#my predictions are always on point don’t you know /j

[moremaybank]

YOUR EYES OPEN — j.m

day six childhood friends to lovers with jj maybank

pairing jj maybank x fem!reader

summary you and jj visit a fortune teller for a laugh at the first annual obx carnival, but her predictions end up coming true. (loosely inspired by all american 3x07)

warnings jj licking your fingers in a non-sexual way (lmao), pretty sure that's it. just hella fluff with bestie!jj

obx week ‘23 masterlist ;; jj masterlist

“For a moment your eyes open and you know.” - Keane

You plucked a tuft of pink cotton candy from the cone in your hand. “Last piece. You want it?”

“Hell yeah. Give it to me.” JJ grabbed your wrist gently, bringing it toward his face so he could eat it. He goofily licked your fingertips to get rid of the stickiness, and your nose scrunched up in disgust. 

“Ew, J. You actually have no boundaries.” You wiped the residue of his saliva on his shirt.

“We’ve been best friends since we were nine. What boundaries do we have left?” 

Truthfully, you couldn’t argue with that. You and JJ had seen it all together. You’d been as vulnerable and open as two people could get with each other. You shouldn’t have been shocked by his…gross action. The man passed all kinds of gas around you twenty-four-seven. He’d eaten foods far past their expiry dates. You’d seen him drink spoiled milk on a dare (though you can’t say he wouldn’t have done it if he wasn’t dared to).

That’s not to say you two weren’t good for each other, because you undoubtedly were. JJ’s wild spirit helped you break out of your shell. He pushed you to try new things, push your boundaries, and make you see that you had all this untapped power inside you. You didn’t think he could surprise you any further, but he still managed to every day, even now in your twenties. 

On his side of things, your calming presence grounded him. It provided him with the safety and the domestic feeling he’d longed for while living his life with Luke Maybank as his father. No matter how chaotic things became, all he had to do was take one look at you, and his mind calmed. You, even as a child, gave him a comfort he never knew he needed until he had it in the palm of his hand. 

“I guess that’s true. You’re still gross though.” 

He winked at you with a cheeky grin. “You love it.”

The sun began to dip below the horizon, and the warm hues of pink, orange and yellow painted the sky as the two of you made your way through the colourful maze of booths and rides. Laughter and music filled the air, and your mouths watered at the sweet smells of funnel cakes and caramel apples. 

Your eyes wandered over all the activities surrounding you, and one specific booth caught your eye. You tugged on JJ’s arm. “J, look!” 

His eyes followed your pointed finger to a quaint, candlelit tent a little ways from where you both stood. He squinted, trying to focus on the large lettering of the sign above the booth. “Madame Zara’s Mystical Fortunes. Are you for real?” 

He couldn’t deny that it piqued his interest at least a little bit, but he also wasn’t sure about wasting ten bucks on words of ‘wisdom’ that you could easily get out of a fortune cookie. 

“Why not? It’s all in good fun anyway.”

“Y/N/N, I can give you a fortune right now for free. Watch this.” JJ stood, raising his index fingers to his temples and closing his eyes. His voice picked up a spooky tone. “I predict that we’re going to go on the tilt-a-whirl in the next thirty seconds.” 

His eyes open, and he points to the ride right next to you, clasping a hand over his heart with a shocked look on his face. “Oh my god, look! The tilt-a-whirl! I was right!”

You rolled your eyes at his mockery but still let out a laugh. “Come on. Do it for me?”

JJ looked into your pleading eyes and your jutted-out bottom lip, and felt himself starting to crack. He’d always had a soft spot for you. How could he deny your wishes when you looked at him like that? 

He let out a large sigh. “Fine. But we’re hitting the tilt-a-whirl as soon as we’re done. And I don’t want any complaints about how fast I spin us.” 

“Deal.” 

You stepped into the dimly lit tent, where an older woman with piercing eyes welcomed you. “Welcome, young ones. I sense that you seek answers.” 

You and JJ exchanged amused glances as you spoke. “Sure. Why not?”

She gestured for you to sit across from her at a small table, covered in a rich, purple velvet cloth. She took your right hand and JJ’s left, closing her eyes as her fingers traced invisible patterns on your palms. 

“There’s an abundance of energy between you two,” she began in a hushed tone. “This night you embark upon…it’ll offer you both clarity, unlocking secrets hidden in the depths of your hearts.” 

JJ laughed softly as a smirk took over his features. “Clarity, huh?” 

You kicked his leg under the table, trying not to laugh. Madame Zara continued, though, unfazed by your shared skepticism. 

“Remember, clarity often reveals truths you’ve chosen to ignore.” 

You thanked the fortune teller and exited the tent. “That was…something.”

“It was a load of bull,” JJ laughed. “I mean, clarity? Clarity about what?” 

“Who knows,” you replied. “Alright, we can go on your beloved tilt-a-whirl now.” JJ grinned at that, grabbing your hand and tugging you over to the ride. 

You two spent the evening going on every ride you could manage and indulging in all the sweets you came across. You’d be sick to your stomachs by the night’s end, but you couldn’t bring yourselves to care.

The night wore on, and you found yourselves atop the ferris wheel, overlooking the brightly lit carnival below you. The twinkling stars above you seemed to be in perfect alignment. JJ had grown eerily quiet, which was odd for him, seeing as he was always bouncing off the walls with an energy you couldn’t quite comprehend. 

You turned to look at him, planning to break the silence, when you caught his heated gaze. Your brows furrowed. “What’s that look for?” 

He licked his lips, turning his body toward you slightly. “Nothin’, I was just thinkin’ that psychic lady was right.” 

“Right about what?” You asked. All of a sudden, things had turned serious, which was rare for you two. Everything about your friendship was fun and lighthearted, but it didn’t feel that way anymore. At least, not at that moment. 

“About me needing clarity. Y/N, we’ve been best friends for so long. I mean, we’ve been through everything together. But sometimes…sometimes it feels like there’s somethin’ more. Somethin’ we both kinda deny.” 

Your eyes searched his for an understanding. “What are you saying, J?” 

“I think— Nah, I know. You’re my world. You make everything better, make everything brighter. I love you, pretty girl. I’m in love with you.” 

Your heart raced as you processed his words. Suddenly, the fortune teller’s prediction didn’t seem so foolish or ridiculous. In that moment, that same clarity JJ felt washed over you. The lightbulb switched on inside your head. You realized that you weren’t just in love with the idea of your friendship; you were in love with him. 

“I’m in love with you too, J,” you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper. Your hand found his, and your fingers intertwined. He smiled at you brighter than he ever had, and his eyes sparkled as the moonlight bounced off of them. 

“Can I kiss you now?” 

“You definitely should.”

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[marengogo]

Silver Lining - What If #8 : Min & Kook or Busan Brothers?

Neuron by J-Hope (with Gaeko & YOON MIRAE) focused playlist.

[Music is a very big part of my life and I’m MOSTLY INCAPABLE of writing without music, so I just thought I'd share what I am listening to while writing this]

🐺 — 🐺 — 🐺—

Ladies, Gentlemen and Distinguished Enbies: HELLO!

How is everyone? Hope you are all enjoying this little break, if you celebrate Easter, and if for any reason you didn’t get a break either you don’t celebrate Easter, or you are part of the “holiday working class” I hope you are at least safe and serene 💜. All that said, let me tell you;

It’s incredible what a few days off can do, aye?!

For one I've been very vivid dreams and, for two, I’m actually in the mood of writing posts, would you look at that! AND BY THE WAY I keep forgetting to do this, but I will at some point later today I need to write an advisory note for the Sonyeondan Colosseum as I haven’t been there in a while but I still get aspiring gladiators, who are dying to participate, and albeit fun, at the moment, I really don't have that much time, to provide these fighters with the appropriate match they deserve 😫. So it is only right that I rely the appropriate information, as I do believe I run a fine institution and as such I am sorry for allowing my administration to slack real life suddenly got so busy and interesting that I didn’t, and still don't, have time to play, but who knows what the future holds right?! There just might appear a contender so unique, I might not resist the urge for a little tussle.

Anyways, back to the topic of this post, as it is sort of a continuation of this one → Solstice & Equinox, it is indeed about the Jikook Travel vlog we still no absolutely nothing about, but of which I woke up with thoughts/ideas about, hence, why I’ve placed this post, yet again, in my Silver Lining series 🤡. In my previous post I tried to predict the vlogs' scheduling, in this post I would like to talk about the possible style this vlog might take, while making, as always, educated guesses and also diving into JK’s filmmaking style.

⚠️I MOST LIKELY WILL WAX HELLA POETIC OVER A LOT OF FILMMAKING STRUCTURES, SO BE HELLA WARNED⚠️

Let’s start right off the bat with:

Also if you are NOT familiar with “Youtuber” Jimin, below is a little summary:

As you can probably tell by some of the ss because there are so many more, believe me!, JM is very enthusiastic about vlogging and, as we all know, JK is very enthusiastic about producing video related content as well as taking it further when he directed Life Goes On for example. Both JM and JK consume copious amounts of video content, be it movies, dramas, anime or shows and they often seem to be watching the same shows as well. Reason why, perhaps, they often seem to be the only privy of their media related inside jokes.

Now, imagine loving to watch shows so much and having as a significant other someone whom not only has so much footage/pictures of you which will never see btw 🤡 but also has the skills to potentially make a show out of you, or with you, because they also enjoy the same thing, what would you do? Sure, you like travelling and he is not too big into that, but some time 7 years ago this person not only took you on a trip, but also found the most memorable way to immortalise this for you, resulting in this person producing more and more travel vlogs. Not sure if JK has come to enjoy travelling, but one thing is for sure; 

he seems to enjoy making one helluva good vlog out of it.

Now, before we get into the reason for my title (Min & Kook or Busan Brother?) let’s look into JK’s filmmaking style THIS IS WHERE I AM SURE I WILL NERD OUT, and in order to do this we will look into two of particular videos, as I feel like their travel vlog could be a mixture of this two: 

VIDEO 1: [BTS VLOG] Jung Kook l CAMPING VLOG

VIDEO 2: G.C.F in Budapest

Let’s start from VIDEO 1. This was a series of vlogs we got from each of the members and were posted on BANGTANTV between July 9, 2022 and December 10, 2022 as always with the Tannies, the actual filming dates may or may not be close to the time they were posted. There are many different types of vlogs out there, because many are the different interests of viewers out there. When looking at our boys, you can clearly see theri vlogs divided in 3 specific types of vlogs:

“HOW TO”-vlog: In this type of video, usually the hosts want to learn to do something, and so they either attempt or they are a master in said craft to do said something, while showing the viewer step-by-step, with the intent/hope that the viewer can learn or feel inspired to want to do it as well.

