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chaggieslovechild · 4 months

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so i rewatched dad beat dad today and i have a new "theory"

i think it's safe to say that alastor gets pissed off by lucifer (hate might be too much of a strong word) but why is that? I've seen some people theorize that has something to do with (if we assume correctly) lilith being the one who has him on a leash, but i actually thought... maybe he has that reaction because lucifer, or his relationship with charlie (or both) reminds him of his own dad

like we know that alastor notoriously gets along better with women rather then men, and viv said he is a momma's boy. she also said in a recent q&a with the cast that he gets pissed off by lucifer bc he's more powerful than him and that kinda makes sense but..... i wanna read more into it so I'm ignoring her saying

when lucifer gets to the hotel he immediately aggressively hugs charlie and alastor's eye twitches a little bit, i can't help but think that maybe it reminded him of being in charlie's place one day, having a relationship with a stranged father (to say the least). maybe he puts that frustrating feeling together with the fact that not only this is charlie's father, but also LUCIFER, king of hell, most powerful creature in all the realm. he could end alastor's ass with a snap of his fingers if he truly wanted but luckily for him, he is mostly chill just like charlie

so, alastor finds himself in a too familiar position that he doesn't like: having to be "inferior" to a man who is a father and a higher authority in one way or another. when lucifer asks about the bar they get into a bit of banter which ends by alastor literally saying "fuck you" to lucifer and charlie stepping in. which surprised a lot of fans for a good reason, 'cus so far we've only seen alastor as he presents himself mostly: a well-mannered gentleman. but it was so easy for lucifer to get under his skin in so little time, that perhaps he got taken over by anger - not a "I'm gonna slaughter everyone" anger, but a human anger of "I'm in a shit position and I can't do anything about it but I'm really angry about it". so that's why he just outright says fuck you to lucifer, it's not a "I don't care if you're the king of hell I'm not afraid of you fuck you", it's a "i know the type of father you are (because i had one similar) and it's a shit behavior so fuck you"

but lucifer doesn't get shaken by it, he pretty much has no reaction to it and that keeps alastor angry. he realizes that charlie and lucifer have a distant and complicated relationship, so he tries a different tactic: hey btw I'm closer to a father figure to your daughter then you actually are, and THAT gets under lucy's skin. when he gets into song, alastor just takes the opportunities to hijack it and keep pissing him off

there's also something else, that when lucy and charlie sings more then anything, everyone at the hotel is looking at them, including alastor and he looks... satisfied, to say the least. maybe not happy, but he definitely isn't angry or frustrated by the situation of charlie and lucifer making up. dare i say he almost looks proud, as in "yep my job here is done"

maybe he just wanted to piss lucifer off bc it reminded him of his own father, but he accidentally made him and charlie get on better terms and making up, and he's not entirely bothered by it. he accidentally made a good thing, but either he (1) doesn't realize it at the moment or (2) he just doesn't see it that way (maybe he thinks that lucy and charlie won't be in good terms for long or whatever)

and as of later in the episode, even in the series there isn't a lot more of this alastor and lucifer's relationship. in the last episode, when alastor shows up lastly to the group hug, we see two characters annoyed by his presence: husk and lucifer. so i think that alastor pulling the "I'm more of a father figure to charlie then you will ever be" card REALLY affected lucifer, he just isn't showing it off. yet at least.

the bit in the finale before the final fight, alastor says to niffty that "maybe he could get used to other's presence", or he gets entertained by it, something among these lines. i think maybe this is the first time that he verbally, consciously admits that maybe he likes the people in the hotel, but that little moment - at the beginning of more than anything, where he watches lucifer and charlie singing, that was actually the first time that he cared about someone in the hotel, it's just that neither him or anyone else realized it.

tl; dr: alastor "hates" lucifer bc it reminds him of his own dad and while trying to piss lucifer off he accidentally makes him and charlie make up and he's satisfied by that outcome but he doesn't realize it

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel theory #hazbin hotel analysis #hazbin hotel alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #lucifer hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin hotel alastor theory #hazbin hotel alastor analysis #wow wtf i didn't know this would be long i should've used my desktop for it

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ramonag-if · 14 days

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The relationship of Mc’s family hits home for me. I was the exact same position as MC with their new sister; Rana, I was a young adult and my new sibling was just a kid, it really hurt when a parent start a new family after they had left you, and my dad said the similar words to me; It just happened, it was never planned. But it happened, you left and had a new family where I was never included, you could have reached out to me a long time ago but unfortunately I had to deal with the cards. I was angry and jealous at kid, not because I hated them but they symbolize the time I could had have if my parent had stayed, they had the moments with my parent that I could never have, they were enough for my parent to change, that they were enough for them to stay, but I was never enough that they left. My MC avoided Rana and didn’t choose to talk to her, cause the pain was fresh and present, it was not Raina’s fault that their mother had choose a choice that consequently had hurt MC permanently. I had headcanon what happen to me in past would happen to MC too; the relationship between their mother can never be fixed, the damage has been done, and choices that had been made for MC long ago that had hurt them that she can never take back, I think MC will find peace in the life they have made for themselves, the family they had created and deserved, and I would like to think that my MC who didn’t choose to have a relationship with Rana when she was a child would be different in the future, when the pain of the wounds have healed, I would think they would have talked it out and build a relationship, and MC would probably find some type of closure of their mom with their sister. It really broke my heart when their mother didn’t own up to what they have had done, and made excuses to justify what the choices she made that had hurt them ; why she they left and why she made a new family without them. It was not an accident, you made that choice and you have hurt so many people because all you think is about you and you never think about how we feel. When I finally had my kids I was able to build a relationship with my half brother even though it took awhile, I could stay angry at him when he had done nothing wrong. I was able to find peace, I had finally let go of my anger and just go on with life, my past would not change but I can be a parent that my father should’ve been to me to my own children. I hope MC found their peace in the future.

Sorry about the rant, it really had hit home and was personal to me. The writing and the relationship with the characters are so beautiful, and it really cuts me, and made me cry. It is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing this to me. I hope you are having a nice day.

Thank you for sharing this with me 💖 I really don't mind these long posts because it means that players care about the characters and the emotions I tried to convey in writing them.

I set out to create a complicated, messy family dynamic that was also realistic. I think for players who haven't experienced something similar in their own family dynamics, it's easier to walk the path of forgiveness and embracing Rana. It's a bit more difficult when those feelings are something you've dealt with IRL. I can't remember when, but someone asked me why Salyra and Ahlf can't just love the MC and my reply is that you can't fix everyone, even if this is a game, I didn't want to write a happily-ever-after ending where just by showing up, the MC will automatically have parents who magically change and become affectionate.

It didn't feel right for the characters – people do change, but it doesn't happen overnight and sometimes, it takes a different set of circumstances to make that change. Salyra's circumstances with Ahlf and the MC were completely different to the circumstances she had with Danzor and Rana which is why she might come across as being a different mother to Rana than she is with the MC 😬

I realised I've gone and answered quite more than I should have 😅 Thank you for playing and thank you for sharing your in-depth thoughts with me!

#crown of exile #answered asks #salyra

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emjiroki · 14 days

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EMMMMM please I must knowwww as the stepmom how do you bond with each of the todobabies ?? Who is more attached to you?

CHERRY HI I HOPE YOU'VE BEEN DOING GOOD LOVELY!

Im always up for talking about my stepmom au ✨️🩷

Out of all the todobabies I think Touya and Natsuo were the hardest to bond with. Despite still living in the house they both don't really care what their father has going on and are apprehensive when I come into the picture. Bonding with them is like bonding with cats, gotta leave them alone until they come to you.

