#life & death & everything in between

[thymeofarrival]

Gem’s bloodlust is genuinely scary and unsettling and I adore it and her so much

… I hit tag limit on this and I’m not even close to done spilling my thoughts in the tags so I’m going to post so I can copy my tags into real text and keep writing them

#I can’t imagine facing her as one of the uninfected when she’s got my heart rate up just watching from her perspective #she’s a hunter #I’ve written something before about how she talks about murder in the same excited tone as cute decorations #and people sometimes underestimate her because of it despite her reputation as a good fighter #but she’s not a fighter she’s a predator #she’s a hunter and even watching from her perspective sometimes it feels like she’s hunting me #she’s hunting All #and it’s exciting and fun for her #and she needs her pack to some extent but when it gets too big she needs to split off again #idk what’s going on in these tags it’s just. hnnghhh. Red Gem #or even before she went red #just bloodthirsty predator gem reveling in the thrill of the hunt #it’s not nearly as much fun on your own but once you’ve killed a couple people to your side and have the numbers to terrify people #you can do that. you can circle around your prey and corner them and terrify them before you kill them #and it feels like power and it feels like a game and it feels like fun #because it’s not life or death it’s success or failure #but maybe everything is a game to a creature like gem who hops between worlds at will #what if she could leave secret life at any time #like she could hop between empires and hermitcraft at any time #if she can leave then she really is just there to have a chance to enjoy the hunt in a setting where it’s expected #encouraged even #death games as a way to satisfy her bloodlust so it doesn’t spill over someplace where it might Actually Hurt #death games to take the edge off #death games to get a chance to reveal the fangs behind her grin and the sharp points of her antlers #we call her a deer because that’s the closest thing our minds can connect to her appearance #but she’s always been a little too Other for that #oh and now the Void has taken root in her too #it’s claimed her eye and arm #maybe it helped guide her aim #or maybe she’s always been a creature of the space between worlds (what with the way she hops between them)

[alexibeeart]

Ed Teach being clingy and Stede Bonnet happily and reassuringly indulging is something that can be so personal

#Gentlebeard #everytime yall write or draw ed being a clingy wife and stede lovingly responding #10 hp is added to my life bar #ofmd #our flag means death #think about how good it must feel to stede also #heres someone who loves and needs and wants to touch and hold him #after an entire life spent feeling unwanted and ignored and shoved aside #sigh #everything they want and need from each other #just flows so naturally between them

[ask-but-beware-the-consequences]

They deserve it. (They tried out a night sky lamp) Thank you @sexystevebuscemi for the idea, here's the finished art piece! ^^ Hope you like it and fits your request of jetpacking 🚢💙💙

#mtl #pickles the drummer #nathan explosion #mtl fanart #metalocalypse #metalocalypse fanart #dethklok fanart #dethklok #nickels #eepy time #hope it didn't turn out too dark omg #toki and skwisgaar might be life and death. murderface the in-between: deceit. the one that both has #but to me Nathan and Pickles are the cosmos. two galaxies. the parents that everything else was born from

[haunted-xander]

You ever think about how Ryne probably got a more honest yet closed-off Thancred while Minfilia got a more disingenuine yet open Thancred?

Like, the Thancred Minfilia knew and grew up with was the one we saw in arr, the flirty, teasing and sassy but friendly man who was clearly not very honest seeing as no one- not even Minfilia- noticed how worn out he was from his constant work. Even just by hw he's noticably more prickly and. not quite rude but. more outwardly cynical? He's always been kinda cynical, but in arr his teasing and banter hides it well, which never disappears but is more. natural? genuine? now. Krile directly points out that he's much more brusque than she expected of him based on how Minfilia described him.

And sure, you could attribute that behaviour to his grief and stress (which is certainly a part of it) but considering he acts much the same in ew, when he's finally moved on and come to terms with everything (and is also post-shb character development), I think it's safe to say that this is the most honest we've seen Thancred be.

But this is all Ryne has known him to be. She's never seen Thancred be flirtatious or as social and friendly as he is in arr, she's only seen him be brusque and cynical but still teasing and kind. But he's also far more closed off from her (and others) bc of That Whole Deal going on. Urianger has told her more about Thancred's true feelings than Thancred himself has. and even that's not a lot, for Urianger is not only not a mind reader and doesn't know everything that goes on on Thancred's head, but also is reluctant to share more than is necessary since it's not his place to divulge these things (and also he himself is not free from the folly of emotional self-isolation).

