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lizacstuff · 3 years

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Your thoughts on the epi?

This episode was everything! I don't remember when I've enjoyed crying so much. The funny thing is, though, that I've found myself crying more while rewatching those scenes, than I cried during the first time I watched the episode. This episode will definitely rank among my favorites. Let's talk about the B and C characters and then get to Edser and, of course, Kiraz at the end. I spent the first 30 minutes resisting the urge to punch my screen anytime Ayfer was on it. Damn, I wanted to slap her silly. Could she have been any more annoying? Eda's a grown woman, if she is finally doing the right thing and telling the father of her child he's a dad, then be supportive instead of a screeching pain in the ass. When she actually said "I told you so" to an upset Eda... seriously? That is awful. What a bitter, joyless, petty individual. I was cheering for Melo every time she told Ayfer she was negative. Good! At least we know the other characters recognize how awful she is.

(I get long winded, so this continues under the cut)

Also what was with her going overboard to protect Burak's feelings over his delusional aspirations? Why shouldn't he understand that Serkan and Eda shared a great love and Melo is rooting for them to rekindle it? What does hiding that from him do? It's still true. Ayfer treats this dude as a member of the family, so he might as well know. I get his feelings might get hurt, but dude needs a reality check and to move on, and no matter how hard Ayfer hopes, Serkan in their lives or no, Eda is never going to want Burak. She's made that clear. If Ayfer likes him so much maybe she should marry him, that way at least Melo would be saved from his milquetoast presence.

Speaking of that, they were clearly trying to establish some sort of connection or vibe between him and Melo. So far, I'm not into it. If he's still so into Eda that Ayfer doesn't want him to have to hear about Eda/Serkan possibly reuniting, then he doesn't deserve Melo. Melo deserves someone who wants her, not someone who pines after someone out of his league and then settles for her bff once he realizes he never had a shot with the great beauty. We'll see how it develops, but he has the personality of damp carpet so I don't have high hopes.

Aydan was a little screechy this episode, but I cut her some slack since she just found out these traitors stole 5 years of her granddaughter's life from her. My friend @echoapothecary made a good point to me that Aydan deserves no sympathy for this since she didn't tell Eda Serkan was alive back in amnesia times, and I don't disagree with that. That move by Aydan pretty much tainted her character forever, and it's near impossible to come back from, but viewing this story in a capsule I do feel sorry for her. She wasn't a good mother to Serkan, but she does love him, and I think she craves family. The main point being, Serkan wasn't the only one who lost something significant by not knowing about Kiraz until now, Aydan did too. Perhaps we can say that losing the first five years of her granddaughter's life is her punishment for keeping the secret about Serkan, it's about as steep a penalty as one could pay. Talk about karmic retribution.

Also, since Serkan is apparently not going to impose any emotional tolls on any of the traitors for the secret that was kept from him, I'm glad Aydan did at least make her displeasure known and made some of the liars uncomfortable. Piril, at least, felt it, even if she won't suffer any real consequences. I kind of wanted Serkan to kick her out of the company. I really don't like that character and I think every time she's on screen she just sucks the life out of the show. Engin when he's in scenes with Serkan or Eda or Melo or Aydan or Erdem = Interesting. Engin when he's with Piril = Zzzzzzz.

Pina and Kerem were cute, but to be honest I really don't care. It's inoffensive and I get that we need B, C and D storylines to fill out two hours each week, so I'm good with it, but let's be real I'm only watching for the main event.

Speaking of... now to EDSER! I actually like that Serkan walked out and drove away after hearing the truth. I can only imagine what kind of shock and betrayal he must have felt at that moment, escaping must have seemed like his best option. What I liked even more is that Eda followed him. What a relief after the last episode where she was looking for any and every excuse not to tell him and then made the nonsensical decision to flee in order to avoid it. Too many times in the past between these two pride has gotten in the way. There was a time that Eda might have thrown up her hands at him leaving and pretended like it didn't hurt, that it didn't matter. I'm so glad those days seem to be over. One of the hallmarks of season 2 has been the improved communication (sans secret) between these two and this episode took that concept to a new level.

How heartbreaking to watch Eda plead with Serkan through the door, and how double-y heartbreaking to watch Serkan sitting on the floor, head bent, clearly in emotional agony. You could feel it coming off of him. Kudos to both Hande and Kerem who KILLED IT this episode. Seriously, their best work to date. Their chemistry is always on point, but the way they flawlessly work off of one another in every scene they share, whether it's deeply dramatic or something light and romantic is truly something special to behold. That's one reason why I don't get the folks who are so hung up in hating the season 2 plotline, that they can't appreciate any of this. Because this is the point. Giving these two artists deep and challenging scenes together and opportunities to make more magic. Watching them this season is honestly a privilege and I plan on enjoying every minute of it.

Despite Serkan's emotional turmoil, it was so like him to put the blanket over her and then sit across from her sleeping form as he indulged in some more brooding. However, I really appreciate that by the morning he was ready to talk to her. That conversation was hard, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who was jarred by him saying that he would have told her to get an abortion. In light of his later confessions, I think there's a few ways to take that. I think it was in part a nod to what an emotional mess he was at the time, and in part he said it to alleviate some of her guilt. Because even a betrayed and hurt Serkan cares so much about her, and he knows what he put who through at the time. Especially because at that moment he still had no plans to tell her the truth about why he broke up with her, he was still playing the part of the man who just didn't want children. So stubborn! Thank goodness that over the course of the next 12 hours he'll change his mind about that...

On another note, how happy did it make you to see Sirius? It made me pretty happy. He lives!!!!

From the moment Eda went to his hotel room the night before to confess all the way until they met again at the hotel, Eda really did everything right in how she approached him. However, once back in Sile, she makes her first critical error. It reminded me of the Eda in episode 29 who started pushing so hard at amnesia!Serkan and coming at him with such extreme emotion that he shut down. And that's what happened during that conversation on the beach. Eda needed to give him a little bit of time to come to terms with things, instead of forcing a conversation the first moment they saw one another. Good grief, what was she doing demanding answers from him hours after he found out? She knows this man! She knows that he plans every aspect of his life. So to spring on him that you hid a child from him for 5 years and he's a dad, is a LOT. I like that in a later scene he knows he reacted badly, and actually also says to her "What did you expect?" While his reaction wasn't great, it was also pretty predictable and she should have known to give him some time.

Speaking of the conversation on the beach, what a powerhouse scene for Hande. One note on it, that was the scene they had just shot when Hande and Kerem did their last IGlive on premiere day. The one where Kerem kept talking about how he was in a mood because of an intense scene they had just done. After watching I couldn't help but note that he, as Serkan, mostly just stood there stoically as Hande did all the emoting as Eda let loose on all the pent up emotion she'd been carrying both for years and with Serkan's fresh rejection. It speaks to both their personal and professional dynamic that he was so affected by her being in that state since he didn't do the heavy lifting in that specific scene. The way they are attuned to each other is probably a big reason they are so flawlessly in sync on screen.

I liked how they weaved the Kiraz/Baba scene in at the right time. That was one instance where Aydan, Seyfi and Engin's meddling was for the good, engineering a situation where Serkan was alone with his daughter. Also excellent comedy from Can, ratting out his dad about throwing ice cream on him. Good stuff. I like Engin-as-a-father scenes, I like Engin-as-a-friend scenes, I could just do without Engin-as-a-husband scenes. Anyway, Serkan needed time to adjust, but he also needed to be exposed to Kiraz so that he could view their prior unlikely bond through the new prism of fatherhood. It's telling how easily he slid into Dad territory with teaching her how to tie her shoes. He had been doing that all along, but at that moment he knew about the relationship and still did what was natural. He is ready to be her father, he just needs to realize he's worthy of it.

You can't blame Eda for not realizing it, but it was lovely to see how quickly Serkan turned the corner. He was already adjusting his thinking not even 24 hours after he found out about Kiraz and that was really what inserting himself

into her dealings with the Italians was about. Staying in contact until he could beat back all his neurosis. As for the business stuff, she apparently needed him as an investor, but I also love the way he was there to first build up her confidence and then praise her after a successful presentation. I've said it before but Serkan as her professional mentor is one of my favorite dynamics between them. It did make me wonder, is she still 45% owner of the Holding? It seems like it, she sure didn't hesitate to present herself as his partner. If she is, though, it seems impossible that they could have had zero contact for all those years, unless she just placed her stake in a trust and gave him full voting control of it. Details I'm sure they won't explore in-depth, but I did wonder.

Don't you just love an unwitting guest character (Italian guy) who comes in and forces our two protagonists to spend extra time together? I do. Thank you Italian guy and Italian guy's wife! I love how quick Serkan was to accept, you see, he had already turned a corner and was looking for excuses to get close to her. It was his first step in his journey to opening up to her. Also, who noticed that Eda wore a slinky blue dress the night after Kiraz mentioned that it's Serkan's favorite color? Just checking. She is not as immune to his charms as she'd like us to believe...

OF COURSE Serkan was at Eda's graduation. I think pretty much the whole fandom had guessed that from their conversation in episode 40, but it still hit me emotionally to have it confirmed. What I really liked about it was that Serkan didn't tip his hand by accident. He quoted her graduation speech specifically because he wanted her to know he was there. And not only that he willingly admits that he thought of her every single day since they parted. This is a huge step for him. It has been driving him crazy that Eda thinks he forgot her and is totally unaffected by her. However, even just a few hours earlier he was still in a place where he had no intention to tell her anything, it's actually impressive how quickly he came around. Now I don't blame Eda at all for declaring it's not enough, he put her through emotional hell when they broke up. I mean on one hand you'd think she'd be able to see that he was already opening his heart and there was more to the story, however, her reaction was good because it spurred him on to go and tell her the whole story.

And what a heartbreaking story it was. As I said several times over the last few weeks, I was hoping that part of Serkan's motivation was that the doctor had told him he would be unable to have kids, what I wasn't expecting though was the double whammy of not being able to have kids AND there being a 70% chance of the cancer coming back. No wonder Serkan was eFFed up! Who wouldn't be, but then you add in his additional insecurities about not being worthy of love and his hypochondria and that is a bad mental cocktail. You know what's ironic, Ayfer hates him but in reality he did exactly what Ayfer would have wanted him to do. Push Eda away for her own good so she could have everything she wants in life without him dragging her down. What makes Ayfer the worst (and a hypocrite) is that this is exactly what she would have wanted him to do, but she also blames him for Eda's heartbreak in the aftermath.

The scene was so cathartic to watch as a viewer. We've been waiting for weeks for Serkan's point of view as he's hidden behind his usual confident and calm veneer, and when we finally got it, we really got it. He did not hold back. Serkan is such a complex character, which is a bit surprising for a silly show that you wouldn't really expect build a character with so many layers. On the surface he has everything and seems to be full of ego, but his arrogance is only surrounding his abilities, intellect, and skills as a businessman and architect. Personally, he has little self-worth and thinks he's not worthy of anyone's love, especially not Eda's. However, while that has been a truth of the character for a long time, this speech was the first time he admitted how deeply rooted his fears are. It was stunning, though, to have a character who is so rooted in being in control and who is worried about his outward image, open up in such a raw way and expose all his fears and insecurities to a woman he's been apart from for five years. It was breathtaking and Kerem was fantastic in the scene.

Initially, with the subtitles, I misinterpreted (though I knew it couldn't be quite right) his parting words. The subtitles I saw made it seem like Serkan was saying "Don't say you forgot me" as in Serkan didn't want Eda to say she forgot him. But it made so much more sense when I saw it translated as "But don't say I forgot you." which was a throw back to their dinner conversation in episode 40 when Eda says, "You forgot me." Once I realized Serkan was saying that he couldn't handle her thinking, or say, that he'd forgotten her, the scene hit doubly hard!

I saw some criticism of that scene that said Eda was just standing there with no emotion, but I didn't get that at all. She had tears running down her face and I thought she was fighting for his soul pretty dang hard. First by using both emotion-- telling him that everything had changed because now he had a daughter and that he'd locked his heart and soul in a cage. Then by using logic-- when she told him the cancer is gone and that's it's over and when she challenged him over why everything has to be perfect. Think from her perspective how disorienting it would be to find out that everything you thought was true, was not, and that if the love of your life wasn't such a stubborn, selfless, self-sabotaging martyr that you could have built a family together instead of been separated for 5 years. It's a lot.

On the first watch this doorway scene is where I started to get emotional, but I didn't really lose it and fully cry until Serkan's scene the next day with Engin. For whatever reason that scene hit me hard. Hats off to Anil for his work there, the way his voice broke at times during that conversation really got to me. This type of true friendship scene was something that was sorely missing during the era of the other writers, and it was wonderful to see it back, just when Serkan needed it most. Serkan needed someone to shake him a bit about his fears of dying. I think the writers did a good job here, because while Serkan's neurosis and self-sabotage is maddening, with his history it's believable that he was stuck in a headspace where he really thought he couldn't be a father to Kiraz, or a partner to Eda, because he might up and die on them. I loved how Engin pointed out that Eda and Kiraz would not be the only ones affected if he died and how ridiculous it was for him to lock himself away.

I'm glad we got the scene with the doctor to really get a full glimpse of Serkan's view of his illness and it's also a relief to not only Serkan, but to us viewers that since five years have passed cancer-free he now has the risk of a typical healthy person. Serkan isn't the only one who has hang ups about his health, I think after amnesia and cancer viewers do too!

Finding out that Eda had made videos specifically for Serkan over the years, talking to him directly, hit hard. I wasn't really expecting that. I thought maybe she just had general photos and videos, like any doting parent would have, but the fact that she was always wanting him, documenting Kiraz's life and preparing for a day when he would hopefully take his place as Kiraz's father... wow. On the cynical side it makes it that much harder to believe that she never made more of an effort to tell him once Kiraz was born, but I won't focus on that. Not when the scene was as perfect as it was. Kerem again was stellar, he made me cry buckets. I think since amnesia many of us wanted an emotional response from him, thank goodness this story finally delivered it. The emotions running through him at that moment were overwhelming and Kerem did a fantastic job of portraying all of them, the heartbreak over everything he missed, the joy at seeing moments

from his daughter's life, the regret of not being there and being the partner Eda needed, the pride in the job Eda did in raising their daughter alone, and finally the bittersweet relief that Eda never forgot him.

It was a lot, but it was a good segue to the next scene when Eda calls him frantic because Kiraz went missing. What was clear from those videos was that while Eda, when we first meet her in Sile, appeared on the surface to have everything handled as a single mom, she always really wanted to have Serkan there as her partner. While Kiraz was pining for her dad, Eda was pining for Serkan as well. And we see this displayed in full force when Serkan arrives. Several people try to comfort Eda, including Burak, but she's not having it. However, as soon as Serkan gets there you can almost see the relief hit her in a wave. She's not in this alone anymore. Kiraz's father is there to help. Even if nothing is settled at that moment, she knows she can rely on Serkan and that he will know what to do. Which is supported by the fact that he clearly took charge the moment he found out, calling the authorities, having them begin searches etc.

