#ok now THIS is my final post today

[todayisafridaynight]

Do you mind dumping all of your thoughts on ebina for us?

i dont even know where to begin on ebina he just sucks major horse cock and i cant be swayed on this but ill put it under the cut for everyones sake. this is rambly as hell too idc i refuse to spend any more time thinking about ebina more than i already do

like what is his purpose. like i KNOW his purpose but it sucks- him being a Plot Twist baby is the dumbest shit in the world and they dont even ATTEMPT to do anything meaningful with it i do not care what anyone says

why even HAVE HIM be related to ichiban if he never even interacts with ichi in a meaningful way, esp when ichi's whole theme is family-- WHEN THE GAME IS LITERALLY ABOUT ICHI MEETING HIS MOM (or it was until they decided they didnt care about akane in the plot anymore)

like we mentioned it before here but if you have to have ebina related to a yakuza from the past for his ol Bring Down The Yakuza gig then why not make him an orphan from kazama's orphanage ???? literally nothing wouldve changed except it would've made more sense with how much kiryu deals with him instead of ichi. it wouldve been a great way to round things off with kiryu's saga too, what with having to confront the consequences of kazama's actions directly and finally and officially burst that fanatic bubble of his (i dont wanna HEAR nothing about gaiden that's not enough for me im GREEDY). theres something in here too about kiryu and daigo but i cant articulate it... i just know that wouldve been better too .... something something kiryu brought daigo into this life and now that he sees kazama 'bring' ebina into this life hes projecting ... idk ..

the game def didnt seem to give a fuck that ebina was arakawa's son considering they fucking revealed it in a bland-ass in-game cutscene FROM DAIGO OF ALL PEOPLE daigo respectfully why the fuck do you know this

i dont know how many people watch my streams but i was so obnoxious about ebina's villain monologue before his fight because its just ...... it just SCREAMS Hey You Guys Remember Aoki Right. fucking Masumi Arakawa Had Two Sons: One Who Loved Him And One Who Hated Him LITERALLY SHUT UP AND DIE I HATE YOU MASATO ARAKAWA WAS RIGHT THERE AND HE DID IT BETTER THAN YOU fucking stealing his bleach japan shit too. you might be able to steal bleach japan and piss me off about it the entire time because fucking everyone and their grandmother besides zhao seems to have forgotten fucking bleach japan but you can NOT steal Number One Hater Son from masato arakawa GET AWAY FROM HER 🗣️🗣️🗣️ 'why did masumi arakawa have to get himself killed' BECAUSE HIS NUMBER ONE HATER SON HAD HIM KILLED BECAUSE HE WAS A BETTER HATER THAN YOU SHUT UP

another thing that pissed me off to no end was the sawashiro shit fuckin Oh He Kept Him Alive Because He Wanted Him To Stop Him SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP I HATE YOU . i really wouldve preferred if they just killed sawashiro like old man why are you here- WE DIDNT EVEN GET TO SEE YOUR EYE GET GOUGED but im getting off topic. NOTHING bout what we've seen from ebina could convince me he Wanted To Be Stopped like absolutely nothing i dont want to hear this bullshit excuse. it is MERELY just reminding me of ichi being like 'i wish i couldve been there to stop you' @ aoki and its making me pissed

like im the only person who cares this intensely because im the only person who likes aoki enough like this and im trying NOT to mention him so much and just focus on ebina but its just so annoying... like its impossible NOT to see the parallels, especially when the game is practically bashing it into my brain every three seconds. like if we're talking aoki/masato-adjacent antags then i like eiji so its not the fact that HE IS aoki adjacent that pisses me off its just that he has no agency OUTSIDE of being a ghost of him. like there's nothing interesting about him in the slightest and he's barely even on screen why are you forcing me to give a fuck about this twat. if anything the one aoki thing i wish they did mirror onto him was dying at the end i do not care about this man

#iw spoilers #spoilers #snap chats #i think these are all my thoughts. or at least the very basics #point is Resident Aoki Fan Hates The Guy Reminiscent Of Aoki more at 11 #its like .... aoki was an interesting antagonist for his reasons you cant just frankenstein them onto this rando motherfucker #most deviantart oc ass backstory too literally kill yourself #OK IM DONE FR NOW. i wanna DRAW TODAY #maybe ill finally update my ichi blog cause ive had a post sketched for weeks but i keep getting distracted on sundays #im also driving back to school later so .... heres to hoping i have energy tonight vjeLVKERJ #im drawing other bullshit rn .. lol..

