#should I have fixed them? yes

[fallowhearth]

Did a short art workshop today with a friend, where we were doing studies of urban landscape paintings. Considering we only had about 3 hours, and I haven't touched acrylic paints since high school, I'm moderately happy with this? There are some very unfinished patches but hey. One of the classic views of Sydney Harbour, though not the most obvious one, after part of an Arthur Streeton oil painting.

Photography absolutely butchers traditional art and this is also A3 size, so here's a closeup of texture:

#its funny people call out AI art for having too many fingers or whatever #absolutely do not look too closely at my houses #don't worry about the roof to house situation #in fact don't worry about the houses at all #should I have fixed them? yes #am I going to? no #traditional art #acrylic painting #landscape #landscape painting #Sydney #Sydney Harbour #arthur streeton #australian artist #my art

[transmechanicus]

Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.

#my stuff #i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks #like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy #hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month? #can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control #can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me? #and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone #so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks #im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better #i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up #cause i can see that happening #i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something #and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends. #and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you #i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once. #and that's not me. that's not who I want to be. #i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.

[aromanthur-lester]

soo remember that island with a lighthouse?

#malevolent #malevolent audio drama #malevolent fanart #arthur lester #john doe malevolent #yes arthur doesn’t have any scars. this is the island episode (8?9??). #barbie-fying them before the trend passes ig #this was supposed to be a light sketch and then it got slightly out of hand #the american metric system is so fucked up what is going on with those fucking inches #(yes i know it’s not american-exclusive. i still think that we should destroy this metric system) #i spent so much time trying to figure out how it works that i found a mistake on the barbie screenshot #(there’s another mistake here but no way i’m fixing the fucking lines

[borderlandsmostwanted]

I think the twins had the potential to be the best borderlands antagonists if they were handled properly. Like if gearbox pulled more from reality it could have been a really interesting concept about parasocial relationships, the dangers of blurring the lines between online and reality, and how idolization can turn someone into a faux god

#i also dont think their power should have been draining 'life force' per se #i dont mind the leeching but i think it would have made a more interesting choice if it feed off peoples regular energy you know what i mea #like it wouldn't kill someone but it would steal their abilities still (like with lilith) #like the metaphor still works ig if you are killing people but #like having hoards of emotionless (and really rather pathetic in anything but numbers) husks of bandits? #i think that would have been fun #and have the 'reward' for their most loyal and strongest fans be. giving their power to the twins #in return.. they might look at you #you know like you gotta set that stuff up more. They've gotta be really convincing (yes even to bandits) #anyway am i spouting nonsense yay or nay #borderlands #text #troy calypso #tyreen calypso #this isnt hate to them as they are i just see them in my vision #i could fix them ❤️ (character wise; which would actually make them worse as in eviler) #bl3 #borderlands 3

[cumulus-catto]

custom stickers for bosses

#toontown #ttcc #sellbot vp #vp #cashbot cfo #cfo #lawbot clo #clo #bossbot ceo #ceo #artpost #yes most of them are referenced from the actual in game stickers in corporate clash #i should fix some parts if i have motivation

[screambirdscreaming]

At the bus stop one time there was a gaggle of preschoolers waiting to catch the bus for a field trip day, and someone walked past with a couple of friendly little dogs, to great general delight.

But after a little bit, the dogs were getting overwhelmed, and the preschoolers were gently coaxed to back off so the person with the dogs could continue on. Specifically, one of the preschool teachers said, "Sometimes, when you're small, being surrounded by big people can be a bit scary and overwhelming. Even if they are friendly."

This was recieved as great wisdom: after all, the preschoolers were also small, and understood how scary and overwhelming big people could be! And the dogs were indeed even smaller than the preschoolers, so it made sense.

What was funny and charming was that, upon absorbing and reflecting on this wisdom, they all felt the need to tell it to one another. In tones of great insight, they turned to one another and said, "Did you know? Sometimes when you are small, being surrounded by big people can be scary and overwhelming! Even if they are friendly!" Back and forth, without any particular concern that they were all saying the same thing. Have reached comprehension of an insight, it must be shared!

I must say that this behavior is less charming in tumblr users than in preschoolers. Not least because tumblr users, having gained a little analytical skill to misuse, insist on Summarizing and Generalizing and Unifying the insights they repeat, quickly turning any interesting new information into formulaic dogmatic mush.

