the story set up all these endgames and then didn’t pull through is that the antagonist won. 15x20 is a depressing tale on the dangers of hubris.

OR IS IT.

2. castiel’s absence is a good thing, actually

alright so this is where i’m probably REALLY going against authorial intent. here’s the thing about cas: he is the only character in the show that possesses true free will, both within the story (”you never did what you were told”, god himself in 15x17 unity) and outside the story (the showrunners kept trying to kill him and he kept coming back, cas falling in love with dean despite writers, actors and network actively trying to prohibit it). so if cas as the representative of free will had been in 15x20 my whole argument would collapse because his presence would mean it either WAS the ending sam and dean chose for themselves, or that cas no longer possessed free will.

but what did cas do instead? he rebuilt heaven for them. heaven is now a paradise of his own making, a place free of chuck’s influence and it’s where sam and dean will finally get to choose their ending. off-screen. post canon. across 50 ao3 pages. dean and cas are shyly linking pinkie fingers as we speak. because the ending the characters choose for themselves is not the writer’s ending to tell.

3. on destiel

i've already talked about my feelings on deancas in dabbnatural/15x20 so i'll just link those posts:

- i think they handled dean and cas’ relationship very well given the circumstances (my post and another very good analysis)

- textual reciprocation or not, destihellers won

- supernatural = queerbait is discussed with like zero nuance on this website and it's annoying as hell

i wrote this at 2 am, i hope i've managed to make my point. again, i'm not saying that this is what the writers were going for. but i do think it's a valid interpretation for the most part and i hope it helped someone feel a little less bitter about the finale!

#like. idk. i'm kinda over it. i think if this is what they were going for it was executed badly but i do like the concept #like i don't even have to fix anything about the finale like this i can simply sleep peacefully knowing that they did break free in the end

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Oop I had to pull out my tablet for this lmao

First of all, for obvious reasons, I am extremely upset. Who wouldn't be after that?

Second of all, I'm super happy with part 4 because this just solidifies my theory that MC doesn't love Iwa anymore and is lying to herself about her feelings AND Iwa is the one who is not willing to let her go (this is where `'I don't think I love you anymore comes in', she stays only because he tells her he loves her). In part I understand her because she's waited for him so they can be together without the long distance and I feel like she doesn't want to feel like she wasted time waiting when she could have given herself the chance to be with someone else. So, I guess I can understand that part but miss girl needs to leave like yesterday.

'So why did your heart no longer flutter when his name lights up your phone. What was the dissatisfied feeling in the pit of your stomach everytime Hajime crossed your mind? You push the doubts out of your mind. No, you loved Hajime and your love deserved a second chance.Two years couldn’t be erased liked that just because of a stupid mistake he made while drunk.' THIS THIS THIS IS EVERYTHING! I know she's been lying to herself since this moment. They SHOULD have stayed broken up. I know from this moment on is when she created a wall between them and maybe she didn't mean to but she did. Maybe she was unconsciously trying to protect her heart. Regardless, I know she's been lying to herself and is still doing it. Miss girl please remember what the fortune teller told you!!! First loves don't always mean forever.

And girl, not Iwa almost punching Atsumu. Like calm down you're projecting and thinking shes cheating to hide the fact that you're the one doing it. Also, Atsumu with the best comebacks lmao.

That whole fight scene made me soooo mad because Iwa walked out. It's a common occurrence with him and that just shows he really isn't trying. How do you walk out on a fight? especially if your girl is sick like damn have some decency. The worst part was finding out where he went but I wasn't surprised. What did surprise me was this 'He wants her to warm up the coldness that comes with you lately. He wants to forget you for a moment. He wants to feel warm instead of the usual coldness he feels lately around you. He wants to go back to a time where you looked at him with a warm expression'. I know he does love MC but I wasn't sure how much because from previous parts, he was talking about Grace in his sleep so I thought he loved Grace instead of MC. But I'm glad he still loves her because I know he's gonna suffer when she leaves him and that fills me with joy (it's a win for my petty heart). I'm also kind of convinced that Iwa keeps Grace as a backup when things eventually fall apart. Speaking of Grace, she's delusional. Like girl how do you expect to be treated if you're the side piece? And Iwa just told you he loves MC so how much more dignity do you have left? He's not gonna leave her because cheaters usually never do until they are the ones who are left behind. There's really no happy ending for Grace and Iwa (hopefully because they they deserve it).