[girldewar]

thinkin about the deweys . as always

#there is this trend i have noticed within myself #where whenever it hits finals season i want to avoid doing my finals so so so bad #that i just start coming up with the most unhinged depressing fic concepts ever known by man #today's is a post-trade queer isolation fic centered on the way things weren't perfect in minnesota not by far #but at least connor was a little sure -- a bit mind you nothing crazy or anything #but a little sure that if his teammates didn't already know what was going on with brandon they'd just accepted a certain level of #Weirdness #that gave them a pretty long leash re: what they could get away with without being noticed or ostracized #but now he's on the leafs and he's running into all these new issues he never had to worry about before #they want to know why he's on his phone all the time. they want to know if he has a girlfriend. they want to know about brandon #but not like that of course why would they have any reason to think it was like that. and even if they did think it was like that -- #connor has enough to worry about already without being on sheldon keefe's or auston matthews' or whoever's shitlist for being queer #or for that matter the toronto media's shitlist. and to top it all off he and brandon aren't even in the same country anymore. #not even in the same CONFERENCE #fuck. #bees speaks #ok bye im gonna go stare at this stupid poem for a while #rpf talk #2126

[feluka]

somehow still relevant

#the way this was written over 30 years ago and today in 2023 i ran back to it to sort out my feelings about the finale #because aziraphale is still aziraphale. after so many years it's still the same struggle: heaven or crowley #i want to go through my old phone contacts and find the number of the woman who sold me her secondhand copy of this book some years back #so i can tell her 'look what you fucking did to me!!' and also thank her i guess?? #ANYWAY my mother thinks i'm crazy rn because i've been watching my screen for 9 hours straight now #and then only got up to immediately run to the bookshelf and thumb through the pages quickly to look for this passage. SHE IS LAUGHING AT M #ok ok i'll go to bed no more gomens posting #gos2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #good omens

[marietheran]

(By the way, I thank You for the stars)

I guess I’m not asking for miracles now

I guess when I talk to St. Therese I can do without roses

I only ask for a mundane peace

And a lack of fear

At Mass, during the Transfiguration, I pleaded

“but a thread from Thy Robe and I’d be healed”

And then I knew,

You were giving me Yourself but I couldn’t –

I stood before the Altar and wrung my hands in thought with no resolution

You know best what I need,

then give me that –

but suddenly I’m afraid

The easiest prayer is “help”

and then to drop into soothing darkness

But I jerk up my head, unable to faint at a whim

I sometimes wish we still wore corsets

I guess I’m not a saint

maybe I should trust You more

I sat on a swing today though I’m far too old for that I think

It felt like flying, if only a little

I’m still unhappy and scared

But I need to end this poem and not with the night

By the way, I thank You for the stars

(11.06.23)

edit: the context for anyone who doesn't follow me is that I have a huge problem with scrupulousity

#^^^a poem i wrote several months ago #seemed like a good day to post it #not because this is how i feel today - It's actually a good time for me - compared to the usual great even #but because of the latter. if i felt worse than when writing this poem it would have been difficult. #(and at the same time i do have a fear or two so i can get what i wrote) #(no really I'm sharing this roght now because i finally have the document i had it in on my phone and at hand) #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #ok #poesis #my poem #therese writes #Christian poem #Christian poetry #original poem

