#many things ig

[bugdogg]

It’s late enough, I remember mentioning here that I was doing a gender assessment and I finished it and decided to do nothing. Not taking testosterone or anything just came out thinking “I’ll buy a packer or something, maybe a binder too and see”

Warning ig for talking about my feelings on my sex and my whole struggle with it and some anxiety issues too ech, idk if people find that gross or annoying but warning anyway

Ik I don’t wanna be a girl fully but I like having tits and I’m not unhappy with a pussy but I’m maybe 90% sure I want a dick more. I don’t want to lose my pussy because then I’d feel like I’d have to do anal(??) like it isn’t mandatory but I’d like to keep my vaginal opening (this sounds gross but that’s like the actual term for it ig).

So then i considered no surgery just testosterone to hope my clitoris would enlarge (is that the word I think idk). But then I learned about all the effects and decided no thanks, I don’t wanna look too masculine but I want a dick, like I feel like that seems more correct to me, it’s what I feel like I’m supposed to have. I also considered a metoidioplasty (if that’s correct, I wrote it down hope it’s right) but I never fully asked about it and became nervous to talk anymore with the doctor.

And whenever I say this stuff i second guess myself, like no you don’t know that you’re just doing this cause it’s a big thing rn or like it’s a fetish. And Ik that’s untrue Ik I’ve felt like this since I was 12 but i have the kind of anxiety that makes me doubt myself to the point of asking others for what they think is best for me but gender doesn’t work that way, no one decides this but me. The assessment freaked me out because when she asked me why I wanted this I didn’t know how to say it was CAUSE I KNEW ITS WHAT I WANTED, THIS IS WHAT MY BRAIN IS TELLING ME SOME PART IS SAYING THAT. But I had to be convincing and now I’m back to second guessing, “maybe you were wrong, you’re probably just confused, you’ve-“ Ik this is all stuff people say to other trans people, especially people my age. I know the shit I tell myself is rooted in that transphobic bullshit but I somehow always think I must be stupid, “yea those people know what they want but you don’t”

I know I want this and I want to stop arguing with myself, I want to at least feel confident in this. I don’t know how I even managed to doubt myself this bad but im typing it now so it can shut the fuck up.

I know im not a girl, I know I don’t have to be anything to prove that, I can dress however I want and enjoy whatever I want, it wouldn’t define my gender or my sexuality or any of it. I don’t have to change my sex if I don’t want to, I don’t have to keep it like this either. If I want to poke fun at my gender than I can it’s my identity I can be silly with it I can be fun with it, it isn’t that serious. And last thing which I find kind of embarrassing but I’m fucking typing anyway, I can call my clit a dick if I want to, it’s fine it’s my body, I can call it what i want

BYE

(Also idk what I consider myself gender label wise, I just focus on my pronouns and what I want physically. Idk if that makes sense idk)

#wow u really have to reassure yourself of all this? #YEAAAA #hell I have to reassure myself people actually like me #I never like telling people about my anxiety because it’s ridiculous but if u read this now u know a thing about me #many things ig #also according to a therapist I had a bit ago #this kind of anxiety and self doubt could lead to psychosis so I actually gotta keep it in check all the fucking time #annoying but I’ve been managing better than when I was younger #OK NO MORE RANTING #I’m actually happy I enjoyed my day and my night #I’m in a good headspace which is a good time to write this #I hope anyone who reads this has a great day/night!! #and thank u for reading if u did<3

[dizzybizz]

"this is regrettably the best kiss of your life, you understand?"

#that “you understand?” kills me everytime... #i love how high condis voice got during this bit its so fkn funny DHASHGFSFGHASFhg #hi yes have the inevitable ep21 crit kiss piece except i watched ep53 today and am so 😀 im so 😀 damn i m so 😀 #i love eps where they just go through so many different gimmick rooms its so fun its so fun when its not so painful 😀 #happy valentines too ig #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #jrwi chip #jay ferin #jrwi fish and chips #my art #i had a bit of a meltdown over gill through uhm... 1-3am today and i just hm #sorry to everyone in the mayors QAC uhm im not really sorry but like sorry if you could hear every msg ping uhm yeah #it was like hours of me sobbing to myself in the interests channel and it was really good for my mental health ngl like its really therapeu #-tic to just scream abt a blorbo all night #and i ended up dreaming abt infodumping to one of my brothers friends of all ppl n i got so intense abt how much i love marshall john n my #brother came into the room and dragged his friend out 😭😭😭 i just wanted to ramble abt the himbo pls..... #my walls of tags are so consistent... only consistent thing abt this fkn blog smh.

