#rip the bandaid off or something

[29121996]

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#i rlly just gotta get through the next month and then life will feel worth living again #i mean im gonna be on autopilot and living in that weird headspace i get when everything feels Too Much #but once i see twice ill have a new found joy for life and . itll kickstart something in my brain #it alwahs does #t1975 did jt last time #however . i do not wanna be alivs for the next few months bc despite the minor relief i feel #i feel like ive nust lost everything and theres a emoty Pit in my chest #its fun its fine its for the plot #anyway i wanna fucking kill myself. here we go again i gotta get this over with eventuslly #rip the bandaid off or something #bc evsn tho i know how i want this to pan out - there is a middle part i dont wanna deal with or accept is haopening #but too bad bc it IS happening !!!! #and . i cant or wont talk abt this bc its sl fucking delusional and . cringy but i am a just a teenage girl in a 21yr old #but FUUUUCK this makes me SICK and i should 100% activate my ego or wtv it is im supposed to Have #but diggity dawg . #side note i feel like i have imposter syndrom or something bc the way i do feel abt this is very . New #like i do genuinely think my self esteem or something has gotten better bc i am so fucking sad dont get mw wrong #but i also dont feel like ive lost a chunk of who i was this time. its just . Upsetting ti know that i dont get to experience that anymore #i gotta find a new way to mmget the same happiness or whatever. #i dont nnow. #i wanna die abt it regardless even if i think im okay #bc i am inherently and i will be !!!! but . hnhnhnhnhnhhn u all get it .

[tvrningout]

IMAGES OF CHIYOKO HISAKAWA : 1 of ???

once gaining steady income as a mangaka, chiyoko seriously contemplates a more elaborate tattoo; rather than the cute little images she's imagined here and there, she wants something truly stunning to look at. the idea strikes her one morning after managing to spill paint all over her favorite pair of shorts, a deep green running over the blue material and down her calves. wouldn't it be pretty to paint her skin much like a canvas? chiyo eventually settled on a design that looks similar to watercolor, and though the visuals above lack much color, chiyo's tattoos are deep blues, purples, and reds that fade into each other, similar to what you see in these images here ( nudity warning, though nothing explicit ). the shading would most resemble the bottom right image, filling empty space with shadow or colored gradient. her tattoo curls along her right arm, across her chest, and down the left side of her waist, hip, and leg ( as depicted in the bottom left image ). getting to this point has, of course, taken quite a bit of time, especially as chiyo had to grow comfortable enough with her tattoo artist to allow them near parts of her body that are typically concealed. the whole thing has cost her a lot of money and tears, but she's pretty proud of the art she and her tattooist created. she plans to keep adding to it in the future.

#i love how i always think i won't have much to say and then i proceed to talk a ton asdfg #btw chiyo is now too powerful i was already weak to her but now i'm a goner i'm done for and i don't wanna be saved #ASDFG #and honestly the idea of her always wearing hoodies and tshirts that kinda cover it up vs when she wears tank tops #or dresses that reveal it........ smooching her rn #headcanons | chiyoko #visuals | chiyoko #btw i'm now so tempted to really rip the bandaid off and embrace the shorthaired blonde fc #kinda makes sense too bc in her 'adulthood' verse she's in a emotional and social slump she's falling backwards #and chiyo attempting to change herself outwardly in hopes of fostering some inner change too? yeah #but also seeing chiyo now vs when she was younger and thinking she's drastically changed and yes a lil but also #she's found herself back at square one my guy #I DUNNO I GOT A LOT OF THOUGHTS AND I'M JUST!! I LOVE HER :' ))) #tw body image #is that the correct tag? y'all let me know if i need to be tagging something else bc i'm not sure

[ilynotes]

everybody is familiar with the concept that mike would be the one to kiss will first, but may i introduce to you all how good the concept of will being the one to kiss mike first is?? because if it did happen, it would be a spur-of-the-moment irrational thing, you wouldn't expect him to initiate it - but he has bottled up and pushed aside his own feelings and pain for so long, and has put up with mike's bullshit for so long, the treatment he got from him in s4, listening to him talk about his relationship issues with el, added onto all the extra trauma and bullshit he usually goes through and whatever else he'll be dealing with in season 5, that all of that just builds up and boils and reaches a breaking point until he just explodes, gives up, grabs mike, and kisses him without thinking. it seems so out of character for him because will doesn't normally act irrationally like that, but that's what makes it SO good. because he's just so fed up he doesn't care what the consequences are anymore. he could die tomorrow, mike might never be his, his entire life has been hell, and the world is quite literally fucking falling apart around him; so he lets himself be selfish, just this once, and maybe the last time ever.