With Minfilia though, he's open enough that she's never doubted that he cared for and loved her even when he couldn't spend much time with her, and she felt comfortable enough to admonish him when he did his usual self-destructive behaviour (you know, becoming an alchoholic at 17 and All That Entails)

Just. food for thought

#theres a lot of these parallels between ryne & minfilia in regards to their relationship with thancred #like. the way things are so similar yet so *different* from each other #same same but opposite ya know #like how thancred blames himself for warburtons death and by extention minfilia being orphaned even tho it was in no way his fault #vs how he knowingly took ryne away from ran'jit bc he knew that whatever other life shed live would be better than what she had #when minfilia first experienced the echo thancred knew wat it was but didnt tell her (for circle of knowing related reasons) #whereas he told ryne everything he could in regards to her powers and circumstances #he gifted minfilia her dagger for self-defense but never taught her how to fight #but ryne was not only gifted daggers by him but also taught how to properly fight and fend for herself with them #and he trusted minfilia in the main care of f'lhaminn while he took a more secondary support role #but he assigned himself the primary caretaker for ryne while the others (read: urianger) became secondary ones #(granted due to rynes situation he kinda had no other choice at the time) #(but im sure he wouldve taken the same role even if he could theoretically have safely handed her over to someone else) #also just to be clear thancred IS genuinely social and friendly even hw & up #just not as extroverted #he spends a lot of time either by himself or with fellow scions/other close companions #rather than with whatever lady hes trynna impress next #anyway. yet another day of being Completelt Normal about this complicated family situation #thancred waters #ryne waters #minfilia warde #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #xander being insane about ryne

[blujayonthewing]

#I've played with irl atheists and catholics and everything in between #but it rarely feels like faith is a real factor for anyone-- DM or player #outside of‚ again‚ divine spellcasters and Big Epic Plot Things #I mean there are a couple of 'RAAAHGH FUCK THE GODS >:C' edgy backstory types but #no one is just Normally Culturally Religious and it's WEIRD #like it's not even a matter of faith in dnd! the gods are LITERALLY OBJECTIVELY PROVABLY REAL #so what does that MEAN for the average person! how does it shape language? business? culture? #where are the people wearing holy symbols like amulets-- or the way modern christians very casually wear crosses? #blessings over meals? prayers before bed? burnt offerings? #and like I enjoy thinking about world and culture building but I know that's A Whole Thing but even just like... #it doesn't feel like anyone believes in gods at all except clerics and paladins #like they DO because they factually exist but in the same way I 'believe in' like. the president of france. #like yeah he exists and is important to some people but has no bearing on my life whatsoever #that's such a fucking weird approach to the DIVINE in a polytheist world where those gods are YOUR CULTURE'S GODS?? #I am bad at this myself but I'm not religious so it's harder for me to remember what Being Religious All The Time Casually is like lol #funny enough my character with the most intentionally religious background in this sense #is one of my ones who's ended up wrapped up in Big Plot God Things lmao #'aubree starts the campaign with a holy symbol of yondalla because of course she does why wouldn't she' #'oh okay well she's gonna get deeply and personally entangled with a bunch of death gods immediately' fdkjghkdf oh!! welp #you don't really pray to urogalan unless you're breaking ground for a new building or someone just died so it's STILL weird for her lol #but at least I had the framework there of 'oh yeah the gods exist and matter to me and my everyday life and culture' in general #about me #posts from twitter

[lgbtlunaverse]

I'm a little bit insane about how in novel canon the whole xiyao ending where Jin Guangyao wants to die with Xichen, who accepts, which then makes jgy change his mind and pushes him away at the last second isn't actually explicit. A lot of adaptations chose to make it so but in the novel this is all VERY up for interpretation.

Here's what actually happens in the text: Lan xichen stabs jgy, jgy moves away from lan xichen, xichen follows him, wwx realizes jgy is about to open the coffin and calls "watch out!" to lan xichen. Jgy unseals nmj, pushes xichen away, nmj kills jgy and they are both dragged into the coffin which is sealed again.

Here's what wei wuxian, our narrator, thinks is happening: Jin Guangyao wanted to lead lan xichen to his death out of revenge for stabbing him. Lan Xichen, unaware, simply followed Jin Guangyao to try and stop him from getting away. Wei wuxian's warning came too late, but Jin Guangyao- for an unknown reason- changed his mind at the last second and pushed lan xichen out of danger before lan xichen had any idea of what was going on.

