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the-priestess-of-dawn · 7 months

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[ bathe ] sender helps receiver wash themselves in a bath This BUT its original timeline Chrima where Chrom got hurt in the assassination attempt and its mentioned he "never fully recovered" (implying he has issues with his injuries that would hinder movement or daily life)

Not sure if this is what you had in mind, but... I wanted to avoid making poor Chrom a Risen again (or otherwise dooming him to a bad end), so this is set in FEH.

"Another early night," Grima sneers in greeting when Chrom returns to their shared tent. "Yeah." Frankly, Chrom isn't in the mood to chat. He nearly fell off his horse during his morning patrol, and his day had not gotten any better after that. He's more than ready to lie down and let it be over. Grima glances up from the books splayed across his desk and frowns. "Shouldn't you stay up a little longer? Perhaps enjoy a bath?" Grima shakes his head. "When was the last time you washed?" Chrom mutters something indistinct. The truth is, he hasn't properly bathed since he and his team departed from Askr Castle. "Seriously?" Grima groans. "Go clean the filth off of you already!" "I haven't had time!" Chrom snaps. "You have it right now!" Grima insists. "I..." Chrom grits his teeth. "I'll do it... tomorrow." Grima glares at him. But then, slowly, the annoyance in his eyes shifts to something more calculating. "Just what is it you're hiding from me?" he murmurs. "Some secret plot the fell dragon isn't to know...?" "Nothing like that," Chrom says. "There's no conspiracy. The others probably haven't even noticed anything." At least, he hopes not. "But you are hiding something," Grima confirms. "Come now, Chrom, you can be honest with me. If your wish is to deceive the Order of Heroes, perhaps I may even be of assistance." "No, I—" Chrom sighs. "It's nothing, alright? Just... old injuries acting up." He grimaces. He was injured the night Emmeryn was murdered, and he never fully recovered. At this point, it's pretty obvious that he never will. But it's not so bad. He's a little slower, but it's not that big of a problem when he's on horseback. And sure, he gets tired more easily than he used to, but he's always liked to nap in his free time anyway. How can he possibly complain, when he's lucky just to be alive? "Standing too long in the bathing tent, what with all the steam... It's inconvenient for me, that's all," he explains. "Add the possibility of others coming in, and... I'd just be inconveniencing everyone else, too." "Hm..." Grima purses his lips. "Hmph." He turns away without a word, walking out of the tent into the night. "Er..." Chrom contemplates going after him, but... He really is exhausted. Just the effort of taking off his armor leaves his muscles aching more than they ought to. Just when he's finally ready to fall onto his bed, Grima returns, a basin of water in hand. "W-What are you... Are you trying to help me?" Chrom asks. "Grima, I... I don't think I can do this right now. I'm sorry—" "Hush," Grima says. "Sit and rest. I can scrub your body as well as you could." "Huh? You don't have to go that far..." Chrom's skin grows warm. "I mean, you're not my nurse. Here, maybe I can get up in a minute and—" "Chrom." Grima scowls. "Don't you have a whole band of merry little servants who would do anything to aid you?" "You're referring to the Shepherds, I presume," Chrom says. "It's true, they've been nothing but helpful to me. But I can't expect them to do everything in my stead." For the love of the gods, he's their commander! If they can't trust him to lead, what is he good for? He wouldn't even ask Robin for this. His Robin, the one who knows him and doesn't have a giant dragon body to worry about managing. Grima... Grima remembers nothing of his human life... Chrom is as good as a stranger to him... So then what is Chrom but another mere worm selfishly imposing upon him? And yet... Grima drags a rag gently down Chrom's leg. The water is still pleasantly warm despite the evening chill, which means Grima must have used some of his magic to keep it so. "Any decent ally would do this," Grima says. But Chrom can't help but think that only someone special would go out of his way to offer.

#chrom x grima #my writing

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matan4il · 6 months

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It's been a month since the lives of every Jew around the world was changed and I know that I for one will never fully recover from this. I'm sending you and everyone I know in Israel so much love and support because I know that at least I can live relatively untouched by what's happening.

I desperately want to talk to my non-jewish friends about what's going on but I honestly still have no idea how to do so because the situation is so unbelievably horrific that without having actual family and friends involved (or living in Israel), I don't think it's possible for anyone to appreciate how fucking terrifying everything is.

The news broke today of an American Jew dying after being attacked at a pro-palestine rally and there has been zero coverage of this outside of Jewish circles. I still check behind me when I commute because I'm afraid someone is gonna push me under a train because I am Jewish.

I joked, in the dark way that a lot of us do, that would I have to die for the gentiles to take the Jews' fears seriously and now someone has, it's clear that is being murdered in broad daylight (and not ok Israel because apparently it's clear that being in Israel invalidates your right to life in a lot of people's eyes) isn't enough to even get people to listen to us.

I just don't know what to do anymore.

Hi, love! Sorry it took me a moment. I'm doing my best, but I hope you know that my heart is always with you!

I feel exactly the same. My life will never be the same. Everything feels different. And we will heal, but scars this deep, they don't disappear. They will always be there. We have been forever changed. And I think that's... I think that's a Jewish experience that many former generations had, and we fooled ourselves to think the generation of the Holocaust would be the last one to go through this.

IDK what advice to give you on talking to your non-Jewish friends. I can tell you I've had many who reached out to me, and it's been so heartwarming. I've had three that I reached out to, but pretty much because I saw them spreading hate filled posts, and I thought they could, and would want, to do better. That didn't really work out, but then I guess if they were extreme enough that I felt compelled to reach out to them, maybe this attempt never really stood a chance. All I know is that I do feel better for having tried. But if you have friends who are not that far gone, yet they haven't been talking to you about this, then maybe an option would be to tell them that you need to share your feelings and thoughts. People often shy away from politics, but if they're really your friends, then they would listen to you sharing these more personal aspects of what's been going on.

Yes, the news about Paul Kessler's homicide were horrifying. A 69 years old man shouldn't have to be scared to go out expressing what he thinks in a free, democratic society. Please, do be careful! What this world should be, it clearly isn't.

I'm gonna be honest, after everything our people had gone through, I'd rather Jews be alive and hated, than spoken of compassionately, but dead. If the world had shown full empathy for every single one of the massacre's victims, I would still give all of that empathy away to have our people back, alive and well, unharmed. What's insane is that even dead Jews no longer get any empathy, not in Israel, and not outside it, as you've pointed out. So many people who claim to be reblogging anti-Israel posts, because they value human life, have failed to reblog anything condemning the massacre, or the rise in antisemitism, or mourn Paul.

IDK what we can do other than be there for each other, and speak up as much as we can, and where and when it's safe for us. I am sending you so much love, and the softest of hugs, okay? Please do let me know how you're doing, if you feel like it. xoxox

(for all of my updates and ask replies regarding Israel, click here)

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woofety · 6 months

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I was tagged by @sirtadcooper - thank you!! 😃

Tag someone you want to know AND/OR some of your besties.

(mandatory under the cut because I'm an idiot who can't keep it short to save her life 😅)

Favourite colour: this is an easy one, I'm in an established relationship and still madly in love after so many years with practically every shade of violet/purple that exists! 💜 Maybe I'm slightly more drawn to colder hues, but I'm not really that picky when it comes to this family of colours!

(This is a picture of a portion of wall in my bedroom I have asked to be painted with this shade of violet - which is a bit darker in reality but y' know, artificial light, that corner is way too dark to photograph otherwise... the whole room has various hues of purple scattered around: curtains, decorations, blankets, pillows... here's a special appearance of my beautiful boat lamp! ⛵💕)

Last song: thanks to a suggestion from Youtube, which probably hates me, because I'm still recovering from a flu and generally weak so it would be wise to avoid any kind of unneccessary emotional outburst:

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Not technically a song, but still... I'm not sure if I was crying while watching this because I haven't had the chance to listen to them live yet, since they made a European tour twice but never touched my country and I couldn't travel abroad to see them, or because of... whatever it is that is going on with this performance and these artists, "epicness" to me barely covers it, I know I'm exaggerating but that's how much I love Two Steps From Hell, what can I say... In any case here I am being even more of a mess than I already am, you'd think I have had enough of using handkerchiefs these days! 😭❤️‍🔥

Last movie: I think it was Imagine me & you, which I finally watched after seeing a lot about it here (unpopular opinion no one asked for, I thought I would have enjoyed it more... ☹️)... It was either that or Bros (which I actually enjoyed it more than I expected instead 😁), at the moment I don't remember exactly which came last...

Currently watching: Fellow Travelers as for new shows (fuck me, seriously, what am I doing to myself 😭 - I'm crying quite a bit in this post 😅), rewatching Blackadder after having finished A bit of Fry and Laurie 😆, and sports as well, mainly tennis, padel and basketball atm!

Other stuff I watched this year: Oh my, I didn't watch an awful lot of things, but I'll surely forget something - I'm terrible remembering this kind of stuff (if only it was just these things 😅)! Let's see, in no particular order, I can recall Minx (so far this year the most pleasant surprise in terms of TV series I've watched for the first time, silly [affectionate] little show), Wednesday (it was a bit meh for me, not sure if I'll watch next season), Red, white & royal blue (likely one of my favourite movies this year ❤️... yeah, it's not certainly a big deal of a movie ofc and I'm not even a rom com gal, especially for those Hallmark style movies, like this kinda is, but idk, it was cute and warm and brought good feelings and probably I watched it in the right moment for me, or one on which I just needed good vibes, what can I say), Call me by your name (even more than watching the movie reading the book was... quite an experience - I'm not saying it an entirely bad way, but I'm still so utterly confused about my feelings about this novel), What's love, The kissing booth (don't ask me about this one, the things I do to watch an actor I like 😅 - there's a whole trilogy of it but I only watched the two movies that had in the cast the actor I was interested in, really can't be bothered to do more than that, it was enough suffering I endured 🤣), Only murders in the building, The witcher, National treasure: edge of history (I don't care what anyone says, this show deserved at least another season, it was far from perfect but there has been way worse that still sticks around, and I'm speaking as a fan of the movies foremost, especially the first one, which is one of my comfort movies, as absurd and silly as it is 😊), Shadow and bone, The witcher (as for these, I'll probably keep watching an eventual next season only for some of the cast, because both were an utter disappointment and I wouldn't bother continuing otherwise), let's see, what else, oh yeah, Smiley (this was another nice show tbh, and in this case I could also train my ear a bit on the language since it's in Spanish and I'm trying to learn and improve it 😝) and two other Spanish shows (guilty again for watching mainly for an actor I wanted to see ah ehm), Merlì/Merlì: Sapere Aude and Alguien tiene que morir, and Érase una vez… pero ya no, all pretty much forgettable... I don't know what else, probably there is something more, but I'm making it lenghty already, I should stop anyway!

