mrs-snape5984

[mrs-snape5984]

i want 60 thousand votes by next thursday

[mrs-snape5984]

And here you are, sweetheart! Whatever it is, that you might be searching down there, we will share it soon! 🫂🖤 😅

He’s here with me…

I’m sitting here on my balcony, enjoying the natural darkness (it hits different than the darkness, that I have to endure in my room all day long) and some fresh air. Stargazing and breathing…deliberately slowly…in and out…. Gosh, I’m grateful for these occasions, whenever I’m feeling strong enough to leave my bed and step out to my balcony…ignoring my wobbly legs and my aching body.

My beloved friend Magda, @vulnus-sanare, told me about the possibility to see the stars, which are right above me, by using an app (“grandma” didn’t know that this existed! 😂). I just had to try this out!

What can I say? Right in front of me is my zodiac sign (Virgo)…and right beside her, there’s a crow. In my mind, there has always been a connection between Severus and crows!! Our wings are touching each other. And you know what? It gets even better!! We’re framed by not one, but two snakes!! Some tears left my eyes…and I don’t feel so lonely anymore. This might be super cheesy, but I know, that he’s here with me….like all the 21 years, since I fell for him, before. My heart swells with gratitude…not only for him, but also for Magda. “This is the most Slytherin you could get…,” she said….and damn, sweetheart, you’re so right about that! Feel hugged my precious friend. I love you.

#drowning unicorn #Severus Snape #beloved friend #stargazing #personal #distance is a bitch #slytherin #slytherbitch for life #virgo #crow #i love severus #he’s by my side for 21 years now #21 years and still counting

[mrs-snape5984]

He’s here with me…

I’m sitting here on my balcony, enjoying the natural darkness (it hits different than the darkness, that I have to endure in my room all day long) and some fresh air. Stargazing and breathing…deliberately slowly…in and out…. Gosh, I’m grateful for these occasions, whenever I’m feeling strong enough to leave my bed and step out to my balcony…ignoring my wobbly legs and my aching body.

My beloved friend Magda, @vulnus-sanare, told me about the possibility to see the stars, which are right above me, by using an app (“grandma” didn’t know that this existed! 😂). I just had to try this out!

What can I say? Right in front of me is my zodiac sign (Virgo)…and right beside her, there’s a crow. In my mind, there has always been a connection between Severus and crows!! Our wings are touching each other. And you know what? It gets even better!! We’re framed by not one, but two snakes!! Some tears left my eyes…and I don’t feel so lonely anymore. This might be super cheesy, but I know, that he’s here with me….like all the 21 years, since I fell for him, before. My heart swells with gratitude…not only for him, but also for Magda. “This is the most Slytherin you could get…,” she said….and damn, sweetheart, you’re so right about that! Feel hugged my precious friend. I love you.

#personal #severus snape #beloved friend #distance is a bitch #stargazing #slytherin #slytherbitch for life #crow #virgo

[mrs-snape5984]

It’s so tender. I like the idea and I love the way, how you’ve drawn this beautiful piece of art! 🖤🥹

safe.

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on the tobias apologist train again. based on my own childhood memories of falling asleep during mass and my dad picking me up and letting me catch some z’s on his shoulder 😌

#severus snape #cokeworth #tobias snape apologist

[mrs-snape5984]

„You’re not alone, together we stand. I’ll be by your side, you know, I’ll take your hand…”

“Just stay strong, ‘cause you know, I’m here for you…” (“Keep holding on” by Avril Lavigne)

I decided to set a trigger warning on this post: Miscarriages, high risk pregnancies, ICSI treatments, traumatic wish for a child journey, hysterectomy. So, please feel free to skip the following x paragraphs, if you feel triggered by these topics. Thank you.

Those of you lovely people of Snapedom, who know me and my way of blogging about Severus and my personal hardships might have noticed, that I’m mostly venting about ME/CFS and the crumbs, which are left from my former life. Since I can’t do much about it right now, I decided to “fix” another one of my countless issues…an internal wound, which desperately needs to heal!

As some of you might remember, I’m a mother of three wonderful children. There are my eleven years old twins and then there’s my six years old daughter. My pregnancies were the result of a long and painful journey of ICSI treatments, several miscarriages, way too many tears, about ten surgeries - due to Endometriosis and myomas - which eventually ended in a hysterectomy four years ago.

My desperate wish for a child led me to some decisions and life choices, which I probably wouldn’t have made, if I would have been clearer…maybe more stable in my whole mindset. One of these choices was a totally over rushed marriage to a narcissistic man, who made me believe, that he wanted the same. Gosh…I’ve been so desperate and so fucking stupid! Well, at least I got my twins because of him.

I went to the appointment for the transfer of the embryos on my own. He didn’t want to join the procedure…and I should have known, that he was already saying “goodbye” back then.

The pregnancy was rough. I had to lie in bed from the 8th week of pregnancy until they were born as premature babies in the 29th week of pregnancy. The last 4,5 months of pregnancy, I had to stay in the hospital…fighting for my babies’ lives all on my own. The father of them had decided, that he didn’t want to be a father anymore…wow…

I don’t want to go further into details about this phase of my life…at least not yet. I commissioned my friend @alinearthp for this project and asked her for several drawings of the different phases of my journey to become a mother. This artwork will be the start of my healing process…and I’m incredibly grateful, that you’re doing this for me, Aline! I know, that you’ll need time to draw all these wishes of mine, but I’ll be patiently waiting for each of your breathtaking pieces of art, my dear!