Jin

Yoongi

JM

“CELEBRITY LIFE”-vlog: This type of video, we follow a typical/particular day in the life of a celebrity. There is usually not so much editing done, and it gives very much the feeling of watching a reality TV show.

Tae

Hobi

“TRAVEL”-vlog: These are usually specifically about showcasing cities, spaces, activities. They are very action filled, so they will not have as many static shots as, for example, the previous two themes 

Joonie

JK

Even though JK and Joonie have the same style of vlog, there is something that JK has, which all the other 6 don’t, which is his own “colour”.

JK has a very specific style that is unique to himself within the group, and you can notice in the editing, which makes me think he often takes part in, whereas, even though the type of vlog is different for the other 6 members, the style of editing is the same for all of them. When I say that JK adds his own colour, I mean that, for example, he so often breaks the 4th wall in very conventional and unconventional ways and this is something I've noticed only he does actually in Bangtan. 

Aside from JK’s Film Colour, I do believe that this is also an indication of how long we can hope their travel vlog to be. In the end the main event was camping, with other events as well and it was edited to 45mins, which is a long ass video for this type of vlog, it basically means that they realistically had hours of footage and at least 3 type of campers, which I will get into in my next point.

GCF in Budapest has all of JK’s colours as of 2023. 

This video is the result of 6 years during which he filmed, edited and directed different projects. GCF in Budapest is very professional, and even though he didn’t do the final edit on this, he did direct it, meaning that there wasn’t a single shot that he hadn’t planned, requested or approved of. Basically, JK is the person that instructed other camera-people the times he wasn’t filming himself as to what shot he needed and wanted for the final project, all the way from principal, to secondary, footage I DON’T THINK YOU CAN’T BUT I’M ABOUT TO NERD OUT, RIGHT NOW. Following are the notable structures in this GCF, with related explanations/examples:

Non-static self-filming - This is the typical vlog style where the main subject is filming himself. But in his case he seems to favour this type of shots when he is moving the most, as if he wants us to fill like we are really travelling with him, as opposed to constantly placing the camera on the surface, not moving, and talking. 

B-Roll Footage - is also known as “filler footage”. Usually there is no talking or nothing of importance, but they are quite good for either transitions or comic relief. I LOVE B-ROLL FOOTAGE and JK uses it so well. I believe that b-rolls fit JK so well because of his personality, he tends to space out so often that, in the filmmaking context, this type of footage offers a way to show this dimension of his personality, for example, himself goofing off in the b-roll is perhaps what he does in his head when he is spacing out in real life. 

Traditional filming - This is your typical main subject being filmed by a camera-person. As there seem to be two different angles during this type of shot, there were at least 2 different people filming him I will not go deep into the type of camera/s that were you as this is not that kind of post. 

Establishing shots - This are shots that make the viewer know where and when something is happening, and they are extremely important in film-making, but not really in vlogging as the title of the vlog already tells you where and sometimes when, if not you’ll find out in the dialog you are, but it is exactly this kind of touch that makes his work feel very cinematographic.

All the aforementioned, are characteristics that I am expecting to see in their travel blog and I am soooooo much looking forward to check our the whole crew, if by any chance we get a roll end credit scene 🥹 to be honest, going back to video 1, since they were in each known location for more than a day, they could make at least 2 self-sufficient vlogs but hey ….

JK surely came a long way from GCF in Tokyo, didn’t he? And even though he hasn’t produced a GCF with the same colours ever since, there was something that was:

To me, filming is the art of skilfully deceiving, while  willfully being deceived, during a specific amount of time, after which we all go back to our realities unharmed or “not”, depending on the depth of the film.

Films are like magic.

But what is filming for JK? To be veeeeery honest with you, the person who has a future in acting amongst the Tannies is Kim Taehyung, yet, the two people who can for sure act, on the silver-screen, are Kim Seokjin and Kim Taehyung … so why do I feel like Tae is the only only that has a future in this field? Because Tae can live for and with it. Just knowing how to act is not enough, you have to want to be an actor, for real-real. You know how Hobi breathes dancing? Tae breathes out imaginary characters in a similar way, reason why I can see him having a very prolific career as an actor as well.

Now ... why do I bring this up?

If JK just wanted to become a movie director alongside being the amazing musician he is, he’s had the perfect subject/s to do so. So why has he been so fixated with filming JM? JM is not the type of subject you can use for a long film, sure, he likes to act with his friends, but I don't think that cinema glory is one of his objectives in life I may be very wrong. He can perform/dance like hell crazy for the camera, HANDS FUCKING DOWN, but, once again, serious silver-screen acting isn’t what he wants. So, once again, given a choice of Tae and Jin;

Why JM?

TIME FOR TIN HATS Y’ALL HURRY 👏🏾 HURRY👏🏾 HURRY! 📢

I, Marengo, think that JK had always intended to make GCF in Tokyo as merely a video to preserve the happy memories, during a hard moment in their lives, which they spent together. This video-gift was specifically intended, for JM, in the style that JM mostly appreciated at the time, which might have happened to be YT vlogs. While editing his video, JK perhaps realised that it might have been a bit on the nose, so he added establishing b-roll shots of Tokyo, thinking it might have been enough to divert the attention from JM; but unfortunately failed. For a few reasons, but mainly, the lack of any spoken words in my opinion. 

The thing is that for the purposes of what i think his objective was, words were absolutely not needed. “Look! See how happy you were here! It doesn’t matter how shit things are, we can still be happy; You can still be happy!” In the same way, with Life Goes On he wanted us to see their changed everyday life of the time, the sadness, melancholy and hope they all felt. Words were not needed, and this is the type of filming which is closest to the inner colours of Jeon Jungkook. JK is not the best with words, so I believe that he found in filmmaking a form of expressing himself in a more effective way.

HOWEVER, as we all know, even though Life Goes On was well received, GCF in Tokyo’s main critique was “Where is tokyo? All I see is JM”. Yet, his main purpose wasn’t Tokyo, the shots, the song, the editing, clearly indicated that. Nevertheless, if at the time, JM was indeed his queer interest as I don’t believe they were going steady at the time, he wasn’t going to jump out gun blazing to defend his choice; was he now? No, he left us to believe that he was gonna get better, and next thing he did was add more members and better establishing shots, but never forget; gcf in Tokyo is still there and still something he remembers fondly. 

Now as for the title of this post  😂😂😂. Be it straight, queer, interrational or whatever, there is one thing that most of couple YT channels have in common:

Their channel name is either a union of their name or there is and &/and to join siad names. When JM was pretending to have a channel with JK during this live → VMINKOOK LIVE he named their channel MinKook, because he was Min and he was Kook so, MinKook and let’s forget for a second that this actually resulted to be a very funny korean pun. I honestly do believe that if you are a platonic duo on YT you will very rarely use your name with your friends name as it seems like it is a universal YT truth that “” & “” channels are couple channels. So if anything, if JM was talking out of subconscious, he maybe had been watching a lot of YT couple channels, at the time, and thought it okay for them to have a channel name that matched the same energy? … 

🤡🤡🤡

So my question is: will the channel be named something akin to that couple vibe RISKY AF, WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT?? Or will it be something more like the Busan Brothers name that they are often given … HELLA SAFE, MAKES A LOT OF SENSE? I guess only time will tell! 

Ok then, hats off! Let's go back to reality, where we can happily keep waiting for this blasted travel vlog LOL.

Always respectfully yours 💜🫰🏾,

Marengo.

#Youtube #Marengo's Silver World #Jikook #Jikook Travel Vlog

[pandoa]

Hi!!! Can I request yellow pansies and anemones in a balcony theme for Jamil? Thank you!!

Yellow pansies ~ “they love me, they love me not. they love me, they love me n—” “what are you doing?” “GAH!”

Anemones ~ “just take my hand. don’t you dare second guess yourself”

~jamil viper x gender neutral reader~

the moment i saw the balcony theme and anemones prompt i immediately thought "ALADDIN A WHOLE NEW WORLD SCENE-" AND I'M JUST SDJNJVDV THE PERFECT WAY TO END THIS EVENT, THANK YOU FOR REQUESTING <3

♡shining, shimmering, splendid!♡

He was perfect. Way too perfect, actually. What kind of man was just too good at everything?

It was to the point where it drove you absolutely crazy. Every step he made caused your heart to flutter hoping each step would be an inch closer to him standing right beside you, every mention of his name made you helplessly lift your head thinking you and him were in the very same room, every word he said to you was another word you would place high on a pedestal as if it were the most enchanting sentence your ears had ever heard. He had lucid locks of hair your hands had only dreamed of running themselves through. Skin as smooth as silk that sent electrical shivers down your spine with just one simple touch of his skin on yours. His dancing lyrical, his mind intelligent, and his soul beautiful. 

You were in love with Jamil Viper. And you were nearing the verge of insanity if you did not find out if he had felt the same. 

Days would seem to pass in no time at all—mainly because you would constantly be dazed with your mental consciousness never present at all—and it regrettably began to influence, not only your emotions, but the life lived around you as well. You could no longer keep still, your mind always drifting off into never-ending daydreams, friends concerned for your health, and your heart needing a definite answer before it exploded into a million pieces. Which was why you were there now, leaning on Ramshackle’s antique balcony, pulling at the dainty petals of a flower you had picked on your way back to your dorm after class. This had to be settled once and for all. In the name of your ever-pounding heart.

“He loves me, he loves me not,” your hopeful muttering played through the trees and grassland residing at the bottom of your balcony, each petal you gently picked off gracefully gliding down to touch the greenery as it twirled and spun in the wind. Going up to Jamil and directly asking him about his own feelings was obviously not an option in these circumstances; that was simply too bold for your taste. So, you had resolved to the next best thing for determining someone's romantic emotions: using flower petals to predict your crush’s feelings. 

