#like I love being in that…idk ‘space’ but recently it’s made me feel awful about myself and my work :((

[sri-rachaa]

im horrible at social situations omg

alternative title: raes overthinking hours

#very very long and dramatic rant ahead #i so very much apologize in advance #so I’m in a situation where I feel as if there’s someone in…a space that I’m also in who I suppose doesn’t like me #or well…they keep doing things that feel like such a personal jab at me #and it’s really starting to make me feel extremely shitty #but I don’t have like actual evidence or proof that their doing it so all of this could literally be entirely made up in my head #and they can be completely innocent and I’m the delusional asshole #and there was one major thing that happened that I think I way overanalyzed #but at the same time if im right then holy crap they do in fact hate me very much #and them doing that literally was a direct insult to me #and it’s just….heidndindidndidjdifnfifnfifmff #uncomfy :(( #like I love being in that…idk ‘space’ but recently it’s made me feel awful about myself and my work :(( #but then again I could be entirely wrong about the entire thing and thus the asshole in this case!! #idk…ill just like suck it up for now and deal with it and if it gets bad enough I’ll just leave that…’space’ #also I’m so sorry for putting this on here #I just didn’t really know where else to say it #I promise I won’t make ranting like this a normal thing for this blog

[thefreakandthehair]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

tagged by @steddieas-shegoes like, forever ago and I keep forgetting.

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 42! most are steddie with some criminal minds fics from over ten years ago buried deep.

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 252,271

3. What fandoms do you write for? right now, just stranger things! I've been toying around with writing destiel again but if I did, it'd be anonymous. (after my entire portfolio was wiped from livejournal, I'm still in pain about it.)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? 1. and if I get burned, at least we were electrified.  2. i made this mess with love.  3. what you feel is what you are (and what you are is beautiful)  4. the answers are all inside of this.  5. Livin' On A Prayer 

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? yes! eventually! sometimes, it'll take me awhile because I just get backed up but I read them and smile and kick my feet, and even though it takes me a bit to reply, those comments are what keep me writing. <3

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? happy endings are guaranteed in this house, always. I'll never write an angsty ending-- canon hurts me enough. the most bittersweet ending though would have to be scar-crossed lovers. 

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? oooo, that's tough because they're all happy endings! but I think over the hills and far away because, by virtue of it being a long fic, the happy ending feels deserved. those two went through it to get to that ending which made it so satisfying to write!

8. Do you get hate on fics? I haven't, no, and I'm very grateful for that. but I'm also like, super liberal with the block function. we cultivate our spaces here, friends!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I do, but only in the context of like, what else is happening in the fic. I just can't write pwp lmao, major kudos to everyone else who does it so well! I'm in awe of your talent perpetually.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I wrote a supernatural/charmed crossover au many, many years ago. but recently? kicks cracky supernatural/stranger things crossover au scrivener wip under the couch. nope.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? not in this fandom!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? not that I know of, but that'd be super cool.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? not yet... but I have some plans. keep an eye out next year. 👀

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? steddie broke something in my brain, but destiel laid the path for it be broken to start with.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? liturgies & devotionals, unfortunately. or at least in its current existence in scrivener? it's a big undertaking but if I can make it less complicated, maybe it stands a chance.

16. What are your writing strengths? not once have I been able to answer this and feel comfortable with it, but I do really enjoy the omniscent third person point of view and have gotten compliments on it. and narrative writing, I like setting the scene and developing introspection.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? there are several but god, fucking dialogue! it's my kryptonite. that, and actually ending a story. context disease is so real.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? the only other language I've ever used is a snippet of Klingon, but I'd also feel comfortable using bits of French because I know a good bit of French. anything else would just feel super inauthentic because idk what the fuck I'm saying.

19. First fandom you wrote for? uh, it was around 2001 and it was for a fandom that I no longer associate with.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? to the surprise of no one: over the hills and far away <333 so much of me is in that fic and it was hugely healing.

no pressure tags: @withacapitalp @stevethehairington @steves-strapcollection @henderdads @patchworkgargoyle @inairbinad @steddieasitgoes @starrystevie @judasofsuburbia @fragilecapric0rnn @kkpwnall @fastcardotmp3 @penny00dreadful @cranberrymoons @catknives @hbyrde36 @cuoredimuschio @wormdebut @wynnyfryd @sidekick-hero @t-boyeddie @scarcrossdlvrs + anyone else who hasn't been tagged and wants to participate!

#tag game #myfic #this sat in my drafts forever i am so sorry holy shit

[grepfrutmeat]

very messy and probably a little misheard notes from liquid mercury twitter space below the cut

the return of kyler and marter twitter space, later changed to liquid mercury (and possibly something else idk)

was kinda late not sure by how much. maybe 10~ minutes

martin is still blown away by something

-kyle says he cant wait for thing to happen (evil laughing)

-its one guy (..) suit

-talked about terrified fansong, martin really dug it

-felix felix you motherfuckwr (twf the musical

-we should make a really bad walten files musical

-we did that- “felix where are my kids da da da”

-joke twf musical

-fucking. imagine dragons okay martin.

-??? SET IT OFF WOLF IN SHEEP'S CLOTHING OKAY MARTIN

-eva mentioned about the three characters holding beer bottles together how she made a joke that its norman felix and Rory and people thought it was serious

-but rory is not real..

-martin “who the fuck is that”

-”you gotta stop listening to me. i lie” -eva

-it is now revealed lily is charles daughter

-it was so hard to keep it a secret

-accidentally mentioned on space but nobody noticed until like one person

-he dies on her birthday …

-knowing what happens to this character,

-being able to talk about “bon” is weird.

-martin loves this spectre

-g man comparisons

-martin had 2 inspirations for spectre, one being calculated how hal 9000 (i have no mouth i must scream guy??) expresses emotions like batman riddler, (the batman)

-eva made it subtler

-I WAS FUCKING RIGHT ABOUT THE BON FELIX PARALLEL IM WINNING IN WINNING

-”perhaps what i am is not as important as what i can offer you” pinnacle of bon

-handing boozoo mask to charles?

-what if bon is from the futureeeee (okay martin.)

-most of episode 4 was made a couple weeks ago lolll

-this episode is a miracle

(missed a bunch here)

-charles lines are really good

-the scene ;) the highlight of the episode

-episode 6 at his best

-progression of susan + charles va improving

-episode 6 is a turning point, traumatic event for characters one specific one.

-episode 6 gets as close as it can be to being a nightmare

-not analog horror scary, but like a chaotic nightmare that shouldn't be happen. horror movie-esque

-everything that can go wrong goes wrong, like a real nightmare.

-arin hanson nightmare. barnacles.

-episode 6 high stakes

-”bon” - fe lix (bon says felix at some point? woag maybe) , martin says he likes how bon says felix

-eva (spectre( has a monologue in 6

-episode 6 is awe some

-maritial status. divorced

-martin talks about charles divorce

-in 1974 he's divorced, recently divorced.

-his ex wife is named emily. divorced a few months before shit happens

-if Charles didn't go missing they might have resolved their relationship

-small bit talking to Emily in one episode. charles still loves ex wife but it didn't work out.

-charles close friends with ex wife but don't work as a couple

-martin says charles feels like what jack and felix could've been.

-charles is selfless,

-felix and linda split up would be better as friends cus they're not good as a couple

-charles knows this about his relationship but felix doesn't think this about his

-martin loves charles ;3

-he's already my favorite

-eva likes charles susan dynamic (i hear u)

-theyre two sillt friends having fun!!!

-dynamic war.

-(joke) “heyt guys. in the next episode. rory appears. and kills bom” “it was all a dream” “susan marries linda and Charles raises his kid and jack finds his kids. and is found” he was hiding in a box” (trumpet sounds)

-susan and charles are better friends than jack and felix

-jack and Felix don't get along as well as real friends. business relationship.

-kyle quotes jerma lolll

-felix and jack written as people that seem friendly and social but are isolated in their own ways

-jack is only entirely honest with rosemary

-felix just doesn't

-felix tries to hide addiction from jack and

-felix sees jack as someone he'd like to be, looks up to jack, affectionate to him and envious, wants to be on his good side so doesn't say anything to him. which is why jack didn't know.

-sophie jophie and jenny jophie joke…

-theyd rock paper scissors over last names

-jenny is better than sophie at rock paper scissors. lettersons.

-sophie would change to sophie Letterson like 100%

-highlight of the month was liking jelix art and everybody noticed …

-”jelix sloppy making out” “DONT SPOIL SIX” (joke)

-joke about charles looking horrified cus jelix making out in felix office lmao

-boozoos voice slightly tiny tim-ish COOL

qna part

-spectre is freakishly tall, skinny michael meyers

-spectres voice changes a lot, sometimes silly, depends on what he's saying/who he's talking to.

-spectre wont hide his motivation but he won't reveal it outright, he won't sit down and explain what he's doing, he’ll just do it.

-chris appears in photos, isn't really mentioned. Chris is someone who knows how to turn a situation in his favor, go-getter. has interesting dynamics with main characters later in series

-kyle can't wait for people to see what happens with Chris

-long way to go to show it, but chris apparently has a really cool design later on (1982)

-cant wait for people to see his role in 1982 . martin can't say why

-no correct understanding of chris but some people have very different expectations of who he is.

-chris is a silly-serious blend, similar to charles, less naive

-all they can say

-charles fact: something really fun about charles, he will always put his kid first more than anything. he brings her to work a lot (not gonna see this in series tho) everyone would play with her. dress up as pirates. :)

-felix would tell lily santa doesn't exist. LOLLL

-cant say something spoiler…

-G ROUND BREAKING REVALATION: FOR CONTEXT. Brian stells was the first human character to speak in twf. back in 2020. people would ship brian stells and sophie walten. but it was wrong angle. because yesterday. came to the realization. that brian would be into middle aged single mothers (technically rosemary…)

-brian would try to hit on rosemary??? and jack would grab his shotgun and shoot at him. okay martin. jack is a good shooter ??