But while highlighting his competence, conversely can we talk about how incompetently everyone else was at searching for Kiraz? They all acted worried, but did any of them make any real effort to find her? LMAO, they all seemed much more concerned with their own personal dramas. Especially egregious were Engin and Piril. Hello! Your son is clearly trying to tell you where the missing person is! Stop ignoring him. Thank goodness Serkan is very good at finding people.

Of course he found her and our hearts collectively shattered as we watched her trying to send a message to her Baba in space when in reality he was kneeling right there beside her, helping her tie the note to the balloon. If anything else was left to convince Serkan that he is wanted and needed, by both Eda and Kiraz, this situation was it. Even though some careless crew member spoiled the astronaut suit in an unnecessary IG story from the set, (that would have been a really good surprise) it was still satisfying to see this fairy tale play out. Never over "Baba?" and "Happy Birthday, my daughter" and now I can't wait to see Kiraz's reaction that her new friend Serkan Bolat is actually her dad and it should be pretty great to watch the three of them form a family together.

Overall this was the most emotional episodes of the series, and also one of the best.

#Sen Cal Kapimi #Sen Çal Kapımı #edser #serkan bolat #sck discussion #sck episode discussion #edser discussion #sckask #sck 2x43 #sck 2x04 #asklizac #anonymous

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mrsgreenworld · 3 years

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My dear SCK people, how's your week going?

I'm in the mood for talking today so if you are too - ask me a question. Could be Edser / SCK-related or not.

#sen çal kapımı ask #sck ask #sen çal kapımı discussion #sck discussion #edser discussion

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sweetrupturedlight · 3 years

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Summary of episode 17 via SCK NEWS on twitter.

#sen cal kapimi #sen çal kapımı #edser #serkan bolat #eda yildiz #the last paragraph???#let’s discuss

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originalhybridloverfics-backup · 2 years

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The One That Got Away

Summary: Serkan Bolat didn't stop or confess his love to Eda in episode 11 and she left for Italy. Two years later, she's back and this time he has different plans.

A/N: Okay, first I want to make it clear while I do write Edser this one is not my story. This gem was written by @lalehbalefire on twitter who has written these amazing concepts. This one was the first I read and just made me want to expand it a little by putting it in a fanfic form.

All credit for this work of art goes to @lalehbalefire.

I hope you enjoy her story as much as I did.

Businessman, Serkan Bolat who recently took over his dad's firm, now successfully handles two companies, but all he feels is empty. He could have anything in the world, but he stands like somebody stole every penny of his. Eyes with no light, heart with no peace, and like a walking dead body.

An empty shell.

Looking up at the stars from the garden in his home only makes Serkan think of what he lost.

“Iyi geceler, Eda Yıldız,” he murmured, regret and guilt for not stopping her have been eating him alive. Two years since she left, two years of wishing he had a time machine so he could go back, hold her hand and hold her in his arms. Missing her and wanting her every minute for two years.

Looking at the stars and wishing he would’ve done things differently. Done whatever he had to do to keep the most important star of all.

He knew she loved him. He was no fool to misread her brown eyes but a fool to surrender and let his logic win. She was a risk and his heart wanted it but he felt like a coward. Or maybe he didn't stop her because what if he stopped her and she'd still abandon him? Like everyone else?

Staring at the photo from their fake engagement, he didn’t think he would have survived a rejection after opening his heart.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“Melek?” Serkan had rushed over after Melo had ended a call with him abruptly. It hadn’t sat right with him. For obvious reasons.

“Enişte…” Melo said in surprise to see him outside the office at this time.

“What happened? You said something about Eda and hung up? I canceled all my meetings & came. What happened?” Serkan asked.

“Your Eda is coming back,” Melo told him, her smile wide.

“Shh-..e-..WHAT?” Serkan couldn’t believe it. He smiled. FINALLY. The day he has been waiting for. He will get his ‘the one that got away’ back.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Serkan Bolat has been in contact with Melek and Ceren for the last two years.

For what? For Eda. He calls them, they meet up for lunch every week to discuss when she's coming and the best friends fill him in on what she's been up to.

He had grown close to the both of them in that time, feeling connected to Eda through her friends.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

When he arrived at her garden, there she was looking even more beautiful than he remembered. Her hair was pulled back with a few tendrils of her hair, falling around her face.

Deli Kız, he thought, smiled, looking at her beautiful self, talking to her plants.

The first time he saw her after two years and she left him breathless. He couldn't even utter a hi. He just stood there looking at her for ten minutes, gathering the courage to talk to her.

Eda looked up, feeling a prickling sensation, something telling her she wasn’t alone and couldn’t believe her eyes. “S..-Serkan?”

“Meraba.” Serkan greeted, not moving, afraid if he did, he would stumble at her feet like a nervous schoolboy.

A long pause, she stared at him and couldn't believe he was right in front of her. “How did you find me?”

“I have my sources,” Serkan answered.

“Why are you here?” Eda asked, standing, dusting dirt from her clothes.

“You wished maybe one day we would meet in one of your gardens. Here I am.” Serkan smiled, his eyes intensely on her. He took a step toward her, finally feeling like he could move closer without embarrassing himself.

darn! he remembered, her heart flipped.

She took a step away from him as he drew closer.

“Where are you going?” Serkan questioned.

“Uh..-I have a meeting.” Eda turns to leave.

She was running away from him. Her heart was beating like a freaking manic and she feared he might hear it.

The more distance she put between them, the better.

“No, you're coming with me,” Serkan informed her, quickly catching up with her.

“Serkan! Don't you have meetings?” Eda said in protest.

“Cancelled them all. PLEASE?” he insisted, falling into step with her.

“WHAT?”

Eda couldn’t believe it, the shock of it had her surrendering, allowing Serkan to take her by the arm and lead her toward his car. A car she was very familiar with and brought back memories.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda soon found herself in the passenger seat of Serkan’s car, the top-down just how she had always liked it.

“So, my Eda, where do you want to go?” Serkan inquired.

She stared at him in disbelief.

My Eda? With that smile on his face? Was she dreaming?

“Eda?” Serkan said, not sure if she heard him.

“What did you say before?” Eda asked.

“My Eda, where do you want to go?” Serkan repeated his earlier question.

“Uh...anywhere,” Eda answered, her mind elsewhere.

MY EDA? TWICE? Would you look at his confidence? She thought.

Twenty minutes later, Eda sat across from Serkan in a high-class cafe.

“You remember the time we had lunch in a similar place?” Eda asked. “You were asking me to not talk all the time but I agree I talked too much.”

“And now I wish you'd never stop talking to me,” said Serkan.

“Serkan?” Eda looked at him in concern. He was so different, it was unusual.

“Yeah?” Serkan asked.

“Are you alright?” Eda questioned.

“Why?” Serkan asked, not understanding why she would be asking him that.

“You seem different,” Eda answered, speaking her thoughts.

“I have changed,” Serkan told her.

Eda was unsure how to respond and said nothing.

“So, do you have a boyfriend?” Serkan asked, after a beat of silence.

“How is Selin?” Eda asked in return..

“Selin?” Serkan repeated. “I don't know.”

“Last time I left you were with her.” Eda reminded.

“I was not and I am not with her,” Serkan said, wanting to make that clear.

“Why?” Eda asked, frowning. Hadn’t that been the whole point of their arrangement in the past?

“Is there anyone in your life?” Serkan asked instead of answering, not wanting to talk about Selin. She was unimportant.

“You have no right to ask me that.” Eda declared, looking out at the ocean from the window view.

“I want to know who's against me, I mean who is my replacement.” Serkan insisted.

Eda looked back at him, away from the water. “Replacement? Serkan, we were never real.”

“But do you wish we were?” Serkan wondered. Did she think about how things could be different if they had been real?

“I was never your perfect woman,” Eda answered, forcing down the sadness of the truth she believed.

Her words hurt him like a slap to the face. “Are you trying to hurt me?”

It wasn’t humanly possible for any woman to be more perfect than her, let alone perfect for him.

“I am answering your question, Serkan. We're sitting here like nothing ever happened and being so friendly. Why?” Eda questioned. “The two months ended two years ago!...” Eda’s voice grew stronger with the anger coursing through her body. “We shouldn't be sitting here. You said, after two months we won't ever see each other again. Stand with your words, Serkan!”

“I know you're angry with me. I know I shouldn't have sto-”

“Stop.” Eda cut him off, the emotion in her voice closing off. “Please. Go home. Forget we ever met.”

She stood not giving Serkan a chance to say anything else and left, leaving Serkan behind.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Later Serkan got together with Engin, needing someone to talk to.

“What are your plans?” Engin asked as they played a round of pool.

“There are no plans. There is only one plan. Making her forgive me and then making her happy with me.” Serkan answered, taking a shot and sinking the ball in the pocket.

“It's gonna be hard. She's still mad at you.” Engin reminded him unnecessarily.

“Exactly. Mad at me because she still cares, and that was what I wanted to see. That's what Ceren said.” Serkan said. After seeing her anger he is more determined than ever.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda was out with her girls, needing something to take her mind off Serkan.

“What are your plans now?” Ceren asked her friend.

“Only one plan. Stay away from him at any cost. I won't fall for that pretty face again.” said Eda determined. She would not let him break her heart for a second time.

“Pretty face?” Ceren grinned. “Admit that you're happy to see him.”

“Yani sure. It was good. He's more handsome now. I almost lost myself.” Eda admitted. “So, fresh, young, and sweet.”

It would be hard to resist him but she was strong-willed she believed she could do it.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

The next morning, it did not surprise Eda to see Serkan. She was sitting outside in a hotel garden she was working the landscaping on when she spotted him.

“Are you following me?” She accused.

“Coincidence,” Serkan answered, coming toward her.

“Who is feeding you my information? Melo?” Eda questioned, eyes narrowing suspiciously.

“Oh yeah, how's Melek?” Serkan asked, pretending not to have spoken to her recently.. “It's been a while since we talked.”

“Liar,” Eda said, sending him a flat glare.

“You know I love how we keep meeting. Must be fate,” said Serkan with a grin.

“Must be stalking,” Eda corrected.

“Allah Allah. Now you're hurting me.” Said Serkan.

“What do you want?” Eda asked, forcing a tired sigh.

“Work with me,” Serkan responded.

“Hell no,” Eda’s answer was immediate.

“Eda, please. I need you.” Serkan pleaded.

“I knew you were gonna do this. You always do this to make me stay closer,” said Eda in exasperation.

“I don't have a landscape architect. I need one immediately and you're my best option.” Serkan told her, hoping to persuade her.

“Nope. I can't,” said Eda, turning him down.

“So you're not willing to work with someone who always supported your work, appreciated it, and taught you?” Serkan questioned.

“What? Are you trying to emotionally blackmail me?” Eda asked in disbelief.

“Are you rejecting me?” Serkan asked in return.

“Serkan. Don't do this.” Eda protested. “We're not in contract anymore. We shouldn't do this.”

Serkan felt a wave of irritation. “Stop bringing up the contract.”

“Fine,” Eda replies.

“Let's try again,” said Serkan, surprising her.

“T-..ry what?” Eda stammered.

“Our relationship.” Serkan clarified.

“W-.hat.” Eda looked at him, taken aback. He couldn’t be serious.

“I mean, let's work together. Let's be civil to each other and mend this cold relationship between us? Be friends?” Serkan suggested.

“You're definitely not okay,” said Eda, certain of this. No one person could change so much.

Serkan gently picked the flower from her hair, surprising her further.

There was a fluttering in her stomach like butterflies that could not be trusted. .

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Later that night, Eda spent the night at home with her friends, telling them about her recent encounters with the ever frustrating Serkan Bolat.

“He is driving me crazy. He calls me MY EDA TWICE, says all the sweetest things, he's being so gentle, he has this beautiful, I mean, weird smile on his face all the time and he gently picks a FLOWER from MY hair. WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM? WHY ISN'T HE BEING SERKAN BOLAT?” Eda demanded. He was nothing like the man she remembered him to be and it was frustrating.

Melo listened as she ranted, letting her friend get it off her chest.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Later, Eda was in the kitchen with her friend Ceren.

“If I stay in a room with him for more than an hour, my heart will be screaming his name again and I don't want that,” said Eda, sitting on the counter as Ceren made tea.

“Serkan has been through a lot since you left. I know it's hard but help him this time, please. He has started to smile for the first time in two years. Please.” said Ceren, pleading with her friend. In the years that had passed, Serkan had become a good friend to her and Melo. He was a good man and she wanted her friend to give him a chance.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“I heard she's back.” Aydan Bolat said to her son when she saw him at home.

“She is,” Serkan confirmed. He didn’t need his mother to use Eda’s name to know who she meant. Her eyes said it all and he knew from her pinched expression that she wasn’t happy about it.

“You should stay aw-..”

“No, I won't.” Serkan cut her off abruptly. His mother had never liked Eda and preferred Selin but he no longer cared for her opinion where Eda was concerned. “I will not stay away from Eda. You have always disliked her, tried to keep me away from her. I listened to you the last time but I won't anymore. I don't care about your opinions about her, I care about mine now.”

Aydan stared at her son in disbelief but it was clear by the stony look in his eyes and the stubborn set of his jaw that he meant every word he said.

Aydan wasn’t sure what more she could say or do to convince him Eda wasn’t right for him. She hoped he didn’t come to regret his choices.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda and Serkan meet again in the park. Completely coincidental.

She tries to hide, but he still catches her like old times. With Sirius’s help, of course.

“I am surprised to see you here,” Eda said in greeting.

“We come here every week,” said Serkan, rubbing the top of Sirius’s head affectionately.

“Every week for two years?” Eda asked.

“Yes? Sirius misses you a lot and loves this place. I think it reminds him of you.” Serkan told her, a smile playing on his lips.

“Wow.” Eda knelt down to show Sirius some affection, much to the dog’s happiness.

“Sometimes we sit here for hours. I have actually fallen asleep on this bench many times,” said Serkan, sitting down on the bench, Sirius settling at his feet.

“You slept here?” Eda asked in surprise, taking the seat next to him on the bench. She tried to imagine it but couldn’t picture him, sleeping in a park even by accident. “Serkan...”

“Why are you surprised?” Serkan asked.

“Because it's not like you,” answered Eda. “And I thought you'd forget everything, me and my things,”

“I remember everything. I can't forget you ever.” Serkan swore, his voice quiet in his honesty.

Eda admitted to herself that this new Serkan she was getting to know had a way with words and knew just what to say. “Good night, Serkan. I'll see you tomorrow,”

“Tomorrow?” he couldn’t hide his surprise and Eda smiled. “See you,” he said and watched her go. He wanted to sit and talk to her, never stop talking to her like in Antalya where they talked into the night, but she was being distant and it was bothering him.

The next morning she arrived at Art Life as promised.

“You're here,” Serkan said, standing to greet her.

“I am.” she smiled.

“Thank you,” Serkan ducked his head, feeling his cheeks heat.

“Are you blushing?” Eda smiled wider.

“Maybe,” Serkan admitted.

“I came to work with you but I have four rules,” Eda informed him, she needed him to know she had conditions. It was the only way this would work.

