#just had to vent a bit

[morewyckedthanyou]

anyways idk what is happening, maybe i'm just coming down with a bad flu or something, but i have been SO tired for no reason for several days now and today at work i also felt really ill. i drive around in a car about 6-7 hours a day at work these days and today i had to pull up two times on the side of the road because it felt like i was going to throw up. i didn't, it went away, but it was a close call.

#and yes i felt nauseous the whole damn day #i also developed a bad headache and it still hasn't gone away really #and i'm just so. fucking. tired. #after work i've really just been lying in bed mostly in this kind of a trance #not really asleep but not really fully awake either #i don't have enough energy for anything i usually even enjoy right now #ok i'll shut up now #just had to vent a bit #and now i'll head back to bed #i think i'll actually take a sleeping pill tonight maybe knocking myself out totally for a night will help some #personal

[revenantghost]

Blehhhhhg why must upsetting life stuff happen while I attempt to read volume ten, it's extremely unfair

#May I have a break PLEASE life #I BEG!!! #Anyway #Not even life can stop me ):< #Just had to vent a bit #Yadda yadda

[kbade123]

I hate that you can forget how bad certain pain feels.

I have a kidney stone. My third. And for the other two I’d be so good about drinking water for a couple of weeks after they’re gone, but as time goes on I get tired of drinking and I forget how bad the pain was so I just stop drinking as much. Now here I am with another one, and I’m so mad at myself that I haven’t been drinking water this whole time!

I would probably still get them (mine are hereditary) but maybe they wouldn’t be as big and also maybe I could pass them naturally (I had to have surgery and stints for the other two and maybe this one too depending on where it is in my kidney)!

Anyway I wish there was some kind of pain simulator, basically like a pregnancy simulator but for kidney stones. I could remember how bad the pain is and have a motivation to drink water, plus I won’t have to go through all the surgery and the medical bills and the pain pills and taking time off work and all that stuff!

#tw: kidney stones #just had to vent a bit #forgetting pain #kidney stones #kbadesposts

[darkxsoulzyx]

do you guys ever get too scared to post ocs because you’re worried that their design or story isn’t cool enough

And then someone posts their OC/sona that looks super similar to your OC, even though you’ve technically made yours first

And now you’re scared of posting them because you’re afraid someone is gonna try and compare the two, because someone will always do that if they look similar enough

Do you guys ever feel that way or am I just really really stupid

#darkzyx #clink #minor vent #little bit of a rant I suppose #I don’t know I dont wanna look like a copy cat but at the same time my guy has been around since 2017 #I have the watt pad art to prove it 💀💀💀 #but at the same time #no one knows who he is because I just never had the confidence to consistently tell/post about my ocs and their world #mainly because I kept changing their stories all the time… #💀💀💀💀 #like I can’t stress enough just how similar their concepts are to the other persons #which is an extremely big shame because I really really like my OC #but I also love their concept #but if someone accuses me of being a copycat #I think I’ll crumble away into a pile of ash 💀💀💀

[softhe4rted]

on loneliness jenny slate / japanese breakfast, posing for cars / corinne von lebusa, big glow / dadushin / alejandra pizarnik, tr. me / fka twings, home with you / avocado_ibuprofen / fiona apple, left alone / anne carson, “the anthropology of water”, plainwater / kiki smith, free fall / alejandra pizarnik, diaries

#hi my post #oooooohhh this is just a compilation of my own feelings lately #i know i have a red de apoyo i know i have my dearest friends but it's so hard to not feel alone when we're so far away #idk i just miss school and having someone to talk to everyday i'm not a text gal i need to hear your voice i need to see you i need someone #to caress my hair i need contact i need closeness i need to know somebody hears me #it's not all bad i do love my solitude but i just .... i just think in a room full of people nobody would choose me #lol i'm gonna stop now i just always use my tags as a venting space xd #also yes i had the audacity to translate alejandra pizarnik but i just couldn't find that bit already translated and i really wanted it her #web weaving #on loneliness #loneliness tag #being alone #jenny slate #japanese breakfast #posing for cars #corinne von lebusa #dadu shin #alejandra pizarnik #fka twigs #home with you #fiona apple #left alone #anne carson #plainwater #kiki smith #parallels #poetry #prose #words #lyrics

