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Cole Harbor Christmas- Part Two

Author's Note- Part two of Sidney and Evie's trip to Cole Harbor

Part One- https://starshine-hockey-girl.tumblr.com/post/673203043352920064/christmas-in-cole-harbor-part-one

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Christmas Eve afternoon

Evie stood up and started to walk to the outdoor rink shakily. With the multiple layers, she slightly resembled a troll. However, Sidney had insisted on two layers of long johns, multiple shirts and a heavy jacket. Still she shivered slightly in the frigid weather and she looked a little like Bambi on the ice. Every few steps, she stopped and steadied herself. Finally Sidney could take no more. He smiled and shook his head, "Evie, go sit back down."

"Why?" she turned to face him, "It will get better on the ice."

"Sit down-let me help you," he said confidently.

She retraced her steps and plopped down on the bench as Sidney crouched in front of her, "Who taught you how to tie your skates, Evie?" He placed his hands on her thighs and rubbed softly.

"No one taught me. I learned it on my own. Am I not doing it right?" she blushed.

"I am beginning to understand why you had to trade sexual favors to on the goal sheet though. No wonder your hockey career was so brief, " he joked and smiled at her. "Let me show you. You are not tying them tight enough. That's why you wobble so much when you walk or skate- you don't have enough support," he explained. He patiently untied and retied her skates. He gave gentle instruction as he went and tied each lace with a tight knot and bow. "Stand up and let me know how it feels now," he smiled as he stood up.

Evie stood and took a step confidently. "Beso, it is so much better. Thank you!"

He pulled her back into his body and kissed her gently, "Come on Bambi, let me see what you have on the ice."

She giggled, "Be prepared to be disappointed, Buddy." She exaggerated Buddy into four syllables, complete with Texas Twang.

Taylor called from the ice, "Come on you two. It's too cold to be standing still."

Evie poked Sidney in the chest, "See Buddy, I am not the only one who thinks it's cold. Now when I told you it was cold and you laughed at my wimpy Texas blood. Now let's get out there."

Sidney put on his gloves and handed a pair to Evie, "Taylor's right. You'll warm up with more activity. Let me know if you get too cold, okay?" Evie put on the gloves and noticed the subtle stares from the others at the outdoor skating rink. They kept a respectful distance, but were definitely observing Sidney’s interactions with Evie. He glanced around and smiled at Evie, "They are just curious about how I snagged such a beautiful woman. Seriously, they mean weĺl. The novelty will wear off soon." She smiled brightly and took Sidney’s hand. Together they walked through the small crowd to the rink. Taylor was doing quick laps and waved to Evie. She turned around and began skating backwards.

Evie stepped on the ice and took a few strides before stumbling forward. Sidney quickly grabbed her arm to steady her, "Whoa, I got you." Evie regained her balance and tried again. She gained confidence as skated in front of him. "There you go, Evie. There you go!," he praised as she took longer strides.

"Beso, I know you are looking at my ass," she laughed as she looked back at him.

He sped past her and transitioned into backwards skating just out of her reach, "Can you catch me, Evie?" She sped up and almost caught him. He did a quick side step to avoid a streaking child. Evie lost her balance, came crashing down and slid into the boards. He got to her quickly and helped her up to her feet. After a quick, but thorough examination by Sidney revealed no injuries other than a bruised ego and a bruise that would develop on her hip. They started to skate side by side holding hands. Every once in a while Sidney would turn around and skate backwards so he could see her face. He always followed it up with a kiss. Both were oblivious to the growing interest in their interactions.

After an hour or so, Evie's feet grew tired and she found a spot on the bench as Sidney skated to the concession stand on the opposite side of the rink. He was standing politely in line when he was approached by an attractive blonde. The hair on Evie’s neck stood on end as she watched the blonde interact with Sidney. The casual hair flip and batting of her eyelashes drew her further attention. When Taylor approached Evie on the bench, Evie was laser focused on Sidney and the blonde. Evie looked at Taylor, "Who is that with Sidney?"

Taylor looked back and laughed, "Oh that's, Amanda-his ex-girlfriend.” Evie tore her eyes off the duo and back to Taylor. She continued, ”I think they met in kindergarten and then dated in junior high and high school. It fizzled during juniors and they finally broke up when he moved to Pittsburgh."

Evie stared at the blonde, watching her movements like a hawk. She asked as nonchalantly as she could muster, "So who broke it off- Sidney or Amanda?"

Taylor noticed the slight change of tone in Evie's voice. "Pretty sure it was Sidney. She wanted to move to Pittsburgh and Sidney wasn't interested in inviting her. He was barely eighteen when he left. I was nine so I don't know all the details," Taylor answered.

Once Amanda threw her head back in laughter and pressed her hand on Sidney's chest with a soft rub, Evie stood up and muttered under breath, "Oh hell no." She made her way back onto the ice and skated quickly over to where Sidney stood with Amanda.

"Evie!" he smiled as he wrapped her underneath his coat, "Amanda, this is my girlfriend, Evie. Evie, this is my friend, Amanda. We went to school together."

Amanda gave Evie a very subtle glance over before plastering a fake smile, "You brought a woman home for Christmas? to meet your parents? Have you brought home anyone else since me?"

Sidney tilted his head in confusion, "I didn't exactly bring you home to meet them. They've known you since kindergarten. It's not the same."

"Well, I was your first love. You told me so yourself," she protested. "I know I was your first for other things as well,” she wiggled her eyebrows.

There was an almost imperceptible flare of Evie’s nostrils. Amanda looked at her and asked, "Where are you from, Ivy? Clearly based on your skating, you are not from around here."

Evie smiled, "Oh Bless Your Heart Buddy, I am from Dallas, but live in Pittsburgh now. You know, where Sidney lives the majority of the year? By the way, it's Evie-not Ivy."

She stood on her tip-toes and kissed Sidney's cheek, "Beso, I am absolutely freezing. I really need my hot chocolate. Can you get it for me?'

Sidney turned and kissed her softly, "Sure thing- sorry, I got distracted by Amanda. I will get it right away and be right there."

Evie smiled brightly at Amanda, "Well, it was a pleasure to meet you. Maybe we'll see you around before we leave." She turned around and started to skate back to where Taylor stood. Taylor stood with her arms folded as Evie skated to the bench, "Everything okay?"

Evie turned to her and smiled sweetly, "Yes. Sidney will be over soon with our hot chocolates." She turned and stared at Amanda until Sidney left her with a small hug. He grabbed the three hot chocolates and balanced them in his hands before skating back to the other side of the rink. Evie’s eyes narrowed as Amanda stared at Sidney’s ass as he skated back to Evie and Taylor. She could hardly blame Amanda for that though. His ass was epic.

When Sidney handed the hot chocolate to them, Evie felt Amanda's eyes on her. Evie pulled on Sidney’s coat and planted a kiss on his lips. "Beso, can we go home now?" she asked sweetly. “My feet are killing me and I think my legs are going numb."

Sidney nodded his head, "Of course Evie." Taylor rolled her eyes as Evie looked over her shoulder to ensure that Amanda was aware that Sidney was leaving with her.

Sidney and Taylor chatted during the drive back to the Crosby house. Evie sat in the passenger seat and stared out the window. She replayed the outing in her mind. She tried to push the insecurities down. "Sidney loves me, Sidney wants to be with me," she repeated to herself. She looked over at him and felt a twinge of panic, "Do I fit in here? Does his family even like me? What if they don't?" Sidney pulled into the driveway and turned off the car. He reached over and squeezed her hand. Evie snapped out of her thoughts and smiled at him.

Trina greeted them as they walked into the house. "How was skating?" she asked, "Evie, did you have a good time?" Evie nodded yes as she hung her coat in the closet.

Taylor laughed, "Mom, you'll never guess who Sidney ran into at the rink."

Trina tilted her head, "Who?"

Taylor replied in a sing-song voice, "Amanda."

Trina pursed her lips slightly, "Oh, how is she?"

Taylor shrugged her shoulders, "I didn't speak to her, but Sidney did." Evie crossed her arms into a self protective hug. Taylor laughed, "I guess Evie spoke to her too. Honestly, I thought Evie was going to knock her ass to the ice for a second." Trina and Sidney’s heads both snapped up to look at Taylor before turning to Evie.

Evie stared at the floor intently. She shuffled her weight back and forth between her feet. She looked up and made eye contact with Sidney who had the slightest question in his eyes. Evie looked at Trina and Taylor before running out of the room. She yelled over her shoulder, "I am sorry. I don't feel well. I am going to find some medicine to take."

Evie bounded up the stairs and into her shared room with Sidney. She paced back and forth before she ran from the room and emptied the contents of her stomach into the toilet. She was thankful that she had already unpacked her toiletries when they arrived. Her shaking hand grabbed her toothpaste and brushed her teeth furiously. Afterwards, she splashed cool water on her face before she opened the bathroom door.

She was not entirely surprised to find Sidney patient waiting in the hallway, opposite the door when she emerged from the bathroom. "Evie," he said softly as she raced past him and back into the bedroom. He followed her into the room. She resumed her pacing, but looked up when he spoke when he entered the room, "Talk to me Evie. Was Taylor right? Did you want to knock Amanda's ass to the ice? Why would you want to do that, Evie? She's just a friend."

Evie hissed, "She's not just a friend. She is your ex-girlfriend- your first love- the first girl you fucked."

Sidney laughed, "You're jealous? Of Amanda?"

Evie stomped her feet, "Don't you dare laugh at me. Don't laugh at me for being jealous especially after the way you behaved last week at the party."

Sidney smirked, "Okay Evie- you're right. I totally overreacted last week, but you don't have anything to be jealous of. She is ancient history."

Evie’s eyes narrowed, "It wasn't ancient history when she was batting her eyes at you and flipping that god-awful blonde hair. She touched you Sidney. She touched your chest and you just let her. She’s not allowed to touch you. No one else is allowed to touch you like that."

Sidney gently asked, "Why isn't she allowed to touch me Evie? Tell me."

“You know why Sidney,” Evie huffed as she paced. Finally she turned to him and placed a hand on Sidney, "Because you are MINE and no one else's. No one but me is allowed to touch you. You are MY Sidney, MY Beso, MY Mr. Crosby, MY Daddy. You are MINE, MINE, MINE." She tried desperately to control the sobs that began in her deepest parts of her soul, but they pushed out anyway. She cried deep sobs that racked her body, "You are mine. Please don't let anyone take you away from me." She crouched down and hid her face in her arms.

Sidney bent down, picked her up and cradled her in his arms, "Shhhhh, Evie- it's okay. I am yours-just yours. No one is taking me away. Please don't cry."

Evie nuzzled her face into his neck, "Mine" she repeated to herself like a child.

Sidney whispered, "I am sorry I made you jealous. Evie, stop crying. It's okay. I am yours- your Sidney, your Beso, your Mr. Crosby, your Daddy. I’m all those things. You are my Evie, my Love, my Princess and my Baby Girl. I belong to you and you belong to me."

Her tears continued to flow freely as she clung to him as if her life depended on it.

"Evie, this isn't just about Amanda, is it? Use your words and tell me," Sidney gently questioned.

Evie wiped her tears, "You're right. It isn't just about Amanda, but she is a huge part of it. I don't think I am ready to talk about it yet."

He kissed her cheeks, lifted her up and placed on the bed. Evie whimpered a little bit, but smiled as he climbed behind her. He stretched out on the full sized bed and pulled her to him. "Okay, you tell me when you are ready to discuss it," he assured.

She took his hand and wrapped his arm around her body, "I am embarrassed by my reaction. I just lost it for a bit. I can't believe Taylor knew. I was really trying to keep it under control. Ugh, I have to face them later."

He squeezed her hand, "I don't think I can judge anyone's irrational responses to jealousy, especially after last week.” He kissed the top of her head, “Don't mind Taylor. She was chirping you the way she chirps me. You know, like siblings do?

Evie replied softly, "I don't know. I've never had a sibling. That's what y'all do? Give each a hard time?"

Sidney pulled her closer, "Yeah, that's what we do. It's all done in love. I guarantee that she thought it was funny. She wouldn't mean it in a mean-spirited way. That's not her."

Evie sighed, "So no one is upset with me or mad at me?

Sidney rolled Evie's body so she faced him, "I can't speak for them, but I am not mad or upset. I can't imagine that they are either." He kissed the tip of her nose, "You are safe here, Evie. You need to quit worrying about what they think about you. I can assure you that they are just as nervous about what you think of them."

Evie wrinkled her nose, "I hadn't thought about that. Should we go back downstairs? I think I can do it."

Sidney crinkled his eyes in response, "Two minutes of intense snuggles and we can go." She nodded in agreement and snuggled into his chest. He rubbed her back softly, "I know that you are not ready to discuss it yet, but I need to tell you that there is no comparison between Amanda and you. The way I felt about her is a drop of rain compared to the ocean of love I feel for you, Evie."

She kissed his chest softly, "Thank you, Beso."

FIFTEEN MINUTES LATER

Sidney held her hand as they descended the stairs together and walked into the family room. Evie looked around the room at Taylor and Troy watching a hockey game. She stood on her tip-toes to kiss Sidney’s cheek. She whispered, "I think I hear your mother in the kitchen. I am going to see if she needs any help with dinner. It will be a good distraction for me."

He turned and caressed her cheek, "Okay, I am here if you need me." She leaned into his hand and smiled before turning to walk into the kitchen.

In the family room, Sidney plopped down on the couch next to Taylor. He leaned over and spoke softly, "Can you ease up on the chirping just a little bit? Evie's nervous as hell being here and she isn't used to the teasing. She didn't have the joy of having you as a sister so she is learning the ropes."

