#mostly i'm just venting

[a-method-in-it]

You know that Chris Fleming line that goes "Call yourself a community organizer even though you're not on speaking terms with your roommates"?

I honestly think every leftist who talks about the "revolution" like Christians talk about the rapture needs to spend a year trying to organize their workplace. Anyone who sincerely talks about building a movement so vast and all-encompassing that it overwhelms all existing power structures needs the dose of humility that comes with realizing they can't even build a movement to get people paid better at a badly run AMC Theaters where everyone already hates the manager.

#method speaks #union stuff #politics #i guess #best case scenario in this plan we get some successful union drives #worst case people realize that movement building is hard #and also explicitly mentioning socialism is counterproductive #mostly i'm just venting #it's only april how is election discourse this unhinged already?

[katsigian]

Kinda hurts a little when you've spent years creating a specific character in a specific universe for hardly anyone to see them, only for someone else to do the exact same concepts and get applauded for it. Did I just do it that badly or something

I remember when I first made all of my OCs supernatural in early 2022. I was one of the first people in [redacted] fandom who made it canon and talked openly about how my OC were vampires. And I got harassed for it endlessly. People were in my asks and dms telling me it was cringe and overpowered and lame, and that I was dumb to think anyone would care. Regardless of all of that, I kept them around and didn't stop talking about them. And then everyone else caught on and also made supernatural OCs because I helped to normalize it. Which isn't the problem, make as many supernatural OCs as you like, I'm not telling people to stop. That's not what bothers me (I have to add that disclaimer bc someone will undoubtedly try to get offended).

I think what upsets me is that it feels like I talk into a void sometimes and it sometimes feels like I don't have a place to share the things I'm proud of. I have an entire world that I made and this intertwined network of 10+ original characters and I just don't know where to talk about them or how to talk about them. I know we're "supposed to create for ourselves" and to "share it for good reasons", but it's really hard to put myself in that mindset. I don't do it for clout and I never will, I love my characters too much for that. Maybe I've just been doing a bad job of sharing anything about my world and characters, that is highly likely. I just can't help but remember the times I did share things and they went completely unnoticed

Just a little bit of acknowledgement would be nice. I think I'd be happy with that. Just a little bit of acknowledgement for the way I've had to fight to have my supernatural OCs exist in a cyberpunk setting in a hostile fandom. Just a little acknowledgement of the months of effort I put into my characters. And that would be all. Or maybe I'll learn how to just ignore everything and just keep doing as I have been. Putting my head and continuing on, savoring those small bits of genuine friendly interest when they come my way. That's good too

#let me make it clear that i am not begging for sympathy or notes #do not get that twisted #this is just a vent. me venting mostly to myself about my feelings on something. please don't take this as some sort of concrete truth #i'm expressing my own very conflicted emotions towards my experiences in this fandom and how i've had to fight just to be accepted #many people really did not want to accept that i created vampires in a cyberpunk setting #i am just very conflicted and anxious surrounding the whole thing. i don't know how to proceed #i just know for certain that i don't want to do it by myself and alone anymore #katsi.txt

[anxiousapplepie]

#my art #Apple's emotions #inside out #visual snow syndrome #vent art? mostly this was just me trying to express what it feels like having VSS and slapping 20+ layers of static on top of everything #my eyes are a bad-quality tv from the 60s and I'm crying to see all the 4k graphics around me clearly #wouldn't have it any other way but boy howdy sometimes I wish I could scrub my eyeballs with soap

[venacoeurva]

Pagan/Wiccan/occultism/similar spaces even for people just into the historical side of it and not practicing are such a mess with bigotry you need to scope people out so hard, it’s like [approaching you very quickly] Hi are you normal about women and not reducing them to uteruses and fertility, how do you feel about gay and trans and disabled people, also how you do you feel about nonwhite people and nonwhite religions, and also how do you feel about closed religions and their rituals and items not being for you, but especially Indigenous Americans’. answer quickly now

#vena vents #not art #there is a huge tr*d/r*df*m/n*zi problem and people who generally get REAL mad at the idea that some religions are not for their white #eclectic ass to appropriate #and also regarding modern medicine and vaccines but those are mostly new age people problems #At least on here I'm sure like. pinterest and facebook witch types are just. a real joy about medicine and vaccinating their children.....