#I AM OBSESSED with this idea #OBSESSED #also i am so obsessed with the apocalyptic concept of season 5 #someone please tell me you get it #also it would be like. a parallel to 'ripping off the band-aid' #because instead of him trying to rip off the bandaid of losing mike by pushing him away #he rips off the bandaid by taking the risk. #or something #idk #i'm sorry i should sleep now #byler #mike wheeler #will byers

[enamouredless]

i cant stay in the dark anymore someone tell me what the leaks said

#somthing something ripping off a bandaid #byler #i lasted aprox 4 hours btw

[orcelito]

The good news: I will have Chinese food tomorrow

The bad news: I have to see my mom as part of it :[

#speculation nation #negative/ #i guess. i Am complaining. #i did agree to this. better to rip the bandaid off ahead of the family christmas. #but i havent talked to her since like... jeeze. i really think it's been over 2 years by this point now. #ignored all her calls and texts and Letters even #like what am i supposed to say? heyyy ma nice to see you (i guess). why havent i called? well uhhhhh #even in her letter she sent me it was essentially a nearly illegible journal she kept during a depressing as fuck time #something that really shouldve stayed as a journal. but no she wrapped it up stuck a sticker on it and drew some nail polish on the envelope #i am her child and yet she was using me as a therapist. venting things and In The Letter saying she didnt know why she said them #like. mom. you know you dont have to send me everything you write right? you know you can start over right? #but no she just writes with no filter. no consideration for me. #because she's a sad sad woman who sees her children as the only things worth living for #and i do say things. she doesn't fucking care about me as a person. #she just misses the experience of being these little impressionable people's Everything. #no one puts up with her bullshit these days and how sad is that? #so. well. that's the kind of reason why i havent talked to her. bc she's a fucking drain just to be around. #but shes my mother yada yada and something in me still feels maybe even slightly socially obligated to see her #really though i just want to see her Side of the family. i miss them. i haven't seen them in too long. #and in order to see them i have to see her. and i decided itd be best to see her ahead of time #so that family xmas is. at least slightly less awkward. hopefully. #what am i supposed to do if she tries to hug me or something? i dont want to hug her. #either she'll be all weepy that i havent been talking to her or she'll try to act like nothing's changed at all. #or maybe both. who knows. either way itll be entirely about her. as it always is. #i just need to make sure i dont end up alone with her #so long as my sister or grandma are there too she wont be As insufferable. hopefully.

[very-lost-hobbit]

being avoidant is such a pain in the ass

#I need to call my boss back for one of my jobs. I've needed to call her for a WEEK. LOVELY impression Kat 😒😒😒 #brain FREEZE UP every time I try 😭 and I have no real adults irl who will fucking LISTEN to me they'll all not get it #I'm having a minor AVPD relapse!! I need to call someone about it!! I don't want to I want to hide in bed forever AAAAHHHHHHHHHH #I'm doing it today. I'M DOING IT TODAY. HAVE to rip the damn bandaid off because my anxiety is just getting worse and worse #I know this. Still feels like I'm trying to prepare to fight a tiger with my bare hands or something #kat gets personal #me #delete later #I guess. probably

[echthr0s]

making new friends is legitimately just a repeating process of "ok, we're on a roll, now let's see how they handle this statement" *waits intently*

#i'm not one of those ''wait before revealing weirdness'' people. i'm ripping the motherfucking bandaid off. life is too short #i need to know right now. what's your weirdness threshold. are you possibly secretly also as weird as me. #or can you at least handle if someone else is. bc if not then it's deuces my guy. we can be friendLY but that's as far as this is gonna go #i think my favourite response aside from ''YOOO SAME'' is ''wait can you explain that'' bc that signals #1. you're not ashamed to be curious and ask questions when you don't understand something or want to know more #2. /you want to know more about me/. like that's the ideal

[coridallasmultipass]