Shows I dropped this year/didn’t finish: damn, I should make a sheet about tv/movies as I do with books, it's honestly hard remembering what I watched or dropped! I can recall not going through the second episode of Warrior nun: again, another show I was curious about having seen things here on Tumblr, but I didn't feel it after the first episode, I'm not even sure exactly why - it's possible I'll try again someday, it's way too early to have an opinion after only one episode! I also didn't finish Lockwood & co., this one wasn't really for me tbh... I'm not even mentioning something I've been watching only and exclusively because it's a sort of joke I have with a friend of mine... All right, I'll say, it's High School Musical: The musical - the series 😅 Truth is, my friend likes the movies and low key also the series, whereas I hate them all, and she knows they piss me off and she has fun hearing my comments and teasing me about it... I have a bit less fun submitting myself to this "torture" but whatever! 🤣 I try to watch the series when I'm particularly willing to waste my time, because the only reason I'm doing it is to have a laugh with said friend, anyway rn I'm at the last season and it's so bad, sooooooo bad (mind you, meaning it's just not for me, I'm likely too old and too millennial to watch this kind of shows anymore), I don't know how I am supposed to endure any more of it lol!! I guess at some point I'll force myself to finish it to end my suffering and hoping my friend and I will finally close this questionable chapter of our watching experience, but damn it's hard! 😝 As for shows of which I completed a season but didn't watch the next, I could say one was Abbott Elementary: pretty bummed about it because it was actually cute and was enjoying it, I finished the first season when the second didn't air yet and when it did, I had moved on and lost interest a bit and wasn't in the mood to continue my watching (happens to me a lot)... I think at some point I will resume this one, just have to find the right inspiration! 😛 (I'm rather complicated and picky about my watching/reading experience in general, ops) And I have to mention as well, even if it will surely grant me some disapproval from the person who tagged me in this game 😆, I couldn't pick up Our flag means death after the first season as well, and for now I don't think I will resume it: I didn't really feel this show, I don't know what to say... 🤷 Should I mention that I also tried rewatching The Terror but I was like "oh hell no!" after the first episode?! 😅 In my defense I watched it at night, and the show is A LOT and nearly killed me the first time, yeah ok I'm making excuses but I have to be in a certain state of mind to watch certain things and The Terror is one of those cases - I already mentioned I'm complicated with my watching experience, yes?! 😜 Anyway it was a rewatch so it shouldn't count sssshhhh 🤫😁

Currently reading: more like, the books I've put on hold atm, ouch! True that this year, especially in the first half, I've read way more than I expected and definitely way more than I usually do, but that's not an excuse to make a pause - still, I'm realizing that it's been few weeks since I've picked up my readings! Anyway, what I've been reading is Mercanti avventurieri by Attilio Brilli, which collects stories about merchants and their travels and trades through the centuries; Columbus by Lawrence Bergreen, the account of Cristoforo Colombo's voyages in America - not happy enough of ending up horrified and outraged by the chronicle of Magellano's expedition (by the story and events, not the author's writing, which I actually appreciated a lot), I decided to educate myself more about another so called "pioneer" who thanks to his hubris committed terrible atrocities in the name of "progress" and "religion" and "civilization" and so on 😡 , since the little knowledge I have about Colombo comes mainly from my years at school... Despite the fact that my respect for this man is nowhere to be seen, I'm still somehow fascinated by the narration of sea voyages, which in the end are actually my main interest when reading this kind of stories; Atlante delle fortune di mare di Cyril Hofstein, an account of tales about (mis)fortunes at sea, involving incidents, lost treasures, mysterious events, discoveries, disappearances, disasters and so forth - btw, in the book there is this particular chapter:

The disappearance of the Erebus and Terror is the title - the real story is terrifying enough even without creating a fictional horror show inspired by it jfc!

And lastly, this is definitely the less "serious" reading, The Lawrence Browne affair by Cat Sebastian, one of my first attempts at reading "proper" (meaning they're not fanfictions, not that I don't consider those "proper" literature, on the contrary many of them are written far better than some published books I've read, so yeah, I should say "published" instead) erotic novels lmao 😝 This was a whim really, I felt I wanted to read something light, "wicked" and not to be taken seriously (it also was probably some sort of "knee-jerk reaction" to many of the queer books I read this year, which were sad, depressing and/or tragic 😔)! Romance novels are not really my jam in general, but every once in a while they don't hurt, since I'm doing it just for fun! This one is actually the second book of a trilogy, more disappointing than the first book I have to say, which was more "juicy" and entertaining! 😁

Currently listening to: ah, this is a tough one to pinpoint, because lately my Spotify is on shuffle most of the time (I have a folder literally called "Miscellanea" that keeps a bit of everything, it's a glorious mess lol), and my music preferences are rather varied... Let's say that if I have to consciously choose something at the moment, there would certainly be Poets of the Fall, Gaelic Storm, The Irish Rovers, Santiano (in general celtic folk/punk songs, especially if inspired by sea and sailors stories- those are good for all seasons 🥰), Two Steps From Hell, J2 and "epic music" in general, and dance-pop music from '70 to '00, original or remixes, especially when I work out in the last case!

Currently working on: do crosswords count? It's my newest pursuit lol 😆 Because otherwise I'm afraid I'm not working on anything in particular at the moment (and I should start, since I had a couple of ideas for gifts for Christmas that alas, have to be handcrafted in order to be created, and if I want to have them done I am the one who must work on them, ugh can you believe it, outrageous, what has the world come to 😂)... I occasionally do a bit of calligraphy, create costume jewellery or create little macramè things, again usually trinkets but this summer I bought thicker yarns so I could have a go at something a little bigger like coin purses, wallets and little bags, and all in all it didn't go that bad:

The problem is, at least with the purses, that with these dimensions I can't fit half the things I usually bring with me when I go out because "you never know what might happen I might need this thing", so these purses were more like first tries and will likely not be used by me very much because they are too small for my necessities! 😅 In any case, I had to put this activity on hold for a bit because I lacked some time to dedicate myself to it!

Oh, wait, does trying to repair a porcelain ornament that fell on the floor (not because of me, I want to clarify, for once that I don't accidentally bump into stuff and make a mess - which happens more often than I'd like 😅) count? Hardly but whatever, anyway it's going to be complicated to glue the pieces back, some have shattered in such tiny fragments, sigh...

Current obsession: I'm almost shocked to report that at the current moment no particular obsession has consumed my every waking hour 🤣 I mean, even the flame of padel, which I've been following almost religiously all year, has dimmed a little, but it is the end of the season/year, everyone is tired and so am I apparently, rooting for couples who almost never have significant results (story of my life lol), so I guess I'm recharging the batteries for another round of hopeless cheer next year, yay! 🥳 For the rest, in terms of media I believe there is nothing of significance to report in terms of proper "obsession" for the time being, so yeah, that's it 😌 (the times of Black Sails or even Agents of SHIELD are far behind me, I miss being that "obsessed" tbh ☹️)

Tagging @thelifeinmyshadesofgrey , @whitestnoise , @lives-ruined-and-bloodshed, @valentinaonthemoon , @mednay , @tirairgid (ofc if you want to and haven't done it before) and whoever wants to give it a go really!

#about me #tag game #sirtadcooper #how could I make this so loooooooooong gdi I'm sorry I rambled an awful lot 😖#thank you again for thinking of me!

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yannig · 15 days

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I watched Bed Friend

And I loved it!

Ngl, the premise of them starting as friends with benefits made me a bit hesitant to start it. I'm ace, and generally not a big fan of sex scenes on screen. I put up with them when they're relevant to the story, but getting into a show whose whole starting point was that the main couple were having sex together - yeah, I wasn't too hot. But I heard that the show dealt with Uea's trauma pretty well, so I decided to give it a shot.

And boy am I happy I did! First of all, there isn't that much sex. Like, we got more intense and developed scenes in Kinnporsche. Second of all, it was great!

This is one of my favorite BL so far!

Bed friend is a pretty good term for FWB, actually. I don't know if the show came up with it or not, but it's the first time I heard it and it's great!

I have a type! Apparently the cold-and-dismissive-because-traumatised meets cocky-but-caring-who-will-give-anything-to-take-care-of-them dynamic really does it for me. This is the exact same dynamic than between Sky and Prapai, who are one of my favorite BL couples. x) I guess I just like black cat x golden retriever uh.

Though I will say, I think Bed Friend handled the trauma better. By quite a large margin. My boy Uea is actually going to therapy! And taking medication for his mental health! And takes time to recover.

Yeay for STD awareness! Going to get tested after a night where no one was sober enough to remember to use a condom is a great idea! Especially when you've just learned your boyfriend was cheating on you. Get tested friends!

What's up with King's interior design, seriously? Listen, you wanna put copies of classical paintings in your condo, sure, have fun. It screams "I'm rich", but it can work. But what the fuck is up with the painting in his bedroom???

I'm pretty sure it's The Coronation of Napoleon. And I do. not. understand. why anyone would put that in a bedroom. If you want to flex about it, put it in your living room or something, but the bedroom?? I - I don't get it. Of all the classical paintings to chose from. Why this one?

Mind you, it's a detail, and one that has no impact on the story whatsoever. But it bugged me every time it was on screen.

King's reaction at the end of episode 7 was bad enough I almost didn't forgive him.

This is one of the tropes I hate the most ; the love interest getting jealous over what was clearly sexual assault. I hate it with a passion.

Especially when the love interest already has reasons to suspect it wasn't consensual. And King very much did. He spent the entire episode protection Uea from Krit, and now he's accusing Uea of asking for it?! I was waiting the whole scene for him to bash the door in or something, and instead he goes victim blaming?!?!

Listen. I know the context. Uea was pulling away full stop, and King was getting angsty and insecure. But to the point of getting jealous of what he knew was sexual harassment?! Fuck you King.

Props to Uea for telling King they couldn't even be friends if that was how he talked to him! Good job! Don't let the man be an asshole just because you like him!

So, why did I forgive him?

I frankly would have liked it better if we got an actual apology scene. He should have had to hear exactly how he made Uea feel that night.

But. Except for that, he did pretty good to fix his fuck up. Beginning with making sure Krit faced consequences and would never bother Uea again. Even if it meant putting his own job on the line. As far as grand gestures of apology go, this one is pretty good.

And then, because grand gestures are good but what matters is how you behave on the daily, he consistently showed Uea he respected his boundaries. Including asking if he could go after the step-father instead of just doing it, and later respecting Uea's need for time before acting on the info they obtained.

Also yes, a man who can make the system work to actually punish rapists and abusers is hot. The mafia way of murder and torture is great, but not very applicable for most of us. Having actual examples of the system working once in a while is good for the soul okay.

I would have liked for him to grovel a bit more, because I love grovel, but overall he's doing pretty well. So I forgive him. But I'm not forgetting!

