#like 4 am sadness

[torchickentacos]

Ok now it’s 4 am and I just cried over nothing and everything so here’s your reminder to go to sleep before The Horrors set in. Don’t trust bad things after 10 pm regular nights and 12:30 on new years. By 4 am you’re just gonna get stuck in a ‘everyone I love dies and what will happen and also my tummy hurts’ loop which is not fun. It’s like a video game with each hour being a progressively harder, worse level but you’re the boss battle. It’s you. Beat it by going the fuck to sleep, waking up, and realizing all your 4 am problems were ridiculous/not a current issue and kind of funny to be that upset about in retrospect. It’s like watching a drunk girl in a bathroom cry about that time she killed a spider but you’re the drunk friend right now crying over that wolf spider in your basement from six years ago when you could have put it outside. Also sorry anyone seeing this at like 2 pm

#vent post but eh I’m fine #just bad sleepy #okay to rb if this speaks to you #but literally I cry over everything at 4 am #because my mom woke up and was nice to me so I cried because I love her #and I cried because my stomach hurt #and then I was ok but I got warm water accidentally and cried over that #and maybe I’m over sharing. I think I tend to but honestly like idk #I think humans have so many similar emotions #like 4 am sadness #and maybe someone else is 4 am sad right now too #and my lack of a filter. especially past 12. is comforting to them #hi we can be sad together and then go to sleep #GOOD NEWS IM NOT CRYING ANYMORE #I also cry laugh though and cry when I see my friends after a long time and I think I’m just a very cry-y person #I always feel better afterwards but I definitely joy cry a lot too #L’Oréal waterproof mascara. doesn’t come off but won’t budge either #you’ll probably take eyelashes off with it but hey you can sob your heart out in it #hope you have fancy efficient ass makeup remover though

[southern--downpour]

gl!ranboo doodle sheet bc i am actually going insane

#generation loss #genloss #generation loss fanart #ranboo #ranboo fanart #haha get boxed idiot <- said while actively crying #virgil arts #this was drawn at like. 4-5 am while i watched my bf play a half life mod #dude this series has actually grabbed hold of my brain its so so good #also i was in fact looping puppet boy while drawing this #songs just good also started making me feel very sad about gl!ranboo and i think that was the point lmao

[cozylittleartblog]

had a(nother) nightmare

#deltarune #rouxls kaard #lancer #queen #art #lancer had a bad dream. rouxls comes in to fall asleep in the floor like he always does. queen followed because she needs to #Familiarize Herself with The Rituals and also hey her boy is sad #and then they ALL fell asleep in the floor literally right next to his bed #-- i had tire marks on the bedsheets but they vanished somewhere. damn it #this one isnt old btw i just drew this This Morning HEHEHEHE #its kinda scrungy but thats ok #ok 2 tag ship but not explicitly ship either if ur not into it #i love that half my 'qk' art can very easily be read platonically #i think thats an important aspect of their relationship is that they are good friends and coparents. and THEN they're kissing sometimes #this is hardly the first family cuddle and or sleep pile ive drawn. i never posted my favorite i dont think #i am just all about sleep and cuddle piles. did u know swatchlings love to sleep in piles (headcanon) #if one bird falls asleep in the cafe the odds are very good that one or two more will join them #theres a pile of birds in booth 4 all shoved in there haphazardly and eeping. swatch is coming with pots and pans.

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

#writeblr #warm up #i can't write rn but i have SO much words in here bc im reading the chorus of dragons books #(just started book 4) #and this woman's writing is just LIVING in my brain. let me out!!! #(i read roughly like 2-4 books a week usually bc i go on long walks with my dog but when a book is REALLY good like. it eats my life. ) #anyway ...... so like here's a story that idk i've tried to explain to other people as being wild #but maybe im the only one who thinks it is wild??? #so i play pokemon go (i just started in jan) bc i love pokemon and as i have mentioned i walk goblin for like an hour in the morning #and i don't like a lot of fitness trackers due to the fact it makes me .sad. but i also wanted the little digital rewards. enter pokemon go #anyway so they make you make friends to complete quests. so i used a reddit thread. i do not usually use reddit. i don't have an acct #i lurked. i just googled like ''pokemon go reddit '' and randomly added a bunch of numbers #i was on that page for all of 15 minutes. there are THOUSANDS of responses on that page. #here's what's wild: in that group of people. even though i am not on reddit and it was one random event once #it turns out one of those people lives in the town i live in. or at least very close. i only know this because #when we send each other gifts. it's from the same freaking area. #i can't ask them to meet up bc pokemon go doesn't have a messaging app lol but like . what are the fucking chances that #a random person posts in a random reddit thread and HAPPENS to get added by someone ELSE from their SAME TOWN #who by pure fucking CHANCE is ALSO playing pokemon go and looking for friends #i googled it there's only 42000 people in my broad region. the .......... smallness ! of the world!!!