“Should I make a contract?” Serkan asked, with a glint in his eyes.

“Serkan, I am serious.” Eda insisted. “#1 We will behave as professionally as we can.”

“Agreed,” said Serkan.

“#2 you will stop looking at me like that,” said Eda.

“Like what?” Asked Serkan.

“Like the way, you're looking at me now,” said Eda, her pulse thumping from the heat of his gaze.

“What way?” asked Serkan, the look only intensifying.

“The look that confuses me,” Eda answered.

“Are you scared to be confused?” asked Serkan, stepping closer to her, invading her space. “Don't be.”

“#3 When I ask you something, you will answer me honestly. Promise?” Said Eda, trying not to let his close proximity affect her.

“Promise.” Serkan agreed.

“#4 This is temporary. I will only stay until you find someone or I find someone for you. You will not stop me.” Eda told him firmly.

“When we find someone, where will you go?” Serkan questioned with a frown.

“I am only here for two months,” Eda told him.

His face fell and his heart sank. Time was ticking and she could clearly read his sadness.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

As they started to work she was shocked as he constantly tried to touch her softly.

Well, who could blame him? It's been two years.

Constantly making jokes, making her laugh, and flirting with her. Serkan Bolat? And? Flirting? Shivers were running down her spine.

“Come on. Let's have dinner.” Serkan suggested, after a long day of working side by side.

“I am not hungry,” Eda said, declining the offer.

“I ordered fries.” he insisted.

She stared at him with a beautiful smile on her. “You what?”

“I ordered fries for you?” Serkan replied.

“But you always stopped me from eating them?” Said Eda.

“Maybe I love them now?” replied Serkan with a charming smile.

More shock, more surprises. He plays his finest game.

Serkan led her up to his office and it had been completely transformed with a long table with lit candles and beautifully arranged flowers.

“Serkan?” Eda looked up at him.

“Efendim,” said Serkan.

“What is this?” Eda asked.

“Dinner?” Serkan answered uncertainly.

“Dim lighting, flowers, and candles?” Eda questioned. “Looks like a date.”

A beautifully romantic one.

“Do you want a date?” Serkan asked without missing a beat.

“N..-o I mean this is beautiful,” said Eda.

“This is nowhere near how we will go on a date. This is nothing. Consider it a welcome dinner.” said Serkan, pulling her chair out for her.

If this was nothing Eda didn’t think her resolve could survive against him.

The dinner goes amazing and Eda feels her heart pull her closer to Serkan despite all her reservations.

Over the next few days, they begin the search for a landscape architect and he rejected every candidate but he noticed how she possessively sat closer to him and was jealous of every girl. And well, his heart did flips. Logic, mind, and whatever was buried somewhere and his heart was living its best.

“You're jealous,” said Serkan when they were alone again. An amused smile pulled at his lips.

“What? No.” Eda denied. “Okay, first of all, stop being so direct and straightforward. What happened to never speaking up about your emotions? You're being weird.”

“And you're avoiding my statement.” Serkan pointed out.

“I AM NOT JEALOUS.” Eda denied vehemently.

“Bet? If I prove you're jealous. You will go to dinner with me “bet” Serkan challenged and moved behind her, his body almost pressing against hers. “You don't need to be jealous, Eda Yildiz. Nobody ever took your place and nobody ever can. Your hold is stronger than you think and the only hold I'd like to tightly hold me.” he whispered these words in her ear and walked away.

The shivers? Oh yeah.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“I need your password, Serkan,” said Eda, needing to log into his laptop.

They were at Art Life working on a project for a new client.

“Give it to me,” Serkan said, gesturing for her to pass his laptop to him.

“You don't trust me?” asked Eda.

“I do but it's..-personal?” said Serkan.

“Tell. Me. Now.” Eda said, looking him dead in the eye. Now needing to know what it was.

“July nine is the password,” Serkan answered, never able to deny her.

“July nine?” Eda repeated. “What happened on July nine?”

Why was it so significant?

Then she remembered. It's the date of when they met for the first time in the university.

She smiled. Oh Serkan Bolat, what are you up to? She thought. That date is his password? She felt confused but so special. He knows how to make a woman feel on top of the world. The little details were capturing her heart again, and he knew it.

And by the look in his eyes, the smile pulling at his lips, he loved it.

He was good. Too good.

“Where is Selin?” Eda asked, needing to remind herself there were reasons she was protecting her heart.

“Selin?” Serkan repeated. “I don't know.”

“Why aren't you guys together? Leyla said, she left as soon as I left.” Eda inquired.

“Yeah,” Serkan answered.

“Didn’t you go after her the day I left?” Eda prodded.

“No, I didn't. She was waiting in the restaurant. I was somewhere else,” he told her.

“Where?” Eda inquired.

“Outside the airport,” Serkan answered.

“You came after me?” Eda asked in complete surprise.

“I sat in the parking for hours until your plane landed in Italy,” Serkan confessed..

“Why?” asked Eda.

“Didn't have the courage to stop you, so I waited. Maybe you didn't leave. Maybe you'll come out of the airport.” Serkan continued.

“But I didn't. Why did you want me to stop?” asked Eda.

“How long will you pretend like you don't know?” Serkan asked her. He had done everything to make his feelings clear. She had to know and was now only choosing not to acknowledge it.

Eda didn’t answer. She couldn’t. It was better to pretend as if she hadn’t heard him.

The next day Serkan met with Melo and Ceren at Art Life.

“What's the progress?” Serkan asked.

Ceren and Melo wanted their friends to be happy and were more than willing to help Serkan win Eda’s heart.

“She's impressed but confused.” Answered Ceren. “So it's time to take a big step.”

“What should I do?” Serkan questioned.

“Kiss her,” Melo answered with a wide smile.

“Ask her out,” answered Ceren.

“KISS HER ON A HOT BALLOON,” Melo answered, her excitement growing.

“Melo? Calm down,” said Serkan, though her excitement was infectious.. “We have wasted enough years. This time, jump straight to marriage.”

“WHAT!” Ceren exclaimed.

“YES!” Melo exclaimed, jumping up and down in her excitement.

”Serkan, NO.” Ceren protested.

“Ceren, why?” Serkan asked, not understanding why she wasn’t on board. “I think it's a good idea. My intentions are pure, so why waste time on dating?” Serkan rationalized.

“Serkan, please, first confess your feelings, explain why you didn't stop her, ask her out on a date, take it slow and easy?” Ceren suggested, believing moving too fast would be a mistake on Serkan's behalf. “Alright. You'll scare her this way.”

“Fine. Thank you!” said Serkan. He appreciated input even if he didn’t agree with it but the last thing he wanted to do was scare Eda away.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Serkan had managed to convince Eda to come over to his home and was making her a meal. It was a little hard to focus, she was dressed in a little black dress that left him speechless when she first arrived.

“Eda, would you taste this?” Serkan asked. He was cooking a sauce, he held a spoon with the sauce on it out toward her.

Eda leaned over, taking a bite from the spoon he held. “It's delicious,”

And he eats the rest of the sauce from the spoon she ate with.

“Wh..-what are you doing?” Eda asked.

“Eating?” Serkan answered uncertainly.

“From the same spoon?” asked Eda. “You hate doing that.”

“I still do, but not with you.” answered Serkan. She was the exception. She would always be the exception.

Goosebumps? Yeah, she needed a doctor at this point.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda was with her friend, confiding in Melo. She was finding it harder and harder to keep up her walls of protection.

“There are days when he's always smiling for absolutely no reason. He even smiles at Erdem sometimes. Can you believe it? But then sometimes I would find him looking at me with sad, broken eyes like he has lost something. Like it's hurting him but he covers it up.” Said Eda, her heart pulling just thinking about Serkan.

“He did lose,” said Melo, the two friends at home, having a heart to heart.

“What did he lose?” Eda asked, sitting across from her.

“So much.” Melo answered but not saying more, she didn’t want to betray Serkan’s confidence.

“Melo, tell me,” Eda insisted. It was clear to her that Melo and Serkan had a close bond of friendship.

“It's not my story to tell but be easy on him, will you?” Melo requested of her oldest friend.

“Tell me something, has he been talking to you in these two years?” Eda wondered, wanting confirmation of her suspicion of their closeness.

“Every day. You know, I have been really alone. Ceren was here, but she was really busy with her cases,...” Melo began. “You were gone, but he was here for me. You know, Enişte went with me for my interview. He sat outside for more than two hours without complaining. When I didn't get the job, he actually shouted ‘you lost a gem’. He was there for aunt, for Ceren and we were there for him.”

Serkan had become one of Melo’s closest friends.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Serkan went to a business dinner. He was not expecting to see Eda out with another man. His stomach twisted with something dark and ugly.

Meeting Eda’s eyes across the room, and seeing the way her own eyes had narrowed when they landed on his business associate.

Serkan approached her when she was alone, excusing himself from his own companion.

“Who's that man?” Serkan asked

“Who's that girl?” Eda asked, the sight of the woman made her want to pull Serkan out of the woman’s reach.

“She is a journalist. We're doing an interview.” Serkan answered.

“With cocktails?” Eda questioned, doubtfully.

“Who's that man?” Serkan asked again, needing an answer.

“A client. I am designing his garden.” Eda answered.

“So, it's not a date?” Serkan asked.

“Are you jealous, Serkan?” Eda's eyes narrowed. “I thought the bet was about me? Maybe dinner will turn into a date who knows,”

There was a challenge in her eyes. One Serkan was ready to answer.

“You're playing a dangerous game, Eda Yıldız,” Serkan warned, seeing her smirk.

“I am not scared of burning,” Eda said, her eyes shining with a challenge for him to say something, do something, anything.

“But you will be after I put ice on the burns,” said Serkan, his voice filled with intent. Low and seductive and dark.

“Uh-...you will w-..what?” Eda replies, his words throwing her.

And he walked away, leaving her heart to beat against her ribs like a drum.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

As she started to dance with the client, he saw red. Gone was the sweet smiley understanding boy. He couldn’t stand to see the man touching her, even if it was just to dance. It was too much. Serkan Bolat got up, punched the man, and stormed out because he feared he would do worse.

Eda stared after him, shocked. Serkan had never been a violent man. She didn’t know it was possible to push him so far.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

The next day Serkan came to see Eda. “I need to talk to you.”

“Talk? You have any idea what you did last night?” Eda demanded. “What was that behavior?”

“I apologize. I shouldn't have done that but-”

“BUT WHAT?” Eda cut him off, not wanting excuses. “I come back here after two years, you pull me into working with you, you're all sweet and good with me and now you're jealous?”

“With what right are you doing this? Pretending like nothing ever happened?” Eda continued. “Let me go, I can't stay in one place with a man who can't make someone stay because of his big ego,”

“If I didn't let you go, you wouldn't have lived your dream in Italy.” Serkan argued.

“So you did me a favor?” Eda asked, bristling.

“I admit that letting you go was the biggest mistake and yes I am jealous. I was jealous because he was looking at you the way…” Serkan trailed off.

“Complete your sentence.” Eda told him.

“The way I look at you.” Serkan finished.

Ceren's words ‘take it slow’ were ringing in his head, he uttered fuck it and kissed her, pulling her in close.

It was better than he remembered. Her lips were soft and the feel of her against him was like coming home.

A five-second pause as they broke the kiss, Serkan waited holding his breath for her reaction. Eda touch a hand to her lips, they were tingling.

Screw it, she thought and grabbed and kissed him just as passionately.

Serkan’s arm bounded around her waist as their lips moved in a dance only they knew, her soft curves pressing into his hard ones.

Eda’s arms came around his neck as he tangled his hand in her hair, surrendering to the passion inside of them.

Goosebumps? Fireworks!

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

And here came the disappearing part. Eda Yıldız completely disappeared for days which really scared him thinking what if he was wrong and she didn't have feelings for him but why did she kiss back? Confusion, sadness, and whatnot!

Eda was quiet when she was out with friends, Serkan let the loneliness take hold of him, seeping deep in his soul.

Neither could stop thinking about the other, about the way that kiss had felt right. Felt like their souls had finally come home.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“Eda?” Serkan said into his phone, the distance between them becoming too much for him to bear. He had to do something.

“Serkan, meraba,” Eda greeted over the line, her voice contained, even though her heart ached just to hear him.

“Can you come over?” Serkan requested.

“Serkan I can't,” Eda told him. She couldn’t trust herself to be alone with him. Just hearing his voice was too much, feeling her chest tightened at just the sound of it.

“Please.” Serkan pleaded, his green eyes shining, a ball of emotion threatening to clog his throat. “I have to show you something.”

“I am only coming over because your voice sounds bad,” Eda told him. He sounded so broken. So lost. It worried her.

“I am waiting.” replied Serkan, ending the call.

Eda looked at her phone, feeling a sense of urgency in her heart.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda arrived at Serkan's home and he led her into his home.

“Serkan, What is this?” Eda asked, walking into a room. She was stunned to see it is filled with things related to her and their previous relationship.

“I call this ‘the Yıldız room’ . I kept everything about you in this room. The things you left in my house, your gifts, the cards of the restaurant we went to etc etc. In the last two years, I couldn't find peace anywhere but here. I slept here some nights…” Serkan stood in the doorway.

Eda continued to stare around in disbelief and awe. She couldn’t believe he had kept everything.

“Staying close to you, your things was good to me,” Serkan confessed..

“Why?” asked Eda, turning around to face him.

“Ceren said to take it slow and I already messed that up by kissing you. I don't want to scare you. I never showed this room to anyone but showed this to you to tell you that’s how important you're to me. Don't run from me please.” Serkan pleaded. Needing her to see how much he cared for her, how much he needed and loved her.

“Thank you, Serkan, for being open with me.” Eda wrapped her arms around him and Serkan welcomed the embrace.

And they sat down and talked about an hour or two about his work, her work, Italy, and all about the last two years. With his flirty comments and shy smiles, they communicated and Eda felt her heart opening up to Serkan and she welcomed it.

She no longer felt like she needed to protect her heart from him.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Art Life threw a party and Serkan Bolat threw a big surprise for Eda Yıldız. He might have taken a step back a while ago but he was ready to take two steps ahead now.

He shocked everyone when he got on stage with the live band and took control.

If the sun's upset and the sky goes cold then if the clouds get heavy and start to fall I really need somebody to call my own. I wanna be somebody to someone someone to you.

Eda stared on in wonder as he controlled the stage, pointing towards her as he played and sang the someone to you part on stage in front of everyone for her. His voice sang to her soul.

Never in a million years did she ever think he would play his music on stage for everyone to hear.

When he came off the stage he walked right for her. She was all he could see.

“I am surprised. Didn't you hate playing guitar and singing in front of people?” Eda wondered.

“It was for you.” Serkan answered. Everything he did was for her.

“You're surprising me more and more everyday,” said Eda. She was falling for him with every new moment.

“I can do anything for a smile on your face, Eda,” Serkan replies.

“Am I that important for you?” Eda questioned.

“The most.” he answered, he gripped her waist lightly. “Come with me. I have to tell you something.”