Taylor nodded her head, "Sorry Buddy."

Sidney smiled, "It's okay, Buddy."

Trina stood in front of the stove to stir the sauce. "Hi," Evie greeted her as she walked into the room, "What can I help you do?" Trina turned and smiled, "Can you put the salad together? It would be so helpful."

Evie said, "Sure," and grabbed the ingredients out of the refrigerator. She started assembling the salad when Trina asked, "What did Amanda say to you that got you upset?" Evie's head swiveled and her eyes got wide. Trina turned and leaned against the kitchen counter. She smiled sweetly, "Please tell me." Evie explained what happened in brief detail. Trina scowled, "She actually called you by the wrong name?"

Evie went on, "I don't know what came over me, but I just was filled with white hot rage."

"You know, I never liked her. She was bratty, even as a kindergartener. I was disappointed when Sid came home from school one day and said he asked her to be his girlfriend. I think he might have been thirteen at the time?" Trina lowered her voice and spoke. Evie snorted. Trina continued, "It's horrible to admit. She always rubbed me the wrong way, particularly when they were dating. She was all about the status of being with Sid, but it seemed like he was smitten so I let it run its course. I think she was convinced that he was her meal ticket out of Cole Harbor. She probably still wants to try, but he is a grown man now. You were right not to trust her."

Evie looked up from the salad bowl, "Do you think she would have a shot? Do you think Sidney still cares for her?"

She stared into Trina's eyes. The petite blonde sat down in the chair next to Evie and placed her hands over Evie's hands. "There is not a chance in hell that she has a shot with Sid. There are three women on this planet that he really and truly loves and they are all in this house. I, for one, couldn't be happier with his choice."

Evie blinked back tears and smiled, "Really?" Trina got up from her chair and hugged Evie tight.

"What dressing did you have planned for the salad? My mom used to make an awesome vinaigrette dressing from scratch. Would you mind if I made it?" Evie asked timidly.

"I would love nothing more," Trina grinned. Evie got to work making the salad dressing, humming to herself. The duo made quick work of the rest of dinner prep. They slid the lasagna into the oven and returned to the family room.

Taylor stood up, crossed the room and embraced Evie, "I am so sorry if I am the one who upset you, Evie. I wasn't thinking." Evie looked to Sidney who shrugged his shoulders. Evie returned the embrace, "It's okay. Apparently this is what y'all do. I won't take it so personally next time."

Evie snuggled to the right of Sidney and rested her head on his shoulder. "So you talked to Taylor, huh?" she whispered as she grabbed his hand.

They intertwined fingers and he whispered back, "Are you upset that I did?"

Evie lifted his hand to her mouth, "No, it's actually very sweet of you. Thank you. I had a good chat with your mom. I feel a lot better."

Sidney raised an eyebrow, "Oh really? Care to share?"

Evie nodded her head no, "What is said in the kitchen, stays in the kitchen. If you wanted to know, you should have helped with dinner. I made the salad by the way so be sure to eat some."

The timer on the oven went off and Trina went into the kitchen, "Kids, go set the table." Evie got off the couch and Troy told her, "No, you already helped with dinner. These two know that's their chore to complete. Why it isn't already done, I don't know." He glared at Sidney and Taylor until they got up and went into the dining room. Troy whispered conspiratorially, "Are you feeling better?" Evie answered in the same tone, "Yes, much better. Thanks for asking."

The five sat at the dining room table, enjoying the delicious pasta. Taylor ate her salad, "Mom, what dressing did you use for this salad? It's amazing." Trina pointed to Evie with a smile.

Evie glanced at Sidney, then Taylor, "It's my mom's recipe. She was famous for it. I am glad that you like it."

Taylor laughed, "I am obsessed. You have to make this every time you come. Promise?"

Evie smiled sweetly, "Promise."

Sidney squeezed her knee under the table and grinned, "Yes, every time you come home with me."

Taylor interjected, "Who invited you?"

Evie's eyes grew wide, "That's a joke, right?"

Taylor gave Sidney a side-eye glance before grinning at Evie "Partly."

Evie retorted, "Good- because I would hate to drop your ass to the ice, but I will."

Taylor blinked before cracking up, "Evie, did you just chirp at me? Sidney erupted in giggles.

Evie laughed, "Did I do it right?"

"Oh absolutely right," Taylor turned to Sidney, "Watch out, I may have created a monster."

He kissed Evie's cheek, "Oh I am aware of the sass capabilities of this one. It's world class."

After dinner, the family and Evie gathered in the living room. Trina pulled out three gifts from under the tree. Taylor and Sidney exchanged a knowing look while Evie looked confused. "Are we exchanging gifts now? My gifts are upstairs. I can go get them."

Sidney shook his head, "No, this is the Christmas Eve tradition. Since you're new, you open yours first."

Evie slowly and delicately opened the gift box. Inside, Christmas pajamas were neatly folded. Evie took them out with a wide grin, "Pajamas? I love them. They look so cozy. Beso, look!" Sidney smiled and gave a nod to Taylor. They tore into their packages and took out their pajamas. "Wait, we ALL have matching pajamas?" she asked softly.

Trina smiled, "Of course, I wouldn't leave you out. Now go change and come back for the picture." The trio trundled up the stairs. Sidney and Evie closed the door softly behind them. She fingered the pajamas gingerly and turned to him with a smile, "I've never had matching pajamas. Did you tell her my size?" She rushed to put them on as Sidney watched with a low whistle.

"You're leaving your bra on?" He teased her.

"I am not about to go in front of your parents without a bra. My dad would roll over in his grave," she laughed.

Sidney walked to her and wrapped his arms around her waist, "Good point. Were you surprised?"

“It was the best surprise,” she said as he kissed him. Evie looked down at Sidney’s pajama pants that stretched over his large thighs. She stepped back and walked behind him. His ass was on full display as the knit strained to cover it. "Sidney, who knew pajama pants could be sexy? Damn….." She reached to caress his ass. "That's got me feeling some tingly feelings."

Sidney laughed, "I should have told my mom extra small so yours would be tighter."

Evie twirled around, "I think that they are perfect."

Sidney took her hand and guided her downstairs. Taylor was already positioned in front of the tree. Sidney placed himself in the middle and put Evie on the other side of him. Evie looked at him and then took a step to the side, "Why am in the picture? Shouldn't it be just the two of you?"

Trina interjected, "I want one with all the kids. Then we will take separate photos of everyone."

Taylor laughed, "Evie, don't worry. There will be every configuration of photos."

Trina directed, "Everyone say Penguins!" Thirty minutes later, Trina had taken photos in multiple poses for each grouping.

Sidney and Evie collapsed on the couch. Evie curled into his lap. He lightly rubbed her arm as she rested her head on his shoulder. She whispered in his ear, "I am going to go upstairs. You need to have some time alone with your family."

She got up and started up the stairs before he could object. She closed the door behind and sat on the edge of the bed. She looked around the room and sighed. There was a soft knock on the door. "Evie, it's me. Can I come in?" Sidney asked quietly. She got up and opened the door and allowed him to enter. "Why did you leave Evie?" He watched her closely.

"I got exhausted. I know you promised that we would leave if I got overwhelmed, but I don't really want to do that. I need a bit of a break and I can go back down," she softly admitted.

He reached for her hand and interlaced his fingers with hers, "Did we do something to upset you?"

Evie used their entwined fingers to pull him to her body, "No, the opposite. It has been the perfect night. It has been a while since I felt like a part of a family."

He wrapped her into a warm hug and lifted her and placed her on the bed. He climbed on the bed and she crawled to him, "Are you sure you don't want to go downstairs? I am fine up here by myself."

Sidney held open his arms and she moved into them, "I am exactly where I want to be. I think you have things that you want to say to me, but aren't ready. I am gonna hold you until you are. Can you tell what it has been like since they died?"

Evie took a deep sigh, "Overall or holidays?"

“Let's go with the holidays," he kissed the top of her head.

"My dad had his stroke right after finals in May. My mom…. died in the summer. The first year I spent Thanksgiving alone in my grad school dorm room. I spent that Christmas packing up my childhood home so it could be sold. I vowed never again. So every holiday since then, I finagled an invitation to holidays from distant family and friends, but I always felt like an outsider- an interloper." She looked up into Sidney’s eyes, "I just met your family. Before they met me, they were already including me. Your mom got me pajamas and she didn't even know me. Then Taylor treats me like a sister and your dad is so kind to me. My heart is full or at least it should be."

Sidney furrowed his brow, "but it isn't?"

Evie shook her head and buried her face into his chest. She pressed into him, trying to find courage to tell him her thoughts. He waited patiently in silence. "Today with Amanda, it wasn't just jealousy. I know that you love me and want me, but part of me is so afraid."

"Afraid of what?" he coaxed.

"Sidney, everyone I have loved and everyone that said they loved me has left me. Some by choice and some against their will, but eventually everyone leaves me. I'm scared you’ll realize one that I’m not enough and I’ll lose you too, “ she said softly. She took a deep breath “Amanda would be the safe choice for you. The one that would fit into your family easily. She is here in Cole Harbor already. She probably even has her own family here to do things with. She would twist herself into whatever you wanted her to be. You could have exactly what you want.”

"Look at me Evie," he waited until she made eye contact. "Evie, you are the one I want. You are the one I love," Sidney assured her as his heart ached at her doubt .

"For how long?" she pleaded. "We talked about how we love each other and we belong to each other, but it is always in the present tense. We don't talk about the future or what it will bring. It is crazy. I bought a freaking house to be close to you, but we haven't even talked about the end of the season. Hell, we haven't even talked about New Year's Eve. How does the off season even work for us? I have a job and you are coming home. I can't come here for the summer, but Amanda is here. She is just waiting for her chance to take you away from me. What am I going to do if she takes you from me? What am I going to do when you decide you don't want the kinky girl anymore?" Her voice broke and tears fell from her eyes. He gently wiped them with her thumbs.

He squeezed her to his body, "Is that everything? I don't want to interrupt you. Get it all out. "

She paused to stare into his eyes. The soft hazel irises were full of love. She felt a wave of warmth flow into her. She raised her hand to his cheek, "I think that's everything."

"First, do you think I love you only because of the kink? We could have vanilla sex for the rest our lives and I would still love you." He kissed her cheeks, "I love that you trust me enough to show me that side of you. I love that you trust me enough to give your body to me," He began. "Second, I don't want Amanda- period, end of discussion. Third, I don't know how we will handle the off season, but we will figure it out together. As for New Year’s Eve, I have a game that night but plan on being with you at midnight to start the year with my Evie Rose." he declared with authority.

Sidney pressed his lips together, "Remember our first fight? Where I thought I had communicated that I was going to buy your furniture but it turns out I never did?"

Evie smiled and said yes.

"Evie, I thought you knew. I thought I had communicated this, but apparently I didn't,” he stated softly. He took a deep breath and continued, “ I want you now, I will want you tomorrow and I will want you next year. I will want you forever-until the day I die. There will never be another woman. I don't want to be safe and secure. I want the woman I am deathly afraid of losing." He paused for another breath, "One day I am going to ask you to marry me. Do you hear me? You are my future now and together we will create our own family. Until then, you are part of this family. I want to grow old with you. You will never be alone again. I will always be here for you. Is that what you need to hear?"

Evie gulped as she processed his words, "Forever? You want us forever? That's what I want more than anything in the world."

"Well, that settles that,” he kissed her neck as she relaxed into him. He grinned, “Now, want to know a secret?"

Evie purred, "What's the secret?

He rolled her onto her back and slid this thigh between her thighs, "I've never had sex in this room.”

Evie rocked her hips and pressed herself against his solid thigh, "Really? Not even with Amanda?"

Sidney slid his hand under her shirt, "Really- it was just me and my hand."

Evie wrapped her legs around his ass, "Well, we have to remedy that right away, future husband."

Sidney grinned, "Right away, future wife."

CHRISTMAS MORNING

After breakfast, Evie waited next to Sidney as he poured another cup of coffee for her. He nudged her with his elbow, "How did you sleep?"

She looked up at his face, "Really well, but I had really weird dreams about some sort of gang bang with the Montreal Canadiens."

Sidney looked around to make sure his mother didn't hear Evie. "You can't talk like that down here, Princess."

She laughed, "Jokes. Mr. Crosby, I am joking. I will be glad to be at home tonight where there is a big bed."

Sidney pulled her into him, "Home? You mean the cottage? Or should I say lake house?"

She turned to him, "Yes, home in Nova Scotia. Tomorrow night we will be home in Pennsylvania. Did I say something wrong?"

He watched as she poured cream into the giant Christmas mug, "It's the first time that you have said home. It's usually your house or your cottage. I like the sound of you calling it your home."

Troy called from the living room, “Sid, Evie- It’s time to open presents!”

Evie panicked momentarily, “The gifts!”

Sidney held his fingers to her lips, “I moved them last night after you fell asleep. Check for yourself.”

She smiled, kissed him then whispered in his ear, “Thank you, Beso.” They walked into the living room and sat together on the love seat. Evie moved her legs restlessly and Sidney calmly placed his hands to stop them. “I’m excited to give my gifts,” she laughed. Sidney pointed to the Christmas tree and Evie retrieved a present from underneath it. She shyly brought it to Trina and raced back to sit next to Sidney.

Trina looked at the gift in surprise, “Evie- I didn’t expect a gift from you. You didn’t have to buy me a gift.”

Sidney laughed at the two of them. “Stop it, you both got each other a gift. You can’t help yourselves.”

Trina shook her finger at Sidney and opened the gift. She smiled brightly as she held up the package of her favorite perfume. Trina got up and gave her a hug, “I love it. I see Sidney helped you with suggestions.” She nudged Sidney as she retrieved a package and gave it to Evie. Evie looked to Sidney who shrugged his shoulders.