Plucking another petal off of the delicate flower, you sighed wistfully as a gentle breeze began to comb through your hair, “He loves me, he loves me n—”

“What are you doing?”

“GAH! J-Jamil!” Upon hearing the calm voice of the Scarabia second year, your body jumped up in surprise as you hid the flower you had been holding behind the small of your back. Lifting your gaze up to face him, however, you had noticed something off about the way Jamil’s figure had slowly risen up and down as if he were flying in mid-air. That’s odd, you curiously thought, I don’t see a magical broom with him anywhere?

“What brings you here…floating on a…” a small pause cut your sentence as you looked over the balcony’s railings only to see a familiar piece of tapestry-like cloth hovering over the air—confusion plaguing your voice as you turned to look the boy directly in the eye, “magic…carpet? What the heck, Jamil?”

Jamil, softly clearing his throat, attempted to avoid eye contact as a hesitant hand shot up to nonchalantly cover a part of his face. For whatever reason, it had seemed like he was embarrassed—for what you did not know. You were too focused on hiding a burning blush on your end to notice the also red tint creeping onto the vice housewarden’s cheeks. Trying to continue on with what he had come here for, Jamil finally gained back some of his composure and looked back at you, “I noticed that you seemed…quite stressed this past week and thought that you could use a moment to clear your head. So, I borrowed Kalim’s carpet and headed straight for Ramshackle. Apologies for scaring you, though. That, I did not plan.”

“What do you mean?” you timidly asked, heart still palpitating miles and miles each second Jamil’s gray eyes had bore into your own. 

“I’m taking you with me to relax.”

“What?”

“You heard me,” you watched as Jamil had shifted his position to get a better angle before reaching his own hand out to latch onto yours. “Here, just take my hand. Don’t you dare second guess yourself,” he said as the sun over Ramshackle’s balcony reflected onto the shining gold accents of his charms and bracelets—causing him to glimmer brighter than any star you had ever seen, “And don’t worry either.”

“You can trust me.”

a/n: and then reader and jamil ride off into the dramatic sunset singing "a whole new world" throughout the entirety of nrc until jamil finds out kalim tried to cook again and jamil's little date is interrupted because he doesn't want the housewarden to burn down their whole dorm <3

#twisted wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #disney twst #twst #twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #twst imagines #jamil viper #jamil viper x reader #jamil x reader #twst jamil #jamil x you #jamil twisted wonderland #jamil twst #scarabia #gender neutral reader #blossom grove prompt event

[lia-land]

House of Earth and Blood

4.5/5 stars

*Spoilers for House of Earth and Blood by Sarah J. Maas.

This book is 4.5 stars overall because I enjoyed the pacing, but the last 10% or so was more like 3 stars.

First, I have no idea what the world building is about, but I still really liked the story (I read this amazing Reddit post for a summary of the world building after finishing the book). I don’t think the world building needed to be this complicated. I would have been just as immersed even with 40% less detail. I don’t know why I had no idea who the Asteri were until the Summit. I just assumed Micah was like Supreme President or something. I didn’t realise there were only 7 Asteri until I read that Reddit post. Or is there 6 now? I gave up on even trying to understand how the situation with the human war overseas fit into everything. No idea what that is about but I’m assuming it will become relevant later. I think a big part of the confusion is from how we’re given so much information all at once, rather than being given it when it’s necessary. For example, when Bryce summoned Aidas like halfway or so through the book and we get told about the hierarchy of Hel and where Aidas fits into it. It was relevant then, instead of being given to us as random information at the beginning of the book. It’s the same level of confusing as the Throne of Glass family trees. I started this book 4 days before my law dissertation was due and the dissertation used less of my brain power than understanding this world building did.

Danika and Connor’s deaths were so well written! The whole part before the two year time skip was brilliant. Same vibe as when a movie has a very long intro and you just don’t know it. I really did not see the deaths coming, especially so early on in the book. SJM did such a good job of setting the characters up. I was so invested in Danika’s life and was even a bit annoyed at how predictable it seemed that Connor and Bryce would be endgame. I was so happy to be wrong.

I was slightly put off when I found out it’s another detective trope, but it was executed well, and then it became another cliche detective/murder mystery that is linked to an illegal drug. Again, I enjoyed it, but it’s been done so many times and I expected more from SJM.

The only part that I was bored was towards the very end during all the fighting scenes with the demons in the city after the portals opened. It also felt a little bit awkward picturing everyone at the Summit watching Bryce fight. I couldn’t stop imagining a Hunger Games situation. Particularly from the Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes movie. The helicopter pages were especially boring and just too action packed for my liking.

I think I would have enjoyed the whole thing about Bryce secretly having starlight a lot more if I hadn’t read Throne of Glass before this series. I’m so bored of SJM making a plot point out of the main character knowing something big that the reader doesn’t. I just don’t think she has ever executed it well (except maybe at the beginning of A Court of War and Ruin if we count that); it always seems too convenient and lazy. I can never get too immersed in SJM’s books because I know that as readers, we never have all the information, so even the near death scenes will never actually end up bad. Personally, it would make my reading experience so much better if she stopped pulling this lazy tactic because she doesn’t want anything truly bad to happen to her characters. Or at least give us all the information and then write a less lazy plot. I think she just didn’t tell us about the light because it would have been too obvious to us at the start that Danika linked Bryce to the Horn somehow and half the murder plot twist would have been diminished. I don’t understand how Bryce didn’t link that together herself since she knew that Danika knew about her light and the Horn needed it. I was so ready to give this book 5 stars until that. If it makes your story too predictable to give readers necessary information at the start, then change your plot because the light and the grinding of the horn to tattoo into Bryce’s skin was far too convenient.

I got the ick so bad when the ancient prime was talking about love being the most powerful thing in the world. If I hear that ‘through love, all is possible’ quote one more time… (update: it does indeed continue to come up in the next two books).

I think this is a rogue opinion but I want more of Prince Aidas. I’m actually really hoping we’ll get another ACOTAR situation and Bryce will end up with Aidas (Update: upon research, it seems like this isn’t actually that unpopular of an opinion). Hunt just reminds me too much of Chaol from ToG and I don’t really care for him. “Sweetheart” is so hard to read and out of character for him. I read a review on Goodreads where someone said they enjoyed Bryce and Hunt when they were interacting with any characters other than each other and that’s exactly how I feel. I am 99.9% sure the Aidas/Bryce pairing isn’t happening but I’ll keep reading for the hope of it. Even until Micah’s death, I was waiting for her to take him up on that dinner offer. I do like Bryce and Hunt together but they’re a boring pairing compared to the other possibilities. Even Bryce and Tharion would be more interesting.

#sarah j maas #crescent city #book review #house of earth and blood #bryce quinlan #hunt athalar #ruhn danaan

[nerdyenby]

Yellow time :D I’m watching Aimsey

I’m so excited for this team you guys, I love them all so much

“I love being the token lesbian” that’s my streamer!!

“‘Say gay rights’ no I hate gay people, I just don’t agree with that mindset” he was so deadpan I’m dying

Yellow and red teams are holding hands, I love my ketchup and mustard alliance 💛♥️

Aimsey’s popping off!!!

The skins are so cute and queer <333

Aimsey and Lily <3333

“Don’t get shot!!” “Yeah I won’t- … I got shot!!!” Shelby and Aimsey my beloveds!!!

Aimsey’s parkour has improved so much!! She’s doing so well!!!

The chat exchanges between Aimsey and Scott 😂

“Glowduo enjoyers” that’s me!!!! I’m a Glowduo enjoyer!!

Jojo queen of gay parkour!! We ignore Pete, straight men don’t count /lh

Buildmart

I’m so ready for them to pop off, you don’t understand

Their comms are so good!!!

They’re popping off!!

Aimsey is such a good runner!!

2nd place!!! Them!!!!! <3333

YOU DID SO GOOD AIMSEY

Jojo just improving Aimsey’s opinion of literally everything is so real

Bingo

Bingo but fast logo <333

Jojo taking charge so real, every friend group needs a designated decider

The comms are so chaotic but they’re so good at listening to each other <3

Shelby mvp!!!!

THE GIRLS ARE ON TOP!!!!

Warm colors win these!!!!

TGTTOSAWAF

Tgttosawaf antis (/lh) win these!!

The randomizer is so based

Jojo thirty-somethingth to first in one round!!!!

Shelby 😂

FIRST FULL TEAM!!!

You’re doing great False, that one’s always rough

Aimsey popping off!!!!!

“Don’t die, don’t do that, it pisses me off” Jojo 😂😂😂

Women supporting women <333

Parkour Tag

The gay gods favor my streamers

STOP BEING SELFDEPRICATING

False just standing there as everyone goes on about how much they suck lmao

YEEEAAAHHH

THAT WAS SO CLOSE!!! FALSE MY BELOVED!!!!!

Why are my girls bashing on my guys /neu??? H and Ran my beloved

Aimsey absolutely annihilating xeir girlfriend my beloved

They’re popping off!!!!

Aimsey’s doing so well 😭😭😭

Ace Race

I don’t know if this race is ace enough tbh

It still has the alternate routes right?

The vod is muted 😂😂😂

TWELFTH HOLY CRAP!!!! THATS MY FRICKIN GUY!!!!!!

Jojo has never been wrong!!!

The power of having an ace partner <333

Ran and Aims <3333

AIMSEY 11TH!!!!! THATS MY TOKEN LESBIAN!!!!!

Aimsey immediately spilling the deets on his girlfriend’s studying technique

Sands of Time

Aimsey, my love, my life, why did you flick all those levers and not kill any of the mobs

They’re all so on top of everything and calm, it’s so nice :((

Aimsey is such a good sandkeeper I could cry

I don’t feel like I’ve ever seen everyone in the middle at once in the middle of sot before, it’s nice but it’s kinda freaking me out

FOUR FOR FOUR?????? MAYHAPS?????

The panic 😭😭😭

Gay on gay crime: the tournament 😂

Meltdown

Jojo does a lil IGL-ing

False taking charge my beloved!!!

Aimsey and Jojo 😂😂😂

They’re sticking together so well! The lack of male hubris is coming through

Oh cyan swept, holy crap

That hot potato heater swap was so funny

They’re doing so well!!!

