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moonlightdancer26 · 5 months

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I'm an ex-marauders fan at this point, but haven't yet worked up the nerve to leave :( Wish me luck.

The marauders fandom promises acceptance and tolerance and lighthearted fun, but as soon as Severus comes up, the previously rosy atmosphere turns downright ugly. I've seen so many marauders fans posting or reblogging about how “your trauma is valid”, how “intentions don’t matter if you hurt someone”, and how “apologies don’t count if they’re coupled with an excuse”… who also go out of their way to justify the ‘prank’ because Sirius didn’t /mean/ to almost kill Snape, and how it’s really all Snape’s fault, and why can’t he get over it already since the marauders clearly became better people (even though Snape never received any kind of apology or any indication that they regretted their behavior)?

And these posts live side by side on their dash? Idk just needed to vent as i figure out where to go next in this fandom (or maybe another one altogether)...

WTF THIS ASK WAS FROM SEPTEMBER 😭😭 I’M SO SORRY I SWEAR I’VE BEEN SO EXCITED TO ANSWER YOUR ASK BUT I GOT TOO BUSY AND ALWAYS POSTPONED IT 😭

Anyway, I totally wish you luck anon. It’s hard switching fandoms and building up the courage to “move to the other side,” but I can tell you that it is 100% worth it when you realise how much the Snapedom differs from the Marauders fandom! As someone who’s been in the fandom for many years, seen what both sides are like, and has a bunch of friends (both online and irl) who don’t always share the same opinion, I can safely say that we are generally far more accepting of different opinions than the Marauders fandom. We tend to steer clear of them because they’re.. very persistent about their opinions and find it amusing to purposefully mistag their anti-Snape posts or to scroll through pro-Snape/anti-Marauders tags and attack the posters. But if you’re not like that and you can accept not always agreeing with friends or fandom members, then we’ll welcome you with open arms <3

And honestly I agree, I’ve seen Marauder stans make excellent and detailed analyses of their favourite characters and articulate their arguments greatly. But then all that reading comprehension shoots out the window when it comes to Snape, and you suddenly see them brush him off as nothing more than a “obsessed incel nazi” and call it a day. I’ve seen similar things happen with Snape fans as well, and I completely understand how you feel.

All I can say is: Just leave the Marauders fandom. Either announce it with a post and say that you no longer wish to be in the Marauders fandom or want to switch to the Snape fandom. Or if you want, you can create another blog altogether. The important thing is that you do it now and get it over with, because simply reading your ask and knowing how it’s negatively affecting you really upsets me. This ask was sent around 2 months ago, so I hope that by now you’ve done something about it, but if you haven’t, this is what I think about the whole situation. I wish you the best ❤️❤️ and if you, or anyone else who’s struggling with anything similar, want to DM me and talk about this, don’t hesitate to do so.

#anti marauders fandom #anti toxic fandoms #anti marauderfen #anti marauder stans #anti snaters #severus snape #pro snape #pro severus snape #snape #harry potter #hp #ask #asks

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ramshackledtrickster · 1 year

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any cute headcanons about ezio and leonardo ? interactions or unknown things maybe 🥺🥺🥺

Sorry this has been in my inbox for a while !! I kinda struggled with trying to come up with things that haven’t already been said but I’ll try uhhh

Leonardo just. Really loves studying Ezio

He doesn’t flirt much or he doesn’t flirt intentionally (if he tries to force it he thinks too hard and it becomes super cringe fail). He gets frozen in place easily and it’s hard for Leonardo to express romantic feelings typically— he’s much more comfortable giving things or helping as his way of showing love (especially early on in their relationship)

More under the cut!

But close enough, he loves just,, studying and looking over him, committing everything about him to memory. He would praise him out of the blue or share what’s on his mind about him. For Leonardo this doesn’t really count as flirtation, but he loves to tell Ezio this bc he genuinely thinks he’s so wonderful.

They’d be laying next to each other and Leonardo would start holding his wrist, tracing over his knuckles and palms and wrist and silently admire the scars and callouses, taking his time with looking at the light, swirling patterns on the pads of his fingers. When Ezio asks what he’s doing, Leonardo would shrug and just say he’s just looking. In the same breath he’s marveling at how strong he is and how many scrapes he had made it out of. Maybe chastising him playfully about how he needs to get Ezio more lotion to keep his hands healthy and from cracking. But mostly musing to himself oh wow the human body can be so durable yet vulnerable at the same time

He’s tended to lots of his injuries before, so he doesn’t really have the leisure to explore him in that way when his life is at stake. But when they have time to themselves, he really just,, loves studying him. Sometimes it could edge into weirdly morbid territory though, especially when he gets inspired to share his own ideas on the workings of the human body via what he observed from Ezio. Ezio finds it amusing and humorous though (though some ideas keep him up at night)

Leonardo loves listening to his pulse and his heart beat, hearing blood course through him— he loves watching the rise and fall of his chest with each breath, he loves checking on his scars to make sure they’re healing proper and yet noticing the texture of the skin becoming different and raised , depending on how he was injured.

He would often share these thoughts with Ezio and honestly it helps him rest and sleep, even if he doesn’t understand half of what he’s getting at bc then Leonardo would go into tangents about comparing aspects of the human body and human nature to the natural world,, or the cow ovary he dissected the other day idk this guys train of thought is nuts.

This worship and study is how Leonardo shows a lot of his affection (physical especially), since it combines what he loves with being listened to, and it doesn’t force him to act outside of his own conventional manner and he doesn’t need to follow an internal script to impress Ezio.

Ezio meanwhile can get a little confused at times but he honestly doesn’t mind being admired, especially when hes being held or touched in the meantime. It makes him feel valuable and like a rarity, and he likes the feeling of being a muse for someone. Again, he has no clue what he’s on about some of the time but he can appreciate a man who has such an insatiable curiosity.

Of course, there’s more ways these two interact outside of this. Their relationship isn’t built on this, and Leonardo sees and loves so much in Ezio as a companion and a great friend, and he feels somewhat indebted to him for saving his life so many times— I’m just hoping I explained this one little facet of how Leonardo expresses some of his affection well <:)

#assassins creed #ezio auditore #ac leonardo #ezioleo

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animentality · 3 months

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So I’ve been scrolling through the Durgetash tag and wtf.

First I’m fcking heartbroken that my Durge will not experience the moment of finding the letter/s to Franc in it’s original form or at all(?)

And THEN I FIND queerphobic posts and insane comments about Gortash “definitely not” being queer or “just having had a “business relationship” with Durge..? Even tho there’s enough evidence✨

Now… remember when we all adored Astarion and then more and more ppl started joining the tags, groups whatever and now it’s a whole toxic mess that you cannot scroll thru without getting a headache? (It’s sad the magic of it all is kinda dare I say gone.. I just look at it/him idk different, involuntarily at that, but I’m glad that Durgetash is giving all that back in insane amounts that let’s my adhd feet kick in dopamine fully-sated energy *incoherent babbling*)

I think the same is (bhaal forbid) maybe swapping over to Durgetash and I’m scared … cuz this, here… what y’all create! (art, hc’s, stories & just fun post’s overall) is so fxking special and so lovely🌷

And I really fxing hope that the ppl at bg3/larian have a REALLY good reason to *cough cough* meddle in each other’s I MEAN OUR affairs, when we already barely have anything, WHAT WAS THE REASON– just why, there’s enough bugs and crashes or other stuff that needs tending WHY TAKE AWAY?!

Good day and thank you for sharing your thoughts with us and without sugarcoating anything ❤️

I hope a build-a-bear lil dragon or whatever appears outta nowhere for you, that says stuff when you squeeze too hard (just like Durge–) like “ah my favorite bhaalspawn/ my favorite assassin” :)

First off, I hear that some people still see the letter, and others do not. Apparently, it's SUPPOSED to have replaced it, but some people just have computers that are built different, I guess. So you might possibly see it. Not sure.

As for if toxicity is spilling into the Durgetash fandom...maybe? I don't know. We were all pretty civil. I admit, I lost my cool for a minute there, but to be FAIR TO ME, I have not STARTED anything with anyone in literal years.

This was someone sending ME a reply that really pissed me off with its biphobia, like, absolutely ticked me off in one foul swoop.