Evie opened the box gently and picked up the delicate picture frame. The frame was black and encrusted in small crystals. Inside the frame was an eight by ten photo of Sidney and Evie. She gasped, “Look Sidney, it’s us!” He leaned over to see the picture of himself from the day before. He crouched in front of Evie. He had just tied her skates and they were leaning towards each other in a kiss. She ran her fingers over the picture and looked up at Trina. “Thank you. I don’t know how you did it, but I love it.” She glanced up at Taylor who smiled. Sidney grinned and stared at the picture.

Twenty minutes later, the living room was a sea of wrapping paper and opened gifts. Two gifts remained under the tree-one clearly marked Evie Rose, one marked Beso. Evie and Sidney stared at each other in a silent battle of wills. Evie caved with a dramatic sigh. She dug under the tree for Sidney’s gift and handed it to him as she sat next to him. The box was neatly wrapped in black and gold Christmas wrapping paper. Inside the box, two smaller boxes sat-one black and one gold, equal in size. Sidney picked the gold box and shook it dramatically, listening for cues. His fingers nimbly tore the paper and opened the box.

Evie smiled as he opened it quickly. His eyes flashed up and a wide grin spread across his face, "You didn't! I have always wanted one." He held it up to show his parents and Taylor. A small, gold 87 charm dangled between his fingers. He placed the charm in the box momentarily while he took off his gold chain. He slid the charm onto the chain and then put it back around his neck. He leaned over and kissed her softly, "Thank you Evie. I will always wear it." She lifted the black box and handed it to him.

He opened it quickly.. Nestled in the tissue paper was a small metal Pittsburgh Penguins keychain with two keys attached. Sidney looked up in surprise, "Are these YOUR keys? To your cottage and car?" She nodded in affirmation and pointed to the back of the key chain. He brought the key chain closer and read the engraving- 'Beso-You are my safe place. You are my home. -Evie Rose.' He set it down delicately in the box. He whispered, "I love it." He took her hands in his hands and stared into her eyes. "It is the best present I've received."

Evie played with the charm dangling from his neck. Sidney licked his lips and moved closer to Evie. Troy cleared his throat to get their attention. Sidney blushed and got up to retrieve Evie's gift from the tree. He handed it to her gently. Inside the metallic gift bag were two envelopes and a jewelry box. She looked up expectantly and opened the first envelope. Inside was a gift certificate for patio furniture. She laughed, “What? You don’t like my plastic chairs from Walmart?”

He rolled his eyes, “It's not my fault that my butt doesn’t fit. I get stuck in it.” The second envelope contained a gift card to a home decor store. When she saw the amount, she gasped, "Sidney, it's too much. This is too much."

He shook his head gently, "Remember what I said about spoiling you on the plane. This is just the beginning." He picked up the jewelry box and handed it to her. She gazed into his eyes and took it from him.

She opened the box to reveal the white gold bracelet covered in diamonds. Her eyes widened in amazement. She delicately ran her fingers over the diamonds as she absorbed the beauty of the bracelet. His hand reached over to retrieve it, "Hold up your wrist, my love." She complied with his request with a smile. He opened the hinged bracelet to reveal the engraved sentiment, "Princess- I am yours, now and forever Beso"

Her mind wandered to their conversation from last night. The message from the bracelet confirmed his intent. She thought to herself, "It's real. He meant it." She was completely unaware that she started to cry until she heard Sidney’s voice.

"Evie," he whispered, "Why are you crying?"

She brought her fingers to her face and felt the tears. Then she looked at Sidney's concerned expression. "I don't know. I think those are happy tears." She looked around the room and smiled. "Yes, definitely happy tears. I am sorry. Did I worry you?" She looked at the bracelet, "I love it, Beso. I love it so much."

Taylor and Trina came over to examine it closer. "Sid, it's beautiful," Taylor commented. Sid beamed with pride and the women oohed and aahed over the bracelet. "It's engraved? What does it say? she asked.

Evie looked to Sidney who shrugged his shoulders. Evie looked at the bracelet, then up Taylor's face. "I'd prefer to keep it between Sidney and me if you don't mind. It is incredibly sweet. That is all I am going to say."

Taylor nudged him, "You did okay there, Buddy."

Everyone picked up their gifts and took them back to their room. Evie launched herself into Sidney’s arms once the door closed. He laughed as he stumbled back into the door. She showered his face and neck with kisses. "Happy?" he chuckled as he held close and carried her to the bed. "We don't have a lot of time, my love." she scrambled to the headboard and leaned against it.

She took off the bracelet and examined it closely. "It's so pretty. Are they white sapphires or topaz?"

Sidney climbed so that he hovered over her, "Something else."

Evie looked up, "No."

Sidney tilted his head, "Yes."

Evie shook her head, "No"

Sidney smiled, "Why are you having a hard time with me giving you diamonds?"

Evie frowned, "Because it's too much money. How much did you spend?"

Sidney kissed her, "Enough. Believe me, you are worth every penny. Do I need to make a rule about gifts?"

Evie grinned, "What would be the rule?"

"Princesses who say that gifts are too much get punished. The rule is that princesses get spoiled and you have to accept that fact."he smiled before sitting next to her. He sighed and took her hand, "Look-I'm Sidney Crosby. You know I don't throw that fact around a lot, but I have a solid contract. It's actually a big contract with several big endorsement deals. I worked my ass off to get here. I work my ass off to stay here. I don't drive flashy cars, I don’t wear damn thousand dollar sweatshirts or expensive shoes. If I want to spend my money buying you nice things, I am going to do that and you are going to have to learn to accept it. Please?"

Evie leaned her head on his shoulder, "Okay, I get your point. It will take me time, but I will try to accept it."

He took her hand into his and spoke firmly, "One day I am going to buy you a ring. It will be big and sparkly because you love sparkly things. I am not going to look at the price. I am going to buy you the one that I think you will like the best. Don't argue with me about the ring or I WILL punish you."

She nuzzled into his neck, "Whatever you say, Mr. Crosby."

"I say that you need to not nuzzle me like that right now. Apparently Taylor has some sort of movie marathon planned. Let's go downstairs."

"Oh the Hallmark movie marathon? Wait, I have the list,” she laughed. She went into her bag and pulled at the laminated drinking game.

When they got back downstairs, Taylor and Trina had already prepared popcorn and drinks for everyone. Bottles of alcohol lined the coffee table. Sidney sighed, “Explain to me one more time what we are doing.” Taylor explained the rules of the game to Sidney who looked incredulous. “Why do you watch if you know all this is going to happen?” he asked.

Evie nudged him with her elbow, “Because they fill you with the Christmas spirit and you can get drunk at the same time. Taylor, I officially appoint you as the shot caller.”

The movie started and Evie snuggled next to Sidney, holding her cup. "It's Lacey Chabert- take a drink," Taylor called. Evie took her drink and watched Sidney take his. After 4 more drinks, Sidney started to get frisky and slipped his hand under Evie’s shirt, rubbing his fingertips along her side. Evie smirked and moved his hand. He smiled and moved it back, inching it up higher so he rubbed her underboob. Evie looked around and everyone was watching the movie. “They’re drinking hot chocolate- take a drink,” Taylor called slowly.

“You keeping up there, Buddy?” Sidney laughed. Taylor gave him the stink eye and turned back. “Speaking of hot chocolate, who wants some?” he asked loudly, “Spiked hot chocolate?” Evie raised her hand quickly. “Come make it with me,” he said and grabbed her hand and pulled her into the kitchen. He pressed her against the pantry door, shielded from view from the living room. “You’re driving me crazy, Evie” he breathed as he took her face into his hands.

Evie shook her head no, “Your parents are RIGHT THERE. Dial it down a notch, Sidney. It’s the drinks that are driving you crazy and the intense drama going onscreen. I swear to God if you make me miss the dramatic airport reunion, I am going to be really mad."

He kissed her to stop her rant and she relaxed into his kiss. "You ARE driving me crazy. I don't wanna watch the movie. I wanna fuuuuuck." It was Evie's turn to shut him up with a kiss. "Yes, let's go upstairs. I wanna fuck you," he moaned.

Evie pulled away, "Sidney, stop. We have to make the hot chocolate and go back in there. Tonight-Tonight you can fuck me again. I promise." She kissed his cheek.

Sidney pouted as she put water in the tea kettle. She turned to face him. She mocked his pout and he rolled his eyes. "You're cute when you pout, Beso." They stood in silence while the water boiled. Evie nudged him, "Hey, has anyone told you today how hot you are? That you are a sexy beast?"

Sidney nudged her back while getting the mugs down and pouring cocoa mix into the mugs, "No, my mother and sister neglected to tell me today." Evie placed marshmallows in the mugs before pouring in the boiling water. Sidney topped each mug off with vodka while Evie retrieved the can of whipped cream from the refrigerator. She sprayed a dollop of each mug before playfully spraying some into her mouth. Sidney laughed and opened his mouth. She sprayed into his mouth.

He took the can from her, "We need to get some of this for home. I have ideas."

He sprayed some into her mouth, but it overshot and landed on her cheek. He took his thumb and wiped it off her cheek. She grabbed his hand and brought his thumb to her mouth. She sucked the whipped cream off his thumb and swirled her tongue around it. She moaned softly as she stared into his eyes, "Mmmm, Mr. Crosby." Sidney gulped as he looked up and saw his sister staring at them.

He pulled his thumb back and grabbed a mug for Taylor. He handed it to her without making eye contact, "Here you go."

Evie closed her eyes and turned around, "Did you pause the movie? We didn't miss the end, did we? Okay well, I am going to get my mug and go back in there. See ya."

Taylor stared at Sidney, "Was she just sucking your thumb?"

"I had whipped cream on it. You can't let whip cream go to waste, " he stammered.

He picked up his mug and went to Evie on the couch. His face was beet red when he took his position between her legs. He whispered, "You are a troublemaker, Evie Rose Montgomery."

He leaned back against her chest and she whispered back, "You started it with your 'I wanna fuck talk."

Taylor walked back in the room with a smirk on her face and started the movie. "You missed three shots by the way, but I am not sure the two of you need anything else that will lower your inhibitions," she remarked casually. Evie hid her face in Sidney’s neck.

Everyone started paying attention to the movie again and Evie began to run her fingers through his hair. When she moved her fingers to his chest, he let out a soft moan. Evie's eyes grew wide and she stopped her hand movement. Taylor looked over with a raised eyebrow, 'Do you two touch each other constantly?"

Sidney raised his head, "Yes, we do. That's what people in love do. She's my future wife and she can touch me whenever she wants. Now start the movie so we can see if Holly St. Nicholas saves the Christmas tree farm." Then he put his hand behind Evie's neck and kissed her. She started rubbing his head again and he was asleep within minutes.

Later as they were packing their bags to go back to the cottage, Sidney joked, “I can’t believe you let me sleep the dramatic ending. How am I going to live without knowing the Christmas tree farm is safe?”

Evie raised an eyebrow, “It was either that or pour a bucket of cold water on you. Are you sure that you are okay to drive now? All of that vodka out of your system?”

Sidney got suddenly very serious, “Yes, I am completely sober. I would never drive you anywhere if I wasn’t sober.”

Evie nodded solemnly, “Duly noted. Do you want me to carry some of the bags?”

Sidney shook his head no, “Come down with me and say goodbyes.”

Evie stood by the front door and watched Sidney load the Tahoe. She turned as she heard Trina call her name. The petite blonde came up and gave her a hug. Evie squeezed her tight, “Thank you for having me as part of your Christmas. It was the best Christmas I’ve had since…..” Her voice trailed off and Trina nodded in understanding.

Evie turned to Troy, “It was so nice to meet you. Now I know how Sidney became such a fantastic man.”

The older Crosby man hugged her tight, “Take care of my boy.”

Sidney returned to just inside the door and observed silently. He rubbed Evie’s back as she blinked back tears. Taylor scooped her up in an embrace, “I'm coming for a visit- be prepared. We are going to tear Pittsburgh UP!”

“Tay- put her down!” Sidney called as Taylor swung Evie around.

Evie grinned, "Let's plan it during one of his road trips so he doesn't kill our buzz."

Sidney huffed, "The two of you are trouble together. I need to keep you separated." He hugged Taylor, "See you soon." He moved to his mom, "Thanks for everything. I love you." Finally to his dad, "Talk to you soon."

Sidney whistled for Sam to get in the car. She ran out to the SUV and waited by the door. Evie turned and gave a final wave before heading out to Tahoe. Sidney followed her and closed the door behind her. They both sighed deeply as he started the car. She turned to him, "Ready to go home?" He smiled and kissed her hand.

Back at the cottage, Sidney and Evie collapsed on the bed in a post-sex glow. She snuggled into his chest and ran her fingers in small circles on his chest. The bracelet on her wrist sparkling in the low light of candle glow. He hummed softly and rubbed her arm. "Beso, are you going to be sad to leave tomorrow? It must be hard to leave here."

He reached for her hand and put it above his heart, "Normally yes, it's hard to leave, but not as much this time." She turned to him with a question on her face. He rubbed his thumb over her thumb, "Normally I am going home to an empty house, but not this time. I am going home with you so I am leaving one place full of love and going to another place full of love."

Evie kissed his chest, "I know I told you earlier, but I am really happy I came home with you. It has been the best Christmas that I can remember. I can't wait to come back in the summer."

Sidney smiled, "You like it here?"

"I like anywhere with you, but yes, I feel at home here with you," she tickled his side. "Beso, next year when we come, can we decorate the cottage for Christmas? A Christmas tree would be nice, don't you think?"