#bed friend the series #king x uea #spoilers #bed friend spoilers #tw sex assault #it comes with the show but still #if anyone has recommendations for black cat x golden retriever in QL #I'd happily hear them #tw rape

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twilightknight17 · 1 month

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This time on P3R: ...it’s October 7th.

I finally got my aggressive dialogue option.

Before we start, I don’t know all of who’s reading these posts, obviously. (I’m guessing at least one person specifically though. ^_^) I can guess that most of you know P3 already. So you know what’s here, and you can probably tell that I’ve been talking around or not emphasizing some of the worst bits of this. Especially around Chidori.

That’s been for the benefit of people who may not know P3, or at the very least, know it mostly from my enthusiasm for Ryoji and/or reading just the opening of Hours. (I’m actually kind of entertained by the idea that there’s people who don’t know P3, who want to read my posts just to basically hear me tell them a story.)

But this next part has something that I cannot downplay. So, I will warn you when I get to it in this post, but we’re going to be confronting major topics of suicide. It does not happen, but it’s going to be talked about. So please mind yourselves if you’re reading along.

Anyway.

To start off with a lighter topic, I have saved all of the dorks who wandered into Tartarus, and have managed to get a solid chunk of money while doing so. After I sell all my bits and bobs, I should have at least 200K, which should keep me going for a while.

Fuuka also warned everyone not to drink the waterfalls in Tziah, which made me laugh for inside-joke reasons.

I find it funny and also kind of brilliant that whatever costume you're wearing is reflected in the menus. That’s a really nice detail.

(They could make however many variations of the menu, but not Hamu--) *shot*

Anyway, things are normal. We head back from Tartarus, sleep, head to school, clean up from the culture festival we didn’t have… Blech. I’m also off to the shops to upgrade my stuff with my new riches, so that means a chance to chat with the antique shop lady.

Seriously, who are you?? Are you a former Kirijo scientist?

Also, it’s good to see that my fave Escapade patron has recovered!

School is as nonsense as ever, as my math teacher is absent, so here’s Mr. Edogawa to ask more things about magic.

...are you SERIOUS. Max rank on BOTH and my academics STILL won’t level up???? My friend made a joke that Pharos is stealing my braincells, but honestly??? Maybe. If he’s taking half my braincells to recover his memories, maybe that’s why I never seem to get any smarter. X’D

I’m still working on social links and hangouts. Ken needs to go visit Sojiro in the future. He seems to have a serious appreciation for coffee. I’m sure Goro would take him to Leblanc. ^_^

Meanwhile, apparently you must be level 7 friends to be asked to join a cult.

I’m not giving you 132000 yen. I JUST stopped being broke. My soul will be fine.

At least Bebe is a lovely person to be around.

We also hang out with Shinji again, because apparently even with max courage, we still can’t finish the burger challenge. So I guess I have to max everything? Ugh. More fun to spend time learning to cook.

...hm. Oh dear. XD

It’s fine. The tempura turned out good, and Shinji tells me about how he learned to cook while working part-time at a restaurant. I’m kind of impressed how close I was on my Shinji characterization in Hours with just movie context.

I love him, and it’s killing me that I can’t social link enough to save him no matter what.

Time for school again, and Mr. Ono has finally reached the Sengoku Era. It’s time to talk about the era of the samurai. It gives me the option to sleep in class, but one, I need more academic points, and I can’t imagine sleeping through this guy’s first lecture on his favorite topic ever.

……..are you KIDDING ME ASDFKJDJGS:LDF

No, no, no. We’re not acknowledging this. We’re moving on. We’re still not smart enough to link with Mitsuru, but we can talk to Yukari now that we’re charismatic! Apparently she’s been waiting this long to apologize for some of the stuff she said on Yakushima. Which, it’s fine. We were all freaking out that night.

...she says “just kidding” after, but like… no she’s not. X’D

So one thing I’ve been missing is that apparently the console in the command room has been freaking out every month or so and recording video. I saw the first two of them because I was prompted to go look, but I haven’t looked since, and now there’s a bunch. One of each member of SEES, I think.

For a sec, I thought we were going to catch Pharos on camera, but no. Just Aigis sneaking into my room. XD I will say, though, that’s the night we supposedly went to Tartarus for Q. So now I’m wondering if it was a shared dream, and we were in meta-space only mentally.

That’s not out of the realm of possibility.

We’re never going to get answers, though, because Atlus gonna Atlus.

It’s definitely creepy that the dorm has cameras in everyone’s rooms. Mitsuru’s tape has her walking around in a towel. Like… Ikutsuki. Seriously. Dude.

I’ve also found my last social link that isn’t Mitsuru! It’s the Tower, a monk who hangs out in Escapade, believes that love and true friendship don’t exist, and is overall unpleasant to be around as he drinks and smokes.

No it’s not! I swear, all of my most unpleasant social links are the ones that are around when everyone else is busy. It’s like they know I don’t want to do them unless there’s no one else available. X’D

I sigh and carry on, because it’s time for the full moon! We’re off to Iwatodai Station to deal with the next two Arcana Shadows, Strength and Fortune. Shinji isn’t with us because he said he’d be late, and Ken isn’t with us because… he wasn’t in his room, and Junpei couldn’t find him. Which seems like something to be worried about, but we gotta deal with the shadows first.

Strength is very pretty, but it’s also shielding Fortune so that Fortune can keep doing its roulette wheel bullshit and throwing buffs and damage all over the place.

I got hit early on by “300 damage to everyone” and lost everyone but Minato, but I was able to recover, and it spent a lot of turns just causing everyone to have upgraded magic damage. Which I think benefited me more than them, because Minato was immune to wind, Yukari resists wind, and everyone else was trucking along admirably.

Strength was more of the tank, so once she went down, Fortune wasn’t too bad, despite another 300-damage spin. Shinji and Ken never showed up, though.

One, for fuck’s sake, at least wait until we’re safely home, Ikutsuki.

Two, the CHILD we are responsible for is MISSING. SIR.

Akihiko realizes it’s October 4th and runs off, and Mitsuru herds the rest of us back to the dorm.

And now.

This is your warning. The next part will discuss suicidal ideation and murder, so if you’d like to skip that, head to the next set of giant bold words and avert your eyes otherwise.

Right, okay. So now that we’re all on the same page, here we go.

Ken and Shinji are at Port Island Station, across the monorail.

Ken has called him here because he recognized Shinji as the reason that his mother is dead. He’s completely devoted his life to making sure that the person who killed her faces justice. And he’s here to take justice into his own hands.

The suffering that this kid has gone through… How much pain, for an eleven-year-old to consider killing himself? But he wants Shinji to die.

Cut to the rest of us, minus Akihiko, back at the dorm. It has finally dawned on Mitsuru what the significance of the date is, and she orders Fuuka to look for all three of them, urgently. Junpei asks what’s so important about today’s date, and Mitsuru reveals that it’s the day Ken’s mom died, two years ago. And that Shinjiro is the reason she’s dead.

They were hunting a rogue shadow in the city, and failed to account for civilians.

...why were Ken and his mom awake during the Dark Hour? Are we just not gonna mention that?

Either way, it was an accident, not a murder, but Ken thinks it was on purpose. And that’s horrible.

The rest of SEES heads for the station when Fuuka finds them, and we cut back to Ken and Shinji.

Shinji isn’t going to fight.

He tells Ken that the only reason not to do this is because taking a life will end up making Ken just like him. He tells Ken that what he did tore him up so badly that he left SEES and started taking suppressants. Ken, angry as hell, just thinks he’s begging for his life, but… He’s not. He doesn’t care about himself. He’s just worried about Ken.

Takaya shows up, because got forbid he not make things worse. He thinks Ken should go for it, because goading a child to commit murder is a great thing!

“Is it not permissible to kill those who are themselves killers?” NO. That just means you’re making more killers to replace them. The cycle of revenge is pointless. Not that Takaya cares, because he’s just going to kill Ken afterwards. He wants to get rid of us, since we keep destroying the shadows, but he calls it “salvation”.

Dude really has no qualms about killing a child.

Shinjiro, realizing that, gets between Ken and Takaya, and Takaya points out that Shinji is dying anyway from the suppressants. This upsets Ken.

The point is that you shouldn’t have been living solely for revenge. :/

Takaya points out that it shouldn’t matter whether he kills Ken or not.

So this kid has been living for two years just for the purpose of killing his mom’s killer and then himself. No wonder he doesn’t want to enjoy food or spend time with us in the dorm. No wonder he asked Minato to take care of Hamburger. He literally wasn’t planning to come back. He was just going to go off and die, and we wouldn’t have found either of them until it was too late.

We’re still almost too late.

But Shinji is not down for child murder and gets a fully-voiced “fuck”, because this situation deserves it.

And Takaya shoots him.

He asks, then, who our group’s navi is. Because we have to have someone as powerful or more powerful than Chidori, since we keep getting to the full moon shadows before Strega. And it’s clear that he wants to know so he can murder them, too. Shinji won’t answer, and Ken speaks up to claim that it’s him. That his navi abilities were the only reason they let a kid join them in the first place. Which isn’t a bad lie, but Ken…!

...he doesn't even try to get away from Takaya. Just shuts his eyes.

The gun goes off, but Shinji has forced himself up, and gets in the way again. He might have made it, but not with a second gunshot at point-blank range. And THAT’S when SEES arrives, and Takaya makes himself scarce. Because he’s too much of a coward to face us all at once. What, unwilling to try to gun down the whole group, you fucking bastard?

(Tumblr crunched the quality as punishment for me trying to cram too many screenshots in the post, so you might have to open the image in a new tab. X''''D)

Everything fades to black as Ken screams.

If you were skipping this section, you’re clear now.

It has been maybe seven hours since Shinjiro died, and we get a classic line that basically sums up how not-okay everyone in this game is.

Somehow, the school already knows. We have an assembly where the principal talks about the horrible sense of loss everyone feels because of this terrible tragedy. But the upperclassmen in the rows in front of us won’t stop muttering about how they didn’t even know an Aragaki was in their class, and how he was probably a delinquent, and how they heard he was shot in a senseless back-alley fight. They turn around to ask if we’d heard of him, but then decide nah, we were only second-years, of course we wouldn’t.

And FINALLY I get to say something rude.

Junpei follows to back me up immediately after, and we get scolded by the teacher. It’s not fair, but… There’s nothing we can do.

No one has seen Akihiko all day, but he shows up to the gym after everyone is gone to talk to Shinji. He… blames himself for this. He says he thought that if he was strong enough, he could protect everyone, the way he couldn’t protect his sister. But now Shinji is gone too.

He promises that from now on, he’s not just going to fight for the sake of getting stronger, and his persona evolves from Polydeuces to Caesar.

It makes sense, in a sad way, that he can’t be Pollux anymore when his brother Castor is gone.

Ow.

