#it alwahs does

[29121996]

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#i rlly just gotta get through the next month and then life will feel worth living again #i mean im gonna be on autopilot and living in that weird headspace i get when everything feels Too Much #but once i see twice ill have a new found joy for life and . itll kickstart something in my brain #it alwahs does #t1975 did jt last time #however . i do not wanna be alivs for the next few months bc despite the minor relief i feel #i feel like ive nust lost everything and theres a emoty Pit in my chest #its fun its fine its for the plot #anyway i wanna fucking kill myself. here we go again i gotta get this over with eventuslly #rip the bandaid off or something #bc evsn tho i know how i want this to pan out - there is a middle part i dont wanna deal with or accept is haopening #but too bad bc it IS happening !!!! #and . i cant or wont talk abt this bc its sl fucking delusional and . cringy but i am a just a teenage girl in a 21yr old #but FUUUUCK this makes me SICK and i should 100% activate my ego or wtv it is im supposed to Have #but diggity dawg . #side note i feel like i have imposter syndrom or something bc the way i do feel abt this is very . New #like i do genuinely think my self esteem or something has gotten better bc i am so fucking sad dont get mw wrong #but i also dont feel like ive lost a chunk of who i was this time. its just . Upsetting ti know that i dont get to experience that anymore #i gotta find a new way to mmget the same happiness or whatever. #i dont nnow. #i wanna die abt it regardless even if i think im okay #bc i am inherently and i will be !!!! but . hnhnhnhnhnhhn u all get it .

[intruderzim]

everyday i say and do something more autistic than the last

#me crushing the babybel wax and being amazed that my coworker does not LIKE to crush the wax but thats the most fun part!!!! the feeling!!! #or needing to have something in front of me at all times if im sitting at a table #need to have my hands busy or draw or something because then i can direct that energy somewhere and relax #self diagnosing has alwahs been weird to me bcuz i never wanna take credibility or pretend like i know what its Like to have something if a #professional hasn’t told me #but sometimes i do things that feel slightly like adhd or autism and i dont want to label myself but i at least. have tendencies #i don’t feel like i identify with everything and i dont think i have full fledged adhd or whatever #i think years of ed have shot my memory in all honesty #but in the end it does not matter

[bloodaria]

not to be a cunt but i hate when people twist will and hannibal's characters to fit into some romcom mold

#'hannibal hates will's boorishness and how he's alwahs covered in dog hair' no he does not #'will hates hannibal's pretentiousness and his expensive taste' no he does not #always*

[aidenwaites]

IT HAPPENED AGAIN

#ive said it before and ill say jt agajn. why does me having a bad day somehow alwahs correlate to there being a spider in my house

[sungsuho]

thinking about t/cf and how good the story is but how badly it suffers from the writing

#its such a fun premise that immediately becomes boring when you recognize #that every single arc is structured oh no we're aboht to loose -> let me use mg power up -> we won yippeeee #like #theres nothing bad about that being repeated but you literally finish one fight and gk straight ibto the next. #and it has the same premise #and there are 0 stakes ever. ron lost his arm and rhen 2 chapters later got it back #and there doesnt even have to be big stakes like death.... but there is never anything that negativeky impacts cale dor morw than like #5 chapters. #like imagine he passes out like alwahs and whike he was passed oht the white star did somwthing...vthat woukd he interesting #but instead its cale passes out the white star KNOWS hes passed out. and doesnt do anything. #the only time he does is when cale being passed out was a trick.... like... #its sk tragic #because the premise itself is really good and i really enjoy the characters and everything #but its also. so boring #sigh #also the manhwa designs feel incredibly racist #why do the dark elves who are described as having skin as black as the night have such a light skin tonr #and the people of the jungle are obviously meant to be black and they just look like they have an extreme tan #like .

[avesseloflanguage]

i miss my dog and i miss falling in love i miss the feeling that you get when someone fits just like a glove. or whatever

#i cant help but question maybe this isnt helping #putting off the end cause in the end it alwahs does #in the end it always does #if anyone cares #the japanese house #music

[brittanyari3l-blog]

Smh tiktok is just gonna have to entertain me rn. Lol I need to get more hip.

#music is cool but why does it alwahs have to be low vibrational lmao with a good beat

[cator99]

I never intentionally make "headless woman sculptures" not because I think its personally distasteful for me to be doing so since I'm not some retard making a mould for like a Body Positivity Candle you know wtf I'm taking about always so fugly like if they dont just look hentai-inspired then they just go for Realism and it's just off putting like Ok do only the decapitated need "body positivity" well now that I think about it Yes regardless the thing is I love sculpting heads it's just that I use cheap clay soo they alwahs fall off so i do have all the heads that have broken off post-dry or that I just made without a body (why does nobody complain about Bodyless Woman Art I think we need to discourage the amount of people who clearly stick to busts because if they ever took a figure drawing class they might have to god forbid learn how to draw actual human female anatomy which might lead their artistry formed under the conditions of boku hero academia fanart being critiqued to a meltdown-inducing degree... fake artists need to be pushed to suicidal ideation it's necessary for their development and weeds out the weak and or the talentless trust fund kids) but yea I kind of just keep them in a miniature-head pile on my shelf not sure what else to do with them really. Anyway yeah I think whinging about the misogynistic nature of what random idiot nobodies make is stupid you can just say shit looks bad without opening up "foucault femininity and the modernization of patriarchal power" no shade I just think we have ummm bigger issues in the world as women perhaps. its OK TO BE A HATER. No justification necessary!

