#or is it just autism again

[wraithwillow]

does anyone know which mental illness makes it so that sometimes i cant do anything but stare at a wall and then other times i feel almost manic and want to start a brand new career from the ground up by myself and get tattoos and cut my hair and reinvent my personality and then i go back to only being able to stare at a wall

#is that adhd #is that bipolar #am i bipolar #or is it just autism again #depression? #place your bets lads

[glfry]

Can we agree that the "Thats two things" line from Mike was autistic as shit

#i love how William very clearly thinks he’s trying to play smart or something but. no he’s just like that #in general hes sooooo autistic. Same goes to Abby. #when aunt Jane noted how abbys meltdowns reminded her of mike I was cheering in my fucking seat #SO autism #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy's #Fnaf #five nights at Freddy’s movie #Mike Schmidt #can’t wait till this movie comes out anywhere that isn’t peacock. please I wanna watch it again but peacock doesn’t even have a free trial #also Just his general anti socialness??????? hello? #the way he just. walks off during the pharmacy scene #or the way he basically ignores max CANNOT be neurotypical #also with the former that his stand-offish nature is seen as rude #ALSO near the beginning of the movie where he tells his coworker about the dream theory- #-and he completely avoids eye contact and just fiddles with his Walkie-Talkie #like that cant be nt behavior

[greenlaut]

anatomy of an assassin

#(shakily hands you altair) #vent art from the really shit nightmares ive been having lately #its supposed to represent how derealisation feels like—when you just wake up from a nightmare #and nothing feels real. your body is not yours. putting on clothes is like putting on your own skin again until you feel Normal #dont look at my open tabs of middle eastern clothing. ihad an autism moment there for pseudo-accuracy sake #inhuman altair feels again ig. will you ever be comfortable in your own skin? (the answer is perhaps never) #my art #asscreed #assassins creed 1 #assassin's creed 1 #assassins creed #assassin's creed #ac #ac1 #altair ibn la'ahad #altaïr ibn la'ahad

[averageludwig]

Demosolly as fucking ... Bubbline ... From that one universe.... This came to me in a dream and i woke up frantically to draw it. . at . er 2 am on a school day. . cough. I Might have a problem 😁 i cant explain my thought process here if you get it .... You get it. ..

#art #tf2 #fanart #team fortress 2 #tf2 demoman #boots n bombs #tf2 soldier #fionna and cake #? #i am insane #just mixing up my interests again #this is embarrassing #its the autism #sollydemo #they are ruining my life #UGHHHH sorry i have an addiction to drawing demo in anything county #i love him #averiart

[carpathiians]

johm

#rdr2 #john marston #rdr2 fanart #my art #autism be damned that boy can bark #or whatever that post is #i really need to practice drawing his face again #sorry for how infrequent the art posts are my brain is just sludge rn

[infiniteorangethethird]

maybe unpopular opinion but probably one of the least useful pieces of advice I've ever got as an auDHD person to the question of "how tf does one make friends" was to go and join clubs/groups that do hobbies I enjoy. Not only does this not actually answer the question of how to make friends (yknow, how to approach people, how to start a conversation, how to appear friendly enough that they don't immediately reject you for existing, how to actually keep them as friends later on, etc), but also the chance of me choosing to force myself into the discomfort of "making smalltalk with random strangers" is absolutely nonexistent when the alternative of engaging with a hyperfixation is not only socially acceptable but even encouraged

#autistic #autism #actually autistic #adhd #actually adhd #neurodivergent #actually neurodivergent #one time a friend of mine took me to a knitting club #she kept telling me beforehand how nice everyone was and #i shouldn't be anxious cuz they are all nice ppl #when we got there the social anxiety got to me #so to calm myself i took out my project of the time #i then proceeded to hyperfocus on knitting for the rest of #the two hours that we spent there #ignoring everyone else and not talking whatsoever #and since they didn't approach me either i just sat there in silence #she obviously couldn't pass up the opportunity to make fun of me afterwards #needless to say i never went back there again #cuz i mean if i wanna knit i'm gonna to it in the safety of my home #i don't need the added stress of masking in front of others #i still don't know how to make friends

[loverboybreakdowns]

ppl will say “i hate being seen with you in public because you stand funny and wear your headphones all the time and talk too loud” and then get all defensive when you say thats ableist

#ppl being my sister #like explain to me again how thinking my visible autistic traits are inherently embarrassing is not ableist? #she also said that autistic people in general are annoying #again while getting upset when i said that was ableist #i even word it really carefully so she cant accuse me of saying that she is ableist #but no the girl is just aggressively against admitting she has any kind of bias at all ever #autism #actually autistic #autistic #neurodivergent #actually neurodivergent #adhd #autism/adhd #actuallyautistic #actually adhd #neurodivergence #autistic experiences #tw ableism