Awww rip :/

“You got this angel” Aimsey and Guqqie my beloved <333

The only two 4/4 lgbtq teams being the ones making it to dodgebolt!!! Might be calling it early but I believe <3

Battle Box

That first round was so close!!!

“Ten extra points to whoever gets Grian” False 😂

Their comms <333

THAT YELLOW V ORANGE?!???

Ranboo and Aimsey 😂😂😂

They’ve done so well start to finish, this team was insane <333

AIMSEY 14TH!!!! THATS MY STREAMER!!!!

Dodgebolt

Switching to Guqqie’s vod at their girlfriend’s insistence <333

AISMEY COMING IN SCREAMING AND HUGGING HER SO TIGHT :((( /pos

“It’s the power of gays getting us through this” so true Guqqie!!!!

GUQQIE!!!!! THEYRE KILLING IT!!!!!

Coming down to the fifth round <3

NONBINARY PEOPLE WIN THESE!!!!

YELLOW DODGEBOLT!!!!!

Shelby and Harvey hunger games finale <3333

I can’t believe my predictions were correct and yellow won!!!! /j

Great vibes, great times <333

#mc championship #mcc p23 #nerdy’s mcc reactions #aimsey #aimseytv #shubble #jojosolos #falsesymmetry #cw caps

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

So Sweden has a winner!

It was the most predictable winner. And it makes me a bit bummed.

I do like Loreen a lot! In fact, I am very happy we for the second year in a row send a girl to esc instead of a generic boy that we sent for like 7 years in a row. Also, she has a bit of a ”weird girl” vibe, which I appreciate. Though, Cornelia last year was more in my taste. Also Loreen’s song, I am sorry, was not as good as Euphoria.

But what makes me bummed is that she’s already won before. She has already gotten her glory. So for her to win again now is like. Hm, I want the others to have a chance.

But you know, this is not the first or last person who has won mello more than once. I mean, Carola won the whole esc in 1991 and then won mello again 2006. Not to mention a lot of other countries also have done ”previous representants returning”. It’s nothing new in esc and tbh it happens with one country or another every year.

I just wish that we dared to send a little more funky, corny, not so serious song. I thought last year we started to break out of our shells with Cornelia. But we always seem to go with the ”safe choice”. We haven’t always done that though, it really started like… after 2015 really, I think. In 2007, we had this, which was like. Mm ❤️ Why are we so boring now? Not to mention in the 80s, when we had a song that had a bald man without a shirt doing an electric guitar solo, and also won the entire esc with a song about GOLDEN SHOES

And in Mello, we HAVE some corny, funny, ”just here to have fun” songs. But they get no points?? Neither from us Swedes ourselves, and if they do, then the international jury in the finale (aka our mortal enemy) will NOT give them points.

I gotta say, Sverige, du gamla du fria du smällfeta ko, VARFÖR HAR NI SÅ DÅLIG MUSIKSMAK??!! I’m not talking about Loreen, but like, the other good songs in the finale? WHY DID NORDMAN GET SUCH FEW VOTES? I understand the jury didn’t give them much because the jury has the most basic of music taste, but swedes?? THAT SONG IS THE ONE I HAVE BEEN BLASTING THE MOST?? And John Henrik Fjällgren?? ESC WOULD HAVE LOVED JOIK. THEY WOULD HAVE LOVED BALD MEN PLAYING A KEYHARP WITH 3D CROWS. THEY WOULD HAVE LOVED THE HARD ROCK BAND SMASH INTO PIECES.

AND ALL THE SONGS THAT DIDN’T GET TO THE FINALE. EDELWEISS?? SOBER?? HECK I KNOW UJE HAD A SOAR THROAT BUT HAVING GRYTAN IN THE FINALE WOULD HAVE SPICED IT UP SO MUCH - HONESTLY THESE THREE SONGS SPECIFICALLY, IF THEY WERE IN THE FINALE THERE WOULD BE SUCH A CONTRAST. SURE MAYBE THEY WOULDN’T WIN BUT THERE WOULD BE SUCH A VARIETY.

How tf did Marcus and Martinus place so high? Imagine if they would have won. Imagine. The norwegians would be so pissed. The irony.

Also how did Tone get 5 points? What is going on?

But there were highlights of this night

I really loved the hosts this year. Their dynamic ❤️

The fact that Paul Rey got loved by the jury and then got ONE point from the swedish people. I don’t understand how he even got to the finale. Did he rig the show??

The way Farah is ready to kiss any woman she speaks to in green room like fr 🫶 #giveFarahamellogf2023 /j

When Jesper interviewed random people on the street and one person walked away and said ”kiss in the butt” and I LOST IT. WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN-

Friends (the group) performing in Friends Arena

DANNY SAUCEDO (in the most ???? outfit like sweetie didn’t you do a whole middle act about your clothing style in 2013)

Either way. Wish we could have gotten some less predictable winner, cause it wasn’t much excitement I felt. I don’t hate the song tho and Loreen is a very good performer.

It was very fun to liveblog with my fellow swedes tho. I guess mello isn’t about the winner, it’s about the fun we had on the way.

See y’all in May.

#eurovision #melodifestivalen

[zeglythofficial]

Okay I’m curious, if R and J ever break up, why do you think they would, and how do you think they would do telling everyone about it in the media, and if R ever goes with T, shortly after her leaving J, how do you think that would all play out?

“If R and J ever break up, why do you think they would?”

My personal theory is out growing each other. R is 22 going 23 (they’ve been dating since she was 20*) and early 20s/mid20s is a very interesting time to have a long term bf. A lot changes as people mature and get older. J is almost 30 and should know what he wants in life while R is in a period of “wtf do I want out of life?” like most people in their 20s. So I can naturally see things ending, especially if J breaks up with her. At this moment tbh I don’t see her ending things with him. He has her wrapped around his finger unfortunately. But she’s known him almost 6 years and hasn’t experienced dating outside of him as an adult. Very predictable and normal tbf. The next 2 years will be interesting since most relationships get serious in the 3-4 year mark. They either move to the next level like getting engaged, the relationship grows stagnant (like T’s relationship if I had to guess…) or they break up.

“How do you think they will tell everyone about in the media?”

In this social media age, everything is up in the air lol.

If things end amicably or mutually:

A joint statement on ig or a publicist confirms the break up through a media outlet. FilmUpdates, Pop Craze, etc etc accounts like that will report on it.

If things end bad:

A publicist will confirm through the media outlet. The most obvious clues would be unfollowing each other on ig or if there’s some type of cheating scandal then we would know immediately. R is active online so if she starts liking break up posts or similar things, people will speculate. And since this social media age is weird, sometimes broken up couples don’t unfollow each other to avoid public speculation for a while so we may not know until months after they’ve break up and people figure it out naturally.

“If R goes with T shortly after leaving J, how would that play out ?”

I honestly don’t see that happening and it would be a very unwise move imo. T is very private and I don’t think he would seriously want that drama or his life dragged online like that. It would be a PR nightmare for R who’s already hated. People will accuse her of being a cheater (even if years past since filming TBOSAS, people will dig up old zeglyth videos and try to find clues etc that point to her being unfaithful or a bad person).

If R and T want to date right after their respective breakups, they have to be careful and private about it.

Realistically and the smartest thing to do would be to copy what tomdaya did. Everyone knew tomdaya was dating before they went public and they didn’t confirm it officially into those car kissing photos leaked online. Twitter almost exploded. Remaining “private” for the general public but having fans (like us) know what’s REALLY going on would be great. If R and T are constantly around each other, always spotted together and we get information from inside sources that would be enough of me. For example, a friend of a friend of mine saw tomdaya at a restaurant together in 2018*? all cozied up and what not and I never said anything because there was already a ton of evidence on them dating despite being “private” lol. If we ever get to that point, I’ll jump on the moon in joy.

Now if they did publicly date right after R and J ended, it would be a shitstorm. The amount of hate towards R would be so painful, the jealousy from his fan girls because she’s dating T would be nasty etc etc. It would be awful to witness as a fan of hers. I would elated by them (many of us would be!!!!) dating of course but it will be a hateful few months of dealing with the backlash. But after the drama cools down, I think they would slowly gain the public’s favor. They already have it by majority of fans (The HG fandom would explode in a great way) and general public would move on and accept it. It would be a trying time in their relationship for sure but something tells me T would handle it well. If he ever goes extremely public about any relationship, I know that means he’s very serious about that person. And if that person happens to be R…then ;)

#my answers #zeglyth

[angria]

We covered a lot during yesterday’s session.  Most of which I have heard before, coming from T.  And I know it bears repeating.  But, any talk about my “self” and who I am just sets things off and makes everything more difficult.  Especially right after my night filled with attachment dreams and feeling little as I entered the session.  I forget some of the end, but these are the main points…

T started with our check-in from Sunday night.  Texting, he described how I need to move through the dysregulation, focusing on skills, grounding, and moving my thinking from “out of the past” and shifting it to the present and future.  I responded that it is hard to think “forward” when I feel little.  How it feels like I’m just stuffing down and ignoring the dysregulation by only focusing on the present and future.  That I’m not dealing with it.  He pointed out the illusion of staying little means you are dealing with it.  How it’s not stuffing it down when you are countering the intrusions.  How the aim of treatment is to move toward grounding and rejoining the present, not enhancing or deepening the dissociation.  So I asked, “These SH urges that are coming up recently.  How do I deal with them by only focusing on the present/future?  They will just come up again, within hours or days, usually stronger.  That’s how it feels like I’m just ignoring or stuffing down the dysregulation.”

From there, T said we would continue talking about it the next day because it was a good question.  Which he did.  After reading the texts again, he said, “Staying stuck in the dysregulation and urges is not processing.  Dissociation helped you survive and still can seem helpful now, but it is not processing.  The intrusions are not processing.  They keep you in that “little” state, as though you are powerless.  But, you are an adult now, you have a voice and the agency to bring yourself out of those states.”  He did acknowledge that he is not trying to say the grounding is easy or it will happen every time.  Yet, I still need to be mindful of when I am in those dissociative or little states and countering the intrusions with grounding and skills to keep me in the present.  I’m not sure if T could read my face (probably…he knows me so well that he usually predicts my thoughts or arguments) because he started to describe a moth to a flame.  How even though it hurts, the moth still tries to move towards the flame.  I knew where he was going–the familiarity of trauma, the “safety” of staying in the dysregulation and dissociation.  Continuing, he reminded me of how I only identify with the trauma.  Who am I without trauma?  How I stay stuck because it feels like processing and is familiar.  