[esprei]

Emmet month - Day 4: Memories

though Ingo may be gone, he'll never be forgotten

#submas #subway bosses #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #subway boss nobori #subway boss kudari #gym leader elesa #nimbasa trio #monthofemmet #my art #whew i am 4 days late ;; #anyway i let myself keep this one much MUCH less refined (as hard as it was to do that slkgj) #also bringing back the kid submas designs i did a looooong time ago #like them as young trainers that one #anyway of course i choose to do something sad with this one hehe #emmet sitting all alone in his apartment looking through old photo albums ;-; #gettin' tear stains all over the pages

[deoidesign]

important distinction.

Testing a few different things with this one

#I spent straight up 5 hours testing out and trying to use different animation programs and you know what #they all suck all the fun out of it for me. frame by fram 4 ever yaaa #anyways I'm thinking about trying to make like an animated short or something. might get some voice actors and everything #extremely excited thinking about it #however I fucked up super hard and I accidentally overwrote my original file with my reduced size version. so #I only have this like 500px version of this now #so if I were to use this clip I'd have to redo it anyways #but I think I wouldnt? idk. maybe I would. but either way I was just doing this as a test I dont think I'd want the same composition anyway #this is what I am telling myself so I dont get sad losing that file WHWLJGLJGLKSJG I am extremely sad about it but. its okay. #ok anyways #animated gif #2d animation #my art #digital art #ocs #my ocs #time and time again #animated #animation #gif #rough animation #adam #ttawebcomic

[tricoufamily]

we're rewatching a television show. doing irreparable damage to my spotify wrapped rn

#i'm a quinn gatekeeper #you say you're a quinn head ⁉ #real quinn heads were watching sad amvs 24/7 like the 'and i've lost who i am and i can't understand' ones + the 'what if quinn died' ones #(?? why were there so many of those what were those) #real quinn heads would only listen to the i don't wanna know version with isolated quinn vocals #REAL quinn heads would only listen to the version of don't stop believing that spliced in that one time she did the smell of wine line #you tiktokers know NOTHING about being a true quinn head #.....ok you know i am 99.9% gay but my sexuality is unlabeled and dianna agron is like. at least 90% of the reason why to this day #like whatever was going on with me from ages 10 to 13 with her- jdkfjsdfs #ts4 #ts4 edit #ts4 cas #the sims 4

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

HELLO I AM FEELING A LITTLE SAD but i thought about laughingstock, and it’s making it better, which is partially thanks to you! So big thanks!!!

yay! yippee!! yahoo!!! happy to contribute even if it's in a small way <3! here's more of the Gay Sillies! out of context style!

#i hope tomorrow treats you better #*today? #idk its like. 4 am. well i hope the rest of your week goes well how about that #may it bring you a Tasty Treat and/or a Cool Bird #scribble salad #rambles from the bog #laughingstock #they really do just provide The Most serotonin dont they #cant be sad when we've got these gay as fuck blorbos <3

[corrodedcoughin]

So I know celebrity rockstar Eddie with Just-Some-Guy Steve is popular, but what about the opposite?

Steve, who is a professional Basketball player, got scouted from where he played for his college team. The fan fave, the darling of the locals, and one of the best players on the team. Models for sportswear brands, has had interviews and talks at schools and the media loves him. He's handsome, and nice, and has publicly come out.

And then there's Eddie. His boyfriend since college. Just some guy who runs a music store. Started just as a minimum wage worker and then slowly worked his way up to running a small business himself. Sells guitars and drums and other instruments. Vinyl and cds and music merch. Hosts guitar lessons. Is happy playing music because he loves it, not for the fame and money.

Eddie goes to all his games (or as many as he can) and while he's not a sports guy and never will be he loves watching Steve play. Is only about 80% sure of the rules at best and that's good enough for Steve. And Steve who's not a metal fan, and will never be into DnD but will spend his free evenings helping Eddie plan a campaign or listening to this song Eddie's been trying to learn on the guitar.

Idk I just think it's fun to explore the opposite! Eddie getting excited any time he sees people wearing Steve's merch in public and people keep mistaking him for a hardcore fan because no one knows who he is and honestly he's fine with that. He is a big fan of Steve

he's a big fan of steve' MOMO THAT LAST LINE TOOK ME OUT!!!! OHH!!!!

Okay so as always i am IN LOVE with your ideas and where you take them and explore with the space.