[introspectivememories]

been watching mashle and oh my god, the eugenics???? the way lance's parents were so ready to give up their daughter??? no second thought???? just "why did this child have to be born to us?"???? um everyone talking in mash's face about how non-magic people are inherently worthless???? the triple line dude fucking making dolls out of people and somehow no one??? is??? checking him???? and then when questioned immediately jumping into "well humans are little more than mindless beasts and i will become a creator deity and reshape the world in my liking!"????? the, um, corruption in the government??? the way this story is so clearly "h*rry p*tter if it was actually funny"??? the slytherin coded characters are blood purists???? they took out hufflepuff??? one of the magia lupus' mage's powerset was just big shuriken???? another one is rip off kisame???? lance is a siscon and the first thing mash says is "that doesn't make it better"???? lemon is genuinely so fuckin funny??? dot is incel-coded but like in a funny way??? dot says that lance is playing life on "easy mode" cause lance has a good face??? dot likes tea??? dot has good manners??? everybody only has one spell they can use??? finn ames is like if you transported is regular human into this stupid ass world??? i think the old man and the cop have explored each others bodies.

#so many baffling things #the show is genuinely funny tho #mash and lance have something going on and i stg this isn't just me putting my shipping goggles on #also lance is a siscon but like in the most non-weirdest way possible??? like he just doesn't want his baby sis to die #and like yeah the power of her photo is enough for him to fling himself backward into a wall hard enough that it cracks #but he's not like in love with her or whatever. bare minimum victories ig #also when the rap starts it gets sooo hype #not to talk about h*rry p*tter in 2024 but why did they take out hufflepuff?? #that was the only good house #everybody else in that world seem insufferable but hufflepuff seemed like you could get along with them #also they need to stop talking shit about non-magic people in front of mash's face #mashle magic and muscles #mashle #lemon irvine #dot barrett #finn ames #mash burnedead #lance crown

[vero-niche]

when you tell your therapist something from your past and it leaves them speechless

#had a wild session yday lads #well. it was more wild for her ig lol #i keep thinking of that tweet of why do doctors have a hard time diagnosing nd people when school bullies know right away (or smg like that) #(gonna tag this with only the things i got bc it applies to too many to list lmao) #adhd #autism #audhd #trauma #neurodivergent #neurodiversity

[stuckinapril]

A niche goal for me in 2024 is to take more pictures. Your bitch literally has the opposite issue to everyone else. My whole life could pass me by without me taking any pictures

#like I just don’t think to do it #I’ve never had ig like that so I was never like. let me take an aesthetic photo of my latte for my story #and ik taking pictures for pleasure is a thing and I prefer doing it but I still don’t take many pictures like at all #so in 2024 I’m making it my mission to up the photo taking #I’m also genuinely bad at taking photos but I wanna get into photography anyway so #p

[pixlokita]

Art trade/ collab with @cookieruma29 ‧⁺◟( ᵒ̴̶̷̥́ ·̫ ᵒ̴̶̷̣̥̀ ) 💖 I Drew her Evan and mine meeting and she colored it super pretty as always

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf 4 #evan afton #crying child #wanda #uhhhh #my art #art collab #trade #AAAAAAAAAAAAA getting real tired of the tags #so many #:v wanda always colors things so nicely and it also looks like paint #:’T #AND SHE DRAWS WITH HER FINGER HOW DOES SHE DO THAT #some people are just born talented ig #bless #✨💖

[schrodingersgirlboss]

a golden tip i can give to cryptos or any woman who can't openly talk about radical feminism yet (online or irl), whether it's because you have tra friends or you're scared of being criticized or whatever reason, is to stop using certain terms or following their rules for yourself. don't use the word queer, even if you can't call it out when other people do. same for sex worker. don't put pronouns in your bio. if there's a pronoun option in forms leave it blank (if you can't there's usually a "prefer not to say" option). don't refer to yourself (or anyone but specially not yourself) as cis. i assure you most people won't question it because you're technically not even doing anything. but it'll make you feel one heck of a lot lighter to not let your speech and your behavior be dictated by a pseudo-religion you don't want to be a part of.

#radfem safe #i mean this with no judgement #i know there are so many reasons why someone might not be able to openly express radfem views #but i also know how frustrating it is to not be able to speak your mind when topics like this come up #so this made me feel a lot better #ig maybe it wouldn't work if your friend group/whatever is very aggressively tra and will call out every little thing #in that case just love urself and get some new friends

[crisp-art]

shuake doodl

#i wanna draw so many things but im getting real frustrated with my art skills 😭😭😭 #i just noticed i left a little mushroom creature doodle in the bg egdkehdoek #my new watermark ig LOL #posting here and not twitter bc i promised a sephiroth wip and i actually hate it so far bruh art block SUCKS #shuake #akeshu #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #goro akechi #persona 5 #p5 #persona 5 royal #p5r

[melrosing]

baramelldansen

more here

#robert baratheon #stannis baratheon #renly baratheon #asoiaf #melrosing art #asoiaf caramelldansen thing #u wanted to see stannis well here he is #idk how many more I’ll post in advance but no harm ig!!

