#please my brain will not leave me alone

[steelthroat]

Just made another weird dream in which animated Optimus was arguing with (what I think was) Sentinel (idk it was an orange and blue silhouette)

And at some point he said "yeah my lord doesn't flame... he fires 😎🤙" talking about Megatron...

I have no idea of what's the meaning behind this??? Like idk I guess Optimus/I meant "he's not all talk he is a man of action?" Like "he doesn't talk behind someone's back(flame) he straight up kills you (fires)"????

Idk abshfjhfjgjggjugi

#I WOULD be cringing about the “my pord part” #but i have the suspicion it was inspired by “the brave shall heed the call” #yesterday i finished reading the last chapters and i was shook to my core #in a positive way #hdhffhhfhfj #btw yea “my lord doesn't flame he fires😎” #BAUAAHAHSHSHSHDHHHDHDD #steel rambles #transformers #maccadam #maccadams #shitpost #megatron #optimus prime #tfa optimus prime #bro megop won't leave me alone not wven in my dreams #now please let's analyze this in a freudian way like “you want to be op and fuck megs” or smth #idk it's almost 7 in the morning my sleep deprived brain doesn't even know how to write atm

[flufflecat]

remembering the time that I listened to so much rusty quill gaming in such a short timeframe that my internal monologue was narrated by alexander j newall for like 2 weeks straight

#rusty quill gaming #rqg #it was so distressing ahfkajflak #he would not get out of my brain #Alex please leave me alone #I just listened through all the eps of TMP and now I'm in a rusty quill mood again #I'm totally gonna relisten to some of the rqg oneshots at work tomorrow #Jason statham oneshot my beloved #*Ben Meredith voice* Jason. Babe. Darling. Sugarplum. My delicious rose. #I miss hearing Ben Merediths ensemble of voices #I miss them all #rqg I miss youuuuuuuuuuuu #fluffle talks

[monstrsball]

oikawa making a dramatic love declaration in the rain because he's a romantic. suga can't help but laugh but he's blushing too and he invites oikawa into his apartment and shares his umbrella with him for the rest of the walk. and he gives oikawa a towel and some dry clothes. and he still hasn't actually responded to oikawa's confession and oikawa is getting nervous but then suga says that of course he likes him back. and they make plans to go on an actual date soon.

#oisuga #i see suga laughing at oikawa so vividly in my brain... and at first oikawa is like 😀 [arrow in the back] #but then suga is like 'sorry sorry i'm not laughing at your confession you just look so ridiculous' [soaking wet] #(but he's into it) #<- man who likes when men are a little pathetic #i was gonna put this in the post but it felt like forcing it but i also think suga was trying to stall a little bit #bc he was a little flustered and caught off guard by oikawa's confession and wanted to compose himself first lol #please enjoy my rambly oisuga post. please. #they won't leave me alone i can't stop thinking about this i had to send it out in the universe #usually i go to discord for things like this but. not this time #ok im getting a snack and continuing kimi ni todoke <3

[gremlinwithakeyboard]

Me: daydreaming about an OC suffering from her OCD

My OCD: OH MY GOD YOU'RE SO EVIL FOR HAVING THAT LITTLE PLOTLINE IN YOUR HEAD I AM GOING TO MIND CANCEL YOU

#please leave me alone brain #ocd #actuallyocd #vent post #freaking tumblr post sent my brain on a death spiral again :')

[zia-the-weirdo]

Okay so i made Charming Duelist as a joke but now it’s genuinely starting to grow on me please hel

#Scissors x Dimentio #Scissors #Dimentio #super paper mario #paper mario the origami king #legion of stationery #they won’t leave me alone #get them out of my brain please #/hj

[mossyflowers]

I'm regretting the trig post. People stop getting on my ass about not liking trig challenge (IMPOSSIBLE)

#moss talks #please for the love of god. i understand what it's like when you see something disliking something you like #i know it's funny to say you actually like the thing that the funny haha joke person dislikes on the post #but please for the love of god i am a highschooler with a lot of shit goin on and my math teacher is NOT that great of a teacher #you can tell me about the equations and practical uses of it but i have to have this shit and how to solve it MEMORIZED #and he's barely taught us how to do it #LEAVE ME ALONE AAAUAUAUAUUAUAUUAUAUUAUAU I'M A LITTLE GUY #anyways probably going to delete this later i'm just. a little annoyed. #deadass i have such a hard time with maths because I always forget the equations and little nuances unless it's drilled into my brain #and that has NOT been happening with trig and it's one billion little pieces that we spend like three days on before moving on

[transgenderfivepebbles]

rain world has irreversibly broken me i'm trying to write an english assignment about the loss of innocence and every time i type it i think about that wretched little purple thing. it's so over

#ramblings #get them out of my brain i'm BEGGING #im gonna blow up theyre shaking around in my head like a marble while i try to get things done #normal words have completely lost their meaning they're just iterator names at this point #innocence i love you but please. leave me alone for a while

[runby2]

i've grown into this weird category as a mentally ill person where i can no longer stand mentally ill social media circles with people who refuse to heal and use mental illness as an identity and social status but i also can't stand moving to twitter with the people who think they don't have mental illnesses so i'm kind of just stuck here finding the occasional cool people down the lazy river of meeting furries with critical thinking skills . in anyone's defense it was my mistake for touching grass.