[brookheimer]

other speculation about tonight's episode for those interested (aka throwing shit at the wall, seeing what sticks, etc. the usual. also i'm bolding the TL;DR stuff bc it's long):

jimenez lead, ATN/roys [do something], then mencken wins. (talked about this here)

connor splits the vote for a bit but eventually drops and endorses mencken

mencken agrees to block the deal, jimenez refuses to work with the roys. i feel like this is pretty clear already but i think it'll be made explicit. the election will be not just ab ideological issues but the company, obviously, and anti-deal anti-ideology roman just sees mencken as their best option and doesn't give a shit about any political beliefs, shiv is the least anti-deal of the three which helps her because she wants jimenez anyways bc she's the Liberal Good one (sure, shiv, sure), and ken is trapped in between the two. basically, roman pro-mencken, shiv pro-jimenez, kendall unsure (jimenez will not block mattson deal/work with kendall and mencken will, but ken's performative liberalism makes it difficult for him to back mencken). i think ken will end up backing mencken anyways because he cares far more about his own success than america's, and i also think he would justify it to himself by saying, like, 'look if i'm in charge at waystar i can make actual change, i can't do that if i'm not CEO, so i gotta back the person who will make that happen so that way i can help society' or whatever it is he tells himself lmao

there's gotta be something with shiv pregnancy. the two biggest threads left dangling rn are shiv pregnancy and kendall-sanctioned logan smear campaign, and i'd be v surprised if the latter doesn't make some sort of appearance in the funeral episode, and idk if they'd try to work in both those threads in the same hour when so much else is going on. i also don't think they'd mention the pregnancy in ep4 and never again until the finale which meaaans something happening with it this episode. idk if it means reveal or not (because frankly it will not be shiv's fucking focus rn lmao) but it's gotta come up somehow

honest to god no fucking clue what the shocking thing will be. i don't think it'll be the election outcome itself (either mencken or jimenez, both expected) so i feel like it has to be in either the way it plays out or some sort of roy-related reveal. something i can see happening, maybe, is some sort of ATN fuckup -- they call it too early, they send out false information, some minions get the wrong order, idk -- that they have to scramble to either fix or lean into. like, their action decides the election, but it was a fuckup. it could work, i think, because it would show how unstable american 'democracy' is -- it rests in the hands of people like the roys and companies like waystar and news media like ATN, and one mistake could quite literally decide the future of america. that's how unstable things are. idk, maybe an anchor misreads a prompter and says something that's taken as an incitement to violence, maybe a phone call cuts out and orders are misheard then followed, just something that shows how terrifyingly flimsy our entire political process actually is. again this is literally ALL JUST SPECULATION i have no fucking clue how things will play out i'm just trying to figure out how things could maybe go

i think the election will be a backdrop for other huge developments in roy family life but not to the extent that con's wedding was -- i think there are probably big things that happen that are unrelated to the election, but i do think it's going to be election focused, mostly just bc i would be kind of disappointed if it wasn't lmao. but seriously though succession is such a political show (even when it's not explicitly about politics) that i'd be very very surprised if they eschewed it entirely to focus on family matters, especially bc so much of succession is about the interrelation of familial abuse, capitalism, and political fascism. this episode is the perfect fucking storm for them all to come together.

rome/ken fight from the teaser possibly this ep? just looks like they're wearing the same clothes/in the same room based on the episode trailer. not sure though

again really don't know what the Shock will be. i can see a nailbiter but a Shocking Twist? we shall see...

#will update and post other thoughts if i have them but for now i need to go work on my finals #lmao #i know this is long and excessive but i've gotten like five asks today asking for it so this is for yall #TLDR: mencken win after rough start and ATN intervention. connor eventually endorses mencken. rome and (eventually) ken back mencken bc he #will block the mattson deal. shiv refuses to back mencken on moral principles (and also she's the least set on bombing the deal so there's #less of a conundrum for her). probably shiv pregnancy returns -- either a reveal (in the context of abortion bans under mencken? tbh idk #that feels a lil on the nose for me) or a mention of/reference to it. overall ATN/roys/etc are the deciding factor not votes/america #MAYBE: ATN has a fuckup that snowballs into deciding the election somehow. miscommunication or smth that has drastic consequences #could see that being a nailbiter/shocking thing/etc. that's just pure guessing though irdk #THOSE ARE MY PREDICTIONS FOR ALL WHO HAVE ASKED. IT'S 2:21 PM 5/14/23. I WILL CHECK BACK TONIGHT #really this is so ridiculous bc u can't predict succession but it's fun speculating and now it's become a Thing i do so. here we are #succession #succession spoilers #(except as always not really) #long post #succession speculation #ok im starting a tag for this lol

[n3ongold3n]