Here's what most fans as well as the teams behind several adpatations think is happening: Jin Guangyao leads Xichen to nmj's coffin to die with him, Xichen accepts, because of this acceptance, proof xichen still cares for him, Jin Guangyao pushes him out of harm's way. Wei Wuxian just doesn't get that gay people who aren't him or Lan Wangji exist.

Here's what ALSO MIGHT BE HAPPENING: Jin guangyao wants to die in a different way than he is currently dying. Maybe he's afraid of what'll happen to his body after his death like he was scared for his mother's, maybe he wants to confront nmj one last time now that there's nothing more for him to lose, maybe - if he can't take her body with him- he'd at least like his final resting place to be where he buried his mother. Lan Xichen thinks he's trying to get away and follows but Jin Guangyao, who despite everything doesn't want him to die, pushes him away. Xichen doesn't know what happened until it's already happened. What he would've wanted if he had known remains up in the air.

Or, alternatively: Jin Guangyao's reasons are as above, but unbeknowst to Wei Wuxian, Xichen DOES know what jgy is about to do and either misinterprets this as an invitation to all die together, or inidividually decides he, too, is done, and wants to join his sworn brothers in the grave. To Jin Guangyao this has nothing to do with Lan Xichen, and he still doesn't want him to die, so he pushes him away against Lan Xichen's wishes.

Every single one of these interpretations is unhinged and they are all supported by the original text. It's like a choose your own adventure of tragic gay endings.

#mdzs #mdzs meta #meng yao #jin guangyao #lan xichen #nie mingjue #3zun #xiyao #rs: i wish it could've been you #honestly which is worse for xichen. Being denied his wish explicitly or only realizing he wanted it after it'd already been denied for him #OR genuinely not wanting to die but being forced to live with the fact that even after he essentially killed him jgy still saved his life #just another way he's in his debt #like no matter what he's not coming out of here okay #i switch between a bunch of these all the time but actually favor the last 2 because they're very underexplored in my opinion #I like it when 'i never even thought about hurting you' remains true to the bitter end. He never even considered it #also I just... have a lot of feelings about that being his mom's coffin #do you remember that in the novel the coffin was so heavy only sect leaders could bear the weight? #so for the burial a group of sect leaders had to be the pallbearers... the SYMBOLISM GUYS!! THE SYMBOLISM! #jgy dies in infamy but despite everything it's the highest of cultivation society who carry the coffin he's buried in #he's in the same coffin as a great sect leader!! As nmj!! After a whole life fighting an uphill battle finally in death they are equal #it's not justice and it's not fair but it's... something #wwx's interpretation is the one i favour the least. sorry bro you remain an unreliable narrator to me. #it feels rather uncharitable towards jgy which makes sense for wwx's pov but makes it not my favorite #there's an alternative version of that intepretation where jgy THINKS he's doing the coffin trio pact and thinks xichen accepts. #and has the same realization of oh no he still cares I don't want him to die and pushes lxc away #meanwhile lan xichen hasn't actually processed any of this because it all happened in about 0.4 seconds #i like that one slightly more but it's still not my favorite #there's tragedy in the misunderstanding but it's a bit convoluted.

[cryptiduni]

“white mourning.”

#‘‘A white mourning. A modern death. Divorce or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you & him. make him smaller.’’ #jean is a very easy character to hate if you know nothing about him. & you know what they say. easy target doesn’t make for a good practice #judit literally compares harry to intellectually disabled man yet you don’t see ppl hating her because she is outwardly nice. #she’s polite yes but she doesn’t care as much as jean cares for harry #he is not perfect. he is mean. but loyal. if he truly didn't care he wouldn't hab come back to martinaise & coulda just reported harry’s as #he put up with du bois’ bullshit for years and built a toxic (totally straight) relationship with him yet always comes back. #he says he will leave you in the village to die but please understand harry isn't exactly a great person. especially pre-bender hdb. #planned a make up joke & put on a wig for hdb even tho he wasn’t the who started the whole fiasco #you can hate him all you want for leaving harry before & during tribunal but how could he have foreseen all this bullshit would have happen #his second leaving is kinda bullshit writing but #jv is dealing with his own demons too. clinical depression. partner almost died. job is shit. case spiraling out control #i do not blame the DE staff either. sometimes shit just happens. not everything needs a grand explanation. #but it definitely coulda been handled better. but i understand. resources were sparse. #i relate to ​jv. as someone with temper issues & attention problems i have to remove myself from the scene or i'll say shit i'd regret late #my man is having the worst week of his life. leave him alone. #kim is great but have u heard of a man who thinks he's old when he is only 30 & luvs horses & his commie boyfriend that he's divorcin' soon #disco elysium #de fanart #jean vicquemare #disco elysium fanart #jean heron vicquemare #jean posting #illustration #de #artists on tumblr #my art #I WANTED TO DRAW THIS FOR MONTHSSS YOU COULDN'T IMAGINE. HE LITERALLY HAUNTED ME IN MY SLEEP!!! #i love him normal amount. very healthy. much feelings #my little maiu maiu