Helping Natsuo pick out flowers for his first date with his girlfriend was our big bonding experience. Rei wasn't able to help at the time and he'd never ask his dad so he asked me my opinion. Then we ordered them from the florist with Enji’s card (obviously hehe)

With Touya it happened pretty quick despite his adverse attitude the whole time. We shared a smoke out in the garden and then a couple of days later he asked me to drive him a couple of hours away to play a show with his band. He still acts like he couldn't care less around Enji but we're secretly friends.

Fuyumi was so happy to have another girl in the house that she warmed up immediately (she's the sweetest obviously) we bond over cooking and trying new recipes! She's more of the quiet type so I try and check in with her and make sure she's doing good, I think she appreciates it.

Shoto was a bit of a tough nut to crack. The defiant little boy with the "you're not my mom" complex to the max. I had to make it clear multiple times that I wasn't trying to take his mom's place in his life. He warmed up a lot more when he realized I was a neutral party and not completely on Enji's side all the time. Helping him make arts and crafts projects for his mom and taking him out for ice cream are our big bonding moments!

Out of all the kids I think Shoto and Fuyumi are the most attached! We like to go on outings together to museums and aquariums but I've got my own relationship with all the kids and try to forge a better bond with Enji and them too.

#thank you for asking!!!! i love talking about this au!#todoroki stepmom #natsuo todoroki #touya todoroki #fuyumi todoroki #shoto todoroki #enji todoroki #inbox 💌#em talks 👄

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yeojagroup · 9 months

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heavy heavy shit that's been on my mind ! cw: grief

i want to go see my mom. i asked a few weekends ago if we could go see her, but my dad didn't want to make the drive up unless we were also going to go visit my aunt. the last time we went to the cemetary was traumatizing for reasons out of our control, and instead of feeling any sense of relief or comfort i felt hypervigiliance. that's par for the course though! i need to go see if the headstone has finally been put down or the groundskeeper fucked up and switched it with another bereaved family's daughter again. i feel the need to go sit at her headstone and become a little unravelled again. to scream and tell her how angry i am, how small and useless i feel, and how i hate that she wasn't strong enough to stop the cycle. i remember one of the conversations i had with her near the end when she admitted to me that she didn't think she was a very strong person, and i said she wasn't giving herself enough credit.

i talked with my therapist about how she'd told me that she had been in several abusive relationships. one with a controlling, high IQ mensa member lawyer who liked to buy lingerie and clothing for her. and then my brother's father, an alcoholic cop. there's a lot to be said without me having to say it just by disclosing those two details. she told me that they had made her feel like she wasn't good enough for them to wipe their feet on. harrowing and heartbreaking. and even if i weren't biased, if i were lead to believe that she was exaggerating and being a drama queen, her actions and systematic self-destruction shows the truth. i watched her harm herself. and when i worried about her, when i tried to call attention to the fact that she wasn't well and she was abusing herself as well as substances, even as a child, she would break out the handbook that her exes must've used on her. no, you're wrong, you're exaggerating, you're so sensitive. you're hysterical. and you know what? sometimes, i was hysterical. my nervous system couldn't process all this pain and confusion. i couldn't do it back then.

i didn't have the resources. i still don't. i'm trying to reshape my life and give it purpose, to find some meaning after all the senseless hurt, but how was i meant to come out of this situation as a fully functioning adult? how was i meant to see this and form any type of self-esteem? she would dismiss me and be so callous sometimes. like a petulant child, she'd go, "right, because i'm what's wrong with everything in your life. everything is my fault." but actually. some of it is your fucking fault. i know you tried your best. i want to believe that you did. but there are things i've told you over and over again and screamed myself hoarse over that you never believed. you never believed how much i cared about you. how much it would destroy me if anything happened to you. when you were sober, you were such a funny and beautifully unique woman. and now that you're gone, it's like you never existed in the first place. my life got smaller. i started starving even more for the breadcrumbs of love you'd last given me, searching for the last time you gave me a birthday card with a sweet message on it only to come up a little bit short. if i have the energy to remember, if i even want to, i try to recall the good things. but i don't have to forgive you right now. in fact, i don't have to forgive you ever. some day i will make peace with it all. maybe the first step is cutting that tie of familial obligation, the need to be a perfect daughter you possess and throw away when it suits you, to protect my own peace.

#txt #cw: grief ///

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chartreuseschaos · 1 year

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Dear Dad

Thanks to you I have no idea what it feels like to have a father, because you decided to leave when I was a baby. My mom cut your face out of all the pictures so I had no idea what you looked like for a long time. When I was a little older, you'd try to visit, but my mom forced me to hide in the hallway with her and pretend no one was home. My mom tried to instill fear, she said that you were abusive and unreliable because of your mental illnesses. I remember visiting you in prison once as a child, I think that might have been the first time I ever saw you actually, I said bye daddy as I left because I felt forced to do so, but I think it made you happy at least. Around my early-mid teens you were suddenly there, in the flesh, visiting me, giving me gifts, but it all felt empty and surreal because you were a stranger to me. Having my mom go from forbidding me to even see your face, to nonchalantly have you over for a visit is extremely confusing. Within that time period, I really wanted to go see Rammstein in concert but my mom didn't have money for the trip, so she told me to ask you, I told her I didn't want to do that, but she insisted it would be okay, so I did and we did have that trip, but low and behold years later you used it as excuse to get mad at me over, insisting that I was a leech, when it wasn't even my idea. You also got mad at me for never visiting you, and on my 18th birthday you send me a petty card expressing this, which I happened to read out loud to the family, as we do, do you have any idea how much you embarrassed me that day? I spend my entire birthday crying in my bed, boiling with mindnumbing rage. One father's day a couple years ago, I tried to find you a present in the store and planned to visit you, to try and rectify our relationship. I walked through the aisles at least 3 times and realized I had no idea what you liked, and decided not to go through with my plans at all. Sometimes I do wish I could just talk to you. I could explain that I am autistic and struggle interpersonally, communicatively, and emotionally, and that I wasn't nearly as self aware as a teen as I am now. Despite my own shortcomings, it was still really unfair of your to expect me to just treat you like my dad when you never showed me what a father was supposed to be. It was unrealistic of you to assume that we could begin any type of relationship, without you apologizing and explaining first. You don't even know that I am a different gender than you thought. I don't know how you will react to any part of me, because I don't know you, and that's what scares me, not your mental illnesses. In fact I think we have some of them in common and it would be nice to talk about them. I can understand how frustrating this whole situation must be for you, but I do think you made a lot of poor and unfair choices. You can't just leave your child alone for 14 years and then return as if nothing happened. I was overwhelmed and disoriented. I didn't know what I was supposed to do in this situation. Not to mention the other stuff I was dealing with. Depression, bullying, high levels of stress, an unstable and unsafe home environment which yes, you did contribute to, by bashing our window in once, because I quote, you wanted to sleep over, you know we have a doorbell right? And yeah, my mom had tons more of those types of boyfriends over weekly. I was, and still am deeply traumatized by all of what has happened to me, stuff which I would be too long and too gruesome to get into right now. I grew detached from reality, and parts of me that were supposed to form just didn't, like my ability to form attachments to other people, my emotional capacity, my trust. I am a hollow broken shell of a person, and you had a part in that too. So congratulations to you, happy Father's Day.

