Sticks and stone may break my bones, but words can never hurt me leave a literal lasting impression on my brain's wiring, thereby my hormonal and neurochemical secretions, my behaviour, my sense of self, my perceptions, my memories, my capacity for self-care, my relationships, and my environment.
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See the thing is that in order to create truly substantive art you must free yourself from the limitations of shame.
Unfortunately the easiest, most straightforward way to achieve this state is to be one arrogant, overweening son of a bitch.
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Alright, the jack in the box is wound, and the coherence is coming to me. Halsin and the dryad, I was talking about his response if the PC indicates that he is most comfortable after a supper large enough to induce hibernation:
"Mindless gorging...? No, that is not right. I did not realize you thought that of me."
And why this keeps catching in my mind is not necessarily what he says, but how he says it (so I am commending Dave Jones' voice acting here). The rest of Halsin's responses to incorrect answers are generally even toned and corrective; firm, usually, but not inherently overly emotional. Much like a teacher correcting a student. But this one...he sounds genuinely surprised and taken aback that the PC would even suggest that. The "no, that is not right" is even firmer on its heels. And the last part...the last part, his voice is smaller. Less forward. I would not go so far as to suggest hurt, but it is approaching that territory. It comes so fast after his firm no, that it almost sounds like something that slipped by accident. Like something that was meant to be muttered under the breath, but it slipped from him because the surprise was so organic.
Alone, it doesn't mean too much. It's a slight offense to an obviously nonfactual statement. And that's likely all it is. I'm about to read too deep into this, I am aware.
But combined with the other things spread throughout Halsin's dialogue, particularly the implication that he is otherwise used to people making commentary on his physical appearance or the physicality of his being, it suggests an extra layer of hurt. An extra layer of: "I did not expect this from you, of all people." Not quite a betrayal, but approaching one.
What makes it particularly catching, is that one of the things you are able to wrench (and I say wrench because getting Halsin to share mundane personal details about himself is a production - and it makes *sense* it's a production if a. We keep in mind that Halsin himself doesn't seem all too sure who he is beyond his preoccupation - which elves are prone to but Halsin also just has...a lot on his plate that have evidently stunted his identity formation - to the point where he even claims he was forgetting who he was, and b. If he is used to questions concerning himself and his experience leading into questions regarding his sex life or his physical activities, see: the companion banter with Wyll and Karlach, he likely...doesn't really keep ready details about himself personally on tap anymore. He's so unused to people being interested in Halsin, that he's taken aback when they are. It becomes the "In the moment, I forget everything and anything I like to do for fun" mentality - no one really cares about what I like to do anyway - if you will. He even goes so far as to joking that the PC may be a doppelganger because *why else would they want to know these things*) out of Halsin when you ask him about himself is that he has a sweet tooth. That he likes honey, and people find that amusing. He chuckles, but his face falls, evidently prepping for the PC to make a similar comment (and he attempts to beat you to the joke about that, though a PC can still call that "on the nose" to which he responds that there is little point in denying oneself if it doesn't hurt anybody - indulging isn't a bad thing). If the PC instead chooses that he should pay little attention to what others think, he gives that infamous: "sometimes I think people look at me and imagine my feelings can't be hurt" line. Which implies - regardless of whether he verbalizes it or not - things in this thread hurt his feelings. Comments or assumptions about his body and his person hurt his feelings. He won't say it, but they do. The PC is likely aware of this by this point in the relationship.
Halsin does not otherwise bring up eating or food to any level of significance or directness - the sweet tooth comment was the only time (you could assume outside of canon interactions that they've had other conversations between them and that perhaps this was brought up, but we are going to base this solely in what Halsin reveals in canon). He brings up hibernation, but specifically the sleeping part of it. Nothing else.
So, the PC then potentially goes ahead and makes an assumption of him during the dryad. How'd they arrive at this conclusion, as it obviously surprises Halsin that they did? It reads, very much, that the PC is making this assumption based on the comment about his sweet tooth, his comment on indulgence, and his physicality (note: the ha ha bear and hibernation thing almost seems like an afterthought - Halsin latches *very* quickly onto the "mindless gorging" part). All things that he has shown very evident discomfort (which is ironic because the question is when he feels most comfortable) or hesitance towards (he claims there is nothing wrong with indulgence, but never seems to indulge himself beyond sex, if that. Gee, what does that remind you of?)
Halsin entrusted this individual with this information, as frivolous as it was, potentially revealed that it hurts his feelings when people make assumptions of him, and this individual then went used that information and made the assuming connection: "So, this is a big man. He said he liked sugar, so he must like to eat and indulge. It must be his favourite thing to do because look at him." I am going to essentially ignore everything else I could have possibly heard, and make a bear hibernation joke that has nothing to do with sleeping being a comfort, but emphasize the eating part.
So, yeah, he's a little taken aback - incredulous, you might say. A little hurt. Resigned, almost. Because at that point, you can make a very logical assumption that Halsin came to a very quick snap realization that perhaps this person was not so different from the others as he thought. That it always eventually comes back to that. What else was he expecting? When has it ever been any different for him?
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2 Timothy 3:15 (NLT) -
You have been taught the Holy Scriptures from childhood, and they have given you the wisdom to receive the salvation that comes by trusting in Christ Jesus.
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folks i am so excited to tell you what i learned about writing while dealing with chronic fatigue
i will tell you as soon as i have dealt with the chronic fatigue
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Imagine coddling Homelander.
Like he has had the shittiest of shitty days and he is going off on a tangent, pacing the room cursing and raising his voice. He's frustrated and angry and fed up with the shit he deals with.
You, in your ultimate wisdom of your beloved, stand up and walk towards him. He stops pacing to look at you, clearly a little confused. Before he can ask you reach up and cup both sides of his face and coo at him. "My poor baby boy, so upset, so angry. Look at you." You are using a tone very similar to a mother with her child.
His anger seems to subside almost instantly, his pupils blow out and you feel the weight of him leaning his face immediately into your palms. He's nearly melted to the floor.~
and it would work every! single! time! AUGH. please, i could read 50k of just 'homelander is tenderly snuggled and soothed of all his trauma.'
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Years and years of teachers, professors, managers, casual busybodies etc being like "don't write out what you're going to say and read it off verbatim, your presentation will sound stiff!!" fail to account for the fact that you can just read stuff off in a way that's not stiff. Skill issue
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Hi Tahyal,
I hope you are doing well and prospering. As someone who is in tune with the universe, how are you interpreting and/or preparing for the solstice happening soon? I keep reading and hearing that it is a time to be cautious and protective due to what the solstice could bring. Would love to hear your thoughts.
Wishing you good health, happiness and abundance 🤍🧿
Hi, thank you! 🤍
Honestly my intuition keeps leading me to surrender even more deeply. I feel like its a time of harvest more than anything. The past few months (and even last year) we’ve been pushed to re-arrange our inner worlds, face some of our fears, and directed to make different choices. Right now is the time to lean back and let God do the rest! This is how I personally feel 🤍.
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Proverbs 2:1-2 (NKJV) -
My son, if you receive my words,
And treasure my commands within you,
So that you incline your ear to wisdom,
And apply your heart to understanding;
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