[baalzebufo]

gettin back into the swing of doodling them video game men I like

#alloyart #kazumaji #goro majima #kazuma kiryu #yakuza #like a dragon #ryu ga gotoku #i went a little while not drawing them so time to relearn it lol #im in deep kzmj brainrot right now after finished y8 and just getting autism blasted by the series again in general

[signedjehanne]

people on tumblr will literally post things like “you have to eat vegetables and expand your palate i dont care if you are a picky eater because of autism (if i can overcome it you can too)” and everybody will reblog it being like “yes this is true for everybody no matter what” and think its okay. like sorry but that wont work for everyone and there is no one size fits all and some people will never be able to eat these things no matter how hard they try. im only allowed by my doctors to eat recreationally and not for nutrition, because my ARFID is so severe that i get my nutrition solely from a specially made formula drink. your suggestions of “try vegetables roasted!” or “try them in soup!” and assurances of “i did it, you can too!” don’t work for those of us with more severe mental illnesses and disabilities. stop tying a person’s worth to their diet and stop assuming everybody has the ability to do what you can.

#seb speaks #autism #arfid #disability #i am TIRED. #for me #it’s not just sensory issues it’s a subconscious response #that reads unfamiliar foods as poisonous #this has been confirmed by all the doctors and scientists ive spoken to #actuallyautistic #i cannot have it blended to where i cant taste or feel it because even the thought #of those foods elicits panic attacks #because again. my brain reads them as poisonous. whether i want it to or not #you may say ‘this is sooo unhealthy tho’ #and yes! it is! because i’m mentally ill and disabled and i will never be healthy in this department #for as long as i live #i have done 3 rounds of feeding therapy and 1 support group #and countless visits to doctors and specialists and scientists #and they have all confirmed i will not get better #so the best i can do is to drink the formula and eat my safe foods. it’s the only way i’m physically able to live #and it’s why im not dying in a hospital bed from malnutrition anymore

[randomminty]

N from pkmn art?

Maybe

#bottom left doodle. autism and baby autism #pokemon #art tag #trainer n #rival n #<- question mark? i gurss #not taggin ghis scientifc name cant be bothered #i just finished this one im not looking at it again incase i notice a mistake. POST #does anyone even tag him as his full name. ig youd have to bc his name is a letter but still #okay. byebye #ask tag

[sorrelpaws]

bestfriends always have their ups and downs, arguments and a couple fights lol

#rick and morty #rick sanchez #morty smith #ive already drawn them fighting AND IM DOING IT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! #theyre defo fighting over some miniscule unimportant thing and theyre both too stubborn to back down now #also no one wins these fights at some point one of them just says smth that triggers the others autism #mortys bite mark is on the wrong hand except no it isnt and youre imagining things. youre crazy. everyone thinks youre acting super weird rn

[quinn-pop]

let’s do some autistic meta knight headcanons!! over explaining my interpretation of meta knight yet again wooooo

this orb has NO idea how to talk to people!!! outside of work anyway. a lot of this is partially due to upbringing (suppressing his emotions all the time) but he does not know how to express emotions, like…at all.

this goes into a few things

1. yeah talking is hard. even after figuring out what he wants to communicate he will struggle. conversation can be so overwhelming, especially under pressure. he will need time lol

2. because of that, forming connections is hard. i really don’t think meta is much for shallow relationships, and certainly not early in the timeline. which also means he has very little experience with friendship. so a lot of the relationships he did have went kinda neglected, and issues that probably could’ve been worked on by talking became…*cough romk* escalated.

3. honestly i wouldn’t be surprised if meta convinced himself he couldn’t feel emotion (anymore) until like. katam-ish. he tried very hard lol

vulnerability is terrifying. (though this gesture here is also just comforting, like his little cape cocoon thing he does.)

unmasking—yeah im taking the mask thing very literally here—is a big deal and a very slow process for mk. i’m sure he has a lot of feelings on that lol. it served as a way to ensure no one could ever, y’know, see him.

i can’t say i think he’d ever fully ditch it—there’s always gonna be some days that are more stressful than others and if having it could help him get through it, it just makes sense. mainly when working.

it really is about vulnerability. granted, i don’t think he has the most expressive face (in my head every astral just tends to stare at things) but i doubt he has much control over it. can’t fake a smile but also can’t hide it. probably blushes easy because yeah, astrals; just look at kirby’s face.

just the idea that someone might be able to read his expression and know what he’s feeling before he’s ready for them to (or even understands it himself…) yeah he doesn’t want that

but emotional turmoil aside, i think his mask also hides a lot of his stims

remember that whole “suppressing your feelings” thing? yeah turns out that ignoring half your instincts isn’t a good idea. so in true meta knight style, he tries to stim as subtly as possible

1. he has the least control over his wings, so they will flick and twitch on their own. they’re usually a good indicator of how he’s feeling, not unlike the body language usually seen in cat ears and tails lol. flapping is also an extension of this of course, though he probably suppresses it more.