#i made the mistake of looking in the notes of the beach sand post i reblogged to see if anyone else had interesting comments #And the rate at which it went from like #1) person states with moderate confidence an opinion based on their personal observations #2) multiple people reply with “wow thats so insightful!” (aka it aligns with my preconceived notions of how things work) #3) someone else adds additional personal observations which are not really relevant but which can be absorbed into the narrative #4) people start outright stating the underlying belief on which this bias is constructed as if it were a fresh insight #5) general derisive attitude towards people who haven't seen the Obviously Correct solution to this complex real world problem yet #It's very....... #It's not like it's a high stakes post but it's such a microcosm of the whole dogmatic phenomenon #Also this js a more specific gripe to My Field or w/e #But the degree to which people react to the problems caused by the whole “Control of Nature” era of engineering #with this equally reductive “Nature will Fix Everything” type of attitude #Is sooooo frustrating. #Yes a great many of our current problems could have been avoided if we had not made massive changes to ecosystem processes on the assumptio #That they were simple and we understood them. And that they would respond in predictable ways. #the simplicity in retrospect of “wow we Should Not have done that” does not mean that they are simple to undo! #You can't go back in time. You can't turn back the clock on chaotic processes #Which is. Almost every process ever. #Restoration is hard! Returning to previous regimes of sediment or flooding or fire is tricky and full of foibles! #Moving towards a future which doesn't suck as much even if the past cant be recreated is also uncertain and difficult! #It's frustrating to see people act all high and mighty about how they Respect Nature unlike whoever is making all these decisions #When their understanding of the natural processes in question is AS simplistic as the people who caused the whole mess back in 1910 or w/e #Like I'm not saying there's not bad interests standing in the way of functional restoration on all levels #That's very much a fight to be fought. #But looking at that fight-in-process and saying “wow none of you Respect Nature like me uwu let nature fix it” #Is. #Ugh.

[mad-hunts]

okay, but real talk, y'all... who's gonna invite barton over to do masks and gossip with them? because i know he's VERY morally atrocious, but i just know that he likes to take care of himself and would also be a fan of learning new blackmail material about people at the same time, so i promise he won't try to pull anything at a hangout like this JSJSJ he'll be enjoying himself too much to do evil after all LMAOOO

#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings. #ooc post. #i can just imagine it now... barton fixing whoever the other muse in question may be's mask because they ' missed a spot ' like dude #it's not that serious BUT he also wouldn't do it maliciously so it's honestly kind of funny NGL LOLLL he'd just do it- #because they're buddies now y'know 💀 JSJSJ and then he'd start talking about how terrible of a kisser this guy he went on a date with- #was or something likeee do you really have to do 'em like that ( the answer is yes he has to do them like that ) and gradually just descent #into talking about the more ' juicy ' gossip with this muse by telling them about how much of a uppity jerk he thinks scarecrow is or- #something but while using a fake name for him like idk ROBERT and... i'm not even sure where it'd go from there but now even i am- #in interested in the story xDD so yeah. if your muse is even a littleee bit interested- #in being friends with barton y'all should totally do a scenario like this with me 👀 no pressure though!! only if you want to

[caramellashton]

'this is like wanting your kid to get better by yelling at them and hitting them… you know it won't change/fix anything.'

EXACTLY I have been saying this for so long!! it's not gonna work and it's just gonna make everything worse. it's not a form of activism to just bully people until they conform to what you want; humans are autonomous people capable of choosing good, and like. we could be in the fandom of another band that doesn't even try, whose fans have given up on them and are just there for the music and the drama, but it's like the minute they do try to do something good they have to do activism a certain way and it almost becomes a kind of purity culture and purity culture is famously about control and not good for anyone.

but it's also people trying to be funny in the comments with thinly veiled frustrations that come out as insults about their appearance (which especially gets to me bc like. does body positivity stop if you're famous? or are they just idealised figures/bodies/personalities for us to look at and pretend our bodies don't change over time and we don't like it when they remind us that they actually do?) or their partners or how they express themselves. and it's the aura of entitlement that erodes their right to autonomy and individuality that gets me, not only because the way we get the creative music they make is them expressing that.

anyway i do think we as a fandom can do better and i want to attempt to start a conversation about that rather than trying to call people out in the comments. still thinking of how. there's a lot of people in the fandom who are struggling and exasperated with life and relate to their songs and the pressure has to come out somewhere; it ends up being in comments they feel like won't ever be seen except for by people who agree with them, at people who seem to far away and too big to ever see getting hurt by their comments. at least that's what I assume happens. but yes, they were bullying a cat

I agree with everything...

Was it always like this? It can't be because this is too much, none of the hate was on me and I couldn't take it, I wonder how the guys (or any celebrity) feels, being judged about the tiniest move you do, it's crazy I would totally lose my mind.