#personal post #willow vulnerability #rant #willow sass #spiraling #disturbing text #trauma #father's day tw

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karasunology · 4 years

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⸙ ˚₊ ➷ IWAIZUMI HAJIME BEING A DAD HEADCANONS! ❞

✎ . . . Herrroooo! 👋🏽 May I request a Baby daddy head canon (The “as dads” head canons lol) please? For Iwaizumi and Nishinoya please and thank you 💞 Love your writing too!!!

❝ ― submitted by @ nonnie <3 ❞

✎ . . . jae idk whether anyone has requested this but is it okay if i request for some iwaizumi and ushi dad HCs 🥺👉🏻👈🏻 ur HCs make me SO soft and tbh i just wanna live in ur imaginations 😢💞

❝ ― submitted by @b0kuto <3 ❞

✎ . . . since you did oikawa as a dad, what about my boyfie iwachann?? and maybe how their kids will interact with each other, thank you if you ever consider💛

❝ ― submitted by @ nonnie <3 ❞

-ˏˋ ➶ character(s) ━ iwaizumi hajime <3

[ trigger warnings ━ slight manga spoilers !! ]

✎ . . . DAD HEADCANONS.

[ SUGAWARA KOUSHI & OIKAWA VERSION. ] [ BOKUTO KOUTARO VERSION. ] [ MIYA ATSUMU VERSION. ] [ KUROO TETSUROU & KOZUME KENMA HEADCANONS. ]

-ˏˋ playing soleil's tape ˊˎ-

[ 📼 ] . . . happy 900 followers and happy birthday lizzie !! @kaidasen , i have two other iwaizumi hcs in my inbox and one being another dad req but not just general hcs and phew i'm tired

IWAIZUMI HAJIME.

➜ i'm not a s*mp but,,,

➜ i would glady offer him my hand in marraige

➜ you two weren't quick to settle down, since the both of you have been busy with your own jobs especially then, trying to survive a comitted long-distance relationship

➜ but now that it has been almost a year since you two got married, hajime knew he wanted to start a family with you

➜ and when i tell you that if MANS EVER EVEN THOUGHT of having children WITH YOU, you're in it for a long long run my love

➜ listen ─ iwa is a rational and decisive man, stubborn too, but overall thinks first before bringing these types lf serious stuff with you

➜ knowing that once you agree, mans will not be able to hold back anymore

➜ it was quite funny actually, since it has been a running joke between you two with your baby fever phase in high school that you soon grew out of when you attended collage.

➜ iwa used to relentlessly tease tf out of you but even then, he couldn't help but be the one that you want to have a child with

➜ now all the left over pride he has vanished away while he looks like a CLOWN as he nervously asked you about starting a family with him

➜ emodiment of👉👈😳🥺

➜ because now it was YOUR turn to tease tf out of him, payback bitch

➜ iwa : what if we . . start a family?? 😳👉👈 haha i'm joking . . . unless??

➜ you : it's funny how bitches turned into my fans💅💸

“ wow how the turn tables ”

“ baby girl, i don't think that's how it ─ ”

“ ─ aha simp ”

➜ but regardless, you immediately agreed to his offer and you BET that iwa would give you payback for all the teasing you have done in the bedroom

➜ ok bet fill me up to the brim sir

➜ okay um chile ,, i have to keep reminding of myself that this is a family friendly show

➜ he may be a little busy with work sometimes, but he'll always try to have time to go with you on your baby check ups and appointments which, he, actually booked the second you told him you were pregnant

➜ but whenever he doesn't, he would always be a lot more affectionate whenever he goes home to see you and would hear how you talk about updates from the doctor as he just RUBS YOUR TUMMY as he apologizes for not coming with you😭

➜ when you gave birth to a beautiful hanako, iwa couldn't help but cry because wow??YOU ARE SO WONDERFUL AND HE IS SO PROUD TO HAVE YOU AS HIS WIFE, AND YOU GAVE HIM THIS LOVELY MASTERPIECE OKAY AIGHT

➜ hajime didn't really care about gender now, but before he actually wanted a son, but as i said now, all his mind was just about you and your daughter ─ his precious girls

➜ besides, he has all the time in the world to make a son with you or two

➜ hanako, no matter how sweet she could be ─ she is lowkey a little shit too

➜ prefers hajime over you but would LOVE to rile him up and make it seem that she prefers you over him

➜ he would be a strict father, but such a softie for his daughter that he forgets why he even was mad when your daughter pulls up with THE TRUMP CARD with the same puppy eyes you always used on him

➜ like mans was already a goner but aight

➜ gets FLUSTERED AND EMBARESSED whenever hanako wants him to play with her with her dolls and he also has to act out with her lmao, but we all know she was doing it on purpose

➜ your daughter is a s a d i s t

➜ makes her dad watch all the OLD barbie movies because she doesn't👏like👏the👏new👏ones👏

➜ periodt 😡💅

➜ has grown to LOVE the thought of being a princess AND HAJIME CALLS HER PRINCESS ALL THE TIME AHH

“ but daddy i'm a princess !! of course i need a prince ” hanako pouted as iwaizumi's tick mark just grew with the thought of his daughter having another boy in her life other than him ( and oikawa & perhaps future brothers😳 )

“ why would you need a prince when you already have your knight in shinning armor here, ” he gestured vigorously to himself with his hands moving up and down from his head to toe

“ oh yeah! i guess i'm okay with that ” your daughter giggled before calling out to you as she saw you coming into her line of sight, reaching her hands out for you to carry her

➜ and by the time you have her in your arms, she would always nuzzle her little head onto your neck, but this time, before he could, she looked back at her father ─ but this time with a mischievous glint

“ ─ for now ” she smiled cheekily before tugging you to head over to kitchen because one, she wants to get away from her father's intense aura emitting from him, and two, she was hungry

➜ as you can see, bb girl loves to rile up her father, but as i said, iwa could never stay mad for too long

➜ would, yes, kinda yell at his kids, but would NEVER EVER hit them

➜ would kinda BONK🔨💥 them but not the childhood traumatizing methods

➜ he has strong beliefs that hitting children are a no-go, because it would probably affect them in the future, and there are other, better and appropriate ways to handle them without leaving them in child trauma

➜ since argentina is close to california where you and iwa have settled down, you bet that oikawa BEGGED them to have a small little reunion atleast every other three months LMAO

➜ and when you gave birth to your son, hayato, oikawa's offer did not STOP, and when oikawa finally had the time to visit you guys with his family ─ it was chaotic.

➜ first of, hanako is so mean to oikawa for some reason but she also kinda likes him too?? 😭

➜ oikawa : that's so upsettin😔

➜ then moves to hayato because unLIKE A CERTAIN SOMEONE, hayato being the precious bb boy he is, accepted all the love oikawa would give him

“ hana-chan, yahoo !! ” before uncle tooru could engulf hanako as he ran up to her with arms open wide, she avoided his figure as he went pass her and hit himself on a lampost

➜ with a blank stare, she crouched to his cowering figure as he rubbed the spot on his head that hit the post while whining, poking his side in curiousity.