#if you're stuck there too please feel free to reblog this bc i'm only following like 10 people rn #and for the life of me i just want a healthy online experience #there's like this phase that's like you're allowed to identify as your mental illness because it effects your identity' but oh my god no #no i'm not my mental illnesses #and realizing that alone and leaving communities that only reduce conversation to mental illness saved my life #mental illnesses are a label so you can learn to heal they're not a death sentence #they're so you can get medicated and get therapy and be labeled by your struggles in terms of recovery #they're not a community #they're not a discourse topic #probably everyone has one but we're all human #please #find things that make you happy and make your identity around that #stop googling mental illnesses to identify with them and then going on tumblr to find the community for it #it ruined my life and it will ruin yours too even if you feel fine with it at the moment because it's a #'community' #don't isolate with a community over something as mundane as a mental illness label that defines how your brain works #watch cooking videos and feel the sunshine and unironically as someone who's healed #touch grass with me

[samskaterguy]

The urge to rewatch Ever After High every other month is so strong

#no <3 #like please leave me alone #I've been watching this since I WAS 8 PLEASE BRAIN CAN I WATCH SOMETHING ELSE BI MONTHLY? #PLEASE #and every. time. my brain says #ever after high #eah #anyway #raven queen #apple white #madeline hatter #cedar wood #cerise hood #ashlynn ella #brair beauty #ca cupid #blondie lockes #dexter charming #daring charming #darling charming #sparrow hood #duchess swan #poppy o'hair #holly o'hair #ginger breadhouse

[kiestrokes]

Can we also talk about how fucking impractical the update is? I feel like all of my interactions are lost in the void. I have things to respond to, moots to metaphorically kiss.

#@staff #please fix it #make one decent dash and leave it tf alone #if you see me bopping around and not responding to something you’re waiting for an answer on tag or dm me! #please 🥹 #my brain and the ocd operating it are not firing #I RELY ON MUSCLE MEMORY #tumblr rant #tumblr ramblings #tumblr #tumblr update #tumblr upd8 #tumblr is a hellsite #tumblr issues #tumblr is a mess #tumblr is being a bitch #kienote

[moominpopzz]

I literally can’t listen to Sleeping With Sirens without thinking of Grizz’s comment of how Dakota would sound like the singer.. I listen to Sleeping With Sirens so much. I’ve listened to them so much for years.. JRWI the lives you ruin/pos

#it’s like actually so bad #I have at least one of their songs on ab all of my playlists #and EVER SINGLE TIME #my brain goes #Haha Dakota Coles singing #Prime Hero DC singing haha #STOOP #AUTISM LEAVE ME ALONE PLEASE #LET ME LIVE MY LIFEEBRGRGRE #it’s really funny I think #jrwi #jrwi pd #dakota cole #moomins yapping<3

[kakusu-shipping]

Another big Mario Self-Insert sketch page I’ve just been doodling on for the past few days. I’m obsessed.

#Emile's Arts #Mariocest #YES it gets the tag leave me alone #I haven't even made like a proper POST for this S/I yet I've just been making things for him #I have three different decent references already posted but no actual about #I'll get to that in the next few days. Hopefully #The whole thing is eating my brain it's 4:30 in the AM and I am just #Running thoughts around my head #I put him in the first two Paper Mario games AND Sunshine already (not a big roll just there) #I'm also running with Partner's in Time because I LOVE that game also not a big roll just there but the concept is so cool I keep going bac #Because you know. Babies. #I have no idea what else to do honestly I don't have a lot of other thoughts about other Mario games #So it's unique scenarios time. Like babysitting Junior and such. #I want to isolate and color the Uncle Mario sketch so bad you have no idea #I love Mario and his many many children that he's not the DAD of per-say but he IS in their lives forever now #He takes them to McDonalds and Orders Pizza and Shows them cool secrets in Video Games #And also chucks them like 20 feet in the air he's the kinda guy to just throw a baby around #I love him so much #I also love Toadsworth I love you Toadsworth please come back sir #Nintendo really wants that old man dead it's unfair to me who loves him

[discountwives]

this is where ive been sorry

#luffy when i catch u luffy #im not immune to silly guys #jude jests 🃏 #simple-minded guys who are blunt but well meaning. i understand them. #middle design is by kiyzeiin! #local boyz au...my brain #before i get comments hes like 19 in the ts please leave me alone 😭

[mapbookboi]

Get me started on how everyone is scared of the cryptid that is Etho during the life series and yet Etho is TERRIFIED (/j ofc) of Cleo, I beg of you!

And now think about how Cleo is now mother to two of the (arguably) most chaotic people in every single season.

(Think Scar dying a lot n being on red first during third life, BDubs being a dramatic home wrecker in double life)

Like I know it wont translate to fighting or handiwork with traps, but the mind games that could be done!! Think about it! BDubs is a home wrecker and Scar’s still stuck in that ring and trying to flee all ties to that very first win he could have had. He’s the one that betrayed BDubs in the end, not Grian. Adding Cleo in is a good deterrent, but who’s to say when someone die? What if she dies first?

