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Bsd but everyone speaks their native language part 2 (part 1)

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MWA ♥️

I like to think whenever I follow someone new they just stare at my profile pic trying to figure out wtf is happening there.

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Man, I really want to get back to being active on Tumblr but for some reason my brain is convinced it's 10x more effort post than it used to be

#same #[pat pat]

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How do you think Atshi and Dazai's relationship compare to their relationship in beast, i feel like its a topic thats been left behind when talking abt beast

Ooo this is an interesting one.

The relationship between Dazai and Atsushi in BEAST is really interesting already, I love how Asagiri didn't just make it a carbon copy of Dazai and Akutagawa in the main timeline, instead its completely unique but equally fucked up. But comparing it to the main timeline I think it is the best example of just how far BEAST Dazai is willing to go in order to ensure Oda's happiness in that universe, even at the cost of tormenting someone main Dazai really cares about.

First lets look at Dazai and Atsushi's relationship in the main series.

Atsushi has absolute loyalty, love and respect for Dazai in the main series, Dazai was the first person who ever affirmed Atsushi's right to live and might be the first person to ever offer him kindness. Dazai also works as Atsushi's motivation to save Kyouka, he thinks of how Dazai chose to save him even though he would be a massive burden to the ADA, and this gives him the conviction to save Kyouka despite her past.

Dazai is the person who Atsushi always thinks of when he's in a terrible situation, he's who Atsushi wants to run too when he thinks he can't win a fight, in other words he makes Atsushi feel safe something he probably almost never felt in the orphanage where he was abused for anything he did.

(from 55 mintues)

These two pages capture this perfectly

And eventually Atsushi is able to replace visions of the orphanage director (who appeared when he was at his lowest and made him feel like he had no right to live) with Dazai giving him encouragement and the focus to keep going.

On Dazai's end:

I think Atsushi is probably the person who sees Dazai's true suffering better than anyone else alive in the series, even including characters like Chuuya and Ango. Atsushi (very similar to Oda) will often cut through Dazai's jokes and see through to what he is really thinking.

Atsushi is also one of very few characters to openly be kind to Dazai, off the top of my head it's only him and Oda who ever really say nice things about him to his face.

(notice both times Dazai is surprised by this)

Atsushi is even able to pick up a hint of Dazai's past when Dazai talks about mimic in 55 minutes.

So suffice to say, in the main series Dazai and Atsushi are extremely close, both being essentail to the others growth and a person throughout the series, I could probably go on for pages about this but for now let's talk about how BEAST twists this relationship into one of the darkest in the series.

BEAST Atsushi suffers more than almost anyone else thanks to Dazai's plan. Since he can't use Fukuzawa's ability to control Atsushi's ability, he makes Atsushi wear a spiked collar that stabs him in the neck while transformed and uses the pain of that to help Atsushi remain in control of the tiger.

Not to mention that BEAST Atsushi, just like regular Atsushi hates being hurt and hurting others, he is constantly terrified on every mission he is sent on and hates the pain he has to go through each time.

So why is he so loyal to Dazai? Unlike Akutagawa Dazai didn't physically abuse Atsushi until he became dogmatically loyal, he didn't need too, all he had to do was twist the suffering caused by the orphanage director in Atsushi's mind and make it work in his favour.

Trigger warning: Psychological abuse!

This was Dazai's method, give Atsushi an order he knew he would disobey and set things up so it would lead to Atsushi undergoing unimaginable pain and suffering beyond anything Dazai could inflict himself. Dazai twisted that pain in Atsushi's mind into

"This is what it feels like to disobey me"

And since then, Atsushi has been completely incapable of not following Dazai's orders.

Another important factor is that Dazai himself is very friendly with Atsushi, letting him call him "Dazai-san" instead of boss and giving him praise for his work. This just further cements in Atsushi's mind that Dazai is the kind, generous person who tried to help him, which makes him even more loyal to Dazai.

There's a lot more I could go over, but I don't have time right now. Overall I think BEAST really shows just how far Dazai is willing to go to achieve what he wants, the way he treats BEAST Atsushi is incredibly cruel, and then leaving him alone in a world where his only purpose was fulfilling Dazai's orders is another level of cruelty.

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Oda...

#UGHHHH REAL #TY FOR TAGGING ME #YES. AS AN ODA LOVER THIS IS PAINFULLY ACCURATE

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im so fucking pissed i cant

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Hmm.... wonder who could have sent those 5 anon asks...truly a mystery

PFFFFTT HAHAHAHAHA

NIKOLAI BEHAVIOR INDEED.

OH YOU LOVABLE IMPREGNATOR POTATO 😭

*strangles you affectionately*

#the patoots #asks

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✨🌈SEND THIS TO OTHER BLOGGERS YOU THINK ARE WONDERFUL. KEEP THE GAME GOING🌈✨

HOLY MOLY THERE ARE A LOT.

I got like 3 of these in one sitting!!

