i’m in this discord group server. it’s filled with people i’ve known for like a decade. we’ve been mutuals here on tumblr since way back when. i just realized it’s been a while since i’ve gotten any notifications from the server. so i checked it out. everyone except a few people had either left the server or deleted their accounts.
this is the shit that makes me so sad. i’m too sentimental. i have other ways to contact a couple of them, but a lot of them i’ll probably never talk to again. and it’s is doubly sad because this server was what made me join discord and i joined at a pretty dark time in my life and they all specifically invited me to give me some sort of emotional support and we honestly had a lot of fun. there were great times had. lots of late night conversations. sometimes serious ones but sometimes just shooting the shit.
and it just gave me a weird feeling to see the server so empty. the last message being from months ago. everyone gone. where did they all go? it just happened slowly over time. one by one people left or deleted for whatever reason. the last message is the server owner just saying “it’s been a good run”.
i remember reading some poem about a person standing in some ballroom or something after a great celebration. everyone was gone and it was just the narrator. that’s how this makes me feel. i feel like i’m the last one in the ballroom after a long night of laughter and cheer. i don’t know what the poem is called or whom it’s by. if you know please tell me. i’ve been looking for it for years.
i think i have a disorder that makes me too sentimental or something.
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idk why but sometimes i feel like such a dick asking for a friends time, like you want to hang with them but you sorta know they'll just make excuses most of the time
but you can't tell them off cause there's no real reason to be mad, it just makes you look like some needy person
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when people talk about how magical their irl gay friendship groups are i get so jealous bc my main experience of an 'irl gay friendship group' was the trainwreck that was my uni's lgbtq soc, where a truscum who unironically called people sjws got me kicked out for making fun of him
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god it's a hard life for someone who doesn't super care for (but also doesn't mind) brother-sister designations for luz and hunter & is now having to read people griping about them not explicitly canonically sharing a guardian. as if their parentage has literally anything to do with why they're family. maybe i'm just old or maybe it's because almost no one i know has a good enough relationship with their parents for them to factor into any found family dynamic at All but. it's like. once again. here i am. forced to die on the hill of. Guys. You.... You Know That There Are.... Committed Life Partnerships That Aren't Marriage Or Siblinghood.... Right....? You Guys Know That Hunter And Luz Are Family Because They're Each Other's People And Chose Each Other And Adore Each Other And That It Was An Entire Excellently Done Arc And It's Completely Unrelated To Traditional Nuclear Family Dynamics.... Right?
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I feel like the reason why some fics read like a wish fulfilment fix-it of all of canon's perceived problems, where all of the inter-character conflicts are resolved and there aren't any stakes at all, is because of a fundamental misunderstanding of how character relationships work and because of this, different approaches to the function of fic writing. I just had a reader ask me to break it down for them why I've written Dickkory as having bad blood in the past, whether that's because of their misunderstandings during the Mirage incident (where they decided that he cheated on Kory when in fact, Dick was SA'd by a woman pretending to be Kory). and that in my fic, because of the way Dick and Kory have chosen to fault each other for the way their relationship ended, whether I am assigning a value on Dick's character in connection with the Mirage incident and more or less victim blaming the same way canon has with him and the role he played in the Mirage incident.
Firstly, there are other canonical factors that caused Dick and Kory to draft apart. You cannot draw a straight line of causality between the Mirage incident and their breakup, much like how in real life, you can't attribute reasons for a breakup to a single incident. There may be a determining factor but breakups are never usually that neatly categorised by a single reason. Also, sometimes...... characters are unreliable narrators. Just because both Dick and Kory thought that Dick was responsible for their breakup doesn't mean that he actually is. He has a guilt complex the size of a supernova and if other people told him he broke her heart, of course he was going to internalise that. She was more invested in keeping the relationship going than he was (remember, back in the 90s/00s Dickbabs was also happening at the same time) and so by that metric would be more likely to feel as though he's the one killing their relationship.
And in a situation like this: there isn't a value judgment you can place on any single participant. Human relationships are complicated like that, but that's what makes the romance genre so compelling and cathartic to read and write for. If you want stories that give you a neat resolution where everyone makes up and all conflict and misunderstandings and loose ends are tied up with a bow, I can't fault you for that, but you have other fanfiction for that. It's just not the type of story I'm interested in writing.
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i think dave is present at fazbenders physically but like. man. in his heart he is still at fredbears. i don't think he ever left henrys side in his mind. he talks about missing fredbears in his diary, and talks about how he missed henry, and brings it up in nearly every conversation. even when he's telling dee his life story he takes time out of his monologue to talk about how great fredbears was and how great henry was. i think in his heart he's still that scared, alone young man that henry took under his wing and "really cared about". i think a part of him died when henry was killed.
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heyo!! I’m yelling out into the void for some quick friendship/communication advice for anyone who might be able to help!
Lately I’ve been struggling to positively interact with a friend of mine because it feels like anytime I say something, she feels the need to insert her own dissenting opinion or to “correct” me on a subjective thing.
I know this friend thinks very literally, and she’s mentioned a few times in passing jokes that she thinks she’s autistic, so as an allistic person I don’t want to be rude by not prioritizing her perspective. But at the same time, since every conversation i have with her ends up including her correcting me on something I don’t need correcting on—whether it’s A) something I actually already know, B) a detail that to me feels minute and thus nitpicky and irrelevant to correct because my point was still clear, or C) something that’s entirely subjective, like if I make a passing joke and say, “Lol, that’s us!” And she replies, “Ehhh, not really, actually.”
She will often undercut what I’m saying by plainly and bluntly disagreeing with it, and to me it feels like she can only have things her way and she needs to have the last word. BUT I’m hoping that’s not how she actually feels or intends for this to be coming off, and that’s largely just my personal perception of it.
From what I can tell, I think she struggles a lot with basic empathy, in the sense that she is very focused internally on herself and does not think to look at things from anyone else’s perspective. (And just to be clear, I mean this in an entirely neutral way, because she is compassionate and sympathetic, and lacking empathy doesn’t mean you can’t be a kind person.)
So from someone who is overly-empathetic and somewhat emotionally sensitive (I’m learning not to take things personally, but it’s still easy for me to feel hurt or upset about little things), does anyone have any advice about this? I guess I don’t know for sure if she’d say she has low empathy, but it feels likely that she does, because otherwise that would mean she’s doing all these things on purpose, knowing that it sounds rude.
The longer I go without telling her that this behavior upsets me, the more I stew in it, and it makes it very difficult to hang out with her because I end up very irritable. And that’s not fair to her, since I’m not communicating what the problem is. But I also don’t want to hurt her feelings, because maybe she just thinks she’s doing a favor by correcting me, as she sees it.
idk. let me know if this makes sense! Shoot me a DM if you have any advice/the space to chat about it.
TLDR; any advice for communicating kindly with a low-empathy friend to let them know I’m feeling hurt and irritated by the frequency of some of these habits?
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