[aetheternity]

"Venti stans are low key annoying complaining about Venti not being the main focus of the Windblume festival."

First off we do not care. Second off ok???? Literally every character stan complains about their fave not getting enough screen time hop off.

It isn't even about screen time for me. It's about the fact that Venti hasn't truly felt like Venti in several updates. The last time he truly felt like himself was during Weinlesefest but even then he still didn't feel like the Venti we met all the way back during the first archon quest. And I don't wanna hear "hE hAd cHaRaCtEr dEvLoPmEnT." Cause no that isn't what happened, he regressed as a character. He's becoming fanon Venti in game. He gets used for alcohol jokes and Paimon calls him lazy then he dips. 🙄

"He was just in the Lantern Rite.." Shut Up. Shut Up. Shut all the fucking way up! He was terrible in LR and honestly if you cut Venti out of LR you basically have the same event. He did literally nothing of substance and he shouldn't have been there at all.

The first Windblume festival centered around Venti and showed us more of Venti being Mondstadt's archon. The second Windblume festival has barely anything to do with him. Excuse us if we're fucking disappointed, we have every right to be. Like I said literally every character's stans complain about them not getting enough screen time. Yeah sure if every Mondstadt event centered Venti it'd get old but the biggest problem is they decided to center a MONDSTADT EVENT around fucking SUMERU CHARACTERS. Fucking Collei gets more screen time than any Mondstadt character. Which wouldn't be a problem but this is a main Mondstadt event. Even though Venti was in LR 3 he wasn't a main focus he was a background character to the rest of the cast. Which is what Collei should've been cut out Tighnari and Cyno.

Mondstadt has so many underutilized characters and their screen time got spliced for the Sumeru fuckers who already have too much screen time. The entire last five updates have had Cyno in almost everything and Tighnari as well and while Collei has less screen time than them she has yet to be under used. If this was about Collei meeting up with Amber again they could've had that in a different event. If this was about Collei facing her anxiety it could've happened in a different event. They should've just had Sucrose helping Mondstadters cause guess what? You think this is going to be the last time a nation's event gets characters bombarding in? Hell no Fontaine is coming soon we're one hundred percent going to get nation festivals with random characters that have nothing to do with anything probably until the end of the game.

We'll see how happy ya'll are when your fave gets less screen time for some randos that have nothing to do with the nation you care about.

#venti #windblume breath #windblume festival 3.5 #tw vent #idc if this sounds entitled #like what're you going to do about that #like we literally just got Mika introduced and he has less screen time than the sumeru cast so far #we have fucking Noelle and oh shocker I didn't see my baby Diona anywhere looks like they forgot about her again! #this is a main Mondstadt event you can't slap the title Windblume festival on it then have it mostly center randos from other nations #even if Venti wasn't the focus Collei should've had less screen time #She has plenty of time to get over her damn anxiety in another event this shouldn't have been so about her #genshin impact #come at me fuckers #i said what i said #i said what needed to be said #And I'm not taking it back #And yes I am saying all of this while having enjoyed Cyno's appearance but I am still disappointed and I have the right to that

[babacontainsmultitudes]

*breathes in*

#Delete later?? #Just venting lol #The bad Sparrow takes on this one are starting to be a lot ngl #Also the bad animal welfare takes?? Trying to hold myself back on that front cause that's not the kind of thing I wanna- #-argue with online strangers about. But like yikes is all. #Regarding Sparrow you will be hearing from me later. But mm not just yet- gotta cool down. #And arguing with the fandom again isn't how I planned to spend my day so I will be finishing S4 of tma like my heart desires #Debating on logging off? Mostly cause I don't want to unfollow certain people too impulsively. Mutuals that is. #Not really trying to throw shade with this either so sorry if it feels that way but ehh I'm grumpy ahaha #Always caught between “love the fandom it's so fun” and “fandom is genuinely ruining the podcast for me” smh #Anyhooooo #*breathes out* #Ooh I just saw some lightning there is still beauty in the world after all

