#mad fantasy

[mrs-snape5984]

“Free me from this pain, I’ve been running from…”

“I'm tired and I'm free falling. Free me! I'm lost and I am calling you…” (“Free me” by Sia)

I’ve experienced some very rough hardships in my almost 40 years lasting existence in this world…but I’ve never given up on myself. I knew, that I’d have to fight my way back out of these horrible miseries, and I kept my faith to find the path to better times…to find the path, which will lead me upwards again.

I admit, these hardships left their marks, their scars on me. They formed my heart and my mindset…they made me the person, that I am today. I learned my lessons…and I kept going.

Since I’m living struggling with this goddamn bitch of a disease, called ME/CFS, my life has only one direction: It’s going downhill…and it’s getting faster! In these past 1,5 years, I’ve lost more and more of all the things, which made my life worth living for. I lost my ability to do my job as a pedagogue and social worker. I lost my freedom, since I’m stuck in my dark room day and night. I lost a lot of social contacts, since screen time is messing with my brain and each phone call costs me too much energy. I lost my capability to be an active mother for my three children…and this is the part, that hurts the most. Damn, I lost so much more…and I feel my heart shattering in pieces every fucking day!

Everything in my life is slowly falling apart and I’m losing my grip on reality…and on myself! The newest pain in the ass is probably my habit of passing out every few days. My whole system shuts down in the middle of a simple talk or something else and I’m falling into unconsciousness! I can’t remember the things, I’ve done before…I’m just blacked out for several hours. At first, my kids were afraid in these moments…especially when they couldn’t wake me up from this state! But now, they simply accept that “quirk” of mine as their new reality…and my motherly heart is aching for them. This shouldn’t be their reality! They shouldn’t have to live with a mother, who’s always in the dark…who’s always lying in bed! They’re children!! They shouldn’t have to whisper in my presence. I should be the person, they can rely on unconditionally!! Fuck…my heart is bleeding…and I’m sorry for my pathetic venting.

I need a way out of this hell…but since there isn’t any possibility for me right now, I’ll keep on clinging on Severus. My fantasies of him and my way of coping with my misery by writing stories about him and my - oh so self-inserted - OC Julia/Jules are the only thing, that keeps me mentally stable functioning. Well…at least that’s what I’m telling myself. I mean, I know how depressed my posts might seem.

My favourite artist for my darkest ideas is my friend @madfantasy. I told Mani about my wish to be freed from my darkness…to be cured from my disease. I need a saviour…a true hero…I need Severus! Since there aren’t any promising medical treatments, I’ll need a magical miracle to get rescued. And this is exactly, what Severus is trying for me. He conjures the demons inside my soul and forces them to leave my body. Severus is the only person, who’s brave enough to face the darkness within me. He’s my knight…and the love of my life. 21 years of my life, it was Severus, who kept me going…who inspired me with his resilience and his courage! A lot of those previous hardships could be endured by me, because I had something, I believed in. I had something, that gave me confidence and strength. I had Severus. So, please…don’t let me lose my hope and my faith in his support. And don’t let me lose my faith in myself.

Mani, my precious friend, I’m stunned by your ability to understand my ideas. Every time, I’m commissioning you for another project, your art helps me to soothe my troubled heart. It is as if you’re drawing my feelings!! I can sense my own emotions in every single line of your drawing. You don’t know, how grateful I am that I was allowed to meet you here. I love our conversations and our understanding for each other. Feel hugged, Mani! I’m sending you so much love! 🫂🫂 (fly fly) 🥹🖤 Thank you for everything.

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

#Severus x Julia #Sevy x Jules #severus x oc #fuck me/cfs #commissioning artwork is my goddamn coping mechanism #this is my red carpet for all the artists of snape fandom #i need a way out of this hell #free me #severus snape #i love severus #he’s by my side for 21 years now #21 years and still counting #i love snape #snape #snape love #mecfs #disabled #severus snape art #snape art #snart #severus fanart #severus snape fan art #mani is our safe space #mad fantasy #personal #vent post

[twinstxrs]

gorgug “i’m in hell right? thank god” “what’re we playin’ for” “do you have a fucking warrant?” “i think i hate you” thistlespring u will always be famous and you will ALWAYS be loved