But for the most part, it's not THAT Combative. But this note changing HAS divided people quite a bit.

So I don't know.. I want to believe durgetash and gortash love are still not mainstream enough to maintain the levels of toxicity that astarion fans seem to cultivate like horticulture.

We'll see.

As for why they changed it...I don't know?

Really seems odd. Maybe they didn't like the tone of it.

Truthfully, as much as I love that note for just being so out of pocket and weird, I admit it's more in character for Gortie to be a more serious guy...but honestly?

It's the fucking game's fault that they made Gortash a boring villain. They FORCED us to cling to his every note. To read more into his interactions with the Dark Urge.

To love that one iconic letter from him.

So they can't walk back on their weirdness....unless....they're planning on....expanding his role....

O.o

We'll see on that too.

Anyway. Thanks for the ask and glad I can entertain! By being an asshole! And a lunatic!

I NEED a Gortash plushie to keep my Dark Urge company!!!

If anyone knows where I can get one, I need that ASK or DM.

#baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #enver gortash

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butmakeitgayblog · 11 months

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We’re you always the queen of writing smut or did it take a lot of practice?

I can’t write it. I’m terrible at it. It all feels too fake and porny when I’m writing it. But reading yours is like… damn, so good chefs kiss gimme more

Any tips? Guidance, sensei?

Akshdljkf oh oof baby. First of all, thank you for having that kind of faith in me or at the very least thinking any thing of the sort about my writing🥴 I have to graciously say that I don't think I am in any way a queen of anything, much less smut, much less for this fandom. I think that crown is securely shared by a few other far more talented writers than me who time and again knock it out of the park. I am but a humble reader and fan of theirs as much as anyone. But still, I appreciate the kind message and the thought behind it, I honestly do.

That being said, eh I mean 🤷‍♀️. I'm no expert, I had never written fiction of any kind before CoA, my first fic. I've kinda just tried my best and winged it and written what I like to read and what I see in my head. As silly as it sounds considering we're talking about smut, I think reading a lot of the kind of work you're trying to write helps. Different stories from different authors who you know are good at the genre you want for your own work. Seeing the different methods they use to go about tackling sce es, integrating styles and things you like and changing things don't like until you find what inspires you. Evaluating scenes from works you like and seeing what you find hot and what doesn't, what flows and gives feelings and what feels like it dosen't, all things to help you create your own style. I read A Lot of smutty fanfic before ever dipping my toe into the writers pool, so when I did take the jump it was after having seen a multitude of different stuff and just internalizing the stuff that was enjoyable for me and then using those tools to create my own voice.

Idk what to say to make you feel better about your own work because obvs idk what it is, but I can say don't always trust your own evaluation or reaction of your work. You've read it a million times so it'll always feel flat and predictable, but to someone else it's new so they're not gonna read it the same way you do. If it still feels stilted, take a step back. Question yourself on what is happening that's making it feel that way. Are there any emotions going on? What are the characters thinking and feeling? Are you focusing too hard on mechanics? You don't want sex to read like an IKEA instruction manual lol so maybe what you have to do is reroute yourself to get away from that. Try and write a sex scene without any technical sex jargon. Try and do it through some prose and verbiage of sensuality, using indirect imagery that lets the reader create the rest of the picture in their own mind.

So for example instead of just "Clarke nipped and sucked Lexa's nipples until they were hard", it becomes "each scrape of Clarke's teeth over the bud of Lexa's breast drew out a sinful moan, feeling her writhe against her mouth as she soothed the ache with a wet suck of her lips. She lapped at the pebbled skin, nipples pulling taut beneath her tongue as she licked circles—" yada yada yada, whatever. But see what I mean? You're basically saying the exact same thing in each case, but the first one just flatly says what they're doing, the other is speaking in actions which paints a picture for the reader to fill in in their head. That's the only even sort-of advice I can give on that. Smut is something people don't wanna just read, they wanna imagine it (no matter how much they may try to lie about that😐) and having a scene that they can immerse themselves in and mental create a picture tends to be what works. In my most humble of opinions at least.

#anon #I'm amazed anyone ever asks for my advice every time I post I assume that'll be the time everyone comes to their senses #and realizes I'm a hack #insert [not bad for a girl with no talent] gif #cuz that's me every time I post 😅

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cold-neon-ocean · 8 months

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Do you have any spicy headcanons about Baatar /Baavira that you’re willing to share? 😏

OH BOY, DO I EVER~

It's probably safe to say that almost all my thoughts regarding them are laced with spice in some fashion. And the bulk of the fic writing that I do for them lol but I'd be delighted to share some of my spicy thoughts regarding them~

As always do keep in mind that my headcanons are very much geared towards my very specific AU versions of them that I've built up over the last few years, however I do think they could apply to the canon as well in some regards.. maybe?? Idk lolol but I think about these two A LOT and I know that my interpretation of them can be pretty divergent from the popular fanon ideas but this is just how they are to me in my silly mind akdjfsf

Okay so starting out, it's not a secret that my version of Baatar is pretty stacked~ (whenever I’m drawing him on twitch my chat is always lamenting how badly they wanna grab his chest and honestly I’m glad the energy translates because I also draw him with that express thought in my head). I just love beefy nerds and feel like Baatar is well suited for it. I like joking that once he left home he just took all his pent up anger to the gym but that’s honestly pretty accurate -lol. It’s hard being a non-bender in a bender’s world, especially in any sort of leadership position so you have to gain any sort of edge you can. And said gains don’t go unnoticed. He and Kuvira have always been very touchy (and I’ll get back to that), and Kuvira definitely starts catching on to the fact that he kind of(aka ‘really’) enjoys when she pays his chest “extra” attention~ If you recall that one art piece I did of Kuvira slipping her hand into Baatar's uniform, which folks ingeniously called a "regular tiddy quality check", she tends to do stuff like that a lot and he tries not to show it, but it's fairly obvious that he actually likes it. Baatar is also not really used to being regarded in most any sense let alone as "impressive" in any fashion and Kuvira knows he feels pretty good about it in that sense as well. Plus when your man is built like a whole refrigerator, why wouldn't you give him a squeeze every now and then~

So I said these two are “touchy”, and yes they are. It’s become something of a reflexive affirmation between them. Having grown up in a very isolated “it’s us against the world” mindset, they’ve developed a rather strong codependency, one of the main languages for is touch. And that can be varying forms of touch but they’re a lot of the time inherently spicy~ They get especially handsy after extended periods of time spent apart, or in Kuvira's case when she can be in a bit of a mood- usually trying to grab Baatar's attention in a faux "I'm upset with you for not paying attention to me" sort of way. And Baatar often reciprocates in a playful "oh I'm sorry, please forgive me" response. But Baatar can get rather pouty when things don't go his way- not just specifically with her but just in general, and Kuvira will definitely rub up on him like a cat like "uh oh, why are we upset~?" and it'll be a cold day on the surface of the sun before either one of them aren't won over by that.

They were always stowing away when they could back in Zaofu. Kuvira loves to just be generally disruptive to get Baatar's attention since she loves to fluster him, and as this was set more during his phase of being closed in, and trying more to stay out of the way than anything by else, it wasn't all that difficult. Baatar really hadn't yet built up the nerve to think about going against his mother, and he definitely used to have that mindset of "no we can't have sex in my family's house that would be weird", which Kuvira interpreted as "but anywhere else is fine" and so she grabbed hold of that proverbial "anywhere else" and ran with it. She'd interrupt whatever he was doing at any given time to drag him off somewhere when they could slip away unnoticed. Their relationship was probably the worst kept secret in the city. They never got caught but it was fairly obvious what was going on between them. And eventually they moved into his room in the house (aka Kuvira was probably climbing in through his window and Baatar was just like "you know what, sure this is fine)

I (clearly) like imagining Kuvira as the more forward between the two. Or at least most of the time she's the first to instigate. Baatar grew from just getting dragged along to expectantly waiting for her to come to him as he's generally happy to let her set the pace for things. She had pretty much done so their entire relationship and she had a way of going about it in the most direct manner possible. Girl would come right out of her mouth with no warning like "You should just kiss me already" or when he's trying to work and she's bored so she just goes "hey, can I suck you off?" like she has the tact of a baseball bat to a window. But overtime he just got used to it. He started getting a little rush out of the rebellion of sneaking off with her, or in the times where they were left alone together in his fathers lab. I've also always headcanoned that Kuvira was actually the one to propose to him because she was tired of waiting for him to ask her lol. Baatar needs everything to be perfect when it comes to her but she literally couldn't care less. However Baatar can take the reigns at times. After his tether was finally cut from Zaofu he started building up some much needed self confidence and wherewithal. Finally figuring himself out as a person. Said self discoveries came in many forms, one of which being he can be rather insatiable and for those special occasions he gains a particular fervor where you just have to hold on for dear life and ride it out. Kuvira absolutely uses those opportunities to address him with "yes, sir" and he definitely feels some type of way about it.