[mischiefmanifold]

maybe possibly feeling suicidal for the first time in a while

#to be fair I mostly brought it on myself #and also I won't do anything I promise #< for anyone who might worry #I'm just gonna drink a bunch of water and go to sleep hoping it's better tomorrow #suicide tw #suicidal ideation tw #vent

[mental-illness-bingo]

Quick reminder that ASPD diagnostic criteria is gross (as with most disorders)! Basically the criteria for cluster B personality disorders is as follows

ASPD: Big, bad, scary person criminal

NPD: Abusive and/or mean to me 🥺

HPD: Hysterical woman that I cheated on my wife with and now I need to blame her for it who is a slut

BPD: Clingy bitch who acts crazy when I cheat and has Daddy Issues(TM)

#not sure why I'm even trying to get diagnosed #considering it is just going to haunt me later #mostly validation I guess #aspd vent #aspd traits #actually aspd #bpd #npd stigma #npd #hpd #diagnostic criteria #dsm #dsm V #stigma #end stigma #cluster b #personality disorder #mibingo vent #mibingo

[daddyplasmius]

hand on my stupid heart flashbacks

this is a No One Knows AU & Full Hazmat AU where Danny ended up in the Ghost Zone & didn't go back into the human world initially because he thought he was dead. by the time he realized he is, in fact, at least half alive, he'd already been missing for at least 2 weeks. will probs never finish homsh sorry. i wrote this a couple years ago in a haze & just haven't been able to finish it because i can't replicate the style, which i find is what i love about this fic the most. it wouldn't be the same without it. posting the flashback introsーwhich are meant to be read between chapters/the actual plot, starting after chapter 1ーcuz fuck it. excuse typos & shit, i never properly edited it, as i forgot it existed immediately after i wrote it original description of homsh: Danny Fenton has officially been missing for over a year. Maddie & Jack Fenton refuse to give up on their son. Sick and tired of the police running them in circles, and the case getting colder by the day, the Fentons turn to their last resortーPhantom. 800~ words (full unfinished fic is 20k~)

-

When Danny woke up surrounded by thick, green fog, and couldn’t breathe without swallowing heavy air that was more like water than anything, he was sure he was dead. The portal glowed behind him, illuminating the pitch darkness around him in soft, yellow, warm light.

He almost went back.

Almost.

He was dead. His parents were ghost hunters. They had drilled into his head from the moment he was born that he could never, ever panic in death. That he would accept it. That he would not be scared. So he would be prepared to be brave in the face of death and would not become a ghost.

He panicked. He did not accept it. He was terrified. And so he woke up in the Ghost Zone.

-

Danny went back through the portal when he saw some ectopuses acting… strange. Like they had an idea in their heads. Like they had a plan.

Which was weird, with animal ghosts. He had only been in the Ghost Zoneーmom and dad called it that, he rememberedーfor a couple weeks. Or, he had already been there for two weeks. Or maybe time worked differently and he was there five minutes, or four years orー

The ectopuses went through the portal and, despite everything, Danny went after them.

While he was busy reeling at being home, the ectopuses immediately attacked dad. Danny was horrified. Jack was overwhelmed. Danny stepped in, in a moment fueled by sheer adrenaline and stupidity, snatching a Fenton Thermos™ off a shelf and releasing his shaky invisibility. The ectopuses didn’t stand a chance. And when they were safely in the Thermos, he slowly turned around to dad, ready for the confrontation. Ready for the “what happened to you?” and the “where have you been?” and the “we’ve missed you”.

Dad scrambled to shoot at him.

Danny fled.