I'm so proud of my hostas surviving the winter and being so lush and beautiful 😭💚

And on a day like this let me also say (for myself because i tend to forget) i am proud of myself for making the backyard greener and more colourful than it used to be 😤🌾

#even though the hausverwaltung is trying their hardest to cut everything down #the figs are from my neighbour though. she scolded the tree last spring if it wouldn't bear fruit she'd remove it #(after planting it as tiny sapling 3 years ago - she's so impatient but ok she is quite old too 😅) #anyway - last year? 5 figs! and delicious ones too! #this year the tree wants to go all-in it seems #the bluebells are from the alottment #i don't want to see them there they spread so damn much and suffocate everything else #but here. in the backyard. they can use their extremely good survival skills against the draught and hausverwaltung #and pparently the silver penny plant is called honesty in english? #well i'm proud of them too i planted out the seedlings a year ago and they are finally flowering 🥰 #i hope they establish themselves here #(i have no impulse control today (literally ate a whole chocolate bunny just now) so i'm sort of free to post my cringy-ish garden rambles #✌🏽😌 #garden blogging

[arthur-r]

what’s really embarrassing is my roommate on the phone with his mom saying “yeah i’ve been getting really sloppy i haven’t cleaned in a week it’s terrible” and my side of the room is just like that. all of the time. and i feel guilty but he also hasn’t ever said anything to my face he moved my stuff some at the beginning of the year but has never talked to me about it and i’m also so fucking ill that i just cant really handle adding that to my list while trying to also not fail school. so here i am being a terrible person i guess. did i tell you guys about turtle-person. have i showed my bracelets. i’m gonna go to sleep but in the morning i need to show my bracelets

#help i have work tomorrow. i also feel sick and strange. wish me luck #the sun was around today which was incredible but also i think it gave me too much mental energy #cause for the first time in forever i had the brightness of spirit to go for a walk. but that’s not the same as having the blood flow for it #so i think i overexerted myself cause of being finally happy and mentally energized i forgot about being physically disabled #i also had to explain POTS to somebody today and she was literally like ‘oh is that the thing where you need to have salt’ and NO like #i do have a really high salt intake to cope with POTS. but that’s not the fucking thing yknow?? like no that’s not what the thing i have is #it has nothing to do with salt. salt is a fun little coincidence that it can help with water retention which in turn helps with POTS #and it raises blood pressure is i think the other reason? but anyway idk i would honestly rather she just not know about it than have like #that very particular tiktok version of it like i am so glad for internet knowledge being spread and stuff and i mean. i guess even the posts #that i’m about to complain about are good for making people feel like they’re not alone. so maybe it’s fine. but i was going to complain of #the videos that are like ‘‘that one POTS friend’’ and it’s just like. salty food. instead of like. having to sit down?? BEING FATIGUED?? #and like whatever. whatEVER but i wish it wasn’t getting conflated with one particular little way of treating it. even though i use that way #i don’t have needs-a-lot-of-salt-disease. like that’s not the point. that’s not the issue. it’s not a salt deficiency. salt just helps #and it doesn’t FIX it. it just helps. that’s all #ANYWAY EVERYTHING IS FINE. i feel sick though. but i’m gonna sleep and i’ll be fine #i miss before i had a job cause then i could sleep all day if i skipped class and it would be really nice. but now i have a job i would be #missing on my responsibilities for. and I don’t actually have accommodations. but im gonna sleep i’ll be fine #and library book cart is actually so rollator. like as far as being able to walk the library situation is such a win #anyway i’m gonna go to sleep now. but yeah idk i’m sick and a mess what else is new. but i have something whatever i’m good theres something #unrequited love for life or something like that. ok im gonna go to bed sorry for being weird and strange all the time!!!! #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[lusalemaart]

#ok i am done for now #tag later #AND NOW finally a post that my 'followers' from 2018 would actually care about #okabe rintarou #rintarou okabe #okabe rintaro #rintaro okabe #steins gate #s;g #nonetheless. it still is a fact that some of my fav things ive ever done were okabe. i cant go back. i sometimes wish i could. but i cant. #18 year old me was just a better funnier person than i am today unfortunately #that bitch also had more confidence and hope. i-- today-- however do not #steins;gate