Mitsuru calls a meeting, because we have to decide what to do with Ken. But when she sends Aigis to fetch Ken from his room (on the second floor), he’s climbed out the window and is gone.

P3 really is just validating my Hours choices years later, because I had Mitsuru commenting about how they needed to put Goro on the third floor so he wouldn’t climb out a window. I genuinely didn’t realize that she had prior experience informing her decision. XDDDD

Anyway, Fuuka wants to go look for Ken, and Akihiko says we need to give him time. Personally, I’m with Fuuka, because I don’t think we should be letting a kid who is as… uh… emotionally unstable as Ken be on his own. Who knows what he’ll do in the state he’s in?

I can’t go hunting, though, and most of my social links are unavailable due to midterms in a week, so…

You know, I know the social links aren’t tied to main story progression, but dealing with this guy immediately after what happened just makes me angry. Fuck off, dude. Your cult is not saving anyone. Not you, not me, not my senpai who would have been INCREDIBLE to have as a brother. And you’re only doing this because you have to recruit someone for your bullshit.

After Suemitsu leaves, the guy whose son he scammed comes back, pointing him out to a thug that he apparently wants to beat him up. And honestly, if my option is to stop him from getting beaten up or not, I genuinely can’t say I will. I know he’s just an idiot teenager who got sucked into a cult, but I don’t like him.

There’s quite a few of my social links that are like “why am I spending time with this person still?” At least in P5 when people were tricky to link with, I still wanted to make an effort for the perks. (Not that there were any confidants in P5 I genuinely didn’t like. Not even Mishima.) But spending time with Tanaka, or Suemitsu, or Mutatsu? Why? Why keep coming back? :/

Akihiko finds Ken at Port Island Station, processing. Ken points out that his mom’s death was reported as a car accident, and no one ever knew the truth. And no one will know the truth about Shinjiro either.

Akihiko tells him that it’s his choice, but that if he wants to keep fighting, SEES will be there for him. And Ken decides that he’s going to keep going. His persona evolves from Nemesis to Kala-nemi, and he returns to the dorm, much to everyone’s relief.

The midnight hour strikes, and Pharos comes back to chat.

“You look a little tired.” No shit, honey. You’re waking me up at midnight.

We’ve been over this, it’s because you’re stealing my braincells.

We do get to tell him that we lost a friend. He says that he wouldn’t have understood that before, but he gets it now, because he has a friend. Grief and mourning in the face of death makes more sense now that he can fear losing someone.

Thanks, Pharos. You’re important to me, too. It’ll be okay. Just... stay with me. I can’t lose anyone else right now.

#Li plays P3Re #long post #pls heed the warning

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upsidedownlurker · 9 months

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My Very Accurate Predictions for ST5 (take these very seriously)

These theories have been painstakingly researched, rewritten and peer-reviewed to ensure they will ABSOLUTELY happen in Season 5. If any of these theories are proven incorrect, it's the Duffers' faults for creating a poorly-written show.

Spoiler warning! My theories will definitely come true, so this is basically just a run-down of every plot point in Season 5.

Mike and Will have their first kiss in the Upside Down. This happens in Mike's garage. Argyle, who has been tripping on magic mushrooms for the past five hours, shoves himself in between the kissing boys and does a thumbs-up. He yells, "NICE ONE BROCHACHOS!" Will is so angry at the ruined moment that he punches a wall, which is what causes the garage light to flicker in the real world.

The gang find out that Max Mayfield is alive! This happens when Vecna is revealed to not only be Henry Creel and One, but also Lonnie, Murray, Eleven, Max, and Jamie Campbell-Bower. Vecna (whose real name is Brad, btw) possessed all those characters before the show even started. That's why Lonnie left Joyce, Murray is all cuckoo-bananas, Eleven has powers, Max can skateboard (she has powers too), and why Vecna is played by Jamie Campbell-Bower (for continuity). Vecna made it look like Max would never wake up, but actually she was just chillin'. She is completely healed by episode one.

Karen Wheeler is actually Alice Creel! Alice never died, she just faked it for the lols. That's just the kind of wacky, goofy gal she is. She faked her own death by stabbing herself in the eyes with a dinner fork and breaking all her limbs from sheer force of will. Then she recovered after a few decades and had a family with Ted.

Eddie comes back from the Upside Down! He never died, he just faked it for the lols. That's just the kind of wacky, goofy guy he is. We find out he's alive when Mike and Will are kissing in the Upside Down. After Will punches a wall, the garage collapses. Eddie is revealed on the other side, barely alive and covered in blood. He pulls Mike, Will and Argyle into a group hug and whispers, "Those bats didn't kill me... but forced conformity is killing the youth. Be gay, boys. Be very gay." Argyle cries, Mike applauds, and Will is angry. After that, Eddie dies for real this time.

Will's forgotten birthday is a HUGE plot point!!! Everyone was going to throw him a surprise birthday party where Vecna popped out of a cake, but since Will was in Lenora, Vecna couldn't make it (he gets carsick on long drives). Everyone was so bummed that their favourite spider-loving murderer wasn't there, that they pretended Will didn't have a birthday instead. Will was the only one who knew the truth– Vecna was in Lenora, after all. He possessed Angela in order to wish Will a very happy birthday. Then he realised that bullying Eleven was really funny and wacky and goofy, so he kept doing it. Will was fine with this.

Eleven loses her powers forever... when Eleven finds out that she's been Vecna this whole time, and that she's been bullying herself at school for months, she starts to hate herself. She develops internalised vecnaphobia and destroys every part of herself that reminds her of Vecna. This includes her powers... when Mike finds out, he breaks down and cries, "YOU'RE NOT MY SUPERHERO ANYMORE!!!" Then he faints into Will's beefy arms.

Robin dies... it's very tragic and sad and heroic and also tragic. This doesn't happen in the middle of the season, but at the 53 minute 5 second mark of the final episode. Vecna is dead, Hawkins is saved and everyone survived. She and Vicky are girlfriends by this point, and everyone in Hawkins accept them. Robin, overcome with emotion, hands Vicky a letter and immediately drowns herself in Lovers Lake. The letter simply reads, "THEY DIDN'T BURY THEIR GAYS! WHAT THE FUCK, DUFFER BROTHERS????!?!?!? NOW I HAVE TO BURY MYSELF." Everyone solemnly nods, chanting "Bury the gays. Bury the gays." Vicky eats half a peanut butter sandwich and tosses the rest into the water.

Vecna is defeated by Will, who has actually had powers this whole time but was just too nice to point them out to anyone. He uses his powers (he has powers) to destroy Vecna in episode three, but when he does, he also destroys Lonnie, Eleven, Murray, Max Mayfield, and Jamie Campbell-Bower. The remaining five episodes consist of the rest of the characters slowly struggling through the five stages of grief. They all miss Lonnie so much. They'll never see him in his crusty white tank top ever again. They'll never hear Lonnie tell another one of his classic Lonnie zingers... until the Stranger Things spin-off anime comes out, which is fifty episodes of Lonnie telling the same hilarious stand-up routine to the same crowd of people, which is 90% insults he used to say to Will, Jonathan and Joyce. Everyone laughs and claps. Oh, Lonnie!

Barb came back from the Upside Down in season 3, but nobody noticed because they didn't give a shit.

If you have any additional theories, please leave them in the comments. I'd be happy to use them for the show (I'm a stranger things writer btw, definitely and totally and absolutely yes I am).

#stranger things #st5 predictions #stranger things 5 #stranger things theory #stranger things 5 theory #byler theory #this post is a parody of myself I'm too deep in the theories #also a cry for help!#THESE THEORIES ARE 100% TRUE GUYS!!!!!! IF THEY AREN'T I'M DEACTIVATING #justice for barb

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babycharmander · 1 year

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Any director’s commentary for “No Secrets in Wartime”? That’s my favorite of your stories! 👀

Sorry it took me a bit to answer this! I wanted to look over my fic again so I could properly answer, cuz it's been a while!

Gosh okay so I can't give commentary over the ENTIRE fic, but I can give you a few things:

For one, originally Ford was going to be there at the start, with Sasha and Milla. But while I was still planning out the fic and before I started writing it, I dreamed about the fic, and in the dream, Ford's appearance was more unexpected, and Oleander felt a deep sense of shame that Ford was witnessing this dark part of him. I liked that a lot and decided to keep it, and that was the last thing that finally spurred me into writing the fic.

Morceau's Meat Shop was not a fun mental world to do research for. %) I looked up stuff about processing meat, and also meat processing rooms in butcher shops, and uh. seriously don't do this to yourself. do not. DO NOT. (At the very least though I think I was able to translate it to the horror-version in Oleander's mental world pretty okay?)

Milla ripping into Oleander for caring more about animals than he does the kids he's supposed to watch over was inspired by the 2019 version of A Christmas Carol, where the Ghost of Christmas Past rips into Scrooge for the same reasons, albeit over significantly more horrifying stuff. (Funnily enough, Scrooge in that movie also had trauma involving his father murdering a pet to teach him a lesson.)

My personal headcanon for Ford is that, even though he'd shattered his mind, he was able to keep himself together long enough to run the Psychonauts for a while, and helped train some of the members like Sasha and Milla and Oleander. I feel like this is possibly supported by canon in how, when Raz enters the Meat Circus, Ford remarks on how he knew that Oleander's dad was a butcher, meaning that he knew about Oleander's personal life, which I don't think Oleander would be super open about to just anyone. So he would also probably realize that Oleander had some buried trauma there, given he was a zoolepathic psychic, but he didn't know the full extent.

Which, speaking of buried trauma, Ford is full of it here. At this point, while he's in his right mind, he's still not whole, and he's still running with the false memory in his mind that he'd killed Lucy, which is something that still eats away at him, and why he's the one to rip into Oleander for killing Loboto (or attempting to kill him--none of them know Loboto is alive yet, of course). Also, if it wasn't obvious, the bathtub's shattering and causing a flood threw him into PTSD flashbacks.

also i just really really like writing Ford interacting with other characters. we barely get to see him interact with people beyond Raz or the Psychic 7 and I need to see More of Ford interacting with people please

The tank battle took me a while to figure out, but I had fun with the concept of the tank essentially being the id to Oleander's ego (since it shouts out all his unspoken thoughts and deepest anxieties), and Mr. Bun winding up being a sort of superego.

The thing with Mr. Bun was also this sense of like... Oleander's been stuck on that trauma for a long, long time. And I mean, trauma never goes away exactly, but Oleander never took any steps to properly recover from it, and in his mind he's just constantly trying to protect Mr. Bun and all these rabbits that don't really exist anymore, and it causes him to overlook the people he really does need to protect, that being the children. Which, they show up as rabbits in his mind to parallel how he sortof became like the way he viewed his father, in a way, which Milla goes into in the previous chapter.