#this episode was so great for gorgug enjoyers (me) #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #gorgug thistlespring #that’s ​the people’s prince fr #forgave porter too quickly for my tastes but gorgug is a kind soul so i understand #still mad about it tho. FUCK that guy

[adrastea-moon]

love that fabian and riz were originally designed to be the quintessential preppy jock and outcast nerd stereotypes, but with each new season riz is more of a cool guy while fabian becomes increasingly lamer <3

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fantasy high spoilers #riz gukgak #fabian seacaster #the first episode is truly incredibly #like riz has cool spy gadgets and is driving like he’s in mad max fury road #and fabian tries to make out w his own reflection and then gets hit by a car

[mynameismad]

MIMICS!!!

#concept art #maybe i'm trying to learn new skills and make new art but i still gotta draw my silly little guys #mimic chest #fantasy art #mad rupert

[gods-favorite-autistic]

#am i wrong #autism (mads) speaks #fantasy high #fhjy #fig faeth #fig fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #dimension 20 #dimension 20 fhjy #d20 #d20 fhjy #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 fantasy high

[yandere-writer-momo]

Yandere Head Canons:

My Purpose

Mad Scientist Husband x Reader x Yandere Clone

Now your husband, Dorian Goodman, truly believed he was doing you a favor with his newest creation… or should he say creations? He felt like a horrible husband by being away from you for long hours but he was allergic to pet dandruff so that was out of the equation… so why not clean himself? That way you wouldn’t be lonely! He only had his genius to blame for the horror he inflicted on you from this…

So imagine waking up to see your husband laying beside you in the bed still? His arms felt colder than normal and he smelled like preservatives… something was off but you couldn’t put your finger on it… his black hair was still long and beautiful just like his dark lashes. But something in your gut told you this wasn’t him.

And that’s when the figure beside you wakes up and gives you a bright smile. “I’m Dee. I’m your husband’s clone to keep you company while he’s away.”

You never shot up from the bed so fast to call your husband. You were extremely upset with him for creating a replica of himself rather than spend time with you himself… the nerve!

But your husband reassured you it was fine. That Dee was essentially him in every single way and that Dee could be your companion. He brushed off your concerns on this being cheating since Dee was a complete biological copy of Dorian himself but Dee could be deactivated by Dorian’s voice… it frustrated you. Why couldn’t he just leave his silly inventions behind and just spend time with his own spouse once and awhile? You were so lonely in this mansion…

But you didn’t take your frustration out on Dee. The poor clone was as clueless as you but he insisted he was created to serve you. Dee’s purpose was to take care of your needs

Dee would clean around the house and do the yard work. He was the complete opposite of the stoic Dorian. He felt more like a real human being than your own husband… minus how abnormally cold he was. He didn’t talk much but he was there. You started to grow attached to him

You spent a lot of time with Dee. He’d cover you with a blanket if you sat in your reading nook to read, he’d brew you your favorite coffee/tea, and he’d rub your shoulders. You constantly had to tell Dee that it was okay. That he didn’t have to be at your every beck and call but he would always say, “you’re my purpose.”

And Dee took notice of your sexual frustration when he peaked in on you touching yourself in the privacy of the bathroom within the glass shower walls. Curiosity began to settle in him. The cute whimpers and cries from your lips stirred something within him and he pushed the door open

You nearly screamed when Dee entered the bathroom, the only place he wasn’t beside you. But what shocked you more was the large erection in his gray joggers. It seemed he was more human than you thought and you were aching for something inside of you…

You let Dee have his way with you. He truly was a copy of your husband from how much he stretched you. Dee felt so good. He was so big and he was so strong. And he oddly smelled like your husband now… like clean linen and citrus. It was comforting and sexy. It was like Dorian was with your right now. Like Dorian was inside of you.

And in your passion it spilled from your lips once your orgasm rocked through you. Three little words that changed Dee forever, “I love you.” Dee held you while he rode you through your orgasm until his finally came. His strong arms held you up and his cheeks were filled with color. You loved him. You loved him. Dee didn’t want to ever be deactivated. Des wanted to be with you.

Dee would big spoon you every night. His large body pressed as close to yours as physically possible. There was a change in him. He was starting to become warm. Warm like a furnace. It was strange…. Dee became more and more human as the days turned to months. Your texts to your real husband became less and less but he probably didn’t even notice since he was busy with his inventions.