[therighthandofvengeance]

There’s 3 main types of relationships on Babylon 5:

I will die for you

I will live for you

I will kill you for you

#who are queue? what do queue want? #for once it’s not an incorrect quote #babylon 5 #b5 #my main examples include: #susan x marcus #john x delenn #londo x g’kar #life & death & everything in between

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving. #sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno. #i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity. #again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated

[sirenofthegreenbanks]

canon divergence stories where zhou zishu dies anyway and wen kexing deals with the loss >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

#tian ya ke #fanfiction #its such a gutpunch #in the bestest way #something something wen kexing being forced to #Feel #life and death and everything in between #by experiencing the loss of zhou zishu who means so much to him #partner lover companion zhiji #gnawgnawgnaw #after most of the novel is about his anticipatory grief #and about him opening himself to life and everything it offers #my thoughts #wen kexing #wenzhou

[july-19th-club]

the thing about john "jod" gaius is that he has no idea he sucks. or more specifically, he has an intellectual understanding that he sucks, but he doesn't really attach that understanding to his actions, so he can be like "and it's like everyone thinks *heinous crime against life and nature* is some kind of heinous crime!" in full honest surprised indignation and then think about it for a minute and go "i mean, it is a heinous crime, but what was i supposed to do, not do it? it was literally my only option" and he never gets to the final thought that maybe it wasn't, in fact, his only option. he has deep reserves of what technically counts as care, but also he is incredibly petty and when he has a tantrum he rips your spine out. and then he's like what was i supposed to do not rip her spine out? it's like you all think i'm infallible or something grow up everybody makes mistakes

#he's got this fascinating disconnect between 'what he does' and 'what kind of person he is' and he can always justify an atrocity #or . it's possible he is not justifying any of the atrocities but is papering over any possible guilt or fear or sorrow he feels #because it's not like he can stop NOW #everything he's ever done in his life has been on accident and his problem is that only some of it was objectively good stuff #locked tomb #tickled me to death reading that bit in nona where he's like. guys as careful as me don't make mistakes #👀 #locked tomb spoilers #nona the ninth spoilers

[insomniac-dormouse]

FUCK MAN THE ONE PIECE LIVE ACTION IS SO GOOD WTF

I NEVER THOUGHT I’D SAY THAT SHIT ABOUT A LIVE ACTION BUT HOLY SHIT

I LOVE THIS VERSION

ITS SO GOOD

#caps cw #they make so many little story changes #like not being afraid to kill of characters (Rip Mary) #not being afraid to break from the shonen format allows them to tell the story in such an interesting way and allude to all sorts of thing #And they too Kuina’s death so seriously #and they’re giving Koby everything he deserved in the Manga #and Helmeppo is so fun instead of forgettable and annoying #and I enjoy the sets so much; they’re really breathing life into Oda’s settings and I love it #AND THE MUSIC #and the action’s so good; they can fight grunts and have it be so interesting and captivating and Luffy isn’t the only one fighting top guys #and they’re dynamics and dialogue are so good #and all the actors are so pretty FUCK #and the differences between manga Luffy and Live Action Luffy are honestly so interesting to pick at #i have so many headcanons #I put this off for so long and I’m only on episode 5 but I’m so in love with this man #I’m frothing at the mouth #i can’t be normal about this #one piece #one piece live action #one piece netflix #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #OPLA

[arctic-hands]

The subject came up today and I can't decide so I'm throwing it out there because I don't give a fuck and also having survived all of this kinda makes me sound like a badass