We were silent for a bit, me quickly looking back and forth at him.  Because I knew what he said was true.  That I stay in the dysregulation, the dissociation because it’s familiar, believing it does something to remain in those states.  Still, I didn’t want to admit it.  T asked what would happen if I no longer identified with the trauma?  I immediately connected it to the fear of better and what that means for attachment.  I told him people will stop caring, stop paying attention.  In response, he asked were there times when people cared when I was struggling.  Quickly, I said: “Inpatient.”  Because I remembered J’s and E’s response, how multiple friends came to visit me and the ongoing support once I was discharged.  I followed up with describing the fear that people will stop caring and stop paying attention once I’m fine and don’t appear to be struggling, as though I don’t need them anymore.  T immediately told me that we always need others.  

This is when things started to transition.  He was curious as to why I am attracted to people who are seen as “helpers.”  In my head, I was like hello??  Parental attachment.  What I never had.  But, I didn’t want to say it, especially after the attachment dreams from the previous night.  About my stupid wish.  About E leaving.  Not sure if he sensed what I was thinking because he suddenly pivoted and described how I attach to others, but not to my own self.  Apparently, I made a face, which he commented on (more like a grimace over anything to do with me).  By this point, I was squirming and squeezing into myself, avoiding his eyes.  I didn’t feel like dealing with this topic, considering I already felt little, felt her close by.  But, of course, T challenged me (which I want him to) and said we need to learn how to help me begin to attach to myself, which is when he brought up identity and values again.  He asked me to name some parts of myself that make up my identity.  My mind went completely blank.  As it always does since I have no understanding of myself outside of trauma.  So I just started to parrot back qualities people have told me–I was a teacher, I am an equestrian, I like learning and academia.  Shaking his head, T said those are resume qualities.  He wanted to know about my identity, what makes up my being.  I just made myself smaller even more, wanting to hide with nowhere to go.  Wanting out of my body because the rejection is so visceral.  T studied me for a while before saying, “You are more than just trauma.  You do have an identity.  You do have values and I think you dismiss them because you believe it’s just the right thing to do, nothing unique. Versus those values being a part of your core being.  Justice.  Integrity.  Compassion.  Intelligence.  On and on.”  

“I know you.  I see you.  And you are not just trauma.  Yes, it is a part of you and those experiences will remain with you.  But, it is not all of who you are.”

#cptsd #bpd #trauma #abuse #therapy #triggers #emotional dysregulation #who am i without trauma? #disordered attachment #nothing is safe #values #fragmented sense of self #angriadm

[eyecicles]

just wanted to say i agree so much with your post on why near is a good character! i read death note pretty recently and i was super surprised to find out that so many people dislike him when i thought he was so likeable... but maybe in retrospect i shouldnt have been.

L and near were my favorites by far but i do think that near is a much more complex character, which isnt a knock on L at all! in order for L to work as a character from our pov, he has to be mysterious and somewhat vaguely defined--if we knew what his deal was hed become predictable, which is kind of the last thing you want from that sort of antagonist. im not sure if id go so far as to say that light was the underdog in terms of power, but id say that narratively, both in-universe and out of it, he definitely is. you expect the worlds greatest detective to get all the clues and the clearly bad guy (as opposed to all the only sort-of bad guys) to be defeated, which is why even though i was spoiled for L's death, when it actually happened it still felt shocking and emotional. its a good writing choice! but if we got to see too much of an inner world for L, it would kinda fall apart.

but in order for near (and lights defeat) to work we DO need that complexity BECAUSE it makes the audience and his fellow characters doubt him. it works with his role in the story instead of against it! (plus i think he also needed to be more philosophically inclined than L was bc on a meta level lights defeat hinged more on being told why his worldview sucks than any plot stuff so he could *only* be defeated by someone who wanted to coherently tell him off with something more than just "killing bad" and deliver some kind of general thesis statement instead of just own him with facts and logic)

sorry im probably just restating things you said but. near is such a good character and i cant believe so many people dont see it!! near and L both need to be gatekept from allistics /j (/srs)

Hey, I really appreciate this ask! It's always nice to know that people agree with me on this, haha. So thank you for taking the time to write and send this.

To me, there's a huge difference between killing characters off for cheap shock value and killing them off to make a point, to advance the plot in a certain direction, and/or because it makes sense narrative-wise. I actually don't think I would have loved L as much as I do now if he'd survived until the end.

There certainly are things you could criticise DN for, but yes, I believe that how they handled L's death, as well as his and Near's characterisation, are among the things they did right.  

I’m not even sure how much of that was intentional, but I don’t think it matters much (if at all).

#asks #nice messages #rosenaya #near #l lawliet

[flovey-dovey]

So. Lightyear.

Saw it, didn’t really like it. Just wasn’t that fun, really. Sorry if anybody’s bored with my long-winded movie posts (though I think I’ve only done three-ish, including this one, so eh? I just feel like it).

Anywho, here’s: (My) Thoughts About the Lightyear Movie: Live As I Thought Them. Didn’t see it in theaters because I’m not about to give them any money. Sure wish I could feel better about it :/

Spoilers ahoy. Also very, very messy format because I’m already asleep.

(To spare those who just want a recommendation one way or the other, I’d say... If you’re reeeally curious, wait for it to come out on KimCartoon for better quality. Socks- or SOX I guess- is, predictably, the best part. If you have any doubts, you’re better off not and just writing your own version fanfic-style. Or hey! Make it an original one! It’d most likely be better.)

Warnings for those who want to see it:  Time warping/seeing people you love die while you stay young/time travel  Moments of spacewalking through deep space and all the visuals that go with it (astrophobics, be prepared; though you probably would be, ‘cuz it’s a space movie)  Character death (multiple; some natural, some... murdery. And... cat-shaped)  Stupid writing

  NOT sure how much I like the whole "it was a movie" idea in the beginning... also more pandering than I’d prefer, but it’s tolerable. Kind of a point and go “oh hey! :D” thing but sometimes it feels... weird for his character   Stupid Buzz is gonna be here for the whole movie isn't he   Okay, the 'blow into it to make it work again' joke made me chuckle (but... HOW did he blow into it THROUGH his helmet??? Oh wait I guess the visor wasn't down yet)   Hawthorn is gay? Buzz knows she's gay? That's neat... for now. Awaiting further movie scenes.   USE REAL WHITE NOISE YOU COWARDS   WHAT WHAT WAHT WHAWT HWA TWHAT WHAT WHAAAAAAAAT (HAWTHORN IS PREGGY WHYYYYYYYY!?!?!? WAS NOT GIRL???? WAS GIRL??????? TRANS??? THAT’S FINE BUT IT DIDN’T- SHE- WHAAT AND WHYY I"M LITERALLY THE CONFUSED MEME GUY)   I'm gonna fuNking cry but I won't because gosh dang it   "BURNSIDE" UH-HUH REEEAL SUBTLE WITH THAT ONE BUB... Thought for a second it was gonna be the Hawthorn's son but naaah I guess not   Okay, the sleep dart bit made me chuckle   *siiigh* mooore pandering lines from the first Toy Story movie... guess they had to get those ‘inner voice’ lines from somewhere. but the second he got pounced I totally called it   Also, calling it once again: Zurg is SeCrEtLY Burnside ~tHe WhOlE tImE~   STUPID BUZZ IS GONNA BE HERE FOR THE WHOLE MOVIE ISN'T HE (in regards to NOT KNOWING WHAT NOISE A CAT MAKES WHEN THEY'RE HAPPY)   Just now remembering that Mr Rookie never got a time to shine- or be remembered when he dIED. Unnecessary character but with such puppy eyes. How dare they /j   PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF- STO P CALLING IT "OPERATION SURPRISE PARTY"- IT'S DEMEANING (AND ANNOYING)   WAIT THIS MEANS THAT ZURG MIGHT NOT BE HIS FATHER! NOOOO I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT REVELATION! THEY BROUGHT BACK THE CRYSTAL FUSION THING WHY NOT THAT??   HE'S WEARING FEATHERGFJBUGJD'S SUIT OH MY GOSH   Okay, the Socks being in front of his field of view bit made me chuckle   Still not entirely sure why stealth mode wears off. Just not sure. At all. The only reason so far seems to be because that's what the writers want it to do.   The dark side of the planet? You mean... The side that's currently experiencing "night"? Is that... bad?   Calling it: each "cadet" has a special skill, don't they? Well, that's a given I suppose.   Okay, the thumb-point and "specialized capacitors" bit made me chuckle   It's cute how Socks thinks that flashlight is actually doing anything- unless it's for him personally in which case that's kinda cute   You know, it always confuses me how when someone is falling and they have their arm extended, how someone's ALWAYS able to catch them in the nick of time despite how they're still falling off-camera. They should... still be falling. OUT of reach. The magic of cinema I suppose   Okay, the snack bit made me chuckle   DO NOT TELL ME THAT HE DIDn'T FINISH HIS SANDWICH- DO NOT TELL ME HE HAS ENOUGH FOOD IN HIS BELLY TO MAKE IT ALL THE WAY THROUGH THE REST OF THE MOVIE- GOSH DANG IT THIS IS MY PROBLEM WITH FOOD SCENES IN MOVIES- "SHOW UP, EAT ONE BITE, MISSION ACCOMILISHED, LEAVE SCENE"   Oh hey it's yer dad   The ONLY interesting part thus far was Zurg extending his hand to Buzz. However- he'd better not- and I repeat NOT- turn out to be Burnside. I. SWEAR.   Wha- Why? Is Buzz? Suddenly accepting their help??? Did- Did I miss something?   I CALLED IT- I CALLED IT- THE ARM LASER WAS GONNA BE A THING HE PUT ON HIMSELF I SOOO CALLED IT   Oh nooo a falling out among the besties whoever could've predicted tHIS (are you SERIOUS!? We’re STILL doing that!?!?)   Ohooo~? Not a falling out among the besties? Well, not quite, though it's understandable   Oh hey it’s yer da-..................... i'm so tired. i'm so, unbelievably tired. i'm just so, so, so....... so very tired. no, no, no- no we're not doing that we're not doing this   "I'm you, dumb@$$" - Maxine Caulfield, Life Is Strange   -HE- WAS ZURG THE WHOOOOOOLE TIME-- THE WORST- the worst twist I can't even begin to- uuuuuuuuUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGHHH ihatetimetravel   "Buzz I've broken time! :D What's happening--" (paused it right there to scream into the void and I literally laughed because I couldn't have said it better mySELF)   So... Buzz 2 just... found the big ominous spaceship?? With nobody else on it? Just “oh hey a spaceship full of such neato technology! Mine now :D” and that was that..? Also, how did he “borrow” the tech from their other place? Without anybody noticing?   Okay, fine, the second sleep dart bit made me chuckle- FOR THE LAST TIME (see I can do it too)   “No... I’M sorry” (snaps Thanos fingers)   KILL HIM END HIM ANNIHILATE HIM   Wait- how can Socks detect Buzz’ signals but not another him-signal?   How did they re-pull the Surrender String so quickly??? Unless all the balloons inexplicably popped?   "I already am home uwu"   (holds up finger) I have SEVERAL questions   "nah I got my squad already :D"   Just- real quick, while it's still on my mind- why couldn't Buzz have been in jail/on parole for 4 years? As an ironic punishment BEFORE getting the job, to experience life on their new home? Instead, he IMMEDIATELY gets promoted to Ranger again?? By someone who, the last time WE saw him, AND Buzz saw him, DIDN'T LIKE BUZZ! WHEN did he change his tune? WHY did he change his tune??   Angus MacLane. Matthew Aldrich. Jason Headley. Dean Kelly. Jessica Jarvers. Katherine Gugger. Laura Holshouser. Better watch your backs. 'Cuz I'll be chewing on ‘em.