Please can I have Eddie who doesn't completely GET sports but he DOES get collecting so he has one of those card books and collects basket ball trading cards. He has a full page of 'Steves' that he every proud of because he's drawn on some of them, giving him different outfits/hair/facial hair/speech bubbles, some include dragon hatcher steve, android steve, malibu barbie steve and pronstache steve (that one wasn't even drawn on, Steve was just trying something new and it got immortailised in a trading card much to Eddie's delight. His personal favourite is a Steve mid spin of the ball on his fingertip, the image of concentration and Eddie has yet to see a photo that highlights the muscle and bite-ability of Steve's arms quite as well as that one.

When Eddie and Steve are out for dinner and Eddie sees a little kid wearing a shirt with Steve's name on it he's quick to point it out to the delight of his boyfriend, both of them trying to figure out a way to subtly let the kid know that 'Harrington' is here.

Eddie who turns up to games with the kids and a foam finger because 'Steve come on its hilarious' but in reality he just loves obnoxiously supporting him. Steve kisses his finger tips and waves to Eddie before running to join the team in the changing rooms. Eddie who catches it and stuffs it in his pocket in the most dramatic way possible. Steve who laughs every time because he wouldn't have it any other way.

#MOMO MOMO‼️ #MOMO!!!! #HELLO HOW ARE YOY?!? #YOU BRAIN IS HUGE AND BEAUTIFUL AND SO FULL IF IDEAS I AM SO ENVIOUS #I AM LUCKY TO BE A RECIPENT!!! #I JUST!!! #AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! #and I am so so sorry about the delay I’ve been in a Way lately (the last 4 months) #BUT THIS ID THR KIND OF THING THAT IS LIKE SUNSHINE TO ME #Steddie fixing my Big Sad thank you #mwah air smooch for you if you wish #stranger things #eddie munson #steddie #steve harrington #momo #momotonescreaming #ask

[svtskneecaps]

also in terms of the bolas playlist it's fascinating to me that the songs added by each person have a slight tendency to represent a consistent aspect of bolas

like

the songs added by slime are their chaos

the songs added by philza are their rebellion

the songs added by cellbit are their rage

the songs added by baghera are their anguish

it's so fucking FASCINATING TO ME but i don't know enough music theory to elaborate lmfao this is Vibes Only

(mouse's songs i can't boil down to an easy noun which is why they aren't mentioned lmao anyway they go hard asf)

(also i went on the longest fucking unhinged elaboration in the tags lmfao i almost didn't have enough tags left to tag "long tags" at the end

(i could have even gone on longer in terms of where their characters were at entering purgatory [philza: cage for a cage; cellbit: fed worker murders; baghera: her past as a federation experiment; slime: turning into a code because of the code pretending to be his daughter] but i ran out of space and also time it's 4AM AAAAA)

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #this is a sweeping generalization btw esp for baghera's she added a WIDE variety of music #qsmp bolas #sorry i forgot that tag existed lmao #i will elaborate slightly: #slime added: find your flame; gas gas gas extended; waltz of the meatball man; foghorn sound effect #philza added: b.y.o.b.; throne; the melting point of wax #cellbit added: hayloft II; brazilian dança phonk (which roier literally played during purg while beating the shit out of bbh lmao) #baghera added: can you feel my heart; still waiting; and coincidentally she added 'it's been so long' (the fnaf song lol) #TO BE CLEAR THESE ARE GENERALIZATIONS #baghera also added the government knows [REBELLION] and oops [CHAOS] #philza added given up [ANGUISH] #cellbit added zombie [ANGUISH] and tokyo drift [CHAOS] #slime added as above so below [ANGUISH] #it's not a perfect category; ESPECIALLY for baghera's songs i want to make that so clear in these tags #HOWEVER. it is interesting. #anyway i went after lyrics for these examples but just generally when going through the playlist the first time #i kind of learned that like. #music to murder to was probably cellbit; punk millenial music was probably philza #the wackiest shit was probably slime (was shocked to find out tokyo drift was a cellbit song for this reason lmao) #baghera's i usually could only pin down bc it didn't sound like anyone else's #and mouse's added songs i could not describe the vibe if you threatened me for it but it has one #i guess the closest vibe is 'a college radio station run by anime fans' and even then it's not that close #it kinda excludes songs like the b//ad bun//ny songs #unless college anime fans are also fans of them in which case great! #IDK IT'S 4 AM I WAS JUST MAKING MYSELF SAD ABOUT TILIN I NEED TO GO TO SLEEP #shut up vic #block game brainrot #long tags

[advicemp3]

― Amal El-Mohtar, THIS IS HOW YOU LOSE THE TIME WAR

[ID in ALT]

#theuntamededit #cqledit #theuntameddaily #asiancinemasource #cdramanet #m.jif #chinesemedia #the untamed #wei wuxian #lan wangji #xiao zhan #wang yibo #tw flickering #well. (crawls out of photoshop bloodied and bruised with at least 4 fallen teeth) #DISCLAIMER??? i don't know the context of this quote (yet!!!!) so if it's like. a really sad moment then i am incredibly sorry. furewbubh