This is such a win for my boy Atsumu. 'A comfortable silence follows your answer as you both eat the desserts on the table. It’s as calming as the day that lies outside the window of the cafe. It had been a while since you felt this comfortable with someone. There was a time when you and Hajime would have moments like this, where the silence between the two of you had comfort come along with it.' I know you said there will be a surprise with 4 characters and I've been breaking my back trying to figure it out lmao. Either way, I love Atsumu now and I hope she confides in him (something about him just soothes my hurt heart).

Honestly, at this point, I think they're together por costumbre ( Alexa play Costumbres by Rocio Durcal). There's really no love there from her anymore even if she stays. What they have is the allusion of love and I'm sure they're both too scared to leave and it's why they don't. I'm hoping she finds out he's cheating soon.

Anyways, you should expect these asks from me every Saturday when you post, I I so invested in this. Thank you so much for updating!! I really appreciate it and you <3 This is such a MASTERPIECE!!

I'll be looking forward to them 💕

I think the best way to describe what Iwa feels infatuation. He gets infatuated easily and that's really the only reason he keeps cheating...

I don't think anyone will see it coming, but I've left extremely subtle clues in parts 3 and 4. I'll give you some clues on where to look. The arcade and dinner scenes from part 3 and the smut scene from part 4.

If you get it I'll probably won't answer it because spoilers lol.

#✉.before love came to kill us #✉.asks #💐. September-Sunsets

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I'm sorry to hear you're having a bad brain day. Those are the worst. If it helps at all, do you have any HCs about how the Arcana LIs celebrate their birthdays once they're with your apprentices?

thank you my brain was beating me up bad today U___U spending time writing gets me really focused and helps a lot. here’s some headcanons for all my LI/Apprentice ships

Kamui x Asra

Kamui really wants to spoil the everloving fuck out of his lover(s). He doesn’t want to completely control their entire day (unless they want him to) though the urge is definitely there to plan something very elaborate. He has a lot of love in his heart and it makes him feel like he’s gotta do something Big to properly express how he feels

Gives Asra a lot of options for things they could do together and lets Asra decide, based on however he feels at the time. They could go to a spa and relax. Go on a picnic in the woods. Do something mischievous and potentially illegal. Or just stay in bed all day talking, eating food Kamui prepares for them with the Highest Quality Ingredients and care put into them, and get a little, a little, a little hands on

He wants to take care of Asra the entire day like he’s royalty. His birthday is such an excuse to get to do these sorts of things and Kamui is going to take full advantage. Brush his hair and they’ll take a bath together where Kamui washes him and does his makeup and nails and they dress up cozy and spend all day together. Kamui worries about pressuring Asra into something when he might have other plans but Asra’s plans begin and end with Kamui being there so. Kinda hard for him to be dissatisfied

Asra is the type to respond to “what do you want for your birthday” with “you”

Though Kamui doesn’t need to ask because he already knows exactly what he’s getting Asra and it probably involves something pretty Asra can wear, some good food, maybe something practical for his magic or something for Faust since it’s also her birthday too and it’s important that she doesn’t get left out. This is to say there won’t be just one gift there’s gonna be a lot of them and he’s a little embarrassed by how many things he ended up with and he’s going to blush when he presents them

But Asra does the same exact shit when it’s Kamui’s birthday. They’re both romantic idiots who are the type to be like “I saw this and thought of you and so I bought it for you” for lots and lots of things

Kamui’s not good at making things outside of like, food. So most of his gifts were bought, but for Kamui’s birthday Asra spends time making a lot of different things with every creative skill he has. Knitting him red scarves and making him little woodwork statues of cats etc.