Serkan took her somewhere private so they could be alone.

“I didn't want to tell you like this. I had planned a big gesture but I can't take it anymore. I will definitely buy you millions of flowers after this. But remember this, you're not forced to answer me now. Take your time alright?” said Serkan.

“Okay,” said Eda, unsure what he was going to do next. This Serkan had become unpredictable. She never knew what he was planning.

“I..-..I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU.” Serkan confessed with all the love in his heart. “I have always been in love with you since the day I first saw you. I didn't stop you, I know. I was scared of rejection. I didn't have the courage. I considered myself not worthy of you. My childhood fears, traumas, and insecurities stopped me but they don't anymore.” said Serkan, pouring his heart out.

“You're the crown to my heart. I want to love you, I want you to love me, I want to kiss you, hold you, protect you, be a companion in your happiness and sorrows. Until death I want you to be the first person I see when I open my eyes every morning. You understand?” Serkan spoke, every word pulled from his chest.

Tears filled Eda’s eyes, her heart soaring with every word he spoke.

“I will walk away now because I want to give you the space to think but first please allow me to kiss you because otherwise, I will go fucking crazy. Please.” Serkan pleaded like he would die if he didn’t kiss her.

“Kiss me you idiot,” she said, wanting nothing more and so he did.

Eda cupped his face in her hands, her lips moving in sync with hers, pouring every emotion she was feeling into that one soulful kiss that she felt would consume her and she would gladly welcome it.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

The next day Aptekin had come to Art Life to see his son and discuss things he heard. Serkan couldn’t say he was happy to see his father. He wasn’t.

“She's back.” said Aptekin.

“She has a name. It's Eda.” Serkan defended, his jaw clenching.

“You shouldn't be pulling her into your life again. You did two years ago, lost yourself, got distracted from work when work should be your life.” Aptekin lectured, making his disapproval clear.

“Work is my passion, not my life. You ignored your family and loved one's for work but I won't.” Serkan declared, jaw clenching in anger.

“I love her, baba.” Serkan told his father. “I will build a home, a family with her. I will keep her and my children on my top priorities unlike you.”

“You have changed.” Aptekin accused.

“Maybe this was my real self. My inner self which I have been suppressing for years. This is the real me.” Said Serkan.

Serkan refused to be the man that his father was.

And Eda heard everything, standing behind the conference door. The words Serkan spoke, blowing the door to her heart wide open.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda found a gift waiting for her with a note attached sitting in on her garden table.

“Günaydın Peri Kız. I know how much you love roses so I am sending a rose for my rose. Hey, light of my world, we are on borrowed time from the creator so allow me to make this little time magical for you. P.S: i know it's unbelievable but I wrote this note by my hand ;) love you!”

Serkan had written in the note.

The smile it brought to her face was soft, affectionate.

Oh, how she loved this man and could no longer deny it.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Eda sat on her couch with Melo, leaning into her friend a smile pulling at her lips.

“He sent me a rose with a handwritten note. He called me his rose. His rose. Serkan Bolat's rose. I can't believe all my dreams are coming true.” said Eda happily to Melo.

“What are you gonna do now?” Melo wondered, enjoying seeing her friend so happy.

“He loves me I love him, it's time for me to take a step this time,” said Eda, ready to accept love into her heart.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“Meraba,” Eda greeted, walking into Serkan’s office the next day with a smile that radiated warmth.

“Selam.” Serkan returned, standing to greet her.

“i loved the rose....-” Eda told him.

“And I love mine,” he replies gazing adoringly at her.

“Uh..-and the note as well. Thank you,” said Eda with a soft smile, pulling at her lips.

“Anything for you,” Serkan responded.

“Don't you owe me a meal?” Eda asked.

“I do?” Serkan questioned, his brow furrowing in confusion.

“We were both jealous, right?” asked Eda. “So...”

“You're admitting you were jealous?” Serkan asked a grin threatening to break forth.

“Why would I kiss you back if I wasn't?” asked Eda, a smile pulling at her lips.

“My house.” Serkan told her with a charming grin. “7pm.”

Eda smiled so full of happiness it took Serkan’s breath away. Breathtaking.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“You're so beautiful,” Serkan complimented when Eda arrived at his home. He led her inside where there was a table spread of food.

“I can't believe you made all of this for me with your own hands. Are you sure Seyfi didn't help?” Eda questioned, impressed.

“Seyfi is on vacation and I can do anything for you,” Serkan responded, taking a seat next to her on the couch.

“For example?” Eda inquired, turning her body toward him.

“I can make you breakfast for the rest of my life, I can buy you flowers…” Serkan told her, leaning in close, his warm breath fanning out against her neck.

“Even if I have no money. I can do things that you have never imagined for you...with you.” Serkan whispered, seductively.

“Serkan!” Eda exclaimed, desire coursing through her.

“Efendim?” replied Serkan.

“Now I am getting shy,” said Eda, her cheeks flushing with color.

“Allah Allah. Am I giving you butterflies, Eda Yıldız?” Serkan kisses her cheek, continues to her neck, and nuzzles softly. “Should I continue?”

“Ye..-n..-o.” Eda was flustered and couldn’t think straight.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

“Why did you take down my hair?” Asked Eda, as she and Serkan held Eda beneath the stars in his arms.

“Because I love it when it’s free when I run my fingers through those silky shiny hairs when they fall on your shoulders when they fall on your face giving me the opportunity to tuck them behind your ear.” Said Serkan.

“I never imagined you a romantic,” Eda commented, breathing him in, his nose brushing hers.

“I am only romantic for one woman in this whole world and that's you,” replied Serkan, his lips skimming her cheek.

“Serkan, I am not the perfect woman, why do you love me so much?” Eda questioned.

“Perfect?” Serkan repeated. “You're magnificent. You're a wonder and my heart has decided to beat for you. I can't explain it.”

“I turned back on the airport....” Eda confessed, gazing into his eyes, the love there encouraging her to spill all the secrets she held back from him.

“I almost reached the door but then,... I madly loved you but I thought even if you loved me, I wasn't the one for you but now I am here.” she smiled up at him as the back of his knuckles trailed across the soft skin of her cheek. “I am never leaving you because being in your arms is my place only, sevgilim. I love you, always have, and always will.” Eda confessed as he stared back at her lovingly.

“S...-Serkan...-uh be-d...-ro..om.” Eda breathed, the look in his eyes had her wanting for more. For everything from him and wanting to give him every piece of her.

“Don't worry baby, we'll go there too. Let's move to the couch for now.” Serkan told her.

And Serkan Bolat got to live his fantasies and dreams as Eda Yildız got on top of him as he lay on the couch, their mouths fusing together in a heated kiss, hands worshipping, expressing their love.

The End.

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"Welcome Eda!"

Ehm Balca, dear, this is not your home so please don't behave like it is... Ahh my nerves.

And more the earrings tactic... Soo childish. I really can't stand her.

Loved that Eda literally throw the popcorn into Serkan's belly😂

And Sirius at the end, I love my son.

Honestly... I really love Ferit and Ceren together. They are so cute, and I love how Ferit is trying to correct his mistake. He confesses that he is love with her, that he constantly thinks about her. So sweet.

Serkan telling Eda that the first time they met she used the same tactic of Balca because she forget her bag in his car. I love flirty Serkan and the fact that he remembers everything about Eda and their relationship.

The bet, honestly this is only the pretext so that Serkan can take Eda to Paris and have a romantic moment so the two of them.

"What does Efe wants?"

"You heard. I said I'll talk to him in the office."

"How strange. Not answering anyone's calls, and doesn't answer questions. But he calls you."

"I still work for him Serkan. Did you forgot? Okay, let's move on to our bet. Perhaps you agree that I won."

"I've told you. Nothing is clear yet."

"What has to happen for you to understand? How much clearer should it be? She ordered the same dish."

"Maybe."

"She said she was interested in the stars."

"Everyone loves stars."

"This was not enough, she also said 'Love' looking into your eyes Serkan."

"I think when she talked about love she was thinking about another person Eda."

"She answered by looking at you."

"Who else Eda? There were two people in front of her. Either you or me. Should she look at the salt shaker?"

"Either you are really stupid, or you pretend not to understand. Okay. It won't last long. It is seen, in a couple of days she will already confess her love to you."

"And you will win the bet right?"

"Of course. It's not my business."

"I agree."

"At the end of the day, what matters is how you respond to Balca's attention."

"You're right. This is a special topic that only concerns me and Balca. This is between us."

"Between you? There is something? Then I will call her."

"Eda sit down please. You..."

"I'm not jealous of you Serkan Bolat."

"You're not jealous... Really?"

"Think for yourself what could have been. Is this funny?"

"Okay... But I'm jealous of you like crazy. What to do about it?"

"You crossed the boundaries again. We'd better have coffee in the office."

"Let's have coffe here."

"I have something important to discuss with Efe. We will have coffee in the office."

"Efe can wait."

"Then I'll send him a message."

"No emoji."

This was hilarious. Eda kicking Serkan under the table and Balca was obviously flirting all the time. I loved Eda expression, she was so jealous. Serkan is soo smart, I think that he is well aware that Balca is flirting with him and he pretend not to see in order to push Eda to near to him. My smart babe.

Engin and Piril... I really like them. They are opposite of each other but they are so in love. And I think their love is actually more stronger that the difference they have. And they take out the best part of each other.

"As if there is an invisible connection between them."

Balca, dear, believe me there is... There is. So better not to put your nose between Eda and Serkan because nothing will change.

"Your coffee Eda Yildiz. Much better now. When you aren't stressed, you're becoming even more beautiful."

"Don't stress me out then."

"I don't."

This moment was so sweet and romantic. Obviously ruined by Balca. And then when Eda takes his coffee mug I was laughing out loud. Love that my girl is marching HER territory.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING BALCA?! I think she is really stupid because of course by removing the paper in the dossier Serkan will lose faith in Eda but you're damaging everyone and the holding too. She's so silly. And Balca even said that she felt hurt by seeing Eda and Serkan close the night before... Darling you know him for two days what the hell???? I hate her really.

Soo the interview and the photoshoot aren't enough... Balca you aren't spending too much time alone with Serkan and you even ask him to get a photo together and post it... Balca age 33... Balca real age 10.

"Well, until I'm 100% sure, this bet will continue Eda."

"What else should happen to make you 100% sure? What else? I'm just wondering."

"For example... When she look at me I have to feel that everything inside of her melts... When she's trying not to show her excitement... I have to see it by the way she look away... And when she try to stand firm... I have to see that her heart starts to beat faster... In her breath, in her voice, in her scent, even in her veins... I must feel this love."

"Serkan..."

"When she says my name... I must feel everything inside of her tremble."

TOO MUCH HOTNESS IN THIS SCENE🔥

Serkan reads her like a book... Honestly I don't know what to say about this scene... It speaks for itself. And plus new Serkan is enjoying his life, especially when he has the woman who he's in love with in front of him... Ahh Serkan❤️

"I really need Serkan"

Sorry Balca maybe I did not understand well... You NEED Serkan? For what? I really don't get her and I think I never will.

"His partner will arrive tomorrow and he wanted me to bring some flowers to his house and get everything in order."

"You went to his house? While I was doing the interview, you were at this man's house?"

"Yes I was. But there was nobody here. So I left some flowers and left. Anything else?"

"What kind of psycho would want flowers in his house? Is he romantic?"

"What's the problem? At least he doesn't have any allergies."

"And I also have another kind of allergy."

"What kind?"

"I'm allergic to Efe. I don't trust him."

"You should trust me. I know what's right and what's wrong."

Ohhh Eda, honey, you don't have an idea how wrong you are... And I love that Serkan says that he's allergic to Efe. My jealous boy.

I really like boys time, I like when Serkan, Engin and Ferit are together. And every each of them have some suspects on Efe,his behavior and the secret partner.

"You won."

"What?"

"You won."

"What did I win?"

"You won the bet."

"What bet?"

"Serkan, you won the bet."

"Ah... Are you sure?"

"I'm sure. Balca is a little in doubt, so it happened. But she may still like you."

"Of course."

"I'm sure about it. You cannot change my opinion. She's just not running after you. As a result you won I lost."

"As a result, then, we are going to have dinner in Paris."

"It seems to me not to worth so many adventures. We can just go to that restaurant with flowers..."

"No no. A bet is a bet. Is it not? Therefore, after the results of the tender are announced tomorrow, we will take my plane and fly to Paris."

"It seems that I have no other choice."

GIVE US EDSER IN PARIS PLEASE✨❤️

During the ice skating scene was like the director told them to do whatever they want, have fun with each other, just be themselves. And I think we saw that, everyone was having fun, was laughing. In fact I really loved the scene it was one of my favorite of the whole episode.

"What?"

"I haven't laughed like that for a long time. It did me good."

"Me too."

"You keep well on ice."

"Ah yes? I am good in the air, on the ground, on the ice, in the elevators when you're around."

"Stop showing off. And when I'm not there?"

"You are always there. And you always will."

"Maybe tomorrow... Instead of going to Paris, can we eat fish and bread on the water front?"

"I will never agree. We will fly to Paris anyway. Have you ever benn to Paris before?"

"No. If you've noticed, I don't even ask you."

"I went. But to be honest, this is the first time I'm so worried."

"You probably planned everything hourly now. What are we going to do?"

"Yes. We will have a wonderful tourist route. First we will climb the Eiffel Tower, and then visit the best cafes and pastry shops. We will dine in restaurants. And then we will meet the order over the Seine. And then the Bridge of Arts and the Bridge of Lovers. But of course, none of this worries me so much..."

"Yes? What worries you?"

"Get lost with you in Montmartre."

"You won't get lost. You will not be lost anywhere. It seems to me that you even have a map of places where you are going in your head."

"You're right. But I've never been there before."

"Why?"

"Because I gave myself my word. I promised myself that I would go there with the girl that I really love. And it's you."

"Suddenly it got hot..."

Plus we got Serkan saying "Mon amour, je t'aime" and when she said that she understood what he said Serkan throw the ultimate romantic bomb "Because love has no linguage".

THIS IS POETIC CINEMA✨

Who the hell is Piril father?!😳

He has to be someone really important. He even has the guards.

And the final... Boommm... Grandma has come. I can't wait to see her and her plans.. In the fragment we saw that she will help Balca with Serkan because se has a "future husband" for Eda... Clearly grandma has no idea who Serkan Bolat is, he will never give up on Eda. Moreover I think that grandma arrivals is the thing that will unite Aydan, Ayfer, Eda and Serkan. They will work as a team against grandma. I can't wait to see it.

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Bodyguard CH10

A/N: No, your eyes do not deceive you. This is in fact a new chapter. I'm sorry about not updating in what feels like 87 years. I found my way down the Edser rabbit hole and can't find my way back out. I hope you like this chapter.

Felicity looked up as she heard voices and saw Oliver and Digg talking in front of her door.

Her chest tightened at the sight of Oliver.

Over the past few days, she had tried distancing herself from Oliver once she realized her feelings for him were anything but platonic or professional and were growing stronger by the day.