Power play between the two of them is conducted in a specific manner, and Kuvira has always been particular about regarding Baatar as equal to herself, both in their status within the empire and as a person in general. It's something Baatar can be rather sensitive too, the idea of being seen as lesser than, and even fictitiously Kuvira just doesn't like playing around with that sort of thing. They do however enjoy the instances of one submitting entirely to the other to be ravished as they'd please. Where one's just laid back and taking the full force of the other in whatever manner they'd like. In a worshipy sort of way but it goes back and forth much more evenly.

Kuvira bless her is POSSESSIVE as hell. Yes she likes showing her man off but when people stare there is a threshold that shouldn't be crossed, and even Kuvira doesn't really know where that line is, sometimes she'll just be like "okay yes you can look at him- but not too much." And Baatar finds it kind of hilarious. She has a real jealousy streak on her and she's never even slightly subtle about it. Those are the instances where Baatar will go "well let me remind you how much I love you~" and- which he's well aware of, sometimes Kuvira likes to play up being upset just so he'll do that and put in the extra effort to make it up to her.

On the sillier side (because yes these two are silly!) During the Earth Empire campaign they've 100% fallen deadass asleep mid fuck on the train or something lolol like cock in mouth, cunt on face, and they are PASSED OUT LMAOOO

Kind of tying into the previous bullet, but Baatar can sleep through ANYTHING. Like he heard nothing when the Red Lotus attacked Zaofu the man was ASLEEP!!!! Like he sleeps like he's practicing for the coffin, so when Kuvira wants to do the cute "teehee waking my man up with a blowjob" routine, she has to put her lungs into fucking overdrive because she basically has to revive him from the dead for him to wake up SOBS

I filled out that 'Meet My OTP' thing with the two of them, and some of the main kinks for each of them I put- Baatar: breeding talk, medical talk/play (I hc him being very interested in the development of medical practice and technology because he is just very done with the prayer circles and acupuncture back in Zaofu), he's big on face fucking both giving and receiving, and also some cuddly comfy cock warming <3.

For Kuvira I put exhibitionism, she loves to Show Off, power play in varying ways- like I said she's particular about it particularly she actually likes giving up control with him because in every other aspect of life especially with the empire she always got people needing to be ordered around to get things done and she has to be the one to plan everything out so it's nice to just lay back and let someone else be in charge, especially since Baatar knows her inside and out to the degree he does. And lastly fucking with their clothes on, particularly their uniforms really does something for her. Baatar is so particular about how he dresses and presents himself that Kuv loves to rile him up by grinding on the pantleg of his expensive-ass suits or pulling threads with her teeth.

This got really long alkdsdfsd it's honestly been in my drafts a while and I would come back ever so often to add more as they came to me LMAO I could probably say a lot more on this topic because I think about it.. a lot and I love them very much ;;;;

#Ask Matsu #LoK Thoughts #[ I'm not gonna tag them because idk if I'm brave enough to put this in the greater tag for people to find alksdjfsf #so sorry this took a while and that I rambled so much sobsss #I honestly have a lot of spicy fic snippets I started about these two that have been sitting in my phone notes lol #I want to make comics out of them when I have the time ngl #but yeah lolol I love talking spice about these two #i care them so much i tell you I think about them all the time!!! ]#Anonymous

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inkofamethyst · 1 year

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February 27, 2023

IT’S OFFICIAL AHHHHHH THE GRADUATE SCHOOL APPROVED MY ADMISSION IM OFFICIALLY INTO MY CHOICE EEEEEE!!!!! My potential advisor called me right after class to share the news and and the department chair sent me a cute email and oh boy I just really wish they were bringing me up sooner because I promised myself I wouldn’t make a decision until after I visited and now I can’t do so for a whole ‘nother month (luckily the dates don’t mess with anything else (exams, performances, rehearsals, etc)). It doesn’t feel fair to my Choice F to string them along like this but I’m going to stick to my guns on this one. Visiting is a really important component of my decision-making process. If the vibes are off (and I suspect they won’t be, but I’ve been surprised before), then I ain’t goin.

Also! The girl I met during my Choice B interview (and who also applied to and interviewed with my Choice C (arguably the best bioanth program in the country, but also I’m very biased), and in both cases we applied to work with the same person) ended up getting into the Choice C (but not my Choice B) program that we applied to which, without going into specific details, means I am likely waitlisted for the program (waitlisted at least.. it’s possible that my acceptance to Choice B precludes me from the Choice C program altogether). Which means I’m six-for-seven, sort of. Not a bad record. Not bad at all.

I started my Star Trek book on a whim just because I wanted to and oh my god Jean-Luc is such a lady’s man. Women are falling over this balding French dude. And, you know, maybe I get it. He’s got this amazing and slightly mysterious past as a renowned captain in starfleet, so he’s disciplined and commanding and good with words and he cares a lot even if he pretends not to. It’s just so funny to me idk.

Speaking of old/middle-aged men, I’m starting to think that the Pedro Pascal thing is a marketing ploy. I’m beginning to think that dvcree is an industry plant. I try very hard to distance myself from marketing, but this feels a little too ridiculous to not be a ploy that’s gotten out of hand. Is he cute? ...ya maybe, sure. That said, I started watching The Last of Us this past weekend while doing my hair, and oh my god???? I don’t really watch zombie stuff and I definitely haven’t played the game, but this show is literally so good. I also tend not to watch TV-MA stuff from HBO because I’m what I like to call soft-hearted and can’t really handle excessive violence or gore, but this show presents enough action and violence to be exciting without being overzealous with the blood n guts n stuff. I love Ellie, Joel is fantastic, every single episode rips my heart out, and I can’t get enough. Episode 5 came out last night but I’ve got two exams tomorrow and a busy day today, so...

To switch gears, just a bit of a hair rant. Wanted to do 18″ senegalese twists for the next three weeks which I’ve never done before, and they’re not coming out the way I’d hoped. My feed-in technique is great, but my own hair blown-out is ~18″ in most places, so the ends don’t seal well at all, meaning the twists are coming undone or are generally a lot looser than I’d wanted. I think passion twists or marley twists would’ve been more forgiving considering their textures, but they’re uh.. they’re a little more uh.. ethnic.. than I was going for, considering that I have a few uni trips coming up. The only redeeming feature is that these senegalese twists are quick. Much quicker than knotless braids. Maybe I should’ve done 24″ to guarantee that seal, but I really like how conservative the 18″ length looks. While it’s kind of annoying in this particular situation, I honestly like how long my own hair seems to be getting, and my haircare is regularly improving in efficiency (...though one of these days I’m going to have to suck it up and deep condition which I haven’t done in years, opting for just a regular leave-in... so while efficiency is improving, the techniques could still use work). And I say “long” fully recognizing that shrinkage will make my hair look like it’s a half to a third of its actual length :/ One of these days I’m going to go for a straightening, my first one in... six years, just to see the full length on display. Maybe for the first days of grad school...

Today I’m thankful for the formal my photo-friend and I went to last night. They’d run out of real food by the time we arrived, so we gorged ourselves on strawberry shortcake. We took some photos and I felt thoroughly attractive, even if my hair was less than optimal (my parts are clean and it hangs down so it looks good from afar which is what matters tbh).