His parents didn’t recognize him.

-

The Lunch Lady attacked when Danny was mourning Halloween.

He’d waited all year. He made a costume that summer. He wouldn’t get to go trick or treating with Sam and Tucker this year. Or any year. For the rest of his lifeーor existence. Whatever.

The Lunch Lady appeared in the school and demanded in straight fury, “Who changed the menu?”

Everyone pointed at Sam.

Danny hadn’t known just how powerful ghosts could be. His parents never told him the specifics. Just that they were dangerous.

This ghost grew and her aura hit him like a hurricane, almost physically pushing him back. It was so strong that the students in the Casper High cafeteria seemed to feel it too.

The Lunch Lady was a much harder opponent than the ectopuses. She levitated meat. She used it as a weapon, and seemed to bring it back to life. She created weird meat creatures that grew sharp teeth and claws out of bones. They were mindless, attacking everything that got too close to the ghost. Danny would have run away without hesitation, if Sam hadn’t been in the crossfire.

Danny fought the Lunch Lady. It was a long struggle, but he caught her in the thermos after over an hour. When he turned to Sam and Tuckerーboth of whom he had to save due to Tucker trying to jump into the fightーall three of them bloody and bruised, he cringed. But a part of him hoped. Desperately.

Surely they would know him on sight.

“Wh-what are you?” Sam gasped at him finally.

Danny flinched as if she had struck him. “J-just… your friendly neighbourhood phantom.”

-

Danny didn’t know what possessed him. Oh. Pun not intended.

He just barely caught the Fentons leaving in the GAV, dragging suitcases behind them. He couldn’t help himself. What on Earth were they doing?

They were going to Vlad Master’s mansion for their college reunion.

It was a whole thing. But something was off. Besides all the adults reminiscing about the 80’s.

Danny sensed ghosts immediately but he couldn’t see anything. Unfortunately for him, Vlad could also sense him. It was two days of Danny staying invisible, and Vladーthe halfa? Is that what Danny is?ーtrying to kill Jack. Somehow, Danny managed to fight off Vlad, not turn back, and without the Fentons getting hurt. His secret intact.

VladーPlasmius, also learned about Phantom. And Vlad hated him. The manーghostーwhatever, seemed to only care about one thingーpossession. Of money. Of things. Of people. He was more ghost than Danny had ever seen. Vlad’s obsession was overwhelming.

Danny couldn’t believe someone so much like himself could be so disturbing.

#danny phantom #danny phantom au #danny phantom fanfiction #you know that gif of the wailing emoji dissolving? :Why:? #yeah that's what i do every time i remember i never finished HOMSH while i still had the style in my brain #feel free to steal this idea. please steal this idea. please write it i wanna see this idea so bad but im already writing another 100k+ fic #if y'all want me to post the full fic i can but. it is not finished & most likely never will be. sorry again #i won't lie. the haze i was in was a depressed one. i was. not in a good place At All when i wrote HOMSH #like the only part i remember actually writing was the panic attack scene & that's just barely #i reread the whole fic in the middle of the night months later while listening to Implode Alright by Built by Snow on repeat #yeah i cried. this one is funny but mostly it's just. mourning. grief. the works. it's a vent fic & also a. kind of. wishful fic #like. don't you just wish death wasn't so permanent. don't you wish you could tell them everything you wish you could #don't you wish you could just see them again #i'm actually writing this into a bigger ventier series currently called Let Grief Do Its Work #cuz i rewatched LUCIDS again recently & remembered what HOMSH was originally about. why i was writing it #i'm not calling it HOMSH cuz. HOMSHie is my baby. it's its own thing & i don't wanna ruin the vibes #reluctantly admitting i call an unfinished fanfic i don't remember writing... HOMSHie baby... in my head #yeah i have a cute nickname for my fic. what of it #it's 5am & i think i'll throw up if i think any more about posting unfinished unedited pieces of a fic so i'm going for it. cowabunga #go into the world. get your 2 notes you beautiful animal #*passes out*