That's not how life is... yes I would love to be a fan of good people but if the gf/partner of the artist you're a fan of is bad and their friends are bad what does that make them? Maybe it's on you, maybe YOU should pick better idk 😭.

#like you don't have to like everyone around the guys they're not your friends. You don't know them. #maybe I'm the worst person to agree to this because yes i look up the ''drama'' or whatever and I'm nosy but i never thought for a second- #-that I can tell them what or who to hang out with... #because it's stupid. like here I am from across the planet and I'm gonna fix 5sos and their friend group yes totally not mental... #please 😭😭 #Also is it activism if you tell them how they should say it and do it? If they say something it's not enough- #-if they don't they're the worst to walk on this earth. If they apologize for a mistake it's not sincere and won't be accepted. #How will anyone change if you don't even let them? #this fandom can do better but will it ever try? Maybe when it's too late. #too late as in they stop interacting with us ever... and i wouldn't blame them.. #call me bald everyday i will write a paragraph about how you ain't shit. you WILL see me in fan wars lmao... ashton is better than me. #are the tags too much? im sorry i feel more comfortable here lol 😭 #ask #5sos

[soldier-poet-king]

MADE MYSELF SAD BY ACCIDENT WEEKEND RUINED ALREADY

#the duality of fran #yes i called in to work. i genuine stressed myself out so much i gave myself insane stomach issues #ah well #so played bg3 all day. grinding thru the last bits of act3 in my durge run #so i can get the epilogues before im separated from my gaming pc for the holidays #I CANT SEE THE EPILOGUES RN. BC. MT FUCKIN TAV FILES. ARE GONE #had some computer and steam cloud issues and anyway. my first playthru saves are gonsies so i gotta finish this run #TO GET THE EPILOGUES #anyway i did all of wyll and karlachs act 3 stuff and i think that made me extra sad #plus not eating properly bc stomach badness #and also just. probably shouls not have done nearly 10 hrs of video games straight #but alas #anyway im now extremely sad and anxious #about simultaneously everything and nothing #tattoos? my health? my family bullshit? the ultimate fate of the universe? every single problem in the world rn? #the fact that I'll never look like im supposed to? and part of me was using tattoos as a bandaid solution to fix that #and it did. not work #im not unhappy w them just not how i imagined it. but nothing ever is #and also winter. yknow. that awful time #more family drama lately. i rlly should clean my room. or de clutter my desk at least #IDK. IM JUST. SAD #and being sad is ok when i feel like i habe a purpose/duty to fulfill #but now i just kinda feel like. well im wasting air and space and resources and im not serving any function #self as a tool. yknow. i know thats bad. but. idk. idk

[punctuation-completionist]

you don’t have to answer this ask but wow how are you supposed to be the bad guy fucking apologizing for reacting badly to being told to kill yourself?? i hate this website

well okay hold up i never said i was the bad guy. i said there were misunderstandings on both sides and that i was sorry for an issue in one part of how i handled it. just one.

#ask tag #not counting #like um. i do understand that maybe this person's sense of humor is way different then mine okay #but like. they said that they didn't mean it legitimately and once they saw it was haarmful they apologized #for me to say ''i am glad i understand your side of the story and you understand mine'' i am not saying i'm the bad guy #there's really no ''bad guy'' in this situation as i see it because the world is more nuanced then that y'know #like. sometimes people have a sense of humor that you can't pick up on. it doesn't mean you shouldn't state your point of view #and say ''that wasn't how i want people to talk to me and i also won't let you do that'' #also the only part i really ''apologized'' for was that i used a term for them that was uncomfortable #i assume for gender reasons. and i understand where that comes from. if someone called me ''girl'' while arguing i wouldn't like it #whenever i said sorry after that i did my best to try and word it in a way like ''i am sorry this happened but it's not my fault'' #like how when. idk. someone's grandma dies and you say ''sorry for your loss'' you're not saying that you killed their grandma #you're just saying that you feel bad that the thing happened but not that it's your fault #and yes. i do agree that the situation may have been fixed if they just said it was a joke but hindsight is 20/20 right? #anyways. that's my take on the situation. #and like. idk. if they apologized and told me how they saw it. i'm gonna believe them because i have had WAY more malicious people here #like idk. there have been anons who have said wayy worse and there's no discernable reason for why they would #like that one anon who told me that i should get my arms chopped off or something. idk. i deleted it before i could commit it to memory #and that was on purpose #but like. my point is. there's worse people. and if i focus all of my energy about being mad over a person who made one joke in bad taste #idk just seems like a waste of time #at least that's my perspective on the situation. never said i was the bad guy. just sorry it happened #also sorry it happened so late at night for me! i need an ibuprofen and a bagel now

[invinciblerodent]

btw anyone who says or has ever said that a bi/pan character "should have just been made gay :/”, "is basically gay/straight", or uses the word "playersexual", or does anything to that effect, now owes me money. yes, in real life.

if you want to be biphobic, at least fucking pay me.