Kamui x Julian

Something tells me Julian doesn’t do much to celebrate his own birthday and never drops hints about it but Kamui will find out and be like Listen You Fuck I Will Celebrate The Ever Loving Shit Out Of You. You Cannot Stop Me

Wakes him up in the morning very sweetly and makes him breakfast. He has plans because he knows Julian was just going to work all day and maybe go to the Raven that night as a treat and that is Not Acceptable

Julian probably cries at some point just a little bit because Kamui dresses up very nice and then does Julian’s makeup and hair and takes him on a walk before they sneak into that one abandoned garden from Julian’s Lovers chapter and have a picnic and Kamui pushes him down and kisses him and tells him how beautiful he is and then just starts reciting some poetry he wrote about Julian and There Are Limits He Cannot TAKE This!!! Somehow Kamui found a beautiful metaphor to describe Julian’s eyes and it’s illegal. How dare he

Lots of laughing and running around getting into trouble and Kamui tugs him into an alley every now and then to kiss him and get him all riled up

Kamui goes out of his way to be gentlemanly before Julian can do it first and Julian’s blushing like how do I cope--

Gifts include a book of poetry Kamui wrote about Julian and general gay yearning (and he’s extremely embarrassed about it because he’s not so sure any of it is any good but Julian Loves It. It’s A Masterpiece), a bunch of other books he thought Julian would like to drown out the embarrassing love poetry, some cool knives, expensive wine, magic charms he made himself (lots of stuff to protect against nightmares), and like. the sexy stuff. A ruby-adorned choker and black lingerie. Hello Julian your boyfriend has money

After getting into trouble all day, Kamui takes him stargazing and then they go to the shop where Kamui set up candles and rose petals and whatnot so they could take a fancy bubble bath and drink wine before they spend all night in bed together if you know what I

Kamui x Muriel

Had to pry his birth date out of Asra because Muriel won’t acknowledge his own birthday. He does not deserve to be celebrated. Kamui begs to differ

Muriel just knows Kamui’s birthday by default because Asra would talk about it in the past so he doesn’t have to ask. After they start dating, once November 14th rolls around he’s got a bunch of gifts prepared. Very simple, like, some stuff he carved, a nice meal, a wildflower bouquet, maybe some sort of lotion or perfume he made with Asra’s help. And Kamui cries about it because it’s just so sweet and heartfelt and AHHHH-

Kamui knows Muriel doesn’t like all the fancy stuff he does, but he still wants Muriel to feel really special. It’ll take some convincing but he’d like to take Muriel to a nice spa where he assures him it’s very quiet and they won’t be bothered. A hot spring, mud bath, that sort of thing.

They can go on a walk through the woods and forage for stuff to make a meal with, then they cook together and Kamui tries to hand feed him but Muriel is so embarrassed it doesn’t go very far. Still Kamui will sit in his lap afterwards and they’ll just bask in the peace of nature for awhile. Maybe Kamui will talk a little, quietly, and about nothing of consequence so Muriel doesn’t even need to listen to the words, he’s just lulled by the sound of his voice

Gifts! A lot of stuff for Inanna and the chickens to take the pressure off of Muriel having to receive a lot of things directly (though they all make him happy just the same). For Muriel directly, Kamui gets him stuff to make his life more comfortable; a soft teal blanket, pretty silk ties for his hair, homemade lotions/salves to make his scars hurt a bit less. Charms for protection and restful sleep.

Lots of kissing and praise throughout the day. More than usual, that is. Muriel NEEDS to know he is loved and appreciated and Kamui is very glad that he was born.

Very low energy, Kamui wants to do things to help him relax, turn his brain off, feel loose, good, loved. A very slow day without too much in it.

Sae x Nadia

“What’s that? It’s your day of birth and you have WORK scheduled? Don’t think so. I told everyone to go fuck themselves and had the chef bring us breakfast in bed. Once you’re finished I will braid your hair and use this oil I made to administer a full body massage. My very genius plan. Praise me”

They dress very comfortably because if anyone has a fucking PROBLEM then Sae will flay them alive from the inside out and Nadia considers that a wee bit of a turn-on. It’s cozy day bay bee. They drink tea out on the veranda with no shoes on (!!) and spend the entire day indulging

Sae puts on a magic show for Nadia (and no one else) at night that’s very mesmerizing and beautiful. Nadia responds by pulling Sae into her lap and kissing her dizzy and then Sae’s like “S-So did you like it then--”

Sae doesn’t exactly have plans so much as she hisses like a feral cat at anyone who tries to make Nadia do Work thus allowing Nadia to do whatever she wants, and Sae is at her disposal

Not much in the way of gifts because Sae doesn’t see the point in providing material possessions so much as providing An Experience

Sae doesn’t really Get birthdays because hers were never celebrated so it’s a learning experience for her. All she thinks is that this seems like the right time to spoil Nadia, and that’s, like, enough, right?