#my life sounds exciting here but between the exciting parts it's really quite boring #ages: #8. 9. 10? 16. 17. 18. 21 I think. 23. 27. still living #near death experience #also it may have been category one but Wikipedia described Isaias as devastating so there #i want to say it was the dogs because even as scary as the too-close tornado was I really felt like I was staring down death that moment #but also is that fair in the face of everything else I've survived? #fuck it why not set it for a week I'm curious about what other people think of my life #also that tornado was less than a block away but mostly stayed in the soy field. ripped off some of the roofing of the house tho #it was either EF0 or EF1 I forget but obvs I didn't know that while hunkering down #turns out tornadoes really DO sound like trains and the air gets a bit thin #or maybe I was just panicking lol #also when my heart nearly stopped I was forced to watch while unable to speak as they readied the shock paddles which. uh. wow #luckily (?) my heart shot back up to two hundred plus beats per minute #but I lived bitches. thru everything #mecore #i don't feel awkward asking about this bc I'm p sure I've talked about all of these at various points here

[moontasticdoggo]

if pink diamond has 100 fans i’m one of them if pink diamond has 1 fan that’s me if pink diamond has 0 fans i’m dead

#ok ok if you’re a pink hater i may have lost you here but hear me out #we watched her character development in reverse #she did so many wrong things in her life as pink and still even into rose she wasn’t always perfect #even if the gems held her up like she was #but she GREW she tried to right at least some of her wrongs (biggest one being earths colonization) #she faked her own death and changed everything about herself THAT IS A BIG DEAL #i think where it gets people is the difference between good person and good character #because she was in no way a good person for most of her life but she is SUCH a good character #i cant do her justice in my tumblr dot com notes ramblings but GRSAHHSUXIAIAJAA!! #me in the second picture ^ #also she’s cute and i like the color pink 😜 #ok normal tags time #art menu #su #steven universe #pink diamond

[lonestardust]

9-1-1 : LONE STAR I 1x08 ‘Monster Inside’ : Owen and TK have a heart to heart.

#needed to bring this here because i can't stop thinking of their paralleling conversation here #and owen telling him about the hereditary illness 😭 #'I can’t marry carlos knowing that i have a death sentence hanging over my head' and 'I can't fall in love with one more thing that i #know I'm gonna lose dad..' #vs 'son we all have a death sentence handing over our heads' 'there is no guarantees.. not for anybody.. It's okay to love him even though #you might lose him' and 'you're not going to postpone anything you're just gonna move forward with your life' 😭 #Owen comforting tk when he's spiraling about lose hanging over his horizon. making him see the silver linings despite it all.. and actually #his growth this time of not having wanting to hide things from tk anymore.. telling him that he needs him as much as tk needs his dad.. #this is so huge and they both deserve it #but also its the fact that tk also grew through his love for carlos and keeps growing more in love with him #— how he feels invincible with this love because 'it's infinitely more powerful than the fear of losing it' 😭 #but those 48 hours are gonna put him and carlos through the wringer.... between the euphoric high of getting married and #the devastating low of potentially having their future together jeopardised because it might come with a time limit #thank fucK we know everything is gonna be fine other wise I'd have been spiraling so bad because THEY DESERVE A FUCKING BREAK #911 lone star #tk strand #911 ls #ronen rubinstein #rafael silva #carlos reyes #owen strand #tarlos #monster inside #1x08 #4x16 #Rob lowe

[heartgold]

one day I'll take the time to write a proper post on how perfect rabbits are as a motif for Akane because like, I can't know how much of it was intentional but Uchikoshi cooked

#zero escape spoilers #implied/for the tags -> #ah yes The animal that's literally in a quantum state of being associated with totally opposite things at the same time #its a symbol of life AND death. its the ultimate prey animal with extreme cunning to survive everything in the world #theyre associated with cuteness that leads to people not even knowing how brutal they can be. they have strict dominance hierarchies #its about a need to have a control of their environment and their relations to other rabbits. they need structure to feel safe. hi akane #rabbits are also strongly associated with the supernatural curses etc as well as the dead and ghosts. a liminal state between life n death #a rabbits foot is extremely lucky but also extremely unlucky. rabbits are allllllll about directly opposite extremes. #ALSO theyre associated with time/clocks and numbers and math. what the fuck!!!