OKAY GOSH there's probably more I could say here but I need to stop rambling. @__@

#morceau oleander #ford cruller #milla vodello #psychonauts #writing #bc answers nonsense #anonymous #psychonauts 2 spoilers

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kingdarkstalker · 1 year

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Ok, real quick before I get into the topic at hand, I just wanna say thank you for speaking your mind about the issues of Wings of Fire. Before I heard what you had to say, I saw nothing wrong with the book series. I foolishly thought it was peak writing. But now, I see just how horribly Tui handled the series. It had so much potential for amazing world-building, plots, and character arcs, but it was all thrown away for some cruddy romance and poorly-written villianry.

Now, I'm SERIOUSLY considering rewriting the first arc. I dunno about the others, but definitely the first five books. So, I came to you with some questions, since you have a brilliant mind and are just as livid about this as I am.

So, with all that aside, one question is what all would you change about the villians? I'm thinking about making Coral a minor villian, since she already has the potential to be one. I'm also going to make Blister much more cunning than she is in the original books, (she slipped up too quickly imho), in the rewrite, she's probably going to seem kind and considerate and have the dragonets warm up to her. They're definitely going to see through the illusion at some point, but def not as quickly as before. But, how would you write the nightwing plan? What changes do you recommend making?

Another question is what youtube videos or websites you would recommend for writing accurate trauma and PTSD? I strongly feel like Tui didn't really write it nearly as accurately as it should have been, almost completely brushing it aside except for Glory and Sora. I want to be as accurate as I can, because what Tui did was insulting to say the least. If you don't have any recommendations, that's perfectly fine! Just some input would be great as well.

Another question is how would you have written Sunny if you had the choice? I personally feel as if she had a lot of thrown away potential. For instance, her cheery personality could have been hiding years worth of bottled up feelings, setting them aside as a way of coping. And, as she and her adopted siblings saw more and more of the world, she became more and more aware and less and less naive, acknowledging just how awful everything was and how the guardians treated her and her siblings. Of course, during her last few moments with Kestrel, she holds onto the hope that the skywing dragoness wasn't as awful as she let herself be, but she was severely disappointed to realize that she was, in fact, a terrible dragon. That experience is like a sort of wake-up call for Sunny, opening her eyes to the harsh reality of the world. Once she finds out Kestrel was murdered, she doesn't cry, but merely sits in shock. Sunny's not sorry that she died because she loved the skywing as a mother, no. Far from it. She is sorrowful and angry that Kestrel died withot apologizing or owning up to her cruelty. Not even once. She had died and left behind damage that she could no longer fix. And Sunny was angry. Soon, Webs joins the group, but only because Blister wants him dead and he's safest with the dragonets, who ofc have the decency to get him help. He stays, but Sunny's stern with him, being just as angry at him as Tsunami and Glory. She still saves him from the scratch, but as soon as he's healed, he's kicked ot of the group. Everyone understands that Glory feels discomfort and outright hatred toward Webs, even though he'd never directly abused her, but he'd allowed it to happen, which is just as horrible. Everyone agrees to kick him out, even Sunny, who understands Glory's reasons and needs. Webs is never appointed a teacher at Jade Mountain Acadamy. In fact, the school doesn't even exist. Instead, the dragonets have a sort of therapy building, instead, where dragons of all tribes go to heal and recover from the war, kinda like in the fanfiction "Healed". But, that's just my version. If you have any opinions or ideas about it, feel free to let me know!

Overall, what changes would you make to the series as a whole? I kinda like the idea that, if they ever meet, instead of crushing on Moonwatcher, Qibli and Winter see her more like a sister than anything, since they're desperate for that kind of familial connection. Also, I want Deathbringer to take Glory under his wing as a big brother. I also want Mangrove to take in Glory and see her as a daughter alongside Orchid, who is very considerate to Glory's needs and opinions. Also, Kinkajou is Glory's adopted little sister now, and no one can deter me from that. I also want Farsight to survive and give Starflight the motherly love he needs. I hc him as Autistic and that because of that, Webs, Dune, and Kestrel were especially impatient with him. But, him meeting Farsight and getting the comfort and validation he needs could really provide hope and comfort to people with autism out there who read abt this. As a person with autism myself, I would have loved that in the book series. Ofc, Farsight would have her flaws, but also get her character arc, too. There are some other changes I would like to share, but this is getting really long, so if you have any ideas, please let me know! Any help would be more wonderful than you could even fathom.

Sorry for the long post, here's a potato <3

aw shucks, thank you for your kind words and the potato! ^.=.^ <3 we're happy to have helped you see what the problems are in tuis writing, and believe me, these things are so common and normal its undrstandable to not immediately recognize them. we all grew up on these things

definitely make coral a bigger villain and an oppressive force on all her kids, even kingdom given that she kills every guard that "let" her eggs be destroyed. especially since she was totally cool with grooming her daughters into being war weapons and child brides to her adult assistant

honestly i havent thought a lot about how or if id rewrite the sandwing sisters, though i do have an alternate ending to brightest night that includes rewrites of their deaths, youre more than welcome to use this in your rewrite :}

i swear to god i wrote a post on rewriting the nightwing thing but cant find it!! anyway personally id lean more towards the island isnt actively killing them, in fact it was a great place to live until the queen overused the land and theyre running out of food due to the incompetence of the royals in power. then battlewinner starts to plot an invasion of rainwings (keeping the fucking direct holocaust references out of it), but say, some young nightwings discover this and start a group resisting her and reaching out to the rainwings to figure out a way to stop battlewinner -- eventually glory leads a rescue party and lets the innocent nightwings off the island while the rest can explode on the volcano idk lol

honestly i dont have any specific references that i know are trustable, sorry :( anything about PTSD that i write comes from personal experience and experiences from friends and peers. ask around if anyone close to you is comfortable sharing a bit about what its like for them! with respect to their boundaries of course

ive got no critiques on your sunny rewrite, its geat! its essentially where i would have gone, because i agree that she was extremely lost potential of an exploration of toxic positivity and maladaptive coping mechanisms that MANY child abuse survivors develop, but treat them with nuance and as things to grow from instead of just molding her into the "perfect child"

i think your found family take on moon and qibli and winter, thats very cute and honestly wouldve been much preferred to the forced romance. they do honestly act more like siblings than anything, but qibli and winter? THEYRE the ones dating and in love lol

big brother deathbringer is great! he shouldve been that from the start, i feel like the way tui writes glory as "tsundere" for him is creepy regardless of age gap lol

mangrove and orchid adopting glory is ADORABLE what a perfect idea!! :"0 she deserves some older dragons around to support and love her, and it just makes sense they would remain close after all they went through. kinkajou is defeinitely already canonically glorys sister

starflight is definitely a little autism creature :) and keeping farsight alive is an interesting idea! it introduces the possibility of him and fierceteeth to find a way to recover together with her, or at least heal and move on

you're welcome to browse my blog for more ideas! there are so many great brainstorms that have been sent my way, along with my own headcanons~

#asks #wings of fire #tui sutherland

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a-student-out-of-time · 8 months

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Honestly kinda disagree with you on a few points. The first is that just because you don't think the quality of work was acceptable doesn't mean it's a true blanket statement, because that stuff is subjective. The second is that even if the work is publicly available, it doesn't mean the creator has to do jack shit for the audience considering the work itself is completely free. This isn't a case of a genuine level of quality being expected for a product because nobody's spending money on SDRA2.

//If you're focusing very strictly on the money aspect, you're kinda missing my point. This isn't about money, this is about disrespecting your audience and derailing your own story.

//First of all, I've talked at length about why Chapter 3 is bad not just because it derails the twins' characters, but because it's objectively badly-written. It doesn't do anything to service the narrative, it doesn't advance the characters, it doesn't do anything but point and go "Hey, isn't Kanade wacko?"

//Say what you will about the quality on its own, but you can't seriously tell me that wasting 1/6th of your own plot on a completely irrelevant and self-indulgent side-story is a good idea. Especially when that side-story is the longest out of the entire game.

//Almost nothing in Chapter 3 is relevant to the ongoing plot about the Voids, and the bits that are can be learned later on. There was no real reason for things like Iroha being revealed as a Void to happen beyond dramatic irony, but when she doesn't even really do anything in service of the plot or grow as a character, I must ask what the point is.

//The only thing of note that happens is, as I said, Hibiki and Kanade's characters being derailed. Hibiki had a great arc in Chapter 2 and was one of the highlights of that chapter, but then she basically becomes a background extra in Chapter 3 who does nothing but cry and then die for a crime she had no conscious role in. Her death isn't tragic or poignant, it's cheap and emotionally manipulative.

//Kanade goes from a shy girl with a dark streak to a serial killer with a ridiculous body count not because it serves the story or has any bearing on the greater plot, but because LINUJ thought Korekiyo was cool and wanted to do his own spin on V3 Chapter 3. That's it. She turns out to be this manipulative murderer with a body count of over 60 people- which would make her one of the most prolific of all time- and none of it has any meaning.

//There were absolutely ways one could integrate the existing elements of Chapter 3 into the story, where maybe Kanade exposes Nikei as a Void like my friend Mod Poi has suggested. As it stands, however, it doesn't service the plot in any way. The characters barely even seen phased by it come Chapter 4.

//And thanks to wasting a chapter on the irrelevant, that means much of the room for exposition had to be shoved further and further down the line. This is why I think Chapter 6 became a mess of one infodump after another, because there was no room to put it anywhere else.

//The real kick in the teeth for me, however, is that in a character Q&A, LINUJ straight up confirmed that Hibiki- had she survived and gotten away from Kanade- would've eventually recovered from the trauma. If we want to take the creator at his word, this demolishes any notion that Hibiki wouldn't have been a good survivor.

//Kanade, meanwhile, has no qualities or interests beyond her obsession with her sister and just being smart. Without Hibiki, she would've offed herself.

//So essentially, one of them could've had an interesting arc had she survived and the other has no character beyond just being an evil obsessive freak. He deliberately chose to write them like this. And yes, the Q&A has some contradictions, like how he said Emma would've forgiven Kokoro in the afterlife, even though he said she wouldn't have in Emma's character sheet, but this just adds to my point.

//I'm not saying you can never be self-indulgent as a small creator or that you need a flowchart for your entire story. I'm just saying, if you've got a fangan or any story in mind, there are some things you really need to plan out and have nailed down ahead of time, otherwise it's going to end up cluttered, disorganized and full of plot threads that don't matter. Discovery writing doesn't really work when you have a story that needs a definitive outline and conclusion to work.

//Hell, I'm a small creator and my work is free, and I never want people to feel like I should never be criticized because of that. I admit I've made some bad writing choices in the past, but I'm trying to build off of that and make something better. It's a lot of discovery writing, sure, but there's just as much planning behind the scenes for the arcs I have in mind. The relevant points have been decided on ahead of time.