Whispers in Nadia’s ear that she’s wearing lingerie under her outfit but then won’t let Nadia unwrap that present until later. Probably won’t wait very long though they’ll be very busy all day if you know what I

Sae x Portia

Sae doesn’t have to do much but provide her presence. Portia knows what she wants to do, although she’d be delighted to let Sae plan a day for them once in awhile. There’s a lot of things Portia’s thought about doing but no time to do them, and her birthday is the perfect time for that. Nadia would let her take time off easy.

In this instance, Sae would arrive with like a bag of handmade chocolates or a decorated mason jar with some jam or something in it and present it to her arms out turned away blushing furiously and Portia can’t stop giggling at how cute she is. She kisses her and holds the gift lovingly against her chest, they’ll share it on the picnic they’re about to go on together!

Cozy clothes they aren’t afraid to get dirty in, laid out on a gingham blanket and talking, holding hands, feeding each other, kissing. Spoiling Pepi who comes over to hang out.

They go into the palace for hijinks. Sae follows along not knowing where they’re going or who they’re talking to or what they’re doing but Portia is so fun and she knows it’ll be good. Sae teaches her some magic along the way to make everything even more exciting, they can play some pranks where Sae teaches her a spell and Portia uses it for shenanigans

Sae can pay for them to go out into the town and eat at a nice bakery, and then she holds Portia’s hand and leads her to some stray cats she found recently. After that she can show Portia some magic stuff in the woods or maybe they can plan to travel somewhere adventurous where Sae can watch Portia swing around a huge sword maybe. They try out a bunch of fun stuff fit for a magician, stuff Sae’s pretty used to but it makes Portia’s face light up with wonder and Sae just stares at her. Heart eyes

#the arcana #asra alnazar #julian devorak #muriel #portia devorak #nadia satrinava #the apprentice #oc apprentice #fan apprentice #oc:kamui #oc:saekamui #text #writing #Anonymous #headcanon #the arcana writing

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concerningwolves · 4 years

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I'm really sorry for this question but I kinda need an opinion from a writer. Basically I've wrote this story and it's basically finished. I edited it, re-read it, polished it. Generally speaking it's finished: the story is consistent, the pacing is okay, the characters work. Everything should be fine, but I find lots of gripes with how it's written, with the style itself (except for a few scenes which I think are okay). So I want to ask: in a situation like this, would you rewrite the story?

Hey Nonny, there’s no need to be sorry! I am a writing blog, and I never mind giving advice :)

WHEN A FINISHED STORY FEELS UNFINISHED

Rewriting it again is one option - and if that feels right, definitely go for it! But a very real problem with writing is that everything exists inside your own head, and it’s difficult to work out how it feels to approach it as a reader. When I find myself in this situation, I like to follow one or all of these three steps:

rewrite or recreate your story in a different format

Take a break and work on something else

Seek out beta-readers

To expand on these points:

1) REWRITE/RECREATE IN A DIFFERENT FORMAT

Taking your story out of its original context helps you to get a new perspective on it, which is exactly what’s needed if you want to work out what doesn’t feel right. This can be anything from drawing a story-board to rewriting in a different medium. If I originally wrote the story by hand, I type it up; if I wrote it on a laptop, I rewrite it by hand. But that’s just how I like to do it. You could also try breaking down the scenes you’re unhappy with into a script or as a dialogue-only story. Since your gripes are more about style, this method might not appeal to you so much - but it gives you space to think about the story without worrying about your writing style, which is extremely liberating. Sometimes you just need to separate your storytelling from your writing style and that’s okay.

There’s also this idea that if you rewrite something, rewrite it entirely or not at all. This method has its uses, (I find it great for moving on to second drafts of longer pieces), but sometimes it’s only one section or one scene that you want to meddle with. Drafting several variations of the same scene is a totally valid way of rewriting - which is also why I like to use different formats when rewriting. Back when WDWW was just a collection of short stories, I re-drafted one of them as a flow-chart, because that was a versatile medium and let me work out what I wanted to change and what I wanted to keep without cutting into the story I had already written.