-canon brian is jesse pinkman

-chris is more season 4-5 jesse pinkman.

(missed a lot)

-showstopper lore bon and banny friends but like. only cus bon wants to save face

-cybertelly would be the showstoppers lawyer

-felix fursona with glasses and suits (kyle says bon is just like felix)

-sha js rose’s fursona. rosemary is a furry.

-4,5,6

-linda only talked to susan cus they were good friends but not rosemary. linda would've told susan she was leaving.

-felix scene on the river was hardest to animate cus it was in a lighter place, but with felix its lit up middle of day

-potential actual showstopper show ?? 11 minute episodes

-rosemarys favorite character was sha. but billy if not sha, rosemary loves clowns

-ed molly fun fact: they liked playing pong. martin thinks ed would be mischievous and do pranks, between sophie ed and molly he'd be the most rebellious. molly would be more like “ed you cant blow up the school that's not right”

-molly was very behaved. best behaved walten child.

-rosemarys sister laura in season 2. rosemary doesn't like her family and doesn't really speak to her mom or sister much.

-jacks favorite drink is ramasote or wine, rosemary likes champagne, sophie likes mojito “i think drink does not just mean alcohol”

-mollys is pepsi. eds is liquid mercury. jacks favorite drink black coffee or rumcoke. jack would have a gallon of rootbeer.

#the walten files

[ewanmitchellcrumbs]

So I’ve been debating on telling you this, just bc it’s personal and sensitive, but after ur post about the anons, I want you to know how meaningful you are to others. You don’t have to read it or even respond if you don’t want, but I just feel like I should say it. TW: brief mention of infertility.

Last week, my brother and his family came into town for Thanksgiving. I always have the worst anxiety bc of my past relationship with my brother, but we’ve slowly gotten better over the years. But still, he brings on a lot of anxiety. Usually, I drink heavy when I’m around them to calm my nerves, but I had a migraine that day so I didn’t. Apparently, long story short, my behaviour and something I said at the table gave them the impression I was pregnant. He texted my mother, not asking *if* I was pregnant, but how far along I was. I’ve struggled for years with infertility, and idk why but recently (even before this) I’ve been feeling really triggered/upset all over again. So when I found out he asked that (not with bad intentions at all, but still), I lost it and have spiralled a bit into a funk.

I did what I always do and escape into fanfiction, so I was stalking your blog. You answered a question about Ewan’s chars’ hobbies, and the response made me laugh for the first time that day. Continuing to scroll through, I found more of your answers to questions entertaining and reread some of my fav works from you, cheering me up immensely and distracting me.

I’m not saying this as in you’re my entertainment, so I really hope it doesn’t come off that way. I just want to make a point that *you*, as a person, make someone— a random stranger across the pond to you— smile and brought lightness to one of their dark days. You are a human being, a kind and funny one, and I don’t understand how people can send or say that stuff thinking you’re not or realising your significance. I’ve always loved your wit and smart ass remarks or incredible mind that puts your all into your amazing works. I’m a huge fan of you, and I really hope you don’t let those two anons get to you when you mean so much to other followers of you. I hope that your day will get better, and that life treats you kindly because you definitely deserve it, Ange. Please stay safe, healthy, and treat yourself. I appreciate all that you do and give us. 🩶🩶

-Hannah Montana anon.

Oh love! I'm sorry you had to endure that, that sounds awful! And thank you for being so brave in sharing that with me. As someone who is dealing with their own infertility issues, I empathise with you and am sending you so much love. I hope you are feeling okay about it all now you've had some space from your brother.

Thank you so much for your kind words. Really glad I was able to cheer you up during a difficult time. This means more to me than you could possibly know <3 xoxo

#asked and answered #hannah montana anon

[itsbinghebitch]

I was trying not to get involved in everything going on right now but after reading your last post I just felt I had to say something. Firstly you seem like a really mature and thoughtful person which is such a breath of fresh air in online spaces in general. The way you're handling the situation is really admirable and your words really resonated with me. I'm relatively new to this fandom (I watched KPTS after the shitshow in January) and, after learning what happened, I've done my best to keep my distance from the cast and BOC and just focus on the story and characters. Based on what I'd read about the case I was willing to give Build the benefit of the doubt but the recent leaked messages make that nearly impossible which is also preventing me from enjoying the series which I've come to love. What makes it worse is that I'm an artist who loves VegasPete and, just like you, every time I try to make art with them, I keep thinking about all the awful comments Build made about Bible and it feels plain wrong to draw them together. Even for someone like me who's not emotionally attached to the actors it's really hard to separate them from the characters and it's making my fandom experience pretty miserable. I have very complicated feelings about the whole ordeal - on one hand as a queer person like you I'm tired of people's homophobia and bigotry being swept under the rug, but on the other hand I've seen first hand what an abusive relationship can do to a person so I can't help but feel some compassion for him too. I truly hope he can reflect on his mistakes and heal and grow as a person. Maybe I'm just too old for celebrity culture and drama but I do feel the need to be able to discuss issues like this one in a calm and level headed manner instead of falling victim to black and white thinking and turning things into a witch hunt. Sorry for the rant and feel free to ignore this message, your post just really resonated with me and I wanted to share some of my thoughts on the matter. I hope you have a lovely day/night ❤️

thank u sm for this message.... i really appreciate you taking the time to write about your experience and i'm glad you felt like you could share ❤️

there isn't a clear-cut answer to the whole debacle. whoever tries to sell you one is a scammer or is speaking out of an emotionally clouded place (as i was last week lol).

taking a look back at everything, i think it's important to acknowledge:

1. multiple things can be true at once: you can feel hurt by build's comments and still feel sympathy for his predicament.

2. you should be able to discuss these things without feeling like you'll get, idk. fandom black points. or get blocked by everyone who thinks differently than you (which happened to me), or even hounded and hacked by people to the point of getting your blog shut down (which happened to blramblings).

3. it's really fucking hard to be a fandom creator in these circumstances. i'm really sorry to hear your art has been impacted. especially in the case of vegaspete, i tend to believe there was an "aura" inextricably linking biblebuild as actors to who they were representing on screen. no one but biblebuild could've been vegaspete for me. it was their contrasting facial features, it was in their on-screen rapport and chemistry for me. their choices in portraying the characters, the behind-the-scene interviews... that aura mesmerized me for an entire year literally. and it's not only fine to admit that the situation complicates your fandom art, it should be an *active conversation* we have as fandom creators. because let me tell you, i don't write fic on top of my insane job out of the goodness of my heart. it's because of that spark of joy i feel, that stepping out of the regular day to day. the moment that joy isn't there anymore, it becomes labor. and let me tell you one thing i DON'T do. it's FREE LABOR corporations fuck me on the daily already so why would i let them do it as a hobby too

so yeah thanks so much for sharing your thoughts <3 i rly rly appreciate it and sending you lots of good vibes. who knows what the future holds in store for us etc. etc. but we out here!!!

#asks

[femmefatalevibe]

Hello Femme, I hope your week has been wonderful.

Id love some advice: I tend to be worried about what others think.

I shouldn’t. But I am an extroverted person and I tend to love attention without realizing it.

Im always new to spaces: a transfer student all my life (I moved several times when I was younger, losing friends, gaining them then losing them again. Even in college I transferred to a university. I have friends but it’s not tight like everyone else. It’s very surfaced). I am often always over looked and I am always checking in on others and rooting for everyone around me but everyone else will compliment everyone else (this happened at my job recently. We did anonymous positivity and I got nothing from my colleagues and others did.. and this happened to me In highschool so I’m starting to see a pattern and it sort of hurts). I always feel isolated - no matter how hard I try to socialize and be kind.

I always feel discounted and disconnected from everyone else.

I didn’t try in the past to befriend others or talk to everybody but I realized how sad it made me feel (I’m always the one reaching out to others but it’s not replicated), I love people. I’m a empathic person.

I began to put myself out there but I appeared overbearing to one person- (they didn’t say this but I felt I did seem that way because they stopped talking to me and acknowledging my existence— we work together).

I’m just sad.

Idk why I’m always overlooked.

Or just not seen.

Everyone who speaks to me it feels surfaced and fake (even though I choose to be transparent and genuine).

I’m an only child as well so it makes things worse.

I feel awful.. and sometimes I feel like a bad person for wanting to be seen or appreciated.

I would like your insight. Thank you

Hi love! Constantly moving from place to place when you're young and never being able to establish different stable friendships/relationships from a young age is a challenging pattern to break.

While I don't know you personally, I realized from my own experiences of being shy as a young person/teen that I often was overlooked/not spoken to in a group of peers or coworkers because I came off as closed-off and insecure. From my assumptions, people could sense my discomfort in my own skin and were turned off by this energy. Once I decided to be comfortable with who I was and made the goal of my interactions with people to be relaxed, so everyone felt heard & welcomed, socializing instantly became a lot easier.

Don't look like you're trying to force or perform connection/friendship. Try to strike up a natural conversation, appear/act relaxed and how you would want a friend to be around you (generally optimistic but real, have a sense of humor, good listener, curious about what you have to say, doesn't take themselves too seriously, is interested in the world around them, etc.)