[dootznbootz]

As someone with ADHD, you know you're fucking exhausted when you're not even fidgeting. :'D

#I'm literally just sitting here. listening to shit. I usually need to fidget or do something while doing that but no. I'm just staring off #into space. At the creature that I'm dogsitting. #he's exhausting too but it's mostly from the fact that I did a lot of physical labor in horrible boots and now my lower body is dead #I mean this creature eats anything and everything off the ground. One walk and I had to pull 4 acorns. 7 leaves. 5 rocks from this #idiot's mouth. he's not allowed off leash because he just bolts as well. He's sweet but I'm pretty sure there's just a walnut rattling #around in his head lol. I genuinely worry about this dog because...He genuinely has a deathwish #speaking of which. if anyone knows how to teach your own dog how to stand up for herself I would appreciate it :'D #I give my own dog. my sweet girl Mocha. a treat and this little guy starts hopping up and biting at her mouth until she drops HER treat #and then he runs away with it! And I'm like “sweetie. why are you letting him treat you like that?!?!” #yes I separate them when I give treats but still :'( My girl is too sweet for this cruel world. #She's so sweet and brings her OWN toys up to him so they can play together and he just runs away with them and growls at her. #They're HER doggy toys!!! #I know I'm complaining a lot. He's not that bad but also... My Mocha. (also he chases the cats. we have shit blocked so they can #have their own space and be safe and a space for him but oof) #Mad rambles #Mad vents #I'm mostly still recovering from those horrid boots as we realized once I took them off that they basically were at a weird slope.

[daz4i]

i will admit . i am scared

#not in a funny silly tumblr way unfortunately 😔 #but in a 'they are kidnapping citizens or holding them hostage in their own homes' way. #in a. literally 100 dead 1000 injured way. the last time i saw at least. i try to avoid the news for that reason #i don't live in the area affected thankfully. it's just rockets here and even that was mostly in the morning #but it's still scary... a friend's sister was in the area and is currently missing. and i mean. the entire situation sucks to say the least #it's frustrating how there's nothing to do about it other than look for distractions 😐 #vent #ask to tag #it's a small thing but I'm grateful i only saw one post praising this war #usually going on tumblr during wars means every other post has some link calling to kill all of us for living here lol #also didn't get any hate asks. for. living here. so that's a good sign ajskflhlj #thank you btw. unironically. I'm glad i can go here and just see anime bullshit really akdkflpjj i need the escapism 😭 #edit: oh no yeah there's rockets again. lots of them. hearing lots of booms outside. cool

[morewyckedthanyou]

anyways idk what is happening, maybe i'm just coming down with a bad flu or something, but i have been SO tired for no reason for several days now and today at work i also felt really ill. i drive around in a car about 6-7 hours a day at work these days and today i had to pull up two times on the side of the road because it felt like i was going to throw up. i didn't, it went away, but it was a close call.

#and yes i felt nauseous the whole damn day #i also developed a bad headache and it still hasn't gone away really #and i'm just so. fucking. tired. #after work i've really just been lying in bed mostly in this kind of a trance #not really asleep but not really fully awake either #i don't have enough energy for anything i usually even enjoy right now #ok i'll shut up now #just had to vent a bit #and now i'll head back to bed #i think i'll actually take a sleeping pill tonight maybe knocking myself out totally for a night will help some #personal

[marypsue]

Yes 100%. My other pet peeve is when people claim expensive programs that would benefit society “pay for themselves” like no! On a dollar amount they won’t! But we should fund them anyway because making people happier+healthier? that’s worth spending money on

I mean, the research has been done, repeatedly, and it's my understanding that funding a lot of programs (like Universal Basic Income, or housing-first solutions, or preventative medicine) is actually less expensive in dollars, year over year, than paying for the social programs that prop up the current state of affairs...

...but that also doesn't mean that the current social programs shouldn't be funded, because they help people! Even if they don't solve the problem entirely!

