#only triggers

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

anyone else have multiple traumatic memories associated specifically with holidays/family vacations? because that is a topic I never see discussed in all the So You Had A Shitty Childhood, Now What? self-help books i've been reading. but for me, it was a significant thing. and the more i think about it the more it seems like this would be an (unfortunately) common experience. would be grateful to hear if this matches other peoples' experiences...

#not a shitpost #serious post #ask to tag #tw trauma #cptsd #c-ptsd #and if so we should TALK about it #because it means there are a whole group of survivors out there whose mental health regularly worsens during holidays #like i know i am most certainly not the only person who feels an undefined Dread hanging over christmas/my birthday/july 4 etc #bc too many shitty things happened during those times and now my brain is hypervigilant bc traditionally these are the Danger Times #and this seems like it would be particularly common for survivors of abusive/dysfunctional households (aka most people with c-ptsd) #because holidays/vacations typically mean 1) the whole family is together/being forced to interact #2) and undergoing external stressors e.g. travel/relatives aka 'outsiders' visiting/routines & coping mechanisms being interrupted etc #3) there is social pressure for this to be a Fun Family Bonding Experience which only highlights the cracks in the foundation #and exposes the common Everything Is Fine/We Are A Happy Family lie #4) the cognitive dissonance of feeling tired/anxious/stressed/afraid during a time when you are 'supposed' to be Making Good Memories #and then everyone is angry/tired/anxious/triggered and things boil over and something or someone goes Very Wrong #weird that i'm posting this in october when halloween is...sort of the ONLY holiday i have only good and happy feelings towards #i got lucky there #also i have positive feelings towards Labor Day but that's for socialist reasons

[loriache]

"I've been waiting for ages for somebody to unmask them."

This moment tends to elicit negative reactions in a first read through, and I've got some opinions about why where Kabru is coming from here actually makes a lot of logical sense. So I thought I'd elaborate on that.

I think people hear this and go, "He thinks they must be hiding something because they gave money to someone? What a cynic." Or "he dislikes them because they did charity?? What's wrong with this guy!". And obviously, a lot, a lot is wrong with him. But I think this makes more sense than it seems at first glance! What people evaluating this judgement miss is why Kabru is paying attention to Laios and co to begin with.

Kabru knows of the Touden siblings because (he's a little bit of a stalker-) he is keeping an eye on all the relevant parties in events developing on the island, in order to be able to guide them to his preferred outcome. This includes adventurers because they are the ones actually exploring the dungeon! He's well aware that something as minor as internal tensions between party members could be key to the historical events that are developing. (He would love the assassination of Archduke Franz Ferdinand.)

His desired outcome is that whatever the rewards are of breaking the dungeon's curse, whether that's kingship or the ancient elven secrets of dungeons, are claimed by:

A) a short lived person

B) Someone who will be a good, effective leader and/or use those secrets and the power they carry wisely, with foresight, and to establish a political bloc for short lived people.

The person he can best trust to do this is, of course, himself. But due to his PTSD regarding dungeons and monsters, he's not able to develop the necessary skills to conquer the dungeon. Once he realises this, he starts looking for someone else who he can support to that end.

But most of the adventurers don't have any intentions of conquering the dungeon, don't have the skills, or are unsuitable in other ways. In fact, it seems like some potentially suitable people are the Toudens. There are a lot of good rumours about them going around - they actually seem to have a very positive reputation! That's what Kabru means when he says "unmask".

So when Kabru is observing something like them giving money to an old comrade from their gold-peeling days, he doesn't consider it a problem because "they're giving money to this person who doesn't actually need it" or because they must have some dark secret if they act superficially nice. I think he actually understands this situation and what it implies about Laios (in particular) perfectly well.

Laios and Falin gave money to an old comrade who got injured and couldn't work. That person then healed up but kept taking their money. Then he used the money to start smuggling illicit goods to the island.

The key is that for Kabru, the problem here is the same as with the corpse retrievers - people using the dungeon's resources to fuel dangerous, selfish, or violent pursuits cause problems for the island, attract more criminals and people with motives other than breaking the curse, and increase the chances of the whole situation ending in tragedy.