Today I’m also (obvi) thankful for the admit!! Like,,,,, this kind of thing is something I’ve been reaching for my entire life. And while I feel partly as though I’ve lucked into it, I’m also so happy that all the work I’ve put into this whole thing is paying off. I’ll let the imposter syndrome come later. Right now, I just wanna bask (for a little bit, at least, as I’ve got rehearsals and exams and meetings galore this week).

Well, if I’m honest, I’m looking forward to not writing/ranting about grad apps every entry. I can feel it, that day is close.

man im so tired.

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riftdancing · 11 months

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Tagged: Altitis Edition

@thefreelanceangel tagged me in this and gosh do I appreciate the chance to gush about my girls at any point in time. I love how much being tagged in things tends to provoke things I normally wouldn’t think about too! Thank you so very much! ♥

• Favorite: This is an impossible choice, at least to pick just one. I can narrow it down to the three who get the most screen time, Mihli, Siyoh, and Blink. They’re my go-tos. The ones that I can write at almost any point. If my muse is struggling with them I’m probably in a pretty sorry state. Those three are just the naturals and I love them all for entirely different reasons.

• Oldest: I like to think of Blink as my oldest character in terms of roleplay. Out of all of my OC’s she’s had the most time under my pen. She strongly pre-dates FFXIV and originally started off as a Space Pirate rather than a Sky Pirate. She’s always had her heart in the pilot’s seat, though. It’s funny because when I first started writing her I had zero intention of her becoming the best she’s grown into over the years. My original goal was to write a happy go lucky pilot/mechanic with a pension for becoming a problem or a thorn in people’s side (affectionate).

The people I wrote with carved her into something else entirely, and if I’m being honest I absolutely love their shared stories turned her into something I had never planned for her to be. To date she’s probably one of my most beloved characters because of it. There is so much history behind her character, and more delightfully it all just translated into the XIV universe and lore so perfectly.

• Newest: This a trick answer if I’m being honest. Mihli’s character IRL time wise technically predates Blink by a couple of years, I just didn’t roleplay her as much as I roleplayed Blink. The basis for Mihli’s character stems from my FFXI character, who I also roleplayed back in the day. Bringing her into the XIV storyline has been a recent choice which makes her my newest… and oldest character. And yes, I do roleplay her as my actual XI character who has ‘riftdanced’ her way from Vana’diel into the source. She presents as an Eorzean Miqo’te in current lore, but that’s after some fantasia tricks and long hours studying about Eorzea and the Source. She has an interesting storyline I honestly haven’t talked much about publicly. Kind of one of those if you know you know situations. But I may open up more about her later if people find this interesting? Idk.

• Meanest: This is an easy one. It’s Blink. Hands down. I’ll just leave this roleplay exchange here as an example.

Blink Vaniro grunted, turning away from the railing to follow after another mark. A few paces would close the distance between herself and Kosa as she took her place leaning against the wall nearest him. “Hard to see if you’ve made any money from here, innit?” she’d ask, breaking the silence between them.

“Maybe hard for you.” the low reply came from the Miqo’te, eyeing the Pilot’s short stature.

One splintered brow slowly raised upwards in Kosa’s direction. “Uh-huh.” Came the flat, dry sarcastic sound of disappointment. A mental note was made as she turned her gaze toward the fight occurring in the ring. “Ever thought about becoming a Machinist or Gun Breaker?” She’d ask, seemingly off topic or attempting a change of subject… but the pilot was definitely going somewhere with this.

Kosa paused for a moment, eyebrows furrowing as his gaze lifted to the ring. “I Won’t lie, Gunbreaker looks… interesting. Not entirely sure about machinist, but I haven’t had the time in Ishgard to feel that one out yet… Why?” Vaniro barely contained the roguish smirk beginning to tug her thin lips upward. “Don’t. You’re likely to shoot yourself in the foot.”

Kosa’s immediate disappointment displayed in the form of a scowl in her direction. “Fuck you.”

A wry chuckle left the pilot as she lifted from the wall and walked to the ring to watch Beau fight. “Cheers, Mate.”

• Softest: Siyoh, because it plays a large part in how she conducts herself as a character. You could say that the softness behind Siyoh’s character is a mask she wears for the determined, strong, and when needed dangerous woman she is deep down. The survivor who got herself through the Garlean Occupation of Doma and who came out on the other side with the deeds to her deceased family’s business and land. The survivor who endured alongside her life-long best friend and became successful business partners with.

• Most Aloof/Standoffish: Blink doesn’t like letting people in, nor allowing people to get close to her. For years she got by severing any familiar bonds and operating alone. She actively would push people away, or find herself putting strong distances between herself and others. So to say that Blink is a standoff person is a bit of an understatement.

These days, and after a lot of therapy, she’s working to be a bit more open to letting people in and forging bonds. She operates under the theory of tough love, and copes with the idea that she may suffer more loss by letting people in. But the point is, though she wouldn’t admit it openly, she’s in a better/happier place now.

• Dumbest (Affectionate): Poki. God bless. She has the sweetest intentions and is absolutely the most well meaning girl you’ll ever meet but god is she dumber than a fucking rock.

• Dumbest (Derogatory): …Poki. Listen, she’s endearing… but infuriatingly stupid sometimes.

• Smartest: It’s a toss up… and situational. Personally I think Siyoh, Blink, and Mihli overall are all very intelligent ladies, but definitely not infallible. They each individually have their fair share of stupid moments too.

I would reckon Siyoh is probably the most intelligent, followed very closely by Blink.

Siyoh would be Wisdom where Blink would be Intelligence.

• Horinest:

Paprika… she’s a bard at heart. What do you expect?

Bubbly, cheeky, charismatic, and fiery this bard will happily drink you under the table with a smile. Simply out for a good time and a laugh finds Paprika often in more trouble than she bargained for, but she’s always open to trying new things and embracing new experiences. Up for a song and a good time? Just look for her twirling red hair and listen for a boisterous sea shanty.

It’s part of her defining character.

• Character You’d Bang: This is such a difficult question for me. I (the mun) am a grey sexual individual so I don’t experience a lot of physical attraction. I could answer this easily for their characters, but not at all for me. Lmao

If I had to pick the one I’d probably be most sexually compatible with it’d be… none of them. But I do find myself swooning over Blink’s character from time to time I suppose.

• Character You’d Be RL Besties With: Mihli, hands down. She’s just a very fun loving person and gets along with pretty much anyone she meets.

• Tagging: @gatheredfates (Because she’ll be dramatic if I don’t -- ilu) @dawnstriding @syerraffxiv @gaygentofchaos @fist-and-fury-xiv and pretty much anyone else who sees this and would like to do it!! Please don’t be shy. I don’t know many people on tumblr these days and find interactions to be very challenging, so I encourage it! ♥

#riftdancing - roleplay #character - mihli mihgo #character - blink vaniro #character - siyoh mari #character - paprika swan #character - poki mewri

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bookshelf-dust · 1 year

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how did you gain traction with your fics? You and others have inspired me to get back into writing again, and I’m feeling a little disheartened bc I haven’t received any feedback… do you have any tips?? You don’t have to answer, love your work angel x

i won’t lie this made me kind of emotional?? you have no idea how much i appreciate you asking me this or saying that i’ve inspired you. me?? are you sure??

also i’m gonna try my best to answer this for you :)))

i started writing on wattpad before on here, and i did that purely because i wanted to. that’s why i write here too! i’d been writing stories in the notes on my phone and decided i’d revise them and give sharing them a shot. there isn’t a lot that’s made me as happy as writing does, so i guess my main piece of advice is to write because you enjoy it and write what you want. then all the other stuff will come later.

my blog is little and i quite like it that way, but there’s a set of billy headcanons i wrote that have a thousand and some odd notes? which might not seem like a lot to some people but it is to me. honestly i get scared to post so i tend to post things and then go to sleep. but that one is the most notes i’ve gotten. and it’s shocking because i posted that and didn’t think anyone would read it (i have very low expectations for myself).

so really i just write things i’m happy with and i post them and i completely understand the disheartening feeling that comes with a lack of feedback. i really appreciate comments and reblogs because they tell me if someone likes something and then that gives me motivation to write more. i have something i wrote that was the longest thing i’ve ever written, and it’s got less than twenty notes i think. and likes don’t tell me anything, you know? so i try to leave feedback on everything i read because i know what it feels like to not know if anyone is enjoying your work.