This is also supposed to be a fun exercise: you don’t have to recreate your story perfectly, you just need to get it down so you can see how it all comes together. You might make a sketchy story-board with stick figures and realise that the order of events is wrong, or you might write out the dialogue and realise it doesn’t fit with the action. Try different approaches and find out what works for you.

2) TAKE A BREAK AND DO SOMETHING ELSE

The key to a successful rewrite is a clear head. Period. You can’t force yourself to keep working on a story when you’re completely saturated with it and expect good results. This is particularly true of the finer craft details like your writing style and word choices. Working on some other creative endeavour for a bit lets you come back to your story later on with a clear head. It also stops you getting burnt out, which kills a story faster than anything else.

How long your break is is entirely up to you. Stephen King, in his book On Writing, says he leaves his novels for at least a month and does the first draft of something else. Granted, he was talking about how he wrote so many novels, (not just how to write them well), but it’s solid advice. I usually leave short stories for at least two weeks. If you come back to your story after a break and you still feel like you can’t get a good persective, then you may either want to

a) repeat step one

b) try step three, or

c) extend your break.

It’s also worth mentioning that printing out your story (if it isn’t already written by hand) and attacking all the bits you’re not sure about with a chunky black marker is very satisfying. Don’t think you like the word “that” in that sentence? Black it out! Feel like the simile you chose is too cliche or sounds wrong? Black it out! I use this method for rewriting my opening paragraph(s), but it’s fine for all sorts of writing.

3) GET BETA-READERS

Asking people to read your brain-baby is a scary, but hugely worthwhile, experience. As I’ve already said, stories get stuck inside your head; you need to work out how to tell them to other people. An outside perspective is crucial.

“How” and “Why” are probably the most important questions you can ask: beta-readers will think critically about your story, and then you need to think critically about their answers. Ask them questions about HOW certain story aspects made them feel and WHY they felt that way. If their answers catch you by surprise, that could show you what isn’t working in your story. I’ve always found with beta-readers that when a beta’s comment makes me go “Wait, you thought WHAT??”, it’s like my eyes get blown wide open and I can see exactly why I was dissatisfied with a certain passage or scene. Sometimes it didn’t convey what I thought it conveyed, and sometimes it was extra information that added too much clutter to the narrative.

Remember that a beta-reader’s comments will come from personal opinion. This isn’t a bad thing - you want their opinion. It just means that their comments aren’t going to magically fix your story. You need to weigh their opinion against yours, and decide what you want to do about it. Betas also shouldn’t get too critical of your writing style, but they can point out anything that makes little sense, or that reads confusingly.

Once you’ve mulled over what your betas think, either use step one or plunge straight into a re-write, keeping their feedback in mind. Their fresh perspective’s might be just what you need to work out how to finish your story.

Happy writing!

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komakitigerdrop · 5 years

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I prefer FxM or FxY, but I don't understand why some people will ship AxF. I'm Asian grow up in Asia, Asami is typical Asian guys, don't express and smile much, always act as King of the house, and their women/uke have to cook and serve them. May be Westerner find him refreshing. But I see too many those kind of Asian guys in Asian TV drama and real life. Those guys usually match with typical Asian girls that are 20+ look and act like teen, pretend innocent and kawaii i.e. Aki ;-)

Let me start by saying, by the way, that I am not in my 20s but I totally got the hots for Asami Ryuichi. He is, to me, the very definition of a wet dream, which is probably what Yamane Ayano wanted him to be, for starters. =p

That said, you are absolutely right when you say his initial composition as a character was somewhat... hmm... how can I put it... dissatisfying? And for the longest time I thought he was a nuisance too. I loved and hated him in equal amounts (Ugh, you’re so hot! But ugh you’re such an unrepentant, unfair, hypocritical bastard!)