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[medicalunprofessional]

flood

~♫

#caligosto loboto #dr loboto #psychonauts #nightmaretheater #if you havent noticed i reaaally like flood by tool #this took 10 hours combined time of drawing 🕊️🕊️🕊️redid the sketch like 5 times lik #this is actually kind of personal to me…. #as a child i had a reeaaaallly oppressive fear of my house flooding #like. i couldnt bare to hear a faucet running. thats how bad it was #all those flood damage relief commercials on tv scared me. #i very distinctly rememebr on of a house flooding thru the floor vents very quickly. and at the end the front door broke down.. scary #the psychological damage young me endured from the commercials #also ignore the wonky perspedtive on the crib i kind of exploded after trying to perspective for like an hour straight #its okay. it works. geometry is just weird in the psychonauts world #sheds a tear #oh the horrors..!.!.!!.! yipes #this is my ‘bobo exposed heart image’ to the cycle knots fanbase. real ones would know #drawing this was an experience man #thats why i vanished for a bit… sorry. ‘hey johnny got into str-‘ dont care im making a masterpiece #okay enough rambling im sorry #tips down glasses. send post

[rapidhighway]

#okay sorry for venting but i’ve been processing that session for months #like im the one who fucked up that session because i couldnt make myself say anything and actually naming any problem i have #felt like im begging to have a bunch of excuses #and god that paychologist really made me feel like i imagined all of that for attention and now im back here again and im once again #realizing my brain is just fucked up and what do i do now because if i went to a session now #i would be in the same situation where i can’t say anything that actually bothers me #so i guess im in deep shit forever or at least until i stop having some fucking mental block or whatever #im just fucking tired bro……. #she told me everyone is a little bit autsitic and that’s it WHAT #bro if i had little enough symptoms of whatever that i could do stuff by myself anyway i wouldnt fucking be ghere paying 200zł for the most #ruining hours of my life thank you so much. #instead i have to use everyone in my life as a crutch because i literally just can’t function without help IUOUOUGHHH #god im so sorry okay im gone im just really going through it rn #vent

[dana-chan-the-control-brain]

Hmmm... What's that? Sun doesn't know what to talk about in therapy cause there's not much bad on his mind.... is not an alcoholic, in one of the more relaxed and happy stages of his life, and doesn't know how to feel about Solar's death, because he wasn't as close to him as Moon, Earth and Lunar were? (which is normal in grief btw if you weren't that close to the person you can feel alienated by the heavy sadness in the air at times)

While Moon has been working NONSTOP without charge since Solar died and the last time we saw Moon this overworked is when he legit made a deal with Eclipse and died. And Moon has a VERY HIGH CHANCE OF BRINGING SOLAR BACK WRONG.

Meanwhile, when Sun disappears from a gameplay video, everyone thinks he's doing some edgy shit or something drastic, meanwhile, when Moon disappears from a gameplay video... NO ONE CARES.

Calling out some of the fans who were mad at Solar for "Replacing Sun" when Sun legit has admitted that he took a step back from a lot of things just to relax...

Earth talking about how she has never seen Sun this happy in awhile, and he's really benefited from just taking a step back from the drama and having a nice mental break. Sun was used to things when it was just him and Moon, but even he admits that he's far more lax lately

WOW.

YOU DON'T SAY.

It's like some fans give Sun far less credit then he deserves and give him the badge of the "most traumatized character" when he is way more fine then this community makes him out to be.

This entire Laes episode has been what I've been saying about Sun for Months, and I hope people will take it to heart and your "MOST TRAUMATIZED" blorbo is actually healing and having a healthy work and life balance.

#tsams #I know it's not ALL the fans #but that specific brand of Sun fan drives me crazy #going to the tags why not #i just had to vent this out a bit

[rotbtd-edits]

/vent incoming.

This . . . is Berk. A bit trampled, and busted, and covered in ice, but it's home. It's our home. Those who attacked us are relentless and crazy. But those who stopped them? Oh, even more so! We may be small in numbers, but we stand for something bigger than anything the world can pit against us. We are the voice of peace. And bit by bit, we will change this world. - Hiccup in HTTYD2

And this here kinda summarizes why I want to pretend the 3rd movie doesn't exist, because it just undid everything the first 2 movies (and tv shows) had established before :))))

"We will show the world dragons and people can co-exist, and we've been successful in defending our homes and lifestyle! No evil tyrants will bring us down! Oh what was that? An evil dude is after us again? Welp I guess we were wrong all along, time for the dragons to skedaddle into a small hiding hole then!"

:)))))))))))))))))))

/vent end.

#random ramblings #i'm sorry but i just had to vent a bit #because I REALLY just don't like the 3rd movie #for several reasons #random rantings #tag to block if someone doesnt wanna see my vents #I usually keep these to myself but sometimes you just gotta let the bottle pop :')

[revvetha]

god im so fucking lost.