as for tips, i have noticed that there seems to be a time zone thing? like if i post at a certain time, no one sees it, but at another time it gets a little more attention? it’s odd. i also try my best at getting loads of tags in there. but honestly i didn’t start using tumblr until 2022 (almost said this year) so i’m still new and learning as i go. and i’m not totally sure about traction, i suppose? i think it depends on the characters too. my gareth work doesn’t do as well because he isn’t as popular a character. my eddie stuff does well right off the bat because he’s more popular, but then it sort of calms down after that. billy does well over time. i think sometimes people might be shy to share their feelings about billy. idk. maybe that’s bullshit and sounds silly.

so i’d say: do it for yourself. if you enjoy it, then write whatever you want for whoever you want. but i know it sucks to not have feedback. sometimes i post and it’s radio silent and it can hurt. and i think there is a definite problem with the lack of responses on here—i’ve seen people compare it to things like instagram where likes mean everything, and that’s not the case here. but really, if you enjoy it, keep at it. i think the good stuff comes later, if that makes any sense. sometimes i feel like quitting, but if i take a step back, i realize that i enjoy it and it doesn’t matter if no one reads it, because i had fun making up this little escapist world.

i don’t know if that was helpful at all, but again i really appreciate you asking me. thank you for reading my crap and for being here :)))

#bookshelf-dust #i love you lots #and lots and lots #and i’m gonna give you a hug #also billy hargrove?#yeah he loves you #he told me

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so i sent you that ask a little while ago about the difference between meta written by people who enjoy izzy and people who tend to live in Ed Has Done Nothing Wrong Land (completely okay if you don’t recall btw! i assume you probably get a lot of messages) and holy shit thank you for saying ed should apologize to stede for some of the stuff he (meaning ed) did in e10 because i was out here feeling like i was completely off base for thinking stede is owed an apology for that. i try to read meta from varying sides of the fandom just to keep abreast of what’s going on, which is how i ended up making that observation of the differences in substance and text-supported analysis in ofmd meta in the first place, and i think i saw someone say something once like “well ed needs to apologize to the crew for marooning them but not to stede” and i thought hmm idk if i agree but i see their point and now i’m fully thinking that both stede and izzy (ABSOLUTELY izzy because oh my god?) are owed apologies from ed. stede for sure has his own apologizing to do (to ed and the crew), and he’s at fault for a lot, but ed actively trying to kill the crew is…well, that sure is something. stede’s certainly going to have to earn back ed’s trust, but now i honestly can’t imagine anything other than ed having to earn back stede’s trust as well? stede is definitely neglectful of everyone’s wellbeing early on, but by the time the series ends he’s more cognizant of his actions, and at the very least, close with lucius and olu; if the man you love tried to kill your friends (and may have succeeded in killing one?), there’s going to be some distrust there! and sure, maybe this all gets handwaved muppet-y style in the show itself, but i don’t think this justifies within fandom meta the claim that ed doesn’t have apologies to make and some growth to do in his relationship with stede. so thank you for the response and making me feel validated in this interpretation.

No I fully remember!!

The only thing Ed doesn't owe Stede an apology over is what he did to Izzy, and that's because Izzy isn't part of Stede's crew? Although, arguably, he sort of was part of the co-crew. But Lucius and co were absolutely Stede's people and his crew and Ed lashed out at them because they're Stede's people.

Like, I'm not saying Stede is owed a bigger apology than the crew - he is not, Ed did not try to kill him, he tried to kill them - but he's definitely owed one.

Maybe people are trying so hard to divorce themselves from the idea of (historical) Stede Bonnet as a slave owner, they're acting like the crew aren't Anything to him to avoid a feeling of ownership? But there's many, many shades in between 'nothing' and 'owned', and the crew were his crew. He was their captain. That means something.

Especially if you factor in that Stede almost certainly assumed Ed would return to the Revenge or that Izzy would take care of the crew. I don't think he put a lot of thought into it (he's-- a little selfish and singleminded, our Stede!) but there was certainly going to be a subconscious feeling of, "Well, [Ed/Izzy] will be taking care of them." If only because Ed and Izzy are both actual pirates who would surely take on the crew (which Izzy did). If not those feelings, then surely the knowledge the crew would look out for each other and figure something out (see: Oluwande nearly becoming captain).

It's like having a traumatic experience and bailing from an apartment you share with your best friend and thinking subconsciously, "He'll take care of my cats," as you run home to your parents, and then you come back later to find out he didn't even find the cats a new home he threw them out into the road and slammed the door because you left.

An apology is definitely owed. Especially if the only reason the cats survived is you found them mewling outside the door when you got home.

Stede needs to apologize for bailing out on Ed, but I don't think he owes a giant apology to the crew - they probably didn't expect him back, after all. If they did, they would surely have been saying, "Look, we just have to hack it under ~Captain Hands~ until Stede gets back," - and, similar to the cat metaphor, Stede definitely needs to say, "Hey, I'm really sorry for just leaving you like that, I thought you would be taken care of and you really weren't and that's on me," but it's Ed he actively hurt and left and owes an apology to.

That said, I don't think the apology he owes Ed is giant either? He did something shitty after agreeing to run away with him, but he didn't murder people Ed cared about or anything like that. He owes him a good apology, yes, and there will have to be a rebuilding of trust, but I don't think Stede needs to beg for forgiveness or anything like that.

In honesty, I think he needs to sincerely apologize to Ed for bailing, probably explain why he bailed (Chauncey's words, his panic over ruining Ed and his family who he clearly cared about etc) and then what comes after in regards to what Stede did, will be rebuilding a level of trust where Ed doesn't expect Stede to disappear every time the going gets tough.

Stede broke his heart, yes, but Ed massively overreacted to it and I think there's a bit of a trend in this fandom (affectionate) to really feel along with Ed how much it hurt and get angry at Stede over it.

So yes: they both have to rebuild a lot of trust, but Ed is the one that owes some really, really big apologies.

(There might even be, "What? You thought I wasn't coming back?! I was always coming back!" "Oh shit--" sort of apology, but we'll see where they go with that. I don't read Stede as intending to go back in 1x10, so it depends.)

#this is the most i've written in days since this heatwave #i am sweating so bad i want to cry #it is so hot i am dying #this is the only ask i am going to manage to get today but i saw it come in and wanted to reply #ask #anonymous #stede bonnet #edward teach #ofmd #ofmd meta #stede bonnet meta #edward teach meta

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Heyo! I'd like a romantic Sonic matchup if you don't mind ^-^

Name: Walela Rose!

Pronouns: She/they

Sexuality and preferences: Bisexual, and my big crushes are Shadow, Sonic and Knuckles (am major Shadow simp) but I’m cool with any match. If you’re focusing on my big 3, I mostly crush on modern and Boom Sonic, movie Knuckles and any freaking iteration of Shadow (except IDW, they did him so dirty ;--;) smaller crush on movie Sonic and Blaze, but again I’m good with any matchup so no pressure!

Personality: where do I freaking start. I am more or less a huge anxious shut in. I have pretty bad anxiety and am scared to be outside by myself. I am a little socially anxious and am awkward, whether I’m confident about it or not. Whenever I try to talk to someone new, I tend to open up with a joke or meme that they end up not understanding and the convo usually ends there. Otherwise, I tend to not talk around strangers. However, when I get close to someone, they can’t shut me up. I get clingy, really affectionate and maybe annoying idk. I tend to crack myself up with puns that everyone else facepalms over. Sometimes I overshare my thoughts. I can be loud when I get excited. My sleep schedule is fricked up lol and I am a bit chubby. I also have a lot of low iq moments lmao and I need a lot of reassurance to know somebody isn’t going to leave me or replace me with someone else. I like sharing the things I obsess about with the ones close to me. I’m an age regressor, but even when I’m not regressing I tend to act a bit like a kid. I’m also lazy af and I blush easily. (Sorry if this was super long) Likes and dislikes: I like singing and playing video games and drawing too! I don’t like pickles, or coffee, and I don’t like hard thunderstorms or people angry yelling at me bc those scare me a lot. I really like Kingdom Hearts and My Little Pony and, of course, the Sonic franchise! My favorite colors are pastels and black. Although I like fireworks, I have to plug my ears when watching them bc I’m a highly sensitive person and those big loud babies hurt my ears. I like childlike things, like those stupid pretend cash register toys.