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[todayisafridaynight]

ARE YOU READYYYY

#snap chats #IM GONNA THROW UP ITS REALLY HERE #i wasnt going to get snacks but. i got paid today. it was a sign #plus the game still had to download and i needed to kill time SOMEHOW #at the very least my dad got me the cookies last week so <3 #‘snap what kind of gamer eats a salad and drinks water’ A REAL GAMER KNOWS HE NEEDS HIS ENERGY TO KEEP PLAYING #plus the chips and cookies are there too ok. #so glad my roommates and i dont interact cause i couldnt explain to them #why im sitting in the dark suddenly with this shrine to men while i wolf down food #im gonna do a split omfg im so excited to play THIS IS WHAT WE’VE BEEN WAITING FOR BOYS #HALF A YEAR SHOUT OUT TO EVERYONE WHO MADE IT YOURE SO STRONG AND IM PROUD OF YOU #also final reminder if i post bout this game ill use the tag ‘ishin spoilers’ #ill also just use ‘spoilers’ like i did in the past so block those now if you havent #games almost done downloading ima sit in the dark a lil more and then its game time hehehe

[honeyedwordsandblades]

"Who are you?"

Raised on heroic stories of old, Rosenna has long since dreamed of such a life. But, now, inadvertently thrust into a great, perilous adventure of her own, both her will and convictions will be tested unlike never before.

"A year ago I ran away from home, straight to Baldur's Gate. If there were any a place a heroic adventurer could find their start, it'd be there. I know my parents must miss me dearly. And, oh, how I miss them, as well as the little hamlet I used to call home. But I cannot just sit idly by doing nothing as people all around me, all around Faerûn suffer and cry out for help. It's been quite some time since there's been a proper Hero to do as such. If Tymora wills it, perhaps there can be one more."

Picrew Credit: ElenaA's Windswept Oc Maker by @elena-illustration

#rosenna #milestone #it took me three days to get this done but damn if it wasn't worth it #apologies for the lack of usual posting but i figured for my 500th post it should be something at least a bit special after all #also about midway through actually writing it (which was today btw) i randomly came up with and decided rose's actual name would be rosenna #so that's exciting!! #especially since i've been talking about her so much in tags. and just have been tagging her as tav!rose up until now. #which i need to change all those posts' tags so that it's her actual name now #but now you all know who she is! and more excitingly since i've been meaning to make this post for some weeks now (not as a 500th post) #maybe i can finally start writing some fics now with her??? 👀 😏 #i'll also probably make at least another one for my other tav #also should i make one for durge!rosenna as well? like i feel like i should? thoughts? #(ok imma stop talking now so i can actually post this once and for all. #also so i can finally post all the cool posts i've found in those three days and well more that have been hanging around in my drafts #lol whoops haha)

[run-down-that-dream]

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#um. I don't really want to make a personal post because it gives me anxiety BUT #my anxiety has already been kicking my ass all day today and. I'm so lost idk what to do #I am literally useless rn. completely ditched my classwork. shut down. stuck in obsessing about it. and useless #and I fought for help all summer. like phone calls All The Time pushing for it. and finally got 1:1 talk appointments. #which. ok. but they keep getting (sneakily) spaced further and further out. and it's clearly Not Enough.. #and my initial request for a psychiatrist was totally ignored. #I think they just gave me a therapist to say look you have something now shut up #I am literally in tears and just want to give up #and I have 70 pages of a textbook staring at me like hellooo forgetting something? #I'm gonna be sick idk WHAT to do

[0wllight]

today is the wedding day!! promised myself i would make it a spring wedding specifically and now it's happening :) stalled WAYY too long on when this would happen so i just told myself i would make it friday and now it's friday. so.

spent a bit on this and edited in the background this morning but happy wedding day to the two of us!