And yes, I am going to go off on a tangent for a moment because I want to build on what you said about the typical Asian guy. I have plenty of Japanese students who say they would love to stay in the US instead of returning to Japan, and my reaction was always

Like, how?! How would someone even think about not going back to Japan? In my mind, Japan was the one place where public things work, where people respect the elderly and you can actually have a pretty decent life without having to worry about crime, drugs, etc. I mean... come on! It’s 3 crimes when you shoot a gun in Japan: one for having a gun, one for having the bullet and one for pulling the trigger. Come on! Here kids who are too young to understand violence are being taught what to do in a lockdown, but that’s a debate for another day.

Anywho, I am always floored when students tell me they don’t want to go back home, so obviously I always ask why, and the answer I get from Japanese students in particular is almost always the same. They don’t want to go back to a place where people spend their entire lives working and competing. People here are more friendly and show their emotions. Here they can be themselves.

And as I listen to their stories, I somehow remember everything I read (in books, papers and news articles) about Japan while I was doing my research for Grace Period is Over. Japan does have extremely strict gender roles, and their society is still deeply marked by status and public image - from household to police departments.

Are things changing? They sure are. But for anyone following the fight married Japanese women have been fighting to keep their family names after they get married, it is obvious that the change is slow, very slow.

Finder is a manga that has been around for almost two decades, and I don’t think it is much of a stretch to say that the main characters have been very representative of their time. Asami, as the “head of the household”, has delivered exactly what a strong Japanese man was expected to have twenty years ago: an indestructible reputation, a solid career, lots of money and a sweet little woman waiting at home to provide for him. In that sense, kudos to Yamane Ayano for portraying Akihito as a troublesome, rebellious young man that is still proud enough to refuse to let go of his career to pursue romance (even though he is clearly the woman of the relationship, taking care of the house and having absolute no say in what should happen or not in his relationship with Asami).

Still... gender roles are so clearly defined that yes, Akihito is the one who is emotional, who bases his decisions on intuition and on the desire to protect and nurture. Asami’s thoughts? His true feelings? It takes many volumes for us to even start cracking that steel armor, because as a seme he is not expected to emote. As a seme he needs to provide (money, sex, protection), not to communicate.

That being said, as time has gone by, Finder has kept up with its social surroundings. See the Asami Ryuichi’s Little Monster extras, in which we finally get a glimpse of Asami acknowledging his true feelings towards Akihito, and the AkiNeko one, in which we see him thinking of himself as the nurturing part in the relationship. In the main story, YA has also managed to gradually have Asami transition from the standard SuperSeme to a character with more layers, whose reason to exist goes far beyond dominating his Uke. Now, for the first time, we have entered a part of the story in which Asami is relinquishing his all encompassing power and allowing Akihito to meet him where he is. He is removing Akihito from a scene dominated by household chores and taking him to the action, to the public scene - a domain that has been historically male.

Combined with the fact that now Asami himself is finally opening up about his feelings, what you get is a considerable shift in the gender role situation. Times are changing, and Yamane Ayano is not falling behind, which is good news, especially for fans who expect a bit more... warmth (pun intended) from Asami Ryuichi.

#asami ryuichi #King of semes #finder series #finder no hyouteki

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potionsmasters · 6 years

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Hello father, I have sent an owl in a while and thought why not. So last time I talked about a report I did, and while I did do well on it and in that class, my other grades were either exceptional or disgrace. Now I understand stand why it was like this, its been a really tough year, emotional breakdowns, and so on But I still feel disappointed in myself for not giving it my all and letting the year get the best of me. Do you know how to deal with this kinda stuff? I'm sorry to be a bother. -A

Hello child!

Yes, it’s been a while since I’ve seen you in my ask box. No worries though, you’re always welcome here. :)

It’s completely normal to feel bad about your grades, feel as if you didn’t do well enough or just overall be dissatisfied with the results of your school year. Saying ‘just try to do better next year’ most likely doesn’t help either, seeing as school is extremely stressful (so is work but yaknow).

Although you’ve probably also heard this a million times, I do need to say that you need to take care of your mental health. However, if your stress levels are high, which they usually are because at a certain age we realize that the world is fucked and everyone’s just struggling to survive every day, you need to think about what’s causing you stress, and try to avoid them or learn to not let them affect you as much. I always scoffed when people told me to try and get rid of the stress factors in my life because like, what do you want me to do ??? Stop going to school? Stop working? Die ?????School is causing you to feel stress and stress can make your health worse (physical and mental), and make you not perform as well in school, which in turn makes you feel every more stress. It’s a dead circle.