Relationship type: Something intimate, someone who likes taking care of me but tries to help me grow as a person as well. A relationship where they'll just suddenly remind me that they love me (that makes me swoon) and say sweet things in my ear first thing in the morning (more swooning). Perhaps someone just a little bit possessive, like they get a little jealous or pull me close when they feel like there's competition nearby. Someone who likes to gently brush my hair and doesn't call me cringe if I write them a super cheesy love poem. Someone who will love my body regardless of its shape, but still encourage me to be healthy. And someone who will be understanding and caring when I regress.

NSFW: My top 3 kinks are yandere, DDLG (as in calling someone Daddy and they take on a dilf-like role) and praise kink. I'm a switch, but mostly submissive.

hello lovely, thank you for submitting! i hope you like your matchup!

i match you with...

knuckles the echidna

• this is honestly just a gut feeling but i think knuckles would be a really good match for you!!

• he would definitely help you come out of your shell a bit, at least if you're only around him, to help you overcome your social anxiety. even if it's just baby steps.

• definitely loves taking care of you, making sure you're okay in any given situation, keeping an eye on you when you're around others in case your social battery runs dry

• his love language is acts of service so i think he'd overall just enjoy having someone that lets him convey that

• i don't think he'd be too into pda or anything like that, i headcanon him as pretty reserved, but when it's just the two of you he loves to murmur his affections by your ear while he keeps you close

• won't get most of the memes you reference but will still appreciate it anyway <3 he will enjoy your silly jokes and puns though

• knuckles is very protective over what he loves and what he considers his so rest assured you are in very safe hands, not to mention he won't hesitate to assert himself as your s/o if anyone else tries anything funny

• enjoys your affectionate, clingy nature, would never find it annoying.

• honestly if you gave him a cheesey love poem, he'd be more flustered than anything. he's not used to receiving such affection so it takes him off guard!

hope you enjoyed your matchup!!

#sonic matchups

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elganac · 2 years

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——— BASICS !

· (PEN)NAME: borbie, borb, birdie

· PRONOUNS: she/her or they/them!

· ZODIAC SIGN: virgo

· TAKEN OR SINGLE: single

——— THREE FACTS !

i’m currently trying to be a content creator off tumblr ( tuber of the v variety! )

i’ve been playing candy crush almost everyday for the past like two months

i’ve been on tumblr since uhhh 2013, maybe even 2012???

——— EXPERIENCE !

· PLATFORMS USED: mainly tumblr, though i originally started off via text messages and kik! i’ve also rp’d on discord, but it’s difficult for me to keep track of and maintain muse for those threads since the back and forth is too fast for me. ofc there was also the skype period

——— MUSE PREFERENCE !

· GENDER: kind of 50/50 really?? i have more male muses than female but i think that just kinda happened. i think i prefer female muses in a way though!

· LEAST FAVOURITE FACE(S): idk what this question actually means but uhhh i guess i dont really lean towards like, “scary” or “aggressive” looking face claims? my muses tend to be on the cutesy or mischievous side, like even nate who is the more serious of the selection is really just a big shit poster, so while he has like aggressive tendencies he’s not really an aggressive face. does this even make sense lmao????

· MULTI OR SINGLE: putting all of my muses onto one blog has been the best move to maintain my sanity

——— FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT ! ♡

· FLUFF: i crave fluff sometimes, i really do. sometimes it’s very repetitive and redundant but honestly sometimes i could just rp the same concept over and over again with different rp partners so see different reactions and the nuances in relationships. like sharing a bath — it’s not a new concept on my blog or my muses’ relationships, but i will always love writing about muses wanting to share a bath together or like sharing a bed together, stuff like that.

especially when it comes to muses like alison and emile who are hopeless romantics and just thrive off of being in love and being cared for — it really is so fcking cute to write fluff when it fuels a close bond

· ANGST: i honestly haven’t written angst in so long, but i def do enjoy it for the sake of character development and exploring dynamics. i’m not really a fan of angst for the sake of angst anymore since it gets really tiring to just make a muse suffer just because especially when it’s like the most outrageous of circumstances, but if there’s actually a direction and a reason to the angst, i really enjoy it. especially if there’s a lot of room for plotting between me and my rp partner

· SMUT: mindless smut sometimes is good in the sense it’s self-indulgent for me, but if it’s overdone, i do get burnt out really quickly. i usually reserve smut for closer rp partners or more established ships, but sometimes i’ll open it up to flings to explore new relationships and situations with muses. but tbh, one of my fave kind of smut is the kind that allows for a lot of exploration of a muse’s sexuality. not just who they’re attracted to but also just like, them learning how to manage and cope with sexual desire, sexual activities, and sexual exploration overall. i especially love this with alison because her perspective is skewed as a result of some trauma, so i always enjoy letting her explore her sexuality with other muses.

· PLOT / MEMES: i absolutely love plotting. i love plotting so much, like it honestly gives me so much joy to yell at people on discord about our muses and just take an idea and spin it into something so much bigger. i like memes too, but i feel like sometimes i get anxious from them just sitting in my inbox even tho there’s technically no rush or obligation to even answer the memes. it’s a weird thing, but memes are def a good way to break the ice sometimes. i wish i was able to send more memes out to people, but it’s hard to find time to sit down and scroll through the memes to find a good one to send to people :pensive:

tagged by: @madamhatter ( weeps this was from ages ago!!!! )

#games;#ooc;

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borderline-gays-club · 1 year

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Progress moment id like to share!!!

Ok so I went on like 3 dates with a guy over the span of like 2ish months? Prob less time, but anyway doesn’t matter. And things were going well till the 3rd date…

He didn’t fully confirm the time till like a day before, he showed up almost an hour late (and smelled of booze from the nite before), and then broke a boundary of mine at the end (although he said he misunderstood me. At this point idk if I wasn’t clear enough or hes just saying that. Idk doesn’t matter now).

Anyway yah all pretty bad things, even if none of it was malicious. But I seriously considered still giving him a chance as long as he never repeated all those things.

But then I started to feel conflict internally. I was feeling like I wanted to hide all these things from my friend (who’s opinion I deeply value and respect), and started to feel like I had to like “teach” him a lot of shit.

So I really sat with the feeling and sorted thru my data rather than listening to the voice in my head that likes to gaslight me.

And according to the data I gathered from just observing and interacting with him, he actually had a good amount of red flags that were more subtle (at least for me). I’ll list them just for me to look back on.

-bartender that drinks for his job (personal red flag cus ppl that drink heavily are triggering for me)

-mentioned blacking out recently

-definitely has been in the service industry for a while (red flag cus ppl tend to get stuck in that cycle and I would kno)

-mentioned something a bit strange abt turning empathy on and off. (Mayb not a red flag but I guess I was more confused abt it)

-didn’t follow thru with something I asked him to do (wasn’t taking it serious enough).

-was pretty bad at communicating, like didn’t respond for over a week when trying to make plans.

And ya there were prob more little things I just can’t remember but those are the ones I can think of rn.

So ya looking at all of this I was like damn..I guess he’s got to go!! Bc also I notice a red flag in myself is when I feel the need to b sneaky and like omit information. And like trying to excuse or reason with myself that’s oh theyre not bad, they’re not malicious etc.

And to note, bc my past experiences with ppl have been so horrendous, my scale of wat is ok and wat isn’t is incredibly fucked. Where basically if it’s not blatantly terrible then I’m like welll it can change! Or like it’s fine I can ignore it!

In conclusion, even if ppl aren’t malicious or actively trying to hurt me, if they cannot meet me where I’m at and respect my time and energy then it simply cannot work.

It’s taken me so long to be able to really be active abt this but I’m here now and I’m proud of myself for ending things with him. Bc honestly it prob would’ve just gotten worse if he showed me that much of himself so early on.

I don’t have hard feelings towards him, and I was excited to pursue this D/s dynamic with him but unfortunately it didn’t work. It was hard to make that decision, and tbh I cried abt it, but I’d rather b disappointed than to have my fucking heart shattered and pummeled again lol.