Kabru is willing to work with the Shadow Lord of the island if it gets him to his goal - he isn't scrupulous - but the criminal element of the island increasing is something he sees as a major issue.

Also, when you're evaluating someone as a candidate for power, riches, secrets, potentially kingship - then being curious about how the money you give to people is going to be used is kind of a relevant trait!

Interpersonally, Kabru's actually very easygoing - I mean, Mickbell isn't exactly an upstanding guy, is he! But Kabru likes him and they get along well. These traits wouldn't be a problem at all in a friend, or a comrade, or someone Kabru was confident he could use. But he can't get a handle on Laios, and Laios is someone who has the potential to be a major player!

On Laios' end, this is the same as with the marriage seeker who joined their party. She kept asking for things and he gave them to her, because he tries to be nice to others. He even gives her money! It's the exact same thing.

That's fine, but it became a problem because he basically wasn't interested in her motives, didn't notice she was trying to manipulate him, and it also didn't occur to him that the other party members would notice or be affected. We can assume the situation with the gold peeler is the same. When Kabru says that "It's not that they're bad people, they just aren't interested in humans," he isn't wrong.

The extent to which this is true of Laios is linked to his autism imo, (because it isn't just disinterest - he genuinely isn't able to notice nonverbal cues that people are lying to him or have ulterior motives) but to a greater or lesser extent I think it's a very common trait. Most people aren't actually that interested in other people who aren't close to them. Kabru is the weird one here. It isn't an issue except as a leader - which is why we see an immediate comparison to the Island's Lord, because that's how Kabru is evaluating them.

And disinterest in/lack of ability with people to the extent Laios exhibits it, it does, actually, make him a worse leader... it's just that as we see in the story, people can help him out. The rest of the party tell him the marriage seeker is taking advantage of him so he tells her he can't give her special treatment anymore. They're pissed and it's a crisis point - he couldn't have recovered their trust without Marcille and Falin - but that's exactly the point. With Marcille and Falin, he was able to recover their trust.

And he has other good traits that make up for it, such as his intelligence, strategic knowledge, open-mindedness and sense of fairplay.

Kabru doesn't disqualify Laios as a candidate based on what he sees about him from afar, though - he still tries very hard to get close to him, obviously hoping that if he manages he can steer Laios to defeat the dungeon and make up for his lack of people-skills in the aftermath. (Which... he does eventually achieve that goal!) He completely fails until the events of the story, so... definitely I think "They just aren't interested in humans" could also partially be a stung reaction to Laios' complete disinterest in him.

Anyway, that's my read on what exactly Kabru's "issue" with Laios is. Obviously, once he does find out what Laios' true nature is like - about his love for monsters - he develops an entirely new set of fears about Laios' priorities. But since Laios kept that a secret until the start of the story, he has no idea of that yet.

Given all that, I think it's interesting that he says that he doesn't think that the Toudens are suitable to defeat the dungeon, and that he's hoping they'll turn out to be the thieves. As some of his few potential candidates, people who he thinks may play a big role in the island's future, you'd think he'd hope they would be good people!

I suppose it's better, in his eyes, because it means that he's involved in something "interesting". They haven't just had their stuff stolen by regular criminals (boring, puts them further away from his goal) - they've been caught up in the beginning stages of "a historic event". The desperate and dwindling group forgetting morals in their quest to retrieve their lost comrade probably appeals to his sense of melodrama. Because he also just... loves drama.

Despite it being "uglier than anything he was expecting", he still pursues Laios as the person he wants to conquer the dungeon pretty much as soon as it becomes clear that he won't be able to do it himself and they are out of time. That's because... well, to be fair, there aren't any other options. And he fits standard A: he's short-lived!

and Kabru still hopes he can fit standard B, too, and be persuaded to use the power he wins for good. No matter how many nightmares he has about Laios, or whether he thinks about killing him. He doubts him, but ultimately he puts his faith in him and seems happy after the manga's ending that he made the right decision.