“ uncle, are you alright ─ ”

“ ─ oi, shittykawa what are you doing ─ ”

➜ as you and your husband along with oikawa's wife and kids, run up to where the two duo were crouching, your toddler son tilted his head innocently

“ shittykawa . . . ? ”

➜ usually these reunion day would always end in traditional family dinner with the iwaizumis and the oikawas ─ and after that, their offsprings just couldn't get away from each other when it's time to go 🥺

“ i don't want them to leave :( ” hayato pouted as he wouldn't let go of his little tug on akiro's sweater

“ hana-chan !! ” hikaru clung onto hanako as hanako quietly glared at him, trying to shake him off while she shyly held onto akio as aiko starts scolding her little brother

➜ also side note : you bet that they would come back to japan just to attend aobajohsai

➜ anywh0res😍

➜ iwaizumi is the type of dad that would give EQUAL amounts of love to his children, would never have favouritism with his children because that shit actually hurts ngl😔

➜ would arm wRESTLE with hayato but he doesn't wanna hurt him so he would always let him win though it may cost his pride

➜ someone thirst with me about his arms please😭😭

➜ when he's soft'ish

➜ it was near father's day and you have been planning for it along with your children but you guys were anything BUT LOWKEY

➜ iwaizumi could literally hear giggling in one of the rooms and he goes to check it out and sees nodding vigorously at hayato.

➜ wanting to join in the fun, he opened the door and leaned onto the door frame expecting for you to call for him to join you guys

➜ but to his suprised, you guys stayed unusually quiet while your two kids avoided eye contact with him

➜ iwaizumi was upset being left out, but didn't really comment on it. but as father's day rolls in with your two kids waking him up as he goes down to the kitchen to see his favourite breakfast along with some cards from hanako and hayato, and with you smiling warmly at him as you took off your apron before kissing him a goodmorning in his cheeks ─ he knew it was worth it, whatever you guys were planning

“ ew, mommy kissed dada!! ” shrieked by your children as hajime stuck a tongue at them as he grinned at you, lovesick, before he could get to steal kiss on your lips, you pushed his head to look at the opposite side

“ brush your teeth first, and THEN, i will think about kissing you ”

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sapphireplums · 4 years

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You’re Not Alone

Description: Y/N Barber the twin sister of Jacob Barber decided to go for a jog one day, but who knew her whole life can change in matters of seconds.

Warnings: angst, language, sexual assault -DON'T READ IF YOU’RE NOT COMFORTABLE

Pairing: Andy Barber x Daughter!Reader Jacob Barber x Sister!Reader

A/N: if any of you guys have ever been assaulted in any type of way, i'm so sorry that has happened to you. you guys are all beautiful and strong human beings. if anyone wants to talk my inbox is open :)

While reading this, listen to lovely by billie eilish. it really sets the mood for the story.

REQUESTS ARE OPEN BABES

A second. It only took seconds for you to not pick up your phone call from your brother. It was one of those moments where you did not to pick up the phone because you were distracted. But because of that, it almost cost you your life.

THREE HOURS BEFORE THE ASSAULT

♧

You and your older twin brother Jacob were walking home from school arguing about what dog is cuter. You know, the ususal twin stuff.

“No, Jake, German Shepherds are the cutest dog out.” You said with confidence.

“No, Y/N, Corgi’s are the cutest obviously.” Your twin brother kept saying. “ And I'm obviously right because I'm older than you by 49 seconds.”

He always used the ‘older twin’ card on you.

The argument lasted about a few minutes until you guys just gave up and agreed that they were both cute. However, in your mind , you kept saying German Shepherds were better.

“I’m hungry Jake. What do you think we’re going to have for dinner tonight?” You said as your stomach was rumbling.

“ You thinking what I’m thinking?” Jacob said with a smirk knowing that your twin telepathy was tingling.

“Ohhh yessss.” Then you both shouted at the same time:

“KENTUCKY FRIED CHICKEN.”

When you guys got home, you saw your mom on the couch typing something on her laptop.

“Hey kids, how was school today?” Laurie said looking up from her laptop.

“It was good mom” You said and you gave Jacob the look basically saying ‘tell mom we want kfc’

Jacob groaned. “Mom can we get kfc for dinner? Me and Y/N have been craving it for a while”

“Is that your guys’ twin thingy where you want the same thing and think the same thing?” Laurie said smiling at the thought of how her kids got along so well and had a strong sibling bond.

“ Yes mom, yes it is.” you said as chips were being stuffed into your mouth. “But can we actually get kfc though? Jake and I have been craving it for a while.”

“Sure you guys, I’ll pick it up around the time you dad will come home”

“Thanks Mom.” You both said at the same time.

Going up to your guys’ room, Jacob turned on his video games while you were watching YouTube.

He was talking to his gaming friend through the earpiece yelling words at him and the tv.

You just rolled your eyes and smiled slightly at your brothers actions. Closing your laptop, you looked outside the window and saw that it was a nice day, so you asked Jacob if he wanted to take a jog with you.

“ Hey Jake, do you want to take a jog with me? It’s really nice outside right now.”

“ Sorry, maybe not this time sis. I’m really into this game.” Jacob said making you frown slightly.

“It’s okay Jake maybe next time.” Jacob turned his head towards you and smiled in agreeance.

You got ready and then tied your shoes when you were near the door.

“Mom, I’m going for a jog!” You yelled as you finished tying your shoes.

“Okay honey be home before dinner.” Your mom said as she was washing the dishes.

Running around the block, you took in the fresh air of the moisture that was in the air. Living in Massachusetts also meant wet weather which you loved. Summer wasn't really your favorite season but it was Jacobs. Being twins doesn’t mean you all like the same thing.

You and Jacob had the best sibling relationship not because you were twins, but that you just bonded in general. There is nothing he wouldn’t do for you and you thought the same.

Getting tired from the constant running, you decided to take a walking break and scroll through Instagram. As you were scrolling, your screen lit up with your dads contact picture. It was the two of you on a fishing trip making funny faces.

“Hey dad how’s work?” You asked slightly out of breath due to the running.

“ Hey Sweetheart, after work I’m going to go to the grocery store and get those cookies you really like and I was thinking you and I can have a movie night?”

“Dad, you know I’m always up for movie night” you chuckled. “What about Jake and mom?”

“Mom texted me saying that she was going to go shopping for swim trunks or something and Jake is going too so it's just going to be you and me.”

“Okay dad, sounds good to me can’t wai-”

“I’m sorry honey I have to go back now, I’ll see you at home. I love you.”

“I love you too dad.” He hung up the phone rather quickly but you didn’t think much of it because you were going to see him at home anyways

Well so you thought. You thought you were going to be home at your normal time. Thinking that it would just be another normal day, but it would be far from that.

After the short walking break and talking to your dad, you decided to start your jogging again. Jogging was one of the activities you liked to do after a long day to release the stress that was contained in you. Sometimes you would go with Jacob but today he didn’t feel like it.

Imagine if you just stayed on call a little longer with your dad or if Jacob went with you. Everything would be different. Every decision you make on a day to day basis affects your life.

When jogging, up ahead you saw a man drop a box full of what looked like children's toys like dolls and race cars. Being the nice person you were, You approached the man and helped him pick up the toys.

Oh what a big mistake.

“Oh, sir, let me help you with that,” you said bending down picking up the toys that were on the ground.

“Thank you so much, darling,” the man said with a somewhat creepy smile, but you brushed it off.

Your phone started to buzz and you saw your screen light up with Jacob’s face, but you ignored it as you were still helping the man. You were thinking of just calling Jacob back later when you had the chance.

If you had the chance.

After helping the man, he stated his thanks to you.

“Thank you again, honey,” you really started to get freaked out by this man especially since he was calling you these names.

You gave him a nervous smile. “ You’re welcome, but I should get going now,” you said but before you could turn around and go back home, the man grabbed your wrist tightly, preventing you from going anywhere.