All I have to do is see all the mistakes I made in my most recent relationship and how it just destroyed me bc I actively ignored all the red flags. NEVER AGAIN!! I fucking refuse.

#actually bpd #bgc #bpd #bpd thoughts #quiet borderline #actually borderline #bpd shit

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hi minnie <3 i’m doing alright! i just feel kind of tired lately especially with all my hw 🥺 school’s been going pretty good for me, but i have a math retest coming up (i got a 66 the first time 🙈) so i need to start studying for that 🤧

- oh i recently got my learning permit for driving so my dad has been taking me,, and i don’t know if it’s normal to be this nervous but i really hate it sm 😭 my dad kind of expects me to improve quickly and he also keeps pressuring me to go faster which really scares me 😣 yesterday my dad made me drive home, when i only have experience driving in the parking lot (i’ve only been behind the wheel around 6 times), and it was genuinely terrifying … i really hope i get better quickly so i don’t have to do lessons every week 🫠

- also my parents have recently started asking me what i want to pursue once i graduate and i’m honestly not sure at all, like everyone else i know seems to have everything figured out except me 🥺 and idk if it’s okay or not but my parents have been scolding me for it … it’s honestly been making me kind of feel less than or just not good enough sometimes. yesterday my parents scolded me a lot and as soon as i went to bed, i just started crying and cried for maybe around an hour. i honestly cry a lot but sometimes it makes me feel as if i’m too sensitive or if i’m just overreacting 😔 i’ve been getting rejected a lot from some of the things that i’ve applied too so i worry that i’m just not good enough compared to my peers and it’s honestly my biggest complex bc i feel like i might be putting myself too much 🙁 i honestly don’t know to explain but my mind just feels really like tense rn and it’s hard for me to feel happy about everything … i just hope that everything lightens up soon

- ahhh i’m so sorry for rambling so much, but i really enjoy talking to you minnie!! i also apologize for creating such a sad mood T_T i hope you don’t mind 🥺 you’re really just so sweet and your blog just feels very comforting to me 🫶 i appreciate you sm & ty minnie! - battinson anon 🦇🧛‍♀️

hii ik it's been a while since you send this in so I apologize for only getting to it now ☹️

I hope that math retest went well! pls lemme know how you did (if you feel comfortable sharing)

ahhh I relate to the fear of driving. it has only been half a year for me since I got my license and my fear is still there but only because I barely get to practice 🤧 but it does really get easier and I hope you're already seeing improvements! as for tips... I don't think I have any other than drive as much as you can because experience really is the key here. and try to stay calm when you're being scolded (I still have not mastered that point either) or your emotions will make you drive even worse 😭

and no, I don't think it's okay for your parents to get mad at you over smth like this. you are still learning and need guidance and patience and that is not achievable by shouting and negative energy.

I do tend to cry a lot too but you're not too sensitive or overreacting. you know why? because your feelings are valid. every person is different and no matter what their feelings are okay and totally normal. I get shouted at when I cry so it's hard sometimes to remember it but if that is your way of showing emotions and releasing stress and that is totally okay and you shouldn't be ashamed of that <3

I really don't mind this ask and I feel rather happy about you confiding in me so don't worry 🥰

and I promise to answer as soon as I can the next time 😵

hope you're having a great week 💗

#battinson anon 🦇🧛‍♂️

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PROMPT 1: Hellooooooo! First off ur writing goes off, second off listen to this idea that i truly think u can bring to life... reader n tom r in a relationship and someone tried to slip tom to love potion but ofc he doesn't fall for it and his gf is like ??? and then they rub their relationship in her face LOL. anyways no worried just thought this would slap! Admire u n ur work!!

PROMPT 2: hey i love your the last of your rules series and everything else you’ve written. i’m not very creative so idk what exactly i’m looking for plot wise i just trust you since everything you’ve written is good but i was wondering if maybe you could write a tom x ravenclaw reader please. the ravenclaw reader tends to be more emotionally reserved and isn’t big on physical affection and maybe tom finds that interesting in a way? idk this idea might suck but felt like asking anyways...

Decided to combine these two because I could see them working really well together… :D

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Retribution

Summary: After somebody tries to slip Tom a love potion to break up him and Ravenclaw Reader’s relationship, they get a little bit theatrical in response...

Wordcount: 1.8k

Content warning: none.

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“Good morning,” says Tom evenly, lifting a wide-brimmed cup to his lips and taking an even sip as he looks at you.

“Is it?” you say dryly, sitting down opposite him at the Slytherin table and pulling out the new Magical Theory textbook. “Have you looked over this yet?”

“I have,” Tom replies with a very small smile. “Not to your liking?”

“Sophus writes like it’s still the seventeenth century,” you say with a shake of your head, “which isn’t surprising considering I don’t think he included a single reference from the last two hundred years… I mean honestly –” you wave at the title on the front of the book, “– ‘Corpus Magikus?’ Even the title makes it sound ancient.”

“Did you have any criticisms about the actual content per chance?” Tom asks as he lifts his tea again – though it doesn’t quite hide the amused smile on his lips. “Or did you not manage to get past the articulation?”

You give him a look. “The articulation is just as important as the content.”

“I completely disagree,” he replies easily, his cup clinking as he rests it back on its saucer, “regardless of how it is written, his points are extremely sophisticated.”

“I’m not talking about the quality of his points, I’m talking about how well he makes them accessible,” you say at once, picking up a piece of toast and buttering it lightly, “he can have the best criticisms of Magical Theory in the world and no one will care if they can’t understand what he’s saying.”

Tom arches a brow and leans forward on the table, resting on his forearms. “You’re placing the responsibility of understanding an argument on the person presenting it, and not the person receiving it,” he says fluidly, “personally when I find something difficult to understand, I take it as an indicator that I need to return to the topic after better preparing myself.”

“That works fine as an individualistic perspective,” you reply at once, leaning forward to match him, “but a book isn’t written for an individual, is it? It’s written for an audience. A book like this is measured by how wide an audience it can reach, meaning the responsibility is half on him to write accessibly, and half on the audience to go away and fill the holes in our own understanding. That’s when information is dispersed most effectively.”

“Your priority is the dispersion of information as a whole and not the expansion of your personal field of knowledge, and that is the crux of our differing opinion,” Tom says, sitting up straighter and tilting his head calmly.

“I am very aware,” you say dryly, “but you shouldn’t dismiss the importance of charisma when it comes to spreading information. After all, academics aren’t exactly known to be the most charismatic people most of the time, so you end up with intelligent, useful tomes that are utterly incomprehensible to most people –” you nod at the text again, “whilst compelling idiotic drivel is widely consumed.”

The Daily Prophet lands with a thump on your breakfast plate as the delivery owl swoops away with a mournful hoot, and you share a pointed, very wry look with Tom.

Tom breathes a little laugh and laces his fingers around his cup. “So you’re not looking forward to Magical Theory, then.”

“I am,” you amend, frowning, “I just hope the class follows more like Waffling’s work than this.”

“Of course you like Waffling,” Tom smirks, lifting his cup, “he effectively writes in verse –”

Tom suddenly freezes, his brow furrowing lightly. You raise a brow at his sudden reaction. “What?”

He looks down at his tea, still frowning.

“Tom?” you prompt, bemused.

“Someone has attempted to drug me,” he says in complete seriousness, looking up at you.

You stare back, bewildered. “Is… is this more Tom humour?” you ask after a moment, “you seriously need more practice at making jokes, Tom, you really are terrible at it –”

“I’m not joking,” Tom interrupts crisply.

Your scrutiny drops to the cup in his hand. “How can you tell?”

“My tea smells like you.”

Your brows raise. “Excuse me?”

“My tea,” he repeats evenly, his dark eyes coming alight with a flicker of amusement as he leans closer, his cup still in one hand, “rather suddenly smells like you. I can only assume someone has managed to slip Amortentia into my cup sometime during this conversation.”

You blink at him. “Oh,” you say simply.

Tom’s lips curve into a more defined smirk at your expression.

“Well who’s trying to drug you then?” you ask quickly, looking away.