[napping-sapphic]

Obviously I’d want them to do whatever makes them happiest but part of me really does hope that if i ever get married that my spouse takes my last name, not because it’s traditional or whatever but because i just really want to take my own name back and actually form a family that i love and that loves me in return out of it. I want to overshadow my past and reclaim my identity and share it with you, i want us to be so intricately tied together in every possible way i want to make a little family of just you and me where there’s so so so much love, just as families are supposed to be

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #idk if it’ll ever happen but i do really hope i get to get married one day #i want to be part of a good family that makes me happy #i want to give that to someone else #i want it to be me and you and any pets and i want it to be more than enough for both of us #i hate that i won’t ever really be able to give a partner close or loving in laws #but i hope that someday just me and my lonesome will be enough for them #sorry it’s 4 am and im being sappy and sad and wistful #back to sleep again😴😴 #before i make any more WAY too revealing posts lol #im gay and i like sleeping

[nerdetiquette]

Idk if this is a hot take or anything but I don’t think it’s a stretch to say that Jon didn’t have any friends (besides Martin) basically the entire series.

Sasha was nice enough but she was strictly professional. Tim was reasonable in the beginning and I like to believe they were friends but honestly he’s pretty wary of Jon s1. Melanie hated Jon the whole way through. Georgie was there for a bit before things got too messy, but the way she treats him s5 is like a time bomb. Basira treated Jon like a stove with a broken gas release, and Daisy, my god Daisy. I could go on and on about their relationship but it was really clear after the trauma she inflicted on Jon he could never truly trust her.

They all feed into the theme of Jon’s inhumanity, but I remember listening and being confused because I always saw ppl treating this like a found family when they never were.

#4 am podcast analysis #i’m not projecting you’re projecting #Jon’s inhumanity is a very interesting topic to me #it makes me very sad because Jon tries so hard #definitely not projecting #but also this is why Basira is probably my least favorite #I love her I do but she really treated jon more like a chess piece or a child she had to keep in check #web Basira????? #I should look that up in the morning #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #tim stoker #sasha james #melanie king #basira hussain #daisy tonner #georgie barker #on found family #amazingly the silt verses feels more like found family and one of them was literally kidnapped

[khytal]

waaaahhhhhh :(

(alternate version w/ blood:)

#kamen rider #shin kamen rider #takeshi hongo #khyt.art #it's been 4 days and I am still so broken up about it #I also haven't. like. drawn with this method in several months so it's a bit rusty but [shaky thumbs up] #(also I did this a few hours after I finished the movie but I didn't pull up any refs so. eeeehh. but it's ok) #if I think about hongo or anything from shin kr for too long my brain starts trying to self-destruct #in a good way (it's not good I am so sad all the time get me out of h-)

[ra-vio]

im supposed to be studying

#resident evil #resident evil 4 #ada wong #I ACCIDENTALLY MADE THIS CANVAS SO SMALL SO I HAD TO RESIZE AND NOW ITS BLURRY AHHHHHHHH #its fine but ITS NOT FINE IT BOTHERS ME SO MUCH LOL #i had to switch mice for this. the other one was so slippery. i dunno if its because its wireless or whatever. that boy go NYOOM #changing the settings didnt help. #anyway. last week i finished the mercenaries and got leons rpd outfit. it was hell. it wasnt but i was in a rush so it was #i think after everything my favorite is still ada cause that grapple gun is everything. the hardest for me was krauser #krauser should have been the easiest cause you just knife everything but i kept slashing dynamite and had to redo the village like 10 times #it was absolute ass. he's the most broken character why would they do that to me #and then immediately after i started on my separate ways professional S+ #its funny someone said the S+ was harder than base game. base game's pro S+ burnt me out so bad #i didnt touch the game for months afterward. separate ways S+ was a cake walk after. you dont even have to fight krauser ovo)b #the most difficult parts are probably the double garradors and the countdown to get to leon at the end #immediately after i got all my achievements I was plunged into a depression like no other. plus i had a discrete math midterm on friday #i am SO SAD. WHO WAS I BEFORE SEPARATE WAYS #i did the same silly thing i did when i drew Link. the shine in her hair says 'Ada' because i have to derive joy from somewhere

[s1x-foot-deep]

humanizations. hi

#rock paper scissors #nick rps #rps rock #rps paper #rps scissors #jess scribbles #scopophobia// #sad thing is i could never give rock the best outfit. bcuz i am a fashionless man. im the guy that wears socks n sandals w floral buttonup #i wear 4 different patterns at a time. i like ascot caps #but he does have kandi and a pride pin. & i think thats beautiful #also scissors has a mark on his ear frm trying to pierce it. emphasis on Trying