#rem's ramblings

[monstrousparalysis]

Hey y'all! Since it's Love Loses Wednesday for all who celebrate and I have plenty of thoughts about it, here's some of those thoughts I've had for my fellow enjoyers of Chip Bastard from the insanely powerful podcast Just Roll With It!

So.

Chip being so focused on family and friends, on finding Arlin and keeping his co-captains and crew safe, while the most he ever shows interest in romance is in brief, jokey flirting that's quickly brushed aside.

Chip buying a love potion, only for it to sit unused in his inventory for literal months until it unceremoniously drops into the mouth of the Electrodon.

Chip being unnerved or even downright scared when somebody shows a sign of being attracted to him (Amanda with the marriage, Jazz and his flirting, the frantic denial to Ollie that Gillion kissing him meant anything (which was then followed by barely any change in their relationship. A typically romantic act, done as an act of love between friends, and yet those friends never did start a romance. Curious))

Speaking of Amanda and the marriage: Chip waking up one day and suddenly being expected, even morally obligated, to be in a romantic relationship with somebody he doesn't even know, for reasons he doesn't even know. And even when he clarifies that he doesn't want this, that he won't give up being a pirate with his friends for it, he still can't leave behind the expectation fully, because Amanda, and thus this expectation, is literally chasing him. Sometimes it even comes from his own friends, because no matter how much he would prefer to just Not Be Married, there's no way for him to get out of it, especially not ones Gillion would likely accept, and therefore the expectation that eventually, he'll be in a romance, is inescapable.

And even more interesting, he's not opposed to the idea of getting married in general. He wasn't wholly against the notion of marrying Igneous just for the AC boost it would give them. Clearly, the problem he had wasn't with the marriage itself, but with the fact that he was expected to form a romantic partnership.

And lastly: Chip having his literal heart ripped out of him, and staying nearly the same. Making jokes about how his heart was stolen in a way that was literal instead of romantic. Writing to his wife that if death do them part, then now it has (and doesn't it even say something that the only way for him to escape the marriage, the expectations, was to die?)

He cares for his friends just the same. He cares for his crew just the same. He wants to find Arlin just as much as ever. And his avoidance of his wife, of the expectation that he perform romance, stays the same. But even if he's the exact same, he has an excuse for this now. Because clearly, somebody with no heart couldn't feel romance, and who cares that he didn't really seem to before he lost his heart either?

Chip being aromantic, on a textual, metaphorical, and thematic level.

#rem's ramblings #just roll with it riptide #jrwi riptide #chip bastard #chip jrwi #jrwi chip #riptide meta #riptide analysis #aromantic chip #aromantic headcanons #aromantic #amanda as a metaphor for amatonormativity in particular is So important to me #anyways yeah this is half textual evidence and half metaphors but Analysis Fun and either way. chip aromantic. i'm claiming him

[your-mom-friend]

Truly amazed by the fact that Mob’s main tactic for defeating evil people is to earnestly and with full honesty tell them that they are lonely pathetic losers and he does it with such conviction that it slams his enemies into reality so hard that they sit there and think oh my god…I am a friendless pathetic loser and Mob’s like I never said you were friendless :( and just becomes their friend and they instantly decide that even though they’ve known him for 3 hours and he’s kicked their ass if anything happened to Mob they’d kill everyone responsible

#rem rambles #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #mob #Kageyama Shigeo #Kageyama Ritsu #hanazawa teruki #seventh division mp100 #serizawa katsuya #toichiro suzuki #??? mob psycho

[chronicowboy]

literally cannot stop thinking about eddie getting all the way to the door and feeling something wrong and unsettled inside of himself as he reaches for the handle, thinking there's nothing he could ever do that would make me love him any less and i know that but does he and realising he hasn't quite done enough yet in this huge fucking moment, not necessarily for buck but for himself, because that's his best friend and he's just been deeply vulnerable and possibly changed things between them forever even if he's trying really hard not to think about that right then, so he stops. and he turns around. and he's orpheus. he loves eurydice so much he can't not turn around. buck walked out of hell, laid himself bare in front of eddie. and eddie said nothing will ever change between us and all he had to do was walk away but he couldn't. he couldn't. he just had to turn around to make sure buck would believe him through and through no matter what.