So, post-viewing, I had hopes. First trailer, had 'em. They were right there, so curious, but so, so cautious. Now here I am. I feel like, uhh... Like a battery I guess. A very drained battery. So I'm gonna go and recharge now.

Have a day.

#text post #my post #lightyear #buzz lightyear #movie #rant #kinda #kinda boring #mostly annoying and confusing #socks' shoulders must be sore after carrying the whole film #spoilers

[starrybouquet]

17, 19, and 25 for the Weird Ask thingy, please?

Thanks so much for the asks! Sorry, these got really long...I guess I’m in a babbling mood today?

17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that won’t make it in the text.

I haven’t been writing much recently, but my “The Air Force only lets married couples work in the field together” AU definitely has a ton of lore behind it. We’ll see how much makes it into the text, but @carothepoet and I spent a lot of time trying to flesh out a world in which married officers were the norm. Obviously, the point of the AU is that Sam and Jack have a marriage of convenience and are predictably idiotic about it when they actually fall in love with each other.

The minutiae is pretty good, though. It puts a whole new spin on the Jonas Hanson thing (and explains why Sam might have gotten engaged to him without knowing him very well, and why they could just as easily break it off). Daniel and Teal’c have to be married, and we spent a lot of time trying to decide how mean Hammond was going to be about them both...well...having significant others who are not each other. I’m trying to decide who on the other SG teams is married, although I doubt I’ll ever use any of that. But it is fun to think about!

19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?

Hmm. I’ve been telling myself stories/writing stories (some fanfic, some not) since I was probably seven or eight, but it was only two years ago during the beginning of the pandemic that I thought, “hey, maybe I could post some fanfic.” I already had a few pieces written, but I’d never shared my writing with anyone before. I posted Rare Metals on *checks AO3* June 16 and have been writing fanfic (or trying to write fanfic, at least) ever since.

So that’s the “what”. Why...I’m not sure. I love the found family and science aspects of SG-1, and I love Sam and Jack’s story, and I love Jack’s character most of all. There’s a lot there. There’s also something about writing my version of these stories? Like, I’m neurodivergent, so I’m naturally going to focus on different aspects. I also know that my perspective and opinions about these characters are not always what most people see when they look at them. It’s nice to share that with the world, sometimes. In my more arrogant moments, I think my writing might help people understand neurodivergence a bit better, but I’m not so stupid as to think that’s actually true. It’s just nice to think it might help. :)

My first year of writing was weirdly bump-less beyond the standard writer’s block moments? And then I hit complete writing insecurity and now I’m just pretty busy and don’t have much time to write. I think that’s all pretty standard, though?

Where I’m going...unlike a lot of fanfic writers, I have virtually zero interest in becoming a published author. I write for fun, it has nothing to do with my “day job,” and it’s great. The only thing I’m hoping to work up to is an actual multichapter, long fic. Which is probably not going to happen any time soon, but maybe (fingers crossed) someday?

25. What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?

I once had a fully fleshed out headcanon of Jack’s lawyer. I have no idea where it came from and he’s now been lost to the sands of Tumblr messaging, but he existed. I think I was writing the end of In All Duty and Service and had this idea of “what if Jack’s lawyer had to deal with all his accidental marriages” and how the lawyer ended up shipping S&J. It was insane. And completely irrelevant to everything. XD

Here’s the post if anyone wants to ask questions!

#asks and answers #lightofevolution #sg1 #sam x jack #stargate #on writing #ask games

[incorrigibill]

No. It didn’t just drop from the heavens into my unsuspecting lap. Though I wasn’t expecting it. And it did in fact drop.

What they didn’t see is also what most people don’t see. The impact of time on a thing. We talk about the time value of money, the compounding effect, and it is accepted wisdom by now. Put your money into a savings or investment account and it will grow. Just don’t watch too closely. Because it grows more clearly over a decade or more. But we don’t talk enough about the time value of more important things, like skills or careers or relationships. They too grow over time. And they too resist easy measurement over short periods. But over a decade or more, they can grow so much that it almost seems that something fell out of the sky.

Things do fall out of the sky. All the time in fact. But just like someone said about investing in new companies and technologies, it isn’t what you spill, it’s what you catch. They key is to catch the things falling out of the sky. They can be very hard to predict, and even harder to catch. The key is to have a good basket at the ready. You will start with a simple frame, an idea. And slowly you will pull one reed through, then another. And another. Some of them you will do for fun. Some you will do for free. Some you will do even when you don’t really want to. Most actually. Some will seem like they were never part of the basket, but they were. The way you tell is when you catch that thing falling out of the sky. Because it won’t actually land in your lap. We don’t have laps like that. It will land in your basket, the thing you began weaving ten years ago, when it was a vague idea and nothing close to a basket. You probably barely remember, but perhaps I can help.

It started when you looked up an old professor eight or ten years ago, on a kind of lark, to get some ideas about writing, this thing that had been in the back of your mind for as long as you could remember. He invited you up for lunch, an hour and a half away, on a day that was actually kind of busy, that he would have understood if you couldn’t make it. But you made it happen. You went. You had no expectation of anything coming of it and you were right, for a while. (We are always right for a while). Then you met someone while you were there, another professor whom you never had met. They were nice and everything but no real connection. But they then introduced you to someone else, via email, who seemed kind of interesting to you. You had no obligation at all to reply—they hadn’t responded either at that point (many people don’t), but you did. Next thing you know you’re volunteering to mentor students and help her with her vision to expand the center she runs, a thing you had never heard of. And then you’re the volunteer of the year at the center and the following year her first executive in residence, an idea you had that she decided to run with.

This was all interesting and good of course, but you had an idea too, one to create a new kind of class, not a four credit class like other classes, but something different, a kind of experience maybe. Something you would do because you wanted to, not because you had to. It would perhaps be like a J-term class, the ones that you loved when you were in college. But no one seemed to like that idea much. Most people don’t like resurrecting old ideas or anything recently deceased. It perhaps needed a bit more time. So you kept working on the writing thing, the thing that you had started with all those years ago with the old professor.

The writing thing chugged along for a year or two more and was making good progress, but it kept being interrupted by this class idea, and soon you were writing more about that than anything else. And then one day, out of the blue, the class idea had a little spark. Someone asked you, on the phone, somewhat on a lark again, if you could have the class ready by the fall. It was already the summer. They agreed it was very short notice. You didn’t even think. You said yes. It seemed a bit hasty to reply so quickly. And it seemed doubtful that you could quickly create a good version of your class—the one you put away two or three years ago but had been noodling with on the page recently. But you decided it would have to start somewhere and now seemed to be when it needed to start. So you did. It didn’t go as you had hoped of course, and you rebuilt it and tried it again. Now it was working. You did it again and again. It seemed that this was what you were destined to create.

Meanwhile, you had another idea. You had lunch with some students who told you about a study abroad trip to Ireland a year or two ago and how it didn’t have a professor. You found out that some programs have professors and some don’t. You also found out that some European schools need English speaking professors and that your career experience might be more useful that you thought. You considered the idea of living abroad for the first time then. Really considered it. But the Ireland opportunity didn’t really pan out. You were too distracted with running your company and other people were not supportive. You took it as a sign—that the timing was not quite right. You started meeting with other schools, in other places and turned over countless stones. You had no idea what you were looking for but you kept looking.

One day you realized that a class existed at another school that embodied a lot of the ideas that you had been recently thinking about for a new class. It was called Grand Strategy. You loved the idea, the concept of retranslating history into something more much useful and usable. You felt you had really hit on something—again. But again, no one seemed to share your enthusiasm. You read everything you could get your hands on about that class and wrote endless pages about it that went nowhere. You remembered that this happens—that it takes time for other people to jump on board. You were patient. Really patient.

Then, someone—actually a colleague of the your old professor—the one you reconnected with way at the top of the preceding pages, asked you about it. Seemed interested in it. You sent him a copy of the course syllabus and a few articles. You talked some more. Finally, he agreed to help you build it. You both decided to build a pilot course in the fall for the spring term. You began to think—“this is what this has all been about.” But then he called you one day and left a voicemail. He apologized and said he just got some news and he would not be able to work on the class—he was now going to Rome to lead the study abroad program. He said he could do it in the spring instead, for next fall, or possibly do some in Rome, maybe over the phone, but that seemed less than ideal.