However, it was harder to do than she anticipated. Especially when she was living with him, temporarily, and spent all her time with him.

Still, she did her best to create a distance between them. She made sure whenever they were at the shelter that they were never alone, and when they were at his place, she was careful to not spend any time with him with just the two of them that wasn’t necessary.

She refused group dinners and drinks, she ate breakfast on the go and she kept their talks short and strictly business.

Oliver was persistent of course but she more than held her ground and stuck to her conviction of shutting him out as much as possible.

She knew Oliver didn’t understand why she was pushing him away but she had to do whatever it took to protect herself and right now every survival instinct was telling her she needed to protect every part of herself especially her heart.

Fear was a monster. It was ugly and it was consuming. It crept beneath your skin, shook you to your core, and made you question everything, every decision you make, everyone around you.

It whispered doubts in your head.

Felicity feared the connection between Oliver and herself. It felt stronger every single day he was at her side.

It terrified her.

She was scared that the connection between them would grow strong enough for him to completely break her and she couldn’t shatter again.

It took her forever to pick up the pieces of herself that Cooper had broken.

And even then she was never able to fit her pieces back together perfectly.

Felicity, she was Fractured. Scarred. Damaged.

Oliver deserved better than what she could offer him.

He just hasn’t realized it yet but he will. She was saving them from pain in the long run.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Oliver clenched and unclenched his fist repeatedly, looking toward the door impatiently, sitting on a hospital bed.

He had spent half the day trying and failing to figure out why Felicity was suddenly shutting him out and the other half in the gym, training while John took over being Felicity’s full-time guard. Pair her orders.

Had he offended her in some way? Did his concern for her come across as too overbearing?

God, it bothered him that she was pulling away from him. It was like a sledgehammer was slammed into his chest and the feeling wouldn’t go away.

It was awkward as hell when they returned to his home. Felicity barely spoke a full sentence to him or stayed in a room alone with him for more than five minutes.

If he didn’t know better he would think she was afraid of him but that was crazy.

He would never hurt her. She had to know that, right?

His thoughts were going to drive him crazy.

The door to the room opened and in walked Tommy Merlyn. “When I saw your name in my folder, I thought I was seeing things. You hate hospitals.” Tommy looked his friend over. “You don’t look like you require emergency medical treatment.”

Oliver lifted his hands. “They might be broken.”

Oliver fought to keep a straight face. He knew his hands weren’t broken but he wanted an excuse to come to see his friend when he knew Tommy was busy working in the emergency room in the hospital.

Tommy sent him a doubtful look, setting his clipboard down, he pulled on a pair of gloves and reached for Oliver’s hands inspecting them.

“You have some abrasions, and your hands are pretty banged up but they’re not broken.” Tommy started cleaning the blood from his knuckles and applying a healing and disinfectant ointment. “You want to tell me what you’re really doing here?”

“I needed to talk to someone. I need an outsider’s perspective.” Oliver told him.

“And this couldn’t wait till my shift ended?” Tommy inquired, wrapping Oliver’s hands up.

“It could have but I can’t promise I wouldn’t have gone at least a little bit insane from not talking to someone,” Oliver responded.

“Okay,” Tommy laughed. “If you’re that desperate to talk to someone I can spare a little time. What’s on your mind, Ollie?”

“I’ve been working this new job.” Oliver started.

“The bodyguard job for some client or another.” Tommy supplied.

“Right, “ said Oliver. “Anyway, I met this woman and she’s amazing, she’s beautiful, kind, smart and her strength astounds me and it’s complicated, cause she’s the client,”

“Wait, you’re sleeping with your boss?” Tommy said surprised. Oliver had always taken his job seriously and didn’t like to mix his personal life with his business life.

“No, it’s not like that.” Oliver protested. “We’ve never-”

“But you want to?” Tommy interjected.

Of course, Oliver wanted to. He had to be blind and idiot not to but what he felt for Felicity was more than an attraction. He had feelings for her.

And it was so real for him. Maybe the realist thing he’s ever felt for a woman.

The problem was he didn’t know how Felicity felt about him. He knew she was attracted to him but was that all it was for her? He hoped not.

“I like her a lot.” Oliver finally answered.

“If you don’t care that’s she your boss then what’s the problem?” Tommy inquired.

“I think...I think she might be afraid of me.” Oliver hated having to say the words. He hated thinking it but lately, he felt like Felicity was shutting him out to protect herself. From him.

The notion was a jagged blade twisting in his chest, carving him from the inside. ‘

“Afraid of you?” Tommy repeated incredulously. “You would never hurt a woman.”

“I know that but I’m not sure she does,” Oliver confessed. “She’s been hurt before her.”

“Oh,” Tommy said.

“Oh?” Oliver repeated. “Why do you say it like that?”

“Like there’s more meaning behind that one little word.” Oliver insisted.

“When you say hurt, do you mean physically or emotionally?” Tommy questioned.

“Both,” Oliver said after a moment.

“Then I can see why she’s not open to growing closer with you.” At Oliver’s continued look of confusion, Tommy elaborated. “Women with a history of an abusive relationship have a harder time letting any man close again because the last time they did they didn’t just have their heart broken. In most cases, the woman was hurt, emotionally, physically, and mentally. The physical wounds? Those heal if they’re lucky enough to get out but what stays with them the most are the mental wounds.”

“How do you know so much about this?” Oliver questioned in surprise.

“I’ve seen more than a few women come in here after being tossed around by someone they love since working in the ER for the last two years,” Tommy said. “Your girl, Felicity, if she’s purposely creating a distance between you, pushing you away then it is more than like self-preservation on her part. She’s doing whatever she can to protect herself and being alone is probably the only way she knows how to protect her heart.”

“What am I supposed to do?” Oliver asked.

“First, it’s important, you don’t push her,” Tommy advised. “Second, have a frank discussion about your feelings but you have to take her feelings into account, too. Tell her what’s on your mind, find out if she’s scared of you or of getting hurt, try and reassure as much as you can that you would never push her and finally, let her make the first move.”

Oliver nodded. “Okay,” Oliver grabbed up his coat, pulling it on. “Tommy, do you still get women coming in here recently who have been abused.”

“All the time,” Tommy admitted sadly.

Oliver pulled out his wallet and pulled out the business card for the shelter. “Give this to any of the abused women that come in here. It’s a place that can help them. They’ll be protected. Give them a chance at something better.”

Tommy accepted the card. “Do I want to know?”

Oliver patted his friend on the chest. “Thanks for the advice, Tommy.”

“Anytime, now get out of here. I have real emergencies to tend to.” Tommy walked out of the room, calling over his shoulder that a nurse would be in shortly with his discharge papers.

Oliver decided he wasn’t going to wait around for that and walked on out. He had a strategy forming in his mind, now he needed to get a plan together and make it happen.

~*~ ~*~ ~*~

Felicity was surprised when Oliver called asking for the rest of the night off but she allowed calling in one of the recruits to fill in for him.

She wasn’t sure what he was doing but it wasn’t her business what he did with his free time or what he considered important to take time off work for. It didn’t stop her from being curious about it, though.

She didn’t even know if he would be home when Digg drove her back to the apartment at the end of the day.

She said goodnight to Digg who walked her to Oliver’s door and didn’t leave till Felicity was safely inside using the key Oliver had given her.

Felicity shut the door and locked it behind her. Oliver didn’t have one of those state of art security systems which she knew because he believed he was his own security system. Who better to defend his home than himself.

“Oliver?” Felicity called out, walking into his living room. She tossed her bag on the couch took off her coat, throwing it over the back of the couch. She held onto the back as she toed off her shoes.

The smell of food filled the apartment, a delicious aroma that made her stomach grumble with hunger.

“In the kitchen,” Oliver called out.

Felicity walked into the kitchen to find the counter, set nicely for dinner as Oliver set a pan he pulled from the oven in the center, followed by a pan of bread.

“Did you make us dinner?” Felicity asked in surprise.

“I did,” Oliver smiled at her. “And I got you this,” Oliver turned and pulled out a bottle of wine from a container of ice. “Red is your favorite, right?”

“It is.” Felicity felt a flutter in her stomach, a light feeling spreading across her chest. “You didn’t have to do all this for me.”

“I wanted to,” Oliver said, voice soft. “Sit please, everything is almost done.”

Felicity took the seat and watch him move around the kitchen a quiet smile on her lips, momentarily forgetting that she was doing her best to avoid him.

Sometimes the pull to him was just too strong to resist. Like right now.

He was always so at home in the kitchen. There was always this weight he carried on his shoulders, this alertness about him like he was prepared to be attacked at any moment, it wasn’t necessarily a bad thing since it was his job to be ready to fend off an attack but it made Felicity want to pull him in her arms and tell him it was okay to let his guard down sometimes.

That need to assure him everything was fine always left a flash of fear behind. She shouldn’t feel this away about him.

Watching him now, it was like all of that weighed him down and kept alert fell away and she got to see Oliver the man and not Oliver Queen the bodyguard.

“How everything go today? Any new problems?” Oliver asked as he set the table with their filled plates.

“No new problems,” Felicity answered as he poured them some whine. “What did you do today?”

“Let off some steam, visited my friend Tommy, I believe I’ve mentioned him a few times.” Oliver took the seat across from her.

“You did,” Felicity confirmed, she lifted the glass of wine to her lips, tasting the liquid on her tongue, she hummed quietly to herself. “He’s a doctor right?”

Oliver nodded, taking a bite of the bread he made. “He is. Works in the ED.”

“This is the same Tommy from Thea’s stories?” Felicity asked. “Because I gotta say I was still expecting to be more of a wild card.”

“He’s both.” Oliver gave a small laugh. “He’s serious when he needs to be but he lets out that other side of himself after a few drinks but he’s a good man.”

“Much mike yourself,” Felicity said, taking a bite of her food.

Something warmed in Oliver’s chest that Felicity believed him to be a good man. That had to help his case in the larger scheme of things. He opens his mouth to reply but snapped it shut, listening as a sound of pleasure escape Felicity’s lips.

Her eyes were closed as if she was savoring the taste and there was a flush to her cheeks that wasn’t there before, her tongue darted to chase the taste on her lips.

He tightened his hand on his fork as desire shot through him, wanting to hear the sounds she was making, the look of pleasure on her face for a different reason, involving him, and absolutely zero clothing.

Felicity’s eyes fluttered open slow. “Wow, that is really good. I know I said before I really didn’t expect you to be such a good cook. It’s like dining at a five-star restaurant.”

Oliver laughed. He knew his cooking was good but it wasn’t that good. “You don’t have to flatter me, Felicity.”

“This is not flattery, it is fact,” Felicity argued, pointing her fork at him warning him. “Don’t knock what I say. If I say it's the best meal I had in years then it is.”

Oliver held his hands up in surrender, a carefree smile pulling at his lips. “Got it, it’s utterly delicious.”

“Exactly,” Felicity took another bite, her eyes closing as she savored the food.

Oliver wasn’t sure if he was turned on by her utter enjoyment or amused that she was so vehement that it was as good as she thought.

Oliver spent most of the meal just gazing at Felicity, enjoying just being in her presence. Felicity excluded this light and he felt it cut through his darkness.

Felicity offered to clear the table and do the clean-up. Oliver was quick to tell her she didn’t have to, he would take care of it but Felicity insisted in the end they compromised and ended up, doing it together.

“So, I was thinking that tomorrow I was going to go out and look for something bigger for everyone to move to, I figured I take you and Digg with me. I could use both of your expertise because we want somewhere that’s fortified, somewhere that’s big, something that can give them home and not feel like they're being locked away for their safety.”

“We can have Slade looked after everyone while we’re out.” Oliver agreed as they washed dishes. “I think I might have an idea about where we can look. I need to make some calls first.”

Felicity place the last dish in the cabinet and dried her hands. “Really? That’s great. The sooner we find somewhere the better.”

“I agree,” Oliver said. “Now that we have business out of way, I was hoping we could talk.”

“Talk about what?” Felicity's brow furrowed.

“I know things have gotten a bit tense between us,” Oliver began, turning toward Felicity, he took her hand in his and stepped closer. “I know you think I’m being over-protective but that’s not it, it’s more than that. This job isn’t a job for me. I want to protect you, I want to help people. it’s who I am.”

“I know,” Felicity nodded, looking up at his earnest blue eyes. “Who you are is why I feel like I can trust you and trust isn’t easy for me. I trust you more than I thought was possible.”

But still, there were things she would never trust in a man again. It wasn’t Oliver's fault. It is what it is.

Oliver copper her cheek and his warmth soaked into her skin, making her feel at home. “Do you trust that you mean more to me than a job?”

Felicity’s heart skipped a beat in her chest. “Oliver,” she whispered. She didn’t think he would address this thing between them so head-on.

Oliver fell to the look in her eyes, the way she said his name. Like a prayer.

He closed the distance between and pressed his mouth to Felicity’s. He felt her tense, her body freezing up and he cursed himself.

He shouldn’t have done that.

But then suddenly, he felt Felicity’s lips pressing back against his.

He pulled back to look into her eyes, see her reaction.

Her cheeks were flushed, eyes bright.

“Felicity,” he whispered, voice low.

Felicity surged forward grasping his face in her hands and pulled his mouth back to hers.

Oliver groaned, he wrapped his arms around, pulling her flush against his front.

She was so small in his arms but so perfect, he licked at the seam of her lips. His tongue sweeping inside when she opened for him, tasting her mouth as her hands fisted his shirt and smooth up his arms, gripping his biceps.

He secured his hand across her waist and lifted her, sitting her on the counter.

He tilted her head back deepening their kiss, pulling her hair free from her ponytail and running his hands through her long strands.

Felicity’s hand moved over his back, hiking her legs up to wrap around his waist, pushing him closer.

Her hands dove into his hair, beneath slipping beneath his shirt. He didn’t care that her fingers trail across his skin. All he could think about was her skin pressed against his, her hands exploring her body.

He slipped one hand beneath her shirt, her skin was soft as he slid up her ribs, and gripped her pulling her forward and grounding his hips against her, desiring shooting through him.

Felicity gave a gasp and then she was placing her hand on his chest and pushing him back. “Stop, we can’t do this.”

Her words like ice on his skin. He stopped immediately, removing his hands from her body. “Felicity, I-”

“We can’t do this,” Felicity repeated, she pushed at him again and he took a step back giving her the space she wanted.

Felicity jumped down from the counter and ran her hand through her hair. “This can’t happen, Oliver. It’s important that we keep this professional.”

Oliver could see the way her hand shook, and how she avoided looking at him. Everything inside of him was telling him that she was scared. Scared of feeling something for someone? Scared of feeling something real. Scard to give her heart to someone again.

“I don’t think I can do that. It’s hard to be professional when you want to be with someone.” Oliver said, wanting Felicity to know how he felt. “I feel like we’ve been skirting around the attraction between us and I’m tired of pretending that I don’t have feelings for you.”

Felicity shook her head. “Oliver, you don’t know what you’re saying.”

“Yes, I do. I know how I feel about you and no one can tell me what I feel. I think I know my own heart.”