Dee would make you breakfast every morning and have his face between your legs to please you while you ate. Breakfast and sex became the norm for you and him. It felt so wonderful to feel wanted again. And every time, Dee begged you to tell him how you loved him. He would do anything to you to hear those words. Anything.

A shame you started to neglect your real husband. Dorian was shocked to see you folded up in a pretzel in your bed while Dee slammed into you like a mad man. This wasn’t what the clone was built for. He wasn’t built to fuck you. What the hell?

And that’s when Dee gave him a smirk. It was like looking in a mirror except there was something terrifying behind those ice blue eyes. Something sinister and Dorian didn’t like it at all. Dorian needed to get rid of Dee quickly… Dorian gave Dee one last look before he walked out of the room before you noticed

Dee kissed your head as he tucked you in. “I’m going to go get some water, okay?”

Dorian waited in the kitchen for Dee to come to him and the clone did. Dorian and him stared at each other for a few minutes before Dorian sighed.

“Deactivate.” Dorian told Dee but the clone remained standing there menacingly rather than deactivating like he was supposed to. “I said deactivate-“

And that’s when Dee launched himself toward Dorian and began to strangle him. His ice blue eyes filled with glee as the color slowly drained from Dorian’s face. An evil smirk on his face.

“It’s my purpose to make (your name) happy and there not happy with you so you can’t deactivate me anymore.” Dee whispered in Dorian’s ear. “They don’t love you. They love me.”

Dee ended up burying Dorian in the backyard before you woke up. He didn’t want you to be sad about your old husband any longer….

Dee slipped the ring he took off Dorian’s finger onto his. The shiny gold band now proudly on display. A smile on his face. Your real husband was with you now and he’d make you happy.

#female reader #yandere fic #yandere imagine #yandere #yandere obsession #yandere x darling #yandere x you #yandere x reader #yandere male #Yandere mad scientist #yandere fantasy #Yandere au #Yandere oc #yandere original work #yandere husband #yandere horror #horror #yandere headcanons #Yandere clone #male reader #gender neutral reader #yandere smut

[natjennie]

something about "your anger isn't scary to me" is making me so emotional. something about as above so below, cassandra as a mirror of kristen. something about "I've been dropping the ball a lot lately" and kristen's struggles with adhd. something about teenage girls and rage and fury and justice. something about adaine's vision of ruining fallinel and the sylvaire looking for revenge. something about sadness and doubt and anger and love. something about "I choose to understand" being the absolute core theme of d20 in general. something something.

#something about kristen's adhd making her fuck things up and being mad at herself and that manifesting #as her deity being overcome with rage #something about fear and anger and shame and the inability to do better even when you're trying so hard #and something about people loving you anyway #something about 'your anger isnt scary to me' #as someone who had undiagnosed pcos in early high school and got so fucking MAD #something about adhd and how you're always failing and you have no one to blame but yourself #and how heart breaking it is to watch your life fall apart around you KNOWING you could do something #but being unable to do it right. always forgetting always slipping up #and how mad that makes you. at yourself. #this fight is so much #fhjy #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high

[vampqueers]

Just imagine Kipperlilly rolling up to the new guidance counsellors office after the pervious one got killed to bring back some kids to life. And she sits there complaining about not having a tragic backstory since every rouge needs a tragic backstory, and that it’s so unfair that Riz has one. He’s got a dead dad, a mom who over works, a missing baby sitter, and he’s poor. And she’s got a pretty much perfect white picket fence life. And all the while the werewolf guidance counsellor who stays as half wolf as a from of a political statement, who less than a few weeks ago was a drug dealer and super down on his luck and life was just over all bad for him has to be like “hmm yea unfair… how about your adventuring skills?”

#dimension 20 #d20 #d20 fhjy #fhjy #dimension 20 fhjy #fantasy high #fantasy high junior year #kipperlilly copperkettle #jawbone o'shaughnessey #kipperlilly being a rouge with out a tragic backstory and mad about it is so funny to me

[gettownsburnmoney]

ruben writing hit songs about being mad and toxic... aguefort students going crazy for them.... kipperlily dosing the whole school with devil's nectar..... students singing about being mad while dosed with devil's nectar...... everyone having random rage outbursts.......