He pulled her tight into him, "Yes, you can do whatever you want as long as you come home with me."

She returned his squeeze, "Can't wait."

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passionatearies99theredhead · 2 years

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WEEK AHEAD: SKY TRANSIT AND ENERGIES (12th of April- 20th of April)

Let’s get straight into it!

At the start of the week Mercury has entered Taurus. I don’t know about you but this transit for me has shown strongly in my days, it has been working with me really harmoniously and I’m so thankful to this new position, he has found himself in and the way he cooperated with my will and my daily goals.

🪐 Mercury here becomes concrete towards everything set in the Aries season and that we are still dreaming, planning, wanting to create, etc.

Let’s put it this way: the construction of the palace in our own fairytales, in which we are the protagonists, have started.

The fundaments of it are settled to the ground, steady and strong. And everything around, our environment, the nature, the sky, the court, the whole setting is starting to be painted out.

Taking form under your eyes and thanks to your work with the universe.

I must say, for as much as Taurus does things, beats around the bush way too much. Taurus before starting doing, needs the perfect plan, the perfect way to “go about it”, how to approach what wants to do.

Taurus thinks too much about the strategy so be very aware of it, if you catch yourself pondering too much. Just go for it.

Straight head, powerful.

We are still in Aries season after all. Use the assertiveness of this sign of mine pls.

I would love to remind you that sometimes a day, a week, a plan or schedule, doesn’t play out the way you thought, but that’s okay.

Be flexible with it cause Taurus isn’t by nature. It’s actually meant to play out like that, so let it be.

I will talk about this detail later, due to another transit, but really listen to the energies inside you, your body, mind and go with it.

Dance with them, rather than fighting how they play outs for you on that day.

Mercury here is picky af, especially in its words. Which could be consider as a good thing consider how much fiery and more impulsive it could have become in Aries, going with the need to speak up even when not being devoted by the other part, so useless.

Here you are gonna be intentional with your words, more prone to listen and also more.

Probably your conversation will be about Taurus themes like: values, possessions, gestures, consistency, concrete, etc.

You will be prone to wanting to focus more on yourself and self care activities. Please really do it!

Since also Taurus season is gonna start next week, plus we have Venus in Pisces really fantasying about what pleasure and the feeling of it is, take care of yourself and spoil yourself. Buy that piece of clothing you have been eyeing, go to your hairdresser, do your nails, do that activity, do and buy yourself what for you feels like pampering.

🪐 However, Mercury is meeting Uranus and the North Node in the same sign.

Uranus and Mercury are both connected to technology so pay attention how themes here play out on the internet.

Also our way of speaking and thoughts could be highly influenced.

There could be s sense of insecurity and overall chaos, beliefs could be tested. Watch out for built up stress during these transits.

Mercury is squaring Saturn so restriction could play out, limits on what you want to say.

💫 Since we are talking about Mercury, I wanna just tell you that by May 10th, it will enter Gemini and here its second retrograde for this year will start.

It will transit back to the current earth sign, so it is most likely that the themes, situations, hinge related to certain events playing out rn, could be revisited during the rx season and much more in depth.

Last, honorable mention, since IT’S GONNA BE MY BIRTHDAY THAT DAY, on that day Mercury is gonna be sextile Venus.

On that day, enjoy some form of art, play your fave music all day long, some self expression activity.

You could also find yourself being more chatty. You could find yourself wanting to journal as well. Overall a very pleasant day.

Talking about rx, I just want to mention that we still have all the plants transiting direct.

On the 29th Pluto enters rx, until the 8th of October, so as its used to said

- Release . Clear out . Purge

Basically get your shit together

💫 As I said in my reminder a couple of days ago, the Jupiter Neptune conjunction is going to be particularly high in its energy until the 18th.

Some of you may have felt very tired, or living through a sort of unstable changing environment.

To answer your fears and doubts, no it’s not that this conjunction isn’t working for you.

Actually that’s the opposite. Your soul, you spirit, the universe is most likely pushing you to feel the need to purge all of the stagnant energy you have been holding inside, any kind of hold, chain that keeps you still and not moving.

You are freeing yourself anything that doesn’t serve you, whatever and whoever that may be. You reached a breaking point of understanding that, you aren’t meant to stay tied to where you where feeling already chocked up and chained down.

You may have felt like going through a new birth… which isn’t supposed to make you feel energetic. It’s supposed to cleanse up anything inside.

Or that you are about to birth something new. Do you think that giving birth is pretty? 😅 Most of the time is of the most life changing experience. Something that leaves you in awe… after it’s done 😂 🦋

It’s not easy, it’s supposed to make you feel cathartic energies, metamorphosis, shedding layers. You are supposed to feel almost uncomfortable.

Obviously not necessary for everyone this is feeling difficult.

(If you wanna know how it is influencing your life and you could surf with it, just check the position of Pisces in your chart. The themes touched by this meeting are in there)

However, everyone has been experiencing this metamorphosis phase for whatever they are meant to be and embody in life, for whatever goals they may have.

This feeling of uneasiness is actually even more highlighted by this full moon. Which is always a moment of release.

Before the eclipse seasons, which are again…. Life changing.

And where you will see the fruits of your work starting to spring… where you are gonna feel the tangible “babies” you have pushed out of yourself and your colorful wings in the mirror.

You are a beautiful creature in this world. Precious.

BELIVE me. 🥺💖

While doing all of this work, I suggest you to always keep grounded.

Meditate. Do all of your spiritual practices

You are expanding.

Be present. Keep focus.

You are being filled up with your power.

Enjoy this connection to the divine. The downloads, your spiritual awareness, feeling connected to something not tangible yet so real.

I wanna add a quick note on this…. A thought that I read on Instagram a few days ago, related to this transit and that I find very heartwarming for you.

Remember that not everyone of you reading this “needs to know what you wanna get blessed with rn”

🌕 On the 16th we have a Full Moon in Libra at 2.57 pm, or 20.57 for Central European time.

The aspect that it’s gonna be making are intense.

The key word of these days is balance on everything.

Your whole being must be balanced, while still being in the passionate Aries season, where your seeds are being planted and plans are being set.

🌕This full moon is gonna square Pluto.

It means conflicts, power struggles. Especially internally.

Control the energy, be compassionate towards yourself. Forgive what you are holding onto, wounds, guilts, grudges on yourself.

You lived everything to grow through it and become who you are.

Don’t let it hold you down.

This aspect with Pluto is a good thing cause it will put emphasis on revealing things, especially shining a light on all of the people trying to tie you down, their jealousy due to you embracing yourself, helping going forward.

Don’t play with vicious being trying to tickle your nerves, watch your back and do a cleanse against the negative energies, that could be thrown upon you.

This full moon is for getting rid and cutting ties with everything that was limiting your expansion.

The light will be shed on toxic bounds to people and how they are towards you in reality, which areas they are trying to manipulate and influence of your life to their favor.

🪐Saturn is in Aquarius till right now. This will contribute to the energies of the full moon in Libra.

It helps the discipline of getting rid, the determination mixed with the essential need of breathing 🌙, from that lack of space in any relationship of just being.

You are your own.

The RELEASING, however, will flow smoothly thanks to our balanced Libra.

Thanks to this action you will be bringing in new, maybe meet someone, build new connections, finding new opportunities and paths.

I’m gonna repeat myself here but just try to fill your weekend with balance. If you can’t seem to find it,you must fix your mindset and understand that you have the capacities to have it as well.

Breath, slow down, connect and talk to your spirits.

By the end of this transit, you have to be sure you brought into your life Harmony.

Either everywhere or where you felt it was lacking.

I always suggest to go hermit during transits like these (but I am a Scorpio rising, being an hermit is a skin I am all about)

Socialize, since it’s a Full Moon in Libra, and open up if you feel called to.

Rest (especially the day after cause they are naturally a moment where you feel tired and kinda empty)

Cleanse.

Connect to things that will your soul with beautiful feelings and emotions cause after all, tonight they ruler is Venus.

May I suggest? Listen to music all weekend, make it your background.

🪐 Last transit I’d like to wrap it up with is the one of Mars in pisces, which in my opinion has energies both positive, that will help out work and negative ones, we must be aware of. It’s gonna stay here until the 24th.

Obviously, here Pisces is gonna join Venus, Jupiter and Neptune.

Yes, IT A LOT.

Pisces here is not confrontational, so it brings them to don’t really face their anger, not express it , making them passive aggressive in their behavior. Or either bring them to a breaking point of explosion.

So during this transit, make sure to listen to your emotions, evaluate them, recognize them and work with them?

Especially cause you may feel a tad bit more sensitive. Personally I suggest you to practice detachment, if you feel like you are getting to intertwined with feelings yeah aren’t even worth it.

You will be MOODY as well so that is probably just a temporary sensation.

I don’t find it a very steady energy cause it can really make your mind wander a bit too much, even making you change your mind too quickly.

While rn, if you wanna your seeds to bloom and get shit died, you must focus.

Watch out for manipulative energies and people trying to make you feel guilty or in the wrong for their own personal anger and issues.

Don’t sacrifice your harmony, the one you fought for. Set and reiterate your boundaries,

Mars in Pisces has also many positive notes to it.

Firstly, our beloved intuition.

If you feel right, while doing it, perusing something, and your angels and intuition are communicating to you to go for it, don’t repress your dreams.

Pisces here is the pure notion of going with the flow, so listen to the body.

Feel the energies. Don’t push what isn’t functioning in that moment, in that day. Give your feelings the space to unfold as they are in that moment.

Swim through the stream.

The most beautiful detail is that Mars is pIsces is constantly searching for its purpose , so you may feel called to do what fulfills you the most, especially with the presence of Venus in Pisces as well.

Here’s everything before Taurus seasons is gonna start.

I’m gonna leave you with a message, that I hope will stay with you and hug you tightly whenever you need in the next month…

“You are the main character on your stage.

It’s up to you the dialogue in your story, set the tone, the plot.

Once you choose, they must follow.

This is YOUR SHOW”

I’d love to hear what’s been bubbling up and springing in your life at the moment, how have you been feeling. What’s new, what have you got rid off, what do you want to create.

Leave comments, reblog, do whatever you like 🥰

Love you babies,

-the red head.

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meetmeatthecoda · 3 years

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I absolutely ♥️ADORE♥️ Scripted and would love to read your director’s commentary for it!

Oh, anon!! 😍 I'm SO THRILLED that you loved Scripted so much, that makes me so happy!! 🥰 Especially that you loved it enough to want to read my "director's commentary" (that phrase makes me laugh, you'd think I created a feature length film all by myself 🤣), so I think I'll skim through the fic - it's been a while since I re-read it - & make a bullet-point list of any special BTS info I can think of 😊 Anddd I'll also put it under a read more cause you know me, I never use one word when one hundred will do 😂

So, the fic itself was inspired by the ending of 5.08 where Liz wakes from her coma to Red reading to her in an armchair as he had been for the past 10 months, it's fine, I'm fine but she still has a ventilator in so she can't talk & instead has to write "how long?" on a piece of paper & her handwriting is super shake-y bc her muscles are so weak (I think Red even helps her hold the pen? It's clearly been a while since I re-watched the ep whoops but ugh, be still my heart.) For some reason, I just latched onto the idea of a mute Liz, really suffering with the implications of everything she went through (since her recovery was so glossed over in the show boo) & Red 1000% being there for her. Mostly, I just wanted to dive into the dynamic of Liz letting Red care for her the way he's always wanted to (without Tom & Agnes btw) to the point where their relationship is unhealthy in its reliance, but neither can see it bc Liz is blocking things out (& unknowingly falling in love with him) & Red is just so thrilled to be able to love & care for her (while already deeply in love with her obvi). So yeah, that was the kind of dynamic & closeness I wanted to explore between them & it was... really fun 😊

The idea of the coma providing the perspective Liz needed to see that Red has always had her best interests at heart & clearly loves her (in addition to the fact that he never left her side or gave up during those 10 months lol peak romance tbh) seemed very organic & logical to me.

I liked the idea of Red & Liz playing board games as a way to pass the time & get to know each other better. It's the kind of casual interaction we were never gifted with in the show & I think they're both competitive in the right circumstances, even if its playfully so.

I liked the idea of Liz being urged to learn ASL, as I'm deaf in one ear & would dearly love to learn it at some point.

The detail of Red sleeping on a cot close enough to Liz's hospital bed that they can hold hands in their sleep was a total guilty pleasure addition & I'm not sorry.

I loved the scene in the beginning where Red is talking to Dembe on the phone in the hallway & Liz is practicing her letters. She's purely doing it so Red doesn't worry & I loved the idea of her being apathetic to everything except Red's concerns, plus I added in the parenthetical of (Red sometimes squints at her k's.) bc I thought it represented that well, but also bc it was just cute af. I also added the little detail of him waving at her through the window at the last minute bc I thought the scene needed something else & once I pictured that, it was too adorable to leave out.

Red handling all the details of Liz's care & transportation without asking (bc he instinctively knew that's what Liz wanted) only to turn around & panic about excluding her seemed like a very RED thing to do & I like how it emphasizes his well-meaning intentions, respect for her preferences, & desire to see her happy, even if she did actually want to leave him lol as if.

I liked the visual of Liz stumbling into Red's arms as she stands from her hospital bed to leave with him (sets a precedent for later) & I also loved the visual of a pen in her ponytail & of course Red using it to flirt a little bc come on.

I remember struggling to write the car ride transition to the lake house. I usually get ideas & visions for specific scenes, moments, or bits of dialogue, so those kind of transition moments are hard for me sometimes. But I liked that I settled on Red helping to ground Liz through touch (again, sets a precedent for later).