If we can't make everything perfect in the future (we can't, because perfection doesn't exist), but we also can't make things less bad for people right now, then what are we even doing.

#chatter #i considered looking up links to sources for this but honestly i am supposed to be cleaning my bathroom #and the post this is responding to was mostly just an offhand vent post #so if you have links to sources please do provide them but I'm not going to be doing that research myself right now #bcause I will be cleaning my bathroom #(if you see me here on tumblr again for the next...let's say an hour please yell at me to go clean the bathroom) #eta: okay I cleaned the bathroom and also I added a sentence because. well. i *didn't* provide any sources here.

[running-in-the-dark]

kinda disappointed with how this weekend went. I mean, it wasn't bad! but it was our first weekend in the new apartment, and I/we wanted to get a lot done. I already did a lot during the week (a lot for me, not a lot for most people I guess), but there's lots of things that I can't do/can't do on my own, either because I'm too short or not strong enough or I need someone else to hold something or whatever. which realistically just won't get done during the week because my husband works full time, so. it sort of sucks that only one very small, unimportant thing got done. 😔

#like. there's no rush. not really. #I mean we do get our kitchen in two weeks so we'll have to have space to install it then lol #but other than that it's fine #except everyone constantly makes me feel like it isn't. #they're so judgmental and shitty about it #yeah it's chaotic and messy as hell. there's boxes everywhere. we've only found some of our kitchen stuff so we're mostly eating microwave #meals with plastic utensils. all of that stuff #so fucking what? it doesn't affect any of them! I wish they'd just stop commenting on it but they don't. #well. at least it's just over the phone now. I haven't seen my or my husband's family since we moved in and I'm not planning to anytime soon #precisely because they will not stop doing this no matter how I react to it #like in what world would that ever do anything good? it doesn't motivate me to get shit done any faster. because guess what? I'm already #going as fast as I can. #like. I've had (maybe still have) a middle ear infection and been on antibiotics all week and I still got so much done! that's good enough #and this part is fun to me! I like that nothing is finished and everything is possible and new and different #it does also stress me out but so far it mostly feels like an adventure #anyway. I'm just venting but seriously why is everyone I know irl so mean all the time?! #personal

[a-s-levynn]

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#i'm resisting the impulsive urge to vent proper because i don't want to go there especially this tired but #not everything is literal #not everything is serious #not everything is a joke #if you are unsure about something just ask #also #they are not our friends #they are grown men who can and do take care of themselfs and most people in the fandom understand that #so we can clown around over stupid shit while also not forgetting that #the two things can and do coexsist #but also let's not forget that they are simply human and can be tired or make a conscious decision to do or not do something #without any big conspiracy in the background #there is a line too far just as with everything #sometimes it isn't a bad idea to stop and look which side of it we are on #and i am myself are prone to at least dance on it so i'm not here to be smart i'm mostly just ckecking on myself #but some peeps also could use a moment to objectively see stuff #sorry this is fairly vague and half of it doesn't make sense #that's why it's in the tags #and almost certainly gonna get deleted in a few hours #i just needed to think #g'night y'all #see ya tomorrow #hopefully

[mettywiththenotes]

I've seen people talk about how they love canceling plans but I don't get that. I hate canceling plans because then I feel so bad. Like aww I couldn't come and now I've made them feel disappointed and I've ruined the night I hope they don't hate me :(

#i will feel sick or smthg and cancel For The Good Of My Health #and The Good Of My Health is like wow you just ruined everything you messed up their plans #they probably think you actually hate them and only accepted the invitation to be polite and now you're cancelling last minute #and wow Wow look at this now you're feeling better! all of a sudden! funny how that works! you faker #anyway if overthinking was a person i think i would stab it until it wasn't moving and slit its throat for good measure #mettygetspersonal #i'm having my First Migraine #and i feel a bit of relief after cancelling but it might be because im finally in a dark room and everything is mostly quiet #that could factor into it too. probably. #vent #overthinking