So, for the next couple of months, Severus will accompany me on my path through this phase of my past…just like he did back then, when I spent months in a hospital bed in “Trendelenburg” position. During this period of my life - and to be honest, in so many other phases of the past 21 years, as well - I clung to my imagination of Severus in order to feel less helpless and alone. His resilience and determination have always been my inspiration to keep going through all these hardships, which life kept throwing at me. He’s the love of my life…and he will forever be the guiding light in my darkness.

🖤Severus & Julia🖤

🖤Sevy & Jules🖤

#Severus x Julia #Sevy x Jules #Severus x oc #twin mom #icsi #this will be my personal healing journey #mom of 3 #fuck me/cfs #disappointment #I have to heal #horrible pregnancies #severus snape #he was there #at least in my mind #i love snape #snape #i love severus #pro snape #snape love #pro severus snape #snape content #severus snape art #snart #snapedom #severus fanart #severus snape fan art #snape art #mecfs #single mom experiences #commissioning artwork is my goddamn coping mechanism

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I couldn’t agree more. When I read this scene to my kids last year, they giggled a lot (they’re young). But quite soon, they asked me, why I wouldn’t laugh about this scene, so I had to explain it to them….with fucking tears in my eyes!! But I’m glad, that they understood the cruelty of this situation eventually.

Let‘s talk about how Remus Lupin.

Humiliated his colleague.

Who he and his friends had already tormented for years before that.

Who was almost murdered by his friends.

The man who kept his mouth shut for years and did not tell anyone about Remus true nature.

Eventhough he almost died because of it.

The man who never receieved a single fucking apology.

Because, you know.

They were just silly teenage pranks.

Right?

Let‘s talk about how Remus Lupin humiliated his teenage bully victim once more as an adult by encouraging Neville to imagine him in his grandmothers clothing.

In front of the whole class.

Knowing fully well that not a day later every single student in the castle would have heard about it.

And laughed about it.

Let‘s talk about how fucking cruel Remus was towards Severus.

He did it deliberately.

Fully knowing what would happen.

For a laugh.

Just like in the good old days.

#pro severus snape #severus snape #anti marauders #i would protect him with my life

[mrs-snape5984]

What a beautiful artwork! He’s adorable. 🖤🥹

Thank you for sharing your art!

#young snape #i have a soft spot for young sevy #i have a soft spot for young severus #severus snape #i love snape #i love severus

[mrs-snape5984]

Feel hugged. 🫂🖤 And you made a beautiful doodle. 🥹

Feeling like crying lately so my snape doodles pay the consequences

#severus snape #i love severus

[mrs-snape5984]

Vibing with my alarm ringtone… finally found it on Spotify.

Oh, Severus…. Help me to get through the hell of this newest crash!

My goddamn legs are so wobbly and I couldn’t manage to get a proper grip on my cane, so I stumbled on my way to the bathroom and fell against the sharp edge of a sideboard. Now I’m back in bed…back in the dark. Licking the fucking wounds of my humiliation, while listening to his voice. Loneliness is killing me…and yet I’m not capable of reaching out to anyone right now. Bitterness and self-loathe are my companions in these dark hours…making a pathetic self-pitying mess of myself. Great. Just great.

Who have I become? Where’s the intelligent, witty, caring and empathetic woman, I always used to be? She’s dying inside of me…and all I can do, is to grieve her.

#vent post #Personal #severus snape #fuck me/cfs #he’s my comfort blanket #loneliness #i love severus #snape #snape love #pro snape #i love snape #fucking pathetic #Spotify

[mrs-snape5984]

I wish I was special

You’re so fucking special

But I’m a creep

I’m a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don’t belong here….

🖤

But he’s here with me…

Longing can be torture. Oh, Severus….

#I don’t belong here #crashing again #drowning #self loathing #longing #fucking pathetic #loneliness #angsty #Spotify #fuck me/cfs #fuck me sideways #i love severus #snape #severus snape

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Severus smoking a cigarette…one of my total weaknesses… 🖤🫠

On some days, the research may not have worked out well for the potion master.

#severus snape #snape fanart #i love snape #i love severus

[mrs-snape5984]

Damn! Severus in muggle clothes is breathtaking! 🥹🖤

@preciousthelmadonna , have a look at the heart shaped glasses! They made me think of you.

What if Professor Snape is a real professor?

I also wanted to see him wearing glasses.

#severus snape #snape fanart

[mrs-snape5984]

My beloved dungeon bat! 🖤🥹 Wonderful drawing!

🦇🖤

#severus snape #snape fanart

[mrs-snape5984]

Your way of drawing him is so amazing! Thank you for sharing your art! I just had a look on everything on your blog and my heart is full of love for your artworks! 🖤🥹

Nose bleeds 🩸

Obsessed with tired Snape these days 🙂‍↕️

#severus snape #snape fanart #damn i love your art

[mrs-snape5984]

This is so adorable, my friend! I adore your tender way of drawing and this idea is heartwarming. 🖤🥹 Oh, and Severus with a man bun is so handsome! 🫠🖤🥹

Hi! Saw you need ideas so how about Sev giving Harry his first plushie?

First Plushie...

Ahhhh, I made it!!! @ravenite-void Thank you for this lovely idea. It took me a while to finish it because of work but here it is!

#i’m weak for your art #damn i love your art #i love your art style! #severitus

[mrs-snape5984]

Done! 🫂🖤

HP FANDOM FORM

I wanted to know what ships and dynamics and character opinions were most popular and who tended to have what opinion. Feel free to share this on other platforms!

(The form)

#hp fandom

[mrs-snape5984]

Oh, this is wonderful! I love everything about it! 🖤🥹🖤

Tribute to a young Severus Snape 

#i have a soft spot for young sevy #i have a soft spot for young severus #young severus snape #severus snape #severus #i love severus