[underclerysclock]

all arian does is be sassy and roll his eyes, nicholas braun is problematic but he brings a lot of vulnerability and complexity to greg which is why he has emmy nominations unlike arian yet you will alwahs dismiss his talent to praise someone that wasn’t relevant in the show

Call me when Nic could ever pull this off

#next dumb fucking ask is getting blocked #also 'problematic'?!?! nic is a predator #flood warning #succ

[lth-500]

Punching Bag Friend

They’re making jokes at my expense,

how could they act so dense?

I tell them i’m fine but i’m hurting inside,

if I snap i’m too sensitive so I keep up the lie.

I’m just that punching bag friend,

It took me too long to see,

to realize you weren’t laughing with me,

that you were laughing at me.

The punching bag friend,

when does it end?

All those plans I would bend just to spend a few minutes with you,

only to realize I was alwahs a joke from your point of view.

I’m such a fool,

i’m just a tool.

I’m being used for your enjoyment,

my ego’s bruised but I refuse to show my disappointment.

And if I explode I just feel more alone,

were we ever really friends? I’d rather not know,

the truth.

I was used.

Just smile through the pain,

as it hits you like a train.

I hate you but I need you to be there,

to lie to me and tell me that you care.

Because this—what we have, it’s better than nothing,

this, what we have, makes me feel like something.

They’ve been laughing for days,

what they said was a haze.

They’ve hurt me in every way,

why do I stay?

They tell me they’re sorry and I say i’m fine,

while my mental health is dangling by the hair of some twine.

#hurtful #poetry #sad poem #sad thoughts #fake friends

[29121996]

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#therapy sypposed to help me deal w * n i think it made it worse to a degree #im not evne confused or anything #like i do feel vetter but . realising how deep rgis does go is alwahs Depressing #i am Not Escaping this anytimw soon andnim Stuck #until something gives way and i can move ( #figurativrly or literally #like i am not getting over him while i live in the same town as him. thats not happening. i cant . go uptown n run the rusk of seeing him #while also trying to move on and date other ppl #vx while i am Open to that and want to do tbat #i cannot . if he exists. bc he just . no one is Going to give me the same feeling he fid #n thats freeing n saddening btw . its a horrendous mix to feel 👍 #saw his ass ultown n cemented the End of me n this guy ive been talking to for 2 months .wgat can i say. hes a Curse #(it was more so #i wantes Out anyway bc i didnt like this dynamic and i wasnt gonna bother w it . not when i had other dhit to b worrying abt #n i already saw him as . Nothijg but a friend or wtv its hard to budge from that #so whatever #like i Obviously dont have to date or wtv . but like . i want to . i just am Struggling to get to that point when hes just fucking Everywher

[ovidiomedes]

i try to analyze makoto but it alwahs ends up being brainless thoughts of him

always happens. always

the most important thing to remember when it comes to makoto is two very simple things

he is not honest. hope for him is a coping mechanism. does he genuinely believe in hope? yes i think so. but it isn't bc he's a naturally hopeful person. thats nagito. makoto believes in hope bc he cannot believe in the alternative. he cannot stand the alternative

and of course. guilt. makoto has suchhhh a guilty conscience. especially after hope gets so ingrained in him, it becomes his identity. he IS hope. and if hope fails, if people fall into despair and if they die? thats makotos fault

#danganronpa #makoto naegi

[anantaru]

yesterday i learned, while i was punching one of my close friends stomach (bc he was being stupid as alwahs), that he had abs. like bro wtf since when, why and how

that mf always stays at home and im pretty sure the only sport he does is basketball at school💀

that's so random lmao, also because you said school, I trust you read my rules and respect that if you're a minor to not interact with me. (I just checked and you don't have your age disclosed) :))

#. ꔛ mail : kazuhacumslut! ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ #꒰୨ 𖤐 ୧꒱ answered'

[lunaaabeeeeee]

jell dome to me when hew ready i know him so well he alwahs does bht ive just neber seen him clkse off this much before but i cant blame him af al but ice accisntaly triwd to rush him and i already apokgsied for jt and he alreadg sajd that im enough so whu am i still atressing ahhh. like yes ice acted selfishly in wantinf evrrhign back immediately but i already said sorru ansnhe alresdy ais irw ok so what am i eveb stressing wbout

[unganseylike]

the raven king//the ghost on the shore

#having a normal one tonight huh #does this make sense i just had the revelation #like predetermined death and trying to find acceptance and satisfaction where u can in deciding how the death happens #i added last quote which is alwahs where instart crying in rereads bc it didnt feel complete without that attemoted acceptance part #also the lord of the lake lol that was gansey vibe #and ghost friends #gansey #trc #the raven cycle #trk #greatest hits #lordhuroncycle

[dollyreblogs]

I need to talk more about Amias and Denji's more casual interactions bc I find it funny that whenever Denji talks about Amias to other people, he's all: "Yes, Amatenza. A king among kings, his beauty shines through and truly I am blessed to protect him." but then when he's actually with Amias, he just looks at his decisions and is all: "Um...are you sure about that??"

#Also yes Denji does dress Amias bc Amias wants him too. #and bc he's fully convinced Amias doesn't know how doors work bc ppl alwahs open them for him- #My fav dou♡♡ #Amias Potenza #Denji Yamisoka #dollydoodles