Red & Liz playing hangman in the car with Red using the word "fedora" & drawing a suited hangman made me giggle.

I can see the lake house very clearly in my mind, complete with the willow tree, bench, & tiny house (included bc I desperately want a tiny house in real life) & I really enjoyed describing the interior & imagining the joy Red would get out of decorating it with Liz in mind.

Their first night in the house where Liz has her nightmare & Red comforts her - that was a scene I had in mind very early on & I love how it turned out, especially with Liz mouthing "stay with me" into Red's neck, that part gave me All The Feels™.

The "morning after" scene where Liz realizes on some level that she's too dependent on Red is an important moment in the fic & the off-hand detail that at least "she's not going around murdering people & calling it therapy" was a bit of shade to Ruin (which I don't think I ever saw bc I was kind of appalled with the idea lol) I think I posted Scripted after Ruin aired... if not, I guess I'm psychic?? LOL

The breakfast scene - & the fact that Red is preparing every breakfast food known to man bc he's nervous too - is near & dear to my heart. I think that's a pretty pivotal scene since they kind of reach an unspoken agreement & peace &... "things settle after that first breakfast."

I liked the teeny little parenthetical section that comes next as well, which acts as a sort of middle point for the fic.

The next large chunk of the fic was pure indulgence for me. I LOVED writing about all the different things they would do together when it was just the two of them, it was basically a collection of Lizzington headcanons & that's how I sketched them out LOL Here's some notes on them:

I came up with the jigsaw puzzle headcanon (that Liz is bored by them bc they're easy for her bc she's a trained psychologist & easily sees patterns in things) late in the editing process but loved it so much that I included it.

Liz's sandwich preference is actually mine LOL

The Monopoly banter was fun af to write bc I love that game.

The love notes Liz leaves around the house for Red is still an all-time favorite headcanon of mine.

I loved the idea of Red reading to Liz in a foreign language, holding the book only for looks, but not actually reading from it at all & instead professing his love for her. I think I've even used that headcanon in another fic LOL

Their movie nights were also something I was dying to include, especially since they include snacks & cuddles.

Their co-sleeping habits were also something I wanted to include & Liz's newly tactile nature is both a symptom of her dependence on Red & also a guilty pleasure thing for me bc we all wanted more of Red & Liz touching on screen, plus I felt obligated to explain through Red that it wasn't sexual in nature (though if I ever get around to writing part 2, that will change 😉)

Dembe being the one to observe & interfere in their situation was an early scene I imagined as well, that was always going to be the climax of the fic (or at least part 1). I so enjoyed writing about Red & Liz's relationship through his eyes bc he just loves them both & only wants to help them.

Another pivotal scene I imagined early on was Liz having a panic attack with Dembe when she discovers Red has left & that was super engaging to write, as well as the reunion between them which... I pretty much wrote the whole fic with the goal of getting to that lovely angst LOL

Red's resolve to finally urge Liz to speak was heart-breaking to write (so naturally I loved it lol what's wrong with me) & in particular the detail of them eating fruit for lunch before he broaches the topic with her & the parenthetical about it being "a sign from the cosmos that they are meant to be together just because they don't eat each other's favorite fruit" made my heart happy even tho it's stupid LOL & when Red asks her if she would ever try to speak again & she responds with a simple written "Why?" that was a huge moment that I loved the angst of, of course. As well as the absolutely gutting: "Lizzie, I miss your voice."

I liked that Liz needs some time to think & accept everything Red forces her to realize at the end, that was super important to me in the resolution of the fic/part 1 & I tried really hard to include both their mentalities there at the end.

The fact that Red hasn't had a drink since he started caring for Liz also made my shipping heart happy.

And - lastly - the fact that the only thing Liz actually says in the whole fic is Red's name? Yeah 🥲🥲🥲

Welp, there you go, anon, I'm not sure if that was interesting to you at all, but I certainly hope so!! I know that was a lot but... it's a long fic, my longest ever, so I figure it's warranted, right?? 😂 Anyway, thank you so much, both for the compliment of loving Scripted AND for wanting to read more about it, anon, you are so sweet!! 🥰 I hope you enjoyed this & much, much love to you, my friend!! ❤️

Fanfic Writers: Director's Cut

#The Blacklist #Lizzington #fanfic #Scripted #ask game #fanfic writers: director's cut #mine #ask #anon #thank you so much for this my friend!!#:D #i hope you enjoyed this #:)#much much love to you!!#<3

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princeanxious · 4 years

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I love your dragon au, may I have some headcanons?

Uh sure! You weren’t ship specific so i’ll try and be a lil broad and touch on a few for all of em! (Theyre all interconnected in a way but often spend much of their time together apart from the others bc thats how dragons be, even if these dragons are much more social than the average dragon)

Demus- Dragon Remus x Prince(ess) Janus

- Janus is ftm trans! His parents were never supportive and actively tried to hide that from that kingdom at every turn, so, he may have secretly gotten a certain mage’s help “cursing” him with snake/dragon scales & additional certain masculine attributes so that he’d be sent away and get time to live his life without royal duties breathing down his neck. Even if he’d have to live the rest of his life as a prince locked away in a tower.

-Remus is a Dragon that’s known to be very curious, driven to hoard things that intruige him. He lives in a castle he and his brother Roman overtook years ago, and they guard it and their hoards within it well. However, one day a nearby kingdom reached out to them with an offer: if they guard and protect Prince Janus while the kingdom scrambles to figure out what to do, the dragons will recieve offerings to add to their hoards along with provided meals and the means to provide for Janus. All the kingdom requests is to keep Janus safe and happy.

-and of course, they agree to. And Remus falls head over tail inlove in a matter of days. Janus follows soon after he finds that Remus is completely unbothered and supportive of Janus’s transition.

-Janus and Roman also get along super well, tho not in a romantic sense, especially after Roman learns of Janus’s love for plays and acting skills. Roman also gifts a few intricate outfits to Janus from his Hoard of beauty and passion bc they fit the short prince quite well, and because Janus wasn’t given anything to wear from his kingdom aside from tailored princess dresses(which he doesn’t usually mind the skirts portions now w/ his new body but somedays the disphoria would spike back out if he looked in the mirror while wearing one). Roman also helped cut Janus’s hair, and both dragons would growl threateningly at any kingdom official who dared look at Janus’s attire change questioningly. If anyone asked, it was because it made Janus happy and feel safe, and that was their job, was it not?

-Janus loves his new Dragon Boyfriend and his new Dragon brother-in-law(technically?) and this result just solidifies his confidence in the decision he made to get here. Roman and Remus know about the secret behind the curse and what Janus did to get here, they think he’s super fcking clever bc of it. And, Ro and Re swear on their hoards that they’ll never spill the secret if Dee doesn’t want them to, one because the Kingdom would then have a lead on trying to Reverse the Curse, and two, because it would put the life of the mage who was asked to do it in danger, and three, because their dragons and dragons are very very good at protecting what they love.

Logince- Dragon Roman x Knight Logan

-Logan is a prince to a neighboring kingdom, and he was betrothed to Janus in an arranged marraige sort of settup. Niether of them loved the other like that, but they were best friends and Logan respected(and defended) Janus being trans. So when he finds out something happened to Janus, he’s alarmed and upset that he wasn’t informed sooner. Then he finds out Janus is being guarded by dragons, of all things! And well, he needs to make sure Janus us safe, and find out whats wrong, what happened? And no one stops him from traveling out to the castle that houses the dragons to find out. The least he can do is make sure Janus is okay and respected by the dragons, but like hell is he going to wait for Janus’s scrabling kingdom to catch up.

The first thing he’s greeted by is a tall red scaled dragon, and he’s immediately on guard. The dragon grins and drops into a defense position. They don’t ask the other questions, which Janus will give both of them shit for later, but both parties are fueled by challenge and protective goals. And they launch into battle without a word.

-Roman is immediately intruiged and excited to find how Logan matches him in a fight, actually standing a pretty solid chance despite his weight and height. Logan is a skilled swords man, the best in his kingdom, its a shame his only downfall is that Roman has twice the height on him and more than twice the muscles, figuratively and literally. But even then Logan isn’t deterred and is capable of flipping the dragon onto his back which is p hot roman cant lie, so its a p even scuffle bc Romans highly entertained w/ this mysterious attacker.

-they kinda get caught up in the scuffle for a good while till Remus comes out to investigate and Logan disengages and dashes into the forest bc he’s smart enough to know he can’t really win the fight w/ one dragon, two is a death sentence.

-roman spends the whole night heated and excited as he rambles about the gorgeous short knight who nearly kicked his ass. Logan spends the whole night rethinking his strategy and trying not to get distracted by the memory of the infuriatingly hot smirk the dragon kept aiming at him.

-they scuffle twice more, filled with witty remarks and snarky quips that progressively get more flirty before they think to speak about /why/ Logan wants into the castle b4 the truth comes out.

-both are a little sheepish when Janus finds out just who Roman’s been waxing poetic about kicking his butt in an even match and spend a good 20 minutes scolding their gay af selves. Then Logan gets updated on the whole situation, including his not so subtle transition and his new dragon bf. Logan gets the dragon’s permission to visit so long as he keeps things a secret, and he scoffs that they’d think he’d even dare to try to ruin his best friends happiness.

-niether of them really knows when their little rivalry picked back up, but Roman and Logan spend their time together bickering and taunting eachother while playing a semi-unbalanced game of cat and mouse. Logan’s not allowed into the castle w/o playing their game first, and he honestly doesn’t mind. Their interactions get way more flirty and theyre just gay disasters that take way to long to admit their developing feelings till it all kinda rushes out the moment Roman pins Logan to a wall and Logan reaponds by locking his legs around the other, daring to keep him there.

-yeah they express their feelings to eachother in many ways that day. And Logan ends up secretly(to his kingdom at least) dating Roman, and Roman gets a prince bf of his own. They still taunt and play their game of cat and mouse tho, now its just accompanied by a ton more kissing.

Moxiety- Dragon Patton x Mage Virgil

-Virgil is the mage that helped Janus transition in secret, they’d been friends for a long while and meeting in secret to plan it. Virgil’s a pretty powerful mage and talented at what he does, and Janus’s trasition was a spell he cast himself, and its irreversable(on purpose, by Janus’s request/demand)

-Virgil travels alot now adays, never staying in one public place too long in fear of Janus’s knights suspecting him and capturing him. He knew the risk and was willing to pay the price to make Janus happy. He knows he must lay low for a while, and hes not very open about being a mage in fear of that being found out.

-well, one day he finds himself in a town not so open to the idea of magic in general. Its one slip up hes not sure he regrets to heal an injured child, but he finds him self tied to a wooden stake that same day, surrounded by a village chanting about how all magic is evil.

-and then a dragon swoops over and snags him from the fire as it ignites, just barely sinking his clothing before hes up in the sky. He promply blacks out from shock.

-and when he wakes up, he finds himself tucked carefully into a hammock with a soft blanket. The room he’s in is filled with an interesting assortment of things, haphazardly placed enough to register as a hoard than any other kind of room in this tower. That and the dragon that rescued him is resting nearby, his blue scaled wing outstretched and draped over Virgil protectively is kind of a dead giveaway too.

-Virgil would learn later that Patton had been following him, lead by how his hoarding instincts weirdly worked. He’d be thankful then, that they saved his life, despite the fact that he now technically counted to Patton’s instincts as part of his hoard. Patton was adamant that he’d been trying to rid himself of the attachment before, but once Virgil was in danger his insticts had been set aside to save the poor human. He couldn’t help that touching Virgil just solidified his instincts’s claim.

-Patton lets Virgil know he’s welcomed to leave any time he wants to, that they were safely away from the dangerous village now. Virgil finds he doesn’t want to leave just yet, and they settle on becoming friends.

-Patton is friends with Roman and Remus, and often visits them when he’s feeling too lonely. He’s plenty friendly with Janus and Logan at this point, being a much softer natured dragon than the twin dragons.

-the group finds it very, very coincidental and very ironic the first time Patton brings Virgil with him to hang out.

-their love story is a bit slower, but lets just say one day months down the line, Virgil pulls Patton into a really shy kiss and Patton all but startles Virgil with the happy purr that bursts from the back of his throat. Its not to much longer after that that theyre relationship is fully established.

#find more abt the other side of this au on my nsfs blog ;)#or send asks too. either way i rly do love this au #fantasy dragon au #sanders sides #virgil sanders #patton sanders #roman sanders #logan sanders #deceit sanders #remus sanders gif #janus sanders #luka writes #logince #demus #moxiety

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lizacstuff · 3 years

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I'm sure others will ask this but what are you thoughts on the episode of SCK?? I love your in-depth analysis lol. I personally loved it!!! Also can I just say that the edser/hanker chemistry is off the charts lol. If this was the first episode I watched ever, without subtitles, their scenes would be a giant neon sign that says "THESE CHARACTERS ARE MADLY IN LOVE!!!". Eda was beyond cute/in love/adorable in this episode with serkan, girl has got it bad and I wish she didn't have her stupid grandmother and these insecurities in the way ahhh. I really love the Ayfer/Aydan duo, they're fun when they're together and Ayfer wasn't annoying like the last few EPs. Also, Balca can go choke lol, I'm so glad Serkan didn't fall for her trap for him to stay over!! He was like nah come to the party (my girl is waiting!!!). Was serkan about to tell Eda that he had to stop by her house? He seemed really nervous. ANYWAYS, I love EdSer and am going to go watch their scenes 1000x before next week 😭🥰

Thank you! I love Edser too!!!! Like you, I enjoyed this episode, though it was despite some of the narrative issues (that I posted about here.) There were good, meaty Edser scenes, which is why I watch this show. Once again I'll start with the non-Eda/Serkan thoughts and then get to the feelsy stuff at the end.