By any chance, are you the same person who sent those other 2 asks? 👀👀

ANYWAYS, YES ANON, THANK YOU. IM GLAD U THINK IM WONDERFUL 🔥🔥💗

IF UR THE SAME PERSON, I THINK UR PRETTY COOL TOO CAUSE THAT'S LIKE SJSJS YEAH. ITS GIVING NIKOLAI AFFECTION✨💥. OR DAZAI. IDK. BUT ANYWAYS YEAH HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD OF YA ANON ♥️

#asks

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My confession : I love you and I think you deserve the best things in this world.

w-who-who is this???

ON ONE HAND, I think this is the sweetest and whoever said this is prob someone who sees my posts, talks to me, and/or frequents my blog regularly (cause there aint no way yall can take one quick glance and say 'yes. this one. I love her.' SHSH 😂)

ON THE OTHER HAND I RLLY WANNA KNOW WHO THIS IS CAUSE LIKE??

I'm gonna take a wild guess and think this is Venus 😂 ❤️ reason is, because of the way it's typed, diction and everything.

IF ITS NOT, then oh well. Guess I guessed wrong 😅

BUT SERIOUSLY ANON, THANK YOU ❤️

Glad to hear I make you feel this way and I hope you have a happy happy happy day today! God bless your soul. 🥰 MWAAA 🫂

#asks

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✨🌈SEND THIS TO OTHER BLOGGERS YOU THINK ARE WONDERFUL. KEEP THE GAME GOING🌈✨

AW THANK YOU ANON ♥️♥️

who is this if I may ask?

I'm curious 👀👀 the vibe is giving @im-a-chunky-potato but you never know..

I'm grateful anon, thankie! 🤭🥰

#ask

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If me being toxic was a series, it would be like 1 episode everyday without end until I die or something 😂

well damn 😂

^^ If Cathy was an Elmer's glue.

(wait i js realized it should be the short glue hahaha).

#at least you're doing active efforts to improve it no? #No? #🤭 Either way it's going to be a fun dramatic series that will put even Euphoria to shame ☠️ #cathy diaries #cathy #❤️♥️

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Same energy

#this is so funny for some reason 😂😭 #add ranpo to the sherlock-moriety duo and everyone around them will be as stressed as sigma is #pfft. arrogant genius kings 🙄

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HAHAHAHA dang venus, the relationship status is oddly specific 😂🤭 (i wonder about the homoeretic rivalr-) 👀👀

Anywy! Thank you for the tag <33 and i will gladly answer rn because my mood says so. ❤️

Last song you listened to : Karma by Jojo Siwa. Idc. It's iconic lmao.

Fav colour : Pastels.

Currently watching : None.

Sweet/savoury/spice : Sweet duhh 🥰 (although I also like spicy foods.) Savoury? Yeah i can eat that too though.

Relationship status : HEHE single by choice ✨♥️ (I wanna be satisfied with the person I AM first before getting a partner. To put it simply, I am FAR from that rn.) Also no one's ever confessed to me since grade 2 so.. 🤪

ALSO VENUS!!

'would like friends and hugs'

I didn't know you were the type to like physical affection?? 🤯 I'd gladly give hugs if we met irl ‼️‼️🫂🫂 if we were classmates, idk why I get self conscious initiating hugs in class but still! Hugs #1 frfr. U'll get that hug 💥💥

Current obsession : none.

Tagging anyone who wants to do this game :)

9 people you'd like to get to know better

tagged by @alecsalamander (thank you!)

last song you listened to: for once answering this question I'm not sure lol. possibly The Run and Go by twenty one pilots edit: actually just remembered it was a cover of Megalovania sorry

favorite color: I've said it's purple forever, but I also love green and blue

currently watching: mainly Once Upon A Time and Staged atm, but also technically Phineas and Ferb, Haikyuu, and Mob Psycho 100

sweet/savory/spicy: sweet mostly, savory and spicy in equal amounts

relationship status: happily married to a wonderful dork <3

current obsession: Good Omens. at this time yesterday I did not have a pinterest board for it; now I have over 250 pins. help me I was up til 5 am haha

last thing you googled: Michael Sheen

tagging: don't feel like you have to if you've already done it but @palant1r @quicktimeeventfull @oloreandil @cubistemoji @freakurodani @starrynightarchive @ellegamgee @lilac-writes @liana0110

#venus #rb games

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please reblog this if it is okay to anonymously confess something to you.

Confess something to me

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I confess something..

don't tell anyone though 🤫

i was kinda cold to my ex friend when i cut him off. I told him, "i dont care for you as much as you care for me."

Lmao to an ex friend of 8 years I told her "I wish I never met you, you were such a pain in the ass" 🤣

#damnnn #to be fair she must have also done something toxic to make you wish you never met her 😂 #cathy #'you were such a pain in the ass' #HOLY M- #that reminds me of when Dazai told akutagawa 'you were so difficult to train' shhs 😂 #cathy lore #toxic cathy series #if 'toxic cathy series' was a thing i wonder how long it would be? 😅😂 #cathy ❤️

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maybe i should try acting. For summer