“You don’t want me, Oliver,” Felicity felt tears gather in her eyes but she refused to cry. “I’m damaged. I won’t ever be good for you. You are amazing and can do so much better than someone who still has nightmares about a piece of shit ex.”

“Don’t talk about yourself like that,” Oliver said vehemently. “You're the most amazing woman I have ever known. You're beautiful and smart and resilient and have a strength inside of you that I have never known, Any man in the world would be lucky to have you. I want to be that man.”

“No, you don’t.” Felicity shook her head and took a step away from him.

Oliver wanted to pull her closer but it was clear by the way she wrapped her arms around herself she didn’t want to be touch in any way and he was going to respect that.

“I get it you’re scared, you’ve been heart in ways I can’t imagine, you were betrayed by someone you loved and nothing I say will change that but you don’t have to be afraid of me. I would never hurt you. I would rather die than to ever see you hurt let alone be the cause of your pain. Please, don’t turn away from this because you're scared I’ll be like him. I could never be like him.”

Felicity’s heart clenched painfully. Oliver’s words while meant to be reassuring were the opposite. He was making very clear how deeply he cared for her and it only made this harder for her.

“I know you won’t hurt me.” Felicity's voice shook with the effort not to cry, to stay strong. “I know you’re not like Cooper but I can’t let you get close. I can’t care about you so much that I let you have power over me.”

If Cooper taught her anything it was love meant having power over someone and she couldn’t let that happen again no matter what she felt for Oliver.

“I can’t do it.” Felicity felt herself breaking inside and was becoming increasingly difficult to keep it together. “I won’t.”

Oliver shook his head. Love wasn’t having power over someone. It was giving yourself to someone, it was caring for someone, it was putting their wellbeing and happiness before your own. It was trusting them with all you have. Your heart, your body, your soul, everything that made you who you are.

“I don’t want to have power over you, Felicity,” Oliver said earnestly. He needed to be open with her but he also had to let her make the choice of what happened next. “I want to be your strength. I want to be the pillar that holds you up when you need some help. I want to be the person you turn to but more than anything I want to love you and I want you to let me.”

His words were so beautiful and God, Felicity wanted to let Oliver be all those things but she couldn’t. “I’m sorry but I can’t. I just can’t.” She could no longer keep her tears in as they slide down her cheeks. “I’m sorry.”

A/N: I hope you like the chapter. The next Olicity update will be I Can't Let Her Die.

Thank you to everyone still here, reading my fics even though I take forever to update.

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I watched 38 with subs. Here are my thoughts:

5 Things I Liked:

Our babies were back! Chemistry, cuteness, touches, characterization--this felt like our episode 12/13 Edser with a mix of 26-28 Edser for good measure.

Our ensemble cast was back. They were funny, supportive, and their group scenes were genuinely funny. This cast is at its best when they are allowed to shine together.

We have a new character that I don't hate and may not actually be evil or trying to hook up with Serkan.

Selin is gone (thank you god) and Deniz may be gone?

Serkan wore jeans

5 Things I Didn't Like:

Our babies were--weird. Look, they were cute and precious as they ever have bee. But this Edser felt like pre 28 Edser. pre 27 Edser. Hell, it felt like pre 17 Edser. Because they were engaged. Eda had moved in, they were hours away from marriage and then Serkan died. He died and he didn't come back for months. And she was forced to watch as a shell of the man she loved was abandoned, manipulated and abused bc she lost all of her agency and power. And then, finally, they get each other back and their response is to--I'm not sure? Get tattoo wedding rings that mean--we don't know what? Have an adorable dance in the rain that leads to--Eda having a sleep over bc I don't think they are living together but it's unclear? Eda focusing on work while Serkan has a meltdown bc he thinks he's dying...and doesn't want to tell her? Serkan Bolat finds out he has a tumor and he isn't calling the best doctors in the world to make sure he can have the rest of his life with Eda? Eda Yildiz finally gets back the love of her life and she isn't clinging to him and never letting go? Are we even going to discuss the rejected marriage proposal? Are we talking about the fact that they both spent months in hell and lost each other and themselves in the process and were abandoned by the people who were supposed to care for them most? Are we forgetting that they were literally hours away from spending the rest of their lives together and now they are...I don't know? Are we just accepting cute Edser and forgetting that SCK ever had plot and meaning?

Our ensemble cast was back. Just like that. Weeks of everyone except for Ferit and Melo just being completely okay with both Serkan and Eda completely sabotaging both of their lives (and in some cases actively helping them down ruinous paths) and it's just like...well, they are back and cute and Piril liked Eda's tattoo so I guess it's all okay again.

We have a new character, and I don't know what his purpose is. He seems sweet and harmless, but also Aydan had a direct hand in ruining not only her child's life, but also the life of the woman he entrusted to her to keep safe for him. I don't care about her happiness.

We were tortured by Selin for over 8 weeks, and it amounted to "sorry I claimed to have abused you while you were mentally compromised and convinced you that you were gonna be a father and almost ruined your life, peace out" which, considering how far they had her go, is about the weakest possible exit for a villain ever. I understand that perhaps they wanted to go easy on Bige, considering what she is dealing with in her personal life, but there is a way to give Selin the exit she deserves and also go easy on the actress. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad to see her go, but this isn't a case of "oh, an ex girlfriend is leaving", Selin actively worked to ruin the lives of two people over and over again, she took advantage of a person who was recovering from trauma, and her send off had the same fanfare as any one of the countless villains who went nowhere and achieved nothing.

Eda also wore jeans, and the level of hideousness in terms of pants and shoes that we have reached with her at this point is truly unmatched.

I think for me, the key to going forward is to turn off my brain. The facts are, SCK has been on a downhill trend since arguably episode 13, and definitely since 21. There have been magical moments and episodes I wouldn't trade since then (notably 17, 20, 26-27 and most of 28, parts of 16&18) but as a whole...it lost its direction and focus and characters somewhere along the way. It was easier to pretend that plot didn't matter back when the worst thing that had happened was Serkan lying about how Eda's parents died. But with months of pain and torture and manipulation and loss and it's hard to just pretend. But I suppose if I'm going to enjoy SCK going forward, and by that I mean Edser, I am going to have stop thinking about plot, character motivation, connectivity. Maybe a second season will revive the SCK we loved, and we won't just have to hope for a series of loosely connected Edser scenes with no real meaning. 38 is only 2.0's second real episode since they left the first time, and they were left with a hell of a mess. Granted, some of it was a mess they started, but I'm convinced they had no intention of the amnesia plot playing out the way it did. So maybe with a break and some time, we will get back to a show that has purpose and meaning. Maybe next week, with Edser finally running away the way they should have three episodes ago, we will finally get meaningful conversations about their future AND their past. But for now, I guess I'm glad that at least I can watch the show again without hating our mains and wanting to throw things at the screen, so I'll take what I can get. And vow to never watch another Turkish romcom again 🤣

#sen çal kapımı #sck #i swear one day i will stop complaining #on the positive side i realize what my issues are so #also there is a post i'm planning shortly about the only romcom i have liked #and why i liked it

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bookdork1 · 4 years

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okay, i’ll admit upfront that this episode was slow in the ship department. it happens. they have 2+ hours of content to write every week, which means sometimes that content can’t focus on just the same two people and their one storyline of accidentally falling in love with one another. that being said, it was still a very good episode for edser, even if they didn’t have a ton of screen time together. yes, they are both angry at each other (highlighted best when they talk to one another’s respective mother figures and defend their own side in the couple’s fight). but they are also both missing and pining after one another. they spend the majority of the episodes finding ways to accidentally run into one another and the other half finding ways to avoid one another. its frustratingly fun to watch, but definitely something that has a short shelf life. lucky for us, the writer knows this, meaning that we end the episode with the main conflict being resolved: eda finds out who stole the patent and goes to serkan to prove her innocence. serkan, very belatedly, tells eda he doesn’t need proof, he believes her. he admits he has serious trust issues but that he knows she was innocent of his charges regardless of proof. unfortunately for serkan, he forgets the most important words “i am sorry” and “i apologize for how i treated you.” since no apology was truly made, eda doesn’t accept it. instead, she hands back the ring and tells him they are finished. its a wonderfully angst filled cliffhanger. do i wish we had gotten to that point 45 minutes earlier? yes. but its an excellent setup for episode 9 in which i envision a serkan who grovels. a lot.

additionally, since edser had such little actual forward progresssion until the last five minutes, all the side characters recevied amazing treatment this ep. usually i don’t care about the side characters in turkish dramas. often they are overwhelmingly flat and are only used as plot devices to keep the main couple apart. in SCK though we have a plethora of interesting side characters and friendship groups who i can’t help but like.

i’ll start with seyfi, who served some stinging one liners this episode. i loved how he immediately sided with eda, refused to pack her things when serkan asked him to, and even went to eda’s house to check in with her that she was okay. overall, seyfi is amazing and we love seyfi. example a: ”seyfi, have you seen eda around?” “no, but i’ll tell you what i do see. a lonely man” yes keep on serving those truth bombs seyfi!

i also really liked the small progression with aydin and alptekin. alptekin dropping everythign at work and returning home proved that he does care about his wife and aydin is slowly working up to telling him about her progress with her agoraphobia. both characters were also excellent in their response to their son’s behavior towards eda. aydin firmly chastised her son, scolding him for yelling at not only his fiance but any woman and alptekin came in later telling his son that having no trust in otheres is a mistake. three cheers for the good parenting (even if its of their adult son).

the piril/engin/jeren love triangle of sorts is also heating up. i think i’m piril/engin at the moment but i honestly don’t know which direction the drama will take with these two ships. i will say that i am firmly in love with the idea of jeren/engin just being best bros who give relationship advice to each other, it would be nice to see that kind of male/female friendship represented in a drama. also piril is ridiculously repressed with her feelings and therefore i strongly relate to her so that may be why i’m rooting for her.

it was also interesting to see more about ferit and his relationship with selin. i really feel so bad for this guy. he loves his fiance a lot and has already put a lot of trust in their relationship watching her work, day in and day out, with her ex-boyfriend, a guy whom ferit knows she still has feelings for. it was so sad when he found that note “from serkan” in selin’s desk. i did not approve of his decision to follow her but the drama surprised me again. instead of having ferit go psycho with jealousy he and eda quietly listened to their respective fiances discuss their old relationship. things obviously went better for eda in that discussion (serkan’s “there is no logic to my being with eda” is 10000% better than selin saying logic is what keeps her with ferit) and i really felt so bad when he told eda that he always knew selin wasn’t with him because of love, but because of logic. i just really want selin to stop pining over what she never had with serkan and realize that a great love is sitting right there in front of her.

and of course we must mention melo. ohh i was so worried about her reaction to finding kaan’s nefarious purposes but she handled it really well. i love that the drama didn’t waste uselss time with her not telling eda the truth for some stupid reason. instead as soon as melo realizes what happens, she tells eda and they piece together how kaan got his hands on the patent in the first place. the way all the girls immediately rallied around melo was heartwarming, to say the least. i love this friend group of four distinctly different but distinctly strong women. fifi’s decision to then chloroform kaan and get the truth out of his phone was kind of amazing, not gonna lie. also, i want to add a shout out to eda’s aunt. her immediately knowing that kaan was untrustworthy was epic.

oh! one more side character to mention! sirius was honestly the mvp of this episode. his acting on the stairs when serkan was walking away but eda was just arriving? oscar worthy. that dog is tired of his parents fighitng and would just like everyone to make up with one another, please and thank you.

well, that was an essay, please let me know if you have any thoughts about the episode you want to discuss! while the episode wasn’t my favorite, i did enjoy it and i think it promises a great set up for episode 9.

#sen cal kapimi #edser #episode 8 #spoilers

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yourpakichic · 3 years

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Episode 28 Thoughts

-The way Serkan was so scared and relieved to find her! That hug held so much love and longing!

-That envelope is going to cause problems and I’m not liking it.

-They are intertwined like never before while discussing the wedding! I love it! The tension between Ayfer and Aidan will always get me laughing!

-YASSSS! Bye Balca, I swear I get so annoyed with Serkan not telling people off like Selin and Balca but when he does, IT’S SO WORTH IT! He tells them off straight, no holding back! Those moments are really worth putting up with their annoying schemes!

-Melo-eniste saying I love you had my heart!

-Ferit/Ceren and Serkan/Eda couple talk! Lol Serkan was ready to strangle Ferit for bringing up the trip!

-Pyril/Ceren being mad at Engin/Ferit was a sight to see!

-THESE MEN ARE IDIOTS. Like there is no hope for them. There is not a single brain cell in between the three of them.

-They are like 3 year old kids, I cannot with them! TALK YOUR SHIT OUT!

-Not Erdem inviting himself to this trip but tricking both Engin and Serkan!

-They are so miserable without the girls, I love it!

-THEY ARE SO IN LOVE. And I’m in love with them. Every single moment of this trip to Sapanca is precious and beautiful.

-Poor Erdem, I really felt bad for him!

-THE WHOLE MODELING CONTEST THING WAS HILARIOUS! The way the boys reacted to the contest to Melo telling on them to Serkan placing the blame on Ferit and the girls revenge! SUCH A FUNNY SCENE! It’s moments like this that remind me why I love this show! It’s comedic nature always reminds of what made me love the show!

-The Aidan-Ayfer-Seyfi heart to heart was so precious!

-The apology scene with Erdem is top tier! I swear they give me life! And the BATHTUB SCENE WAS 🔥🔥🔥

-Aydan-Eda scene was so precious! They’ve come so far!

-My heart literally is broken. I cannot handle the last scene. They were so happy and ready to get married and spend their lives together. They deserved better. I deserved better. I will never forgive anyone for taking away their happiness! My heart literally hurts for Eda. After every loss she has suffered, to finally see the light and find happiness only for it to be taken away. I cannot imagine. And my heart broke for Aidan too. To experience a loss of another child. I cannot think in words. I just can’t.

Overall: I LOVED THE EPISODE! It was funny and light hearted filled with precious moments between all the characters! After everything EdSer have been through, they deserved to be together and happy! I can already tell the next few episodes are going to hurt and I’m not ready! But I love EdSer and I love their love so I will pull through for them only!

#edser #sen cal kapimi #serkan bolat #hande erçel #eda x serkan #kerem bürsin #knock on my door #sen cal kapımı #eda ve serkan #eda yildiz

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jan31 · 3 years

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Rambling Review Episode 31

If I came to this world 100 times, I would fall in love with you a 100 times all over again

This is what we need to remember, its a love story between two soulmates, not about Serkan getting his memories back first.

So...it was better than 30 but still some tough scenes to watch and very little time spent on the two main characters, Eda and Serkan

We see Serkan listening to the radio and its all about Eda’s surprise engagement and saying ‘is there no other news in the country’, I am hoping this is the writers throwing shade at the paps who relentlessly pursue Kerem and ask him brainless questions!

Engin, Erden and Pryl discussing the baby and doctors appointment, Erden and Engin crying about it, loved this scene!