2. this also effects when he takes his wings out. pretty much every time he’s excited or nervous it just happens. kinda makes me wonder if his wing cape ordeal might also go into the suppression thing… (i’d say yes, but using a cape is also very comforting so it’s not necessarily a bad thing)

3. going back to the mask thing; he stims a lot underneath it. think like biting or pursing your lips. he bites his tongue and clicks his mouth. that sort of thing. his mask also makes it harder to notice that he is constantly sighing, humming, grumbling…all that

one nice thing about the mask though is that it helps a little bit with lights!!! woo

(look at him and his magically floating glasses)

sensory stuff—i think he’s mostly bothered by light and sound. maybe a bit of texture. he’s pretty sensory avoidant and perfectly happy standing off to the side not touching anything.

the one exception to this is physical affection, which is, despite all of this, most of how he shows affection. it’s a lot easier to hug someone than to try to explain your feelings for them, after all.

i think he would like pressure though. so that’s probably part of it. and i’m pretty sure there’s some connection in here to fighting (dang, is that the only way he knows how to get his energy out?)

anyway, pretty much all of this is in contrast to kirby, who i would gladly nominate as the champion of Doing Whatever He Wants. he might pick up a few bad habits, but he will never mask the way meta knight does. he might not understand how he feels, but he’s in tune enough to express it…usually.

this is a very good thing for meta because it helps him to do the same thing. kirby’s so energetic, it’s hard to not want to stim with him. it reminds meta to be kinder to himself and explore his own emotions. he can also help kirby understand themselves, so this connection is very important.

yeah, at the end of the day, everything kinda just boils down to kirby and mk as parallels

this is the conclusion i promise

to me, meta’s arc is about growing stronger by growing kinder, and this is mostly by learning to be kind to himself. letting himself be a person again, loving and understanding other people, and eventually, letting go of all the expectations placed on him and doing the things he’s always wanted to do…

autism headcanons are fun for me because it’s cathartic to write, but at the same time, it just makes sense in this sort of narrative. meta is, to me, inseparable from these things. and so is kirby! that’s a dynamic that’s a lot of fun to play with, and it’s at the heart of my kirby interpretation.

if you actually read all this WOW thank you

#i almost considered not posting this on a wednesday but then i wrote everything and uhhh yeah i think i gotta so #happy cringe day wednesday #for as many notes as i have on these characters i really don’t talk about it much #but meta knight is a special case because i am terrible at subtlety and he wouldn’t be meta knight without it #so this is to contextualize some things #because of what ill have in the next few days haha #basically these are just things i consider when writing meta #but a lot of it is subtextual and i dont know how well it comes across #kirbyposting #kirby #meta knight #headcanons #autism headcanon #this is practically an essay lol oops #i have like 2/3 of a fic that explores most of this in a way i probably won’t do again #but we’ll see if i ever finish it #god kirby concepts are so fun to chew on #i overthink everything i make so much lol

[pansy-picnics]

when varian and hugo get bored they play wrestle like cats

#its the autism #Literally nothing romantic about it they just tackle each other for fun #varigo #vat7k #varian and the 7 kingdoms #varian and the seven kingdoms #varian #hugo rottewange #tts headcanons #pansy rambling again #vat7k hugo #ive been trying to draw this for fucking forever but poses are hard

[lylahammar]

does anyone else feel like they become neurotypical while they're in the shower

#I know it's something to do with like the white noise/sensory input helping ur brain function properly or somethin #but I swear my ADHD just fully goes away for as long as I'm in the shower #and then as soon as I step out it shloops back into my brain #it's very weird #a lot of the time I step into the shower and I feel like my executive dysfunction fully goes away like I could do anything I want #and I'll start makin a to do list in my head like 'okay as soon as I'm done showering I gotta do this and this and this' #and then I step out and I'm like lol :P forgor #lyla's talking again #ADHD #autism

[weezeryuri]

#this is NOTHING i just need to produce content autism style again #scott pilgrim #wallace wells #spvtw #scollace

[dyspunktional-revan]

"Common sense" is not actually a thing.

If something is common sense to you, it is actually simply just because at some point in your life, perhaps a very long time ago, it was made explicit enough for you, and you were able to internalize it long term.

Even mainstreamly, things that are common sense to some are not to others. Then we have differing backgrounds, and then we have disability, about which this post was originally first of all intended.

"Common sense" is literally very close to "basic DNI". Or, "this food contains allergens. You know, the basic ones."

#psa #social stuff #disability #mental disability #neurodivergency #neurodivergence #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #neurodiverse #autism #autistic #actually autistic #actuallyautistic #intellectual disability #again i have autism and don't have id i just know that this is likely relevant to id and it is also likely relevant to other disabilities > #that I'm not recalling #leviathan.txt #yay I finally made this post #food mention #disabilityposting