Hope this helps xx

#making friends #friends #new friends #socializing #social skills #social anxiety #social networks #social life #workplace culture #networking #self concept #self confidence #self esteem #people skills #meeting new people #femmefatalevibe #q/a

[reikunrei]

if i may be embarrassing for a minute here (beware: gushing about things and people that make me happy in my miserable life ahead)

the last 4 or so years of my life have been hell. and especially the last 1.5-2 years have been awful and i’ve never been in such a dark mental space. lots of sudden physical health problems (many of which are just sorta like “shrug idk just wait it out”) and a continuous downward spiral of my mental health (bc of the physical health stuff but also long-lasting financial issues, gender dysphoria, being stuck living with family which makes me wanna kms, etc.), all of which also makes it difficult or impossible to perform my regular hobbies (writing, drawing, video games, all of them are physically painful due to tendinitis) so my free time is always either unfulfilling or literally hurts me to do

and i’ve had lots of friends over the years who’ve made me laugh and smile, and I’m forever grateful to them and love them all dearly (to those of you who will see this bc you follow me here, hi, ily. to those who won’t see it bc they don’t follow me here, I’ll have to drop into those group chats and say a quick ily too)

but i’ve also begun interacting with a lot of new people in the last few months and I’m very grateful for y’all too. most of you are on here. probably all of you are on here. if you’re reading this, hi. what’s up. anyway

it just made me glad that i can still meet new people and get along well enough with them, even meet people i solidly call friends bc we started talking semi-regularly (hi sam!!! i hope you’re not drowning in your busy life lol). like, i have trouble making and hanging onto friends bc it’s just not my strong suit, and i like being by myself, but i do crave community just like any other human. and i haven’t had a community as active as this one ("this one" being my current corner of the st fandom) on this website in a while

i had to leave one community last year bc of one of my health issues that made it so i couldn’t interact with them very much, and just sitting there silently for months was too stressful for me, so when that went quiet i sort of… didn’t have a super active corner i was in, and it kind of made me super miserable

so i’m just glad I found this spot. a new spot for me to shimmy into on this website, where i’ve been jumping from community to community for the last decade. i feel like i haven’t been this into something and this into a community in a long time. and it feels good. really good

like even if there’s a lot about my life right now that i absolutely hate, there’s still a lot of things that i can be happy about. and a lot of love to find and share. so i may as well focus on that despite everything else. and i know this all sounds silly and embarrassing but i just have to remind myself that there are good things for me to look forward to, and good people to surround myself with, and i may as well put that thought out there on the off chance that someone who has made me smile recently might see it and know i appreciate them immensely. i can look forward to the future as much as i want, but at least i have folks right now who bring me joy, even if it’s small or sounds silly to say

so thank you to everyone who’s made me feel welcome. who’s given me presences to enjoy and people to admire. who’s been kind enough to interact with me and say nice things about the stuff I create. and really just to allow me to participate in a wacky fun corner that brings at least one smile to my face every day, but realistically, it's more than that

thanks :3

#i say things #watch me proceed to completely forget i posted this and get scared when it gets notes

[drowsyr]

hihihi friend anon here! i live for your stobin headcanons don't apologise for it being long!!

my friend and i make friendship bracelets for each other every year for our birthdays, but because we were born like two days apart we just end up making them together and swapping. i remember one year i made us matching ones in the colours of the upside down (blue, red, orange, black)!

also yes stobin closet jokes. dustin says something about a coat hanging in his closet for winter and robin laughs so hard, like giggling, that she has to down an entire glass of water.

oh aro stobin is my favourite thing <3 idk if you've read the "aro stobin cinematic universe" series (2 works so far, they're phenomenal) but it was sosososo good!!

steve's parents definitely own a bed that is very big so sometimes stobin have their sleepovers there and jump on the bed like little kids. not like mr and mrs harrington will find out anyways!

also dustin finding it so cute that stobin dyed their hair to match..... he takes a million photos on his mom's camera :O

steve and robin take hair curlers and shit and have a proper spa day one day and they look fabulous after <3

also i love your friendship bracelet headcanons they are so sweet 😭😭

stobin house sitting for the hendersons and breaking into claudia’s hair curlers and making facials… steve is a career cat sitter for claudia i know this is true

erica does make fun of them for being dorks and matching their hair but also she totally idolizes robin so she’s like mocking them to their faces but laying out a full legal defense to her mom about why she should be allowed to dye her hair and getting brutally but lovingly shut down

also yes i know that the harringtons have like a california king and robin makes so many innuendos about why but steve will literally plug his ears + go lalalala. i feel like they use steve’s parents room when they wanna pamper themselves like for a spa day but otherwise sleep in steve’s or even at robins place just bc they’re cozier <3 i know robins twin bed is a safe space for them.

i haven’t read rebel robin but i’m actually obsessed with her hippie parents and i love when people hc the buckleys as suspecting that robin is gay and trying to be supportive of her relationship with steve but also very confused by it (shoutout to findafight’s recent post obvi).

to me the buckleys are a jello family and i think steve tries so hard to be casual about it but he hates it like jello is an evil texture. i’m torn bc i can so clearly imagine robins parents loving jello but i feel like she would think it’s a bad texture as well… but also the idea of steve over for dinner at the buckley house and mrs buckley sets down like one of those awful intricate 70s jellos in the center of the table and everyone digs in and steve is sitting there like yeah🤢😃thank you mrs buckley😃🤢this is great🤮😃

#all this while wearing friendship bracelets #stobin #robin buckley #steve harrington #ask #also i fs have to check out the aro stobin stuff… seen a few posts floating around but is the cinematic universe a full fic! #<- pretend that’s a ? i don’t wanna retype #i don’t actually have an ao3 acct tho so if it’s restricted i’m shit outta luck lol #erica looking up to robin is so sweet to me…

[hobidreams]

oh my gosh HI MISS RAIN!! i’m so sorry i haven’t been able to check in on you for the past month😭 without getting into it too much, uhhh u ever just get sick n tired of living thru historical events? yeah that was me in may💀 def didn’t help that the last couple of weeks in my semester were very determined to whoop my ass (though i saw my grades last night n they r all looking Very good🥹 the breakdowns i had were def worth it lol)

but YES I GOT SIDETRACKED,,,

i saw what you were going thru the past month!! i’m so sorry that u had to go through that. i hope you and your loved ones have fully recovered now, and with no lingering effects!! i really wanted to send a message but again,,, Life,,,, but i kept u n ur loved ones in my thoughts the whole time.

and lord,,, the news abt bts last night…. i’m really happy that they’ll be able to pursue their own interests!! but also i feel like my longterm s/o just told me that they needed time to cool off,,, so that’s fun hAHFKGL

that being said, i miss u so so so much and i hope ur well!! wishing u all the best in your endeavors always <3

(oh also right now the spacing is Whack,,, hopefully it looks alright on your end lol)

-🌿

HI BABYYYYY omg DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT IN THE SLIGHTEST. yes, i am right there with you. im so exhausted by life and everything and i just keep seeing worse and worse news every day and ahhhhhhhhhh. IM SO PROUD OF YOU for getting through the semester with amazing grades!!!! but do please take care of your health babe 💓 i dont wanna sound like a mom but in my first few years of uni, i had the mentality that "stress is temporary, grades are forever" so i put everything into school. but honestly, that ruined me 🥲 i had to find a sustainable way to manage my workload and i ended up not crying even once in my last year lol 🥲🥲🥲 but anyway. i trust you and ik youre gonna do whats best for you so ill just be here cheering u on 💗

omg thank you... it was, quite frankly, awful as fuck but we made it through and my grandpa is very safe and alive, lol. unfortunately another grandparent had to go to the emergency room recently but that was also fine ... ish... well. we're getting through it. i seem to have no lingering effects anymore.......? idk, i feel like my sense of taste has gotten a bit dulled in some aspects but that could also just be allergies plugging my nose so who knows 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ thank you for thinking about us ;-;

yes omg !! it does feel a bit like that FADKLJASFD but im confident that they'll be back better than ever. they wouldnt do this unless they couldnt keep going any longer, and i relate to that feeling more than anyone aslkdjfsadlkj. im listening to my fave songs on repeat to cope 😭

i miss you too, love! what are your plans for the summer? i hope you have fun stuff in store!!

#rain reply #🌿 anon #<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 #all the love to u

[floral-elixir]

i guess i should give a real update now that people follow me again haha.

idk. i love ryan so much. that boy really is just everything to me. i could not have asked for a better partner to be in love and do life with and i am so happy about the progress jacqi and i have made in our friendship too. polyamory is great and has made navigating my emotions and being able to self sooth so much easier. i’m able to communicate what’s going on with me and say what i need now instead of expecting my partner to pry and get the real answer. i can’t believe i went so long doing that and getting upset that the only ppl who fell for it were also (surprise) very manipulative lmao.

i know that for as much progress as i’ve made, i also still have a shit load of work to do.

i’m very much the child of narcissists and have an avoidant attachment, though i’m working on being mindful of this and doing my best to be more open and secure in my attachments. i’m trying to be more vulnerable with people i don’t know well and be secure in my reality enough to not let them sway me or make me regret it.

dating is so fucking hard, though. every time i find someone cool, there is just this glaring thing that makes me sad. it’s usually some kind of drug dependency and while i hold zero judgement on that in a friendship space, i have to prioritize myself and not let that be something i will accept in a partnership anymore. i’ve not smoked weed for over a year and only took a tiny bit of edible for geni’s bday, so i could relax and fall asleep. my drinking has gone from a few nights a week to maybe once or twice a month. my bottle of adderall has had well over half of the 90 day supply in it for months now. my muscle relaxers i got prescribed from my rib injury, i’ve only taken them to help me sleep when i move too much during the day and feel the muscle starting to cramp again. i haven’t even thought about doing any actual drug off the streets in years. actually, it’s very rare to drink more than one day a week anymore, and honestly, for the better because i was recently diagnosed with fatty liver. i will say that i still struggle with knowing my limit and like to get wasted, but i gotta pull back the reigns on that too or i risk dying like my grandpa did with liver disease.

oh. another thing. i’m so fucking overweight because i stopped drinking and smoking weed. you’d think i’d drop weight from that but nope. can’t cope with weed or drink or drug or pill? time to eat garbage and game for hours, i guess.

i’m trying to turn that into a gym and skating habit though. i miss being skinny. i want to lose the 110lbs i’ve gained the past 3 years.

anyway. if it’s not a drug/alcohol dependency, it’s an attachment style mismatch. i can’t do anxious attachment at all. i don’t have the spoons or bandwidth to text back every hour, especially when i’m working because i work with literal fucking acids and can’t put my focus anywhere else but on what i’m doing. it’s always so hard to put that boundary up too because i KNOW saying that we are incompatible in communication expectations leads to losing an otherwise cool friend but, ya know, it is what it is.

sometimes i want to leave houston. other times, i just could never leave it. it’s sweaty, it’s awful, i hate living here during the allergy seasons so bad, but i have everything i could ever ask for here. the little life i’ve built here means so much to me. i would probably do great in portland or seattle or chicago or new york. but would i like it as much? who knows.

in any case, i’ve decided that i’m going to start ivf treatments in two years with a sperm donor. i want to be a mom. i don’t have anyone in my life who i’d trust enough to be their dad and i am not letting that stop me. insane, prolly. but i make great money now and i know i could do it very easily, childcare costs in mind and all. i am starting to consider using a surrogate though. pregnancy is horrifying.