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#gOD FUCKING DAMN IT I HAVE 2 MINUTES I SPEND PICKING THE SKIN ON MY THUMB BC I THOUGHT IT.. #..WAS HEALED BUT ITS NOT NOW I HAVE A BLOODY THUMB AND I STILL GOTTA DO A WATER CHANGE HNGHHH #that immunosuppressed life got me stressed #i dont want to put my hands in fishy water when its got a cut on it hhhhnn #my dermatillomania has been off the charts recently and its stressin me out #god i just want to rip that piece of skin all the way off but its not gonna help the sitch and itll need a bandaid #i can feel it in my 5th rib sayin 'dig into ur skin foolish mortal' #my brain is like rejecting my body i need a new one #mental illness #ocd #dermatillomania #hhhhhh lemme be mentally ill for a sec #just thinkin about that rush of adrenaline when the dig goes too deep or the ripping pulls skin from too deep #hhhhhh i could nut to that feeling #need to dig and peel and rip and tear and i cant stop thinking about it #ok fuck reading this book i gotta go take a few hits and desl with the fish #maybe thatll get my mind off it and ill blast some music and maybe draw something #i can finish the book in the morning #i already went nuts on my lip earlier today because it was chapping where i bit off a chunk and i had to even it out #i fucking hate being like this but im actually doing pretty well mental health wise #or maybe im just telling myself that idk any more #but ive always had skin picking problems even before actual mental illness kicked in so maybe its just who i am #again my brain is rejecting the body id like to request a fully cyborg body pls

[thatoneskullgrunt]

how do you set boundaries for people venting in your inbox? normally i'm happy to listen and help, but sometimes i just don't have the energy, you know? but i feel bad ignoring people.

(p.s. if you can tell who i am then no you can't)

//also just a heads-up for anyone Else who can tell who this is because it is Very Obvious if you know me, the only source of this is because skully did the boundary thing and i figured it'd be a good question //i am in no way actually being troubled OOC (or even IC) by anyone at present so no need to adjust anything in interactions. pre-emptive anxiety easing done

What i try to do is outright state "hey, not right now" as soon as i can. It's tough sometimes but the more you do it the easier it becomes. The hard part is not letting your guilt consume you- just because it feels mean or wrong to set a boundary because it might hurt the other person, doesnt mean it IS mean or wrong. Setting healthy boundaries is imperative to a healthy relationship, so it's best to rip the bandaid off as soon as you can rather than suppressing your own needs.

Keep in mind that im just some dude and not a mental health professional by any means, but ive been practicing and keeping healthy relationships and building my mental health back up for a while now, so im happy to try and help where i can.

#grunt answers #[Hi! This advice goes both ic and ooc too- the best way to set a boundary when youre blocked by guilt is to just go for it] #[Whether it's a one-time thing or something thats been building up; the sooner you take care of it the sooner you can feel respected] #[Like skully ive been practicing setting boundaries and restructuring my mental health for abt 3 yrs now] #[And let me tell you: ripping the bandaid off is so so worth it. It hurts in the moment but feels so nice in the long run] #[Im deffo happy to answer mental health q's like this ooc on main too- just remember im not a pro but i do speak from experience!] #[Ok tag rant over ^w^]

[neyxmessi]

messi officially leaving paris

I’m sure that’s how it’s gonna go, but I’m not believing anything until he says it himself 😭 it’s just been the same two stories over and over again so… all of these reporter’s statements mean nothing to me 🤷‍♀️

#can he rip the bandaid off already #or maybe he’s waiting so that the psg fans don’t try to kill him or something if he announces before the seasons over #idk they highkey cray

[glitterslag]