Babaanne's introduction did not disappoint. The actress has the right energy for the role. I guess we now know why Eda has been adamant about cutting her out of her life, Babaanne is next level controlling and vindictive. We'll have to see how she develops and what her endgame motives are. Does she want her revenge more than she wants her granddaughter and daughter in her life? Or does she think if she wins and arranges everything including an advantageous marriage for Eda, Eda will eventually go along and decide it's awesome and reconciliation will come about that way? *evil laugh* She doesn’t know her granddaughter at all if she thinks that’s a possibility.

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I enjoyed her non-Balca scenes, especially when she was going toe-to-toe with Eda. That scene in Serkan's old upstairs office was intense, both actresses really brought it and kudos to Eda staying true to her defiant character. No one pushes her around. Prepare yourselves to see her waver a bit, I'm sure it's quite jarring to see your loved one in jail and know that he's there because of you, but she'll get to the point of fighting beside him. I have no doubt.

It was nice to see Ayfer protecting Aydan and Seyfi, it made for some great comedy and it was a good change after all of Ayfer's annoying, unrelenting negativity in general and about the Bolats. We'll see what happens between the two now that they appear to be vying for Chef Alexander's attention. Nesilhan just cracks me up when she's portraying Aydan play acting, the stilted voice she takes on is always hilarious to me, like when Ayfer was introducing "Aisun" to Serkan. As we move forward, though, I want to see some badass Aydan. She was introduced to us as a force of nature, so I hope we see that woman, a woman who will go to the mat for her son and Eda, emerge at some point. No hiding from Babaanne long term. Everyone needs to gear up to fight!

Peril and Engin got married! Their scene at home was really well done and gave me a bit better insight into them and why they might work. The only thing I was disappointed about here was that Serkan was not their witness. He counts them as some of his only friends and they didn't call him? Come on, show! They could have easily structured the ep to have him get the call while there was chaos at his loft that morning and it would have been the perfect excuse for him to grab Eda and head to the wedding leaving the moms and Babaane to Chef Alexander. It wouldn't have changed anything about the episode because Eda still could have gone to do her thing after the wedding and everything else would have been the same, except it all would have had a bit more heart. Missed opportunity there.

I've decided that Ferit is a catch. At the beginning of the show he was just so naïve, that he seemed foolish, but he's really turned into a sweet, upstanding man. You hold on to him, Ceren. The irony in his relationship with Serkan is just outstanding to me, because ALL of this started because Serkan was willing to upend his own life (and Selin, Ferit and Eda's) will the sole goal of keeping Ferit out of his business, and now here we are 24 episodes later, Selin is long gone, Eda is the love of his life, and Ferit has turned into a solid, trust-worthy business partner and friend who is putting Babaanne in her place on the first day. Love to see it.

Balca, that snake just gets more unhinged as we go along. Good GAWD. WTF is wrong with her? Her eventual comeuppance better be big. I'm really to the point that I can't enjoy any scene that she's in, it's just too maddening, because neither Serkan nor Eda are taking her seriously enough. Which I realize they don't know what we know, but dang I hope Serkan is finally connecting the dots because her behavior is not normal. As Eda says, who gives a gift like that to their boss? Who calls their new boss instead of the police when there's an intruder in the house? By now he should be able to figure out she's manipulating him.

Also how was she not daunted when she called and Eda was there? What did she think would happen when he came to get the gift when he had Eda to get home to? On top of everything else she's shameless and delusional. As for the gift, that was creepy AF. Did she seriously think that her boss, who she's known a week, would be romanced by that? Or any man for that matter? Did Selin give her the impression he was so arrogant that this would be the perfect thing for him? As much as I want less of her on screen, I would like to know the thought process behind that embarrassing monstrosity. Because it was not a savvy move. But the good news is that no one was more creeped out by it than Serkan Bolat. It seemed to really unsettle him, which it should. It was nice to see Eda getting over her jealousy, perhaps that came with her decision to try and move forward. Before she was in this state of flux, deep-down wanting Serkan to be hers, but not being able to admit that and feeling an outside threat during that confusion.

I saw some criticism of Eda because she was openly mocking and dismissive of Balca. However, while I agree her behavior was a tad immature at times... Balca was totally asking for it. She's been at the company for mere days and her weird, manipulative, obsessive behavior is totally inappropriate. Also if she didn't take a hint from Eda opening mocking her, Eda picking out her gift from Serkan, Serkan deferring queries about his NYE plans to Eda, Eda being at his house when Balca called, I think we can safely say that Balca in unaffected by any of Eda's behavior, thus Eda isn't hurting anyone. While Balca is over here, claws out, trying to start a war. Balca is the villain here, not Eda for recognizing and making fun of it.

Despite the emotional inconsistencies between Eda and Serkan in this episode, during one scene they were hot, the next, one or the other was cold without rhyme or reason, there were many great conversations. I really enjoyed their conference room scenes in particular. Serkan confident and calming her down, Eda being enraged by Babaanne, but listening to him and letting him calm her down.

His little Eda Bolat coffee cup gag was priceless, he did succeed in both diverting her and flirting with her in one suave move. Also a nice bit of foreshadowing there, which there was a lot of this episode. Not just this and the bouquet catch, but also every single one of their domestic scenes.

As I said in this post, the rewrite, or whatever happened this episode, did cause some pretty big emotional inconsistencies from scene to scene. I know most people loved the scenes when Eda went to find Serkan, but it was a little whiplashy for me. We go from Serkan being calm and collected and happily flirting with her about being Eda Bolat at the office, to a short time later him being moody and standoffish with her at his house? It's understandable that he would be upset at her suggestion that she leave the company, but I would think the man that broke her heart for her own good, would understand why she might think of leaving in order to get rid of someone who is threatening him!

It just felt like a weird time for him to hit his threshold with her, especially since this was when they were supposed to be heading to Paris (huge writing fail that there was no "Oh I guess we have to postpone Paris" throwaway line). However, perhaps that was accelerated for him in the face of a real threat? Like if it was just another day he's fine with her waffling and their little contract game, but he feels in his bones that this is go time and he needs to find out if she's ready for what's coming? (Look at me finding reasons for the inconsistencies as I answer this ask, lmao).

Then the shaving scene was interesting. She starts by saying "Leaving was a dumb idea, I'm still here, I'll be by your side," which YAY and seems to me to be a huge step forward for her.... but then he doesn't feel it. Why exactly, didn't he feel it? So then she transitions to the biggest head scratcher of the episode for me, and I really hope it's a translation fail. She basically references the movie they saw and says, "If I could erase all memories of you, I would." Um... what? Is she really saying to him she wishes they never met? I sure hope there was some modifier in there, like "bad" memories only or something. It seemed way harsh and inconsistent with their feelings for one another. However, once he starts talking about being a machine before meeting her and his heart being too heavy without her, the dialogue is pretty great. He really bares his soul and she reciprocates with intimacy. The second half of this scene is absolutely lovely.

The visit to Aydan's house was interesting. At some point I'm gonna need Aydan and especially Ayfer to step up when it comes to Babaanne. Ayfer ran scared the whole episode and it's just not fair of her to leave the burden on Eda. Hopefully, she'll get there. There was a reason Babaanne told Eda not to tell Ayfer about the threats, and threatened harm to Serkan and family if she did so. I'm guessing Ayfer may be better equipped to deal with her mother than was suggested in this episode. The conversation about Eda running from her grandmother as a child and losing the bracelet was very affecting and well done, and thankfully Serkan was out of his sulky mood and in full-on supportive boyfriend mode. Phew, good to have you back, Serkan.

That throne Babaanne brought in was something else. Worth a good laugh. However, I feel like it highlights a few cracks we've already started to see in Babaanne's scary façade. First, there's the one I just talked about, with Babaanne not wanting Ayfer to know what she's up to, so we now know who might be successful in opposing her or might know things that could shut her down.. her daughter. Then this ridiculous throne move had to be her way of unsettling everyone, but as we see that fails with Serkan. He's pretty unflappable when it comes to her nonsense antics.

Then Babaanne singles out Balca as her ally, which on one hand, it was astute of her to figure out who was the outsider, ripe for the picking, but she straight up choose the wack job, who let's face it, is not going to be all that competent of a foot soldier for her, because she has no allies and she's not in anyone's confidence. Plus she made that critical error with the present being so off-putting to Serkan. Balca might be able to cause problems, but she can’t get Serkan to transfer his affection for Eda onto her, so her usefulness here is limited. Babanne needed to try and fool someone like Melo, Ferit or Leyla. Prey on the nice ones who might try to be accommodating just so everyone gets along.

Anyway, I loved the Edser scenes in the office, he brought her lemon water! My heart. And I loved the meeting with the inner circle. Serkan has a plan! Of course our boy does, he wouldn't be Serkan Bolat if he didn't. It's always fun to see how much they all trust him to lead them through these tough times. He will once again emerge victorious. It just may take some time on this one

Note Blaca wasn't invited to that meeting, someone already can sense she can't be trusted. In the meeting later with Babaanne, I loved how Eda was sitting next to Serkan at the head of the table, totally squared off against her grandmother. That blocking was not by accident. It showed them facing her. On the same side. Together. United. That's what we call foreshadowing and that's how they're ultimately going to defeat her. Together.

It's interesting to me that earlier in the day when Eda tells him maybe she should leave the company he gets upset, but when she shows up at his house and straight up says they can't be together, he's completely calm and is his normal confident self, talking her into staying the night with his usual ease. I'm thinking her manic rambling about him getting tired of her and her grandmother separating them was just too obvious of an emotional spiral after an exhausting day (that lasted 47 years and multiple wardrobe changes) so he didn't take any of it to heart.

As for the reason she needed a place to stay, WTF is Ayfer doing letting Babaanne stay in their home?? Kick her out for the love of God. I don't mind, since it gave us this fabulous sleepover, but come on woman, at one time you were strong enough to remove your niece from her which could not have been easy, where is your backbone now? Find it. Fast.

LOVED LOVED LOVED every second of domestic Edser. How cute are they? Serkan wheeling her dinosaur suitcase was so adorable. And how cute is it that he bought hot chocolate for her? And THEN, THEN when they went to look at the stars? My heart melted clean out of my chest when he said, "I'm already looking at the most beautiful star." Remember in 13 when he asked her, "How are you real?" and she basically told him to be careful or she'd get spoiled and expect that kind of romance all the time? Well apparently the romantic robot has an endless capacity to generate heart-stopping one-liners so she really needn't have worried.

Eda's phone call with the girls was another whiplash moment for me. So wait... all episode her trepidation has been around her grandmother interfering or Serkan getting tired of her, but now she's back to wondering if he can change? Ne? And she isn't articulating what she wants him to change, or talking to him about change at all, only asking her friends if they think it's possible?? The change thing made perfect sense to me in eps 20-22, because she was coming off of his lie that broke her heart, but now I can't figure out what she wants from him. I think this is another casualty of whatever writing changes happened in this episode. I really hope the writers pull it together and figure out what the character's headspace is and stick with it. It's one thing to yo-yo from episode to episode, but to yo-yo scene to scene is too much.

I know that they're trying to create suspense for whether she would meet him to ring in the New Year, and start fresh, but there are much more elegant ways to do this than constant retread conversations that don't make sense in context with the scenes that came before. Honestly, this episode had a LOT of wonderful scenes and humor and heartfelt moments, but it also felt like a franken-episode, like if different writers were assigned different scenes and then they assembled the episode without going back to smooth out the tone and emotions.

That leads us to Serkan discovering Eda in the bath. What do we think was going through his mind there? lmao. He looked exceptionally pleased and he did the jokey flirty thing, taking a mental picture, but then when she comes downstairs in her jammies, he has gone into stone-cold work robot mode. I suppose the best I can guess is that he knew she was confused, he knew he had convinced her to stay under the guise it would be platonic and the "last time."

He's always been a gentleman with her. So perhaps he felt compelled, for her sake, to keep it in that place, but seeing her in the bath send him into overdrive and the only thing he could do is throw himself into work to make sure the situation didn't go any further before she was fully ready? That's my best attempt at explaining it. Still she was flirting hardcore with him when she came downstairs, it feels like that was the moment he's been waiting for since episode 19, and he let it sail by. Ah well, at some point soon both their engines will be revving at the same time and we’ll finally get to the sexy times.

The next morning was 100% adorable. Serkan Bolat serving breakfast in bed. I swoon! What a sweetheart, because I'm pretty certain that Serkan does NOT like crumbs in his bed so this was a big gesture. And you could see how much she appreciated it, despite teasing him about the portion size. Eda, that breakfast would have been just fine by me, but if the girl has a big appetite, so be it.

Also, Edacim, it would be a lot easier to buy your "confusion" if you hadn't brought him a heartfelt gift that would have taken a good while, like weeks, to procure and then sketched in it for him!!!! She had to have been planning that for some time. Anyway, a very sweet gift and one of those moments where actions speak louder than words. We all want to hear Eda say the words "I Love You," but she just said it very loudly here in the form of this gift. Even if she wasn't fully aware she was saying it. It's obvious where her heart is, she just has to give herself permission to follow it.

This ep also brought the funny when half the cast of characters barged in on Edser’s little love nest. Good for both Eda and Serkan for refusing to be a part of the subterfuge for Babaanne. I'm hopeful we're going into a secret relationship/engagement storyline, but at this point I like that neither were cowing to her. Eda is an adult and it's nobody's business but her own where she stays the night!