#that’s it i think #thanks ily #how are you? #gimme deets and updates #33

[leviiattacks]

Hi, you're a very talented writer and your works are very beautiful. Can I request one where Levi's fem s/o does the ignore your boyfriend prank? Thank you so much and take care of yourself ❤️

author note :: thank youuu i’m glad you think that anon !! this isn’t good at all bc i’m just very sick and yeah,,, i’m sorry if this doesn’t live up to your expectations but i needed something to do and ended up finishing this. hmmm what is this is it fluff?? idk it’s captain levi and survey corps member reader though :-) requests are open so feel free to drop by if you’d like :D word count :: 3.4k 

you should NOT be bothering levi as much as you are because he understands you need your own space to relax sometimes

but come on... you’ve been ignoring him for an unreasonable amount of time now??

and he’s not talking about groggy ignoring, it’s not the type you do when you’ve just awoken from a restless night’s sleep

no. you’re talking to everyone apart from him.

and it’s driving him up a literal wall

did he do something wrong???

has he made a mistake so large that you’re too scared to bring it up???

are you finally sick of him??

will you break up with him?

levi winces when thinking of that specific question

but he’s the type to silently keep his worries to himself as soon as he sees any indication of a bad omen

currently, he’s mentally preparing himself for you to break the news to him any day now

but little does he know you’ve just pulled a prank hoping for him to whine and complain a little

the point of this all is to elicit an out of character reaction

;-)

the idea came from historia at first

her playing such a foul trick on ymir didn’t go unnoticed and little by little ymir’s resolve crumbled away throughout the day

she went quite literally ballistic trying to get historia’s attention

and watching it all play out made you want to try it out with levi

you’d be a FOOL not to

WELL!!!! the fun part about this is that you’re a bit actually, no. a lot, more stubborn than historia!!!

and instead of committing to the prank for a day you’ve chosen to see how far you can stretch this out

if you have to drag it out for two days so be it

you have good reason to

levi isn’t the most affectionate man, your relationship is kept a total secret from all of the cadets

meaning pda never happens

and,,, listen you would love to kiss him before expeditions without having to drag him behind your horse for cover

to be frank the back of a horse does smell rather unpleasant and it’s not as romantic as you’d like for it to be

honestly you’d rather have everyone stare and gawk in awe watching the two of you make out

seeing them put two and two together realizing what it is that’s going on between you and the captain would be hilarious

especially since reiner said last week he could never picture levi dating anyone

AND!! he even had the audacity to say he thinks someone like him would never date someone on the team

is it really not that obvious to them?

do you and levi lack chemistry?

silently fuming you walk away and even then none of the cadets get the hint

but you do think mikasa has known for a while. her senses are sharp and whenever she sees you and levi together she makes a u-turn heading in the opposite direction away from the both of you

but even if she does she isn’t going to tell anyone about it unless she’s directly asked so it’s not like the cat will be out of the bag any time soon

it’s silly getting worked up over reiner’s comments but it’s kinda disheartening having the relationship be kept a secret

and you thought even if it was there would be at least a hint of a rumour, like it should be decently obvious it’s been months since the two of you began to see each other

ESSENTIALLY, this is your plan to “accidentally” let the cadets figure it out

eventually levi will have to get restless enough to do something bold

that’s what you think will happen

but then the reality of the situation hits you at the end of the first day

he seems to be dealing with it just fine ?????

after giving him the cold shoulder he shows no signs of returning at all

...

WHY IS IT NOT WORKING???

mayday mayday mayday....?!??

red alert....?!??

you are about to bang your head against a wall he’s the one who’s meant to be suffering over this not you

but again, you’re stubborn and won’t give in easily

by the end of day one levi has approached you two times

two...

each time you’ve given him completely blunt responses

it’s frustrating you that he’s just dealing with it as it comes

and when he does speak to you it’s not to ask what’s wrong

the first time he approaches you is to ask if you’ve seen petra around which makes your blood boil a little because everyone knows petra has a big, fat, MASSIVE crush on him

you know he won’t ever reciprocate or anything for a number of reasons but you can’t help but feel annoyed

the second time he speaks to you is to ask if you’re willing to help hange out with some paperwork

??????

he doesn’t even look interested in asking you what’s wrong

honestly you would drop this plan but you’re in too deep now

may as well keep it up.

the second day rolls around and it’s not your best day

you burn breakfast

trip over a broom and hit your leg rather hard against the dining table

spill an ENTIRE cup of tea over hange’s important documents

and you haven’t slept a wink after overthinking your relationship status for hours on end

maybe this prank wasn’t a great idea

you’re hunched over the documents close to tears not knowing how you can save them now

there’s nothing you can do and even though you know hange will be okay with it, (they’ve never cared much for paperwork) you just don’t want to inconvenience them with this mess

“y/n?”

looking up you see eren standing by the doorway of the kitchen watching with a humored expression as you place paper towels over the disaster you’ve created

“captain’s looking for you.”

perking up a little internally you make sure to remain as disinterested as possible on the surface

“what does he need?”

“i don’t know he didn’t say.”

“tell him i’m busy.”

and that’s all that occurs during day two

you pass by levi and occasionally his gaze flicks to you but he doesn’t take any action to address you in public or in private

you end up going to bed even more disappointed than you were the first night

the prank definitely isn’t going the way you want and instead of it leading to levi cornering you in front of everyone and dipping you into a dreamy swoon worthy kiss it’s led to you developing doubts.

many doubts.

but you aren’t giving up any time soon, now more than ever you want to be reassured levi even wants this relationship because he’s not acting like it

it’s admittedly a bitch move on your part for pulling this prank in the first place but you expected him to ask how you were doing it has been forty-eight hours after all

if the roles were reversed you’d force him into a room until he would tell you

so you can’t explain his weird behaviour at all

maybe he doesn’t like you as much as you think

that thought makes your eyes sting at the corners

he’s always been reserved and a little lost when it comes to opening up but you’re beginning to lose hope if he finds it this hard to ask if you’re okay

drifting off to sleep before you can wallow in your thoughts any more you wish tomorrow is better

it’s the third day and to say you’re exhausted is an understatement

midday and you���re training in the sweltering heat

the lack of sleep you’ve had recently paired with your stress isn’t doing you any good

a little dizzy you attempt to hold onto a nearby tree for stability but end up somehow missing the mark by a MILE??

tumbling to the floor painfully you hiss at the collision and rub the back of your head which is now sore

footsteps approach you in a hurry and for the first time in days you’re face to face with levi

“you okay?” concern is very much evident in his voice and that eases your nerves

without you even responding he’s turning you around just to check in case

nodding wordlessly you try to get to your feet when you feel a shift.

your ankle without warning gives out on you and you’re sent crashing back down to the ground

closing your eyes and bracing for impact you’re pleasantly surprised when levi catches you by the waist

your weight is leaning onto him and you’re looking down to the floor

hange is yelling from across the courtyard telling levi to drop you off at the infirmary but he doesn’t need to be told that

his instincts do the talking for him and he’s already slung you over his shoulder and begins carrying you towards the base

“levi. put. me. down. this position’s embarrassing.”

he doesn’t respond and you can hear sasha and connie cackling at the compromising situation

swatting his back you’re huffing and puffing yet he’s still ignoring you

you’re being given the silent treatment but you suppose you do deserve it

sighing you deal with the stares you receive on the way there

this is levi and at this point nothing is seen as abnormal when he does it

you can’t really look behind you to see levi’s expression either but when a cadet walks past and mouths “y/n, what the hell did you do??” you know you’re in for it

eventually he reaches the infirmary and without even letting you get a word in he plops you onto the bed albeit a little rough

“what’s with the cold shoulder?” he places both his arms by your sides leaving you trapped

“i-”

“if you want to break up you can just say that instead of beating around the bush.”

you’re stunned by the harsh tone of his voice, he doesn’t have his usual soft timbre and your eyes glaze over in defense

“you want to break up?” your question hangs in the air

chewing at your lip anxiously you know if you bite any harder you’ll draw blood

“i don’t care. if that’s what you want, sure.”

oh.

oh no.

this isn’t going how you planned

nails digging into the flesh of your palms you hang your head low

he doesn’t care at all

if that’s what you want????? really???? that’s his response??? he won’t even fight for you???

it’s silent as he bandages your ankle and you’re burning in a mix of embarrassment and fury.