#squirrel speaks #should not have clicked into that post's notes #the post itself is funny because yes it does happen a lot #yes i do see a lot of things that sound like the people writing them didn't play the same gae I did #or just. come from VERY different walks of lie #but!!!!!! #I'll be honest I'll take a very enthusiastically straight person over a queer biphobe any day #at least the first person is just minding their own goddamn business #holy typos batman i sure hate typing on my phone #(*game and *life I'll fix it on the pc)

[manwhoredennis]

terrible gays judging you

#another sketch i'm probably never gonna finish lol #i just had to draw mac's suit i fucking love it #yes i am aware mac's nose is wanky #it's a sketch so i can pretend i don't care #i do care but i also don't like it enough to work on it any longer #aksdkashd idk i just feel like i kinds fucked it up irreversably #and idk how to fix it #i'll try again tho #dw #maybe i'll have them kiss too~ #should i tag this? #uhhhhh #idk #why not #am i rite #iasip art #iasip #dennis reynolds #iasip fanart #macdennis #dennis reynolds fanart #mac mcdonald fanart #macdennis fanart #for a sketch i sure put a lot of tags huh #well ok #to be completely frank #i did work on this for a bit #but i don't like it #gimmie validation then? #hihi?

[umbra-borealis]

Saw cool art IMMEDIATELY followed by that person rattling about the how 'bad the 2014 Thief gameplay is' and I'm sorry but that is the worst fucking take I've ever seen in my life.

I'm currently playing through the original trilogy and I won't be finishing the first two games because of how ass the controls are. Maybe it's just not for me and that's fine but that doesn't mean the entire game is bad. I'm so sick of this absolute garbage of an excuse not to give a game a chance because 9 out of 10 times they're not talking about the 'gameplay' and I don't think they are now because playing through Deadly Shadows literally made me go 'oh shit so that's where 2014 got it from' multiple times.

This goes for all videogames, stop being a dick. Stop being so unnecessarily aggressive in your opinion towards media because if you were a bit hit personally by me earlier calling the Thief 1 and 2 controls ass, that's my point, not fun is it? I've been saying this for YEARS but PLEASE just say 'I didn't like it' and keep it at that or slap it behind a read more or something. Just going 'it's bad it's bad' is not a review, feedback nor critique. People who love that thing don't wanna see it and to see it in a tag FOR that thing is worse. I go to that tag to find other people who like the same thing, not you ranting about how much you hate it.

#The first two are unplayable to me #They're not fun because the AI is clunky and finding all loot is a nightmare #They're old games so I'm hardly upset but I'm a little tired of people acting like a game with QOL chances is somehow worse #Im also sick of the rumor that the 2014 devs never played the trilogy #They CLEARLY DID #Yes the game is rough around the edges in sound design and cutscenes #Yes it's got a few bugs but I'm replaying on Master mode and in all my hours spent on it I found a whopping 4 bugs #None of them game breaking and one of them hilarious #If Skyrim can be SO MUCH WORSE but still get game of the year and get re-released into oblivion #Despite all of its GAME BREAKING bugs so bad the modding community had to fix it #Then you all SHOULD be more forgiving to Thief 2014 #Hell if you cared at all you'd know the team was put through crunch time and bad management decisions #Have a little fucking sympathy towards your fellow artists

[galedekarios]

It's possible we could be getting hugs one day. Saw someone share datamined Shadowheart lines about her and PC hugging today.

thank you for your message, anon. 🖤 i would like that very much! i saw that datamine as well and think it would be a lovely addition for all companions.