My advice is for you to figure out a way to deal with stress. It’s different for everyone, what works for me might not work for you. I don’t recommend drugs or alcohol as means to numb the mind - it’s short term and creates more problems than it solves. Try to find activities that relax you and don’t worsen your health.

This year was the worst school year of my life. It was truly horrible. I think it’s the first time that I actually had a proper breakdown for seemingly no reason whatsoever. There was one day where I cried the whole day. I don’t cry often, it’s not my thing, but my mental state was pushed to the point where I felt like I went insane. My ugly crying went on for hours and just when I thought I was done I started again. At one point I tried drawing to calm myself and then I cried all over the drawing and ruined that too so I had another solid 30 minutes of crying. Yep.

Anyway, I’m now taking a gap year to just work and maybe travel a bit. I’ve not felt this happy in a long time. But the way I personally deal with stress, and what has always helped me (except that period of time, I was only looking forward to death in Spring), is exercise. I’ve always been an active little shit, having been a swimmer, dancer etc but when I started being more on the internet and drawing/editing, my physical health suffered. I don’t need to tell you why exercising is great, I’m sure you know. Recently I’ve started listening to my body again, and in addition to going on bike rides and running, I’ve also started doing yoga because my back is really fucked, and it’s great for stretching.

I’ve also picked up meditating again. Or as I like to call it, Occlumency practice. If you feel overwhelmed, just take a few minutes to meditate. What that means, on the most basic level, is that you clear your mind and focus on your breathing. It’s hard as hell but it will teach you patience and self discipline, which in turn will benefit you in your educational career.

Lastly, just take it easy. Don’t punish yourself over some silly grades. I’ve learnt that they don’t actually matter that much lmao. Listen to what your body is telling, take breaks and clear your mind. Find things that bring you joy, find your passions, and focus on them. We’re all going to die soon anyway. ;)

Best of luck,Maya ❤️

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Yeah, I'm in agreement with you about Malia being a "Stiles losing his flower" band-aid. Erica must've been originally set to take it in 3A (hence the whole "i must have sex" bit, which never paid off) only for the Cora shift to push it to 3B (him & her just jumping each other so quickly would've been pushing it even by tw standards).

In general I kind of hate how Stiles losing his virginity was treated- and I’m actually not talking about Malia, but the fact that Teen Wolf was ///SO EAGER/// for him to lose it and acted like it was such a big deal when… it… really wasn’t… outside of the fact that it was all he talked about until it happened, and now he never talks about sex (wich is very telling and actually pretty concerning but I’ll talk about that in a minute) I don’t see that it was a change that really made an impact, getting a girlfreind is one thing and he still could have done that at pretty much any point without forcing the physical aspect

Considering he was still a virgin when the virgin sacrifices thing came up, it hasn’t impacted the plot at all, wich makes me wonder about two things I’m going to mention later, but … I just feel like it was handled so poorly from the *beginning*, it was one of those plot points that could have easily been edited and wasn’t, I can see why the FANS would make a big deal about Stiles losing his virginity because it’s one of those Fan Things just like learning the sheriff’s name- it’s a big deal for fans but it isn’t a big deal for the plot or the show, wich means it’s one of those things that could have been changed to fit the show more, and I just see no reason for Stiles getting his flower plucked being so drastically rushed….

The concerning thing I mentioned earlier… up until he lost his virginity, Stiles was something of a sex junkie, he was pretty obsessed with it, to the point of openly talking about jerking off in normal conversation and outright screaming about sex in the locker room, this didn’t just abruptly stop in 3A, it even followed into 3B to a point (the rave scene with Caitlin is something I count as being sexual, they did make out and their conversation about sexuality was so important to Stiles as a charector that I’m counting it) yet after he lost his virginity that… pretty much stopped

Season five didn’t have any connections between Stiles and sex at all, other than episode one where the “Having fun with other guys” convo took place and that wasn’t exactly positive, the only time it’s even come close to being referenced outside of that is when he and Malia kiss throughout season five, wich isn’t much either, and is always considerably short lived, even in the early episodes there were no winks about sex, no heavy make-outs, nothing but a few short kisses, and in season four, what few sex comments there were were actually… largely negative…