“i was just pull-” choking up in the middle of your sentence you feel yourself automatically frown

“i was just pulling a prank on you. you know how historia did with ym-“

really you’ve always been terrible at holding back your tears and a few spill over the edge and you sob

why are you like this why why why why why?????

yeah,, you get why everyone calls you overly emotional from time to time but really you swear you feel your heart shatter a little at how levi’s acting

shielding your eyes with your sleeve you cower away from him

lord have mercy.

levi wants to curl up into a ball and die from the wave of embarrassment that hits him

a prank.

a trick.

and he didn’t catch on.

and now you’re crying.

because he thought acting tough and cold in case you wanted to break up with him made perfectly logical sense???

spoiler : it didn’t make any sense...

but now it’s made him look like he hates you??

but he doesn’t hate you

no, no, no. not at all.

he could never hate you.

you’re always willing to help anyone out, you’re genuine, always say sorry even when you don’t need to, unapologetically yourself at any moment, you’re fearful yet push it all aside to be courageous and most of all he loves your little hobbies because who in their right mind actually enjoys gardening??

he’s convinced people who say they like gardening are looking for something unique to make themselves stand out but really you enjoy it and it’s quite cute

ok, ok no more getting side tracked whilst talking about your love for plants

he could name so much more he admires about you but he’d be here all day

“i tried to talk to you yesterday but after you refused i thought you hated me and wanted to break up. that’s why i was acting like that just now.” he slowly tries to explain his point to you

“i know i’m hard to love so when you began to ignore me out of the blue i figured you didn’t want to-”

cutting him off without giving him the option of finishing his sentence you’re wide eyed in horror. he was NOT meant to interpret the prank this way.

“levi?? for as long as i’m alive i’ll never get tired of you. i promise.” his heart rate shoots and the intense magnetism between the two of you becomes stronger by the second

you pause for a second gathering yourself.

“and i’m sorry i should’ve thought about how you’d feel. the reason i did it was stupid.”

levi kneels by the bed and takes your hand in his, he graciously lifts the sleeve of your uniform and ducks down to press a soft kiss onto your wrist.

your heart flutters seeing him be so careful and gentle with you and bashfully you look away

guilt overwhelms you at that moment because you really are horrible for putting him through all of that.

levi cares for you he does

he may be silent about it and not the best at being public with it but you know how he feels.

you feel it in the way he looks at you

you feel it when he helps you mount your horse

you feel it when he double checks your harnesses before expeditions

you feel it when he tends to your injuries

and, you definitely feel it right now when it sinks in that he was acting like he hated you just so you wouldn’t feel bad if you really did want to break up with him.

he’s always been bad at picking up on hints and cues so you now understand why he interpreted it as you wanting nothing to do with him

of course he wouldn’t ask how you were if it looked like you wanted to skin him alive

“what was the reason for the prank?” he inquisitively asks genuinely wanting to know what it is he can do for you

“i...” you’re wandering off and suddenly don’t want to tell him

“i wanted you to kiss me.” you whisper in a rush

he cocks an eyebrow up even more lost. “i kiss you all the time?”

“i mean, in front of everyone else.”

he blinks and his mouth forms into an “O” shape

it’s a little awkward now

he doesn’t bring it up again so you assume he doesn’t like the idea of letting everyone know just yet

and that’s okay!! you respect that!!

after all, you can’t get mad at him for it, it’s the best choice.

you don’t want people to accuse him of having bias towards you and it’ll probably upset petra and hinder her performance if her crush just suddenly starts dating out of nowhere

your gaze is back on levi and he’s now double checking the bandage on your ankle after tending to it

“you can’t walk for a few weeks.” he tsks

“be careful next time.” he’s always been blunt when he does show he cares and you warmly smile after not talking to him in days.

you feel the need to apologize again

“to make it clear i really am sorry, i should have thought more about you.”

he scoffs and rolls his eyes

“i’m overjoyed that my beautiful girlfriend doesn’t want to break up with me. now, stop moping around about it i’m over it.”

he scoops you up effortlessly and you wrap your arms around his neck.

“y/n, for the record, i’ll work on not jumping to the worst case scenario first.”

you love this aspect of your relationship

being able to understand how your flaws impact the other and choosing to make changes or adjustments

it’s sweet and you must be smiling like an idiot when thinking of it because levi blows a puff of air onto your forehead knocking you out of your daydream

feeling a little less light headed than before you notice he’s walking back out towards the courtyard

why is he doing that...?

“you’re walking in the wrong direction?”

“no i’m not.” he replies with a smug grin

oh my god

no he isn’t

oh my god

is he???

you’re bright pink in the face as you turn to look at him panicking when you hear hange’s group returning

eren can be heard arguing with jean as per usual and now you’re smacking levi’s chest even harder

“you don’t have to do this no, no, no. it’s okay really.” it’s funny how you’re begging him not to do what you’ve been waiting on for three days

but you really don’t want him to feel like he has to do this

as if he’s read your mind he replies. “i’m doing this with my own free will.”

he gives you one last grin and pushes you up against the wall, your back is against the cold yet solid surface and you tense up

oh god. it’s happening he’s diving down and it’s as if everything is moving in slow motion.

gradually you feel the familiar feeling of your heart jumping out of your chest

both of your lips mould together, he’s hoisting you up again preventing you from slipping away. hungry hands grip at your thighs and a knowing smile twitches across his mouth.

nipping at his bottom lip he groans and you nearly forget why it is he’s kissing you

that is until you hear a SCREAM from your right

“eren what the fuck are you yelling at?” jean’s voice can be heard scowling in the distance but you’re too distracted by levi’s mouth to care

eren must be speechless because nothing is heard until jean reaches the scene

“OH. MY. GOD.”

“WHERE IS REINER??? HE’S NOT GONNA BELIEVE THIS.”

“you’re both overreacting.” mikasa makes her appearance and you’re not sure if she’s seen you and levi yet because your eyes fluttered shut long ago

“Y/N AND THE CAPTAIN????? WHY ARE YOU JUST STANDING THERE MIKASA??” eren’s voice sounds so distressed you guess you’re right for assuming he may have had a crush on you at some point

“it was obvious, i don’t know how no one else knew.”

finally levi pulls away and you’re panting practically gasping for any traces of air

“what you looking at brats?” levi snaps in their direction and mikasa nonchalantly shrugs and walks away

jean and eren however, dash away at LIGHTENING speed probably on their way to let everyone else know of the shocking new development

levi pecks your forehead and you nudge your nose against his.

since that day you and levi have been able to get away with a lot more pda

you can hold his hand and stare at how pretty your hands look laced together

you can nuzzle your face into his neck without any questions 

you can loop arms with him and even if he acts like he doesn’t enjoy it he genuinely does like walking around with you latching onto his bicep

although he still prefers the privacy of his office he’s more than happy to give in once in a while

and at the end of the day you’re ecstatic because there’s no more kissing behind your horse!!!

GONE ARE THOSE DAYS

wooHOO

honestly, you’re over the moon about it 

and so is levi

:-)

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[hotspringfairy]

Lately I've felt like giving up, giving in, and just letting myself gain back all the weight I've lost. It doesn't feel worth the effort.

So this is part of a series of posts to motivate myself to keep going! Each post I'll go over one way my life has improved since I've lost weight. I maintained a 50lb loss for 1 year, and then gained 10-15 pounds since moving in October. I'm focusing on losing those pounds, and then another 50 (from 250lbs- 150lbs).

Improvement #8: chairs

This one is surprisingly important to me. I can sit in any chair out in the wild now.

At 250 lbs. I met the first chair my butt was too big for. It seemed like a normal chair, just sitting there in the waiting room. But when I casually attempted to sit down in it, my hips and butt got caught on the big fluffy arms and I had to abort mission. Even though no one else was around, I was mortified. Horrifically embarrassed that I was too big to sit in that chair. There were several other chairs, but they were all the same. I stood there shamefully.

I never, not even once more, even tried to sit in a chair that looked too small. Just knew I couldn't use them. Now, even though I fit in those chairs, every single time I see one that I wouldn't have fit in before, little alarm bells go off in my head. And every time it feels good that I can reassure myself that it's ok now and I can sit.

My office chair still has a broken arm. Idk if it was intentional or not, but when I first started my new job they gave me a desk chair with a broken arm that over-extends- it was the only reason I could fit in that chair. An unspoken accommodation.

But now after losing the weight I have, I can sit in any unbroken office chair. Plastic lawn chairs no longer daunt me. I happily sit in the armed barstools my girl friend got for her new kitchen (they definitely set off the alarm bells) where we spend a lot of time. Did you know most camping chairs have a weight limit under 200 lbs? I spent extra to get a heavy duty one so I didn't have to worry (this ended up being a good investment cuz it's a great chair lol but still). And waiting room chairs. Sometimes I just sit in those stupid fluffy-armed waiting room chairs because I can.

One recent one that I was super happy about: I barely fit in the tiny, old, closed-in theater seat at Cirque du Soleil "O" during my Las Vegas trip. I was so pumped to see that show. It was a tight fit- I couldn't help but imagine how awful it would have been 50 lbs ago- I genuinely believe I would not have fit. Idk what I would have done besides be crushed and humiliated. But I did fit! And a very skinny young lady sat next to me and I think we were quite comfortable and I LOVED the show!

My weight could have robbed me of an incredibly memorable experience, but it didn't thanks to my own hard work! I'm often discouraged that I haven't lost as much weight as I'd like, but the weight I have lost has still made a difference!

I'm surprised how close to the heart this one hits. I'm honestly happy to stand, it's not about getting to sit. There's just something about literally not fitting into spaces in public. Like I don't belong. Like I'm less than human.

I'm never buying chairs like that.

#weightloss

[legoshi-plz]

Dude if it’s horny hour can we do one with Louis. Like maybe his s/o went into heat for the first time with him. Maybe she’s a carnivore and this is his first time dealing with a carnivore in heat

Okay hold up I absolutely LOVE THIS wtf why didn’t I get to this sooner!?!?! Also this started off as headcanons and somehow just naturally morphed into a fic??? I liked both haves so I just kept it!

Warning: Smut (N/SFW 18+)

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- Louis is an Alpha in this scenario but the catch is he’s a Herbivore Alpha!Male which is pretty Apex (idk if I’m using that word right??) amongst Herbivores but still nowhere near Carnivore Alphas if you catch my drift.

- So his significant other is a Carnivore Omega! And so far in the relationship, you’ve been on suppressives to deal with your heat. Which is what most Omegas do because it’s just easier that way.