#fhjy #fantasy high junior year #fantasy high #d20 #dimension 20 #fhjy spoilers #devil nectaring the school into being mad all the time??? #em speaks

[onlowandhigh]

I do hope the Bad Kids actually have a scene going to the apiary club.

In large part because I want Fabian to fail an Animal Handling check and get stung by so many bees.

#im not mad at him anymore i just think it would be funny as hell #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #fabian seacaster #fabian aramais seacaster #gertie bladeshield

[inheaven-mad]

#crisis core #final fantasy vii #zack fair #aerith gainsborough #zerith #mad #inheavenmad #final fantasy crisis core #zack x aerith #ff7

[pengold]

Part 2 of @polarspaz 's Cairon AU of Tim Drake!!

It's October and I am on my Batman hyper fixation again

#digital art #digital illustration #fantasy #digital drawing #dc batman #batman #dc comics #dc fanart #au #plauge doctor #halloween #mad scientist #tim drake #red robin

[omaano]

"Obi-Wan’s magic had always been at its strongest when he was protecting someone. Perhaps that’s why it was easier to defeat their remaining assailants after Cody went down injured."

I had the absolute best of time working on this illustration commissioned by the wonderful @wanderingjedihistorian for their fic What It Means! If you like a good fantasy setting, swords and sorcery, Jedis as mages and the Clones as knights do check it out!

#codywan #obi wan kenobi #cody #commander cody #fantasy AU #tcw fanart #star wars tcw #the clone wars #my art #star wars fanart #fanart #knight au #knight and mage #I put so many hours into this ohmygod #I also packed it full of details that are barely visible.... but at least I know they are there #feast your eyes on the peak of my artistic talent at the very moment I can literally not outdo myself after this #I've managed to pull off tricks here that I thought I will never be able to do wow #like getting Obi-Wan's face right on the first try XD I was so mad #but he has the fanciest beard I've ever drawn #for once and after 5 hours I'm kinda at peace with Cody's face which is a very nice feeling #you'll see this cross your dash a couple times you have been warned #the price of my pride you'll get to pay :D

[cloudmancy]

happy yearly "do you think they ever explored each other's bodies" to gilear and goldenhoard

#dimension 20 #fantasy high #gilear faeth #goldenhoard #d20 #my stuff #honestly mad that I had a really good time drawing goldenhoard #I just like dragons a lot okay.......

[gods-favorite-autistic]

I don’t know how I’ve just realized this but like we’ve had a lot of injustice this season considering the fact that the big mystery is surrounding a fallen goddess of justice

Like we got

Riz possibly not being able to get into college

Sklonda having her pension withheld for no reason

Fig getting dropped from her record label

Gorgug having to take three years of artificer at once because he’s too nice (eventually having to shed that part of himself at times to succeed)

Fabian finally getting to go home to his mom after not seeing her for months only for her to immediately leave him alone for months on end when he clearly doesn’t know how to fend for himself

Adaine not performing well in class because she can’t afford her class despite having saved the world and literally being the elven oracle

Kristen literally getting expelled for something that had been cleared up before despite literally earning and working her ass off for an A

The Ratgrinders being so much farther ahead in everything than the Bad Kids because they found a way to cheat the system despite the Bad Kids literally saving the world

Like this definitely has something to do with the bringing back of the corrupted goddess of justice right?

#especially since kristen got expelled right after they accidentally broke oblivati mori #this is probably pretty obvious but in the recap for the newest episode brennan said something about injustice and this just clicked #autism (mads) speaks #fantasy high #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #dimension 20 #dimension 20 fhjy #d20 fantasy high #d20 #d20 fhjy #ankarna #ankarna fantasy high

[countv0ncunt]

MY DAUGHTER Ayda Aguefort.

Move along Arthur 😠

#dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #d20 fhjy #ayda aguefort #my art #digital painting #queer autistic wizard librarian MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!! #queer artist #latin artist #portrait #this isnt done but i gave up lmao #garthy and adaine the fish looking plump #fig x ayda #this IS figayda because i gave her a tattoo of figs dont be mad at me #fantasy high sophomore year #oop forgot to add my signature #fixing that rn