Siblings fight, y’know. Parents can’t stop that no matter how hard they try.

#mcytblr #life series #trafficblr #i might just be looking into it a lil too much lol #mapbookbabbles #zombiecleo #bdouble0 #goodtimeswithscar #honorable ethoslab mention #please why does my englich teacher brain DO this its too LATE IN THE DAY #maybe im wrong tho #perhaps Cleo will just be the parent that haunts them even in death lmao #that would make me laugh #also love that Etho was almost dad #BDubs is like a child in a candy store stg #cant leave him alone for a s e c o n d

[corset]

My aunt fucking ruined everything I was going to be FINE and then right after I explicitly told her to leave me alone today because I need space because I am extremely sensitive and physically suffering/in a lot of pain, right after I signaled very obviously that I just need a little bit of patience, she chooses THIS MORNING of all mornings to snap at me about hurrying up in the most smug and fucking aggressive tone of voice she has! The exact one she has used on me for years when I’m in trouble and she wants to talk down at me about it! And now I can’t go to work because she couldn’t wait two fucking seconds and give me a little more patience today INSTEAD OF LESS after I explicitly asked for it and I had a meltdown!!!!!!!!!! Is two fucking minutes on the clock more important to you than me!!!! Is it that important!!!!!! I’m so fucking angry I could scream

#I was so fucking close every morning I have to mentally prepare and set my brain to leave the house and sometimes we need a moment to adjust #to a front switch and so we’re very disoriented in the morning and it takes a lot of energy but if I she had just fucking left me alone like #I EXPLICITLY ASKED #It would have been FINE. I was going to hurry up for her! It was going to be fine!!!!! I just wanted to be left alone! God #Ah yes please do bother the autistic PMDD haver at the peak of his period when the symptoms are worst right when he very politely asked you #to leave him alone! You’re so smart!!!!! Why!!!!!! You literally know me personally I have communicated so much of this with you openly I #sit there and tell you about myself and my problems all the time you’ve watched me openly crying 5 times a day for the last week there is #nothing else I can do about it!!!! I don’t lash out at you with it and yell at you I try to set boundaries I try everything I can!!!!! You #can’t practice the bare minimum of self control for me!????

[youremyonlyhope]

why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up

#i'm overthinking something that i did and was told off for doing by my director #and on my way home i was thinking when was the last time i was even talked to like that during a production #and then i remembered the costume experience from hell of only a couple months ago that i've already began blocking out #but the thing is that that person was someone i knew i'd never have to work with again #i mean at first i thought i would have to work with them more. then they announced they were moving away immediately #so i only had to deal with them face to face for another weekish after that point and anytime they yelled at me #i was like 'cool. i'll do exactly what you say to do. and nothing more.' but then of course me being me #i did some extra stuff and they initially were like 'oh that's pretty' and then days later told me to cut everything i added #and like sure i get that the show was frozen but girl. that costume was unfinished. i was trying to finish it. it was frozen but looked bad #anyway. whenever they yelled at me and had actual malice in their heart i was like whatever. i was hurt. but i didn't care as much. #but this time it's someone i've worked with many many times before and it was about a habit i have that i know isn't great #but at the same time the thing that prompted it wasn't even me doing this habit it was something else #but she interpreted it as that habit and said that i can't do that on a production she's directing #and that if i couldn't stop then i could pull out from the production and there'd be no hard feelings between us #and honestly i think her reassuring that she knows i'm valuable and that she wants me there while also telling me not to do this thing #and the fact that she's someone i like working with and will continue to work with just made it all hurt so much more #especially since she referenced another past production we've done where i didn't even realize she had noticed that i do this. #and i found myself in near tears. and still am kind of in near tears. i can't decide if i need to cry or not. #and i had NO sleep last night so i was looking forward to sleeping tonight but now i'm just overthinking EVERYTHING #and like. i know everything will be fine. if i just stop inserting myself and stick to just my specific tasks. it'll be fine. #but this is one of the ways my ocd manifests. i feel like i have to personally fix something i notice going wrong. or it'll be bad. #because every single time i choose to sit back and not be nosy when i notice something it ends up bad in a way i could have prevented #if i just inserted myself in a situation i technically wasn't part of but knew i could help or fix. so i just need to not do that. #but then i feel guilt if it does go wrong in the ways i immediately assumed it would and in a way i could prevent. #and i've been trying to work on this for like 6 months and aaaahhhh it's hard and being called out on it from her just really really hurt #i still may or may not cry. i don't know. the irony of me telling my therapist THIS MORNING that it's been a while since i last cried. #and the universe being like 'i took that as a challenge' and handing me this situation for me to spiral over. #i need to leave things alone. i need to stare straight ahead. and ignore whatever isn't specifically for me to do. but ahhh i want to help #and then of course my mom has this same habit and it annoys me when she does it yet i do it to other people and ahhhhhhhh #brain please just shut up. i need to sleep. i have to work tomorrow.