//As a creator, regardless of whether or not you're making money off of a project, if you make it publicly available, that doesn't make you immune to criticism. It also doesn't mean you're free to disrespect your audience and basically tell them they were stupid for ever wanting to get invested in the characters. Even if that's not the language used, it's what's implied with statements like "Oh yeah, she would've grown as a person if she survived."

//Yes, there is such a thing as fan entitlement, but that entitlement and basic criticism are not the same thing. Creators can be just as entitled and self-absorbed, and saying that any creator doesn't have to "do jack shit for the audience" just because it's free? No, you really do. You have to show them basic respect.

//I'm simply speaking as a creator myself and a fan, and on both levels, Chapter 3 fails hard for me. You can explain to me why it ended up the way it did, but that's not going to magically make anything about it better.

#mod talks #a student out of time

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I might seriously do a nostalgia rewatch of the anime just because you keep posting about them , . anyway i would absolutely not mind getting little blerbs on every member of Sabertooth you've listed :3

My god!!! These fucking guys!!!!! They came so far out of left field for me and I still do not have a good read on them they really came barreling it in the last two seasons huh!! Okay!!!

This is gonna get kinda long so all of it under the cut!! Thankyou very much for asking!!!

We'll start with Minerva and man. Why'd she stop wearing make-up when she got redeemed?? Why her eyes so big??? Girl what happened you lost all your original character design huh???

I really didn't like Minvera at first, and I guess you're really not supposed to but she really didn't. Get??? Better?? She got worse and then we just kept going anyway. I really feel like we could have had more with her character arc, sense she was affected by the Regression Spell Doriate used, which we see clearly drag Grey's childhood trauma right back up in his face, I just think it'd be cool if it'd done the same to her? Give us a little hint at the abuse that caused her to be this way and the healing from that that inevitably turns her back around, you know?

Also just what??? Happened??? To her demon form??? I was unaware loosing an eye and going full incubus with several tattoos was so instantly reversible in the world of Fairy Tail. I feel like there should have been more there. But also instead of narrative plot we got a chill comedic break with her, Erza, Franmalth, and the Exceeds midway through about three episodes, and in one of those moments we get Lily commenting that she'd make an excellent wife so. I can't be too disappointed.

I don't think I have a sexuality headcanon for her, and I don't think she knows either. Romance is weakness so she never really had time to explore that part of herself growing up. In the New and Improved Sabertooth she'll have much more space to finder herself, I think.

Oh also she's recovering from a really bad eating disorder! She fell into it after her father left her in the woods, what and when and how much she ate became her only control. It took her a long time to really face and talk about it because admitting to something like that is another weakness and we all know how she is about facing those. That's why Sabertooth started having eating contests every year! Sting thinks giving her a big event to eat as much as she can at as a competition will encourage her to get more comfortable with eating. She'll never be discouraged from another meal when you win by eating, right?? Perfect idea Sting!

Sting next okay Sting's really funny to me actually and I can't pinpoint why but he's just. He really gets a laugh out of me.

He's the only Dragon Slayer who Thinks with their Head I think he's technically Wendy's age but they locked all the main characters away on an island just so he and his brother could be Natsu's age because what kind of boy dragon slayer is a child he's gotta hit people he can't hit people with a 12 year old's fist He's for some reason The master of the new Sabertooth because he killed the last guy I guess he fucking killed a man can we talk about that he killed a guy on screen was he a shitty guy yeah sure but he was still a guy with a name and a face one of the Good Guys of this anime hard murdered and I feel like that's kind of a big deal we don't Do That a lot.

I really like Sting and Lector, they feel like Happy and Natsu but on more even ground. Happy just feels like a baby sometimes even if Natsu doesn't out right treat him like one the narrative sure does, but Lector? Lector's not a baby he's Sting's best friend they grew up Together they have the energy of childhood friends who are actually The Same Age they've known each other for life they're basically brothers you feel me? It's what Wendy and Carla should have been honestly.

Sting, like Natsu, gives me a lot of Aro vibes, but at the same time I do like the idea of him being romantically with Lector they're just so close and the times they hug get me every time. I'm fine with giving character's paraphilias but I'd need one specific to Exceeds. Demiromantic Asexual I guess? That'll hold for now till I come up with something else. He's also transgender He/They probably.

He also has ADHD like Natsu but medicated.

Rouge time fuckin!!! Guy dude buddy guy!! I feel like this would another Meow meow if this fandom wasn't attached to Natsu by the hip all the time.

I don't know why but Rouge's Wiki doesn't have any pictures of him as a kid which is unfortunate considering his whole thing is every major stage in his life he grows his hair a little longer.

Baby Rouge had a buzz cut, Grand Magic Games Rouge had the It's Not a Phase Edgey anime boy hair, Tartaros Arc Rouge got the pretty boy ponytail, and Future Evil Gonna Destroy the World with Grief Rouge had a white string bean of a ponytail for some reason.

On the flip side of Sting and Lector we have Rouge and Frosch which is just. Absolutely wild. They don't feel like friends at all Rouge is a mother hen over this Cat Frog all the time. I can't tell if he's infantilizing Frosch or trying to be supportive but either way something about it feels weird and unbalanced compared to the other Exceed/Slayer relationships, especially sense Frosch is canonically 12 to Happy's 6. Another reason I really hate the 7 year time skip.

Rouge is the same Exceed Paraphillia as Sting, and is also probably a shotacon on top of that, to play with the infantilization of Frosch. I could also just see him identifying as Gay, Genderfluid He/She/They

Finally we reach!!! Yukino!!! QUEEN!!!!

I remember seeing her and getting so confused because she looked so much like Sorano but no one was calling it out which this show LOVES to do when characters are related they really gotta tell no show those kinds of bonds so I was lost on her for a while.

Truth be told I think about Sorano a lot she is my most thought about girl in the series so most of my Yukino thoughts kind of just stem off of her sister, which I feel bad about because Yukino is just. So cute.

There's something about a character who expects things to go bad because they always do and then is still hurt by it and lays all the blame on themselves. Use enough to expect it, not yet given up hope of getting better.

I also just! Love celestial wizards! I wish we'd gotten more on her dynamic with Libra because really. Compared to the other spirits Libra seems so god damn normal. The spirits are weird let Libra be WEIRD we had a whole episode where we got to see the spirits one at a time and Libra was so NORMAL let her be WEIRD!!!

Also the fact that Lucy has more than half the Zodiac makes Yukino look super under powered, and that bothers me. The way the keys work bother me.

Yukino is Pan and Transgender She/Her for sure, also full of Autism and a little OCD.

#Fairy Tail #Main tag is a dangerous game to play there me but guess what we doing it #Thankyou for asking #I have three asks and I am spacing them out because who knows when I'll get more #when you're stressing yourself into deleting your discord server and running to hide away in a cave #sometimes you just gotta put it down and ramble about anime guys (gender neutral) instead #It's always the mentally stable choice #Sipping choccy milk and thinking about Rouge and Frosch #Despite the Exceeds being part of Sabertooth I did not talk about them on their own in this post #Because it's already long and I'm already being very annoying and getting blocked by people for sure #Also while I don't have much to say on Orga I do appreciate him as Just Another Big Dumb Guy in Fairy Tail #No one himbo's quite like Fairy Tail

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Hellooooo I am here for the Jason and Rio content soooo 17 and 32 in touching? 👀👀👀

Hey, thank you! Glad to have you and @bloodlessheirbyjacques on the Jason and Rio train 🤣 (for as long as they last, at least)

Warning for cringe 🤣 These two just get sappy

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17. Holding The Other’s Chin Up

The door panel buzzed, and Jason dried his eyes as he went to answer the intercom.

“Rhodes speaking.”

“Jay, it’s me.”

Oh, Rio, not now. Jason tried to sound more cheerful. “Is it just you?”

“No one else… Can I come in?”

“Yes, just give me a minute.”

He took a deep breath and opened the door, only for Rio to rush inside and close it behind him. His eyes shine with worry.

“I can hear when you’ve been crying, Jay.”

Damn it. Jason shook his head. “It’s nothing, love. Don’t worry—”

“It’s not nothing, Jay. It’s the anniversary.”

Jason bit his cheek. “Anniversary” made it sound like a joyous celebration, and not the mark of the unjust murder of an eight-year-old boy. He could still see Will’s tired and woeful expression when he closed his eyes. Everything Jason had promised him, the safety and love that everyone had denied him, and for what? He couldn’t save him from anything. The world would never let either of them be happy.

Tears rolled down Jason’s cheek. Rio cupped his face with one hand, gently tilting his chin with the other. There was a softness in his eyes that he only allowed Jason to see.

“I’m here for you, okay? You don’t have to suffer alone.”

Jason broke down in his arms, letting the soldier hold him close. They stayed that way, perfectly still, until Jason calmed down. Rio held his face again.

“I found a bad movie you might enjoy. We can make popcorn and stay up late.”

“What about Jin?”Jason whispered.

“She’s all taken care of. The kids are in their dorms.”

“Oh… You wouldn’t mind staying with me?”

Rio kissed his forehead. “Not at all.”

The rest of the night was spent in a comfortable silence, with Rio and Jason huddled close together on the couch. His mind would never truly recover from the accident, but Jason was so incredibly thankful for Rio’s existence. He couldn’t imagine living in this place without him.

32. Caressing The Other’s Back

“You really are gorgeous.”

Jason hid his face in his hands. Rio chuckled and continued to admire him. His powers were incredible; a set of black wings that could retract into the amazing tattoo that stretched across his back. It was finely detailed, like he could reach out and comb through the feathers with ease.

Curiously, he reached his hand out, lightly touching the black outlines. Jason jolted at the contact, but remained still for him. It wasn’t until Rio traced along the shapes and curves that Jason started to squirm and choke on some stray giggles. Rio grinned.

“Seriously?”

“Not a word,” Jason snapped.

“Jay, that’s precious.”

“This is supposed to be a romantic moment. Do not—”

Rio quickly kissed Jason’s shoulder blades, making him shriek and curl in on himself.

“Rio, please!”

As much as he didn’t want to, Rio relented. Jason pouted as he caught his breath.

“You can be so cruel sometimes,” he said.

Rio hummed and kissed his cheek. “Can I make it up to you?”

“You can try.”

“Ooh, I like a challenge.”

#writeblr #writing community #wip: freaks of preston #ask games

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Sewma: A2, A3, A7, A10, A20, B2, B8, B16, C2, C3, C7, D1, D3, E4, E5, F1, F4, F6, F11, G1, G5, H7, H9, I2, I5, J3, J7, L9

sewwy...

A2: What alignment are they? Chaotic neutral, lawful evil, et cetera…

chaotic good i think.......... hes definitely out doing Good Deeds but definitely also without regard for the opinions of others opposition......or laws.....