because I am literally incapable of keeping gossip to myself

#i made out with my ex at the strokes concert #i gave myself permission prior to the event dw dw #it was to be expected #like? it was the strokes! it was a night time outdoor set it was raining we were drunk sharing ciggies new silver eyeshadow etc etc #they played call it fate call it karma you know the rest #kinda iconic in my humble opinion #AND THEN #i went to my friend's house party after and then i went home with a guy from there #again sorta premeditated cause I've been overthinking sleeping w my first new person post the breakup #and I've been passing up opportunities cause i've just been building it up in my head to be this big massive deal #but it had rly gotten to the point where it just needed to happen like rip the bandaid off kinda thing #so i pretty much knew that if i met someone nice there i was gonna just say fuck it #coz like drunk house party guy you'll never meet again is such a chill low stakes thing for an official return 2 the streets #and when i tell you it was bang average like so so soooo bang average which I'm glad abt to be honest #left my red scrunchy at his house tho cause u always gotta give them something to remember you by. the whimsical stranger!!! #and i stole some weed from him #(take something leave something rule - i am a devout follower of this) #and then had to literally travel the entire length of the northern line 2 get home like no joke i literally rode that shit end 2 end #scantily clad unbrushed hair sunglasses on in the tube violently hungover walk of shame vibe #altho by some divine miracle my phone didn't die until i was literally outside my front door so i got to listen to good tunes the whole way #honestly you probably shouldn't romanticise these things but who's gonna fuckin stop me huh!! #feels like julian casablancas would've wanted this for me #anyways what a silly goofy post!!!!!! #dear diary

[redhotarsenic]

IT’S DONE THE PICTURE IS DONE I JUST HAVE TO GET MYSELF TO POST IT AND TAG HIM

#I AM PUTTING AN UNREASONABLE AMOUNT OF PRESSURE ON MYSELF FOR SOMETHING THAT’S ONLY GONNA TAKE A SECOND #COME ON MAN. LIKE RIPPING OFF A BANDAID. HURRRRK

[midnightcowboy1969]

Why couldn’t Glenn Ford and Rita Hayworth just have ended up together instead of the fooling around like come on !! They couldn’t be less in love!!!

#40 long year affair or something like come on!! at that point rip the bandaid off instead of making it worse for the people around you

[uselessnbee]

my favorite hc i have is Mike rebuilding the Castle Byers while Will is in California and he's missing him.

i'm imagining when Mike and Lucas came for Will after their fight and Will destroyed it Mike noticed but it was dark and raining and they weren't there for long so he wasn't sure

but a few months after the Byers' moved to Cali and Will and Mike didn't really talk plus Mike was finally realising his feelings one day he was just missing Will so desperately he went out to the forest and found the Castle Byers destroyed and the photo ripped in half and he just had a breakdown right then there because he knew it's his fault and he just felt so guilty and misses Will so much and stupid he's so stupid he's been treating Will so badly and he lost him again and it's his fault and why did he have to fall in love with him and why why why

but then every time he feels like shit, his thoughts are just too loud and his brain won't shut up or he can't sleep he goes out and starts rebuilding it, tries to salvage at least some of it, tries to repair that photo he tries he tries because maybe if he can repair this he can one day repair his broken relationship with Will maybe maybe

(it's also a funny thought imagining Mike trying to rebuild it cause that boy probably has no skill and would hurt himself so many times but hey if he hurts himself so whatever at least another distraction from all the terrible thoughts in his head)

but now Will is back in Hawkins. and maybe he goes look on his own or maybe Jonathan knows about it and one day decides that they could rebuild it but they won't find it the way Will left it. he finds it repaired and with the photo hanging there and what if there's a little i'm sorry written on the back

#byler #i will always adore this hc with my whole heart and soul #heartbroken will destroying his safe place after he thought he lost the boy he loves #depressed heartbroken mike sitting in the ruins of this place in the rain #just beating himself up and crying because he feels so guilty and he's realising just how much he truly loves will #mike rebuilding it because this was will's safe place and it can't end like this it just can't #there's so many memories they can't be destroyed just because he's an idiot #will coming back and not finding it the way he left it #something something will ripping off the bandaid but mike reaching out #something something will destroying the castle byers after he thought he lost mike #but mike rebuilding it back again after he thought he lost will but can't help it and still wants to hold on the hope #hm just thinking thoughts

[ryouverua]

Minor quibble with some of the posts I’ve seen going around the last few weeks but I don’t think that finding a reason to say ‘this thing was secretly bad, actually’ is needed to boycott a creator’s work. If you’re trying to make a moral statement, don’t get lost in alleviating your FOMO.

#you gotta rip off that bandaid #it sucks! it hurts a lot the first time! #but if you can only boycott something when it’s easy for you to say ‘well it sucked anyway’ #then what will you do when the art or whatever is flawless? #are you going to fold? #just something to think about

[1mmater1al]

getting my first tattoo today

#it’s mlp lol #i figured do something off a flash for my first one to rip the bandaid off and then put thought into the ones after lol