#i think overall they should concentrate their efforts on fixing the scene disparity + act iii in general but yes it'd be a nice addition #also not to be a downer but i've been feeling down lately so... i'm hesitant to hope for gale getting them too at this point #i'm too disillusioned by larian at this point and the way they seemingly have their own preferences / priorities #vg: baldur's gate 3 #series: baldur's gate #text: asks #text: personal

[enigmaticdoctorscully]

💖concept redraw; Julieta, my beloved 💖

you can thank blame @sophiasi1172​ for this one 

#my art #julieta madrigal #encanto #concept art #concept art redraw #ive just seen 5 things i want to fix 💀 #i want to be done tho so were ignoring them #and how flat her shirt looks oh lorde #it was really about her face and hair thats where my effort went #for us #now onto one of the other 6 things i want to draw #should i actually work on dancing part 3 lmaoooo only been a wip for a few months #i am only capable of looking at julieta with heart eyes and drool #THIGHS okay #yes those are my hands sized down #also why does everyone in this movie have very long forearms #did i make her arms more proportionate? yes yes i did #tell me im pretty #the way i spent 8 hours on her hair and it still doesnt FEEL done #oop #oh god i forgot her freckles on her forearms #but her neck is sexy so we have that #shes been looking at me like that for over a week and i' #m not okay

[topsyturvy-turtely]

how john watson found his heart again

[sequel to how john watson lost his heart ]

it's been two years since i've lost my heart.

two years of grief. two years of being lost. two years of darkness.

but it's okay, i've found her. she gave me a new heart.

it's not the same as my own but it does its job: it gave me life. it keeps me alive.

but suddenly you are back.

short version: not dead.

and you present me my long lost heart on a serving tray.

with your fake glasses, your fake mustache, your fake accent.

but my real heart.

right there in front of me.

abruptly i stand up. trying to hold back my anger.

alright. john. i'm suddenly realizing that i probably owe you some sort of an apology-

fist against the table.

two years.

keep it together, watson, i tell myself.

two years.

but how can i?

when the only reason to live is right there in front of me.

when the one reason i almost died myself was right there in front of me.

i thought-

not in the restaurant, watson.

i thought you were dead.

i died too that day. i have lost my heart that day. the day you died.

now you let me grieve...

i grieved for you, i grieved for my heart.

how could you do that?

HOW?!

the slightest sign of insecurity in your face. unsure of what to do with my heart on that serving tray.

right. before you... do anything you might regret...

a little laugh. suddenly i see my heart pumping. once.

one question. just let me ask you one question...

i recognize that my heart is starting to beat again. what is going on?!

can i- can i hug you?

and that's it. that's all it needed for me to push aside my anger. that's all it needed to open up my chest for you again.

and i realize that,

yes, she gave me a new heart, but that heart was just plastic. pretense. not the real thing. she hasn't healed the wound either. she had just put a giant band-aid over it.

and you hug me. you hesitantly put your hands around me.

you hug me, you hesitantly, carefully put my heart back into my chest.

and i cry. i cry right there in the restaurant.

i cry. you hold me.

and you ask if we should go home.

and we go home. your arms around me.

at home you put your hand to my chest. as if to make sure my heart stays in its place.

and i look up.

and you dry my tears.

and i lean in.

and we kiss.

and it's sweet. and it's melts away the grief.

and it heals. the wound that was left.

and we kiss again.

and every kiss,

is like a stitch,

making sure my heart doesn't leave,

making sure i live.

with my heart in it's place,

with you on my side.

and you make sure, i never have to chase

my heart again.

and you make sure, my heart will never have to hide

again.

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[i hope i was able to kinda fix what i did in the first part here. sorry if this sucks.]

tagging some people who reacted to the first part - tell me if you want to be removed or added from/to my tagging list (kinda still trying figure out who to tag): @catlock-holmes @helloliriels @justanobsessedpan @boredsushi @fluffbyday-smutbynight @inevitably-johnlocked @hisfavouritejumper @rhasima @forfucksakejohn @ohlooktheresabee @turbulenttrouble @7arantellgrrl @ssmeowl123 @so-youre-unattached-like-me @totallysilvergirl @peanitbear @train-mossman @loki-lock @smulderscobie @timberva @grace-in-the-wilderness @chinike @pansherlock @the-smol-bean-libby-blog @jawnn-watson @whatnext2020 @ritorukurou @ace-of-sqates @supermarvlock79 @hedgehoglovesotter @sharkk7 @mood-is-bored @2smach @alliesway @eiressmurdock087 @viva--lapluto @skaihunter @nadinetook @hasenkind687 @plutoholmes @quodekash @chinike @fangirl6644 @riverwithoutbanks @autisticaspen @nathan-no @escapingthereality

#yes sherlock is john's heart #it's cheesy but that's okay because it's #johnlock #fix it fic #johnlock poetry #johnlock fic #johnlock fluff #angst to fluff #johnlock ficlet #johnlock fanfic #johnlock fanfiction #the hug #how it should have been #just let them be happy #gosh i love metaphors too much #metaphorical writing #bbc sherlock #sherlock #john watson #sherlock holmes #sherlock x john #topsyturvy turtely #turtely #my writing #don't steal