It cracks me up that Eda and Serkan were discombobulated by the intrusion, had the silent #married conversation, and headed upstairs together. Mostly because they are the two in the dark, what are they going to figure out by going upstairs alone? What they really needed was to talk to any of the other people to find out what in the hell was happening. Not that I blame them for wanting to escape that scene together. However, what was beautiful was their connection in these scenes. They were functioning as partners, as each other's person, as the one each turns to when they need support (or escape). And that's really saying something since they were in a room full of the people they're both closest too.

Finally, I'm glad they spoiled the final scene in the fragman, because I would have been too stressed watching Balca's psychotic efforts in keeping Serkan away from the party, and Eda, if I hadn't known he would make it. As it was, it was too much to watch. They've done absolutely nothing to make her even a little sympathetic. I feel zero empathy for her, I don't understand why she's willing to take these risks. No man is worth it, girl! Especially not a man you just decided you wanted because of his initials! The character needs to serve her purpose and go. Soon.

As for Serkan making it in time, THANK GOODNESS. I don't think Eda could have handled being stood up again. Even taking her call was a mistake. That's why we have voicemail, Serkan. And clearly he should have called the police on his way. I sincerely hope that he finds out the break-in was a fake and that's what makes him realize what level of crazy he's dealing with. I assume, because he didn't know what else to do, he left Balca in his home and that's what he wanted to tell Eda right before the police arrived. I shudder to think what damage she might do there alone. Installing a hidden mic or camera for Babaanne? Going through his things? Planting more items. Ew. If that spec is right the place will need to be fumigated.

Serkan's gift was, of course, perfection. Talk about love in gift form, and did you notice that one of the charms was an "E" and one was an "S"? A sweet, heart-felt detail and a nice little nod to which initials really matter on this show. Interestingly, after a full episode of inner turmoil, once Serkan arrived, Eda seemed to be all-in. She was bubbly and happy to see him and definitely acting like he was her date. And then the hug! Finally! They've obviously been physically close in recent post-break up episodes, for example elevator, pottery, dancing, skating, but what a relief to finally have this pure, intentional display of affection from her to him. Also a cheek kiss! This show, I swear it makes me grateful for the most chaste of moments.

As I said in another ask, I think the, "Will you be my girlfriend?" was in Serkan's head. We didn't see him say it, she didn't respond and the audio was hollow like it was a thought or memory or dream. However, what I can't answer is why we heard that. Why put it in there? We know he wants them to get back together, so that line doesn't inform the audience of anything they don't already know. So maybe proposal foreshadowing? On the other hand, there is the line earlier in the episode that was voice over added after the fact (when Edser are in the small conf room and Serkan says he’s going home) so maybe they added the audio after the scene for some reason? I don’t know with this episode anything is possible.

Then, of course, Babaanne ruins their moment with her evil plan. Next episode will she be sitting on her throne stroking a hairless cat Because it feel like Babaanne may like a bit of evil aura to surround her. Anyway, next stop... jail! I'm honestly excited to see how the next ep plays out. We're going to go through some things, so prepare your soul, but I honestly think we may end the ep in a better place. (new cliffhanger notwithstanding) We shall see.

#Edser #sen cal kapimi #Sen Çal Kapımı #sckask #sck 1x24 #sck episode discussion #edser discussion #asklizac #Anonymous

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harristops · 3 years

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Ok I'll bite - where can the Pride improve right now?

Haha I'm setting myself up for disaster, aren't I? I guess so, lol.

Okay, what improvements would I make or work on?

1) Distributions. The Pride has the ability to move the ball around smoothly with their passing, but they get a bit caught up when under pressure. I would like to see them practice distribution under pressure to avoid future turnovers and give them breathing space. Passing is okay, it wasn't great tonight, but this is a definite area for improvement to reduce the chance of turning over the ball. This not only goes for the field players, but I think Ash could improve a bit with her distributions as well, maybe work on her GKs a bit.

2) Offensive Chances. I think this team has showed that they can generate offensive chances on transition, but their work on corners or set plays need improvement. We saw a glimpse tonight in the Gunny goal, but imagine the unrelenting power of this team if they can find a way to get the whole team in on the scoring effort! I really like to see the Pride moving away from relying on Syd/Alex and looking to some other players to get them more scoring chances. One thing the "big" teams like Portland and NCC have that the Pride don't is big goals; the Pride have only scored more than two goals once, in Kansas. They can't have a GD of 1 in every lead they carry. We need to see games with games with more goals, not just to carry a win, but also it helps when it comes to breaking the leaderboards. Alex is a world class striker but she struggles to finish her chances with the Pride? It doesn't make sense and it needs to be better.

3) Don't Play Back. This kind of goes to the second point, which is once the Pride is up, they'll often drop back into their own half when there is still so much time left on the clock. They kick the ball out of play into their own half, which makes it dangerous and could potentially turn into turnovers (resulting in a draw or loss, again). I would like to see them continue to push up into the offensive zone - if it means you're killing the clock in their half, do that! Practice getting out of your own half so you can improve your offense. The Pride love to play it back to their keeper for distribution, which is fine, but it doesn't help if you're losing and time's winding down.

4) Midfield Motivation. I love the Amy Turner signing, but I honestly think the Pride needs a stronger anchor in the midfield to generate more transitional chances. An offensive midfielder would be great, someone like a Sam Mewis or even a Jess Fishlock (as much as she's not my fav), would be optimal. We have it in Marta and Syd right now, but there needs to be a bit more push on the offense. The defense has cleaned up exceptionally well (tonight is a scratch because the players were tired af and it wasn't their night). I think keeping everything strong with the defense is great, but now move some pieces in the midfield to move that momentum into chances.

5) Rookies and Rotations. I want to see the rookies get more minutes. You cannot play your starting XI every match and this series of games proved exactly why: injuries, fatigue, and risk. You need to rest your best players for the toughest match-up. We have some really great draft picks in these rookies, and if you can get them developed and let them grab some minutes (like Abi Kim in KC), you could have a deep, deep roster. Orlando has a small roster with not a lot of room for substitutions, but this needs to change. There needs to be more breathing room and Marc needs to recognize that he has some talent in his bench that can come on for some big moments. He needs to manage the load better for the health of his players.

The Pride are honestly a great team this year, regardless of tonight's result. They managed to keep it to four wins and three draws for seven matches against some really tough teams. It's more than anyone expected them to do, and they can take a lot away from this game to improve and be better when they face the NCC next week.

#asks #how was this one??#are we still spicy about my takes #im open to debate!#just pls be nice lmao

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calvinmaxfield · 3 years

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( booboo stewart. twenty-four. he/him. ) i think i just saw CALVIN MAXFIELD ride by on a golf cart . at least i think it was them . after all , STRAIGHT TO HELL BY THE CLASH was blasting on the transistor radio . maybe they were on their way to work , i hear they’re a LINE COOK . but they totally could have been on their way to STEAL SHOOTERS FROM THE BEVERAGE CART . guess we’ll never know . you’ll definitely know its them when you see PATCHES ON A WORN JEAN JACKET , CIGARETTES FORGOTTEN IN THE WASHING MACHINE , & AN UNUSED MUSICAL THEATRE DEGREE around the country club . let’s just hope they stay off the green after hours or else they sprinklers will get them ! ( haley. twenty-two. est. she/her. )

𝑓𝑢𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒 : calvin antonio maxfield . 𝑛𝑖𝑐𝑘𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑒(𝑠) : cal , maxxie . 𝑎𝑔𝑒 : twenty - five . 𝑑𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑜𝑓 𝑏𝑖𝑟𝑡ℎ : march 4th , 1996 . 𝑏𝑖𝑟𝑡ℎ 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑡 : pisces sun , virgo moon , capricorn rising . ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡𝑜𝑤𝑛 : north caldwell , new jersey . 𝑠𝑒𝑥𝑢𝑎𝑙 𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 : bisexual . 𝑜𝑐𝑐𝑢𝑝𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛 : line cook begrudgingly . has bigger aspirations for himself but settles for an easy job over one he has to work for . aspiring in everything film whether it be acting , screenwriting , direction or anything in between . has also entertained stand-up comedy but had never taken the steps towards achieving that goal either .

ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠 : self proclaimed narcissist but is super self aware about his insecurities , is a whore lol , seems like he’d be the least judgmental person but is secretly super judgmental , will risk it all for a sexual connection possibly resulting in a romantic one , hasn’t cried in years , female manipulator music , thinks being called a theatre kid is a slur but was super well known for getting every lead role in high school and college , wants to be a stand up comedian or actor , could kill for a woman to braid his hair , will do anything for attention , noncommittal , the loudest person in a room but is insecure about his volume , the class clown , could be your friend for a lifetime and you still wouldn’t be sure if he likes you or not .

𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒𝑐𝑙𝑎𝑖𝑚 : booboo stewart . ℎ𝑎𝑖𝑟 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑟 : black . 𝑒𝑦𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑟 : brown . ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 : 5 ft 8 “ . 𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑠 : to be determined but a littered , jumbled sleeve of meaningless drunk tattoos mostly . 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑡𝑦𝑙𝑒 : heavy punk rock . jean jackets plastered with patches , heavy boots , flannels tied at the waist line . heavy rings on slender fingers . a hair tie on each wrist . jeans or chef pants , no in between . fucks with an occasional open button down tee .

𝑚𝑦𝑒𝑟 - 𝑏𝑟𝑖𝑔𝑔𝑠 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑦 𝑡𝑦𝑝𝑒 : the debater , entp . 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑎𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑔𝑛𝑚𝑒𝑛𝑡 : chaotic good . 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒𝑠 : black cold brew with a cigarette , mindlessly rewatching taxi driver for comfort , quoting the sopranos , being right , comfortable silence , busy environments , making others smile . 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒𝑠 : gossip , commitment , the transition from autumn to winter , cats , folding laundry , hungover anxiety.

𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘𝑔𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 : ( drug tw , child neglect tw ) .

the class clown , the smart ass . these are just two of the labels that have been placed on calvin maxfield his whole life . he’s not even sure if he likes being called them , to know he’s being perceived by others is to know he’s truly alive . that he is seen . on one hand , he’d only ever wanted a disappearing act . one where he slips into the background with anyone truly noticing . a universe where he’s not putting on a face of clown make up to entertain . but on the other hand , he’s good at it . he’s good at entertaining and he likes seeing people smile . so why does calvin have so many qualms with being well liked ? it’s the expectations . an expectation to always be happy . no bad days , no turning off the constant sunshine smile . even if his mind is a storm far greater than he can conquer .

there’s nothing more freudian than blaming your short comings on your childhood . at least that’s what calvin will tell you anyways . but deep down , he knows it’s a mask . that his childhood fucked him up more than he has even begun to process . his therapist pries but he pays her no mind , wishing to be considered more of a strong silent type than one who speaks with loose lips . but his tendencies to make others happy lie within his greatest coping mechanism with is humor . one he developed during his childhood watching movies far too mature for his underdeveloped mind . robert dinero , al pacino , so many tough men who taught him how to be strong in the face of adversities . movie stars were his role models because dad was always too high to entertain the thought of his son , shooting up the day’s dose in front of him while the bills piled high on the kitchen table . calvin’s mother wondered if she’d ever see a day where the world wasn’t so bleak , where she could protect her son from the horrors of the world . but she couldn’t even protect him from the one inside her very home . not to mention it was hard to supervise when working more jobs than seemed possible .

but calvin grew up with thick skin and a cut throat attitude . he slept soundly knowing that his mother loved him and one day his father would see him succeed and kick himself in the ass for mistreating him . but calvin’s brilliance was never a revenge thing . he owed it to himself to be good at something . that something just so happened to be theatre . it was clear to the teachers that had maxxie the class clown sitting in their back row that he liked to perform so his drama teacher came an pursued him . at first hesitant , he remembered some of the greats . al , robert , and suddenly he was in . though he insisted on not being musically inclined , calvin quickly blossomed in the musicals and found his voice through his high school’s productions . he was finally receiving the validation he was deprived of his entire childhood . standing ovations , applause , genuine eye contact that came with compliments , loving hugs . he couldn’t get enough . so it only made sense that he pursued musical theatre in college .

college was when things took a turn for the worst . a slacker , calvin could no long get away with thing solely because his teachers liked him and enjoyed his performances . now everyone was just like him . a talented class clown who thrived on applause and validation from others . bad habits crept their way into his life at this time seeing as he was drinking and experimenting with drugs pretty heavily . what was a career for everyone else was quickly turning into a hobby for him as his poor coping mechanisms and social life hopped in the driver’s seat . this life in his life was all about self sabotage . missing classes to drink , going to acting workshops hungover , sleeping with friend’s girlfriends , doing things just because he could . it was mind blowing that he ever received a degree . but with college coming to an end , he addressed that his period of time with substance abuse were some of the worst years of his life and he wanted to tone back . focus on himself . but old habits die hard .

calvin doesn’t really know how he ended up in the highlands . maybe it was his lack of drive or washed up attitude , but it hard to give his life any real thought from behind the line in the kitchen. all he knows is he needs to get the fuck out .

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wanted connection:

ride or die ( f ) : ever since i created calvin as a muse i’ve wanted to him to have a girl best friend who literally completes him. calls him out on his bullshit , tell him when he’s being a dick but also helps him navigate through his life and feelings . bonus points if they’re a polar opposite of him like super feminine .

ex ( m/f/nb ) : calvin is toxic af so i’m down for plotting whatever honestly i just want him to have an ex

fwb ( m/f/nb ) : again , calvin is a bisexual and toxic whore so bring him all your muses to casually fuck

roommate ( m/f/nb )

coworkers

enemies ?? frenemies ?? frenemies with benefits ???

#highlandsintro #about #here's calvin :)

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bountifulberries · 4 years

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Introducing...Aspen Whyte!