#sami rambles #i have no idea if rhis makes sense i am SO SLEEPY #i woke up at 7am and there was a thunderstorm that immediately lulled me back into a deep REM for the next 3 hours #911 show #evan buckley #buddie #eddie diaz #buck x eddie

[beautifully-imperfections]

It’s canon Misa can draw really well. So all I’m thinking about is Misa drawing Rem after her death and when she loses her memory she doesn’t understand why she has so many drawings of the same monster. But she continues to draw her anyway because it gives her comfort

#remisa truly the doomed gay ship of death note sorry lawlight jk #remisa #rem #misa amane #death note #my ramblings

[oikyskau]

seeing kenji muto, the director of trigun stampede, reading an article about the portrayal of women in media made me want to take a little bit of a closer look at the women in trigun and as i was rambling about this earlier to my partner, they told me to write it down LMAO

as most of us know, in a lot of fiction, women are mostly characterised through common tropes, leading to a lack of complexity and a one-dimensional portrayal: as the doting wife, the femme fatale, the mistress, or the virgin. Their role only amounts to an Other, an extension of the male hero. they’re either the whore or the madonna.

for female characters in anime that usually means they’re either the sexy femme fatale, big badonkers and all to be gazed at, the mother, the helpless damsel in distress, or the child (yet, still sexualised despite the fact that it is a literal child); they’re portrayed through the way they are being perceived by men and mostly sexualised beyond belief. 

tristamp doesn’t do any of that.

in fact, the female characters in stampede achieve something that you don’t often see in anime: they are people. and stampede makes that clear in its very first episode by decidedly not going the route that you would usually take with the female characters they introduce:

of course, the biggest example here would be meryl, who i’d argue is the biggest driver of the plot, despite the fact that the plot of stampede is technically determined by vash - vash is an entirely passive character, he doesn’t make things happen, things happen to him and they mostly happen to him because of meryl. she’s the one who unties him, she drags them to the city, she makes them stay with him after ep3, she drives over wolfwood (rip my man), she stops for them to find rollo, she makes them follow the steamer.. you get it. she does all of this, despite being introduced as the newbie, the innocent person who would usually be the damsel in distress, who is helpless and shy and easily manipulated and who will probs be sexualised in her role as the “virgin” (sexually naive young girl who just doesn’t get all this adult sexuality yet hehe) 

but she’s not – she wears a non-sexualised outfit, she only gets called out for being a newbie, or for being small height-wise by wolfwood, but not for being a “girl”, she determines the action despite the fact that she does have a mentor figure and is therefore still in a position of a student – she still isnt an extension of roberto, vash, or anyone

in fact, the other characters – Rosa, Elendira, Luida, Rem – all take up roles that would in other media be portrayed in very specific ways: Rosa could just be a pregnant mother, who is also a divorcee, Elendira could be an innocent child beholden to her caretaker, Luida could be the loving motherlike figure and rem the Madonna figure, symbolising all the virtues a woman should aspire to have. – Rosa is a leader, her pregnancy is mentioned one single time and never made a bigger part of her character, Elendira is young but powerful, making choices by herself that are not inherently based on any kind of innocence, Luida doesn’t coddle Vash or prioritise him over her own work and mission (which also serves to inspire another woman, meryl!!), and rem is also just a non-perfect person, with secrets and questionable morality

none of these women are judged on the basis of their gender, none of them experience gender-based violence, none of them are made into a joke, none of them are sexualised (or desexualised – if you compare them to the male characters, who also do not ever make jokes about sexual promiscuity or similar stuff), they have different body types (rem has a very pronounced chest, and yet stampede doesn’t ever focus on it or give her cleavage) – note also that when presented with the perfect opportunity to call a female character a “bitch”, they chose to go with a “witch” instead, in both original japanese and english dub

their femininity is not used as a weapon against them, nor are stereotypical hypermasculine elements used to define characters’ positive traits (vash not being our traditionally hypermasculine hero for example) - the only time we see a semblance of gender-based violence is, you guessed it, at the very end, when knives forcefully takes control and bodily autonomy away from vash and inseminates the plants against their will (also interesting to note that knives, as the character that does exhibit that kind of violence, is the only character to be shown incredibly buff and all muscle) 

the women in tristamp are written for women, with the goal to be women that we can recognise, that represent the women that we are and know

anyways, i love all women in tristamp and have not once felt uncomfortable or said “oh look, a panty shot” and honestly i just find that pretty neat