A3: Do they have any emotional or psychological conditions? Are they aware of it? Do they try to treat it?

honestly after all that's Happened to him he's come out relatively unscathed (MENTALLY, mentally). he's traumatized from the ivy event and is coping with it kinda strangely but if he has any degree of ptsd its not severe. besides his questionable womanmode-ing and relocation to the border (might've done that anyway even if things didnt go the way they did), he's recovering mentally better than anyone could reasonably ask of him. he's relatively neurotypical otherwise he's just a weird guy.........Horrifying.

A7: Is your OC confident in their reactions to life in general, or do they get embarrassed or easily shamed for it? I.e., if something startles them, do they insist it WAS scary? When they cry, do they feel like they overreacted?

he is OVERLY confident he thinks he is always correct never wrong ever in his life. the only person really remotely capable of shaming him into reconsidering his reactions are people particularly close to him (ivy, leslie Especially) because he cares about their opinions. otherwise, he's kinda always been the first guy to make a fuss about something without caring about the general climate of opinions. which is sometimes good but sometimes really fucking annoying LMAO. i promise he has positive opinions on things too.........somewhere in his brain.....

A10: Does your OC compromise easily? Too easily?

I'd say no but i mean....he IS housing the ex president..... i think the compromises he makes are still quite strictly limited to being made Only due to his code of ethics (career-related or otherwise). His big beliefs about pacifism and turning no one away and etc can be a little..... 'liberal' at times. he PROMMIES it will pay off in the longrun and it makes you the bigger person he prommies he prommies (he barely believes it anymore himself but hes not ready to accept such a thing)

A20: Are they harsh on themselves?

as hard as a highly arrogant person can be LOL i think he has a lot of guilt over things he couldn't/can't have control of but i think that goes hand-in-hand with the arrogance. like GRR WHY couldnt i STOP ivy from being murdered and SOLVE region-wide hunger and STOP the spread of radiation and cancer im DOING EVERYTHING RIGHT (i know this for a fact and if u tell me im not you are wrong)!!!!

B2: Do they get frustrated when lines at places like pharmacies, check-outs, delis, banks, et cetera, are moving slowly?

he does because he's an impatient and angry person but he could never admit it because that would be 1. hypocritical 2. not very leftist unionizing justice slay of him

B8: Is your OC considered funny? Do they believe they’re funny?

LMAO IDK I THINK HE TAKES HIMSELF TOO SERIOUSLY TO BE TRULY FUNNY BUT HIS RANTS ARE OVER THE TOP ENOUGH TO BE FUNNY AT TIMES. VERY PASSIONATE ABOUT SILLY SHIT.

B16: Does your OC like to be the center of attention or more in the mix?

he fucking LOVES attention. always has.

C2: Would your OC feel bad if they acted against their morals? If not, would they find a way to excuse themselves for it?

he feels bad and looks for a way to excuse himself anyway LOL once again this would only happen in one of those aforementioned conflict-of-interest type situations. he'd probably say something about how it benefits the cause in the longrun or at worst how he's constantly Learning and Evolving 😤

C3: Is it important for them to be with people (socially, intimately, whatever) whose major ideological tenets align with their own?

absolutely. important enough that he'd skip military school over it. important enough that he'd start a doctors' union and zine periodical and community-building projects and doiflkhgdfkghdfkjhfkj. its not that he CAN'T be around people he doesn't quite align with, its more like those people wont want to be around Him bcz hes obnoxious. it's part of his Identity and Community at this point (u can see why the past few years have been so painful to him)

C7: Do they believe people change over time? If so, is it a natural process or does it take effort?

he has a ton of faith in peoples' ability to change WITH effort and community support. i think it's part of why he agreed to take harvey in. classic case of guy who thinks he can fix everyone. he IS a doctor after all cmon.

D1: How religious is your OC? What do they practice, if anything? If they don’t associate with any religion, what do they think of religion in general?

religion is pretty unspoken about in general Regionally so he doesn't really consider it much. i think if he lived in Outsider America he'd be horrified by how many wars its caused/played part in, generally speaking, and be pretty turned off by it LOL. he'd probably enjoy the stories though (only the ones that involve kindness to the less fortunate). and he'd enjoy the idea of ghosts and eternal souls and such since for now he's busy eternalizing people via the Things they've left behind. oh also i was originally gonna make him a member of some fringe religion before i even Designed him, just to make him more of a social reject ig LMAOOO. that never stuck

D3: How comfortable are they with the idea of death?

see above. he's not particularly comfortable with it mentally, like it bothers him and it specifically upsets him that it's happening so much more than it needs to, but he's gotta be able to cope with it, again, considering he's a doctor n all. he does what he can to avoid dying, personally. he's relatively careful about his health n all (as careful as one can be in region zero? LOL). he wants as much time as he can be afforded. he deeply hopes that he wont end up like his peers who have died. he doesn't want to die a gorey or painful death, he's already dealt with enough gore and pain and made it out to see the aftermath. he wasn't as afraid of dying as he should've been when he was closest to it. i think he believed he was going to live like 80% of the time as shit was going down with the ivy incident. which is strange for someone to believe foa (he is overconfident in himself in all situations) but also sucks for him because now he's gotta actively think about how he's gonna deal with his dead friend and the disfigurement he's actively undergoing while it's all happening??? GREAT.

E4: Did they enjoy school if they went to it?

absolutely not LOL he's booksmart n all but he'd skip a lot. he'd blame it on hating the structure or the prison-like qualities or something but i think the real answer is that he didn't like it because he doesn't know how to shut up and sit down for extended periods of time. guy who gets an A on all his tests but a D- in homework. once he got more hands-on in medical school he enjoyed things wayyyy more. he needs the human interaction and freedom to move around.

E5: What’s their highest education level? Do they want to continue their education?

He's been through the equivalent of medical school basically, he's current a Medical Doctor officially speaking (and practices primary care/family doctoring basically). He finished normal civilian high school, went through 2ish years of basic college-level schooling in the military then started working toward his medical license there as well. After he left the military he completed his 'residency' type training with Leslie at the community clinic mostly + her extension of her family's practice while that was a thing. He's not gonna continue his education he hates classrooms and ppl telling him what to do so much.

F1: What sort of home do they live in now, if at all? How did they end up there?

:) he lives in ivy's office that she was gonna relocate to with him and probably leslie eventually :) he IS technically a co-signer on the paperwork for it its not illegal for him to stay there. its just fucking weird LOL. especially when there's so much work to be done back in the suburbs and so few comrades to do it. he moved there a few weeks after the ivy incident because he couldn't take how tense shit was getting between him and leslie and couldn't take being reminded of everything that happened every day. he wouldn't word it that way tho.

F4: How clean are they overall with home upkeep?

not messy, but messier than you'd hope your doctor to be LOL. he's not dirty, just disorganized. HE knows where everything is but it would never be very obvious to anyone else.

F6: How much do they work? What do they do? Do they enjoy it?

he's basically on-call 24/7 but what he actually does is.....whatever he can do <3 he takes a few patients per day for checkups and prescriptions and referrals and such, basic urgent care type stuff. and he takes a lot of phonecalls from people with questions. it's definitely not what he'd prefer to be doing in terms of doctoring jobs but he's not ready to face the world and interact with more patients as he is.

F11: What are some of their favorite things to do for recreation? How did they get into it? What part of it do they like the most?

he loves to COMPLAIN RECREATIONALLY and WATCH JEOPARDY and PLAY DRESSUP (THIS IS NOT AS RECREATIONAL AS HE CLAIMS IT IS). this is SELF CARE to him. rare selma pre daily beautification routine:

G1: Is your OC close to their family?

Nah they kinda hate his ass for being difficult and he kinda hates their asses for being military scum but. he IS their only child. they probably talk once in a while but not recently. not since the ivy stuff especially.

G5: Did they go through any typical phases growing up?

idk if he had anything especially typical, he was just a kinda bougie brat LOL. probably the first kid to try alcohol Once in his friend group in middle school and brag about it really hard.

H7: What do they look for in partners? (Emotionally, mentally, physically..)

he looks for someone who has the same values as him (very important) but can also challenge him Intellectually. someone who will entertain his more abstract ideas (he wants to start a band so bad). someone who will balance his cunty femmeness.

H9: What are some things that your OC finds to be an instant turn-off in potential partners?

bad politics 😒

I2: Do they have any eating requirements or preferences? Allergies, vegetarian, organic-only, religious restrictions…

i think given his pacifism it only makes sense for him to be vegetarian but his options are pretty limited considering the Nontoxic Food Shortage......

I5: Are they a good cook?

hes not a BAD cook. hes definitely no chef tho LOL he knows how to make like 6 meals thats enough <3

J3: How politically active are they?

incredibly politically active for a guy who has like 675599484 better things to be doing. as least he Used to be that way up until the past year. he's on hiatus now because he dare not show his wretched face around his people but he still supports the cause. he's REFINING HIS PHILOSOPHY give him some time.

J7: How much interest in environmental health do they have?

very much interested, it's one of the pillars of his politics and he believes it to be one of the biggest overarching issues facing the region currently and in the future (it is). he's not extremely well-versed in environmental protection or how any of that really works, he's kinda learning as he goes/talking to other people who know more. doesnt take a rocket scientist to say 'hey maybe we need a more sustainable method of income and maybe less improper disposal of toxic waste people are dying'

L9: How did you come up with your OC?

he kinda took a longer time than the others to design/decide a specific role and personality for. had to grow on me for a while. i wanted someone to be a strong contrast to harvey tho. he fluctuated for a long time between being someone generally hated and someone generally appreciated LOL. i never really originally intended for him to be such a political person (more of an eccentric one than anything) but he eventually grew into that. plus i got like 2 more ocs out of it (his comrades) <3

#ask game #selma

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Been rewatching Warehouse 13 with my mama and I like still don't get some peoples reaction to Pete/Myka, I always thought it made sense from the start, they seem to start out as end game?

I mean I do totally see Myka and Helena I saw it at the time and even liked it a lot (still do) I was so conflicted over who I'd rather have Myka with, but rewatching the Myka/Helena arc I think it makes a lot of sense the way their story went, like two people feeling an instant attraction to each other who just click, but then one person hurts the other really badly, betrays them, and while eventual forgiveness happens love is still there, that fragile romantic seedling is crushed and there's sometimes no reliving it you move on,

and I see Myka and Pete as just never ever letting themselves think to much about each other like that, at first with Myka because she dated one partner once and is fresh off losing him the Fuck she's doing this shit again!

and Pete well we know from the episode where Myka gets whammied by the age changing camera that Pete had thought she was great from the start, but Pete I think doesn't like himself much hence some of the posturing, he's a recovering alcoholic who hurt people he loved while drinking including his ex wife and a friend while drinking and driving, he doesn't think he's 'worthy' of her

and neither want to lose the other their the most important people to each other and friendship tends to last more often then romances,

so they say shit like, Pete's like my big brother, and no way would we ever ever ever sleep together,

Honestly researching this I keep thinking if Myka had been a dude people would have sooooo sniped it, its got a slight Destial flavoring to it, dorky guy with the serious guys whose actually also a dork also he's a total nerd,

Like ship and let ship, I have no issue with people not going for it, but people were such assholes about it after the ending,

I saw people saying Myka being with Pete was the worst thing that could have happened to her, and just seriously Pete's a total fucking dork but he puts her first always, never treats her badly for being smarter then him, is always supportive of her etc. etc. in a world where so w/m relationships are abusive to some extent and women end up murdered, like really,

Like this is one of the few tv m/w relationships where the couple don't treat each other like shit constantly and they talk to each other, they play with each other (which people say that makes it brother/sister and I'm like ???, I would love to have a romantic relationship where we can be fucking idiot kids together!!!)