“You are right where I want you sweetheart”

Before you could scream, he covered your mouth with a wet towel. The smell was really bad. Next thing you know, you’re knocked out like a light switch.

♧

You woke up with a pounding headache. Trying to flutter your eyes open, you noticed you were in the backseat of a van. The next thing you saw made you panic. Your hands tied with your feet attached to them making it look like a fetus position.

Before you could try and do anything, the man opened the doors to the van, revealing a wicked grin. Your eyes grew wide when he started to grow closer to you with duct tape.

“Shhh don’t worry love I won't take long.”

You were confused what he meant by that. What did he mean he won’t take long?

That’s when it hit you like a truck. You were about to get raped.

He started to put his hands around your breasts, trailing it up to your cheeks. He held your cheeks and stared into your eyes intently. This is when the tears started to come out. You couldn’t say anything since your mouth was duct taped, but you tried to move frantically though it didn’t do anything.

He started to take down his pants and he basically ripped your leggings in half.

Why did this have to happen? You were only being a good person, helping a man, and this is what happens in return.

DURING THE SAME TIME AT HOME

♧

Jacob was starting to get worried and anxious. It’s been over an hour and you wouldn’t answer your phone. He probably called you literally a hundred times but still no answer. He asked your mom to call you to see if you would answer.

It went straight to voicemail.

Jacob started to panic even more. He decided to call your guys’ dad to see if he knows where you were.

The line started to ring. Then he picked up.

“Hey Jake, I was wondering if-” he was cut off by Jacob frantically asking him if he knew where you were.

“Dad! Did Y/N ever call you or anything?” Jacob frantically said to his father.

“ I talked to her about a couple hours ago, is everything alright?

“I-I don’t know dad. She didn’t come home after her jog and I’m getting a really bad twin vibe”

“Shit, okay Jake, I’ll be home as soon as I can.” With that Jacob hung up the phone.

“God Y/N/N, I hope you’re okay” Jacob said with tears on the verge of coming out.

When you woke up, you noticed that the familiar smell around your mouth. The man must have knocked you out. A burning pain was prominent in the lower half of your body. Everything started to come together. With your ripped pants and the bruises all over your body, you pieced everything together.

You were raped.

All of the thoughts in your head, you didn’t even notice that you were not in the van anymore, no, you were at a park.

This park was all too familiar. It was the park you and Jacob loved when you were kids. You got up but fell back down due to the agonizing pain.

The pain was unbearable. Tears threatening to come out of your eyes when you wanted to forget what happened.

But you couldn’t forget.

You laid there on the cold cement floor.

♧

The Barbers were in panic when they couldn’t find you. They had called the cops after being gone for six hours.

The police didn’t find you yet and frankly, they were doing a lousy job at it.

“Fuck it, I’m going to go for a drive and see if I find her” Andy said while stomping towards the front door.

“I’m coming with you.” Jacob said without question.

His baby sister was missing, he couldn’t just stay home and do nothing. Andy shook his head.

“No, Jake you need to stay here with your mother.” Before Jacob could object, a officer wanted to question him maybe knowing where you could be.

Andy drove around the neighborhood first, but no luck. He drove about another couple blocks where he stumbled upon a park. He knew the park. It was you and Jacob’s favorite park.

He slowly drove past the park to see if there was any luck. At this point, Andy almost gave up and went back home until he saw something.

Andy’s eyes widened with fear and joy when he saw you, his baby girl, at the park. But his smile fell when he saw you laying on the ground.

What if you were dead? Andy thought to himself

“ Oh my God, Y/N!!!” Andy basically sprinted towards you.

You could barely get out the words since your throat was sore from crying so much.

“Daddy?!” You said weakly with tears on your cheeks and your eyes bloodshot from the crying.

“Y/N what happened?”

But before you could answer, he saw your ripped pants, bruises on your body and the blood coming out near your legs.

“Oh my God, Y/N please tell me you weren’t raped?” Andy said with sadness but also extreme anger knowing that there was a bastard out there who possibly touched you.

You could barely get out the words but all you said was “ I was d-daddy.”

Andy was furious at this point his worst nightmare came true.

“ Y/N I’m so sorry. If only I stayed on the phone with you a little longer I could have-” You interrupted your father knowing this wasn’t his fault.

“Dad, this was not your fault.”

Andy still looked at you with sad eyes, but despite what happened to you, he was just happy that you were alive.

“Come on baby let's go home” Andy said while carrying you bridal style.

“ I’m so sorry dad. I was just helping this one guy and-and he-”

You started to stumble on your words but your dad stopped you.

“ No no baby you don’t have to say anything now. But know Duffy might ask you some questions so we can catch the guy okay?”

You just nodded at your dads words not wanting to say anything.

♧

On the drive home Andy heard you sniffling he reassured you with comforting words.

“Honey, it’s okay, you’re safe now nobody is going to hurt you now.”

You thought back to when Jacob was calling you. “ You know Jake called me when I was helping that man,” you started. “ If only I answered his call this probably wouldn-”

You were cut off by your father. “Y/F/N do not say that. None of this was your fault it was that son of a bitches fault”

You were taken aback when your dad cussed and then you chuckled softly. “Woah dad, I didn’t know you tolerated that type of language”

Andy just laughed, but before you could say anything else, you noticed you were home.

Jacob and Laurie were outside talking to police officers, but they turned around and saw you in the car.

Jacob eyes widened and was the first to run towards you and give you a hug. When he broke the hug, he looked at you and saw your bruises which made him fume with anger, but he would worry about that later. He was just happy you were home.

“Y/N oh my god are you okay?!” you just nod your head.

You went to give Laurie a hug which lasted short when a voice spoke up.

“ Hi Y/N, I’m detective Duffy, I work with your father and I’m sorry to ask you this but we need to question you while your mind is fresh.”

“Duffy can’t this wait until later we just found her.” Andy said while looking back at his daughter.

“No dad it’s okay I’ll be fine.” Jacob gave you sad eyes of sympathy, but you gave him a reassuring smile.

♧

“So Y/N, tell me from the start of what happened?” Your family was there to support you. You wanted them to be there.

You started from the beginning with the jog, the man dropping the toys, the chloroform, the van, the pain in your lower area, everything.

Laurie just cried into Andy’s shoulders while his fists were clenched white. He was so angry. No, not at you, but at the fact that he couldn’t protect you.

Jacob held your hand the entire time while you told Duffy what happened. He was angry that he didn’t go on the jog with you. He was mad that he couldn’t protect his baby sister.

“Im so sorry this has happened to you Y/N, you should have not gone through that. We will find the man and he will be punished for his crimes.”

You nodded and smiled slightly at Duffy.

♧

After all the cops left, you didn’t know what to do. You were still traumatized.

Your head was resting on Andy’s lap and your legs were on Jacobs. You were dozing off, but you were scared to sleep or eve close your eyes.

Everytime you closed your eyes, you just saw the man. Jacob seemed to notice this because you flinched a little.

He rubbed your leg with reassurance telling you that you’re okay now.

“ Y/N you can finally sleep now. We’re here for you, you don't have to worry about anything.” Jacob said to you

That's when everything broke. You couldn’t handle it anymore tears and sobs were everywhere.

Your family all gave you a hug with love evident in it. This is when you finally knew you were safe.

You then spoke up while drying your tears. “Can we still get KFC?” you said with a smile. Everyone just laughed and that’s when you finally knew you had a loving family and you couldn’t be anymore thankful than that.