- Well things have been a little hectic in your life lately. You’d recently moved in with Louis since you were practically over there constantly anyway and somewhere during the move you’d misplaced your suppressants. At the time you didn’t think it was a big deal since your heat was still a couple of weeks away.

- You went to your doctor, hoping to just get a refill be on your way but of course doctors never believe Omegas and denied your request, saying you had to fill out a Lost Claim form, and wait for it to be approved and whatnot, a process that would take weeks. You filled out the form you knew deep down it wasn’t going to go through in time.

- So you began mentally preparing yourself. You knew you couldn’t involve Louis in this. You loved him with all of your heart but he was still a Herbivore. You couldn’t control yourself during your heats, it was dangerous for him to even be in the same vicinity as you, let alone try to help you with it.

- You also knew asking one of your Carnivore Alpha friends to help you out was a no go. Louis was still an Alpha in his own right and like most Alphas, he wore his pride on his sleeve. That in combination with his Shishigumi position, he’d have any animal that tried to assist you killed. No, you would definitely just have to handle this on your own.

- Your old apartment, though pretty barren except for the furniture that came with it, was where you’d have to tough this out. Thankfully, your lease wasn’t up until the end of the month so it was the perfect place to isolate yourself.

- The day your heat was due to start, you waited until Louis left for work then you skipped out with a duffle bag full of everything you’d need to survive the next couple of days. You knew you should texted Louis to let him know you were okay but you didn’t trust him not to double back so you left an old school handwritten note on his pillow that read “Be back in a few days.”

- Needless to say when Louis came home to find that, along with some of your things missing, he automatically assumed the worst. Were you leaving him? What had he done so awful that you needed physical space and time away from him? Were you in trouble? Were you... cheating on him? The last thought threw him into an utter rage and he immediately began blowing up your phone only for it to go straight to an automated messaging system.

- Louis began to panic, he called in a few connections and eventually discovered you’d been seen entering your old apartment earlier this week. Without a second thought, Louis grabbed his car keys and was at your place in no time flat.

- The second he opened the door, he was overwhelmed with your scent. This was far more intense than any heat he’d ever experienced with a Herbivore and almost instantly triggered his rut.

- He found you curled up in your old bedroom in a flimsy, barely thrown together nest, clutching your abdomen in pain. He immediately picked you up and carried you down to his car.

- “There’s no way I’m letting you ride out your heat in that pathetic excuse of a nest.” Louis grumbled, buckling you into the front seat. As he himself climbed into the drivers seat and drove off, he thought the pain of your situation would keep you preoccupied until the two of you arrived home. He was mistaken.

- The entire drive home, you were pawing him through his clothes, trying to convince him to take you right then and there. Getting you inside wasn’t any easier as you kept trying to rip his clothes off of him. By the time he threw you on the bed, you were full on begging him to ruin you.

- Louis wanted you so badly but he was hesitant. There was a reason you’d gone through such essesive lengths to avoid having him help you through your heat. You’d lied to him, holed yourself up in your old empty place, even endured this physical pain alone just to avoid asking him for help. A small part of him felt hurt. Perhaps you didn’t want him to breed you after all...

- Louis pushed his own feelings to the side. You were in agony and you needed relief, and he was the only one who could provide that for you now. So without further to do, he stripped you of your clothes, your feverent hands rushing to help him.

- The second you spread your legs for him, Louis could feel his resolve crumbling as the scent of your hormones flooded his senses. It was a beautiful smell, so sweet and mouthwatering it made him physically groan in hunger.

- He brought two fingers to your lips, shoving them in your mouth roughly. “Suck.” You followed his orders immediately, whining when he removed them. He made up for it immensely though, when he slid them inside your aching entrance one at a time.

- He fingerfucked you into a sobbing mess, begging him for more, meanwhile he was fighting the onslaught of his own rut tooth and nail. Despite his best efforts, it still kicked in with brute force, his entire body igniting in passion.

- He wanted to take the noble route, he really really wanted to take the noble route but him jerking himself within an inch of his life while pumping you with his fingers just wasnt cutting it. He needed to be inside you and he needed it now.

- He pulled you on top of him so that you could dictate the pace and at least have some semblance of control. That was his downfall.

- You sank right onto him, riding him like mad while clawing at the fur of his chest. Louis tried getting you to slow down by steadying your hips but it was a fruitless effort. You were consuming him completely, your soft walls sucking him in greedily. You were so tight, Louis knew he didn’t stand a chance at lasting with you and he was right. Louis came immediately, his knot locking into place within you.

- You shuddered on top of him, the tightness of his knot stretching your core finally slowing you down. Louis sat up some, adjusting himself so that he could suckle you, taking your oversensitive, engorged nipples into his mouth.

“Feeling better?” He asked switching to the other neglected nipple. Your eyes seemed to finally lose the clouded haze they possessed earlier and you looked like you could actually concentrate with his knot locked deep inside you. Louis knew he didn’t have long before the swell went down and the two of you were back at it again, slaves to your own hormones.

“Louis, baby, I’m so sorr-“

“Save it Y/N. Just... just tell me why you ran,” Louis asked so you explained the entire situation to him and how you didn’t want to hurt him in case you lost control. Louis listened intently, not saying a word the entire time. Once you finished, he simply hummed in acknowledgment that he’d heard you before sliding you off of him. You hadn’t even noticed that his knot had ceased its swelling enough for you two to separate.

“We’re going to have a serious conversation about this once we’re in our right minds.” Louis said digging in the closet for something, then returning with a silk tie the two of you had implemented in the bedroom previously on more than one occasion. “But for now, I’m about to show you just how much you could never hurt me.”

“However, before we do this, you have to tell me how you want it. Rut or not, I have enough self control to back off if you tell me to,” Louis said sincerely yet you could tell by the way his dick was already standing at full attention this was harder for him than he let on. “If you don’t want me, or if you think I won’t be.... enough, then I-”

“Louis that’s not the case at all! Of course I want you! In any capacity! But not if there’s a chance that I’ll.... th-that I could....”

“Y/N, look at me,” you did and it was as beautiful a sight as always. Despite his herbivore status he was far from fragile, his frame filling out in adulthood to showcase the power and authority male deer held in the animal kingdom.

“Being devoured is far from being a fear of mine.” He glanced down at his prosthetic, “and besides, you couldn’t hurt me even if you tried. You’re too weak and small, I could easily overpower you.”

As if for emphasis, Louis grabbed you by the ankles and pulled you to the edge of the bed so that his straining member was pressed against your exposed entrance. Your legs went to instinctively wrap around his waist but he halted the action, opting instead to throw them over his shoulder. He had to bend forward since your legs were too short otherwise for the position, which brought him face to face with you.

“Now I’m only going to ask this one more time. How. Do. You. Want it?” His breath fanned over you as he slid himself inside you, a snug fit made easier by how wet you were for him already.

You were mewling beneath him and Louis couldn’t deny the sense of power that washed over him. He felt his Alpha instincts kicking into high gear and before you could even answer, he had begun his own pace.

He was pounding into you like his life depended on it, the sounds you were making only adding fuel to his fire. You were begging him to claim you, mark you up, make you his. The bond mark on your neck where he had long since mated you called to him. But he resisted. The two of you had all night, there was no need to rush. Besides, if he sank his teeth into you every time your scent glands called to him, he’d end up tearing your throat open.

“Fuck Louis, I’m about to explode. Please let me cum, I need your knot to cum,” you cried, slapping his forearm in a weak attempt to tap out. But your disheveled state alone was enough to drive him over the edge, your automatic submission to him making his Alpha practically preen in satisfaction.

He came for the second time that night, the familiar feeling of his knot expanding and filling you to the brink becoming addictive to him. He kissed your ankle before letting your trembling legs fall from his shoulders to take purchase on his waist. He ran his fingers through the soft fur of your thighs as a way to soothe you as you came down from the high of your own orgasm.

The two of you sat there, taking in each other’s forms until you finally broke the silence, “You forgot to tie me up.”

Louis glanced over at the long forgot silk tie on the bed. Though he’d suspected this might be the case, he knew for sure now he’d never need the garment. With the excess strength and power his rut gave him along with your natural submission to him as an Alpha, all thoughts of you hurting him were quickly negated.

“I have a feeling we won’t be needing that,” he growled, leaning down to nuzzle into the crook of your neck.

#beastars #beastars louis #beastars louis x reader #louis x reader #louis x you #louis

[professional-benaddict]

Raf! Possible prompt from that recent reboot you had: Peter is hanging out with Tony and Stephen and he falls into Little space sometimes but he doesn’t even realize it or that that’s a thing! When they ask about it, he just thinks he’s relaxing and his boyfriends are bein lovey. Idk, something about Peter not knowing he drops into being a little so seamlessly because his daddies take such good care of him is just *mwah* chefs kisses! 🌙🌙 Also, I’m glad your dentist went well!! I was sending good vibes!!

eEeee this is such a cute idea!! daddies are so much older and wiser and know what’s best for peter when he doesn’t even know himself sksk☺️☺️💗💗 i hope you like what i came up with!!🌸🌸

(Daddies) Stephen and Tony, +18 Little Peter, sneaky ageplay (?), slipping into littlespace, kink discovery/exploring, fluff, comfort

There is no doubt that Peter’s boyfriends are older than him. It is not just that Peter is attracted to older men, but something about the two men’s personalities and ways of being had made Peter fall head over heels for the two of them.

Stephen and Tony had been in a stable partnership for a while already before Peter joined the dynamic. At first, they told Peter they thought it would spice up their relationship to have a younger ‘twink’ with them. But, they never would have guessed they would get so attached to the younger man.

And now, their three year anniversary is coming up.

Peter is definitely comfortable in the dynamic now. He knows his place, but he isn’t afraid to put his feet up on the table either. While he studies, Peter switches between staying at the college campus and Stephen and Tony’s house further away from the city center.

Their unspoken routines are well established now, and Peter waltzes into the house. He isn’t being rude, his boyfriends have assured that, but Peter is particularly worn out today. He can hear music coming from the living room, and he drags his feet while walking.