We see Eda putting her game into action...making Serkan jealous. She knows exactly how to do that, make it look like there is another man interested in her and sending her gifts. And it works, he keeps telling her to act professionally at work, but really its his heart reacting to her and he does not even realise it. I loved Eda calling him out for staring at her, he is really intrigued by her.

Serkan not remembering Melos name was heartbreaking, they used to have such a close relationship.

Sirius is the star of the show and the excuse Serkan has always used when he needed to get close to Eda, which is the reason he turned up at Deniz’s cafe during the day. He just cant stay away from her and doesn’t realise his heart is ruling him as he does not know what love feels like, he never had that with Seline.

Eda are you happy

Eda: Serkan, you, me and Sirius we were a family that no one could destroy. Serkan: Did I destroy this love? Eda: Yes you destroyed it

Tough words to hear, and ones that I am sure will haunt Serkan

The chaos that goes on at Edas house when the two sides of the family meet is always funny and this was no exception, Serkan getting slapped by Aidan, “He does nothing, only drives us crazy’ and Eda agrees!

Its troubling Serkan why Eda never told him about Deniz...someone is jealous

‘Who’s love was better, Serkan or Deniz?” Of course we know who, but Eda says Deniz just to torment him.

Melo as usual is holding everyone together, I am worried it will all become too much for her. Her and Ferit in the coffee lounge was special, he really is such a gentleman and still cares for Ceren even though their relationship is clearly over. Melo reveals to him about Cerens hard life and she has been taking medication for many years. He is obviously upset as he had no idea. Can these two please get together or can we find decent people for them to love and be loved

Ceren is spiralling downwards, has stopped taking her meds and turns up to talk to Deniz with pink hair, I’m not sure if this is how she looked when she was young and was in love with Deniz or just wanted to change her image. Deniz chucking her out of the cafe after she kissed him was harsh, she clearly has problems and he could of least called Melo or Eda and let them know or offered to drive her home. But instead opted to release Seline from her locked office (well done Melo), he is very focussed on Eda and its worries me as she is totally unaware of his feelings for her, can someone please tell her?

Any one else think it was strange that Serkan just sat there on the boat and did not get up to help Eda, until she asked. He has always had good manners like that and I found it ooc?

Loved that he felt very comfortable to dry off Edas boobs when he spilt water on them, he was so wide eyed and shocked when Eda called him out, while secretly enjoying his touch! I love getting to hear about poems they learned, that they had meals on this boat many times before, all the things we did not see in any episodes.

Eda: Serkan when you left you told me you would be back. This is the last thing i remember. We were unable to say goodbye to each other. And because we didn’t have such a memory, I always think its right to ask you if you remember?

So sad for Eda, she loves him so much, this is her soulmate and he has no memories of her, how that must hurt.

He clearly did not want her to leave the boat, he is drawn to her when they have these times alone and must be wondering where this manipulative woman is that Seline described. Giving her the ring back as a necklace was his way of keeping her close, and the trouble he obviously went to, compared to choosing Selines crappy engagement ring!

Wanting to drive Eda home and then telling Seline to go and he will come later, love it!!! His face lights up when he is with Eda, they have an invisible thread that connects them, and with Seline there is no sign of affection or caring for her. Serkan took that time on the boat once Eda left to create new memories of their time together, yip he is falling in love and he will try and fight it but its pointless, hes a goner!

Pryl crying over baby booties, those hormones can do that!

After yesterdays boat trip, I fell in love with him even more, is this normal?

My poor Eda, she is being so strong and positive, how, I do not know. Especially when Serkan tells Farook that they will never get married, as he is marrying Seline soon. Her face just fell, that really hurt. and we have to tolerate Seline and her smirking at Eda, ugh i hate this woman.

Eda opens the box from Deniz and its wedding invitations, obviously a plot created by Deniz and Seline, that why she is looking so pleased with herself. What a nasty trick and I hope Eda calls Deniz out for it, he is supposed to be friend.

I strongly want to believe that Deniz is working with Seline, but then realises the love between Eda and Serkan is something that cannot be broken and will turn against Seline.

My other worry is this fake engagement, Seline has the recording and she will have no worries about letting Serkan hear it. I just hope he realises Eda did it because she loves him so much and not to manipulate him.

My hopes for next episode, I am sure we have all seen the fragmans and it looks very edser centred...finally. Seline finally realising Serkan does not love her, lets see how the pyscho bitch deals with that. Serkan falling in love more and more with Eda, even without his memories of her returning. We saw in the fragman him saying,’ No one can touch you but me’, his heart knows what he wants and that is Eda.

Seline is obviously on her way out and hopefully we will see that in 33, there is talk of her going off with Deniz, but hopefully not before Eda tears into her for what she has done. Whilst Serkan had memory loss and did not remember Eda, Seline could have chosen a better path and called Eda and let her know her fiance was alive, for that she needs to be roasted alive

Enjoy the episode tomorrow, its going to be a good one xx

#sen cal kapimi #serkan bolat #eda yildiz #kerem bürsin #hande erçel #episode 31 #Jan rambles #serkan and eda falling in love #love this show #an invisible thread

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acertainsomeone · 3 years

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Mingling under the Mistletoe-EdSer Oneshot

“Serkan! Why don’t you kiss your bride?” Derya hanım reckoned politely, while sipping her red wine and scrutinizing the young couple, in front of her eyes. The tension between of them, was evident to the say the least, hence she could not help herself to dig more into the matter. Serkan scoffed merrily, and shared a brief gaze with Eda, knowing if he continued for even one more second, she will kill him with those daggers already.

The glint in his eyes registered, whatever he was up to. She didn’t want to create a scene but he was surely asking for it now. Shaking her head in disapproval, Eda mumbled a, ‘I’ll kill you Bolat.” He must’ve heard that because otherwise he wouldn’t have let his beard gently scathe her forehead. Eda closed her eye for a second, knowing this was to come maybe a hundred years later, or more than that. Serkan had to admit, he hadn’t even felt her completely before she groped his thigh, in between her nails.

Wincing in pain, and struggling to hide it, he settled down grimacing at her. “Behave yourself, or next time it would be your cro-” She didn’t realize the words coming out of her mouth were rather enjoyable at the moment. “Cro-? Finish your sentence Eda Yildiz.” He smirked, pulling his right arm around her, protectively. She eyed his gesture with a raised eyebrow and remarked coyly, “I’ll make sure you don’t walk out of this room, safe and sound, Serkan Bolat.” Serkan led out a stifle, struggling to widen the distance between both of them. “Öyle mi?”

“Öyle.” Eda beamed at him with a glare, this time she wasn’t going to let him overpower her. While Aydan hanım was busy discussing fashion and girls with her friends, Serkan whispered in Eda’s ear,

“Why are you here?”

“What makes you think I can’t be here Serkan?” Serkan shrugged pensively, “I wondered your priorities lied somewhere else now.”

“efEndim?” The chunk of chicken breast would have almost spit on plate, if she hadn’t composed herself mid-way. “New beginning, yenı ask, I see you have an ability for moving on fast.”

Eda knew where he was coming from. Her silly antics and a slight misunderstanding did work somehow, but nevertheless somehow, she was unable to enjoy it. “Unlike you Serkan, you only seem to have an ability for throwing people out of your life.” Moving closer, he pressed his thumb against her shoulder, “Ne?” She scowled slowly, careful to not catch the attention of Aydan hanım guests. “Keep your hands off me, Serkan Bolat!” He noticed, Derya hanim was eyeing their bickering, with a close. Before she could suspect anything, and inquire his mother about her future daughter-in-law, Serkan pulled Eda towards his side, and whispered a gentle, “my priorities lie, exactly beside me, Eda hanım.”

“You’re impossible.” She replied in disgust, unable to escape his hold this time. She just knew what to do this time. Crisscrossing her leg, she pressed her heel against his lower leg suggestively. “Napıyosun?” Indeed, he was taken aback, otherwise that clueless Serkan Bolat face wasn’t rarely familiar. It would’ve lasted longer, if Eda hadn’t pressed the pointed heel, right above his, left foot toe.

“Napiyos-” Serkan screeched, gritting his teeth. Holding a strawberry in between her fingers, she exclaimed loudly, “Ne öldü Askim?” Aydan, along with her friends began to look at them, curiously. Shaking his head in denial, Serkan grimaced, “Hiçbir şey, canım”

Moving the strawberry closer to his mouth, she gestured for him to have it. “Emın misinin/are you sure?” Serkan uttered hoarsely, moving closer. He was about to touch the tip of strawberry with his lips, when eda shrieked, “Are you out of your mind?Çılgın ”

Instantly, she placed the fruit back on the plate, leaving an amused Serkan Bolat behind, who was struggling to laugh out loud. “İyımisın. Should we go to the doctor?” She was baffled, not at his laughter but at the possibility of him eating that strawberry and- She didn’t even want to think about what could’ve happened. “Allah Allah!, look whose being a hypochondriac now.” “Nevertheless, I knew you would not let me have it.”

Breathing a sigh of relief, Eda looked at him with a pensive look, “So do you trust me now?”

With a meaningful look, Serkan gave away a subtle smile only to be seen by her, “I trust with my entire life, Eda.” “Then beware Serkan, I might someday poison with strawberries, someday.” She remarked sarcastically, mouthing something inaudible, and wriggling her shoulder from beneath his hand. “Eat your food.”

“I’ll be waiting- görüşürüz .” He stood up immediately, placing a peck on the top her head, leaving a bewildered Eda behind.

#edser fic #eda yildiz #sen çal kapimi #sen cal kapımı #serkan bolat #edser #turkishdizi

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lizacstuff · 3 years

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Your thoughts on the first episode of the new season? And can we talk about all those parallels? Also I'm loving the summer vibes!

I'm LIVING for the summer vibes! Doesn't everything feel like a breath of fresh air? I definitely feel like new life has been injected into the series. And that new location is so beautiful, I LOVE IT.

As for the episode, I thought it was masterfully done. You could tell Ayse was back and bringing the perfect mix of comedy, romance and drama. And the sparkle! The show sparkles again. The almost two and half hours flew buy, I was on the edge of my seat, and the performances from Hande and Kerem were amazing. Plus I just adore every moment between Serkan and his new nemesis (aka his secret daughter).

On the sober side, I don't care how jerky Serkan got while battling cancer, or how he may have pushed her away, nothing they've shown us so far even begins to justify Eda not telling him about Kiraz, and it certainly doesn't justify her continuing to lie when he's standing right in front of her making overtures (and her daughter is clearly longing for her father). Obviously, there are still many things we don't know and I'm sure there are many flashbacks to come, and Eda has been though so much, but still...I don't see how they will thread that needle and have Eda come out unscathed.

That being said, with this first episode they executed this story so well and it really does give new life to the series, so I won't dwell on the fact that Eda never would have done this. Never. We just have to move past it, accept that it's a soap opera plot device designed to give us an amazing second season packed with all sorts of amazing scenes and just enjoy every minute while it lasts.

(More under the cut)

I'll get to more on Edser later, as for everyone else... silliness abounds.

First... Erdem cheated on Leyla? WHAT!?!?! With whom? But I guess that was a clean way to explain Leyla leaving.

Engin and Piril, I love that Engin is staying home with their son, and that young actor is a cutie! As for Piril... GRRRRRR... she is still on my shitlist. Last time it was for betraying Eda (and Serkan) by enabling Selin's reign of terror, this time it's by betraying her friend and business partner Serkan! Good grief. If Piril just found out recently at the start of this project I could accept on her holding off because it's not her secret to run off and tell, but what I can't accept is her actively working against Serkan finding out. Even if in this episode she had gently said to Eda... "do you think maybe it's time you told him?" it would be a lot easier to swallow... but nope! She's acting like it would be the end of the world if Serkan found out. I sincerely hope that when everyone finds out and Engin finds out Piril knew, it causes problems between them. She deserves that.

She remains my second least favorite character. Who was my least favorite character this episode? Oh you know! Awful Ayfer is back! We got a reprieve from her in the last arc, but she's back to her annoying, controlling, Serkan-hating ways. Eda is a mother, an international award-winning landscape architect and business owner and she still has to lie to Ayfer because she's such a pain-in-the-ass? Watching her is going to be a trial.

Even though it feels like both Aydan and Ayfer were reset to zero character development, and Aydan has done worse (keeping the fact that Serkan was alive from Eda) I still find her a much easier character to take. Probably because Neslihan is a much better comedic actress, so she's a lot more entertaining. But... Aydan's been with Kemal for 5 years and hasn't told Serkan? WHY? I can't believe Kemal didn't give her an ultimatum years ago. I was loving, however, Serkan being in the way for both Aydan/Kemal and Engin/Piril. GOOD. Those people caused problems for him at one point or another or were in the way, it was nice to see him return the favor. I like Kemal and am still hoping they'll do a parallel "not knowing your father thing" and reveal he's Serkan's bio dad while Serkan is finding out he had a child he never knew about.

Melo and Seyfi were their awesome supportive, funny selves. It was great to see both of them, I'm so glad they stayed.

As for the new characters, love the kids. The new hotel manager is apparently ditzy and starstruck over Serkan, and I don't really understand how she's going to be integrated into the cast, but I love that she was used as a device to show us that Serkan has zero interest in any woman who is not Eda Yildiz. Eda's assistant seems like he'll be a fine side character. As for Burak, he seems harmless, obviously he has feeling for Eda that she does not reciprocate (fuck off Ayfer trying to push her on him) but hopefully they don't make him a psycho like Deniz. I did think he was a bit out of line to Serkan. Isn't that his cafe? And a customer has his glass spilled by a child in his care, and he insults him instead of apologizing? That is the worst customer service I've ever seen! He's a character that could wear on me quickly, we shall see. Kiraz can't help but be sassy because of genetics, but some of the adults in her life seem to be modeling rude behavior!

Now on to Eda and Serkan, I can't say enough about Hande and Kerem's acting in this episode. Phenomenal! They were both brilliant. Plus both are doing a great job working off of Maya (especially Kerem) those scenes were priceless. I don't often enjoy kids on shows, but so far I'm loving this dynamic.

As for Edser, while we don't know everything yet it feels like Serkan got to a point where he couldn't stand to see Eda in pain and putting her life on hold, he outright mentioned that she might not have graduated if they'd stayed together, and so that was part of the reason he reverted to his robot self and pushed her away. I'm going to guess she tried and tried and he was just unyielding. Saying he didn't want to get married or have kids in the harshest way possible. Perhaps even she went to tell him that she was pregnant and he went off on not wanting kids before she could even tell him. Time will tell.

At this juncture, my best guess is Eda's fear is rooted in rejection. It can't be that she thinks Serkan is a terrible person that doesn't deserve to know his child, or would be detrimental to Kiraz. However, she knows what it feels like to be rejected by Serkan, I'm sure she was beyond devastated, so I'm guessing now she's bent on protecting her daughter from feeling that same rejection. She fears if he found out, but wanted nothing to do with her, it would feel worse than him not knowing. She's not thinking clearly and perhaps it hasn't even occurred to her that the man she fell in love with is still under there and that man is fully capable of opening his heart wide to their child.