♧

A/N :OMGGg I cried writing some of this ahhhh. I might make a part 2 depending if I get any ideas and if this doesn’t flop.

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1. Do you have any big plans for November? So far not yet. We just have Thanksgiving to celebrate and uhhh... that's about it.

2. What upcoming event are you most looking forward to? Our anniversary dinner tonight!

3. What was the last song you heard? Something by Michael Franti

4. Quote something from last night: I don't understand the question?

5. What time did you wake up today? Almost 6 on the dot

6. What does your last incoming text say? It's too long to type

7. Is there a vase in the room you’re in? Yep, actually

8. Any plans for today/this evening? I'm at work 'till about 12ish, then heading home to get dolled up, then strolling Park Ave with Glenn for the rest of the afternoon & evening :)

9. Have you recently been insulted? Not that I can think of

10. What is the radio in your car tuned to at this exact moment? I don't have a car

11. Compared to someone else of your age and gender; do you feel that you have a lot to offer someone? Umm... sure?

12. How many days a week do you work? 4-5 at my office job and 1-2 at my nannying job

13. Are there people you feel more connected to than others? Of course there are

14. Is there ONE person you feel more connected to than others? Glenn

15. Are you more like your mother or your father? My mom and I definitely share more mannerisms, interests etc

16. Where did your eye color come from? My dad

17. Describe the pants you are wearing: They're black skinny jeans and supposedly have some kind of tummy control

18. Have you ever been in a recording studio? Nope

19. The myspace picture you’ve had up the longest? Y'all...

20. Are any of your myspace pictures alcohol related?

21. What is your worst relationship quality? Insecurity in the presence of other girls, jealousy, clinginess

22. What was your most recent serious injury? Nothing serious

23. What were you most recently happy about? Glenn and I had a beautiful night last night. He surprised me with flowers, a card, and a bottle of mead when I got home from work (seriously wasn't expecting anything AT ALL). Then he cooked me dinner while we sipped mead, chatted, and rejoiced

24. Are you happy with the way the Yankees are playing? I have no idea how they're playing

25. Are you a fan of cake? Nope. I will never understand the fanfare

26. What shirt have you not worn in a while that you would like to? Well I'm just starting to reincorporate all my sweaters and other cold-weather clothes into my wardrobe. So that's fun

28. When was the last time you were hit on? By someone other than Glenn, uhh a few weeks ago in Boston. Unless we count my ex DMing me on Snapchat the other day

29. What is the next concert you are going to and where are you seeing it? Emo Night at a bar down the road in a few weeks!

30. Name someone you know who is most likely to be found at a bar on Wednesday night? Laura

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6rookie-writer0110 · 4 years

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At night I’d sort my dreams

X-23 x Male Reader

Request- Can I request a X-23 x Male Reader? Have the R be the son of Jean Grey and Scott Summers and that Logan becomes the R guardian after Jean and Scott die. The R does not like Logan due to knowing the thing between him, Jean, and Scott but nonetheless Logan watches over the R throughout the years and also sees a lot of resemblance of Jean & Scott in the R like having Scott/Jean personality and abilities and R having Scott’s visors and having the Phoenix emblem on his suit

You are standing in front of your parent's tombstone. You have been crying all day and you hope it's a bad dream. You are nine years old and you felt the pain of losing your parents. Logan stands behind you, he doesn't say anything or ruins your moment. Everyone knew your parents, Jean Grey and Scott Summers. You have their powers and Scott’s shades. You don't like Logan, you know the history that he had with your parents.

Logan is your guardian until you're older enough to live on your own. He lits his cigar and it's only you two around.

”Let’s go kid. They are about the close the cemetery” Logan said.

You don't say anything but you walk towards his truck. He starts to follow you and you wait for him to unlock the door. The drive home is silent and you only look out the window.

”Y/N, I know you don't like me and I can sense that. I promised them I will take care of you and I will. Ever need to talk I'm here for you” Logan said.

You don't say anything and he doesn't say anything else.

Finally arrived at Logan’s house. It's small but cozy and he showed you, your new bedroom. It's simple just a bed and a tv, you sit on the bed.

”Dinner will be ready soon. Make yourself at home” Logan said.

He went towards the kitchen and tries to figure out what to cook. An hour later, you eat dinner with Logan and he tried to make something healthy and decent, but instead just ordered pizza.

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

Anything that Logan does you get annoyed by him. He isn't much of a cook but he tries his best to feed you a decent meal.

”Y/N, we have to train,” Logan said.

”What for, old man,” You said.

”You want to be an X-Men, you have to train hard. It won't be easy if you want to save people” Logan said.

”I don't want you to train not with you, old man,” You said.

”I’m not that old. You are just like your father Scott. The same attitude” Logan said.

”Whatever” You said.

All-day, you have been giving Logan a hard time. He did get annoyed by you calling him, old man.

”What is this?” You asked.

Logan tried to cook meatloaf but it's kinda burnt.

”Meatloaf, eat up,” Logan said.

”What did you use a blow torch?” You asked.

”Just eat it” Logan demand.

You mimic him and he rolled his eyes at you.

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

Throughout the years, you are still living with Logan. He can see that you resemblance like your parents when it comes to your personality. He does make you train every day and you still don't like him. There were you and Logan would argue on a lot of things. You have better control when it comes to your powers, thanks to him. You always call him old man and he calls you kid.

It's your birthday on your bed there is a gift. You open the card and it says, happy birthday kid. You open the gift and it's a suit an x-men suit and it has Phoenix emblem. You sigh and you touch the symbol. You look at the photo that's on your nightstand.

”I miss you, mom and dad” Your voice cracked.

Logan yelled from the living room.

”Kid!” Logan yelled again.

You go to the living room and see a girl standing next to him.

”Who the hell is this?” You asked.

”She is my daughter and her name is Laura and goes by the name X-23,” Logan said.

”X-23 is a stupid name,” You said.

Her claws come out.

”I will show you how stupid you will look when I'm done kicking your ass!” Laura spat out.

Your eyes start to glow red.

”I’m ready to fight” You growled at her.

Logan stands in the middle.

”No one will fight under my roof. You two knock it off it now!” Logan yelled.

Your eyes aren't glowing red and Laura put her claws away. She glares at you and Logan is remained of the type of relationship he had with Scott.

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

You and Laura are still frenemies. There were times you two got along, but brush it off as if it didn't happen. Logan is training you and Laura to be the Next Generation of the X-Men.

”Is that all you got?” Laura asked.

You and Laura trained on hitting fast targets and she did better than you.

”Shut up,” You said.

”What happened to all that crap you were talking about, how you will beat me?” Laura teased.

”I said shut up!” You yelled.

You went back to the house and you hear Logan calling your name.

”We are not done training, get back out there now” Logan yelled.

”Leave me alone!” You yelled at him.

Your anger took over and you hit him with your optic force blasts. Logan didn't want to hurt you badly, so he punched you and you passed out.

”Dad, why is he angry all the time?” Laura asked.

”Today is his parents’ anniversary since they passed away. He never liked living with me but we did have good moments. You and Y/N, do remind me when Scott and I were at each other throats all the time” Logan said.

”He will be okay?” Laura asked.

”Yeah,” Logan said.

Later you did wake up and your lip hurts. Laura brings you an ice pack and you put it on your lip.

”How are you feeling?” Laura asked.

”Like crap. Thanks for the ice. Where is the old man?” You said.

”Smoking his cigar. He told me about your parents” Laura said.

”I miss them,” You said.

She sits next to you and you still have the ice pack on your lip. Laura listened to you talk about your parents and living with Logan.