#trigun stampede #trigun #meryl stryfe #rem saverem #trigun meta #ramblings #dont take this too seriously its just me being very nerdy for female characters LMAO #a lot of anime that i like fall into the trap of writing female characters for men and in relation to other male characters and i honestly #expect it at this point but PHEW was i going help WOMEN??? during tristamp #also do i need to add a citation bc im technically just citing my own thesis..... LMAOO

[gh0stbeeee]

Random Death Note headcanons

L has a bit of an overbite, he had braces as a teenager but he never wore his retainers so it came back a little.

Misa was a little ragamuffin as a kid, she loved going outside and being messy with her hair unbrushed, but she realized she couldn't put her hair in twin tails if it was knotty so she improved her hygiene as she grew up.

Light has always wanted to grow his hair to his shoulders and part it in the middle because he thought it looked really elegant, but he never did because he was worried people would think he wasn't respectable.

Also, Light was a bit chubby when he was young. He developed an eating disorder as he grew up because of how family and other adults would comment on his body. Keep in mind this was healthy baby fat, and he is now perpetually a little underweight.

L has a ridiculous metabolism, so despite his diet he is naturally skinny and light weight. In contrast to Light, he wishes he could gain a little weight.

Misa knows Light doesn't love her. She stays with him because he became a rock in her life despite his coldness and manipulative nature, and he keeps her grounded. She is scared of independence, due to ptsd. Light isn't aware of this exact reason, but neither does he seek to know her. His optimism and confidence eases her anxiety, just as Misa's blind worship encourages him. Toxic af for eachother.

Light is on the aroace spectrum, but he never sought to experiment to find out what exactly he is. He is completely neutral to both genders, with a preference for intelligence. (Sapio.) He never learned the proper terminology for sexuality beyond hetero and homo.

L is completely ambiguous in terms of sexuality. He has attractions, but they disappear quickly and he never acts on them. He suspects he is aroace spec, but he never confirms it.

Lawlight was violently timid. Their passion for eachother was insane, but neither knew what to do with it. One minute they were kissing chastely, the next they were beating the shit out of eachother. They had sex a couple times, but they were more focused on the intimacy and mind games than the pleasure.

Misa was comphet and her obsession with Light stopped her from exploring herself (and Rem her monster girlfriend that loved her more than her life.)

Near found the HQ security footage years after the Kira case ended and to say it made his opinions of L and Light more complicated is an understatement. (I want to write this fic.) He saw L's true morality, and the endeared relationship between L and Kira. He saw innocent Light, and thought that he wasn't so bad.

#thats it for tonight #i added a little near at the end as a treat #death note #light yagami #l lawliet #lawlight #misa amane #remisa #misa x rem #rem death note #rem x misa #l x light #light x l #yagamane #near #nate river #death note headcanons #death note shitpost #death note text post #death note rambles

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Thought you may be interested in this-

hmmm you know it could be a blend of "Remember" and "rem" as in "REM sleep", i would put stock in That more than it being just a straight play on remember

WHICH. HM. okay bc as soon as i saw it i thought "oh! like the REM stage of sleep!" but REM stands for Rapid Eye Movement - the stage characterized by high brain activity (vivid dreaming).

so either it being specifically REMderem has meaning, or it's just the best play on words (maybe in relation to "remember" as you've pointed out!)