[mossycobblestonewrites]

DC X DP PROMPT #11

Under some erroneous conditions, Vlad has become a contractor for the Justice League. It would be fine if Vlad Masters was the JL contact, but no, Plasmius has landed the gig. Somehow the vampire supervillain look didn't throw them off (he swears he never had to overshadow anyone, either)

This is not the main issue as of, though. The main issue is Danny. Not that Danny is ever really an issue, it's more of what happeneds to Danny that's a problem. Well - Dannys.

The three of them were out, minding their own business when some stray defecto GiW agents came out of nowhere. This was no longer supposed to be an issue. With Vlad having connections to the JL the GiW had been officially disbanded and their actions made illegal. This obviously did not stop some of the organization's former members.

Anyway, the Dannys were out bonding, typical sibling activities (no Dan, arson does not count. Yes, we can brawl though) when some rogue GiW agents fresh out of government-backed work caught them in the unawares. This would normally be a nonissue but these particular agents had managed to get their hands on some thought to be destroyed Fenton prototypes.

These agents had managed to capture the trio. Now, they had only held the Danny's for less than a day, but give an inch take a mile. Jack and Maddie had busted into the hodgepodge setup, guns blazing, Vlad not far behind. The damage was already done though. Jordan and Danielle were mostly just banged up, a little worse for wear, but no one was melting. It was Danny that was having issues.

Danny seemed to be the major target of the former agents ire. They had managed to get to his core. This damage wasn't irreversible, from what Frostbite had told them, but it was detrimental to the young ghost. He was still developing, this was simply not good for the Great One's health!

Through careful consideration, it was decided that in order to heal from this, Danny would be better off retreating into his core for this. He had already started the process of doing so in the short time they had been in the Far Frozen. Normally, when one of the Dannys would retreat into their core they would be placed under careful watch by the family, but with Danny's core being damaged the call was made that he would need to be carried.

Nearly everyone had volunteered to do such, all were turned down for various reasons. Jordan and Danielle were still injured (and Dani still had a perpetuity to melt at times). Jack and Maddie were denied on the fact that having a leaking source of ectoplasm would be a detrament to their own health, regardless of how liminal they were from years of constant exposure. In the end, the job fell on Vlad. No one was really thrilled with this (besides the man himself) but Frostbite insisted he would be the best fit for the situation. His human side would nourish Danny's and his ghost half would supply him with ample Ecto for proper healing.

Vlad was ecstatic, especially to tell the League that he would be taking maternity leave.

#dc x dp #dpxdc #danny phantom #dani phantom #dan phantom #jack and maddie fenton #vlad masters #vlad works for the Justice League as a consultant / liaison for ghost things #the dannys get hurt #danny gets hurt the most and retreats into his core #mpreg ig #maddie is sad that she cant carry her baby again #vlad is hyped for many reasons #though mainly the drama

[hyunpic]

2023 year in review with hyunjin [it’s a wrap] 🎉

#hyunjin #skz #stray kids #*with hyune #they are not positioned as they came. i wanted to match him with the hyunpics 🥹 #this is not nearly half of the shit they did this year #but a girl can only add so many pics. #2023 marking the year i could actually see u live too.. is crazy it’s so sosososo crazy and it still brings tears to my eyes #waited for it so much and for so long and it blew my expectations away 😣 #i keep being so hooked on u year after year and it hasn’t changed at all this year too.. #ig im just in this hyunjin shaped ride for life #ilu… i wish i could thank you personally for saving me every year 👍🫠 #also happy new year to mutuals and all the other followers 💘 i love u and i appreciate u all and i hope #all the good an lovely things come #to your way in 2024 💖 let’s all assemble in europe when skz comes here heh #<- this is me manifesting.

[kindledrose]

silliest goofiest guy in existence <33 (so was no one going to tell me that mr goodtimes is the most fun character to draw ever or was i just supposed to figure that out on my own)

#that one in the corner was supposed to have multiple parts but i got tired so you just have grian poisoning himself ig- #goodtimeswithscar #grian #desert duo #trafficblr #gtwscar #third life #or something #also @ the caption: well a tie between him &trz pyrope probably !! altho i do draw them kind of similarly. .. hm. hmmm #there are so many other things i've been working on and looking forward to post but instead here's this thing that i made in 2 days. hi #doodles

[wabblebees]

((please rb if you vote! obv this is just silly but im curious+wanna see ppls opinions<3))