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

You and Laura are now adults. You and Laura sometimes get along but mostly act like frenemies. Logan sent you two on a mission, a first real mission. It's getting late, you and Laura set up camp and fire. Laura sits close to you and it's getting cold, you and Laura start to eat the food.

”I like you,” You said.

You stuffed your mouth with food.

”What?” Laura asked.

”I like you a lot Laura a lot. I always liked you but I just didn't want to show it” You said.

Laura placed her hand on your cheek and she kissed you. After the kiss, you smiled at her and she smiles at you.

”I like you too, Y/N,” You said.

”For a minute I thought you were going to reject me,” You said.

”Because we are frenemies? Y/N, I like you too a lot if I didn't I wouldn't have kissed you” Laura said.

”I’m glad you kissed me,” You said.

She let you kiss her.

”Are we going to tell my dad?” Laura asked.

”Not yet. Just hope, your old man won't kill me” You said.

”Why, you call him old man?” Laura asked.

”I just did and he never once told me to stop calling him that. It just stuck” You said.

”If anyone else called him old man, he would have kicked their ass,” Laura said.

You nod because you agree with her.

~Next Day~

You and Laura wake up at dawn went to the facility where they keep the mutants. They are being trafficked to somewhere else, you and Laura will stop them before it's too late.

”Are you ready?” You asked.

”Yeah, let's show them how we do it,” Laura said.

You and Laura went gun blazing. The guards start to run towards you and her.

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

Logan has been sick for a while now it's even worse. He is on his death bed, you and Laura are by his side.

”Laura, I know didn't say this often but I always been proud of you. I'm proud of the women you have become” Logan said.

Laura is holding his hand.

”Dad, thank you for everything. I just wish you had more time with us” Laura said and her voice cracked.

”You are strong don't ever forget that. Y/N and Laura take care of each other” Logan said.

You did start to cry and you wipe your tears away.

”I promise, I will take off her old man,” You said.

”I hate it when you call me that,” Logan said.

”No, you don't. You would have told me to stop calling you that a long time ago” You said.

”I know in the past, even tho we may not have always been buddies, I was glad to watch over you. And watch you grow and become the men that your parents would be proud of” Logan said.

”I’m grateful for everything you did. Thank you, old man” You said.

You cried more and Laura starts to rub your back. Logan passed away, you and Laura cried more.

”He will always be a legend,” You said.

You hold her and rubbed her back.

☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

~Time Skip~

You and Laura got married now you two have a daughter together. She has optic blast, telepathic and adamantium. You and Laura teach her how to get used to her powers.

”Do I have to were it?” She asked about the shades.

”Yes, you have to wear it” You said.

You picked up your five-year-old daughter. She points at the picture of you and Laura as kids and in the middle is Logan.

”Is that grandpa?” She asked.

”That is my father and he is your grandpa. That’s Y/N and me when we were kids. He would train us to be X-Men, so we can save people from bad guys” Laura said.

”Grandpa, has claw-like me?” She asked.

”He does, just like you and me. And your blasts you get it from your father” Laura said.

”When you're older enough you can be an X-Men” You said.

”Yay!” She cheers.

You and Laura play in the backyard with your daughter, moments like that you and Laura enjoy the most. You and Laura start to chase her around and she is just giggling and trying to get away from you and Laura.

#x 23 imagine #x 23 x male reader #x men imagine #xmen imagine #marvel imagine #x male reader #male!reader

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titleleaf · 4 years

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"Did you know I do that now? I kill men now. Men who hurt girls.""I'm not condoning that. I don't play video games," Uncle Patrick says. "Me neither. I'm going to go play cards with PJ now. Bye, Uncle Pat."PJ has his dad's eyes and his mom's deep-seated psychological damage and he should be thanking his lucky stars that it's not the other way around.

"Did you know I do that now? I kill men now. Men who hurt girls.""I'm not condoning that. I don't play video games," Uncle Patrick says, dredging up some disgust from deep below the layer of permanent narcotic calm he's braced with. There's something in his eyes, not lust, not hunger, but fathomless darkness with nothing at the bottom of it."Me neither. I'm going to go play cards with PJ now. Bye, Uncle Pat."PJ has his dad's eyes and his mom's deep-seated psychological damage and he should be thanking his lucky stars that it's not the other way around.

(”Their Smiles, Their Empty Hands” @ AO3) The saga of Patrick Jr. is a journey I have traveled with fellow AmPsych enthusiast and minor character devotee Cygnes/ @manzanas-amargas -- my interest in the character of Patrick Sr. stems to a large degree from the musical, where his family relationships are amusingly complicated, but PJ owes his existence to the American Psycho 2000 emails where his father has much to say about his appealing qualities. Literally anyone with Patrick Bateman for their father would be miserable, though, and Jean is only really a counterpoint to Patrick's worst qualities by comparison with him.Also from the 2000 emails, relevant to Hayley's base of operations:I do feel, however, that the boundaries of sexual behavior have been significantly expanded by the Internet in an inverse proportion to the anonymity that it provides. The joke, of course, is that Internet sex is not sex at all, only typing.I wanted to play with the everpresent potential that Patrick Bateman is full of shit -- and the thought of him ageing into wildly unlikeable fatherhood more out of touch with what the hip young psychopaths are doing these days was really funny to me. While his interior monologue is pretty harsh, it's also pretty confused, and Hayley doesn't see him as remotely threatening -- maybe they have some of the same component parts or cultural heritage regarding violence, but she doesn't have any reason to view him with respect or fear as fundamentally different in kind from other men who hurt women. Even if he doesn't like, chainsaw women, he's still a brutal misogynist, and Hayley has never had any reason to see that as glamorous.Hayley is a little shit, obviously, but she absolutely understands the game of telling people shocking things flatly, knowing they won't be quite sure what to do next. A bunch of stuff Hayley is up to in this fic is based on what I was doing in 2006-2009, which is wildly self-indulgent but who could possibly care?Also it's fun to write banal boring WASPy family scenes for awful people -- the material culture and pop culture of Hard Candy is every bit as dated to an era now as that of American Psycho without the purposeful element of pastiche, but doped up assholes playing cards is eternal.

(This meme is now xposted to my DW if anyone from Twitter wants a more longform response there!)

#ska writes a thing #forthegothicheroine

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Hi Phoneix! Do you have any favorite fics discussing the more gloomy, realistic problems between Sam and Dean? Safiyabat's for example (just an example, it doesn't need to be something like that), but non-slash is fine with me. Preferably hurt Sam, and no fixing. Also, if you don't mind, I'm curious what's your idea on their dysfunctional relationship? Thank you! ( I understand this is a fic rec blog, please just ignore my question if you don't feel to answer :)

When I read your first sentence, I immediately thought of Safiyabat for their wincest and gen stories. I haven’t come across many that really focus on the dysfunctional nature of the family relationship as well as their stuff and stays close to canon (there are plenty of serial killer!AUs, etc., for example).

That being said, I have a couple of gloomy ones and ones that just focus on the broken, family dynamic. Hurt!Sam all the way. Heed the warnings where the stories are hosted as there are deathfics in this list, not to mention other disturbing content (also, John and/or Dean are not “good” guys in these stories):

Remember When…by darkroses on Ao3. Sam/Dean, Dean/John. Wincest. John is mysteriously back from the dead and Sam is happy about that until he walks in on his father and Dean. Sam is upset and jealous, so Dean reminds him of times in their past.Sam doesn’t want to think about those times. Dean thinks Sam is playing a game by shying away from him.