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #dungeon meshi meta #kabru of utaya #laios touden #labru #laios x kabru #dunmeshi #og post #kabru is such a big picture thinker. and he evaluates people more than he judges them imo #the hater jokes are funny but the people he judges most harshly arent laios and co. they're people like the island's lord. #but you don't see that as clearly because he isn't interested in the island's lord. he understands him. finds him contemptible but useful. #whereas laios lives in his brain rent free because he WANTS to understand him but doesnt quite. #even though he sees the elves as a major threat to his ultimate goals and dislikes the way they treat short lived races #he still understands and evaluates mithrun as an individual based on his own merits #he's one of the characters who is least judgemental in that sense because while he's always making judgements and evaluations #he's also constantly revising them whenever he gets more information #my beautiful machiavellian prince <3 #it's genuinely a really laudable way of understanding others imo. #the only problem is that because he's driven towards his goals by his PTSD and survivors guilt #he pushes himself into situations (the dungeon and also interpersonally) that trigger him or even just upset him #without regard for what he authentically wants or his own wellbeing.

[frogseasons]

#thank u trigger for animated resurrection yuri <3 #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #farcille #frog logs #im only sad they didnt show marcille taking down her hair with her bloody ass hands

[natjennie]

okay, bear with me this requires a lot of context. imagine that you wake up on a space ship with an alien species capable of telepathic communication with you. they are also capable of instilling you with the knowledge that everything they say is completely true, there is not a hint of uncertainty in your mind. they have weapons capable of obliterating earth pointed at the planet, and are forcing you to do one of two things in order to not fire. within the fiction of the scenario you are not being given the choice, but you the real you is picking which one of these things you'd rather have happen.

you must eat an 8 ounce serving of human baby meat, by default prepared like a steak (different preparations can be requested). you do not have to keep the meat down once you're done, but you have to get all of it in your body at one point. they do not provide any information about where the baby came from or how it died. if you complete this, they will deposit you back on earth and you will be free from legal repercussions of cannibalism, and it is generally agreed that you are also free from moral blame as it was against your will.

you will be surgically impregnated with a human embryo and must carry it to term and give birth. the embryo does not contain your dna, but otherwise you don't know anything about its origins. the aliens have advanced medical technology that gives you sufficient anatomy to carry and birth the baby, and keeps you healthy throughout, with no risk of long term complications or death. you have the choice to keep or give away the baby once you have given birth, and will be deposited back on earth.

if you refuse to comply in either situation, they destroy the earth and you are forced to live the rest of your life aboard the space ship as a prisoner, until you die of natural causes.

so,

#tw: child death #tw: childbirth #childbirth #child death #tw: cannibalism #cannibalism #tw: pregnancy #pregnancy #aliens #how else do i need to tag this #let me know #i only realized right as i finished typing that this could be triggering im sorry #please tell me if i need to tag anything else

[ruushes]

everybody loved that

#nox clearing their throat before speaking into a microphone ‘fuck the police’ *uproarious applause* #also the only one that actually triggered was wylls #which is especially funny #good for him #talkin #nox #bg3

[evisceratedplague]