#considered including cigarette butts and 'random green goop puddle' and a few other things but ultimately decided against it #so absolutely tell me if that was a mistake #ive never made a poll before! just thot itd be fun:] #garbage repeats as a gag across all kindsa media is SO funny to me for some reason #point+click games... childrens cartoons... comics of all kinds... so much dumpster diving #smth gets tossed & clangs+clatters a ruckus. smth else is yote+squeaks like a rubber duck. smth else flies by+makes an unseen cat caterwaul #how many people are throwing away perfectly intact fish skeletons in all these worlds across time & space #whats up with that #lmao #anyway. i desperately need to sleep but Cant so made this instead. cant tell if its funny or no but #who can tell! and hopefully if i typoed or anyth it wont be too bad when i look back at this lmao #ok byeeeee. mwah #bee speaks #polls #OMG JUST REALIZED I FORGOT TO INCLUDE CDs....... well pretend i left it out on purpose ig. bc obv EVERYONE would vote for cds if they could

[christakisbang]

chanlix moments i think about a lot (1/?) - ♥ Kids Room Ep. 05 Bang Chan

bonus: 

#stray kids #bystay #lee felix #felix #bang chan #stray kids gifs #felix gifs #bang chan gifs #chanlix #i have remade so many times across so many fandoms and on god ill never know how to tag #my gifs #ig thats a thing im doing now. i have once again fallen victim to gifmaking #chanlixmoments #just a tag for the series this is gonna inevitably become

[ssomepersonn]

many thoughts about these guys

#hollow knight #hollow knight fanart #hk ghost #hornet hk #the hollow knight #the knight #nailmaster mato #i have a lot of thoughts about the sealed siblings and how they would necessarily grow #this is way way in the future since theres no way theyre not at least semi immortal #and hell some of my now making this post some of my takes changed but i have many thoughts about how theyd look how long itd take them to #be comfortable enough to settle and grow and accept all the shit thats happened and will happen #etc etc #feel free to pester me about specifics if ur curious ig i dont wanna write an essay in the tags sdjksd #enjoy my little goobers #side note all three of them like dirt and digging its good for worms and trees #sits in the dirt not unlike a tree and basking in the sun seems like a wonderful thing to do #but also playing in the mud and kicking puddles too #yea #my art

[lazycranberrydoodles]

a visual guide to all of hua cheng’s adaptations :D / follow for more hua cheng appreciation posts / transcribed notes + versions without my deisgn below the cut if you want this as a reference!

donghua

(by haoliners animation league) (i found multiple necklace designs in the manhua so i picked the most recent one - the S2 trailer)

very dark gray, straight hair

pointier nose

human ears

slightly paler than xie lian

parallelogram shaped eyepatch

thick braid

tall collar

broad shoulders

low neckline (cleavage)

tunic more form fitting

butterfly + geometric design (on belt and vambraces)

two belts

short red thread

e’ming has large red + white hilt

criss-cross chains (on boots)

white sole (on shoes)

book covers

(by 曰出的小大陽 / tai3_3)

same skin tone as Xie Lian

dark brown hair

trapezoid shaped eyepatch

very long hair + thinner hair

human ears

long nose, thinner face

red liner under the eyes

brain behind shoulder

big necklace charm

simple, loose fitting tunic

wavy + intricate design (on belt and vambraces)

long vambraces

minimal e'ming

endless red thread

lower boots

manhua

(by starember)

wavier, ink black hair

heavy eyeliner / shadow

mismatched earrings

very gray / pale skin

shield shaped eyepatch

arched eyebrow + piercing

lip glos

no hair strands in front of shoulders

beefy / dorito shaped

many outfits + hairstyles

extra straps on belt

pointy vambraces

floral design (on belt and vambraces)

very cool toned red

more detail overall

dark colored pants

e'ming is LONG

my design

(by @lazycranberrydoodles ) (subject to change)

blue / purple toned hair + skin

wolf cut type hairstyle

red & black eyeliner

trapezoid shaped eyepatch

pointy ears

black choker

lipgloss

many earrings (one is a fic reference :))

skinnier (died @ 17)

warmer toned red

big ol sleeves

floral + butterfly design (on belt and vambraces)

extra chain on belt for style

rings

simple e'ming

high boots w/ heel

#did you forget that my blog is hua cheng themed? #i hope this is useful to someone else!! rb if you save it ig #ask me questions about my design i have so many thoughts about Him :) #my design for him changes most times i draw him lmao but some things stay constant #my most important things are making his skin a very light blue/ purple #and making his ears and teeth pointy #no offense!! but im a little tired of official art that makes him look like a human guy #let my boy be dead looking #at the bare minimum in a sexy vampire kind of way #hua cheng: im going out. me: not dressed like that you arent. #hua cheng: better? (has on makeup jewelry demon king swag and high boots) me: yas bitch slay!! #tgcf #art #tian guan ci fu #heaven official’s blessing #hua cheng #digital art #my art #mxtx #reference #tgcf donghua #tgcf novel #tgcf manhua