“An excellent question,” he says silkily, eyes still on you. “Their motive is hardly a mystery, so that should narrow it down.”

You roll your eyes and level him with a flat look. “Nothing could narrow it down less, Tom,” you drawl, “half the school is in love with you, and the other half is in denial about being in love with you.”

Tom arches a brow and looks very pleased with himself. “Should I drink it and we can find out?” he asks in amusement, lifting the cup.

You huff a laugh and take a bite of your toast. “Go on then, but don’t expect any sympathy from me when you’re pouring your heart out to some random stranger in front of the whole school a minute from now.”

His hand freezes with the rim of his cup an inch from his mouth, amusement faltering.

“That’s what I thought,” you smirk. “If you want to play it that way you’re going to have to be smarter than that.”

“Oh?” he asks, dark eyes narrowing. “And what would you suggest?”

“If someone drugged you during this conversation then they’re probably watching for your reaction,” you say casually around bites of your toast, “so just look out for someone who’s waiting for you to dramatically break up with me.”

“According to you, that would be the entire school,” Tom mutters, looking significantly more disgruntled than before.

A grin slowly builds on your face. “That was nearly a real joke, Tom,” you say ironically, “Merlin you’ve come so far…”

He shoots you a flat glare and you snicker. “Alright, sorry, I’ll stop – look, if I storm out of here looking upset and you act all conflicted and brooding for the rest of the day, whoever it was will probably try to come talk to you.”

“How theatrical,” Tom deadpans.

You shrug. “Do you want to know who drugged you or not?”

His eyes remain on yours for a moment, and then he lifts the tea to his lips. You watch him pretend to drink, your eyes lingering on the tea glistening on his lips as he lowers the cup.

“Don’t lick your lips,” you say quietly, not quite able to look away.

Tom’s other hand shifts slightly where it’s resting on the table between you, and the tea vanishes both from his lips and the cup. You give him another dry look. “Show off,” you accuse, smiling, “wandless and non-verbal, huh?”

“If you ask nicely, I’ll teach you how to do it,” he smirks.

You huff a laugh and slide Corpus Magikus back into your bag. “I should make my dramatic exit soon,” you say casually, finishing your toast and looking around the hall absently. “Perhaps we should have a fight first.”

“That would make it more convincing, yes,” he says delicately, still looking amused.

“What shall we fight about?"

Tom’s expression immediately cools and he leans in so close that you can see the patterns in his dark irises. “The content doesn’t matter,” he says smoothly, a glimmer in his eyes despite his utterly blank expression, “rather, the articulation.”

You hold his gaze for a second, fighting the urge to smile. You force yourself to stand suddenly, as if he’s said something of great offence. “I’ve never seen you so quickly converted to my opinion, Tom,” you say icily, leaning down to him over the table and hoping it looks like you’re angry.

“You made your argument very convincingly,” Tom says immediately, lifting his chin coolly.

“Actively demonstrating my point, I suppose,” you snap, standing straight. “I’m going to storm out now.”

“I’ll see you in class,” he says dismissively, pouring himself more tea.

You turn on your heel and leave, ignoring the curious eyes following you on your way out and not letting the smile break on your face until you’re well outside the Hall. Now all you have to do is wait.

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“Amelia Staghart,” Tom says in your ear before swiftly sitting down next to you in Potions that afternoon.

You raise a brow at him, watching as he arranges his Potions kit on the desk – Staghart is sitting a few desks behind you at that very moment and can most definitely see the both of you. “Are we no longer having a fight?”

“I grew tired of that pretence rather quickly,” Tom says curtly.

You smirk. “Did she talk to you?”

“Yes.” He looks decidedly irritated.

“A lot, huh.”

He shoots you a glare and you bite back another smile. “Are you going to report her then?” you ask, writing the date out on your parchment.

“No,” Tom says softly. You glance up curiously at his tone and find his dark eyes watching you write, before they flick up to yours. “I can think of a more pertinent retribution for her to endure,” he finishes quietly, not looking away.

“Retribution?” you echo, arching a brow with a slight smile. “And you accuse me of being theatrical.”

But Tom only leans closer and – to general astonishment – places a very gentle kiss on your cheek. His lips linger soft and warm on your skin for a moment as you’re frozen in place, staring at him as he slowly draws away an inch. His eyes roam your face as you blink in surprise, his lips curving into another humorous smile at your expression when there’s a sudden SMASH from behind you.

The entire class turns from where they’ve been staring wide-eyed at Tom’s display of affection to see Staghart’s inkwell knocked asunder on her desk, spreading black ink across the wood and dripping down to the floor, her eyes wide and her expression thunderstruck as she stares at you.

“Clean that up at once, Staghart!” Slughorn says disapprovingly as he strides into the room. “I certainly hope your clumsiness does not extend through today’s lesson – we’re brewing poisons today, class!”

Staghart goes red as the rest of the students titter and chatter, furiously glaring at the pool of ink dripping into her lap.

You glance at Tom and share a silent look of amusement before the two of you simultaneously turn back to your notes, still smirking.

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i was sent one of your posts on classpecting spamton and what you got is very interesting! I roleplay two very distinct spamtons (one from present day, and one from a recovery au immediately from big shot-dom skipping over trashman) and I classpected the one that's more close to canon as a sylph of doom, what do you think about that? :0

sylph of doom... well its on the life/doom dichotomy so i can see that!

so, first things first, from what i know not everyone follows the same theories when it comes to classes (especially with classes that dont have solid definitions like sylph, mage, knight, etc.). back in the day i mainly looked at @/dahniwitchoflight 's stuff, so thats generally where my understanding comes from. @/wakraya is also a pretty good modern theorist from what ive seen and heard (since dahni has... retired? or at least isnt as active anymore). i dont agree with all of wakraya's stuff (i think page is passive while knight is active, and i think of active and passive stuff in a slightly different way), but it might help yall see where i'm coming from in terms of what i know and believe.

anyway. with that out of the way! lemme get to my (very simplistic) analysis of sylph of doom, and how that can relate to spamton!

sylph, with my understanding, is a passive creation class (having maid as the active counterpart, and prince being its inverse). the definition i like to go for is inviting creation, or indirectly creating stuff. they tend to be meddlers who make everything their business, especially when it comes to their aspect. think of aranea constantly sharing information with everyone she could, trying to create information and knowledge. healing terezi’s eyesight, creating sight. she also was obsessed with gaining the spotlight, even to the detriment (and death) of others. they also can be kinda stubborn iirc.

doom, with my understanding, generally alludes to restriction, rules, and suffering. its the opposite of life, which generally deals with growth, luxury, and agency. doomy players are notorious for suffering in some sort of way, but maybe it's a good thing? mituna's suffering and sollux's suffering in the end resulted in pretty neat things iirc. doom aint all bad, especially in the face of too much growth. but of course, when you look at how doom applies to spamton, it is pretty bad. spamton is in a very doomy situation that hes currently trying to escape (tho the positive result of his doom might be the party gaining the shadow crystal? or him gaining NEO? idk)

sylph of doom, someone that invites the creation of doom! they want to create doom (rules, restrictions, suffering) in the ways they see fit. they'll like be obsessed with some sort of facet of doom in some way. maybe theyre obsessed with keeping things in neat little boxes, maybe they’re obsessed with following the rules, maybe they're obsessed with making everyone feel like shit, maybe their obsessed with culling all those who dont deserve to live, etc. (very simplistic analysis since im not the greatest when it comes to this stuff sorry asdghasd)

so! how does it apply to spamton! well, im honestly having some trouble seeing the connection. between doom and life, he seems more obsessed with life in comparison. a lot of his life is filled with doom, but sylphs are more focused on making more of their aspect, not trying to get rid of it like spamton seems to be doing.

(you may think of the idea of sylphs healing doom, aka getting rid of doom, but im not really sure if thats how it works. of course, you may interpret sylph different from me! so you could see sylph of doom spamton as wanting to heal his own doom)

but yeah! i admit i’m somewhat stubborn on spamton being some sort of life player (or maybe even destructive doom), but please if you think spamton is a sylph of doom i definitely aint stopping ya! i love seeing what other people classpect spamton as, even if i may not agree with it. hope ya have fun rping!

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