The fact that this child, a stranger to him, already has him wrapped around her little finger to the tune of being late to meetings while he waits for her to pick berries, speaks volumes.

The lies that Eda is telling Kiraz though... there is a fairy tale poetry to Eda saying her father is among the stars... but there was no way this would ever end well. Such a bad idea. Eda.... has made mistakes.

As for Eda and Serkan, their reunion was so bitter sweet. The way Serkan was sure he was hallucinating her and couldn't believe she was real, speaks to the fact that his thinking he saw her that morning was not an anomaly. It must happen all the time. She's never left his thoughts in 5 years. Especially since Engin makes it clear that women throw themselves at Serkan all the time, and he never bites. That's a lot of years celebrate, pining after a love he lost through his own actions. Though it's not that surprising that he didn't pursue other women, as he's never been a character who was motivated by sex. Which makes it hilarious that during his presentation that's where his mind was at, remembering their intimate times together. Serkan Bolat is an Edasexual.

Serkan seemed to want to brush past what happened between them, how they ended, but from Eda's pain, it's clear it was gut-wrenching and tragic and that's something he's going to need to recon with in the coming episodes. But how refreshing that they actually talked! That Eda actually expressed her pain to him! Wowza, that's a change from recent episodes when they didn't even have a proper conversation after he got his memory back.

The flashback scenes were a combination of pure brilliance and pain. Just rip out my heart why don't you. Serkan's angry reactions seem very believable for someone suffering what he was going through. I think it's typical to lash out at the person closest to you. And their fear and pain, their commitment to getting him better and seeing it through... those scenes were made all the more heartbreaking knowing that they didn't make it out the other side intact.

On a lighter note, I loved how even despite their intention and best efforts to remain closed off to one another, and away from one another, they couldn't. Physically, Serkan couldn't stay away, and every time Eda was in his presence you saw her resolve slip and her start to feel that old pull towards him. The fact that Eda thinks there's any way to keep this secret and get rid of him, she must just be in full panic mode and not thinking clearly. She's never going to shake him.

Thank goodness Serkan came back and actually issued a sincere apology for what he said at coffee. He definitely owed her one, but what was extraordinary is that it showed that the growth he went through when they were together didn't regress. He was able to apologize and explain that he was angry and hurt and that's why it happened. If you remember from the first time around, saying sorry was something he was just unable to do, so this felt big to me. He's not the same robot Bolat, she left an indelible mark on him.

As for him making her present her proposal, it's really not out-of-line for the professional relationship, however, we all know he did it just so he had an excuse to be around her. That man will take any excuse, plus he likes to get a rise out of her.

The dinner scene was breathtaking. How beautiful and achingly romantic was that setting? Wowza. And what a roller coaster of emotion those scenes were. It was great to watch them talk and laugh. Who didn't swoon when he deveined her shrimp and when she gave him fries? But we had to know it wouldn't last. Eda's speech had me breathless. Serkan had that coming, it hurt but it had to happen. What a relief to see them get things out in the open. Now I hope we get to see them really talk about what happened and why. Explain yourself Serkan!

As for the next episode, I was so hopeful that the Kiraz secret would be out after the final scene, but the first fragman makes it look like that's not going to happen, at least not at the start of the episode. My fear is that if Eda outright lies to him that just makes everything worse. The longer she keeps it from him, when they're back in each other's orbits and it's clear he's not running away, it makes her more and more at fault.

In any case, it looks like we're in for some fabulous scene so I look forward to the second episode!

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I want to have hope but after 7 weeks, I think I’m all out of it. Literally every single time we’ve thought that the writers could give us a scene to fix something messy in a previous episode or even to make sense of a fragman/spoiler, they’ve NEVER done it. Nothing resolved or addressed, only more misunderstandings and shallow dialogue. No twists. No pay offs. Was there even plot or just Edser bickering back and forth was supposed to be it? And now the ratings are lower than ever and they think this is the time to pull the fake pregnancy card when cancellation is very real.

I've mentioned it before and I was literally discussing it with @lolo-deli moments ago, about how it seems that the writers are doing this on purpose. It's like they're begging for the cancellation and want the fans to develop aversion to the show and romcoms in general. Or maybe they just want to scare international fans away 🙈

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Hello there! I just stumbled across your page by pure accident, but wanted to give you kudos anyway, and was curious if you wanted to compare notes sometime? :) Out of curiosity, what's your perspective on Becky's psychological profile/physical disabilities? I could personally talk about this for hours! :)

Hey there, thank you so much! I am always up for discussing Becky and/or Crane, and comparing notes as it were. :) Regarding your inquiry, first of all I love this question!

So for me, when it comes to Becky’s physical disability I have always headcanon’d that she has Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome(EDS). The main reason for this is that I have EDS myself irl! Not only does that make it easier for me to write/imagine the character’s condition more easily, but I also heavily relate to her experience and feelings - especially the scene in New Year’s Evil where she’s talking to the doctor.

EDS is a connective tissue disorder, but it has quite a few different types, and symptoms that can vary drastically from person to person. I personally think of Becky as having the Hypermobile Type; this means the person’s joints are very hypermobile and don’t stay in place. This type also typically experiences things like chronic joint pain. There are many other symptoms EDSers can experience such as GI issues, heart problems, etc. We also tend to have unusually soft skin!

In my headcanon, Becky has had surgeries in the past on several different joints and she still experiences chronic pain and subluxations of her joints. She of course uses a cane and in the past has had to use a wheelchair following her surgeries. She manages her pain and does her best to manage her life as a law student as well!

As for her psychological profile, my Becky has had depression issues that have been up and down throughout her life. She has a strong will and determination, which is a plus but also often makes her feel like she should be able to handle all her problems on her own. Which is something she actually brings up in New Year’s Evil, in the aforementioned scene where she’s speaking to the doctor about her experience.

My Becky also has symptoms of PTSD after the events of New Year’s Evil, and I explore those more in depth in the fanfic I’ve been working on!

Thank you so much for this awesome question! And I encourage you, or anyone else, to chime in with their thoughts on this as well, if they’d like to! 🧡

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"Now she is so glad that we are fighting because we give her what she wants."

I loved how Serkan tried to calm down Eda when they meet Semiha. And he's so intelligent that he knows exactly that grandma is only waiting that Eda go mad and make mistakes. She enjoy seeing her angry and Serkan knows that. My smart baby boy.

"Serkan will be mine."

Balca make me laugh... Dear... Serkan will be your only in your dreams... Perhaps...

"Eda Bolat... Eda Bolat. See how beautiful you smile. This is what we must do in the office in front of your grandmother."

"Serkan..."

"I'm listening..."

"You make me angry."

"Great. That's exactly what I wanted. Therefore I asked to write so. So that you get a little angry, splash out the negative, fell on me and then calm down. But you're not as angry as I expected."

"Because before that, you had already done what I should have been more angry with."

"But still... It's nice to hear that right? Eda Bolat."

"Serkan are we going to talk about this now?"

"No. But face it, I know what I'm doing. Eda Bolat. Anyways... I think this should be our topic for discussion."

Honestly... How many times did Serkan said Eda Bolat? Too many... But... I'm not complaining... On the contrary I loved that. And Eda Bolat sounds actually really good.

"Your grandmother is now a partner of the company, came here and finally show her face, and she will take revenge on me for my father. She wants to bankrupt me, devide us and ruin my life. Right? She won't succeed, so calm down. She can't do that."

I'm not so sure about that but I love that Serkan is so determined and sicure about himself, and I think that he doesn't want to show his worries at Eda.

"She will do what she did to my parents Serkan. But I'm not strong as you."

In this exact moment Eda shoe us that she is only 23. I often forget this because she is so mature but she is actually so young.

"You are the one who destroyed my family."

Semiha broke the flower holder where Serkan has put Eda's flower. I'm so mad and broken. Maybe I read too much in this scene but I think that this is a metaphor to Edser love. So Semiha will destroy Eda and Serkan love.

Aydan and Ayfer are the duo that I didn't know I needed. They are so hilarious, love them.

"What is her problem?"

"The problem is of course me. She came because of me. She will heal my wounds, change, you see. It turns out that you blinded me... She said so."

"Serkan blinded you? She said that."

"Yes."

"So everyone can see that you are madly in love with me except you."

"If you scoff, then I'm leaving."

"Don't go."

"Serkan I'm taking about..."

"What are you talking about?"

"I thought... If I leave the company..."

"What?"

"If I move away from the company, she may change her mind."

"That's it... You quit?"

"I do not quit, but move away."

"I understand you very well."

"Then why are you looking at me like that? What?"

"In this life you can so easily give up on me, is that so?"

"I didn't say that. You misunderstood."

"Yes. Maybe I misunderstood you from the very beginning Eda..."

I felt so sorry for Serkan in this moment. Serkan has always fought for Eda and their love. And now he feels that she is abandoning him, and we know that everyone he loves, in his life abandoned him. My poor babe. Sorry but Eda this time you are sooo wrong.

"Try to understand me. Before you I was like a machine. I was a flesh and blood man who went to work. Then you came and touched my heart and a lot has changed for me. And then you abruptly removed your hand from my heart. I cannot be as automated now as I used to be. And without you I can't bear the burden on my heart. Eda... Let it be your grandmother or any other problem... If your hand is on my heart... Then I'm ready for anything."

THIS SCENE WAS HOTTT🔥

Serkan was so sad in this scene, because he thinks that when there will be a problem Eda will always run away from him. She is his air, he cannot live without her. And he wants to spend the new year night with her😍.

I think that everyone should listen to Leyla, if she doesn't trust Balca and Semiha there is a reason. I repeat we should all listen to Leyla.

Balca make me laugh pt. 2. She is completely crazy, she admits that she knows Serkan only for a few days and says to Semiha that she is not in love with him... But she is right because she is not in love... But now that I think about it she is right... Because she is not in love with him... She is completely obsessed with him. She is so cringe.

"Eda... Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I'm fine... Tonight I will have nightmares again."

"Nightmares? Why?"

"Because... When I was little my mother bought me a wishes bracelet."

"What is it?"

"On it there are figures, symbols, such as a star or a heart."

"Ah ok, got it."

"These are symbols of your desires. After my parents died, my grandmother came to pick me up, I told you. She wanted to take me to Mardin. At home she talked to my aunt, and I heard everything. I was very young but I remember. They were talking very loudly, I... I run away from home. I run away and began to run. I ran, I ran... There was a hill behind our house. I rolled head over heels from this hill... And when I fell... I broke my bracelet. Lost it. I cried, not because of my wounds, but because I had lost it. And then... In every nightmare I did, I did the same thing. I escaped from somewhere... I run, I run as if someone is following me. All the time I run away and I'm so scared to see the same thing."

"Come here. Come. The Eda Yildiz I know... Doesn't run from anything. So I'm sure you won't run away."

My poor baby Eda. She really has a tough life.

Honestly... The suits scene doesn't has any sense... But the chemistry was on fire🔥

"Serkan doesn't like to spend special days with everyone. Only with the loved ones."

That means not you Balca. So back off thank you.

Serkan face when he sees the throne😂

And obviously Serkan has a plans for grandma situation. I love my smart and calculating boy.

"One time, the most beautiful, the smartes and at the same time the woman who I liked the most told me that lemon reduces stress."

Loving and caring Serkan is the best.

"I'm not an easy target for you Mrs. Semiha. You will give your shares to Serkan and leave."

"So you decide when I have to leave Eda? The time I spend here depends on you."

"How does it depend on me?"

"Are you the lover of this Serkan Bolat?"

"No."

"You are interested in each other."

"We have a past. These are the connections of the past."

"There is nothing stronger than blood ties. In time you will understand this. You deserve better than Serkan Bolat."

"You know me very well. Bravo!"

"I'm trying to find out. I have great ideas for you."

"None of them interests me."

"Okay. I'll ask the questions differently. Are you interested in Serkan Bolat?"

"Let's say I'm interested. What will you do? What will happen?"

"Then I will not beat around the blush. If I notice that you have a relationship with Serkan Bolat I will destroy this holding. Neither his mom nor he himself can handle the failure of the firm. I will destroy their company, disgrace their name, reputation, everything. Overnight. If you don't believe me ask Alptekin Bolat. If he's able to answer you of course."

"Don't underestimate me. I'm not afraid of you Semiha Yildirim."

THAT'S MY GIRL🔥

"How do you understand that I'm interested in astrology? Are you too?"

"I'm interested in ASTRONOMY."

Serkan Bolat ended Balca.

"Eda come in."

"I won't Serkan. Grandmother moved in with us. She will drive me completely crazy. She is an unbalanced, very dangerous woman. Therefore do not be polite to her, just attack."

"Calm down."

"Grandma moved in with us. I'll stay with Ceren. I came to tell you something."

"Good. If you want we'll talk inside."

"No I won't come in. I'll tell you here."

"Okay. What do you want to say to me?"

"Serkan listen... We cannot be together. It doesn't work. We can't. I don't seem to able to. It's all the same, someday we will part. I'm bothering you. You are already tired. Grandma will tear us apart, she will do something."

"Eda..."

"What?"

"Stay here."

"What?"

"Stay here tonight."

"Serkan we cannot be together and you are saying 'stay here'?"

"Nothing will happen Eda. We won't spend the new year together so stay here tonight."

"Okay then. Last time..."

"Last time."

The cuteness of this scene, I was melting.

"We are going to look at the stars."

"I'm already looking at the most beautiful star."

Serkan bought chocolate for Eda. If that's not love I don know what it is. And obviously Balca has to interrupt the romantic moment.

"Eda? Are you okay?"

"Serkan? What are you doing here? It's not been 10 minutes yet."

"She lives close. Candles and all that... Are you comfortable?"

"I decided to take a bath."

"You did the right thing."

"If you leave, I'll come."

"Of course... Give me 10 seconds."

"Serkan... Can you hear me?"

"Okay... I'll remember this moment."

"Enjoy. Do not rush."

CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTE... TOO CUTE💞

The whole bust scene made mi laugh, but someone can explain to me why Serkan did not for once looked at Eda? I don't understand.

Serkan brings her the breakfast to bed. My caring babe.

"Small steps towards a big goal."

Eda's gift to Serkan is so beautiful. She has this unique capacity to make every gift unique and original.

We don't deserve Leyla, she is too pure and angelic for us. She helped Ferit with Ceren's gift.

Engin has organized all the wedding with just the two of them. I love himmm.

Sorry but we have to take a moment to speak about Kerem speaking in Italian... I'm Italian so when I listened to him speaking in Italian I fainted. He's so sexy🔥

I'm an Ayfer and Alexander stan.

Even Serkan can't stand Balca anymore. She really is a snake, she's worst than Selin. What kind of crazy person are you?

"Serkan where are you?"

"In the place where I should be. Next to you."

"Where have you been?"

"You are so beautiful."

This scene was so beautiful. His gift was so meaningful. There's this thing that I've always noticed, he really listened and pay attention to what she say or do. He never do something by casualties, he's so carefully about her. This is one of the many thing that I love about Serkan. And obviously this beautiful and romantic moment is ruined by the arrival of the police... Arghh grandma what have you done?!

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