(s/i uses he/they pronouns!)

taglist: @chaiiseas@marcowolfs@samsbeckett@winds-beloved@nooks-canon-boyfriend@aidoruus@matcha-narancia@gyuho@lothrics-love@rabbitsselfshipadventures@bittersweet-n-smilin@self-shipyard@strawberryshipz@murderposting@genoge

#LOVE WINNING TODAY. #just got back from my shower now i post the pic :) #lets fucking GOOOOOO #key never shuts up #my post #ship: lucky 8 #ok to rb #my art #key draws #also the outfits were so fun to draw #love drawing ppl in formal wear #they also are STRAIGHT DRIPPIN #drawing wedding stuff can be such a personal experience #mskgmkge #anyways. enjoy the pic #tagged for others #also i have finally found a method to my madness for lined art #like sketch lined art #and its working well so!!

[catholicsaintdennisreynolds]

everyone please give me good film bro movie recs ive already seen fight club reservoir dogs and taxi driver

#i need to be more annoying about films #like right now #but i might repost this during the day if it doesnt get any attention tonight. i acknowledge its almost 4am here dbdjfjjs #movies #my post #cinema #film #i probably wont watch them tonight anyway i need to work on my final projects which are. uh #due tomorrow and i just started them both today :) #and yet i am posting on here instead #its ok i have stimulants im undefeatable

[victory-cookies]

bro I’ll never again be able to do it like I was doing it in high school

#I just read through my final essay for AP lang and the closing statement I wrote for my law class’ mock trial and they’re both such bangers #like genuinely the writing in both is better than what I could do today (to be fair at that time I had just taken a year of ap lang #and that had made me really really good at essays) #and like my valedictory! that shit ruled! I was told it was the best valedictorian speech most of my teachers had heard in a decade! #I was thriving! #Ok I wasn’t fully thriving but still. I had a 96% avg and was consistently churning out stellar work #plus I still had friends lol. uni has not been kind to me in that way #I miss it tbh. Like I defo had my ups and downs but god I was just such a different and better person then #I didn’t skip a single class in high school. Nowadays I skip half my lectures. #I just found out my com class is done with marked attendance so you bet your ass I’m gonna stop going to that! #like high school me could have never. high school me had 100% in bio 97% in physics and 96% in chem #and was looking forward to a career in stem. lol #anyway I’m just reminiscing #when I think about my childhood I get painfully nostalgic. When I think about high school I just feel sad that I’ve fallen so far #I miss being a good student who the teachers all liked who was in clubs and sports and leadership and the arts #and I recognize I could become that again if I really worked at it #but idk. something’s changed #I think I’m burnt out first and foremost. And then I just don’t care as much anymore. and as a result I’ve really stopped trying as hard #and it’s too bad #bro what happened to this post I was just gonna poke fun at myself for writing better in grade 11 than I do now years later #and then I had to get all sad about it

[arolesbianism]

Y'know I was thinking abt how I like to bully alone dupes in oni when they enter the socializing state alone but then I realized... When they're socializing they go to the printing pod. They're talking with their deadbeat mom that's so cute 🥺

#rat rambles #ok ok calling her a deadbeat mom may be a bit harsh but its not completely untrue imo dhdkhd #anyways I didnt make a lot of progress today in my main oni playthrough but I finally got a couple that Ive been kinda avoiding getting #aka ari and joshua because I like to hate on them for no reason #I also got a nails today so yippee #Im almost good to go with jorge I just need to wait out the timer basically #I've actually already gotten some decent food production going so I might try to commit to this colony instead of dipping like I planned #I will be sending quinn back home tho they deserve to see their friends again #in the meantime I got party phones set up in the newer two colonies so everyone can call eachother now :] #Im still not exactly sure how Im going to fit like 20 more dupes but Ill figure smth out #I should be able to fit like 5 or so dupes in the newest colony and if I play my cards right I could shove the rest into the other new one #but for that Id need to seriously upscale my oxygen production there and while I do have infinite water I do not have infinite space #but I do wanna get to my goal as fast as possible since I do not wanna think abt what would happen if I ran out of certain materials #specifically in the second newest colony were their main food source is waterweed #I should be able to manage for a while and worse comes to worse I can cheat but Id rather not have to #I could theoretically switch to mealwood if that happens but again Id rather not have to #oh also some real poggers news I found a single bristle blossom plant on the newest colony #I still need to go dig it out but that means that Ill be able to start progress on getting a more reliable food source since grup fruit #will only last so long without me taming a sulfur guyser and well Im a wuss who doesnt want my lil guys to die #oni posting