You suggested that you could fly over a couple times, work on the class together, in Rome, if that seemed at all possible. He was surprised that you would do that. People often don’t know what any of us is really about. You felt excited again, about the class and about the trip. A couple of flights to Rome to work on a class about strategy seemed perfect somehow. He texted you the next day: “I don’t know if you can do this or would even want to do this, but how about coming to Rome for the semester and co-directing the Rome program with me? I think we have a two bedroom apartment over a bakery.”

You typed “Yes. You had me at bakery!” You didn’t really think about it at all. Sometimes you just know what you need to do. Rome was never where you wanted to go. Never. And you hadn’t been thinking of going in this capacity. And there were suddenly many reasons floating through your head about why this wasn’t a good idea at this time. At this time. But you said yes anyway. You’ve learned to ignore negative voices. You’ve also learned to know that things rarely come in the shape and size you’ve been imagining. The universe doesn’t work like that. It’s more approximate sizing. Guesswork. Caprice. Close enough—as in about the size of a bread basket.

People asked you if you were excited to go to Rome and you found it hard to answer. You weren’t actually excited to go to Rome. You had no idea of Rome in mind, other than you had never thought ever of going to Rome, but you were excited to begin working on the class idea. But you were also well aware that this may also not be what this trip was about. I can’t really say more than that right now, but as you have probably noted, the meaning of events is not always clear. It takes time to put things in some kind of perspective.

A few days ago someone said to my daughter that I was lucky, that this ‘thing’ just fell into my lap a few months ago, and now I’m in Rome. I think they said something about a recent guitar playing gig falling into my daughter’s lap too. The same daughter who had never picked up a guitar until, oh, say, eight years ago and is now quite accomplished at it, enough in fact to have things fall into her lap too.

Some things do fall into our laps. Lottery tickets come to mind. But most everything else falls either onto the floor and is wasted, or into a basket that some person has been working on, slowly, almost imperceptibly, for years and years. So long in fact that they probably had forgotten that they were ever hoping to catch something at all. That is when baskets and basket weaving works best I think—when you are weaving the basket because that’s simply what you do. And the basket is catching things because that’s what baskets do too. And if you don’t understand any of this, well, you’re just a basket case, and I bet you don’t even have a basket.

[comereadbookswithme]

Books I’m currently Reading📚

So I tend to read like 3 books at the same time. It’s a problem, I know. But anyways here are the three books I’m currently reading and where I’m at with them and my initial thoughts.

1. The Summer I Turned Pretty (By Jenny Han)

I’m currently at chapter 38. When I finish this book I’m gonna do a post on it but right now I think It’s really sweet and I can’t wait to see who Belly ends up with even though I’m pretty sure I have a good idea who it’s gonna be😉.

I love the flashbacks between current time and past events and I love the build up to certain events. I’m team Conrad btw. I love a good enemies to lovers trope no matter how over done or predictable- I LOVE IT EACH TIME!!! But I also really like Jeremy for Belly but I’m pretty sure Conrad is the one.

Jeremy and Belly have a lot of history and sweet moments together which they can book look back on fondly which is really sweet. Conrad and Belly have sweet moments too but they’re clouded by angst and strong emotions so we don’t get to enjoy them as much as we do with Jeremy and Belly. But the tension between C and B has me on the edge of my seat and I always look forward to their moments together. I guess it’s a ‘you only appreciate what you have when you don’t have it’ kinda thing for me. Jeremy and Belly have lots of sweet moments but I don’t crave them as much as I do Conrad’s cause they’re more rare which creates more excitement for the couple and their future. I really hope the build up is worth it!

Even though Belly can be annoying at times (and even cringey at some points) I really relate to her. I was born at a weird time in my family where no one had babies four years before or after. So I was always to old or too young and got left out of everything. The effects of always being left out and having to prove that you can hang with the older kids is something Belly and I have in common and I think Jenny Han did a great job of showing how Belly’s childhood and treatment by the boys affected her in her late teens.

2. Percy Jackson and the Lightning Thief (By Rick Riordan)

I’ve wanted to read the Percy Jackson series for a while and am finally getting around to it! I’ve just reached chapter 7 and am already so excited to see what happens! It’s a really fun read especially since I LOVE Greek mythology! I’m having a great time reading it! Each chapter is so much fun! I have a post coming up on the chapters I’ve read so far so you can keep a look out for that if you like! I’ll go more into detail when that comes out. But basically, I really love the book and can’t wait to find out what happens next!

3. Jane Eyre (By Charlotte Brontë)

I found this book in my Grany’s library and borrowed it before my exams began. I read the first three chapter and really fell in love with it. So far it’s really sad but I love the writing style and the world building of it all. I’ve taken a break from it until my exams are done (two more weeks!) and I’ve finished the other two books that I’m reading!

Okay so I obviously had more to say for a certain book than the other three since I’m much further ahead in it than the others but there will be many more updates to come!

I hope you found this interesting! You can leave your thoughts or opinions in the comment sections if you’d like and feel free to ask me any questions!

I can’t wait to hear from you guys,

Sinclaire J.🦋

#read with me #bookclub #booklover #whatimreading #reading #read in 2022 #the summer i turned pretty

[thelankykat]

Wow I can’t wait for c!Slimecicle to be forced to rethink how c!Quackity’s treating him and then have to choose between Quackity and c!Ranboo and for Quackity to screw up and so Slimecicle chooses Ranboo then leaves Quackity just like everyone else that he loves in his life has left him and Quackity’s forced to either completely deny that he’s in the wrong with using and manipulating people or he’s forced to spiral even deeper into this mindset that the only way he can keep people is by manipulating them

#/j #part of me is like nooo I want Quackity to heal #and the other part of me is like get ur grubby little hands off Slimecicle thanks #spoilers for yesterday’s stream? #idk I’ll tag it #dream smp spoilers #dream smp #ranboo #tubbo #Slimecicle #Quackity #dsmp #my predictions are always on point don’t you know /j

[quillquiver]

I think the most frustrating thing about the gold panel is that the actors were very predictable and consistent and everyone still lost their minds: J*red was bigoted but attempted to hide behind what he perceived to be an argument based in literary theory, and Jensen remained diplomatic. Having him come in after J*red painted that diplomacy in a really unattractive light, but everything he said was pretty much the same. And yes, it’s hurtful, but I’ve been hurt so much by this show they can’t touch me at this point.

We had a wedding day for them. We have wholly reclaimed the narrative. And you now what? We have confirmation that Misha played the scene queer, and that it was written queer. If Jensen Ackles wants to tell me that Dean Winchester didn’t know it was romantic until the last minute? Totally fine. And if he wants to give a non-answer, it’s no skin off my nose; he honestly doesn’t know Dean as well as we do. As for the other actor, well, he wasn’t in the scene anyway, so I’m not surprised his interpretation is wrong, especially when he tends to dislike major plot points that aren’t about him. “Forgive me, but that wasn’t what that scene was about?” I won’t, and you can sit the fuck down, because in this instance, you have no idea what you’re talking about. His reading holds as much weight as any of ours because nothing of Sam is in there. Sorry, buddy!

No matter what, those two played the roles they’ve always played in this little paratextual dance we do every time we’re in a similar setting with them. We shouldn’t be surprised at the outcome! What we should do is write our fic, and make our art, and share our gifs and edits. We should double down on this story that we know to be romantic because it’s been confirmed by the most important creative sources in this scene. We should enjoy it.

Don’t be upset. Really. It’s a little pathetic that almost a year later, after the most important people in the scene have told us that it’s queer (and the other most important actor has left the door wide open for a bisexual Dean - could be better but could be worse), one of the show leads is still attempting to hold onto his textual authority through gross bigotry. It’s funny, the show was never only about Dean and Cas, but it’s become about them because of all this hullabaloo. 

All I can say is, they’re ours now. And I hate to break it to whoever thinks they own the story, but Dean and Cas woke up sore this morning after a night of marathon sex, and shared a mug of coffee in bed. 

#dencon21 #texas wanker #destiel fic #homophobia

[simpforhoon]

just you. (p.js) *ೃ༄

pairing: soft dom! jay × female reader

genre: smut, fluff, soulmate au! kind of angsty it has a happy ending I swear (praise, making out, protected sex, oral (f-receiving)).

summary: in a world where everyone gets the name of their soulmate tattooed on their wrists when they turn 18, finding out your best friend is your soulmate was not how you planned your 18th birthday to go. now, what’s so bad about that you might ask? you see, jay despises the thought of soulmates. but maybe he doesn’t despise them so much when it comes to you.

please note, this work is purely that of fiction. and not meant to represent what the enhypen members are like in real life.

A/N: guys no why am I so soft,, anyway I’ve been wanting to write this for a while now, so I hope you enjoy!! and I'm reposting this now, as this didnt get a lot of notes on my old account cause of all the reporting and stuff!

word count: 3.4k

warnings: mentions of heartbreak, crying, mentions of food.

1 week ago

you bit your nails as you paced up and down your room, a nervous habit you’d picked up in your junior year of high school whilst dealing with the tremendous stress and pressure school put on you. well lucky for you, you had graduated now and your 18th birthday was just around the corner. specifically, exactly a week from now.

your best friend jay sat on your bed staring at you with amusement written all over his face as he quietly observed you, before moving up to stop you and pull your hands away from your face. “you’re going to wear yourself out” he mumbled softly, pulling you to sit next to him and rubbing your shoulder in a comforting manner.

“I know I know, I’m just nervous, what if they’re all the way on the other side of the world? or even worse, what if they’re someone I know??” the panicked expression on your face was seemingly too much for jay to handle as before you knew it, he had almost rolled off your bed, laughing his ass off at you.

you see, your “dearest” best friend jay never believed in soulmates. he himself never actually got a name on his wrist, a sign that his soulmate had not reached the age to get theirs. to say he was ecstatic would be an understatement as he was at a party that very night, hooking up with a random girl before going over to your house the next morning with a massive hangover and a sullen expression.

it hurt you to see him that way, hooking up with random people, praying that he wouldnt run into his soulmate. and it hurt even more when you thought of how his soulmate was probably so excited to meet him even if they didn’t know him yet.

if only you knew where you would be a week later, wishing it was you who never met him.

present day

the time on your phone read 11:57, and jay had shown up to your house at exactly 11:30, punctual as always, giving up his usual saturday night parties to spend the night before your special day with you instead. he held your hand in his, one thumb running up and down the expanse of your knuckles soothingly, the only thing grounding you in the tense moments before what was basically the biggest moment of your life. your eyes never met his once, only flickering from the clock to your wrist every few seconds, almost as if it would appear before time if you stared long enough.