Aspen is for @toxoplasmajuice‘s Atkins MMBC!

Aspen is a trans guy (he/him) who, despite his appearance, is not a berry Sim. He used to be a ginger, but he was never quite this pale before--but all of that changed when his entire town suffered radiation poisoning when a nuclear reactor miles away exploded. Though most of the others had “normal” (but horrific) reactions to the exposure, like skin damage, tooth decay, and damage to their eyesight, Aspen’s health is essentially normal--he just, you know, gradually developed bleach-white skin and hair. The orange that’s left in is hair is the last that’s left to him of his old life. Aspen never had any siblings and only ever had contact with one of his moms, and she insisted on staying behind in their town to help some of the sicker and more elderly neighbors with their radiation-induced suffering. Aspen considered himself lucky that his health wasn’t majorly impacted and decided he didn’t want to risk that luck by continuing his exposure, so he’s been hitchhiking west for almost a year now. It’s hard to get people to be willing to pick you up when you’re white as a ghost (and when the really suspicious people start spreading rumors that there’s a rake [warning: rakes are creepy af] stalking the highway), but he’s managed to get this far. He doesn’t have a particular goal or end destination in mind--or else, he didn’t, until he found out about this BC. Why not?

CC: Hair, Top Surgery Scars

You can change his clothes if you want to if it makes sense in the story--like idk somebody finding something for him, but otherwise please keep them ripped. Also, if you’d like, you can at some point change his hair to all white (e.g. if it grows out longer and he gets a haircut that removes the remaining orange. He’s ready to embrace having totally white hair lol).

Download is private, I think?

Interview Questions under the cut!

In-Character

My name is Aspen Whyte. I’m 24 and trans, use he/him pronouns. Yes, my last name was Whyte before the explosion. I’m from Foundryville, PA, which I don’t expect anybody to know about. Yes, I am a long way from home, and yes it has taken me a looong time to get here. I’m an Aries, if that means anything to you.

I had half a mind to become a chef, before all of this. I know I’m 24 and should probably have figured some of that out already, but I dropped out of high school when I was 17 and didn’t get my GRE until I was 22. Community college doing nothing for a year, and then...well, boom. Hard to focus on your career when everyone around you is succumbing to radiation poisoning. Umm, but yeah, being a chef would be cool.

I’m a really good cook. I also have really great endurance--like, when I walk and run. I can go a long time without much pausing. And I’m pretty good at first aid, I can even give stitches. I haven’t had much time for hobbies since I’ve been on the road, but in all that time between dropping out and getting my GRE I actually became really good at embroidery and had a pretty successful Etsy shop. I shut it down after a few years because I got sick and tired of doing nothing but keeping up with orders, but I still like embroidery. It took me a long time to get good at it, so I hope I haven’t lost my touch.

I didn’t really date before my medical transition because I wasn’t really comfortable with myself. Not to say people didn’t want to date me, but I just wasn’t interested. So I really didn’t start dating until I was like, 19 I guess, and I haven’t had anything super long-term. One person actually was just using me to get free custom embroidery for him and his friends, can you believe that? Anyway, I’ve dated mostly guys, and probably wouldn’t date a woman, but who knows, you know?

I have been aimlessly wandering this country for like, a year. And yes, it is lonely and kind of boring. Like, I love my solitude, but damn, I also really miss people. So I like the idea of finding a partner, but I also really like the idea of being in a house with other people. I know I’m going to eat those words within like, a day, but I think my sanity needs me to be stuck with a consistent group for a while.

I’ve been picked up a few times for minor offenses. Vandalism, stealing stuff like basic food staples, disorderly conduct, public urination...it happens, when you don’t have a house or a car or an income or really anything consistent or reliable in your life. I’ve never hurt anybody.

My favorite book growing up was The Road. Ironic, right?

Ummm, I take vitamin D-supplements and require a lot of sunscreen. It’s not exactly a curse but it has literally always rained on my birthday (April 17) every year I’ve been alive, so that’s got to mean something, right?

Like I said, I left my mom, but I’ve always called her whenever I could manage to charge my phone. I don’t feel like I’m leaving much else behind--my town never really felt that important to me. Don’t tell my mom I said that, though. Her family has been there for years and she’s weirdly attached to it.

Buy some new goddamn clothes. I’ve kept most of my stuff pretty nice because, I don’t know, my clothes are an important part of my identity, but clearly I had to let some of them go to shit on the way here. So shopping for some nice new, not-falling-apart casual wear would be great. Oh, also, I’d really like to go on a sailboat. I never got to do that before all of this.

OOC Questions

Feel free to draw him :)

Hmm, he’s sarcastic and can get a little snippy. He uses a lot of rhetorical questions and emphasizes his words potentially too often. That was probably easy to see though lol

Aspen has been living that minimalist lifestyle for a while considering he did not have anywhere he actually lived, so he won’t have brought much with him--you could throw a backpack in the corner or something? However, I think he would quickly get sick of having bare, sterile-looking walls, so any of the outdoorsy paintings EA has would be a good fit for him. I couldn’t find any embroidery hoop CC that’s for Sims 3 :(

I will absolutely be around! You have me on like four social medias so you’re bound to get ahold of me somewhere lol

#aspen whyte #toxoplasmajuice #atkins mmbc #to be released #mine

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ofcloudsandstars · 4 years

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FEBRUARY

Week 3rd to 9th’s Celestial Forecast

Sorry again for the lateness but with Imbolc last week amongst other shenanigans I have been really pre-occupied.

This week brings some powerful romantic energy. If this isn't what you are looking for in life, it's ok cause this energy can also be channeled through goal-getting/goal-achieving fire power. The transits really build up towards the full moon in Leo at the end of the week which lines up with other aspects and planets that demand for some EMOTIONAL and DRAMATIC release especially in matters of the heart. In a way prepare for some love magic whether you like it or not cause if you aren't interested in attracting romance, the Venus/Chiron in Aries conjunct along with the full moon in leo (trining mars in fiery sagittarius) and Juno in Rx at the end of this week is going to demand you to look inside yourself and figure out how to heal your heart and let love in anyway, whether that be self love or romantic love or community love, you will be LOVED!!! Love is coming for you and that's a threat!!

Notes: the time is set to UTC and I post primarily for a witch group in London so the weeks weirdly start on Mondays here and end on Sundays.

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3rd

Venus (Pisces) sextile Saturn (Capricorn) Mercury enters Pisces Moon VOC at 11:27-11:29AM Moon enters Gemini

Energy: As mercury moves into Pisces, this mercurial cycle will bring a phase of gentle communication, colorful day dreams, emotional thoughts and romance. As Venus sextiles Saturn the desire for long term partnership will strengthen. If you and a partner was struck by the hardships of last week's transits then today would be a great time to find resolve. With the moon in Gemini pairing with mercury in pisces, the two may create the desire to satisfy our curiosity with exploring the artistic or sensual world or analyze our inner emotions.

Recommended Magic: crafting love spell ingredients, binural beats meditation, tarot cards to explore our emotional body, sweetening spells towards anyone causing you issues.

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4th

Moon in Gemini

Energy: A lot of yesterday's influences will be carried on to today. This is a time for peace making, yet if establishing harmony doesn't apply for you, then it's a time to explore your future dreams and entertain the ways to get there. If you celebrate Imbolc, then 3 days ago you would have set intentions for goals that you would want to have sprouted in spring. Winter is still a time of rest but the celestial transits are in favor for you to seek out what you want and have your seeds sprout. With the moon waxing in Gemini before it grows into the full moon, it's a time of hastening when our minds will feel enticed to collect info on various information that we could channel into collecting info that can help us achieve future goals. Use this time wisely to give more base to the fantasies you wish to materialize.

Recommended Magic: Researching magic and filling your grimoire, sweetening spells, researching topics that might correlate with your future plans or any magic you wish to study, brainstorming spells to release on the full moon.

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5th

Mercury Pisces sextile Uranus in Taurus Moon VOC 2:19-7:03PM Moon enters Cancer

Energy: This is a fantastic time for divination and shadow work. With Mercury sextiling Uranus the harmonic energy between the planet of the mind and the planet of surprises, innovation and change will bring a day of heightened psychic talents, future-oriented thinking, open-mindedness and epiphanies that may come from dreams or flashes of insight. Seeing things from a new point of view may help in solving lingering problems or finding your way after steering from your path. With the moon in Cancer it's a great time to turn inward emotionally to see if you may be harboring any emotional blockages. In the time between Imbolc to Ostara is a time for cleansing, clearing and sowing so if you feel like you are blocked in getting the motivation or means to align yourself to your future goals then it's a time to self reflect and undo any inner blocks. For most of the afternoon to evening the moon will be void of course so it's perfect to have a moment to look within and not be too active.

Recommended Magic: Divination, trance meditation, cleansing one's energy, studying new magic topics, adding to one's grimoire

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6th

Moon in Cancer

Energy: With the moon resting in it's home sign, it gives a need for peace, healing and home affairs. This is a good time to get in touch with our emotional side and find what motivates us. This is a great time to journal and write down desires we wish to see fulfilled as in a few days the moon will be full and it will be ideal to release our intentions then. This is also a good day to clean the home, your personal space, your altar and cleanse yourself energetically. Self care is favored on this transit and you should treat yourself to rest and what makes you feel loved.

Recommended Magic: anything cottage/home magic related, cleansing the space, kitchen magic, self care rituals, bath magic, journaling, planning full moon spells, divination

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7th

Venus enters Aries Moon VOC 3:43-10:44PM Moon in Leo

Energy: Today will feel fiery, dramatic and sexual as the planet of love, partnerships and harmony renews it's cycle in dynamic Aries. Coupled with mercury in romantic Pisces and the moon in Leo, we start off Venus's new monthly cycle with strong dramatic desires for passion and connection. Venus in Aries brings spontaneous and direct love. The chase is exciting under this fiery influence and winning the heart feels like conquest. With the build up of the previous romantically-inclined transits along with Valentines Day only being a week away, expect to see friends and acquaintances suddenly stricken with crushes or new romantic connections being made. If this is NOT the energy you want to kindle for yourself it's fine as you can either use this to make spell ingredients or use Venus's fiery desirey placement in Aries as a boost towards your creative projects or applying towards goals in your future.

Recommended Magic: Love attraction spells (avoid the void of course hours, wait preferably until the moon is in Leo), Glamour magic to attract love, making spell ingredients for love attraction (this could work well coupled with kitchen magic if you like to make treats like chocolate or baked goods, also good for other crafts like making love spell candles etc.)

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8th

Moon in Leo

- Full moon phase begins but not complete opposition yet - Better to do moon spells now since it will transition tomorrow VOC

Energy: Tonight (and please make note that it will be TONIGHT, tomorrow evening the moon is VOC and will enter virgo at 11:39pm UTC and Juno goes retrograde in Libra and Venus conjuncts Chiron in Aries lol so not great for love magic,) is a GREAT DAY to do love spells. Dream up that desired partner, anoint yourself in floral oils, send that energy out into the world. Even if you don't want a partner, if you want some positive attention your way whether it be praise, people noticing you for your talents, (I am thinking of these examples as I have a chunk of witch friends who are performers/freelancers) then that magic would benefit you as well. Attraction magic to find people that can help boost you towards your goals can work well now too. Using the element of fire in your spell casting could give a nice boost with Venus in Aries and the full moon in Leo.

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9th

Full moon in Leo (7:33AM UTC) Moon Leo trines Mars in Sagittarius Moon VOC 4:08pm-11:39pm Moon enters Virgo at 11:39pm Juno retrogrades begins (in Libra) Venus conjunct Chiron in Aries

Energy: The morning (well morning if you are in the U.K. This may be very early morning or late evening if you are in the states) will be fantastic to taking the steps towards your goals as the energy of the Full Moon in Leo trining Mars in Sagittarius will give you the courage and initiative to make the first move and take the lead!! Take initiative this morning, this would be a better time to take actions to manifest your dreams instead of doing passive meditative spell work. There will be three powerful planets in fiery signs which is the Moon in Leo, Mars in Sagittarius and Venus in Aries which will also make bold moves for you to get in touch with your sexual side and share your passionate desires. This moon is in favor of unions of the goal-getting kind and of the romantic and sexual kind.

Though it seems some of the romantic and sexual aspects of yesterday are carried on to today it's also met with some DRAMATIC and INTENSE AF obstacles. With Venus conjunct Chiron the two energies will combine to expose any deep seated love wounds and may seek to aggressively (with the aries placements) and dramatically (amplified with the full moon in Leo) CRACK open your heart and through some tears shedding may flood out any unresolved, unreconciled, unhealed parts buried deep within your heart. ONTOP of that there is Juno retrograding in Libra that will begin a period of deep inner reflection that may highlight all the previous mistakes we've made in relationships or any love affair and if we act rashly on this full moon in those matters we may be faced harshly again with our mistakes.

If you worked to find a desirable union amplified by these transits but on the climax of the full moon it all goes wrong, the BEST thing to do is not to be so disappointed and act out (there's a lot of fire in the air so its normal to feel like you want to explode a bit- also it's too soon for a spell like that to work and reap positive results, just wait a bit though Venus in Aries may want it to work RIGHT NOW.) With the moon VOC for most of the day it's a good day to reflect on what may not be working out in your love life or doing shadow work to heal parts of your broken heart. If you used the previous transits to attract love, this day will be helpful to try to turn inward and heal parts of yourself that could be causing unintentional blockages from future romantic partners. By the next cycle you could have cleared out the way that could allow someone special into your life and learn from past mistakes to not repeat them again.

Recommended Magic: self love healing, shadow work, love divination/tarot, taking action towards your goals, release through fire magic,

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