#rly wish I had someone to listen to all this #actual irl talking. yknow late night on the couch kinda vibes #just to make it feel a bit less heavy. #because it's. it's really really fucking heavy. #vent #negative /

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

current editing moodboard, please send help

#perfectionism is really kicking my butt rn #that and the fact i had like a week away from writing properly bc chronic pain and now i can’t get back into the headspace #so yeah #perfectionism and brain fog #the inimitable duo #and i know i just need to be patient because it’ll get in the end there like it always does #but rn i’ve spent two nights in a row trying to polish up the last bits of this chapter #and i still just feel so detached from it all i want to pitch my laptop out the window #but i can’t afford a new laptop each time i want to defenestrate it #so this little rant will have to do instead #UGH #it’s so annoying because i am actually so so proud of this chapter and have loved writing it and can’t wait to share it #it’s just this last little bit that i seem to be hitting a brick wall with #anyway sorry #four walls readers don't worry i go through this just about every chapter lol #i'm just feeling it particularly this time because it's a particularly big chapter (both in terms of length and content) #and sometimes venting in the tags and creating an alex moodboard is very therapeutic #writing stuff #alex turner #writer's block #lulu posts

[jewish-unicorn]

Tbh this is just a rant about tourette's and other people.

The amount of times I've heard "people with tourette's are just faking it for attention"

Like

Dude

What PART of this sounds like something you would want to fake???

My friend has klazomania (screaming tics) and has driven himself hoarse.

I once had a short tic attack which made my hand red and sore for an hour after hitting it on the wall repeatedly.

There have been multiple days where I've come home from school and cried because I felt out of control and ostracised.

I'll ask again:

What part of this sounds fun?

#sorry just had a bit of a moment #vent post #tw ableism #tourettes #tics #anyways have a nice day #tired #neurodivergent

[cassianandfenrysaremyboyos]

*Sighs* I miss hoeab Bryce

#might rant a little bit about this later #or might just keep it to myself #we'll see #lucky I've had lula to vent to about bryce #but i have feelings

[itspyon]

i think we as a tumblr society have progressed past the need. blows you guys kisses

#i have simply had enough after last night #some of you have gotten excessively parasocial not just towards me but towards other blogs you come to talk shit about #as if i am not friends or at the very least acquaintances with them #and it's obvious you're from twitter because then i see the same phrasing on a vague tweet #i try to be positive or at the very least constructive about the issues you guys bring to me #but there's a bit too much venting a bit too much infighting i just won't waste my time on #i really wanted to have a normal conversation about how me and that one anon felt about content #and some of you got SO weird SO quickly i was put off. especially waking up this morning to the disaster that was my inbox #it is on me for having encouraged that type of behaviour at some level #so i'm pulling the plug now. go back to twitter and keep vague posting there

[violetdisasterzone]

it's kind of sad to say but sometimes I think I'm not cut out for fandom. I've always been more of a lurker than a contributor anyway, but even then I feel like I might just be too much of a canon purist to really be part of them. so much of being on the internet is about curating your own experience, but fanon (mis)interpretations/characterizations are so rampant in some spaces, treated as canon to such an extent that some people literally believe they ARE, that they're often hard to avoid completely.

the point of fandom isn't supposed to be nitpicking every little thing for accuracy, obviously. I like talking with people about my favorite things, and seeing how my thoughts and interpretations match up with theirs. I don't expect everyone's experience with whatever media to be the same. but I think a lot of people view canon as something separate, as something they get to play around with and take the parts they like and change what they don't. and that's fine, but I don't really get it, not entirely. I like playing around with hypotheticals and what-ifs and stuff, but to me canon is always going to be superior/unchangeable. and it's even worse when people will try to use canon to explain that their blatantly fanon-based interpretations are, in fact, canon somehow. and it gets even WORSE when it turns into actual discourse, and suddenly people are claiming that not following their fanon interpretation means something about your real-life values.

it's just kind of exhausting sometimes. I love a lot of y'all on here and it can be so fun to be a part of things, even mostly from the sidelines. but sometimes all I want is to close social media forever and reread my novels in peace

#this is something I've had a hard time with for a while tbh #I'm never quite sure how to put it into words but I was v annoyed earlier so here this is #and you may be thinking #'vi it's not that deep just close the app if you want to leave' #which yes. but also can't a person complain a bit!! #I think curating your fandom experience is also kind of hard if you're more of a part-time lurker #than if you have a bunch of mutuals who you regularly talk to outside of post interactions lol #which could definitely be part of my problem. unless it's just a ME problem #I want to know if this is a me problem or if others experience this #but I also don't really want my shitty vent post to be reblogged lmao