50 excuses for not eating

1. You’re not hungry

2. You don’t like that certain food

3. You ate a big breakfast and are still full.

4. You’re allergic to that food

5. You ate earlier

6. You have a sore throat

7. You’re vegetarian/vegan

8. You’re saving your hunger for a big family dinner

9. You have tooth ache

10. You have stomach cramps

11. You feel sick

12. You have a stomach ache

13. You’ll eat something later

14. You have a mouth ulcer

15. You bit your tongue and it hurts too much to eat

16. You’ll eat when you get home

17. You’ll eat when you get hungry

18. You don’t have any money to buy anything

19. Invent an illness where it hurts when you eat but when you don’t it’s fine

20. You don’t feel like eating right now

21. You just ate something

22. If you have braces say you just got them tightened and they hurt

23. You’re still full from lunch

24. You have a nut allergy

25. You don’t like that food unless it has a particular sauce/dip/dressing that isn’t there

26. You’re craving one particular food which you’ll have later

27. You ate too much earlier

29. You ate all your food and have none left

30. You can’t be bothered right now

31. You’re fasting for religious reasons

32. You ate with someone else

33. You need to finish your homework

34. You need to finish studying

35. You’re busy doing something ‘important’

36. You have an intolerance to a kind of food

37. You want to go for a run later and don’t want a full stomach

38. You forgot your lunch

39. You forgot to bring a snack with you

40. You overate earlier

41. There was a bake sale earlier and you’re stuffed

42. You’re going out to eat later

43. You ate out earlier

44. Your doctor put you on a special diet

45. Your dietitian put you on a special diet

46. You’re fasting because you have a fasting blood test soon

47. You don’t want anything right now

48. You’re taking part in a famine

49. You don’t have time to eat

50. Nothing looks appealing

#ed bllog #bonespø #skinnni #only pro for tags #notprojustusingthetags #disordered eating thoughts #@n@ tips #ed not ed sheeran #@na motivation #@na trigger

[wh0r3xz]

there are 2 types of anorexics

1. the ones that vigorously exercise

2.the ones who rot in bed all day (me🤗)

(that’s probably why im not seeing much progress sue me)

#ana trigger #only pro recovery #bulimima #tw b1nge #tw ana diary #eating disoder trigger warning #disordered eating cw #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #ana meal

[nyashykyunnie]

POV: You can't tell my type and it's definitely not tall dark and handsome men who are filthy rich with the sluttiest waists known to mankind ever

#∞ ₒ ˚ ° 📎— kyunnya speaks #NEW HUSBAND ACQUIRED AND ITS DR ZAYNE #//CUTELY TRIGGERS MY MEDICAL CONDITIONS TO GET HIS ATTENTION #GONNA BE FAKING HEART ATTACKS TO GET MY MAN'S ATTENTION #love and deepspace #sung jinwoo #solo leveling #sung jin woo #only i level up #ore dake level up na ken

[blueskittlesart]

Now that you're gone

#*guy who just spent a full month selling 60 pages worth of comics voice* i should write another comic #this is part 1 of 2 btw. i have another one scripted from aryll's pov LOL #anyway. the concept for this has been in my head for like. years. finally decided to actually write it tho lol #the thought of his family after the initial calamity strike makes me crazy. they lost him. but he was already gone. #he was gone the moment he picked up that sword. could they have stopped it? should they have? #would things have ended any differently if they'd tried? or would it only have been worse for him? #ANYWAY. hi everyone new black and white zelda comic from the black and white zelda comic guy #skribbles #botw #loz #legend of zelda #breath of the wild #totk #tears of the kingdom #OH SHIT. TRIGGER WARNINGS #tw gore #tw suicide #tw suicidal ideation #<sorry 4 forgetting at first LMAO

[living-pain-but-not-enough]

eating breakfast feels gross i dunno why people do it

#ana bllog #ana meal #ana rant #ana trigger #ed disorder #anatumblr #ed vent #tw ana diary #ed not sheeren #low cal restriction #tw ana trigger #ed meals #tw restrictive ed #trans ed #ed not ed sheeran #tw ed diet #tw eating issues #tw disordered eating #disordered eating thoughts #pro for only myself #pro for myself #pro for me not for thee #tw restriction #eating disoder trigger warning #i will reach my ugw #i wanna be skinnier #i wanna be tiny #i wanna lose weight #🕯️as a feather #🕯️as a 🪶

[starfruit-baby]

how is it i know

#b draws #saw #saw franchise #mark hoffman #peter strahm #hoffstrahm #coffinshipping #sorry guys. i will return to light but these guys ate my brains out #tw blood #only a little though #let me know if im missing more trigger warnings please! #PANIC for me old men PANIC

[submareena]

"ohhhh studio trigger is gonna make dungeon meshi lewd and horny, like the degenerates that they are...!"