#hm... if it's REM for a reason... #its interesting that wally (doesnt sleep) would be the main target for an ad about sleeping #for a Pill named after the dreaming stage of sleep... #wally. sleeping. dreaming. hm! #Much To Think About! #im not going to get too crazy with theories yet #because there is a LOT of new info to sort through and take into consideration! #i need time so apologies! #i want to provide theories of Substance! with ample backing and thought! #no longer are the days where i just spew out whatever random shit #and then backtrack on it a month later with Oopsies That Was So Wrong! #(who am i kidding i Will continue to do that <3) #but i'll take more care with it i prommy #rambles from the bog #homebogging #wh speculation #welcome home speculation

[lots-o-doodles]

Oh, empty my heart I've got to make room For this feeling It's so much bigger than me ~

So this idea smacked me over the head when I was going to the post office yesterday and I've been consumed ever since. 4 pages turned to 6 and here we are... I've been thinking a lot about Rem and her grief over Tesla and the way that would affect her when the twins came into her life. I took some liberties with canon with this comic but I hope it isn't too bad.

#artist ramblings under the cut #trigun #trimax #trigun manga #vague spoilers #vash the stampede #millions knives #rem saverem #fanart #comic #thanks Stampede for making me think about Tesla again #and breaking my fucking heart #general content warning for feelings? #I'm sorry for the harm I might be inflicting upon the fandom

[sword-dad-fukuzawa]

vash as the martyr. vash as the saint. vash as the angel come down to earth to suffer for all your sins. vash in the garden of gethsemane, crying because he doesn’t want to die, because he was never meant to leave eden.

vash as cain. vash with the rock upraised to strike his brother’s temple—vash who hesitates. vash who watches nai turn around with a knife in his hand and—

nai who eats from the tree. nai who names the snake “rem saverem.” nai who eats and eats and eats. nai, who is both jonah and the whale, who sees too much. nai, who destroys sodom and gomorrah—vash, who looks back and turns into a pillar of salt.

nai as cain. nai with the rock in his hand because it’s better this way, it’s much better than watching vash crucified again and again. vash rises from the dead in three days but nai can’t take it anymore. vash turns around with his finger on the trigger and—

did you want your boys to die for love, rem saverem? did you know that’s what would happen? that nai would become a god with no love for humanity and vash would become a saint who loved them too much? did you know, rem saverem, that you raised your boys to kill each other?

#no spoilers here I promise just deranged rambling #trigun #rem saverem #knives millions #VASH the stampede #trigun stampede

[dreamnants-mis]

Something that only came to me while re-reading the manga after the anime came out involves the name of Andy itself and I think it's actually pretty interesting to think about.

Spoilers for the later half of the manga (roughly about up to Chapter 124)! .

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After the mess with the Union goons, Fuuko asks about Andy's name after calling him "Zombie" for most of the chapter. Andy responds that he doesn't remember and says being called "Undead" is good enough. Fuuko doesn't like that and decides to give him the name "Andy" instead. Andy clearly doesn't like the name very much, but considering he knows he'll have to humor Fuuko to find a way for her Unluck to kill him, he just accepts it.

In fact, I've noticed most people at first tend to call him "Undead", a dehumanizing sort of term, such as Void and the Union goons. Which considering Andy's desire to die is rooted from the guilt and loneliness being immortal brings, serves to further create emotional distances from others and perhaps even himself.

And even "Undead" doesn't quite fully fit him either because Andy is an alter ego of the original Undead Victor, so even that name wouldn't be really unique to him specifically since there are technically two different individuals with the ability.

(On a tangential aside, the first person aside from Fuuko that calls him Andy consistently is actually Shen after hearing Fuuko call him that…and he's essentially the closest thing Andy has to a bro. Make that as you will.)

But I think where Andy starts to view the name differently happens starting in the climax of the Spoil arc, with Fuuko telling him they still have so many more things to do together and then literally risking her life trying to bring him back after Victor takes over the body. And Andy knows and Fuuko also knows he is using her for the sake of finding a way to die.

It's also after this event that Andy calls Fuuko by name for the first time after she wakes up in the hospital after having called her "brat" every time up to this point. Of course, this time, he takes it back, but Fuuko notices the significance of it to want him to call her by name again.

Anyway, both of them get sent to the black market auction and Fuuko picks a dress that needs some bust tailoring. It's something I didn't really pay attention to during my initial reading when it came out, but Andy signs his name as "Andy" on the delivery form. While it might have been for practical reasons, the fact he used that name for the signature is actually pretty significant because it implies Andy is slowly beginning to accept the name Andy as his own and not just something Fuuko calls him.

(Andy has really nice penmenship, as an aside.)