“-and what did you do then?”

“Well, I told him he could either sit down and be still for me to fix that God awful gash, or I could knock him out a second time.” Stephen laughs. He has obviously had a shift in the ER at the hospital again, and the stories are always bloody, but hilarious.

“Gross.” Peter comments, flopping half way onto Tony’s lap, and with his legs dangling over the arm rest on the sofa. Tony startles a bit, and Stephen too, but they quickly recover and greet Peter fondly.

“Hey, you tired? Long day?” Tony asks, scratching Peter’s scalp. The younger man groans and sighs in agreement.

This is not the first time Peter has appeared in such a state. The two older men share a look and a fond smile. They have a few tricks up their sleeves.

“Hmm, you’ve been working hard for sure. You’re so good and hard working.” Tony praises, and once again Peter responds with non-verbal sounds. “How about Steph runs a bath for you while I start on dinner? Is spagetti and meatballs okay?”

It sounds more than okay. Wonderful even, and Peter turns a bit to face the men. He smiles tiredly, and rubs at his eyes.

“I’d love that.”

Once up in the bathroom with Stephen, the older man even offers to remove Peter’s clothing while he rests. Peter doesn’t question it, and lets Stephen remove his clothes and fill the tub. He adds some bath salt and bubbles to it before helping Peter into the water. The younger man lets out a sigh of pleasure at being surrounded by the warm water. It is like a cushion around him, lulling him into relaxing.

At one point, Stephen also adds three rubber ducks to the tub. They bob from side to side on the surface, and Peter cannot help but smile.

“We thought you might like them.” Stephen murmurs about the ducks. Peter hums in reply, tilting his head backwards so that Stephen can rinse his hair, all the while holding onto the yellow duck in his hand.

Peter feels odd after the bath, but luckily Stephen helps him with each step. Stephen dries his hair and body, helps him into new and clean clothes, and moistusies his face with a cream that smells faintly of a pine tree forest.

“Shall we go eat?”

Peter nods back and reaches for Stephen’s hand. With his other hand, he starts toying with his bottom lip. Perhaps he is just really hungry.

In the living room, Tony has set the dinner table for three. The food is all ready, and Tony is pouring two glasses of wine. Peter doesn’t ask for a glass. He hates red wine. Instead, Peter sees that Tony has set a Coke for him on the table. There is even a straw in it.

When Peter goes to sit down, he is just about to get himself a portion, only to pull back his arm again when Tony grabs his plate. The two men really are doing everything for him today, and Peter doesn’t mind at all. He might even enjoy it.

“Shall I cut it up for you?” Tony asks, but before Peter can answer, Tony has already started. He cuts the spagetti into four sections, then the five meatballs in half. All bite sized.

“Thank you.” Peter mumbles, blushing a bit.

“No problem. Be a good boy and eat up now.”

“Yes, Daddy.” Peter says, not even realising what he has said it seems. Instead, the younger man starts eating happily.

Stephen and Tony share another look. Success.

(part two??)

#my prompts #little!peter #daddy!stephen #daddy!tony #starker #starkerstrange #strangespider #spiderstrange #ironstrange #tony stark x peter parker #tony stark x stephen strange #peter parker x stephen strange #peter parker #tony stark #stephen strange #moon anon #ask

[springtimeinthemuseum]

okay so this isn’t anything food related so my apologies hey. i just don’t really have a space to just go mental and write nonsense; so i’m doing it here. so disregard if you’re here for food content, but stay tuned for a bit of wholesome shit.

i am the middle child between two boys. my oldest is 1 year apart from me and my youngest is 5 years. so generally people think i’d be closest to my oldest. not the case. growing up, he really majorly sucked. would bully my youngest every day after school because we were home while my parents were at work. he told me to kill myself many times and once told me, in front of my dad, that if i didn’t kill myself then he would do it for me, then grabbed a knife. lovely.

my youngest is an angel. he was always called the ‘golden child’ and my oldest hated it. was mad jealous. but i fucking agreed hey. like everyone would say how i must hate that one sibling is considered the ‘golden child’. but literally no? it’s fact. this kid is just so thoughtful and kind. i often joke that he is adopted because how can you have me and my oldest, and then this fucking perfect human? impossible. he is just brilliant and as strange as it sounds i truly look up to him. he speaks his mind and he doesn’t do anything that he doesn’t genuinely want to do and he is so fucking beautifully kind. an example of his wholesomeness was the other night. i come out the front to smoke bc i’m an idiot. i often see crazy bugs and animals (i’m in australia). i saw a funky frog the other night and texted my family banter group chat. this kid comes out with his fucking frog book and flipped through the pages with me until we identified the lil guy???? idk if it’s silly but i just found that interaction so sweet. perhaps it’s because i’m used to being told to off myself by a sibling. we just sat there until we figured out who this frog was and then he told me some fun facts about the guy.

anyway. i’m not doing so great right now. tuesday is the 1 year anniversary of being discharged from hospital. i’ve never made it an entire year hospital free so i’m sort of wigging out a bit. i feel awful and on the verge of relapse in so many ways i’m just fucking panicking hey. but i helped my youngest move bedrooms tonight (oldest moved out so youngest took his bigger room). once we were finished we just sat there in his new room and talked. we go to the same uni so we laughed about how insane uni life is. he showed me stupid tik toks and i showed him stupid facebook videos. we do this every now and again. sit down and show each other stupid funny shit we’ve saved recently. and it truly just made everything better. every single fucking issue i’ve been having just faded away because i sat there and realised that the only thing that matters is this kid. if i can’t do it for myself then i can surely do it for this kid. he saves me in ways that he can never understand. i feel so incredibly lucky to have this man in my life and i just wanted to put it into words. i doubt that anyone will read this far and that’s okay. i suppose i’m putting this here for myself. so i can come back to this post when i’m feeling bad and just sit and realise that my world is more than me. i have never ever subscribed to the notion that i should do anything or live for anyone other than myself. but this kid is the one exception. i would do anything for him and he doesn’t even know it. i truly cannot put into words how beautiful this human is. he started a paramedicine degree because he loved the idea of helping people. but he changed his mind a year later and is now studying a degree in environmental management because he ‘wants to work at a national park and take school kids on tours and teach them about wildlife and the importance of preserving it’ ???? like hello? how fucking lovely??????

idk guys. idk why i feel the need to just vent and post this. but i’m doing it because it might help me in the future. i may be making some pretty awful decisions about my diet. but i truly strive to keep myself here as long as i can. not because i want to be here for my own life; but because i want to watch this man live his. so hopefully when i feel super bad i can come here and read this and just think about the fact that people like him exist. idk man. having those nights where it’s just us. two siblings that just get along. it’s not something i’m very used to. i’m so excited and surprised when it happens. i look forward to them so much and i often save videos knowing that it’s something i will show him next time we have a night like this. i sometimes wonder when he’ll grow out of it and when these nights will stop. but they haven’t. he’s 19 now and they haven’t. and i’m so grateful.

i know he will never read this but i hope he can feel the love and appreciation i have for him. if you’ve read this far then i love you too and i hope that you have someone in your life who can be this for you. and if you don’t please message me. we can create that together.

i love you Bus. you are the greatest man i’ve ever known, besides our father Paulos (who may have his own post one day because he is an absolute fucking queen)

thank you for listening to my nonsense if you’ve made it this far. i send my undying love to you. take care. take it easy. you’re okay.

[zhowongli]

hello! i started a new thread because the other one (+ this one) got really long, so sorry! but i guess this is my love letters to you guys because you’ve made my tumblr experience so, so much better && i’m grateful for all of you guys + all of my mutuals and followers!!

first of all, @himawari-senpaii thank you so so much for your kind words! meggi, i love your sunflower motif because it suits you so well! sunflowers make me smile whenever i see them, and it really brings me so much joy to see you on my dash/notifs. your tags are always so fun and sweet. thank you for tagging me in this 🥺 

@animoozies connie, where do i even start? you were my very, very first tumblr mutual on this account! i’m so thankful you reached out to me before, and you’re still checking up on me even now. words can’t describe how much i adore you + how appreciative of you! when i see you on my dash with your stories, i always end up cackling because you’re so fun. idk how you do it working all those hours + going to nursing school, but you is a mf boss ass queen!!

@hoekaashi ash, my queen!! my tag for you is my day is blessed because ash ✨exists✨ because that’s honestly how i feel about you. i am truly blessed with your kindness, your humor, your friendship, you. thank you for always keeping me company through our struggles in pharmacy school! you are one of the realest people i know, and i feel so honored that you always send me random kenma pics & fics you think i’d like 🥺

@kanao annette, the other half of my soul, my whole heart, my literal soul sister. you are one of the biggest blessings i’ve received this year, and i honestly don’t know where i would be without you listening to my dumb shit and supporting me through all my mess LOL. thank you for validating me all the time, even if it’s just stupid stuff like enabling me to buy all the random stuff that i’ve been thinking about LMAO. i love how we are always ✨speaking✨ and  ✨manifesting✨ good things in our futures together. i literally feel like i can talk about any and everything with you, and i love that about us 🥺 i am manifesting that beach vacation 2021 for us, okay!!! 💖

@sapphitedreams leo, my cutest menace in the kitchen 💖 thank you for reaching out to me when i was too shy to reach out to you uuuu. you’re such a chaotic calm in my life, and i love your energy. i am constantly in awe with how adorable, supportive, and creative you are! even though you bully me sometimes and only make things for characters’ birthdays, you are so so talented and it floors me every time i see your creations because they are so amazing idk how they’re real. i hope you are able to get some rest even if you have to work during your break (& i hope you don’t accidentally fall during work anymore smh HAHAH)!