#tell me you've only seen one studio trigger production without blah blah blah #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dungeon meshi spoilers #delicious in dungeon spoiler

[meeenx]

in the spirit of ✨romantizing my mental illnesses✨

i am dubbing this specific phenomenon:

the slim hours

in my experience doing intermittent f@sting, this is the specific period of time in my fast where:

it’s after the point where i get the most hungry

it’s sometime at the 22hr mark, it used to be at the 20hr mark

i do not feel it if i do a 16:8 fast - only for extended ones (18:6 or OMAD comes times depending on what i eat before)

in my experience, i start to:

lose the hungry feelings

my body feels almost like my bones are heavy

increased focus after 17-18 hours, i was able to get multiple things done and efficiently

if i sm0ke 🍃, it hits 10x harder va sm0king when eating/after eating

most of the time i am able to ⭐️ve past 24hrs if i can get to this point.

feeling energized to get through workouts

feeling a bit more cheerful in personality/maybe in part to exercise release chemicals and such

each time i get to this time in a f@st, i always see the scale drop the next day. always.

drinking low cal drinks, coffee, tea, anything without cals doesn’t affect it.

i call it ‘the slim hours’ because it does feel like after the 22hr mark it’s like i feel myself shrinking, like my body is forced to eat through my fat instead of any extra cals.

this time is different for everyone, but i’d recommend finding

✨ your slim hours ✨

(let me know if there’s a scientific name for this i wasn’t sure and just gave it a cute name imo idk i was a visual arts major plz)

#@n@ diary #sk1n&🦴 #🦋diary #🦋tw #🦋rant #@na bvtt3rfly #🦋goals #⭐️ ing motivation #⭐️vation goals #⭐️rving #skin&🦴 #@nor3×14 #4norexla #4n4blr #@na buddy #@na blog #i will reach my ugw #@na meal #tw ed but not sheeran #tw ed trigger #eedee tumblr #🦋spo #th1nsp1ration #th1gh g@p #@ana #@nor3xia #pro only for myself #pro for me #pro for me not for thee #@tw edd

[ljsarts]

"If I was so dead, where was my funeral?! Where’s my headstone?"

I'm haunted by both these quotes and the idea of what would have happened had Timothy Goose found Ylfa after she'd well ...

Quote is by Kristin Chang

now available as a print

#ylfa snorgelsson #neverafter #d20 fanart #d20 neverafter #dimension 20 #d20 spoilers #ahhhhhh glad people are liking this!! everyone leaving lovely tags thankyouuu #and everyone tagging her as jsut a baby i agree i wanna just hug her and tell her everything will be okay #also shoutout to the goodhood girlhood quote for messing me uo when i first heard it #its now available as a print because this artist is gettin very little work right now #also if you like neverafter i made some ocs! who are equally just baby #also i didnt originally know the full poem only this quote so dont take the full poem as context for this piece its on a very difficult top #topic so check triggers first thankyou to the person who pointed this out in their tags

[wanna-b-w8lessss]

cant recover when theres no proof of anything TO recover from.

#I AM VERY MUCH PRO RECOVERY BTW!!!!! i mean this only for myself #pro for me not for thee #PRO FOR ME. NOT FOR THEE. okay just wanted to make that clear #tw ana diary #4n0r3xia #tw ana trigger #4norexi4 #ana trigger #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #tw ed diet #tw restrictive ed #4n4t1ps #4n4blr #4n4rexia #4n4m1a #4n4memes #4n0rexic #4norexla #4nor3xia #4norexia #anorexcya #th1n$pø #anor3c1a #@nor3×14 #ana bllog #th1nsp1ration #an0r3c1a #an0rec1a #tw ana meme

[5-pp-man]

wait hold on. before i forget.

i had this dream abt sesame street doing a collab with some company that made sleep accessories and beds, and the Bert and Ernie one was this twin bed perfectly separated in the middle with one side themed after each of them.

for the commercial it showed them sleeping in it, but they were lying like this;

#it was the only dream i remembered from that night. it was so cute #sesame street #bert and ernie #unfortunately i think the thing that triggered that dream was me seeing that -yeah we nutting this month- post #since it has ernie in it. #yes their arms are positioned weird but it was like that in the dream. theyre muppets. no bones. #tedpost #tedart #tedreams