But it's only during the Ragnarok arc that the significance of the name Andy really changes.

In Chapter 99, Lucy asks Andy who is he after he saves her from an UMA. Andy initially introduces himself as "Undead", but then immediately nixes it and re-introduces himself as Andy. And this is actually the first time he's introduced himself as Andy because everyone else who calls him Andy usually only does so because Fuuko calls him that (such as the example with Shen). This leads into what happens in Chapter 124, where Andy finally calls himself "Andy the Undead", accepting consciously that his name is Andy, a member of the Union and Fuuko's partner in slaying God.

In other words, Andy fully accepting Andy as his name is a form of humanization, which is something Fuuko helps him to understand is what he truly wants is to feel human.

#undead unluck #rem rambles #undead unluck spoilers #analysis #uu spoilers

[crowlore]

man. been thinkin bout this sleeping arrangement

do you think the twins slept in rem's bed the entire year or only after tesla

#i hesitate to call this a bed because we don't really see the whole thing. the only other angle makes it look like a duvet on the floor 😭 #look. i've just been thinking about their family a lot #rem loved her boys a lot obviously. it's clear #she wasn't prepared to be a mother but she wanted to be one for them #and she made mistakes like any mother does. the difference being she didn't get the time to make up for it. she had one year #i'll be honest i've been rambling in the tags hoping i'd hit the point where i could tag them all without it showing up in the search #because i need to maintain my personal tagging system. archival reasons #but i don't have much else to add here #not right now anyway lol #trigun #rem saverem #vash the stampede #millions knives

[monstrousparalysis]

Fuck it, on this Valentine's Day, here's a post devoted to every single aromantic who fits the negative stereotypes!

Every aroallo, no matter what other labels they use!

Loveless aromantics, especially ones who are loud about not feeling love and refuse to listen to the countless "but what about"s!

Aromantics who don't feel other, even more "universal" attractions, like platonic or familial ones!

Aromantics who lack empathy, who are "cold", who prefer logic over emotion!

Nonhuman aromantics, especially the loveless ones, for whom "Love is what makes us human" is a dismissal in both directions!

Aromantics with trauma, trust issues, or fears of intimacy!

And of course: the aromantics with personality disorders, especially the narcissistic or antisocial aromantics!

If you meet one or more of the above criteria, you are entitled to keep being who the fuck you are and to do so with pride!

Arophobia is not our fault, it is the fault of the arophobes who use our image to justify attacking others. We are hurting nobody just by existing as we are.

No matter what you want in terms of relationships, be that friends with benefits, queerplatonic partners, multiple partners, or no partners at all, ever, I hope you get it!

#rem's ramblings #aromantic #aromanticism #aro #aro pride #aro positivity #aromantic pride #aromantic positivity #aroallo #aromantic allosexual #lovelessness #loveless aro #loveless aromantic #aplatonic #afamilial

[your-mom-friend]

I’ve been losing my mind about The Ocean Saga from Epic:The Musical for like a couple days (weeks) and I have to say there’s a couple things I especially love

In “Keep Your Friends Close” Odysseus works so god damn hard to make sure no one can fuck up his chance to get back to his family. He dispels the treasure rumours immediately, tells the crew it’s the storm trapped in the bag, and still stays awake for NINE DAYS to make sure no one touches it.

Despite that, when he falls asleep and the bag is opened, the crew opens it and unleashes the storm. You can HEAR his desperation in the “NO” and yet and YET he focuses on the situation. “Help me close the bag!” “But sir it’s too late!” “We can keep whatever wind it left to use another day, COME ON!”

Despite the fact that these people betrayed them and they might all die he still pushes it aside to make sure they survive before he does anything else. Beyond that, he trusts them to help him, or at least, trusts in their desire to be alive

Also if someone fucked up the journey that badly and I tried to fix it and they’re like UHHHH ITS TOO LATE I’d shove that bitch overboard and be like anyone else want to be fatalist??? No??? Get the fuck to work

Also “OOOODYSSEUS OF ITHACAAAA” like a wrestler was amazing

And Poseidon being like “apologise for hurting my son and I’ll let you go alive” and Odysseus, gaslighter extraordinaire, said okay but have you considered I didn’t wanna hurt him and didn’t mean it

“We’re in the home of the wind god!” “You don’t know for sure-” “how many floating islands have you seen before?” We love a bitch with an attitude

“Eurylochous grab the harpoons- as many as you can find” “what do you have in mind?” “We’re gonna shoot for the sky” “WHAT?”