Don’t Let Me Know We’re Invisible by mimblexwimble on LiveJournal. Sam/Dean. Wincest. The sex is ambiguous. Sam just can’t cope with the hunting life.

Wild Men Who Caught and Sang the Sun by kroki-refur on adult-fanfiction.org. Sam/Dean. Wincest. Sam is Dean but Dean is not Sam.

What Doesn’t Kill Us by kroki-refur on LiveJournal. Sam/Dean, Sam/John. Wincest. Incest. Heed the warnings on this one! John and Dean use abusive methods to keep Sam in line. (this might be f-locked now)

Talk to Me by darkroses on Ao3. Sam/Dean. Wincest. John walked in on the unthinkable. He never wanted this to happen but he needed answers. He hoped this wasn’t true. He hoped there was another reason.

The Wolf At His Door by goandgetthegun on Ao3. Sam/Dean. Wincest. Dean wants Sam in every way he shouldn’t, so when he gets an opportunity to have what he wants, he takes it.

The Virgin by darkroses on Ao3. Sam/John (non-con). Wincest. Sixteen year old Sam is on a hunt with his dad, brother, and Bobby. The thing is targeting virgins. John takes matters into his own hands to protect Sam.

And if I show you my dark side by ratherastory on LiveJournal. Sam/Dean. Wincest. Dean will never let Sam go, and Sam knows it. This changes nothing, but it changes everything.

These two are a/b/o by darkroses:

To Have Worth. Sam/Dean. Wincest AU. Dean claims Sam from a young age to be his omega. Sam wasn’t sure how he felt about that. His feelings changed with time. All he wanted was to be worth something. No matter what Sam offered, he could never have what he was searching for.

The Monster in the Shadows. Sam/John, Sam/Dean. Wincest AU. John comes to terms with how to treated Sam after he presented as an omega at the tender age of twelve. He only did what he thought he was right. He can never make up for what he did. He can never change what Sam thinks of him now.

And, finally, a gen one I really liked because it showed how Sam suffered for a decision Dean made (something the show, in my opinion, teases at but never fully resolves. e.g. Dean selling his soul and not really considering what hell he’s condemning his brother to in the process, allows an angel to possess him even though he knows Sam hated every moment of Meg and Lucifer). It goes AU after Dean knocks Sam unconscious and leaves him on the ground in 9X23.

How the Wild Things Start by foolscapper on Ao3. Gen. Sam-centric. "This is where it starts — the brightly lit ring, the screams, the glinting of knives, the baring of teeth. This, right here, is where it begins. Sam turns to Dean, Metatron just a hero’s walk away, and Dean slams his fist into the side of Sam’s face. It will bruise, but that’s not the point. Sam will not face Metatron’s blade and wrath, but that is not the point. The point is, Dean puts Sam’s hands on his chest, the action sickly sweet like perfume left on a tacky, bloated corpse — and then he walks away. He leaves Sam, dreaming black dreams on the ground, just outside of the impala. Baby does not protect him when one of Abaddon’s followers finds him. Baby does not scream for help or look for Dean when the demons drag Sam’s unconscious body away.When Dean leaves Metatron’s burnt-out husk, his bones screaming ecstasy from the kill, he finds Sam gone.“

As for my thoughts on dysfunctional wincest…I’ll put them below the cut so people can skip that if they want.

I started watching the show as it went on the air, so I have had 12 years to mull over all sorts of relationships, etc. Below are my thoughts on wincest in fanon. I am by no means saying it exists in canon or should exist in canon. These are simply my opinions.

Wincest, to me, was there from the start. You’ve got the father (and one day I will sit down and write out my take on John) who raises his sons as soldiers (I know Sam described them as “warriors” in the pilot, but I suspect the word choice was intentional by the writers. There are rightfully all types of negative connotations to the phrase “child soldier”). Nevertheless, this is how they were raised.

The sons were never given the time or permission to form outside attachments with all the moving around John put the family through. They were taught at a young age to lie, and later to cheat and steal via credit card fraud and pool hustling at the very least (a reason the whitewashing of John’s character in these last few seasons irks me. “I raised you right” was John’s motto? Really? However, that is a discussion for another time)

Dean was given the heavy burden of raising his brother. John stripped him of his childhood and drilled into him to always “take care of Sammy” from a very young age. And that is where I see the seeds of wincest, with the older brother having proprietary feelings for his younger because John placed Sam (literally and figuratively) in Dean’s hands. And, at his end, John placed Sam’s life once more in Dean’s control by urging him to save or kill his younger brother while leaving Sam in the dark about what he knew.

John emphasized family first according to his rules and did not allow them to leave (except, of course, he was allowed to go off and not only father another son, but let that son have the life, including “normal” dad, Sam and Dean ached for). The price of leaving the family (and for college, not to run off to deal drugs, etc.)? Excommunication from the only family/support system Sam was allowed to have. Having made his sons so dependent on the family unit, I wonder if John secretly thought Sam would eventually cave and come crawling back to them (my speculation - nothing in the show overtlypointed to this).

For me, that sealed the deal that Sam and Dean were much like two people trapped on a deserted island, or like siblings trapped in an attic with a parent that was only sporadically present - ripe breeding ground for incestuous thoughts and feelings. No, I don’t for one second see it as a healthy relationship, because the boys were never allowed to know healthy.

Furthermore, Dean was always the controlling partner. I would say to the point of obsessiveness, which is understandable given the pressures that were placed on him by John. In the first season, we get to see Dean isolating Sam from the life he was building outside of the “family”. In “Skin”, he sort of mocks Sam for staying in touch with his friends, making him feel guilty that he is dishonest with them and agrees when Sam rather incredulously asks if he is supposed to just cut them out of his life. By the end of that episode, Sam is resigned to no longer really staying in touch. But Dean, like John, gets to live by different rules. We discover Dean did have a relationship with Cassie while Sam was away, going so far as to break that unspoken rule the family had about not revealing the hunting life to people they aren’t “saving”. That backfired on him, with her ending the relationship. When they meet up again in the first season, he promises to come back to her even though she doesn’t believe they have a chance. He never does return and even ignores Sam’s offer of staying there longer (Sam wanting Dean to have that life he himself had tried to fashion is once again echoed in the promise he extracts from Dean in Swan Song. Notice that when Dean returned from Purgatory [when he was thought dead], he harangued and punished Sam verbally and emotionally for trying for normal once again).

So, the show continued its slow reinforcement of the boys never having successful relationships outside of their tiny family. Sam “fails” at love when almost all his significant others die, and Dean “fails” at love when he is either rejected by them or he feels they are unsafe knowing him (in the latter, he makes one of his unilateral “I know what’s good for you even though this will take away some of your autonomy” decisions and has Lisa & Ben mindwiped. foolscapper did a dark fic au on how that choice played out in the end…ouch)

To me, there is so much fodder to play with in fanon for a twisted, unhealthy relationship with a dark, controlling Dean. Although I read very little written like that, it is my favorite wincest headcanon. This is not to say I don’t enjoy a romanticized version of wincest (because I do very much and it is usually my preferred reading), but, to me, the show enforces an unhealthy, push vs. pull relationship between the two that they will never completely resolve.

As an aside, I also find it almost humorous we all refer to them as “the boys” when they are men (if you take into account their age), as though we subconsciously acknowledge they have not grown up into adults in the conventional sense of the word and probably never will.

They truly are the lost boys doomed to never leave Neverland.

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