@onefortyninecm danielle!! my love!! i know i mention this before, but i am always so so inspired by you. you’re so tiny, but you have such a big heart and soul. you’re so beautiful inside and out + your humor is god tier. i’m so glad you were the very first person i’ve ever commissioned from (& spiraled me into comissioning indulgent kenma art HAHAHA), and i’m still amazed by your talent and kindness every time you post something new omg. i still can’t believe you DREW ON YOUR PHONE what the heck!! you’re so talented it’s crazy HAHA. i’m always thinking fondly of you + dandy wedding in a pumpkin patch 2021, okay thanks. 

@p-irozhki rissa!! i am so blessed with all the gifs you create and all your content on my dash! whenever i think of you, i think about all the smol icons you use because to me, you = cuteness = i wanna hug you so much!!! i think i already said it, but i’m always so thankful when you read all my self-indulgent fanfics and leave kind comments on them 😭 thank you for culturing me about mangoes HAHAHA. there’s never a bad time with you, and i’m thankful we got to meet this year!

@hoshino-a lena lena! you actually have so much bde that i am in constant awe by you. you are such a baddie & i have this like clear imagine in my head of you with crisp and clean vibes + the skies from your pfp on discord, hehe. i love you and all your brain rots about your exes. at this point, every time i see semi, my first thought is “ah it’s lena’s ex” and whenever i hear some sad song, i would be like “omg it’s lena ab her ex semi eita” LMFAOIOAGJDLA. i love talking to you because your energy is just immaculate + i just love your presence 💖 also please get some sleep because do you even sleep 😭 

@myelocin nic!! you’ve painted my world in so many iridescent shade so life, i can’t even begin to describe how much you mean to me. you works are just so beautiful so imagine how much i shrieked when i saw you followed me LMFAOOADIGDALJ i love that your blog is your safe space because it has become a place of comfort for me as well (and i’m going to miss you so much when you leave 😭😭). your makki brain rot is so strong, and sometimes i think about makki and you making dinner and teasing each other and throwing flour at each other or something idk. this is nic’s world now and we are all living in it tbh. 

@tsu-kiss nina!! you are someone i find such comfort in. i’m not really sure if that even makes sense LOL. but your blog and you are a source of comfort for me. in my head, you have such an older sister vibe even though i’m older than you LMAOOADGHDAKJ. i hope life is treating you well because you deserve all the best!! seeing you thrive makes my heart so full 🥺 i love you so much!!

@souheii lisa!! i kid you not, the first time you dropped an ask in my ask box, my heart skipped a beat because you told me you love me and i love you and you are so cute and i cri!!!! i know we don’t talk often, but every time i see you on my dash or in my notifs or when we do talk, it’s like a little shot of serotonin every time :”) thank you for being such a lovely human being mrs. iwaizumi hajime, 27, althetic trainer😭

@ultkags​ cas!! my first child 💖 i know you’re on a hiatus right now because school really, really sucks BUT you are seriously one of my biggest blessings. you are literally my ray of sunshine because every time i talk to you, i gain so much warmth and energy from you. every time i see your edits, it absolutely AMAZES me because i literally don’t know how i am able to see all your edits FOR FREE?? all your thoughts behind the composition and symbolism for each piece is CRAZY. please remember that i’m always your biggest fan + i love you so so much. please take care and remember to drink water and get some rest!! your grandma is always here to send you love + forehead kisses because this grandma can’t bake :(

@u-make-my-heart-tsumtsum​ ree!! hi, i know we’ve only started talking recently but i love how open and warm you are. our love was so strong that even tumblr tried to stop us 😭 conversations with you are always so easy and lovely, and you are just such a cool person!? i love reading all your thoughts (& i can’t wait to dive into your masterlist after school ends because we live for fluffy tsumu content 😭). i’m not sure why you even follow me, but i adore you so much!!

@neonghxst​ el, where do i even begin!! you are such a lovely person, and i literally have no other words to say because you always leave me speechless. your writing is so so gorgeous, and you are so so beautiful. i love reading all your stories because they truly leave an everlasting impact on me, and i love reading your interactions + just seeing you on my dash. you are so thoughtful, and you take care of everyone around you so well. i hope that you are also giving yourself the same treatment because you deserve all the best as well! remember to drink water in between your coffees and get some rest as you go into your final 2 weeks of the semester!! 

@und3lla​ maliha! hi love! i know we haven’t spoken much or in a while, but i really do always think of you randomly. you were one of the first mutuals i made && you are such a sweet soul. i love how every time we talk, it really fills me up with happiness. thank you for just being such a lovely person && you truly are one of the softest people i’ve met. thank you <3

@deadontheinsidebut angel, my dumb ham, my queen, my hoe (heaven on earth), my everything. i know you are also on a semi-hiatus right now because everything that’s going on, but i hope you are properly taking care of yourself >:( i’m always here to remind you to drink some water in between your coffees and teas and to GET SOME REST. you are so so driven, and i really admire how open and friendly you are. you truly are your namesake because you are literally an angel, and i always feel so blessed to be in your presence (even if you bully me sometimes for being a boomer 😔). words can’t describe how much i love you and care about you && i hope that you are able to find what you’re looking for during your break! 💖

@rumprich​ ananya! hello! i am so thankful to see you and all your content on my dash. you have so much creativity, and all your edits are so aesthetically pleasing to look at? like it’s so light + pretty!! i’m so so grateful that we are mutuals somehow because ahhh i really don’t deserve you. you are so adorable, and i truly am blessed to see your presence! 

@yuki-souma​ vee! i know we only started talking very very recently, but you are so much fun to talk to! i love how diverse our conversations are, and i love that we have similar favorites, and even when we don’t, it’s always a fun conversation that i look forward to! i love how open and inviting you are, and i’m really grateful that we are mutuals + i love and appreciate you so so much! 

@owlywrites​ owly! hello! you are seriously one of the most supportive souls i’ve met on this website. your kindness and drive to learn always leaves me speechless because you’re so amazing. thank you for being so kind to me, and i hope you extend that same kindness to yourself! don’t be so hard on yourself and remember to take breaks and take care too. you are such a beautiful soul, and i hope you’ll remember that i’m always here to support you!! 

@graphicstills-in-motion hi arianne! thank you so so much for always being so kind to me. i don’t know what i did in life to deserve you, but i must have done something right to have someone so kind like you in my life! thank you for being such a sweet soul + always boosting everyone around you up. your kindness is definitely contagious! i love seeing your edits and reading our conversations because there are always so many thoughts put in. thank you <3

@applepienation​ justine! thank you so much for always checking in on me whenever i post random shit on my dash. i really do appreciate you and all that you do for not just me, but also for everyone around you. you are such a ray of sunshine, and i’m so thankful that you’re in my life! i know uni is crazy for you right now, but i hope you’re still taking time to take care of yourself! sending you lots of love and positive energy!!

@touyax​ drake! hi love. i absolutely LIVE for your tags LMAOOADJGALD. they are literally my thoughts but you just typed them out HAHAH. i’m so thankful that i get to see your beautiful content on my dash, and i’m always in awe by all your edits! thank you for always being such a fun person + never leaving me feeling like a fool whenever i post ask games LOL. i love and appreciate you so much! 💖

@kagehjna​ ilayda! my kagehina supplier 🥺🥺 i love seeing your presence on my dash because you truly post all the best things! you are such a lovely person + i love reading your tags HAHA. you are truly a joy and we will definitely have matching kagehina icons one day okay 😭😭 12/7 is finally here/coming SO I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! thank you for always blessing me <3

@sadaharus hi mei! you are literally the definition of softness to me. all your content and edits are just so soft and beautiful, and i love seeing everything you post. you are my main gintama supplier HAHA. i really appreciate how kind you are + how you’re always so sweet to me. 🥺 i know it’s kinda funny how i started following you because of a random ask game, but i’m so so glad i did because i always feel so thankful you’re here! 

@fake-charliebrown charlie! my little sprout babie!! i have so much admiration for you because you have so so much talent! your style is so distinctive, and i love that!! it’s so soft + vibey, and i’m honestly so so amazed by it all. not to mention, you have the best haikyuu thoughts! thank you for sharing all of that with me! i’m thankful for you, thank you <3

@itachihaa​ ay! my froggy princess 🥺 thank you for always being so kind to me + having the patience to deal with how slow i am to responding!! i’m really appreciative of you always because you make/have so much beautiful content and you are so so sweet as well!? and the way you call me miss starlight 🥺 that makes me so soft like!! uuu i love you. 

@stardust-make-a-wish​ star! you are so so adorable!! i LOVE reading your tags because they make me feel so fuzzy and soft but also relatable HAHA. your presence is such a joy + thank you for always interacting with me even though i just spam random stuff LMAO. i love how thoughtful your answers are + how much you love cake/sweets (very suiting because you are so sweet 🥺). thank you for being interested in me even though i am the one asking you questions! 

@karasu-hoes​ daisy! hello! i have so much admiration for you because you have so much creativity and kindness! like your events are so cool and unique + your writing is so beautiful! i love reading your feral thoughts + all your work. i also really love reading your witching hours!!! thank you for blessing me with you 🥺 you are always so kind + i love how much you care about your friends and the people around you. i hope you’re taking care while renewing your teaching certifications! 💖

@frailuta nico! hello love! i know we haven’t really spoken before, but i just want to know i love you so much. you make the most beautiful gifs + i truly am in awe every time you post something. life is tough sometimes, but you are tougher! sending so so much love and positive energy to you + please remember to take care! <3

to all my mutuals and followers: thank you so so much for sticking with me and my mess of a blog. i honestly don’t really contribute much to anything, but i’m so thankful you guys are still here! thank you, thank you, thank you! i love and appreciate all of you guys + my ask box/messages are always open if you want/need someone to talk to 💖 thinking fondly of everyone today + so much love to you guys mwah mwah!

#text #this got really long but #i am really truly thankful for everyone of you #i have so so much love for you guys #sending all my love and positive energy to you guys #i'm so sorry sometimes i'm really slow at responding but #i really do think of you guys!! #love you all mwah mwah