Seasons 1-3 featured enthusiastically positive sex references, but season four gets things like “I’m always the little spoon”- wich is said with frustration and annoyance- and complaining that his back is scratched up, there are moments in season four where he and Malia make out, where sex is implied, and where they cuddle, but Stiles is oddly quiet about sex now that he’s having it and when he DOES have something to say it’s negative, it’s just… very telling, and this could EASILY be taken in about a dozen different ways- He realizes his sexuality isn’t what he thought it was (IE: Not hetero-inclined in some way, gay, ace, even demi) He realizes that sex is meaningless/empty/dissatisfying without it being the person he really loves (Derek or Lydia, depending on your preference) he realizes he just flat out doesn’t like sex, he and Malia have… let’s call it different sexual chemistry (IE: Malia enjoys rough sex, obviously, Stiles seems much less enthused to being roughed up, wich could speak to just having a dislike of rough sex or it could speak to feeling uncomfortable with the *type* of rough sex/not being properly introduced to rough sex/feeling pressured in some way, etc etc)

I could go on and on but the fact is this: Stiles lost his virginity and all of a sudden his extreme enthusiasum for sex is replaced by overwelming disinterest and downright negative veiws on it

It breaks my heart that his experience has very clearly been so negative that his entire perspective has done a 180, and before I go further, let me just say:

This is not Malia’s fault

Not unless she actively pressured him into doing something he clearly didn’t want to do, but Malia doesn’t read that way to me

Malia and Stiles were both teenagers who lost their virginities in VERY unhealthy states of mind and under the influence of psychological drugs and desperation, neither of them had the experience- and Malia didn’t have the research/social skills- to know what they were doing, and they both have spent their romantic relationship trying to fullfill their own needs without having much understanding of what the other needed, they were equal toxic in this relationship at the time that it took place- that isn’t to say, in all fairness, that they couldn’t come back healthier and work together, but during the time they were romantic together, they were undeniably in the wrong mindsets

Ofcourse Stiles obviously has had other things on his mind since 3B but it’s been made clear that there are moments where things are considerably frivilrous (especially in the first couple of episodes of each season)

But onto how it could have affected the plot, there are really only two ways:

1. Erica sexes him up in 3A after the “Someone needs to sex me right now” thing, wich could have made for some really cool plot related scenes (maybe the two of them avoiding Jennifer and Stiles complaining about how he should have sex immunity or something, it’d be interesting to see her interactions with the other betas after that too) and could have lead to a short relationship (I can’t see them ever getting on well for more than MAYBE a season, more like half probably)

2. The Virgins Can’t Die rule, subverted by the Virgins Must Die rule in 3A, it’s a horror movie trope most popularized by “Scream” that states that, in a horror movie, once you lose your virginity, you’re as good as dead, by Jennifer having virgin sacrifices in 3A and Stiles constantly trying to punch his V-card to avoid it, Teen Wolf did the opposite of the trope (wich is common for Teen Wolf, they often reverse trope meanings, for example, in most media water symbolizes salvation, but in Teen Wolf it symbolizes damnation) The thing is though, just because the trope was reversed in 3A, there’s nothing to say that Teen Wolf is done with it, the thing about the virgin trope is that it’s pretty diverse, there are alot of tropes connected to virginity in pretty much every genre (Virgins Must Die, Virgins Can’t Die, Virgins Are Awkward And Unpopular, Popularity Comes After Losing Virginity, Tragedy Comes After Losing Virginity, etc etc) It’s possible that Stiles losing his virginity will play a part later on, after all one of the popular fantasy tropes is Powers Are Tied To Virginity, once you lose your virginity you develop your powers- that could have been a plot they intended for 3A, but when it didn’t happen then 3B came along and sort of had to change their plan, that doesn’t mean his powers couldn’t have come unlocked with his virginity loss though

The thing with the second point is that because virginal tropes are so popular throughout media, there are really a ton of different ways it could have gone- or could still go, and we won’t know for sure what will happen with the trope until the series is over

And I know this is way more than you bargained for Anon- sorry!

#Teen Wolf

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