12:00 a.m.

it was almost as if everything stopped in that moment as the words appeared on your skin. the crickets stopped chirping, that one car alarm outsode your house stopped beeping and both you and Jay stopped breathing, even if it was just for a few seconds. one by one, letter by letter, black ink slowly trailed up the soft skin on your clean wrist, marking your skin for the rest of eternity. you watched with bated breath as tbe letters curved their way into your skin, into your soul.

“P-A-R-K” looks like your soulmate would have the same last name as your best friend. “J-O-N-” that was when the realisation of what was about to happen dawned upon you. “no, no, no, no” was all you could think. “this wasn’t supposed to happen”

meeting jay’s eyes for a split second, you could see the shock on his face, the same shock you knew was written all over your face at that very moment. yanking your hand out of his warmer one, you stared at the 2 words displayed on your wrist. “park jongseong” you whispered as a one lone tear ran down your cheek, falling to you chin before disappearing into the soft material of your sweater.

this prompted jay to push up his own sleeve, the words that seem to have appeared on his wrist confirmed what you both already knew by that point. jay park, your best friend since you were 5, your rock, your everything, was your soulmate. if the situation were anything but this, you would have been jumping for joy, ecstatic that your soulmate was the man you’d grown up with your whole life. but unfortunately, that was not the case.

“_______” he whispered, voice hoarse as he held your hand in his again. gripping it tightly this time so you wouldn’t be able to let go this time. not that you wanted to anyway. “jay” you whispered back, attempting to smile at him, despite the tears that were threatening to overflow at any moment. “I-I need time to think” he said, so softly, his eyes full of nothing but remorse. “I understand jay, take your time, don’t rush okay?” you replied, squeezing his hand in reassurance. he wistfully smiled at you one last time as he pushed himself off your bed and walked out of your bedroom, closing the door with a small ‘click’, leaving you alone in the darkness of your room, mind racing and wondering what were you were going to do with this newfound information.

you fell asleep after much tossing and turning, your mind full of nothing but jay and his name that was now tattooed into the inside of your wrist. you were woken up by the bright smile of your parents, you mother holding a plate of pancakes and wishing you a happy birthday. the sight alone was enough to make you burst into tears as you wrapped your arms around her, seeking her familiar scent and comfort after the rough night you had. your parents seemed shocked, but did not press you to open up, wrapping their arms around you as they attempted to comfort you.

your mom was no foolish woman, as she seems to have caught on to what was bothering you on your special day. “its about your soulmate isn’t it?” she asked as she placed a glass of your favourite chocolate smoothie in front of you, wiping her hands on her apron. you looked up at her, disbelief written all over your face as she chuckled at you. “how did you know?” you asked as she smiled slyly at you. “I have my ways, and besides, I’m your mother” she replied with a wink. you groaned, dramatically resting your head on the counter as she laughed and gave in. “I saw jay walk out of your room last night with tears streaming down his face, and considering you woke up crying too, it doesn’t take a genius to figure out what went down there”.

“you should talk it out with him sweetie, he’s not just your soulmate, he’s your best friend. despite how he feels about this whole fate thing, I’m sure the both of you will be okay.” her words reassured you as you grabbed your backpack, and walked through your front door. not even 2 minutes later you heard the biggest scream and you were tackled into a hug. giggling, you wrapped your arms around the taller boy as he squeezed you tightly. “happy birthday ______!” he said as he let go of you and continued your walk to school. “thanks sunoo” you said, smiling at the younger boy who had the biggest grin on his face.

“soooooo” he began, looking at you with an expectant expression on his face. you pursed your lips, already predicting the question that was due to escape his mouth any second from now. “jay” you said, cutting him off before he could even open his mouth. “JAY?!?!!?” he said, a little too loudly, mouth agape as he processed the information. you shrugged as he linked his arm with yours, understanding that you didnt want to talk about it.

luckily, no one pressed you about your soulmate for the rest of the day, warded off by sunoo’s glare the moment they looked like they were going to ask. you sat next to jay in all your classes, the atmosphere tense and awkward between the two of you. everyone seemed to have figured our what happened by that alone, your normally boisterous voices muted and soft. you went out after school with sunoo and riki, your mood heightened by the laughs and jokes of the two bickering boys.

when you got home, the house was eerily quiet, your parents nowhere in sight, all the lights turned off save the one in your living room. and there on the sleek grey sofa sat Jay, looking down at his hands as he anxiously played around with the rings he always wore. your footsteps alerted him of your presence, as he shot up off your sofa to greet you with a crooked smile on his face, black hair sticking up in every direction.

you smiled at him, already preparing yourself for the worst, as he walked towards you. “your parents have gone out, they handed me the keys and told me to come and talk to you if I wanted, and-” he cut himself off in the middle of his sentence, taking a deep breath and holding your hand. here goes nothing he thought. “I want to try. this whole soulmate thing I mean. maybe i wouldnt be this way if it was anyone else, but it’s you, my best friend, and I don’t want to lose you.” he mumbled out the last part, but it was still clear enough for you to hear. you couldn’t help the smile that stretched across your face at his words, his own face breaking out into a grin at your expression. you reached up on your tippy toes to wrap your arms around his neck as his hands went around your waist.

he buried his face in your hair, your soft vanilla scent calming his racing heart, and that was when he realised how much you really meant to him. he loved when you would always being him snacks after soccer practice, he loved when you let him lay his head on your lap and you ran your hands through his hair, he loved seeing the expressions you made when you ate his food, he loved you.

“I made something for you” he said, pulling away from your embrace, leading you to your kitchen and making you sit down on the counter. he grabbed a plate of your favourite pasta and a fork before lifting up a mouthful and holding it out to feed it to you. you smiled, wrapping your lips around the fork as the flavours exploded in your mouth. “oh my gosh, this is good, you’ve really outdone yourself.” he smiled at the complement before pressing a kiss to your cheek and muttering a little “happy birthday love”, leaving your face feeling hot and an uncontrollable smile on your face.

the rest of the evening went by in hin feeding you food and taking a few notes of it himself, lots of little cheek kisses, before the two of you settled down on the couch to watch a movie. it seemed like jay had gotten over his awkwardness as he pulled you to sit between his legs the moment the movie started. you looked back at him in shock, wondering when he got so bold before he pressed a kiss to your lips and told you to focus on the screen.

it might not have been the perfect first kiss, but it was with jay and that was enough. he played with your hair throughout the movie, and moved it aside at one point, pressing little kisses along the expanse of your neck. it was when he landed his lips on one particular spot that you let out a little noise, one you never even knew you could make that made him sit up a little straighter.

it was almost as if a switch flipped within him as he tightened his grip around your waist, one hand slipping up your hoodie to caress the skin near your waist. “I didn’t know you could make such pretty noises baby” he whispered in your ear, his hot breath sending shivers down your spine. “well i didn’t know i could either” you whispered back, the realisation of what was about to happen making your body feel like it was on fire.

“are you sure you want this? we don’t have to do anything you dont want to sweetheart” he said, pulling away with a kiss to your cheek. you shifted so that you were facing him, legs wrapped around his waist and you reached your hands up to play with the hair at the nape of his neck. “I’m sure jay, theres no one I’d rather do this with than you.” that was all the affirmation he needed, as within seconds you were being dragged to your bedroom by an overexcited jay.

he pressed you up against your room door, hands coming up to lift your thighs and wrap them around his waist, your core meeting his very obvious bulge. taking advantage of the gasp that left you, he allowed his tongue to skip into your mouth, taking control of every aspect of the kiss. pulling away, he brought you to your bed, gently letting you down onto the mattress, and reaching up to pull your hoodie off you.

“so beautiful” he whispered as he reached behind you to pull your bra off, before lifting his own arms to pull his own shirt off, leaving his body on display for you. just for you. he reached down to tug one of your nipples into his mouth, gently sucking and wrapping his tongue around the sensitive bud, his actions leaving your mouth open in a silent moan.

within minutes, both of you were left completely naked as jay continued to trail his lips down your body, pressing little kisses to your inner thigh before his mouth finally met your core, the smallest motion of his lips leaving you breathless and squirming. “stay still sweetheart, good girls don’t move around so much”. his words sent vibrations spreading throughout your body, not doing anything to help with the heat that was coursing through your veins.

his tongue delved in and out of your dripping hole, one of his hands rubbing your clit while the other held your legs open for him. “jay- i- I’m gonna-” but he was gone the moment the words fell from your mouth. and he was a sight to see. your juices mixed with his, drool and spit dripped down his chin, as he ran his tongue over his lips with a smirk on his face.

“oh so the baby wants to cum? don’t worry love, I’m going to make you feel so good”. he reached into his jacket and pulled out a condom before rolling it on and lining himself I with your entrance. he grasped your chin gently, pulling you up to look at him and planting a loving kiss on your lips. “I love you so much sweetheart, so so much” he whispered, pulling away from your lips. “I love you too jay” you said back, watching as he smiled once, before intertwining your hands and then, pushing himself into you.

nothing had ever felt as good in that moment as he gently, softly pushed himself inside. the feeling was euphoric, having your soulmate inside you in such an intimate manner. your bodies moulding together perfectly, bursts of colour lighting up the back of your eyelids as your eyes closed at the feeling of him in you. he began thrusting in and out of you slowly, not wanting to hurt you. but at your signal, he began moving faster, groans and moans escaping both your lips, finding pleasure and love in each other.

it didn’t take long for you to reach your high at all, his length hitting you in all the right places, leading you to ride out your high much faster than you expected, jay following soon after. he finished inside the condom, reaching out to pull it off and throw it away, before walking to your bathroom and grabbing a wet cloth to clean you up with.

he was greeted with the sight of your tired smile as he returned, gently cleaning you before tossing the rag and gathering you up in his arms, pressing a kiss to your forehead. “does this mean you’re mine now?” he asked, reaching down to bury his head in your hair, his hands absent-mindedly tracing shapes and figures on your bare shoulder. “it does if it means you’re mine too”. he smiled at your response, pulling the blanket over the two of you as you drifted off to sleep in the arms of the one person who would stay with you forever.

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