I'm losing my train of thought but I just love everything about their journey together, as a bisexual women its the w/m slow burn I deserve and one of the few w/m relationships I actually like let alone love and I wish people didn't hate on it so hard or dismiss Mykas bisexuality, like she was with Sam a man whose death wrecked her and had a thing for an incredible woman that didn't work out and ends up with her best friend bitch is bi but I forget we don't really exist

(If I sound bitter I am, I figured out my own sexuality around the same time I was watching this show wouldn't be surprised if it helped me figure it out, (the Myka/Helena grapling gun incident hooo) and I was so scared but excited I knew who I was... only to slowly realize that I still don't belong to gay for the straits to strait for the gays especially knowing with my sexual trauma from being raped by another girl as a child if I ever end up in a relationship it'll likely be with a man which according to a lot of people means I get my queer card revoked, to so many people your strait if your in a relationship with the opposite sex and gay if its same sex and if you end up same sex then you were never strait, if you end up in a opposite sex relationship then you were never queer, its shit and the two show fandoms that display this most are Warehouse 13 and Xena two shows I watch from there beginning with my ma and fucking adore, its just upsetting its stuff like this witch is why I avoid fandom spaces outside like ao3 as much as I can, but every now and then I want to look at some gifs and shit and its just so much toxic crap)

Edit: I also just don't get why so many people gotta dump on a character if they like a certain ship, like I'm a BIG Spirk shipper but I don't shit on Uhura and so many people make her the 'bad' guy in spirk fanfic, like WHY!? I love Uhura I just don't like her with Spock, why can't people just let other people enjoy things, like why not just go oh not for me and instead they just gotta shit all over it

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impostoradult · 3 years

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I finally figured out why it feels like Supernatural murdered a unicorn (AKA why you need to STOP telling me to watch Black Sails)

I’ll start by saying, everything everyone else has been saying CERTAINLY bothers me:

- the queer-baiting - the bury your queers - the undermining of Dean’s character arc - the wasted opportunity for a certain kind of overall narrative closure - the flat out disrespect to Misha Collins and Jensen Ackles

All of that bothers me tremendously.

But there has been something else rather ineffable about this that has left a horrible taste in my mouth that I couldn’t quite pin down until last night. Bear with me, if you will, because this will require some set-up.

*** This is not the first show to ever disappoint me in a spectacular fashion, nor will it be the last, I suspect. And one of the ways I’ve always coped with that disappointment was to remind myself that there will be other stories, other characters, other chances to get it right. (”It” being any number of things from just pure narrative emotional coherence to not burying your queers to not stringing along your queer audience and then yelling fuck you to them on the way out)

But somehow that assurance -- that there will be other stories, other characters, other chances to get it right -- has rung particularly hollow in this instance, and I couldn’t quite put my finger on why until yesterday.

I kept asking myself, why do I still have this feeling, deep in the pit of my stomach, like something was lost here that can never be recovered?

Because something was lost here that I am doubtful can ever be recovered, and I don’t think I’ve seen anyone else talking about this aspect of it at all.

***

A few months ago, TV critic Maureen Ryan did a great interview piece with Mike Schur (of Parks & Rec/The Good Place) discussing the death of long-form TV in the streaming era. They explore how the longer seasons and longer runs of traditional broadcast/cable TV provided an opportunity to tell particular kinds of stories that you simply can’t when seasons are 8-10 episodes and series typically run 2-4 seasons (thanks Netflix).

One key thing we’ve all lost in this new era of highly condensed TV storytelling (and of prestige TV narrative styles)? The traditional (several season’s long) slow-burn/will-they-won’t-they romance. Not only is there simply no longer the time or space to write such romances, it has also come to be seen as hacky, manipulative, cheap, artistically impoverished, low-brow, a embarrassing vestige of the era before TV became art™.

Everybody is trying to be Fleabag now. No one wants to be Frasier. (”It’s really more like a 10 hour movie” they all like to brag)

Obviously TV still has romances, even ‘drawn out’ romances. But ‘drawn out’ in 2020 is like 2-3 seasons, maybe. More commonly it’s like half a season. Take Schitt’s Creek. The number of episodes between when David and Patrick first meet and when they first kiss? Seven. Seven episodes. Half a season. If you watched it live, it took less than 2 months for them to move from introducing that dynamic to consummating it. And I’m not bagging on Schitt’s Creek; I think the David/Patrick’s story is very lovely and well-written.

But Niles & Daphne (Fraiser) had to wait 7 years and over 150 episodes before they finally got there. Josh & Donna (The West Wing) had to wait 6+ years, and 145 episodes. Mulder & Scully (The X-Files) had to wait 7 seasons and 143 episodes. Booth & Bones had to wait...you see where I am going with this.

And my point is (and I can’t believe I never realized this explicitly until now): there has NEVER been a queer slow-burn/will-they-won’t-they romance of that type on TV ever. EVER.

I’m going to say that again, because I think it bares repeating:

There has never been a queer, slow-burn/will-they-won’t-they romance that fits the 100-150 episode paradigm of delayed gratification on TV.

Not ever.

I can’t think of ONE example Not a single, solitary one. And I know queer TV pretty well. Arguably the closest we’ve ever come is Legend of Korra, and that ran 50 episodes, a THIRD of the length of old school will-they-won’t-theys like Booth & Bones or Josh & Donna.

Queer people have had a fair number of canonical romances on TV by now, even fairly long running ones. But we never got a primary/front-and-center romance that you had to root for for 100+ episodes before you got any kind of canonical consummation.

That is a particular kind of TV experience that queer people and queer characters were just 100% shut out of until it was too late. And because of how the TV landscape has changed in the last 10 years, I don’t know that that opportunity will ever come back around in our lifetimes.

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Dean and Castiel are/were a legacy of an earlier era of TV, an era that still contained the possibility for a will-they-won’t-they of that particular mold. There were other shows that could have also filled this gap at one time - Rizzoli & Isles, OUAT, House MD, etc. But one by one all of them were killed off, their queer romances unrequited, until Supernatural was the only one of its’ generation left standing.

And they should have acknowledged that they were a species about to become extinct.

There are plenty of other valid and compelling reasons Supernatural should have gone full Destiel, don’t get me wrong.

A) It would have been the most emotionally satisfying ending to the series and to those characters (and that would have been reason enough).

B) It would have stopped the manipulative queer-baiting of the (disproportionately queer) fanbase (and that would have been reason enough).

C) It would have been queer representation of middle-aged men, of bi men, of queers who came to their queerness later in life (and any/all of those would have been reason enough).

D) It could have been a glorious subversion of the bury your queers trope, considering how often they’ve died and been resurrected (and that would have been reason enough).

But point E) on this list is the reason this one hurts in a singular way that no one even appears to be acknowledging.

Almost all of the other wrongs and missed opportunities contained in this Supernatural debacle have the possibility of being rectified (at least to a degree) elsewhere. I can and I likely will get more bi male characters from TV as time goes on. I can and likely will get more middle-aged queer characters. I can and likely will get more queer characters coming to their queerness later in life, and starting queer romances later in life. I can and likely will get more queer characters who aren’t killed cheaply and prematurely. I can and likely will get more genre TV shows with sprawling myth arc plots that are resolved in a coherent, satisfying way. I can and likely will get Misha Collins and Jensen Ackles involved in other projects that value their work and their talents.

All of those other things are at the very least POSSIBLE, and many are even likely.

But a queer 100-150 episode slow-burn romance a la Mulder & Scully or Niles & Daphne or Booth & Bones? That is the one baton Supernatural dropped spectacularly that no one else even has the possibility of picking up again for the foreseeable future. (They don’t even write those types of romances for heterosexuals anymore!)

Seriously. It was a TV unicorn. And rather than letting it run wild and free, they stabbed it with a rusty nail.

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Given the monumental shifts in the TV landscape that have occurred in the last decade, I don’t know that TV will ever go back to the slow-burn/will-they-won’t-they romance spanning 100-150 episodes. Today it is a miracle if you can get ANY show to last longer than 50 episodes in the first place.

And that is the piece of this that makes it feel (to me) like they murdered a unicorn.

Because queer people have gotten a lot of things from TV, and they will get a lot more as time goes on. But that one? That one could very well be a totally extinct species.

That is the larger missed opportunity here that has left this feeling especially hollow and destructive. That is the thing that makes me balk when people tell me to go watch Black Sails or Pose or whatever other prestige TV show is doing this representation ‘better.’ Because that’s not really the loss I am mourning here. I KNOW there is ‘better’ representation elsewhere.

But the will-they-won’t-they/slow-burn romance is a qualitatively unique thing that queer people literally just never got. Ever. There is no substitute, no alternate, no other show I can turn to with that kind of build-up and pay-off for a queer couple, and there probably won’t be in my lifetime. Not unless the TV industry undergoes another monumental evolution similar to the streaming revolution that shifts the incentives back to telling those types of stories again.

All those shows you want me to displace Supernatural with? None of them can give me the one thing I uniquely wanted (and could have gotten) from Supernatural. THAT ALTERNATE SHOW DOESN’T EXIST. It doesn’t exist. And I have no reason to hope it will ever exist in my lifetime.

So stop telling me to look somewhere else; you don’t understand what made this one a unicorn.

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Addendum: The only other possible show that could perhaps fill this gap is It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia (re: Mac/Dennis). But I’m hesitant to say it exactly meets that criteria, for a number of reasons:

1 - It’s far less serialized relative to Supernatural and (except for a handful of stand-alone episodes) very little of the story is grounded specifically in Dennis/Mac’s romantic dynamic (unlike SPN, where it is absolutely central to much of the narrative)

2 - IASIP is fundamentally satirically in nature/tone which makes it much harder to have genuine romantic pathos (not impossible, but harder)

3 - All the characters on IASIP are fundamentally crummy people who you aren’t exactly supposed to root for. Which doesn’t mean a romance between two of them can’t have its value/charm/worth but it’s not the same as when it is between characters who unequivocally deserve nice things/happy endings

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