“Any last words?” “ALL I GOTTA DO IS OPEN THIS BAG” “WHAT-“ KING I LOVE YOU AND YOUR FUCKING SCHEMES

and I’m so obsessed with the music the music of this saga has been playing in my head on a LOOP I’m frothing at the mouth over it

#rem rambles #epic the musical #epic the ocean saga #odysseus #poseidon epic

[aauroralightss]

i love red and later black as vash's favourite colours because they're so edgy especially in combination you'd be like lmao look at this edgelord! but the truth is vash loves them because he is so overwhelmingly full and made of love for everyone who has ever loved him

#vash the stampede #rora rambles #trigun maximum #trigun headcanon #who was it that said vash's hair is black at the end of trimax just like all the people who impacted him #rem wolfwood meryl luida #he carries them with him. when he kills legato his coat is black #he became the devil so wolfwood could rest easy #the people he loves and loses live on in him. he is a living representation of everything they believed in and died for #rem's overwhelming belief that people can change. everything wolfwood sacrificed #vash keeps it all alive

[quietbreeze97]

I've waited until today to write my thoughts on Death Note: The Musical because I've been so exhausted from being in London and generally just collecting my thoughts on the show (had a good post-show drink with my friend in the pub to talk about it last night).

But now I have a free moment to go on Tumblr and splurge, I have to summarise by saying: WOW. WHAT. A. SHOW!!!!

I had such a blast watching it; I think I was grinning pretty much throughout the whole thing. Every song is brilliant (I've been listening to them on repeat all of today), the actors are mega talented with amazing voices, and it's a really INTERESTING (wink!) adaptation of the anime I love so much.

It wasn't without its flaws, that's for sure. My main gripe was perhaps the ending, as it felt a little rushed and out of character for L, but given that one musical would never be able to cover the full story of the anime or manga, they did a great job considering what they had to work with, and it was always going to be a condensed version of the story we know.

My main highlights:

Rem was an unexpected delight! She looked stunning, resembling a white angel next to Ryuk's pure blackness, and the actress' voice was GORGEOUS.

Ryuk, of course. Adam Pascal nailed this role, both the comedic and dark elements of his character, and like Rem, he LOOKED perfect.

John Dean-Wilson was an AMAZING L, just as I expected. His interpretation was slightly more unhinged than anime/manga L, and I honestly loved that. His mannerisms were on point and every song of his was memorable.

My favourite song and scene in the whole musical was definitely 'Playing His Game' which was sung DURING L AND LIGHT'S TENNIS MATCH. That entire number gave me chills and summed up their dynamic perfectly. I'll be playing this song over and over again for weeks.

But yeah, as you can tell, I LOVED THIS MUSICAL, and really hope I get an opportunity to see it again at some point. <3

#death note the musical #death note #l lawliet #light yagami #misa amane #ryuk #rem #theatre #musicals #john dean wilson #adam pascal #joaquin pedro valdes #aimie atkinson #london #london palladium #quiet breeze talks #thoughts #analysis #ramble #lawlight #anime #manga

[the-sun-is-also-a-star]

"i wanna give you a hug and ask you why you look like you want to commit arson."

- sirius, looking at baby pictures of remus

@remuslupininskirts

#courtesy of me who actually said this whilst looking at baby pictures #and rem who suggested that this was something sirius would say to remus #its so weird calling them rem actually #speaking of names yesterday they pulled out my FULL GOVERNMENT NAME #INSTEAD OF THEIR NICKNAME FOR ME #I WAS LIKE BITCH WTF DID I DO #insane behaviour #but yeah it's weird calling you rem again #anyway #im done rambling now i think #lover <3 #harry potter #hp #gryffindor #wolfstar #the marauders #sirius black #remus lupin #hogwarts #james potter #peter pettigrew #remus x sirius #wolfstar incorrect quotes